#bruno is autistic okay LOOK AT HIM

[rambling-for-self-improvement]

NO BUT REALLY CAN WE TALK ABOUT BRUNO?!

I know this movie is old and stuff at this point but this is bothering me today so I HAVE SOME THOUGHTS ON "WE DON'T TALK ABOUT BRUNO".

So the song establishes later that everyone is describing Bruno from their own biased perspectives (except maybe Dolores) with the most obvious case: Camillo.

Seven foot frame? Maybe to like a 5 year old sure, he's pretty tall and lanky, and that's the only perspective he has. He literally hasn't seen him in years. Rats along his back? Yeah sure my boy loves his rat buddies but like Camillo my guy where are you getting this? Have you spotted him? Did Bruno always like rats? Unclear.

SO NOW I CAN GET INTO THE REAL ISSUE OF HIS FUCKING SISTER.

Pepa, your wedding was OVER A DECADE AGO. YOU ARE HOLDING A HELL OF A GRUDGE.

"Bruno walks in with a mischievous grin"? That awkward autistic son of a bitch probably was awkwardly smiling and trying to make small talk because his sister was freaking out about the wedding.

"Bruno says it looks like rain, in doing so he floods my brain"? I honestly think he was trying to make a (badly presented) joke to help her calm down. Pepa, girl, you control the weather. Any predictions about weather with you do not apply. What happened was he was probably trying to point out she was stressed with a little joke of "looks like rain", as in "Pepa you look stressed and you control the weather so like it rains when you're stressed haha oh god I'm bad at this" and she just RAN with it.

That girl thought her brother ruined her wedding with a weather prediction when

a) Girl controls the weather b) It is NOT JUST ABOUT YOU (poor Felix, man keeps interjecting with shit like "it was our wedding day" and "still a joyous day but anyway" when she is being an absolute bridezilla about it three kids later). c) There is no way you don't realize your brother is an autistic mess by this point. Like why would you not have talked to him about this. Why are you holding a grudge over a decade after you got married. Your brother is MISSING and you actively want to erase his memory because he made you annoyed?

In conclusion: Fuck Pepa, Justice for Bruno

[maribel-bat]

Aight

1, 2, 4, 5, 6, 8, 9, 10, 12, 14, 15, 16, 18, 20, 23, 24, 25 for bruno

...And ichise, since u so kindly mentioned him when I went to send this :3 (sans 8 for. Obvious reasons)

once more i put this under a readmore!!

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

Bruno: He's just like soft! He's soft and sweet and very smart and it's just. It's so good.

Ichise: I like how determined he is. I think that its very admirable even if its pretty self destructive.

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

Bruno: Okay there's so many favorite things about him but I'll pick a silly one and say the fact that he owns the teeny shitty yellow bike. Why did he do that.

Ichise: That he spends like 3 eps just eating shit repeatedly.

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

Bruno: ...Okay listen I had like four other things in my brain but i just thought "Sailor Scout Bruno" so uh. Sailor Moon because that was too funny not to say. My perfect magical girl boy!

Ichise: Pokemon

5. What’s the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

Bruno: Reflections by We Are In The Crowd

Ichise: Oleander by Mother Mother

6. What’s something you have in common with this character?

Both of them is that they're really autistic just like me. Bruno specifically is that he's super interested in technical aspects of things and I also really like machinery and stuff.

8. What’s something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

Bruno: They act like he stole Yusei from the rest of the cast.

(hilarious that Ichise doesn't apply because there's no real fandom)

9. Could you be roommates with this character?

Bruno: YEAH

Ichise: he's so sad and pathetic I'd feel bad if I turned him down but idk if we would vibe.

10. Could you be best friends with this character?

Bruno: Yeah absolutely.

Ichise: Not really? But like nothing against him or anything.

12. What’s a headcanon you have for this character?

Bruno: I like to think he's really warm because he's an android like he runs super hot. Space heater.

Ichise: My personal headcanon is that I don't think he's ever really actively participated in a conversation before the beginning of the series he's just kinda there.

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

Bruno: I really want to see him wear skater girl (specifically skater girl, not boy) style outfits idk what else to call it. The jacket stays though.

Ichise: I think he'd look cool with some biker aesthetic type shit.

15. What’s your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn’t matter if it’s canon or not.)

Bruno: Toolshipping! Bruno/Yusei is great.

Ichise: him and Haruhiku Toyama

16. What’s your least favorite ship for this character?

Bruno: I've seen him and Primo before and I really can't see it at all

Ichise: There's...literally nothing else there's not really a fandom to have other ships in.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

Bruno: Okay listen at this point my Bruno and Yusei agenda is really clear.

Ichise: Him and Onishi is really really good, I think his devotion to Onishi is amazing.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn’t matter?

Bruno: as not to put Yusei on here again (my first point) I think he'd vibe with post Crash Town Kalin.

Ichise: Toyama again, but also I think him and Doc are pretty good.

23. Favorite picture of this character?

(Don't really have a good pic of Ichise so have multiple Brunos)

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

Bruno: Harley. For the pathetic factor.

Ichise: I said it in the other post but Yusei again.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

Bruno: I didn't really get why like people liked him? Now tho like straight up he's my boy my discord status is literally "#1 Bruno Borrelli Appreciator" and has been for a while

Ichise: I thought he was kinda like. Not really much of a character honestly. Now I genuinely love his pathetic autistic ass (completely positive, he's wonderful)

[fireopals]

Autistic Bruno headcanons/fic ideas go!

-gvr 💚

I dunno how fresh these are, but here I go:

Rubbing fabrics is one of his most common stims, but there are some others not seen in the movie. I don't remember who it was, but months ago someone said that they wanted to HC him flapping but felt bad because the way the fandom was... it's in the ol book of HC's now. you deserve flappy Bruno homie.

Sand is very texture™.

When he was a kid, Bruno spent long periods of time looking at the sand in hourglasses fall.

Being the gifted kid of the family allowed a lot of his quirks to get overlooked for a while. By the time he hit burnout, he was seen as a burden. this could probably be a general HC, but it was very much a double edged sword for him.

He advocated for Dolores at loud parties, and postcanon, the two will go to her room to enjoy a quiet activity.

His "Special rat" he mentions in OBB is his support rat that acts as not only a companion, but a comfort. He pets it and also trained it to lick his face and calm him down.

I've mentioned the HC of involuntary visions sometimes vetting tied to meltdowns. The swirlimg sand has unintentionally hurt people before, and out of context, a random villager probably would see it as scary.

This one is common I think, but Mirabel making Bruno textured a scarf,plush, etc? yes, she does that.

She is also one of the first people that really sat and listened to him to that extent. Second most would be Julieta, who was in general the nurturing big sister, though she took care of everyone. That line about holding him in the book until it relaxed and being ok with him not talkong until he felt comfortable is canon in my heart. She knew a lot what to do because of how gentle she is with Antonio and when it comes to emotional care, post canon especially she goes out of her way to make sure everyone, including him is okay.

Luisa gives some awesome pressure hugs, though she has to watch her strength, of course. Bruno can just give her a look and she knows.

If you let him talk about his rats or shows, he will be your best friend. It's not something that everyone necessarily understood, but post canon everyone, especially his family enjoy his shows and his enthusiasm. Something he loves just as much though is the actual process of making things. He can get into a full on trance making his art and sets.

Bruno being afraid of fireworks for the angst. :( It's another reason for him to get Dolores in her soundproof room though.

Julieta knows how his body reacts when he is happy, and is the most thrilled to see that as he is getting better emotionally.

The first time that they all ate together as a family again was chaotic and it was a learning experience. It took some tweaking and sometimes he will eat alone, but generally family meals are good now. :)

The silver lining to his gift is being able to have predictability in his life. He still isn't fond of when the future sneaks up on him or things don't go to plan like in the game where he freaks out and mirabel has to calm him down

He hides in tight corners and small spaces, and his new room has a little hiding spot. The family knows about it and the other spaces he has in the house but respect that

He hits himself and hair pulls when he's in a bad space mentally.

As he got older, a lot of his quirks were misumderstood by the villager and even his mother as him being moody or Noncompliant. Post-canon, she starts to listen to him more and gets to have a caring motherly role more often. She tries to check up on him and make sure that his limits aren't being puahed and that she isn't subconvipusly trying to make him someone else.

He asked Julieta to "fix" him at least once when he was older and frustrated with how sour everything had gone. He's a lot happier with himself, though.

These probably aren't the freshest ideas, but I might add more to the future. Anon, I would love to hear any of your ideas if you have them, as well as other people. Feel free to add in reblogs, comments, asks, or whatever you can think of

[estravenai]

I wanna talk about Bruno.

So, does anybody else HC him as aro/ace? I mean, he’s 50 at the time of the movie, so he was 40 when he “left” and he was single still. It doesn’t necessarily mean he’s aro/ace, but I don’t see why he couldn’t be.

Also, I know most people see him as having OCD and I totally see that too, but I see it a little differently. I don’t think he always had those compulsions. I think they are a result of the trauma of being blamed for his visions and driven away from his family. I see him as autistic (more on that in a sec) and I see those behaviors as a result of trauma mixed with the routine/rules part of autism.

I was diagnosed with OCD before we figured out it was autism because a lot of the routines and rules I follow looked a lot like OCD compulsions. Turns out it wasn’t OCD at all--just autism. So that’s probably what I see in Bruno, though I totally understand seeing OCD and think that’s definitely a valid HC too.

I do really think he’s autistic though. He is clearly not super great at social things. I mean, when Mirabel finds him and they fall into that pit, they get out and he just says “bye” and tries to leave. Um... yeah. That’s something I would definitely do. I suck at knowing how to leave social situations or close conversations and tend to just say “okay bye” really abruptly. 

Also, literally the first thing he says to Mirabel (and his first line in the entire movie) is “you’re really sweaty”. Lol!

That could also be a reason he’s still single at 40, even if he isn’t aro/ace. Not that all autistic people are single, but autism does make it difficult to form relationships for a lot of people. 

Also, he just blurts out what he sees without realizing how it may affect others (and himself). Like when he tells Pepa that it looks like rain (not even a prophesy, he just observed something and didn’t realize he shouldn’t bring it up). Also hard relate. 

Also, he lives alone in a wall for 10 years. Most neurotypical people would go crazy being alone that long and couldn’t do it. 

Anyway, I really love Bruno so much. I’ve watched this movie 4 times in the last two days. Send help!

[giuliamarcovaldo]

You’re Okay, Luca

i wanted to read autistic!luca fics but i couldn’t find any. so what did i do? i wrote my own. this is my first time posting fanfic here! so enjoy this little autistic!luca story (with some luberto fluff and angst)

TW: mentions of violent stimming + meltdown

“I was about to have a meltdown and there was nothing I could do to stop it.”

Summary: Luca gets over stimulated at a fancy dinner party, and Alberto witnesses Luca having a meltdown for the first time.

I want to say they’re 16-17 in this??

100% sfw because they are children

word count: 1580

also please don’t kill me if the Italian words are wrong i used google translate sksjsjaksk

(also note: i am autistic)

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Alberto knew I was autistic. I told him about a year ago, when we first became a thing.

“This doesn’t change anything, Luca. There’s nothing in this world that could make me stop loving you.” His words rang through my head as I felt the onset of a meltdown.

Giulia had invited Alberto and me to a gathering with some of her extended family in Genoa. They were all very nice, and Alberto even made friends with some of them (which was no surprise). That wasn’t the cause of my meltdown. It was the atmosphere. It was a bright, loud fancy dining hall, nearly at full capacity. I was wearing a suit and tie that Giulia’s cousin had let me borrow. The collar was scratching my skin in the worst possible way but I didn’t want to be rude so I sucked it up. That was my first mistake. Between the bright lights, loud conversations and music, jam-packed room, a plethora of smells from foods that I had never heard of, and the suit collar, I could feel it coming.

It was sensory overload at first. I tried stimming subtly. I wasn’t out as autistic to everyone yet and the thought of them judging me for stimming made my anxiety worse. But I had to do something. Squeezing my hands into fists under the table. Chewing the inside of my cheek. Running my fingers through my hair repeatedly. It wasn’t enough, but somehow too much at the same time.

I was getting more and more fidgety. It was becoming harder to mask. Would it be rude to just get up and leave without saying anything? Probably. I couldn’t move anyway. I was frozen in my seat. My facial expressions were almost completely gone at this point, along with my ability to speak. Alberto noticed that something was wrong.

“Luca, hey, are you alright?” I couldn’t get the words “no, I feel like I’m about to explode into a violently stimming disaster if I don’t get out of here right now but I can’t move and I feel helpless” out of my mouth so I just nodded and gave him a small, unconvincing smile. I didn’t want to burden Alberto while he was having such a good time. I knew it was ridiculous to think that Alberto would mind helping me calm down, but my brain wouldn’t quit telling me otherwise.

Silenzio, Bruno. Silenzio, Bruno. Silenzio, Bruno. It wasn’t working.

Alberto didn’t look convinced. He knew me too well. Ever since I told him I was autistic he tried his best to make sure I was as comfortable as possible in every situation. I loved him for that but I hated myself for it. It’s like I always need to be babysat and I hate it. I know that he loves me so why do I feel so guilty?

My intrusive thoughts running through my mind was the final straw. It was all too much. Alberto’s face looked more concerned as each moment passed. He was about to witness me having a meltdown for the first time since we met. I didn’t know if I was ready for that type of vulnerability but I didn’t really have a choice. I was about to have a meltdown and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

“Luca, we’re going to go some place quiet, okay?”

I shook my head no. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t speak. It had gone from sensory overload, to shutdown, to a full-blown meltdown. I couldn’t hold back my stims anymore. I started hitting my head with my fists and pulling at my hair. Tears rolled down my face uncontrollably, exposing my green-blue scales.

Perfecto.

I didn’t know which was worse: violently and uncontrollably stimming in front of everyone, or unintentionally outing myself as a sea monster. They might have been tied. Most of the guests were too into their conversations to notice the autistic sea monster having a meltdown next to them but the few who did notice started to pass glances and whisper amongst themselves.

“Luca, Luca, you’re okay. I know you don’t like anyone touching you when you’re in sensory overload but I’m going to help you get out of here, okay?”

Alberto helped me get up from the table and escorted me out of the dining room, using his suit jacket to cover my face so no one would see my scales, but being careful to not let it touch my face. We made our way to a long hallway off of the lobby. Alberto sat me down on the ground and flipped the hallway light switch off. Light from the lobby trailed into the hallway but didn’t reach us at the end.

I was out of the environment but still at the height of my meltdown. Tears were still coming from my eyes. I continued to tug at my hair while I rocked back and forth. I couldn’t vocalize anything except for non verbal sounds. I felt so helpless, so defeated, so ashamed.

Alberto tried to redirect my violent stims, to no avail. I’m sure he felt helpless too. I wanted to stop but I couldn’t. And I felt bad that Alberto couldn’t help that.

Alberto sat a few feet away from me, probably resisting the urge to pull me into a hug.

“I’ll just sit with you, okay? You’re okay. You’re okay. You’re okay.” Alberto reassured me that he wasn’t leaving. My perception of time isn’t that great but it felt like at least 45 minutes before I started to come down. Still there, like he said he would be, Alberto let out a deep shaky breath. I hadn’t looked at him the entire time because I was too embarrassed that he had to see all of that. When I finally did glance up at him, I notice two trails of purple scales down his cheeks. Knowing he had cried hurt me even more.

“Are you feeling better?” I was still nonverbal and rocking back and forth but my violent stims had passed. I opened my left hand flat and tapped it with my right index finger.

“Oh! Right,” Alberto pulled a pen and pad from my jacket, which he had helped me remove from my body earlier in my meltdown. He slid them across the floor and anxiously waited for me to write my response.

“I’m sorry you had to see me like that.”

Alberto’s face changed as he read what I had written. His green eyes looked sadder when they met my gaze. I could feel my tears starting to well up again.

“No, no, Luca, mio amore, please don’t feel bad. I should have checked on you earlier than I did. I got a little lost with everything going on in there. I’m sorry that I didn’t check up on you sooner...” Alberto was very protective of me. I know that the thought of me suffering while he didn’t know was absolutely crushing him. But it wasn’t his fault. It wasn’t mine. It wasn’t anybody’s. I was starting to think rationally again. I shouldn’t feel sorry for having meltdowns, for being autistic, for being myself. But I should have spoken up when I started to feel uncomfortable. That’s something I need to work on, and I know I can do it as long as Alberto is with me. And he always will be.

“Is it alright if I touch you?” I know Alberto was dying to physically comfort me. It was his love language. I nodded my head yes and gave him a warm smile. He crawled over to me and I opened my arms to embrace him. I listened to his steadying heartbeat while he whispered affirmations to me and gently rubbed my back. Warm tears started to fall down my face.

God, I love this boy so much.

“Bontà, there you two are! I’ve been looking everywhere! What happ-“ Giulia’s voice got closer as she made her way down the hallway.

“Oh no, Luca... mi dispiace... I didn’t know you were- when did- where-“ She crouches down next to the two of us. Giulia, also being autistic, could tell I was in post-meltdown. She slaps her palm to her forehead and curses herself.

“Of course! I should have been more aware about- why didn’t I- are you okay?”

“Giulia,” Alberto places his hand on her shoulder. “he’s alright. Nothing that happened is your fault. Or... mine for that matter. We’re alright.”

“Can I get you guys something? A glass of water?”

I nod my head yes.

“Water sounds good, grazie, little sis.” Alberto and Giulia exchange smiles, then she leaves down the hallway, her red curls bouncing behind her.

“Luca,” Alberto cups my cheek in his hand, wiping away my tears with his thumb.

“I love you, okay? I love you so, so much. Nothing is going to change that. Please, don’t ever feel like an inconvenience. It hurts to see you like that, and I know it hurts to experience it. Please, tell me next time, Okay?”

I didn’t even need to tell him that I felt like an inconvenience. He just knew. Like I said, he knows me too well. I nod my head, and pull him back into an embrace. Alberto combs his fingers through my hair, getting rid of the tangles that I made in it earlier.

I feel lighter. I feel safe to be myself. I feel more loved than ever.

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that’s it! my first fic! a lot of this is me projecting onto luca (sksakdjsjjsk) but i had a lot of fun writing it! feel free to leave comments and/or constructive criticism. likes and reblogs appreciated!! :)

[spencers-renaissance]

Fic Rec Bingo!!

So instead of Fic Rec Thursday, I thought I'd do something a little different this week and recommend 25 fics based on this bingo card (although it turned into 26, oops). I kept most of these as CM because that's my blog's focus, but due to the nature of the prompts, there are 5 Marvel (Irondad) ones & 1 Sherlock towards the end!

from @lightveils on twitter, but found posted on tumblr by @cywscross <3

1. A fic with a premise that shouldn't work but does

I never would've thought I'd enjoy a fic with Spencer as a little rebellious shit because it seems so ooc, but I loved this one!

las vegas kid by trashcanbarbie - 1.9k, 1ch, Gen/Aaron Hotchner & Spencer Reid, Gambling, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Young Spencer Reid, Teenage Rebellion, Protective Aaron hotchner, Pre-Canon, Father-Son Relationship, Teenage Spencer Reid

JJ raises her eyebrows, “so, you're trying to say counting cards isn't cheating?” “No,” he grins, boyish and charming, “it is.”

2. A fic you've reread several times

Discipline Changes by fullofcrazyness - 1.2k, 1ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Hurt/Comfort, Past Child Abuse, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Comforting Hotch

Jack stopped and looked at his dad, finally seeing that his dad wasn’t actually angry. Concerned and relieved, but not angry. He was about to say something when he saw someone in the doorway, white as a sheet. “Papa?”

3. A comfort fic

i'm always tired, but never of you by @iamrenstark - 2.2k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Hurt Spencer Reid, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sad Derek, Established Relationship, Hurt/Comfort, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Derek Morgan Needs a Hug, Men Crying, Gunshot Wounds, Blood and Injury

When Spencer figured it out, he was stepping out of the elevator on the bottom floor of Quantico, and he went to tell Derek he loved him like he did every day, but he froze up, because he was afraid he wouldn't hear it back. (Or, Spencer thinks his boyfriend is falling out of love with him.)

4. A cathartic fic

Every Little Transgression by @58thacademic - 1.6k, 1ch, Gen, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sad Spencer Reid, Protective David Ross, Protective Derek Morgan, Mentioned Suicide Attempt, Spencer's Backstory, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-Con, Spencer Reid Needs a Hug, Episode: s03e16 Elephant's Memory

Ok so. Elephants memory was really good because we got Reid backstory. But I'm still annoyed that he didn't defend himself against Hotch. So this was born.

5. A fic you'd print and put on your bookshelf

One Call Away by GhostInTheBAU - 204k, 32ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Dubious Consent, Attempted Rape/Non-Con, Domestic Violence, Rape Recovery, Referenced Past Drug Use, PTSD, Hurt Spencer Reid, Protective Aaron Hotchner, Mutual Pining, Slow Burn, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Flashbacks, Healing, Nightmares, Suicidal Thoughts, Hurt/Comfort, Whump, Eventual Smut

When Reid's boyfriend attacks him, leaving him broken and bleeding, he calls the first person he thinks of for help. He calls the only person he really wants to see. He calls Hotch.

6. A fic you associate with a song

I associate this fic with The First Thing You See by Bruno Major. I think if you listen to the song, you'll easily see why <3

You Make Waking Up Worth It by @guccifloralsuits - 2.1k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Fluff, Minor Angst, Established Relationship, Morning Routines, Hurt/Comfort, Good Things Happen Bingo

“Morning sweetheart,” Derek says, pausing briefly to ruffle his hand gently through Spencer’s hair. The genius nuzzles into the touch but doesn’t reply. It’s too early for conversation, Morgan knows. Pretty boy may get up earlier than he does, but it takes the younger a lot longer to really wake up.

7. A fic that inspires you

This fic could have been in so many categories because I adore it, but I wouldn't have started writing Rain is a Chance to be Touched without this fic so it definitely belongs here.

Forgive Me For All I Could Not Become by @degrassi-fanatic - 105k, 20ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Canon Divergence, Getting Together, Angst, Case Fic, Confessions, Complicated Relationships, Near Death Experiences, Friends With Benefits, Smut, Miscommunication

In which Reid has always been good at hiding things. He hid his father's departure and his mother's illness from social services. He hid his addiction from his team. He hid his sexuality from the world. He hid his inappropriate feelings from his boss. That is until he's bleeding out in Hotch's arms, in an abandoned church, in Oklahoma. From there on out, Hotch and Reid learn to make a complete mess out of each other.

8. A fic that brought you on board a new ship

Even though it's unrequited, this was the first fic that really had me going !!! at Penemily <3

Another Wide-Eyed Girl by mallfacee - 2k, 1ch, Gen/Derek Morgan & Penelope Garcia, Penelope Garcia/Emily Prentiss (Unrequited), Coming Out, Internalised Homophobia, Derek Morgan is a Good Friend, Friendship, Gunshot Wounds, Episode: s03e08 Lucky

Derek Morgan is handsome and calls her “baby girl” and smiles at her like she’s the only girl in the room. Penelope Garcia knows she should be swooning and all she can think is that there must be something wrong with her not to react to a man like that giving her all this attention. Two years later she meets Emily Prentiss and understands.

9. A fic you wish could be a movie

Listen, I adore the soulmate trope, and an angsty moreid soulmate movie? Fucking sign me up right now

i need you now but i don't know you yet by @iamrenstark - 3.1k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Hurt Spencer Reid, Hurt Derek Morgan, Mutual Pining, Soulmates, Hurt/Comfort, Buford Mention, Angst with a Happy Ending, Getting Together, Season 5

It goes like this; Spencer hasn't spoken to his soulmate since he was ten, didn't know their gender or their name or a single thing about them. Spencer's soulmate doesn't want him, and that's okay.

10. A fic that led to you making friends with the author

I'm doing two because fuck you that's why

This was one of the first fics I read of Adam's and I immediately fell in love with his writing! And I'm pretty sure that we ended up becoming friends after I rec'd it!!

Plum Sauce by @goldencatchflies - 1.5k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, First Kiss, Friends to Lovers, Getting Together, Canon Divergence, Fluff, Jealousy, Platonic Morcia, Episode: s07e13 Snake Eyes

Garcia tells Spencer about what she thinks happened between her and Derek. He doesn’t seem too happy about it...

I read this from Syd and absolutely loved it, and like with Adam, we became friends from there! (I mean technically husband and wife, but, y'know. Semantics.)

You Belong With Me by @spencerspecifics - 11.4k, 1ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Song Fic, Getting Together, Angst with a Happy Ending, Pining, Fluff

A fluffy Moreid fic based on You Belong With Me by: Taylor Swift

11. A fic you associate with a place

This reminds me of a chilled Sunday afternoon on my old sofa in my living room, with the fire on in the background. I read it all in one sitting and loved every word <3

Metanoia by @makaylajadewrites - 39k, 16ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Canon Typical Violence, Implied Rape/Non-Con, Implied/Referenced Torture, Established Relationship, Near Death Experiences, Frostbite, Rape Recovery, Suicidal Thoughts, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Autistic Spencer Reid, Drug Use, Eventual Smut, Eventual Happy Ending

Oh, Derek… He couldn’t stand the thought of him bursting in with SWAT in tow, gun at the ready, only to descend those creaky stairs and find his naked, bleeding body, vacated of life, crumbled on a red-stained mattress. The realization that he was going to die at the end of this was catching up to him, but maybe it would be better that way.

In which an unfortunate resemblance to an unsub's victims puts Reid right on his radar.

12. A fic that made you gasp out loud

Gasp out loud might be a *bit* of an overreaction, but this one took me on a rollercoaster and I loved every second of it (all of bau-gremlin's fics will do that to you tbh)

The End by @bau-gremlin - 3.1k, 2ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Graphic Violence, Stabbing, Blood and Injury, Temporary Character Death, Hurt Spencer Reid, Whump, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt Aaron Hotchner, Sleepy Cuddles, Protective Spencer Reid

The famous interview with Chester Hardwick ... except Hotch and Reid get separated and Reid is left alone with Hardwick and a prison-made shiv.

13. A fic you found at the right time

You're Going to be Okay by fullofcrazyness - 2.6k, 1ch, Gen/Aaron Hotchner & Spencer Reid, Dark, Suicidal Thoughts, Depression, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Suicide Attempt, Sad Spencer Reid, Hurt Spencer Reid, Depression, Protective Aaron Hotchner, Hurt/Comfort, Happy Ending

Spencer was no stranger to depression. His father leaving him, his mother’s episodes, being twelve years old in a Las Vegas high school. All of those things made him very familiar with the illness. “I… I think I need some help.”

14. A fic that you would read a fic of

Chain Reaction by EloquentDossier - 42k, 16ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Alternate Universe, Texting, Dialogue-Only, Text Fic, Self-Esteem Issues, Fluff, Angst, Implied/Referenced Past Drug Use, Canon Divergence, Pining, Oblivious Aaron Hotchner, Happy Ending

A dialogue-only AU in which Hotch texts what he thinks is Rossi's new number but is actually the slightly eccentric stranger whom Hotch knows only as "Spencer." What follows is something neither man could have ever quite expected.

15. A fic that made you laugh out loud

The Bet by @degrassi-fanatic - 1.6k, 2ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Hijinks & Shenanigans, Bets & Wagers, Humour, Fluff, Canon Divergence

“Fifty bucks says Hotch writes you up and sends you to sexual harassment sensitivity training.” she declares as she stares him down. Without looking away from her, Reid takes out his own wallet and flips it open to pull out a fifty dollar before placing it down right next to Prentiss’s own money. “Fifty bucks says Hotch will go out with me.”

16. A fic that gave you butterflies

The healing and dynamics in this one is just.... off the charts :')

Who Spencer Reid Loves by @blueberriesandbubbles - 36k, 11ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Rape/Non-Con Elements, Abusive Relationships, Domestic Violence, Abuse, Hurt Spencer Reid, Mutual Pining, Rape Recovery, Healing, Fluff

Derek Morgan has been in love with the resident genius as long as he's known him. When Spencer enters a relationship with a mystery man, Derek is unhappy. He is even more unhappy when he meets this man. Spencer starts acting different and Derek knows something is wrong and he has a feeling its connected to the man Reid is dating.

17. A fic that embodies something you value in life

The utter and total love and devotion in this fic just punches me right in the gut every time I reread it

A Little Fall of Rain by jack_hunter - 4.3k, 2ch, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Angst, Spencer Reid Whump, Autistic Spencer Reid, Major Character Injury, Secret Relationship, Team as Family, Dad Rossi

Morgan crept up behind the doctor and snatched the headphones off of his head, earning a yelp of a protest as he slipped them over his own ears. “Les Mis?” Morgan asked with a quizzical look, “didn’t peg you as the musical type, Pretty Boy.” Spencer snatched the headphones back. “I’ve always loved the theatre and I went to see Les Misérables with-... a friend last Friday.”

18. A favourite AU

The Curious Case of Dr. Reid by severaance - 37k, 10ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Transgender Character, Fluff, Trans Spencer Reid, Light Angst, Getting Together, Developing Relationship, Smut, Insecurity, Happy Ending (Warning for Homophobic & Transphobic Slurs)

"And your names for the order, please?" The barista asked, eyes flickering expectantly between the two before her. "Spencer," she answered, although she was not talking to the barista. "I'm Spencer." The man before her had the same idea. "Derek."

19. A fic you stayed up too late to finish reading

I stayed up one night and read pretty much all the marvel fics this author has written, but this was the last one that I simply could not resist. The next day wasn't pretty :/

The more you say, the less I know by forthenightisdarkandfullofterror - 13.9k, 3ch, Gen/Irondad, Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Temporary Amnesia, Protective Pepper Potts, Not Endgame Compliant, Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Blood and Violence, Hurt Peter Parker, Whump

Tony wakes up from snapping with amnesia and for the life of him can't remember the kid hanging around, claiming to be 'just an intern'. Feelings get hurt.

20. A fic that made you feel seen

heavy in my bones by hopeless_hope - 4.4k, 1ch, Gen/Irondad, Chronic Pain, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Peter Parker, Whump, Father-Son Relationship, Dad Tony, Worried Tony Stark, Angst, Chronic Illness, 5+1 Things

Five times Peter lied to someone about his chronic pain, and one time he told the truth and got the help he needed.

21. A fic you love without knowing the source material

(I mean this is literally all marvel fics but I'll rec this one because I loved it so much)

the locker room by searchingforstars - 15.5k, 3ch, Gen/Irondad, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Non-Graphic Rape/Non-Con, Hurt Peter Parker, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Mental Health Issues, Misunderstandings, Arguing, Miscommunication, Crying, Whump, Angst with a Happy Ending, Rape Recovery

Peter's falling apart and he doesn't know how things will ever go back to normal again after Ryder.

22. A fic you've gushed about IRL

Genuinely, this fic is better than most published fiction I've read...

The Third Option by Uncertainty_Principle - 220k, 37ch, Gen/Irondad, Hurt/Comfort, Sexual Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Physical Abuse, Alternate Universe, Hurt Peter Parker, Foster Care, Identity Reveal, Slow Build, Disordered Eating, Homelessness

Ben and May divorced before Peter’s parents died, so when Ben is murdered Peter goes into foster care. It takes just a tiny taste of superpowers for Peter to decide he doesn’t want to put up with his horrible foster father anymore—the streets are infinitely more appealing. All he wants is to be Spider-Man anyway.

So he leaves. Simple.

Simple, that is, until Iron Man needs Spider-Man’s help. Peter isn’t about to turn down an opportunity to fight alongside Tony Freaking Stark, but he also isn’t going to let his hero know that his recruit is a fifteen-year-old homeless dropout. So they strike a deal. Peter will help Tony. In return, the mask stays on. And that’s when things get complicated.

23. A fic you still remember many years later

The Transport Series by ancientreader - 135k, 2 works, Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Backstory, Canon Drug Use, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Physical Disability, AU, Important Character Death, First Time, Developing Relationship, Angst with a Happy Ending, BDSM, Humour, Fluff

How to become a consulting detective. // Jim's lessons are hard to unlearn.

24. A fic with a line or two that you've memorised by heart

"He has held up buildings and nuclear bombs and whole entire countries on his back. Peter’s body is the heaviest thing he’s ever held."

when my body won't hold me anymore (where will I go) by @madasthesea - 4.4k, 2ch, Gen/Irondad, Temporary Character Death, Angst, Grief/Mourning, Father-Son Relationship, Hurt Peter Parker, Crying, Forehead Kisses, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Medical Inaccuracies, Hugs, Platonic Cuddling

But he knows. He knows. He can feel it. Peter’s dead. Peter Parker watches as Tony carefully arranges his limbs on a cot. “Mr. Stark,” he tries for the dozenth time. No one hears him.

25. Free Space

And to round it off, we have to celebrate the fic that really and truly welcomed me into the CM fanfic world...

Chanel by @4x24 - 24k, 7ch, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Getting Together, Spencer Wears Makeup, Friends to Lovers, Light Angst, Canon Compliant, Canon Typical VIolence, Humour, Fluffy Ending, Pining, Smut Heavy

Penelope mentions offhandedly one night that she thinks Spencer might look good in makeup. Spencer takes the suggestion to heart. Derek likes the new look - and Spencer - more than he probably should. (Season 4)

[hgsn-moved]

Okay so, dropping part 2 of my other ask: Fugo was kicked out/dropped out of university, and in the anime he had a bad home life as a kid. Bruno was probably the first person who treated Fugo with both compassion and respect, and as the first to join the Bucci gang, Fugo most likely hooked onto him like a role model of sorts, but wouldn't outright admit that fact which makes his decision to not go on the boat more heartbreaking. Fugo's another topic on his own. Anyways, after that, Bruno finds Abbachio who is at the end of his rope and instead of ignoring this sad goth man in the rain he talks with him. Abbachio had no light left in his eyes but Bruno offered his umbrella; a simple gesture for him but a warm one of hope for Abbachio who had been left out in the cold. A sickly Narancia who had been betrayed and abandoned by both his father and "friends", got found by Fugo who probably felt a pang of empathy just like Bruno did. (I personally like to headcanon Fugo n Nara as autistic in different ways, which makes their bond run deeper as they can understand some shared experiences the others can't) And Mista was a troubled youth as well, so when he got arrested and Bruno bailed him out, Mista didn't have any reason to stay except respect, perhaps because Bruno was once again the sole person who didn't turn a blind eye to those in need. Finally, since Giorno had a horrid home life as well, and Trish was definitely not normal, we can also assume if given as much time as everyone else did to bond with Bruno, Giorno and Trish would fit right into the adoption papers because they too were outcasts without someone to look after them. Like all of them are really sad and complicated and goddamn weird in their own different ways, but all of them got brought together because Bruno saw hope and himself in each of them. I could talk about each of them at length but this is the end of my essay for now tysm for letting me word vomit 💜

AUGHHHHHHH NOBODY TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN I NEED TO THINK

[queenoffeelz-a]

So I watched Encanto and I have a lot to say about it. So uh....review under the cut? There will be spoilers so if you haven't watched it, plz keep that in mind.

First off, it's not a bad movie. But I don't believe it's an incredibly great movie either. Disney didn't really seem to pull out all the stops like they did with Frozen and Frozen 2. And yes, I know it's not supposed to be those movies....but the quality just isn't the same. This was the first Disney movie in years that I...was bored during. I couldn't stay interested....and that's a problem. It was a very plain story and plot; there just wasn't enough to keep the momentum it grabbed at the beginning. And that shouldn't have been the case, since it was a family full of magical powers and a journey to save those powers.

It's not a bad movie, I'll say again. But to me it just didn't feel Disney Quality.

Secondly...I found that...the majority of the characters, while cute and quirky....weren't very memorable. I don't remember much about Lisa or Pepe (I think i got her name right). The mother of Mirabelle is just....plain forgetable in general. I remember Mirabelle, and Bruno....and that's about it (and Doloris or however you spell her name, I liked her). In fact, the fandom of the movie has given me more to work on with the characters than the source material....and that's just sad.

That leads me to my biggest concern about the movie, in which I really honestly think it sends the wrong message. As I watched this movie, I felt something was very wrong....and I finally realized what it was after watching a few videos. Its that the whole family is toxic. It's a hugely toxic family, and I get that was one of the main issues with the how the story was supposed to resolve itself. Abuela realizes her mistake thanks to Mirabelle and they all move forward....but that doesn't get rid of generations of mental abuse....and that's painfully obvious with how Bruno reacts and interacts with the family. This whole thing sends the message that you can treat your family like dirt, force your ideals on them, and then just say sorry and move on like nothing ever happened.....and it doesn't work that way.

BY THE WAY HEY LETS TALK ABOUT BRUNO--

Okay jokes aside, Bruno is by far one of the most memorable characters of the movie, and he has such little screen time. (more than the rest of the family but still very little). I don't like how they portrayed Bruno. It was Disney's attempt at making an autistic character without making an autistic character. Normally this wouldn't have been an issue, except how it's executed. If we look into the lyrics of "We Don't Talk About Bruno", it's implied that he is very high functioning autistic, as he's described by Doloris as being super awkward, stumbling around, muttering to himself, etc. However, because of this, he's shunned by the family, they likely yelled at him a lot, or told him that he was horrible for his prophecies because he couldn't accurately discuss them due to his autism (or the visions likely didn't give him much to work with to begin with and he couldn't articulate that). To children, this would solidify the idea that if you're strange or different....even in a family of those who are different to begin with, then you're wrong or bad.

Sure, he's redeemed at the end....but it doesn't change the fact of what happened to him. He was forced to hide himself away because, as he put it, he "wasn't helping the family." And that isolation likely worsened his condition.

But speaking about Autism in Encanto....I fully headcanon that the entire family has some form of it, or some sort of mental disability/condition. Some more obvious than others. Bruno has Autism, So does Doloris. Camillo and uh.....FlowerPower girl likely have Narcissistic Personality Disorder....though FlowerPower girl it's likely forced upon her by Aubela. Pepe has ADHD or Bipolar Disorder definitely....and while there's very little known about Antonio and Mirabelle's mother, they probably have something as well. Disney did a very good job of showing off the ticks and drawbacks of these disorders but it wasn't in the light that it needed to be in. These characters really honestly shouldn't be DEFINED by these issues and conditions....and be more memorable for what they do and how they overcome them.....but I can only really remember them for their flaws. (except for Doloris, i absolutely love her verbal tick that comes with using her power, it's adorable and she's portrayed as one of the more stable characters despite her not being able to keep a secret.) These characters are defined by their flaws instead of their strengths....Pepe is defined by her inability to keep her emotions in check and stay calm, Flowerpower girl is defined by her narcissistic outlook on her life that's forced upon her, Bruno is defined by his inability to communicate his visions, etc etc....This isn't what we need to be teaching children.

That being said....I think this is Disney's first real attempt at portraying actual mental illness. Did they do a good job? Not really....but they didn't do a TERRIBLE job. It could have been a lot worse. It could have also been a lot better. I feel that Disney did a terrible injustice to otherwise really great characters by sticking them in a lackluster plot line.

Last note: I absolutely love Casita. I want a sentient house. Give  me a sentient house that will help me out and respond to what I say. And play magical musical tiles.

[fro2tbyte]

for mun: any favorite ask blogs atm?

//YES. Okay my turn

@giorollz first of all, the cutest artstyle i’ve ever seen??? the fugio? iconic. gay baby jail? iconic. dadbbacchio? fave. goth au? 😩 love her blog it’s just 👌

@gangstars-on-vacation-not top-notch god-tier blog. i live for the wacky antics that fugo and mista get up to, and i always bust a lung when they post something. 10/10

@ask-the-gangstars excellent art, i die for it. i don’t understand how someone can draw semi-realistically, give silly cartoony expressions, and STILL make it look that good

@askdopi what a legend, their dopi is so damn cute. love that little dude. their artstyle is very pleasing to look at. top quality blog. also nurse abba? fucking stellar 👌

@ask-autistic-mista same hat??? artstyle is so damn cute i DIE for their uwu mista. everytime you post a drawing of him i slam that big love button

@ask-the-mansion-crew i fucking LOVE the way you draw dio. like the way you draw him is just UGH 😩 fave

@localorangegal your art is so cute i really wanna see more of it??? your fem fugo is my lifeblood

@ask-prosciutto / @daily-bruno-bucciarati my god i love your art. i love the funny expressions you put on both bruno AND proscuitto, makes my heart go doki doki

@dailyabba wine mom abbacchio is my soul and my spirit animal. i love ❤️❤️

[maribel-bat]

-Slaps the hood of the Gurjin- 1, 2, 4, 9, 10, 12, 14, 18, 20, 23, and 24

Also 3, 4, 7, 8, 12, 14, 15, 18, 19, 20, 23 and 24 for yusei (if thats okay)

back under cut because Long (also thank you for a dark crystal choice!!)

1. Why do you like or dislike this character? (Gurjin)

I fucking love Gurjin! He's got like a strict sense of honor and stuff but like also he's just a really chill guy? He's like. Unwilling accomplice to protagonist and he's not sure how to feel about it the whole time.

2. Favorite canon thing about this character? (Gurjin)

THEY HAD HIM HUG AN ARATHIM!!!

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character? (Yusei)

I think my personal least favorite canon thing is how in the second half they kind of erased any of Yusei's connections with his friends in Satellite and his problems with the city's authority and it really shows like a huge disconnect that I don't like.

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in? (Gurjin and Yusei)

Gurjin: Monster Hunter

Yusei: Digital Devil Saga

7. What’s something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like? (Yusei)

I like it when they make him just really really openly autistic its fantastic.

8. What’s something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise? (Yusei)

I saw a take that said Yusei was aggressively heterosexual recently and I can't stop thinking about it where is it. What show were you watching. Also lots of people say Yusei is boring.

9. Could you be roommates with this character? (Gurjin)

Yeah absolutely. Fuck yes.

10. Could you be best friends with this character? (Gurjin)

He's so cool! Absolutely!!

12. What’s a headcanon you have for this character? (Gurjin and Yusei)

Gurjin: I like to think this guy secretly takes care of just an absolute hoard of fizzgig. Like. Just so many. He'll never admit it though.

Yusei: I tend to give him delayed echolalia. Just repeating things he's heard down to the exact intonation occasionally.

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character. (Gurjin and Yusei)

Gurjin: Grunge for sure

Yusei: Listen I don't think he would follow any notable fashion aesthetic but I do want to see Yusei in a skirt sometime.

15. What’s your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn’t matter if it’s canon or not.) (Yusei)

Toolshipping! Bruno/Yusei is. My whole shit entirely.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire? (Gurjin and Yusei)

Gurjin: his relationship with Rian. It's so good. He's so ride or die it's like. Man you were waiting to go on some big ass adventure with this guy huh.

Yusei: Okay repeating myself again but Bruno. Episode 80 exists.

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don’t like? (Yusei)

Literally the fact that he becomes friends with Trudge yo fuck that.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn’t matter? (Gurjin and Yusei)

Gurjin: repeating myself enthusiastically! Rian!! They're so good for each other!!!

Yusei: It's a solid tie between Bruno and Kalin. They're both good.

23. Favorite picture of this character? (Gurjin and Yusei)

Okay wildly different photos coming up

Gurjin looks like he's about to be a sad wet cat in this one. It's wonderful.

heheeh poncho Yusei with gun...

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them? (Gurjin and Yusei)

Gurjin: Crow from 5Ds. Specifically "Guy who gets dragged into his other more protagonist friends shit and is like hello???"

Yusei: Ichise from Texhnolyze.

[sparklyjojos]

hey i sent you an ask but internet problematic here so i dunno if it was sent? As someone with no experience with neurodivergent people i was hoping you could elaborate what you have previously said about Kars in JORGE JOESTAR (and other characters maybe) seeming neurodivergent. Like, i'd love to know your headcanons about jojo characters regarding this, as well as reasoning for the headcanon's (optional, but i'd love it)

(wow this one sure took me a long time to answer, sorry!)

oh boy, this would be an extremely long post if I included all other jojo characters I headcanon as nd so I’m just going to focus on Jorge (the Japanese one) and novel Kars for now

this won’t be a “this character definitely has x thing”, but just pointing out traits and dialogue that may interest someone who wants to headcanon/write these characters as nd

am I going to be reaching with some of those? yep! but if the Jorge Joestar novel itself taught me anything, it’s that:

so, you know. I see what I wanna see.

(tw: mental illness, trauma, ptsd, suicide - all in the Kars segment)

Jorge:

 – the sheer difference in introductions is telling: English Jorge talks at length about his family, his classmates, his gay puppy crush, and anything else you’d expect to be major concerns for a kid. Japanese Jorge? social life haha what social life, HOPE YOU’RE READY FOR 10 PAGES OF PUZZLE SOLVING

 – no really if the very first thing someone says after seeing all your memories is that you sure spend a lot of time on puzzles then that’s some deep interest you have, a bit of a stereotypical hobby there but whatevs

 – hyperfocuses a lot??

 – (exasperated Kars who’s been trying to get his attention for a good minute:) “You have a bad habit of not hearing when people speak to you.” (Jorge:) “Yeah, if I’m focused on something else. Sorry. What?”

 – tunes out of one phone conversation with Bruno like 3 times

 – figures out how time-based Stands work specifically because he has experience with his internal sense of time getting royally fucked up whenever he’s deeply focused

 – was inattentive (and hyperactive?) as a young kid to the point it affects how the memories on his disc look like: “I was a fidgety child, and the image rarely focused on [Joseph] for long. I wasn’t interested in his story.”

 – visual thinker, good with patterns, can make complicated mental maps and solve slide puzzles in his mind

 – his memory is really good until it isn’t (as far as he’s concerned Funny Valentine’s Stand is called Dirty Whatever)

 – very particular about meanings of words and names, etymology (his arc starts and ends with him pondering over the kanji of his own name, knows latin names of various species like Hydrangea or Ursus maritimus and what they mean literally, that “sorry that name’s taken” line when Rohan calls something a Beyond, etc)

 – doesn’t like (is distressed by?) clutter and things/details being WRONG. (“If details don’t add up right I get agitated, and start searching for a better way. This trait has lead to my room being very clean, and made me a great detective.”)

 – infodumps to Rohan about polar bears of all things, and there’s a moment when he stops talking almost mid-sentence after mentioning they’re called Ursus maritinus and instead of speaking out loud he just thinks to himself that “The scientific name was given by John Phipps in 1774” as if he just realized that’d be Too Much detail to share, I feel you Jorge

 – (after Erina says he has a characteristic soft smile) “I do? I mean, I guess people do say I look like an idiot.”  <– I feel you Jorge v 2.0

 – gets urges to laugh at very bad times (”Cars’ whispered response had an air of such grim realism that I almost started laughing, but he was watching me suspiciously. Whoops.”)

 – sometimes blurts out things, often fails one-liners, even when he pre-plans what he’s going to say something else may come out (“I’d thought of all kinds of things to say, but what actually popped out in that moment? (…) I have no idea what I meant by that last bit but I said what I said and had to live with it.”)

 – sometimes impulsive, like yeah let’s just get up in the middle of the night and search through a 10 km^2 area on a bike for something unprecised while you have several death threats to your name, this can’t possibly backfire

 – (after Jorge quite literally blows himself up by impulsive carelessness) “Cars was still laughing. “You really don’t think things through.“”

 – small point that’s made moot by paranormal things like that being real in the jojoverse, but his tendency to see signs and messages meant for him everywhere and in every event, and insisting on coincidences not being mere synchronicity gives off a different vibe than intended (at least at the beginning before he knows Stands and Beyonds are a thing)

Kars:

 – honestly I could just slap the definition of “neurodivergent = with their brain functioning differently from what’s seen as ‘normal’ in the population” here and point at his backstory in this book and be done with it

 – remember everything I’m writing is on top of his canon image of an asocial genius scientist with poor affect (or, in the anime, varying between stone face and painfully exaggerated expressions) who has a connection with nature and animals, which I guess can? be seen as some type of autistic coding (unfortunately in this case it dovetails into “a loner with autistic traits = snaps and kills everyone” type of coding sooo maybe let’s not go there)

 – novel Kars talks about how when he was younger he didn’t even know that feeling sympathy and wanting to have emotional attachments with others –was a thing– (apparently his race wasn’t capable of it??), and he had to sorta consciously try to understand and learn it through reading human fiction. It came off to me like he relates better to fictional characters (and maybe animals?) than to his race or humans, too

 - ^^(that backstory’s a bit unclear with how it’s told; either just like his race he doesn’t have the drive for social bonding, empathy etc. and his understanding of others is made purely on the intellectual level - that’s relatable for some nd people - or he DOES have those things in a drastic difference from everyone else of his race, which I guess makes him nd by definition. It’s… complicated.)

– on the topic of “consciously learning how to sympathy” - there’s a few times in the novel when he’s a prick not because he wants to be but because he genuinely doesn’t understand why the other person would be upset (”Cars, sorry, but can you put me back at my old height?” “?…isn’t the view better?”), but if that person explains how the thing is upsetting he then backs off like “oh okay” (when Jorge is disturbed about the women’s heads thing - “Yeah. But I just feel sorry for them. I can’t watch this.” - Kars just goes “I see.” and makes them disappear). He still has to work on the “taking your private memories without asking” issue tho

 – that moment in the backstory where Kars became deeply aware of just how flawed and “not up to own potential” he was which launched him straight into unhealthy perfectionism and desire for control and power as a way of dealing with it? relatable

 – and that thing where him becoming much more chill is preceeded by the realization that he can’t ever - and that he doesn’t have to - become an infinitely perfect being without weaknesses, and that he’d still have worth and meaning even when he’s not performing to some ridiculous self-imposed standards?? GREAT, and I love to see lines like this one coming from him: “Cars smiled. “I have no desire to be the leadingman.””

 – he talks about how traumatic events and your emotional reactions to them (“feeling like you’re dying”) can damage your soul. Since he claims to have experience determining soul damage, and the only souls he worked with before belonged to 36 other Karses, we can assume he’s talking about himself as well. (and it’s kinda obvious that having everyone you love die in <2 days, drifting through space for 50 years and then spending unimaginably long time on an empty planet would leave some marks)

 – ^^^also worth noting that even if Kars knew a lot about brains biology-wise, he missed out on practically all of modern psychology after 1939, so of course the way he relates to trauma and mental illness would be different, and more informed by what he learned having spent most of his life around ancient civilizations in the Americas - the concept of soul loss. And it’s not like the book doesn’t wink towards it in other places (English Jorge dissociating during torture is described as him having learned how to remove his soul from his body)

 – Light Dancer Kars speaks about how he wanted to commit suicide, then in the same paragraph says that he and our Kars feel “the same sadness”, which, wow. Earlier there are scenes where you can interpret Kars’s behaviour as passively suicidal; he doesn’t seek death, but if something (burning upon reentry while saving the humans, fighting Dio) did kill him, he wouldn’t mind that much

 – this one is very subjective because you can interpret these moments as just him being very lost in thought / focusing on healing (Jorge sure does), but: when faced with intense emotional stress - like hearing Light Dancer Kars’s existential speech, or almost getting killed because he chose to shield the humans from harm - Kars has a tendency to go non- or barely verbal, motionless, unresponsive to outside stimuli (including people trying to get his attention by calling his name) and staring at one thing / into space, ignoring even a zombie attack or that they’re pressed on time in alternate!Morioh. When I first read it I assumed he just dissociated really hard (ptsd-related?), or was in a shutdown

 – if you pay attention to what traits Kars seems to be holding in high regards - either through saying that X is a good thing about humanity, or bemoaning that humanity doesn’t have X (that he ofc does) - they’re stuff like creativity, perseverance, attention to details, pattern-based thinking, the desire to “figure stuff out”, and good memory. AKA traits often (though not always) increased in autistic people

 - at one point he says: ”In the end, you’re just another human. You see a mystery and think, ‘How odd!’ and put in on a shelf somewhere.” I’m sorry but even in context it sounds like “apparently people can see an interesting thing without instantly getting fixated and wanting to know and understand everything about it right there and then, what the fuck”

 – he tends to be either very invested in what’s going on or bored, no inbetween, and avoiding that boredom is a high priority (”And it seems I’ve run out of time to eat you all… But I wasn’t bored.”)

um yeah that’s all I can think of rn