#btw chloe is crying because her mom disappointed her again

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It’s been a hot minute since I posted somthn for ml so here ya go!

Click the keep reading for more of my thoughts about this

I’m playing with the idea of having Kagami have a disability of some kind in my AU since I think it might help some other areas of the plot and arcs I have planned out so far. Mainly with Chloe’s arc but also with others. I’ll avoid giving spoilers for now but Chloe has a VERY big shift in her arc that Kagami might have a part of.

Though I still don’t know what KIND of disability Kagami will have and I still don’t know if I will implement it. I am currently researching leg related disabilities but I haven’t found anything that I think will fit (I am open to suggestions). SO for now its an idea that I’m keeping on the back burner as I focus on other areas that I still need to flesh out before I... write the first chapter...

Like Chloe’s redemption arc! That I need to be perfect apparently cause I’m a perfectionist.

But on the other hand, more related to the actual art, I have finally settled on a design that I like for Kagami! When I first did a “redesign” for Kagami it was for my first Chlogami art thing I posted, and at the time I hadn’t fully decided on a design so it was rushed, her hair is now different and more similar to canon so I’m a little hesitant to call it a redesign now. Just.. a stylized version! The colors here are a little different and blue because I shifted it for the background. 

[xxskycrystalxx]

My Thoughts on Lucifer Season 6 [SPOILERS AHEAD]

In order to organize my thoughts better, I decided to break it up into parts (things I loved, disliked, etc.)

Things I Loved:

Deckerstar || We have been on a journey with Lucifer and Chloe since the very beginning. I am so thankful and overjoyed to see how they both developed as characters and as people who love each other. They’ve had so many hurdles/hardships/obstacles in their relationship that it took them until the fifth season to finally get together, after five whole years. To say that I’m proud to see what Deckerstar has become is an understatement, they give me life. There were sooooo many Deckerstar moments in this season that I absolutely loved, from exchanging “I love you’s,” to “partners til’ the end.” (+ flying together and radiating bde as they should) They are literally the epitome of “freaking soulmates,” the amount of love and sacrifices they had for each other just makes me tear up just thinking about them. Also them being actual parents this season was honestly a dream come true. I loved seeing them work and grow together as parents. (Rory calling Luci dad and his face just.. UGH MY HEART)  And their kiss(es) at Lux before Lucifer left, that has got to be my favorite above all. They both have come a long way and they deserved every bit of happiness they got. 

Maze & Eve’s wedding was absolutely beautiful. 

Dan finally getting the closure he needed and going to heaven + giving comfort to Trixie.

Amenadiel || I don’t know if I’ve said this much, but Amenadiel really is one of my most favorite characters on the show besides Lucifer and Chloe. I knew he would've become God sooner or later in the season and I’m glad he did, because we know that that’s his calling, and he’s doing amazingly. I also really liked him being in the LAPD. He got to really understand and see from a different perspective while being an officer there and learning from Officer Harris (which btw I love their camaraderie). I also really loved that Amenadiel and Maze’s friendship was shown more this season. 

The cartoon theme they had in “Yabba Dabba Do Me” was one of my favorite things on the show, and it reminded me just how much I had loved cartoons when I was a kid. And also seeing Lucifer and Chloe being cartoonized was the literal best.

I think we established the fact that Chloe is the best mom ever and she’s powerful af with or without Amenadiel’s rod. 

Lucifer has come a very longgggg way from where we last saw him in season one. The development was hard earned and he deserved it. “Because if the devil can be redeemed, then anyone can.”

“My socks are missing.”

Carol & Ella are C U T E

Linda writing a book about Lucifer and her first draft is essentially about 60% canon and the rest of it is like some really hilarious fanfiction LMAO || Ok jokes aside about the book though, it did help Rory see the other side of the story that she’s missed her whole life, she now knows how much Lucifer loves Chloe, how much he sacrificed her, and how he wouldn’t abandon her unless he had no choice. The flashbacks made me cry so much, it just makes me remember how much Lucifer and Chloe went through together. Linda Martin is the best therapist and the best friend the Devil could ask for. 

Even though the ‘goodbye’s’ Lucifer had to do before he thought he would disappear was sad and made me cry a lot, I really loved how he could finally tell his family, the people he loved, what he felt about them truly. “You’re my favorite brother, brother.” UGH MY HEART; ok but Lucifer and Chloe being in that panic room together and just trying to be with each other just... chef’s kiss. 

Everyone essentially got a happy ending. 

Things I Disliked/Wasn’t a Fan Of:

Time Travel || Look, don’t get me wrong. I love time travel. It’s great, it’s fun and it’s interesting. Was it the right choice to include it in the last season, when there was enough going on as it is with the supernatural? Idk, you tell me.

Lack of Trixie. Can a girl dream? The way I really thought we’d get some important or nice moments with Trixie (besides her and Dan) and Chloe + Lucifer......Mazeve’s wedding didn’t really count since they only really had like a few lines together. It would’ve been nice to see Trixie and Lucifer bond more, even comfort her when she’s feeling sad about her dad again. We didn’t even get her in the beach scene where Lucifer, Chloe, and Rory went as a FAMILY. Like I know she had her scene with Dan and helping him ascend to heaven, but was it really that hard to get her in a scene/moment with all four of them doing something as a family? And we didn’t even get a goodbye between her and Lucifer like what happened? 

What Amenadiel had, Lucifer should’ve gotten as well. Amenadiel as God, he still visited Earth many times, he was there for his son’s birthday’s and Christmas’s. Lucifer? Nope. He was down in hell the whole time. I know he made a promise to Rory to not change anything but I thought it was a torture for him not to be with Chloe like he had always wanted and had a family and spending time with his friends. More like a torture for me in frank. Seeing Chloe give birth without him, raise Rory without him, and even die without him literally broke my heart into a million pieces. He doesn’t even get the chance to see his daughter. Which is why I can understand why so many fans are disappointed with how Lucifer ended, how Deckerstar ended. But I did make my peace with it, sort of... since Lucifer and Chloe can spend an eternity together. 

I liked Rory, but she technically was the reason her parents were separated for so long, idk I’m a bit bitter about that. 

To wrap this up....

Thank you Lucifer, for being a show that will be forever treasured in the fans’ hearts. Thank you for making such an impact on me. I’ve been with this show for many years, I went on an amazing journey with the characters that I love, thank you for giving us Lucifer and Chloe, Linda, Maze, Amenadiel, Ella, Dan, Trixie, and more. The show just means so much to me and I’m honored to have watched the show grow and be renewed, every step of the way. I’m proud to be a Lucifan. And I want to really thank the amazing amazing cast for bringing the show to life. Thank you to Tom Ellis and Lauren German for having the absolute best chemistry ever, for the absolute spectacular and awards deserving acting, and the best real life friendship ever. I will miss you two muffin bffs so much. I love this show, it’s cast, it’s characters, to the bottom of my heart. Goodbye, Lucifer, and thank you for everything. 

[wildpokemon]

ML Season 3 Rewatch: Stormy Weather 2

Production No. 317

Ohhh boy here we go. I feel like this could be the most controversial episode of the season lolll. As someone who’s still relatively new to the fandom, I started watching season 3 a week or so after Stormy 2 aired, and so I had zero disappointment in hoping for a “full” episode and instead getting a flashback episode. For me, it was just another episode to binge along with the rest, and I actually thought it fit in well with the others AND I liked the callbacks to previous episodes.

That being said, I can totally see how/why people would have a bit of a sour reaction to the episode only being like 25% “new” content bc we wait so long and hang on the edge of our seats for new episodes. And the fact that this episode aired SUPER out of order lol. My personal opinion is that is due more to the crazy fluctuating release schedule messing with our expectations rather than Stormy 2 being a poor episode. I actually really really like this episode lol 🤷🏼‍♀️

Also, I know everyone and their mom has probably read this post about the positives and importance of the episode - I know I’ve personally linked it like three times lol. But it’s good, and makes me like the episode more

Anyways, my play by play thoughts and ramblings under the cut as usual

can i say that marinette offering to give the homework to adrien as a favor to alya and nino and NOT because she just wants to have an excuse to go to adrien’s house is already good development? we got NONE of her being flustered just now, it was really just to help them out

aurore is so tallllll.

marinette is such a homie going over to defend aurore against chloe

oooop and there’s chloe already bringing up the theme of change for the episode

as we go into our first flash back sequence, i gotta say that....i like this? i LIKE seeing what moments marinette chooses to remember and to see her reflect on all the times she’s flubbed around adrien and see how she wants to improve that

this episode is one of the first steps toward marinette realizing she needs to see adrien as a friend before she could be with him romantically and thats a GOOD thing

also we NEED the callback to the valentine so that the scene at the end of this ep makes sense

and then change is emphasized again by tikki

man this episode really feels like the writers trying to gently tell us “hey btw shit is gonna change and go down like real soon - so be ready for it” and im here for that tbh

the lUCKY CHARMS aaaaaah i’m crying that shit was so cute idc if ive seen those scenes a million times

“adrien has become a friend i can talk to about anything” !!!!!! HELLO!??!? that is so IMPORTANT!!??!

“can you be in love with someone even after they become your friend” aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh GIRL!! this has been said but this is like the core of marinette’s struggles right here. she sees romance as romance only and not as an extension of friendship, which is why when adrien calls her “just a friend” she sees it as a step backwards omg BUT her even asking tikki this right now shows that shes changing!! that she’s curious if being friends will be a good thing!!!

woah woah woah. i know we saw gabe and tomoe signing that contract in Animaestro, but what IS the agreement, and HOW is it not going well so far??? oooooo so many questions. i completely forgot about this since the episode aired so long ago

nathalie being like “i should never have taken this job” NO SHIT HONEY. your boss is LITERALLY working you to DEATH

emilie is in “an endless sleep” confirmed

“i would do ANYTHING for gabriel agreste, no matter the cost” 🤢🤢🤢

the gabenath is strong in this episode

i still cant believe that the show is really going for “this secretary lady is in love with her boss and helps him literally terrorize the city so that he can bring back his comatose wife.” i mean, i’m not against it narratively. i just cant believe it

god i hate gabriel

awww adrien actually had fun at a photoshoot?? damn you gabriel for not listening to him, I wanted to hear about it!!!

poor poor nooroo :(

okay it shouldnt be funny, but the cut from nooroo trying to tell gabriel not to continue down this path, cutting directly to gabe completely smashing and destroying his office back in The Collector made me laugh. it just read like such a temper tantrum

gabe commanding nooroo not to talk to him a certain way, and it works?? thats some new shit. i dont like it. kwamis and holders are supposed to be partners, extensions of each other, not masters and servants

gabe is like, “am i taking this too far?” *remembers adrien jumping off a building* “hmmm nah it’s fine, i’ll pay ANY price”

like FUCK you dude what the fuck

i like that aurore gets akumatized in the elevator AGAIN lol

everyone still talkin bout change

but adrien saying his dad will never change in that sad voice :/

“does this mean my life will never change?” mY HEART oh my god some one PLEASE come save this poor child. i know we all joke about adopting adrien but holy crap please someone let him out of this house

adrien rightfully blaming all his problems on his dad, thats good that he sees it i guess

ouchhhh the scarf thing STILL hurts

plagg’s cheese metaphor “the inside is all soft!!.....or slightly rotten” omgggg he got it right!! gabriel IS rotten

stormy’s powers in this episode are so cooool

BIG VOLCANO

that little ladynoir moment is so sweet, with her making the pun and then saying a little change is good. chat’s laugh, and “i love that girl” <3

i love that they gave alya and nino a little flashback moment too, theyre so sweet

godammit chloe, ladybug has TOLD you that you aren’t getting your miraculous back!!

chloe really doesnt see the irony of her saying “once a villain always a villain” does she lol

god i LOVE ladybug talking about how much she and Chat have grown together <33

“a pencil? whats she going to do with that?” nice, love it

i actually like the change of seeing the battle from the citizen’s perspective for once

marinette is so freakin cuuute

SHE REMEMBERED TO SIGN IT. hows that for character development lol

hahha i don’t care if its a flashback, adrien jump scaring marinette from behind the locker and her screech is so funny!!

and the fact that THIS is the moment adrien thinks of when he thinks of marinette AH. he’s teasing and playful, and she’s actually barely stuttering in that scene, BUT he’s also confused between her words and her actions and holy crap is such a good representation of how he sees her AND it’s good setup for Puppeteer 2 coming up soon

and the sad music over the lukanette montage?? our boy is in LOVE

“it’s just someone with similar writing, that’s all” ah, oblivious adrien at his peak. i love him though tbh.

Mmm the gifset for this one should be interesting considering there aren’t a ton of new scenes to choose from lol. Anyway I do really like this episode, it’s nice to see how far we’ve come

[maylovexhs]

HER - THE OTHER GUY PART 2

Author’s Note: Author's Note: I FINALLY WROTE IT! I FINALLY WROTE PART 2 OF THE OTHER GUY (THIS BTW). Y'ALL REQUESTED THIS SO MUCH AND I DID IT. ESPECIALLY IN MY MIDTERMS WEEK. OTHER THAN THAT I HAVE SOME NEWS FOR YOU: I'M STARTING A NEW FANFIC. I’M PROBABLY GONNA POST THE PROLOGUE OR A SNEAK PEEK IN A WEEK BUT I’M EXCITED! ANYWAYS, enjoy this one loves. As always, I enjoy feedback and comments. Love M.

Masterlist

The Other Guy (Part 1)

“So, you started modeling at 18, Paige?” My mother asked.

I looked to Paige, who sat next to me. She blushed.

“Yes” Paige answered. “I wanted to model earlier but my mom insisted I needed to finish school first. It was a blessing in disguise”

My mom smiled and nodded her head at Paige. She seemed happy and approved of her. Not that Paige didn’t need to be approved, my mother loves everyone I bring to meet her. I was more anxious bringing Paige to meet her compared to all the other girls I brought home. With all the other girls, I knew I felt something for them. With Paige, I didn’t feel much to her at first. Mostly because I felt something for another girl, Y/N.

Y/N. I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss her. I did. I missed her ever since the second I left her birthday party. I don’t remember much from her birthday apart from crying on the way home and booking a flight to LA the morning after. That was a little over a month ago. That was the last time I ever spoke to or saw Y/N. I knew I couldn’t face her again after her rejecting me. It would be pure humiliation and I didn’t want to put myself through that again. LA was my solution. So was Paige. Paige came to LA initially for work a week after I did. She stayed after for me. I asked her out the moment she told me she was in town, desperate to get rid of my feelings for Y/N. One date turned into another and another. And now we sat here in my mother’s home. I was happy with Paige. She soothed and eased most of my feelings I had for Y/N away. Most.

“Where is your mum from?” My mother asked Paige.

“Kansas” Paige said. “From a small town called-“

“Mum!” We heard Gemma’s voice.

Gemma walked into the living room. She noticed Paige. She looked to me.

“Oh, you didn’t mention you bringing a guest to mum this morning” Gemma said to me, referring to our phone call this morning.

“He wanted to keep it a surprise” My mother told her. “A lovely one. Her name is Paige”

My mom looked to Paige.

“It’s been forever since he brought a girl home to meet me” My mom told her. “Been begging him to”

Paige blushed. Gemma looked at her.

“Hello Paige” Gemma greeted her. “Nice to see another one of my brother’s victims”

Paige smiled.

“Nice to meet you” Paige said.

Gemma looked to me.

“You should have told me at least” She said. “I brought Y/N with me”

“Y/N?” My mother and I asked at the same time.

My mother grew immediately cheerful.

“Where is she?” She asked.

“Outside” Gemma said. “She’s on the phone”

I looked to Paige, who seemed concerned and worried.

“Who’s Y/N?” Paige asked me.

I gave her a fake smile.

“Just a friend” I lied, telling her. “My sister’s best friend”

Paige nodded, with her concern disappearing. I wish I could say that about myself. I was a mess, luckily I hid it well. Still, I was a mess. I was in a mess. I was about to see the girl that I confessed my love to on her own birthday party and then left stranded for a month without speaking to her. Everything could go wrong right now.

“Gem,”

My eyes shot to the hallway at the sound of Y/N’s voice. Just her voice threw me into a faze. How was I going to pretend everything was fine between us if she had an effect on me still.

“What?” Gemma asked her.

“Chloe wants to know if-“ Y/N walked into the living room, immediately stopping speaking when her eyes landed on me.

My eyes grew wide at the sight at her. I felt at a loss of breath. She looked better than ever. She didn’t change much in her physical appearance despite wearing a new shade of lipstick but she looked better. Better than the last time I saw her. I couldn’t help but smile seeing her. I wanted to get up and hug her without letting her go but I couldn’t. Not when I had Paige holding my hand.

“H” Y/N said, blushing and smiling. “You’re . . .”

“Back?” I asked her, trying to finish her sentence.

She nodded at me.

“Yeah”

She looked to Paige, clearly noticing Paige and I were holding hands. She gave a fake smile to her, a one I have been accustomed to seeing whenever we had to double date with Gemma and Michael.

“You must be Paige” Y/N said to her. “Harry told me so much about you”

“He has?” Paige asked her, being curious.

“You know her too?” My mother asked Y/N. “Am I the last one to know?”

“No” I answered her, before Y/N could say anything. “I didn’t tell Gemma either”

Gemma rolled her eyes at me.

“What did Chloe want Y/N?” Gemma asked her.

Y/N turned to Gemma.

“Oh, she wanted to know if we can go later” Y/N said. “She has to do something with her boyfriend first”

Gemma crosses her arms. She walked over to my mother, deciding to sit down on the couch with her.

“Well, then. Guess we’ll have to stay here until she’s done” Gemma said.

I looked to Y/N who was already looking at me. She looked to Gemma.

“Umm, I think it’s better if I meet you guys up later” Y/N said. “I have some things to take care of anyways”

“Oh, stay Y/N!” My mother begged her. “I haven’t seen you in a while, darling”

Y/N, who never had said no to my mother before, could not disappoint her. Y/N bit her lip, nodding.

“Okay” Y/N said.

Y/N walked over and sat next to my mother. My mother turned to her.

“Gem said you were too busy with a boy to visit me” My mother said to Y/N. “She didn’t give me his name though”

“Mum,” Gemma said, trying to get my mother to switch the conversation.

Y/N blushed.

“Actually, I’m not with him anymore” Y/N said. “We broke up”

“You broke up with Robert?” I asked her, out of impulse.

Everyone looked to me.

“You know?” Gemma asked me.

I looked to her.

I was about to answer but Y/N cut me off.

“I told him at my party” Y/N said. “He saw me run out after breaking it off with him”

Gemma sat back, believing in Y/N’s story. Y/N lied to Gemma. She didn’t tell Gemma what happened between us. She didn’t tell Gemma that I liked her.

Y/N looked to Paige. She looked down at her hand. I watched Y/N become dazed as she noticed Paige was wearing my ring.

“He gave you his ring?” Y/N asked Paige. “When?”

Paige looked at me. She looked back to Y/N, blushing.

“Yeah” Paige answered. “Two weeks ago he did”

“Oh, how?” My mother asked Paige. “Harry told me nothing about that”

“Well, Harry took me out to dinner in LA and right in the middle of it, Harry took off his ring” Paige said.

I looked at Y/N, noticing her eyes begin to fill with tears. Her cheeks became a bit red. She looked down, trying to get a hold on herself. I looked to Gemma and my mother seeing if they noticed too. Luckily, their focus was on Paige.

“And he leaned over the table to me” Paige continued to speak. “And he said-“

“Excuse me,” Y/N said, abruptly getting up from the couch.

She quickly walked out of the living room. The loud closing of a door was heard. Gemma was about to get up but I stopped her before she could.

“I’ll check on-“

“I’ll see” I said, cutting off Gemma as I stood up.

Paige and Gemma looked at me with surprise and suspicion.

“I’ll be right back” I told them before walking out the living room.

I walked to the backyard door. I knew Y/N wasn’t the person who would leave on a bad mark. Especially, when those people were her best friend and her second mother. I opened the door, walking onto the backyard patio. Y/N’s back faced me as she looked into the distance.

“Y/N” I said her name.

Y/N turned around to me. Her eyes were red with tears running down her cheeks. She sniffled.

“Don’t” She told me. “Don’t, H”

“Don’t what?” I asked her. “I came out here to ask if you are alright”

Y/N threw her hands up in the air.

“What does it look like?” She said. “I’m crying over you! Of course, I’m not fucking alright!”

I took a step closer towards her. I crossed my arms, being perplexed with what she just said.

“Crying over me?” I asked her. “Why are you crying over me?”

Y/N let out a shaky breath.

“You don’t get it?” She asked me. “You don’t remember anything I said from that night?”

“I remember the part where you said you were in love with another man” I told her. “I remember leaving and crying because I was just a friend to you”

Y/N shook her head at me.

“Only that?” Y/N asked. “You only remember that? Nothing else?”

“Yes” I told her. “And I’ve been spending time with Paige trying to forget that only”

Y/N sniffled, crossing her arms.

“Are you happy with her?” Y/N asked me. “Are you happy with Paige?”

I uncrossed my arms.

“Yeah” I answered her.

“Do you love her?” Y/N asked.

Did I love Paige? I had no idea. I loved that Paige made me happy and helped me through my heartbreak. I loved that my mother seemed to like her. I loved that my friends loved her. I loved how easy going and accepting she was of me. I didn’t know if I loved her yet but I knew she loved me. That I was sure of.

“Do you love Paige?” Y/N asked. “Do you?”

I nodded my head.

“Yes” I said in a low voice.

Y/N smiled at me, with her eyes watering up again.

“Just forget it, H” Y/N said. “Forget everything”

Y/N wiped the tears from her cheeks. I watched as she walked past me to the door. Before she opened the door, I stopped her.

“Do you still love him?” I asked her.

Y/N turned around to me.

“Why do you care?” Y/N asked me. “You’re in love with someone else”

“I want to know” I said. “Do you still do?”

Y/N looked down, biting her lip. She refused to answer me.

“Y/N-“

“It’s you” She said, looking up to me. “It’s you”

“What?” I asked her.

“It’s you” Y/N said with her tears streaming down her face again. “You’re the other guy and Paige is the girl the guy is dating. I followed you outside that night because I wanted to tell you that”

I took a step back in shock. I remained silent trying to piece everything Y/N said together. I couldn’t believe it. I was the guy. How was I the guy?

“It’s too late now. You’re happy with Paige.” Y/N said. “Forget everything I said. Just be happy with her. You deserve to be”

Y/N turned around and opened the door. She walked into the house, leaving me in the backyard alone. I wanted to chase after her but I couldn’t. The only option I had was staying outside until everything cooled down. I didn’t want to make Gemma, Paige and my mother become more suspicious.

I sat down on the patio swing. Gemma came out a moment later.

“What did you say to Y/N?” Gemma asked me. “She left the house without telling me anything”

“She did?” I asked her.

“Yes, H” Gemma said. “I just told you. What happened?”

“You don’t want to know” I said to her.

Gemma squinted her eyes at me.

“What aren’t you telling me?” She asked. “Is there something going on between you two?”

I looked down, slowly nodding.

“For fuck’s sake” Gemma said.

Gemma sat beside me on the swing.

“Should have expected it” Gemma said. “What happened?”

I looked to Gemma.

“I love her” I told Gemma. “I loved her ever since I met her and when she got with Robert-“

“You got with Paige?” Gem asked, trying to complete my sentence.

I nodded.

“You’re still with Paige but you love Y/N?” Gemma said. “Do you know how much of a dickhead you sound like right now?”

I bit down on my lip, being ready for Gemma to scream at me.

“I know” I said. “I tried to get over her but I couldn’t. I tried moving on with Paige, I really did. I-“

“You need to tell Paige” Gem said. “You need to tell Paige and break up with her. Spare her feelings before it’s too late”

“I know, Gem” I said. “It’s just not the right time. She just met you and mum and I don’t want her to think-“

“It’s always not the right time when you have to tell someone the truth” Gemma said. “But she deserves the truth. Better now than later. Besides, you have to tell Y/N you love her later anyways”

I turned to Gemma.

“You want me to be with her?” I asked Gemma. “I thought you would want me to stay away from her?”

Gemma let out a sigh.

“I knew she was only using Robert to get over someone” Gem said. “Never thought it would be you but I saw the way her eyes lit up whenever I brought up your name. I could tell she liked you in more ways than one”

I raised my eyes at her.

“You never told me this” I said to her.

“I didn’t have the right to” Gemma said. “Y/N did”

Gemma stood up from the swing.

“Tell Paige” Gemma said. “I’ll get mum out of the house but you need to tell her”

“I will” I said to Gemma.

Gemma walked over to the door.

“Gem” I called on her before she opened the door.

“What idiot?” Gemma asked.

I smiled.

“Thanks” I said to her.

“You’re welcome” She said. “Just don’t fall in love with Chloe or I will kill you”

I nodded my head at her. Gemma opened the door and walked in the house. My hands ran through my hair, brushing it up.

I let out a breath.

I was ready to break a girl’s heart. One last time.

I parked the car next to Paige’s hotel.

I said nothing to Paige on the car ride to her hotel. She tried to ask me questions about why Y/N stormed out of the house but I switched topics in attempt of trying not to answer. I knew I had to tell Paige what happened and break up with her now but I didn’t know how to say it. I didn’t want to hurt Paige when she was helping me get over the hurt Y/N caused me.  

“You’re not coming in with me?” Paige asked me about going to her hotel room.

I shook my head.

“Not tonight” I said. “I have some things to take care of first”

Paige nodded at me. She turned towards her window. I waited for her to open her car door but she didn’t. Instead, she turned back to me.

“You love her, don’t you?” Paige asked me.

I looked into Paige’s eyes, seeing disappointment fill her eyes. I opened my lips to say yes but I couldn’t speak. Not when she was looking at me like that.

“You do” Paige said. “You love her. I knew it, I knew it!”

“It’s not what you think” I told her.

“Yes, it is!” Paige shouted at me. “There were signs. So many signs. You never answer my texts when you’re with her but you answer her when we went out. You never were that interested in me when we began to date. Did you even want to be with me? Did you like me at all?”

“Of course, I did” I said to her. “I liked you the second I met you but-“

“You don’t love me” Paige finished my sentence. “I was only some girl who you used to make yourself feel better”

“No” I said. “Y/N-“

Paige crossed her arms at me. I had to be careful with what I said next.

“I loved Y/N but then she got a boyfriend and I needed to move on” I told her. “And then I met you and I felt like there was a chance I could find love again”

“But you couldn’t” Paige said. “Because you still loved her”

I nodded my head.

Paige uncrossed her arms, shaking her head.

“Listen, I’m not a dumb blonde” Paige said. “I saw the way you both looked at each other when we were at your mother”

Paige took my ring off her finger.

“It would be wrong if we both stayed together when you clearly don’t love me as much as I love you” Paige said. “Here”

Paige held my ring in her fingers. She handed it over to me.

“Give it to someone you actually love” Paige said. “Her”

“Thanks Paige” I said to her. “For everything”

Paige nodded her at me. She towards the car door and opened it. She exited the car and closed the door behind her. I watched her walk away into her hotel. I smiled to myself.

That went better than I thought.

I pressed on the doorbell. I heard a ring echo in Y/N’s house through the open windows. I waited a moment for the door to open. It didn’t. I decided to press on the doorbell again. I heard the doorbell ring through the windows again. This time the door opened, revealing Y/N standing on the other side. She crossed her arms at the sight of me.

“H,” Y/N said. “What are you doing here? Isn’t Paige waiting for you or something?”

I shook my head at her.

“Actually, the opposite” I said. “I broke up with her”

Y/N’s lips parted to say something, but stunned enough to speak. She uncrossed her arms.

“What?” Y/N asked. “Why? She made you happy. You love her! Paige-“

“I love you more than Paige” I told Y/N. “Always have. I tried getting over you but I couldn’t. When I saw you earlier, I realized that”

Y/N looked down, tugging her hair behind her ear. She looked back up to me.

“This isn’t right though” Y/N said. “I’m Gemma’s best friend. She would kill me and-“

“Gemma knows” I said, cutting her off.

“She does?” Y/N asked.

“I told her” I answered. “She asked me when you left the house”

“Oh,” Y/N said. “That is why she’s not responding to my calls. But Paige . . .Paige loves you more. Probably more than I do”

“Paige didn’t cry over this” I said, holding my ring up for Y/N to see.

“Paige gave you the ring back” Y/N said.

“She said to give to someone I actually love” I said.

I stepped forward, standing closer to Y/N. She stood still, not certain of what to do. I took her right hand in mine. I looked into Y/N’s eyes.

“Be mine please?” I asked her. “Am I really that not good enough for you?”

Y/N shook her head, smiling.

“No” Y/N said.

“Then what?” I asked. “What’s stopping you? Is it because of Gemma? My fans? Is it-“

I stopped speaking when Y/N’s lips crashed onto mine. I dropped my ring and let it fall to the floor as I cupped her cheeks. I turned my head to the side, craving more of her. I gently pushed her against the hallway’s wall, keeping her to stay in place. Y/N gently tugged on my the end strands of my hair as my hands roamed her body. I took her hands in mine and pinned them above her head. We withdrew our lips from each other for air. We both looked into each other’s eyes as we tried to catch our breath.

“Nothing” Y/N said. “Nothing is stopping me”