#bruh when I found that out I felt so happy and just idk like felt like crying too

[cambion-companion]

could you maybe write an aemond/wife reader fic where they are getting ready for a yule ball and going to it idk idk just a little thought love ur work <3

Hi my love, I wrote something similar, just the breakfast with the family the morning of Yule or Jōl as it was originally known as in Scandinavia :)

I'm writing this at 3 am because Aemond will not get out of my head like...bruh.

Word count: 600

Aemond x reader | Daeron and Aegon have fun | breakfast with the fam

You took a heavy swig of mulled wine, your mind still in a sleepy haze as you sat at the dining table with your family. It looked festive with glittering decorations upon the stone walls and the grand hearth hosted a cozy crackling fire.

Your eyes cut over to where your husband sat. Aemond looked quite as tired as you felt, though he gave you a sly smile when your gazes met. Heat rising to your cheeks you looked hastily away. You felt his hand rest upon your knee beneath the table.

"I know why I am so tired." Aegon observed the two of you over the brim of his crystal goblet. "What's your reason?"

Daeron watched you and Aemond with interest as well, clearly taking mental notes as always of what Aemond was about to say.

"We got little rest, Aegon." Aemond said shortly, hiding a secret smile as he too took a sip of wine.

The rest of the family had yet to arrive, so far it was just you, Aemond, Aegon and Daeron. Aegon seemed intent on capitalizing on this fact, he snorted into his cup. "So, it was a productive night then?"

Daeron looked confused a moment, his lilac eyes swiveling between the three of you before they widened slightly. "Oh."

"Yes, 'oh', dear brother." Aegon chuckled heartily as Aemond shared an annoyed look with you. "With luck you too will be able to arrive exhausted to the Yule breakfast with your lady."

"Aegon that's enough."

"Aemond, I swear to the Seven, you don't know how to have fun."

"Oh no, he does." You interjected, grinning behind your napkin as you delicately dabbed the corners of your wine-stained lips. "Of that rest assured."

You were pleased that your words seemed to leave the eldest prince speechless, a light pink dusting Aemond's high cheekbones as well. Daeron looked fascinated.

Your eyes found the dancing flames of the fireplace, though all you saw was the memories of the previous night. Aemond's arms wrapped around you, your mouth on his body, the taste of him, feeling him as he moved inside y-

With a jolt you were yanked back to reality as the double doors opened to admit the rest of the family. Helaena entered first with her children, Alicent, Otto and even Cole followed close behind.

"Happy Yule, my loves." Alicent beamed at everyone as they tucked themselves into the lavish feast as it was brought out by the servants. "I, for one, cannot wait for the tourney events this afternoon."

You glanced over at Aemond, meeting his violet eye and grinning at his displeased expression.

"Yes, Aemond. You're going to participate." Alicent was watching him as well.

Aemond gave her a nod, his hand on your knee clenched involuntarily and you giggled. He loathed tourneys.

Aegon looked uninterested, Helaena gave an excited little clap.

Daeron grinned at Aemond with obvious admiration. "I am to compete as well! Perhaps we shall even spar against each other!"

You nudged Aemond beneath the table and he spared a small smile for his younger brother. "That would make it more bearable, Daeron."

"Rhaenyra and her children are arriving this afternoon as well." Otto said. "The Velaryon boys will be competing in the sparring match today."

"They will present no challenge at all." Daeron piped up.

"You have not yet met them!" Alicent laughed at her youngest's confidence.

"Aemond told me everything I need to know!" Daeron puffed out his chest trying to sneak a drink of wine, but Alicent caught him with a glare.

"See what you've done?" You whispered to your husband, who was not bothering to hide his grin now as he looked fondly at Daeron.

"I do." Pride dripped from Aemond's voice as he leaned into you, placing a chaste kiss to your temple as you rolled your eyes. "I find myself not so put off by the tourney after all."

Gods help those Velaryon boys.

[the-s1lly-corner]

spot that meets a autistic reader, that is talkative to themselves, but has poor social skills because (lack of good parenting + bullys, but is very smart and loves art and engineering, and dreams to be a scientist one day.. it could began as the reader first feared him over an awkward moment? to opening up about themselves and the reader's obsessive fascination over him. two very talented ppl that only wants to be appreciated, respected and loved...💔

idk is it to much?? bruh I'm trying to be creative😭 I'd be happy with whatever happens!. aNd TaKe yO tiME!! On irl things and beloved spotty <3

Spot w/ an autistic reader!

Rubs my autistic little hands

Feeling a lil drowsy but I wanna chuck this out before I fall asleep for (possibly) the next 7 hours :3

Not proof read we die like Peter Parker <\\3 we are sleepy and tumblr wont let me save drafts for asks <\3

Obligatory "I like this character so I'm hcing him to be ND like me" touch

He gets it

Anyways

I think to help make the whole thing less jarring, or whatever, is that you may have known each other vaguely before the collider incident

You weren't a scientist at alchemax, more like.

Well shoot I just forgot the term but like, you work there, but you dont do hands on experiments, not experienced enough yet

Intern?

Maybe, idk

Obviously you don't work there anymore after the collider blowing up, so... you're looking for a new job

You knew about Jonathan, but you weren't friends

You had also heard rumors about what happened to him but you kinda dismissed it as cruel rumors surrounding his death.. I mean no one could've survived that explosion.. right?

So imagine your surprise when you end up almost getting robbed by spot

Can you blame him? He hasnt found another job since the accident and hes probably living off of pity handouts; likely homeless

Now hand over the wallet!!/j

No but on the semi likely chance that you manage to defuse the situation, given Spot sucks as a criminal, you just bluntly ask if the whole

Rumor thing is true

I mean obviously it is but confirmation is important

After a few more chance encounters, you guys both finally decide to properly sit down and talk

Its tense and awkward at first since 1. How does one even act around someone like spot? He's vulnerable but also trying to do the whole. Revenge thing... And 2. Hes desperate for human interaction and it SHOWS, it's almost uncomfortable actually

But you both trudge past it and make it work

One meet up turns into two then three; then you discover how much hes struggling and

Now you're roomates

Oh my god they were roommates/ref

Anyways, that's the set up!! It kinda felt wrong to just. Jump into it without some explanation on how yall end up in the same area consistently

Doesnt mind that you mumble to yourself, he probably does the same thing. From muttering things to keep his train of thought to having a personal monologue, I wholeheartedly believe he does the same thing

Hs understands how it feels to be. Not treated very good, he likely wasnt the most respected in alchemax so it's not uncommon for the two of you to have vent sessions where you both let it all out

You ask him about his journey to becoming a scientist and not so subtly ask for advice on how to get into the field; and touching onto the whole human interaction thing, hes more than willing to talk your ear off about his entire career history

On the chance you dont want to do physics stuff, and you wanna do another branch of science he's all ears on listening to you ramble, may even lend a hand in getting you to where you need to be career wise

Yall do at home experiments as bonding stuff

Look if spot can make a mini collider in some building then I can only imagine the type of shit yall get up to at home

Oh? You're still curious about.. him? Of all things, him?

He never thought anyone would look at him with interest; usually its disgust or fear, or both

Hes hesitant at first because what if you discover something that'll totally change your view of him?

Takes (some, a little) coaxing

Bro caves fast, he misses physical touch

"So like, these holes-" you proceed to just. Dip your entire fist into a hole and watch said fist pop out from another hole

The demons are telling me to make reader like

Make it a game to try to throw stuff through his holes but I feel like that would be really mean, no one likes stuff getting thrown at them

Please dont throw stuff through his holes :(

Random but like

Idk if this happens with yall but

If someone stims do yall. Like stim back

Like I have vocal stims and mess with my hands; and sometimes my friend will be prompted to stim if I stim??

Idk but yall do that

OHOH before I post this if you're both comfy with physical touch please please please hold him, it's been so so long since someone has hugged him and he really really needs it :(

[bonkbobl]

omg hello !!! it’s me again (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و i’m so shocked that you wrote such great masterpieces in a short amount of time,, i was literally keeping an eye out on your acc because i looked forward to your continuation of beautiful fool so imagine my surprise when you posted not only the continuation, but two more separate one shots !! i literally DEVOURED all of them upon finding out you posted,, make a deal or play a game might have to be my new favorite of yours… he was so freakin devious making the reader beg for him 😭😭 (but so hot???!!!!) i was blushing the whole time agsjdgsj,,, he was so mean but so gentle??? got me giggling and kicking my feet 🤭 i also really loved happy to please (let’s be real here i love all your writings so far THEY WERE ALL SO GOOD)??? reader making him go feral there was so 🤭 i could totally see him pampering her and overstimulating her,, she’s shy but cheeky and devoted and sweet to him and he’s always so surprised like “… i can’t believe she really likes me…” the feeling of being wanted makes him go crazyyyyy LIKE???? … can u imagine the reader shying away during an intimate act of theirs at the end of a long day (maybe she hides her face in her hands bc she’s feeling to much of something) and he’s just like “no i wanna see you” and she’s just flushed and he’s goes even more feral?? (dude what if he interlocks his hands with hers and kisses her like????) what are your thoughts on this 🤔 (i just really like the idea of him going feral over whatever she does lol) anyways, ur a genius dear author <33 i hope you’re having a great time of day wherever you are !! i look forward to reading more of your writing if you have any that are a wip :)) take care !! (thank u for the meals bc u really served <333 i will def be re-reading them hehe) — 🩰 anon

stop it you're so sweet idk who you are but i love you 😭

ok about how quickly i'm writing these, i surprised even myself with that because even a couple years ago when i was at the peak of my fanfic writing days, i'd post like once a day (on my old blog which i deleted) and i've never been that productive again. im happy that people like roose though theres like a noticable lack of content for him.

AND YEAH SDLKFJDF happy to please only came up in my head because i saw a tiktok that said book roose said his first two wives would lay there silently and he found it somewhat endearing that walda would actually be vocal, which i thought was kind of sweet and out of character for him to say. my mind started wandering to what it would look like in action.

i can absolutely imagine like the second time they have sex, reader is very shy, covering her face as you said. and when roose tells her that he wants to see her, she forces herself to look at him. i think the dynamic i wrote in this fic, he's more loving with her so he'd probably prefer to take reader in missionary, particularly with his forearms resting on either side of her head, forehead pressed to hers. it'd make every noise she makes more audible, every microreaction more visible, and every time he wants to he can just lean down and brush her lips with his.

reader's probably braver and tries less to hide her pleasure going into the future.

roose probably never felt this kind of passion with anyone and he'd actually feel excited to bed her, sometimes catching his thoughts wandering during the day. then he snaps himself out of it and is like bruh im stupid theres so much work to do rn and im thinking about my wife. but seeing her is definitely always the highlight of his day.

on the overstimulation, i think reader probably helped him realize how much he likes eating pussy for sure. because shes so sensitive and reactive and she'll grab his hair and buck against his face shamelessly. he just thinks she's the most beautiful, most sexy thing he's ever seen and even after reader has cum so many times, it's addictive to him. he's always like "one more, i know you can give me one more, sweet wife."

its so much to the point of like when he finally fucks her, reader is squirming around so much and he has to calm her down with little kisses to her forehead and temple. and she can feel it every time his pelvis rubs against her clit.

i will be serving hot meals. i dont really know if i can finish by tonight but i have a lot of wips cooking up. i dont know how my posting frequency will change after school starts though so we'll see (it's starting soon)

[feuqueerfire]

The Warp Effect Live Blogging

I've been obsessed with the idea of this show since I watched the freaking mock trailer like sooo long years ago (late 2021? early 2022? like 2 years ago bruh) and was so glad that people seemed to really like the actual show when it released, can't believe I'm finally watching it. I attempted to watch this once before but it was while I was taking a break at university and uh this is not a show I can watch in public, so I had to stop just a few minutes in and now I'm back like a year later.

Anyway, I better love it. I'm gonna lose my shit if it turns out like Be My Favourite for me (I love the mock trailer -> people love the show -> I finally watch the show and find it... fine).

Ep 1 (Apr 20)

Why am I so nervous, I almost don't wanna start it. see this is why I have so many highly praised show or shows I'm hoping to love like ITSAY and 3WBF still on my To Watch list

1-1

ah, the promise/purity ring of doom

oh he's a high school KID pls

ah, I'm so excited seeing this intro with the whole cast, I'm anticipating a lot of their roles

Is the one who found the bra his grandpa?

Alex and Ice brothers

I like their uniforms

Jan, hiiii <3 <3 <3 (name: Nim)

his face appeared on the news of the massage parlour burning ?!

hehe Nim and Jan are already dating

I'm so excited seeing Gigie and Fah and everybody ahh, it's actually been so long

Also I wish I'd watched TWE before I learned about how Fah's husband is a POS because now I'm like ah... by extension she is also a POS because you're literally marrying that man

I've been like damn why am I so excited to see all these people? I see them act all the time except no I don't because apparently I haven't watched a GMMTV show since Be My Favourite last year (other than OffGun 20 minute Love From Outta Space but that only has them). I just see some of them online, esp like FourthGemini and Phuwin. No wonder I'm like hiii~ to everybody I see pop up.

not the sex situation roleplay in front of the class. good on consent tho

i'm gonna have to relearn everybody's names later fr

Army the homophobic homosexual (actually does he like girls too fr? idk)

hah, Mark's character getting schooled for asking who tops and bottoms

not Army getting so into it T.T closeted kid... and then punching Alex oh boy

is Alex not underage or is that not like a concern bruh like even the teacher is so casual about it

free period product spiel

1-2

New and Fah (Alex and Jean) are so cute man. I'm so nervous that he... sexually assaulted her? or something nonconsensual?? like I don't remember what the issue was but he did something bad I think? it makes me so nervous because they wouldn't fucking made the main character in our sex-positive show a fucking assaulter right?

uh what does the grandfather know?

is this camera magic

I'm hungry, time for lunch, hope nothing super raunchy or gross happens while I'm eating

ah kiss

aw slap (foreshadowing for the future IMO *wink*)

1-3

hah the dildo scene

Fah you are so hot and so cool (or so I thought) why are you with your husband T.T

idk why I'm so happy seeing Alex and Jean getting it on like it's fun and it's exciting

Fah is so hot goddamn

1-4

ohhh Alex accidentally kind of saw Army with some guy (Joke?). Are both the bullies gay and hooking up? well he didn't recognize shit cuz he's drunk off his ass but yknow

he's no longer a virgin

dang, miss girl went straight into a pelvic exam. usually people like "wake up" in a different time or go from one room to another or smth lol

I have watched a couple time travel things but they've usually been to the past/deaged to teenagehood whereas this one is to the future.

Very fun 1st ep, interesting and fun and intriguing and also heart-felt.

Kinda funny that in the GMMTV subreddit on-air, people have mentioned how American it feelts (apparently a lot of the inspo for it is American which makes sense) but I have no clue about that because I haven't much American/western TV lol

Ep 2 (Apr 20)

2-1

Delightful Army who is no longer homophobic

Is this the same hospital as Vice Versa?

pls gooner See-ew

ahh, I was wondering if Ew would indeed no longer be Alex's friend

ahhh his relationship with family is now extremely distant too, I'm so curious about what happened

girl you're like 30 now, it makes sense that your grandfather might have passed away. but i do get that it's sudden and he must be like wtf i just saw him yesterday

oh also they're like Christian. the promise ring thing is in a church and there are crosses and stuff in their house too

I think I remember something about him having to fix his relationships or people he wronged or something and I guess these photos give a hint as to what?

2-2

0:49 Ew (aka Sing who also plays Todd in Not Me) says "Are you challenging me?" but him saying it in Thai reminds me of him saying the same thing/a similar thing to Black as Todd when Black came to kill him

ohh these photos are from the future?

broken promise leading to this mess

heh, Alex really went wild that night at the party ig

Ah, indeed Alex kissed Molly (we saw this in 1-3 I think)

Alex, Kat fuck buddies

2-3

Gigie is so hot

pls the way I burst out laughing at him leaving the bathroom nearly naked

the change from shy/nervous -> eager and excited

also Kat's so funny cuz she gets angry and then is like ^.^ :D like the cat smiling emoji

pls the curse not letting him have sex even in the future

Joong hi, can't wait to see him be tied up in a chair (and whipped?)

"Thank you, master" ahhhh i'm so excited for Liu and Ew and puppyplay

i'm actually not a super big of the dog mask but it's all so cute omg >.< Master feeding her dog strawberries aww and then giving a little flog for being a bad doggie but being nice to him again awww so cuteeeee he's such a cute dog

2-4

Army is so fun

so he did indeed get with Jean in between making out with other people

yay Jean director, her dream

and she's mad at him because he did smth but whattt

Ep 3 (Apr 21)

3-1

pls the way he has no doctor gyno knowledge T.T he's 17

I saw people guessing that Alex and Jean had sex that night -> Jean got pregnant -> Alex left/wanted nothing to do with that/she got an abortion and he gave no support/etc. which I think I would like more than my fears that he did something untoward

Jean and Kat convo ahh pretties and cuties i hope you are friends and don't hate each other later on

3-2

ik Ew is excited but I also want Liu to be more excited and eager and partaking in the sex toy shopping and kink play

aw she's embarrassed esp in public

okay exactly liu being like "i like it but not all the time. do you ever ask me what i actually like?"

ah her running into Jedi and Rose right in front of the store

does Alex even know how to drive

all i can think is Army's hands were probably on his dick or the other guy's dick and he's touching Alex all casually without washing hands

there's no photo of Ice but i guess he'd need to patch things up with his brother anyway

I think this is the first time I'm seeing Phuwin in a romantic role with somebody other than Pond?

Jan with a girl let's fucking go

tragic that this isn't gonna last bc Nim and this girl are cute together

3-3

Ah

I guess the best thing would've been to set up guidelines earlier in the relationship, like puppy play/BDSM is just One aspect of our relationship, not the whole thing. because it's been clear since ep 2 that Ew is more eager to play that way every time they see each other whereas Liu likes it to a lesser degree and also wants to hang out and be romantic outside of that play and also wants to be pampered sometimes rather than always domming him/taking care of him

agh it irritated me that Ew just turned on porn and got off but ig he uses it as a crutch maybe... i'm hoping it's that instead of a lack of care and affection toward Liu smh

I love Gigie's smile her sharp little incisors are extremely attractive

I'm glad Alex cut it off with Kat esp because in last ep it was mentioned that he's kind of being dishonest with her since he's not... exactly who he says he is

3-4

Oh, that's Ice's girlfriend Kim? Jean and her work together?

I loveee Jean's colour-block jacket

a little lesson on doing a pelvic exam for someone with a vagina

ah Alex and Jean in the same room again i'm so excited but nervous

I'm nervous For Jean bruv

you didn't do the cotton thing before inserting the speculum Alex

ah, they fr had sex that night

Ep 4 (Apr 21)

4-1

Army is so funny and endearing. i'd be curious to know his reaction when Alex finally tells him about the time travel

Are we getting Thor's character finally or not yet? anonymous face

oof Bew and Nim's future plans look pretty different

and the pregnant Nim photo is manifesting

bruh obviously Ew dresses up and plays a little dog lmfao

damn they're actually talking about puppy play

girl that's not Thor, that's a baby! I just remembered that I think I knew about this? about Fluke's character accidentally meeting up with an underage guy

pls 2005 liner (in 2022)

i am aware that playing football is an euphemism. is it for masturbation? just being horny?

I found out about Fluke Pusit's new BL which is apparently the fucking Your Dear Daddy that had me icked out from the title agh but like... I like him in this and wanna see him in a BL as a main lead so I might still check it out since the synopsis doesn't seem too bad. It'll still be many months perhaps over a year or two until it comes out though... not even a pilot trailer yet. will they get the budget and talent necessary for the show? Who knows...

4-2

Ah, Joe and Army also had a falling out and aren’t in contact, rip

I think it's Army's baby based on that one tiktok where Army and Nim are talking about the kid having gay and lesbian parents

non-binary Molly!!!!

i can’t quite tell how we’re supposed to feel about Joong’s character Tony tbh

ohh that’s how the Joong tied up in a chair by Sylvie scene comes to be, it’s part of their movie acting.

i watched the first few minutes of this on the train lol

Damn, what's up with Jean :< is it really just bad cramps or something serious?

4-3

pls Ice's friends are losers (or maybe just that specific dude)

oh the moaning while Ice and Kim are having sex threw me off

did Kim even have fun? USELESS

okay she's saying she had fun, though I wish she seemed more into it while they were actually doing the act. Orgasms aren't always necessary but it should still be fun

Kim is so fucking hot bruh

"Let's do it raw" well i'm so glad it was Phuwin playing Ice and not me bc I would've embarrassed myself on that set

ah, Army can still think fondly of his time hooking up with Joe and get off to it lol

Anyway, at least it seemed like Kim was gonna have more fun in round 2 but i want that for her every time they have sex

4-4

Kat and Jean on one screen is always so heart eyes

Army, what are you apologizing forrrr

pouty Army is so cute bruh

pls the argument while Army's jacking Joe off

the handjob that leads to forgiveness

well I'm glad they didn't get caught cuz I was nervous lol

The people I find incredibly attractive in this show are: Jean, Kat, Kim, and Army lmfao

Ep 5 (Apr 21/22)

5-1

Army reminiscing about the high school days when he and Joe hooked up lol

ah, Army has the photo he took of Alex and it shows Alex in the future in a doctor coat

hilarious that Alex is just a good, knowledgable gyno now lmfao

finally Army learns about the time travel

oof, Alex running into Kat and Jean at the club

the way he leaned over Jean freaked me out fr

correct that you can revoke consent at any time etc but maybe also say that if you're gonna bring a random person home from the bar, be clear about expectations before leaving the bar/coming home

5-2

he can't even get off when he masturbates?

Ew's animosity toward Army lol

Mollie lead role!

idkkkk Nim doesn't seem to be want to be pregnant and doesn't seem to like kids, I don't want her to have a baby when she doesn't want one

ouch, Mollie-Nim-Bew meet

the pilot guy is sleazy, Kat run away

5-3

wait we're not doing any more puppy play? :( did Liu really not like it at all?

Aghh we're only doing extremes of puppy play every time y'all meet vs no puppy play ever... what about a happy middle?

Ouchhh the public humiliation and body shaming, this is the hardest storyline in the show to watch for me so far

5-4

yay mollie

ohhh the photo of mollie changed cuz they overcame their problem ig? w alex's help once the photo happened

Kinda surreal to watch Molly be played by Sylvie who is attractive and, despite not being stick thin, also not fat

I barely watched anything on the 22nd and yesterday the 23rd was all about GMMTV 2024 Part 2, so I'm Finally starting the next ep today

Ep 6 (Apr 24)

6-1

Okay I got too nervous waiting to watch what Alex did so I read in the comments that he didn't use a condom because he was so drunk. It's terrible but I feel better knowing what it was that he did before seeing it

eughhh they're so drunk

oh ew that's... horrifying. to have her actually say wait and stop multiple times while he... doesn't

that's actually fucked fr

the look of horror and realizing on Jean's face and then the tear...

why is Alex fucking smiling?! how dare he

aw shucks everybody gonna know and the rumours are getting bigger

not Alex just going with Jedi while leaving Ew behind

Incredible that this guy who traumatized Jean is now just at the top of the school pyramid I actually can't believe my worst fears were real and Alex ignored Jean's multiple attempts to push him off while she says stop

6-2

the Jean and Molly convo is interesting. I understand Jean more because you can't just go around kissing people while in a monogamous relationship just to check if you're into it or not but I understand that Molly's also unsure of what they actually like, especially because it seems like they were probably grappling with being nonbinary back then and haven't yet chosen that term for themselves yet

I think breaking up is the right thing to do in this situation

Kat dropping big hints that she knows Army likes boys lol at least she's breaking up with him easy

Army has armpit hair which is normal but rare in EA/SEA shows it feels like? idols are clean shaven/lasered

Army's so annoying lol conceited but a cutie so I can't even disagree

conflicted because hah gay locker room handy is fun but also... part 1 sex was horrific

oh naur they're gonna get caught?

noooooo Army throws Joe under the bus?!

6-3

nosy ass grandpa

Ice is 13? lmfao. so he's 23 in the future ig

we should kill Alex first not stopping when Jean told him to and now abondoning Ew at Army's suggestion

heh Ew liked the slap

oh In Love by Gamma Skies, I think this was in a Bad Buddy playlist but I couldn't remember it being used in the actual show

Kat and Jean smoking in the balcony aghh I want at least 1 kiss between them plsplspls (but not right now when Jean is just newly traumatized :()

agh Jean labeled as a slut for sleeping with Alex (and dancing on the table in her bra) while Alex becomes the top dog for presumed to sleep with 3 girls (+ kiss Army lol)

6-4

I read the comments first because I know apparently Jean's photos in her bra from that party are gonna be plastered on the wall and aghh... Alex is gonna be useless and treated well while Jean is gonna be called an attention seaker and also suspended ?! and people in the comments were saying people shouldn't say that Alex did nothing wrong, how the fuck are there comments saying he didn't do anything wrong omg??!!

punishment for WHAT?!

Jean isn't quite yelling at Alex for the things she wants to yell at him about so I guess that's why the comments that apparently defended him may have thought she was treating him unfairly but it's like... it's hard to say you might not fucking remember but you didn't use a condom and didn't fucking listen to me while i told you to stop repeatedly you jackass and now they're all ruining my life

this fucking Alex/Jean montage i'm so mad T.T

and Army needs a fucking punch too

Alex is soooo aghhhh why is he literally going to Jean's house (!!!) and saying sorry but also repeatedly being like "Can you forgive me?" like girl wtf how can you expect forgiveness this easily by saying it was your fault a decade later smhh

ahhh horrible. good episode in the sense that it's well-crafted and makes sense but truly what the fuck

I get that Alex was drunk and so ignored Jean while we assume he wouldn't have done that if he wasn't drunk but truly... what the fuck? Being drunk doesn't mean you get a free get out of jail card to violate consent. The show nor the audience seem to use the word rape but that's what it was, right? I don't want them to get back together in the end man...

And also the Army-Joe thing... idk, throwing Joe under the bus...

Also I think I won't look at warp effect tumblr posts anymore... idk, I kinda don't care to read about people's thoughts on it because it's already tiring to watch the show, much less read people's thoughts on it. Might seek out specific gifsets if I really want one though.

Ep 7 (Apr 25)

7-1

lol everybody having fun while Alex can't orgasm

Liu's boss... ew

Rose and Jedi are cute heh

plss not Jedi being one of the men who wants their gf/wife to go open relationship but then is jealous she's is getting more partners and having fun and such

I'm glad we get kissing and sex with with Jedi and Rose because I swear so many times when trans actresses are cast, they either get no romance or very chaste romance with hugs at most

aw shucks, I'm guessing Jedi's dick hurting is gonna lead to the hospital visit in Alex's photo

7-2

oh also, ig I didn't think about the fact that Nim would have to marry whoever she has a kid with?

heh quick decision to have a freaking child

I'm also not sure Nim having a child is even the right decision

New looks soo attractive in the bar scene

I love Alex trying to mend the relationship with Ice

ewwww not Captain asking Kat to be his gf in public with flowers and such. It puts pressure on the one being asked, I hateeee it when people ask such questions in public and then the asker might get angry at being humiliated. I'm glad Kat stood her ground but I'm afraid he's gonna retaliate, esp since he's a pilot where she is a flight attendant

7-3

It makes me so nervous fr when they do anything in public

oh crazy, we're having the not orgasming talk but for a gay couple this time

a little PSA about positions

omg Joe is a side? doesn't like penetration possibly? because he liked the handjobs

Joong's character and Jean are cute man, idk I hope he's not sleazy

ah, Molly and Nim scenes once again

aw man Ew is going to meet the bunny domme

it's cute how excited he is but helloo you're meeting a woman behind our gf's back + camera?!

oh no he's wearing the outfit he gets arrested in

ah cops

you can get arrested for creating porn in thailand?

7-4

Ew begging Liu to stay is still more about himself and how she's the only one who understands him and gave him a chance rather than about her. But the story gets that I think because Liu says that in their relationship she has tried to be what's needed for Ew but Ew hasn't done the same.

ah shit not the captain beating up Kat, that fucker

Ep 8 (Apr 25)

8-1

poor Kat

aww Jean and Kat <3

girl, imagine if you had indeed accepted him, he's a fucking asshole, you'd be in a mess either way

yesss you two should date

I don't even know how to feel at Jean and Alex conversations, like it's not cool or chill dude, just shut upp

In the ep 7 r/gmmtv on-air, somebody mentioned that maybe... Army sleeps with another guy/cheats on Joe (esp if they're not on the same page sexually) and that's why it's a polaroid with the other guy's identity hidden? made me sooo nervous, I don't want that to be true plsss I just thought it'd be because Joe is closeted and so we can't see his face

plsss not Army's rant to Alex about Joe not bottoming

ah, Kim is pregnant and I'm guessing Nim is/will be too. I hope one of them gets an abortion for the storyline here

bruh, Bew was flighty from the jump but also Nim really shouldn't have gotten IVF done so quickly and easily with little though

bruh fuck Bew

8-2

plsss Alex going to Joe to talk about his and Army's sex life is sending me fr

side Joe! and they're fr talking about it!

Ah, Mollie and Nim :(

I really hope Kim ends up having an abortion. She and Ice can make another baby in the future when they're older and more stable and ready

Aw, Ice is sweet but I still don't think they should have a baby when neither is ready

Alex randomly there to help Kat lol

damn, Captain got put in jail, that's good

8-3

I hope Tony's just a nice, regular guy

pls Army being like yep my partner is soo satisfied with my performance to his patient

lol multi-activity full package outercourse

uh... is Kat developing feelings for Alex/I thought she had feelings for a while tbh

oh, Alex talking about Jean in his sleep rip

I hope Jean and Kat don't become enemies, that's my only wish

8-4

I love Joe and Army so bad wtf

Kat and Army's photos now fixed

Ep 9 (Apr 26)

9-1

okay Jedi mentioned always using protection

oof, not them fighting over the HPV

Rose is trans and didn't have bottom surgery so how tf did they have sex so easily in the kitchen that one time lmfao

pls not Ice singing about their child in this club setting

Kim shouldn't be drinking but Ice shouldn't be picking fights with strangers like that and escalating situations either

okay finally abortion mention

Ice let go of your fucking pride for like one second

9-2

hehe Sylvie and Joong scenes

not both Mollie and Jean falling for Tony's charms

okay Alex giving Ice good advice about supporting Kim's decision for an abortion. I wish somebody would also mention that they can just... have a child a couple years down the line

i wonder where we're going with the HPV storyline?

9-3

stop meeting at Joe's workplace I beg

STOP YELLING !!!

why is that man taking a video aghhhh Armyyyy i'm gonna kill you and also that man

ah, Nim and Molliee

ohh Nim's photo went back

not the flight attendant roleplay plss

I'm dying at Rose and Jedi's relationship where they're in an open relationship and flirt with people but never sleep with any of them even though the other one thinks they do lmfao

okay glad Kat didn't just get over Captain's assault and that it still affects her. but she's not portrayed as week for still being affected because it's literally such a big thing

Jedi and Rose are sooooo cute what the hell

not the scent callback

Jedi/Rose cutiesss

9-4

omg Kat and Tony?

Tony is suchhh a flirt that it's fun to see him be taken back by Kat's extremely forward pursuit

so is Tony... supposed to be just a nice, normal guy fr? I hope he is

Rose and Jedi are actually so cute like I'm dead

okay so it's stronger and stronger hinting that Jean was indeed pregnant after that party

oh no, Liu and her fuckass boss creep next ep

I liked how cute Jedi and Rose were but I feel like why introduce the open relationship aspect at all then? Like if they needed to have it, they could've treated it with more nuance and have them actually participate in the open part of their relationship. idk i was like, the lesson isn't that "people in love can't do open relationships" right?

Ep 10 (Apr 26)

10-1

director and main actor dating? and also Tony asking her in public like this too? Captain flashbacks smh

girl, dancing?! omg why is this too much for me, too much public stuff

let's kill Liu's boss

aghhh, they found out about Joe being gay

10-2

Alex barging in and confronting the boss like that in front of everybody. I hate these men's need to publicly "defend" women and confront/fight men without actually asking the women they're defending what they want because this has consequences

had to work really hard to get into the comedy mindset for this sexual harassment storyline because usually... the serious topics are treated serious idk

pussy eating, let's go

oof, Mollie and Nim fight once again

I get Joe so much and it frustrated me that Army doesn't quite understand how much trauma Joe has because of his actions (similar to his bff Alex in that way who just jokes around with Jean as if he didn't fucking rape her)

and what about the puppy play? we doing that still? cuz idk if Ew can do with it?

Ah, Jean and Kat convo about Alex. I'm glad it wasn't messy

10-3

oof, no Kim, you did the right thing

there is no need to feel bad for Ice because he can have a baby couple years down the line if he still wants it after he's more settled

okay he finally mentioned that they can have a kid when they're ready

erotic foot massage, loll yas (+ a little servant roleplay?)

i'm so glad they're communicating, never been so happy to see erotic foot massage and puppy play

omg Jedi proposing (and this time the public proposal feels okay like it doesn't feel like pressuring Rose)

Jedi and Rose are sooo cute. maybe the fact that they have the least screentime & so the least conflict helps with that

10-4

I'm nervous

ooh, a Tony and Jean kiss

this is so fucked uppp, my poor Jean T.T

glad Tony turned out to be actually decent

Once again, I'm hoping Alex/Jean isn't endgame

polaroid photo of Alex's mother and Teacher Saran?

Watched most of this at 1.25x speed tbh

Ep 11 (Apr 26)

I'm really enjoying the show but I must be honest... I'm also kind of dreading it and just want to be done... The Alex & Jean is honestly A Lot for me and idk if they can handle it well and I'm not looking forward to Joe-Army and Mollie-Nim's conflicts either. I kinda wanna just knock out the last 2 episodes by tonight though because I just wanna be doneee

It'll be 1.25x speed for the rest of the show I think. I managed to watch the first 9 episodes at regular speed though

11-1

Ah, Alex's bio dad is actually their gym/sex-ed teacher

damn, we're going so fast with this storyline

dang, more than his mother, his father was the reason for the time travel with the camera gift

Tony and Kat could be cute

pls not the "what if I get dragged by your fans" mentioned

I get that Nim shouldn't have been so callous with Mollie by saying they can be friends but Nim literally had 1) Mollie kiss another boy while they dated and 2) had Bew walk out her while pregnant. I feel like her not opening up or easily trusting Mollie to be a good partner and parent makes sense

Mollie could've just said the stuff nicely as a confession instead of a fight

11-2

let's go Joe (incredibly easy fix for something serious though lol)

I don't get the point of the kicking crossbar thing but sure, ig Joe and Army have made up

girl okay wtf is this promposal from Alex to Jean, idkkkk I'm just not into it

glad Jean didn't say yes

11-3

aw, Jedi/Rose wedding

Army-Joe dance too, Joe overcoming his shyness

no way Ew is proposing right here smh

Tony and Kat are cute too, even if it's all going fast cuz the show's ending ig

I want Jean to be able to speak to somebody openly and honestly about being raped by Alex (like that's literally what it was), whether it be a therapist, a close friend, fucking confronting Alex, idc but it feels like Alex doesn't even give it the weight it deserves, idk

Alex requesting for Jean to get back with him like literally why bro just let the girl be, I beg

11-4

literally, like just let her live her life instead of fucking inserting yourself so boldly, and often so jokingly. i get that you wanna fucking climax and also go back to the future but it's so frustrating to have him want to get back with her romantically out of selfish desire instead of at least helping her altruistically

This is so devastating, I don't fucking want them together fr

omg, her telling him to go back to the past

I guess he's gonna go back in time and do things differently. I'm just glad that in this scenario with how things have played out, in this timeline how original Alex lived, Jean can't forgive him or get together with him. So I'm partially getting what I wanted.

Also interesting parallel with Alex's father who Alex is now refusing to give a second chance, to come into his life, because he fucked up big time as well and there's just no coming back from that to suddenly be a good dad or being involved with Alex's life.

Also, people in the YT comments or on reddit who are acting like "ohhh Alex didn't know, he can't be held accountable for that night/for not knowing about the pregnancy, Jean should've told him yada yada", fuck you like actually. She was a young woman who was raped by somebody she deeply trusted (idc that he was young and drunk and it was "unintentional" - doesn't undo what he did), then ostracized by the school while he was put on a padastal (and left his other friends to follow his popularity), then suspended, then found out she was pregnant at a time when abortion was illegal. It makes plenty of fucking sense to me that she didn't go and tell Alex what happened. It's not even like she was doing anything to Alex in the current timeline, he's the one who keeps inserting himself into her life and pursing her romantically despite her saying no multiple times (parallels?).

Ep 12 (Apr 26)

I don't really feel like watching this ep but I will because I just wanna be done bruh

1.5x speed idc

12-1

please Alex going around and being elated toward Grandpa and Ice who are like ?? lol

omg this is so funny as he gives everybody the advice they need 10 years in the future

12-2

bro there is noooo way they're gonna give Jean's iconic dildo defense rant to fucking Alex

bro you just went on a time travelling mission that taught you about your mistakes when you were drunk this night at this party, c'mon don't drink bruh

12-3

not the Liu-Ew and Jedi-Rose making out competition

Joe-Army have had more sex in public places than in private in every timeline

12-4

pls not the time jump again when he orgasms

Honestly, a pretty fun end and kind of makes me less upset at the other stuff. Like I'm still intellectually upset at it when I think about it, but I'm on a high from the fun stuff, so it doesn't feel as terrible as when I finished ep 11.

Overall:

A unique and enjoyable show, it was so fun to see all these characters in their specific situations and how they deal with them. The characters were all compelling, it's wild how I was into all their storylines. how charming each character/their story was, and how the story juggled them. It also made me see a bunch of actors in new lights, New most of all, as they acted in a role outside of their usual wheelhouse.

I think the most frustrating part for me was how it seemed like although they were getting at it, they never quite acknowledged that what Alex did to Jean that night was rape. It made me quite angry actually, especially how Alex's actions didn't feel like it actually took Jean's feelings and trauma and requests into account. I was at least glad that in that timeline, Jean doesn't get back with Alex.

Rating: 7/10

[iloveusadapekora]

spoiler ahead! Some ramblings Coz i just finished the game

1st of all, I felt so bad for professor fig. I was suspicious of him. I thought his a double agent. I'm so sorry prof! Also, The profs backing us up was thrilling.

2nd I love how the 3 side stories are opposing 3 diff sides of the enemies. Natty with rookwood and harlow?, poppy with saving the beasts from the poachers, and sebastian with ranrok.

3rd I love the Named Npc's but some of them I only get to interact with one or two times. Can't even voluntarily talk to them outside quest. I had to stand around them for 5 mins just to hear some dialogue.

4th Sebastian and Ominis. Yeah yeah, the hearthrobs of the series. As much as I like the both of them. I personally grew to like ominis more. Sebs was the kind guy at first but was hiding a dark side. Went anakin mode that guy. I was scared of ominis at first, seems rude, but he became the soft guy in the end. He considered the player his friend by the end. Like this guy melts all walls when the player talks reason. While when we talk to seb it always steers his way. I get that he is saving his family. I'm happy to help but most of the time, i had a feeling that he would hurt or toss my character aside if we we're of no help.

I didn't turn him in btw because he is all the family anne has left. And he was lost and had no guidance except for ominis and the character who are storywise the same age as him.

5th -- I felt that solomon knows more of anne's curse than what was told. Man is an ex auror that dealt with dark magic. Maybe the curse couldve killed the one who healed or reversed it. Either that or he is trying to kill his niece and nephew. This dude was one of the ones i fought. I was like " bruh! Why are u shooting spells at us? Get out of the way!" I tried not hitting him for minutes thinking a cutscene would happen, a route we didn't knew. But nah. Had to defeat this dude. Short temper runs in the fam i guess.

Also, i wanted to get to know anne more. Coz i as the player met her twice. Sebastian keeps telling me "for anne". As much as I pity her situation, I wanted to give more meaning on helping her. They say she's the most troublemaker out of 3 of them. But, all i saw is a level headed person who became weak. Idk. Its complicated.

So that's all for now. Don't know if i'll make a 2nd run because real life is tiring. But i'll try. It was fun while it lasted. I'm just gonna be reading posts now.

On a side note, My hufflepuff character became a known dark magic user within the enemy ranks. I sometimes hear a dialogue like that.

Also! A little thing i found.

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZS8C5sFm2/

[chuluoyi]

Hihiii I finally have the time to reply to this!!

AHAHHA you should accumulate all your leave days and go for a long break! If not a short trip to unwind. It'll definitely helppp

RIGHT like UGH this man is so.... UGHH I want to run my hands along his undercut and like HE'S SO PRETTY- I went nuts after watching JJK 0 [I started with the movie idk why] and after watching the series I'm like "I love this man he's so hot and funny at the same time." Then his collab arts... They're always so... He always looks so... Slutty I'm sorry but look at the Dolce and Gabbana art... The Tokyo tower collab too... Idk I can't find a better word to describe him...

Babe I understand that fear it ain't stupid! Not tryna scare you more but I remember when I was like 11? I was on a beach in Phuket when I picked up this super pretty shell buried in the sand. Then uk what? A worm wiggled out of it. I screamed so loud like wtf was that monstrosity 😭😭 I guess a way to prevent sand submerging your feet is to wear sandals or flip flops?

Oh man I never expected that you felt like that once too 😭 I understand the mum hanging you part... I think mine would skin me alive and feed me to my dogs... That's good to hear! I'm really glad you found a job to your liking. Thanks for the advice Chu!🥲🥲 You have no idea how much I appreciate that. It feels like my friends from Secondary school know what they're doing and are slowly leaving me behind ngl... One of my friends is in the same course as me, but in different schools. She got a GPA of 4.0 for the first semester... and cause I flunked my Econs and AI class I got like a 2.9... So yeah I really appreciate your encouraging words 😭

SUSHI ROLL HAHAHA HELPPPP HAHAHAHA Okay but I'm sure you're not like short short. I'm not that tall either ahhaha!

Queen SLAY AHAHHA they definitely deserved it! Even if you didn't speak up, I'm sure someone else would've done the same sooner or later. Fr they're so annoying bruh

Omg nice! Okay to me, "A good day to be a dog" is good. Maybe cause I'm still halfway through... But so far it's good! I find the plot pretty unique! Omg I added Gyeongseong creature to my list ahah! Yeah it actually looks good! Ngl I wasn't a fan of sweet home but I wanna watch Gyeongseong creature cause of Park Seojun hehehe I loved "What's wrong with secretary Kim?" so much!

RIGHT I'M SO SORRY BUT HE'S SO SEXY IN THAT UGHHH

Yes... It's always the food and snacks.... Omgod I get it. Like it's always about exam results and once I'm old enough they'll probs start talking about finding a boyfriend... Then it'll be a job... I'm not ready 🥲🥲 But Fr the only thing I look forward to is the 红包 like trust me I've been ready since last CNY. Take the money as our prize money for enduring the relatives' questions heh. I'm so surprised you celebrate CNY too tho like no offence but I really didn't expect that...

Dissolved is an understatement... Idk I'm probs the one dissolving... HELP confessing your sins?! 🫠🫠 All I did was to pray to my flower agate tower... Did it work? It probably didn't. But it was worth a try! Crystal manifesting is a stressful process you know?

Nono I'm really not smart I just grinded my ass off... I hate my education system..... AND FR Lit is annoying in that sense but I mean it's the closest thing to reading and writing that I have so...

YEAHH They're so cute! I think I have a soft spots for animals in general AHAHH

Exercise... 🫠🫠🫠🫠 What's that?

Thanks sm Chu!! I will! I'm waiting for 3rd March to come cause I'm going for Taytay's concert woohooo That's probably the only good thing that's gonna happen to me this year so I'm gonna cherish it!

Also I'm so happy to be your first emoji anon It's an honour 😫😫

AND your Marius card! He's so hot in that omg and Rosa... ROSA IS SO PRETTY DGSDVXDHJ AHH

I managed to get Luke from the free 10-time! And I'm tryna get Artem now! I haven't gotten an Artem card in ages... Also what do you think about the new event? I think it's pretty cool! Much better than the others!

-🪩

disco anonn!! i finally can sit down to reply you!!🥹

i'm so doing that!! i plan to take a week-long vacation too in mid year so that i can leave everything in the dust ehe

HAHAHAHAHAH omg that's precisely also my reaction!!😫 you know i first came to know gojo not from jjk but from @/saintobio's sincerely not series. and he is written a prick there so i didn't have a good impression🥲 but then my bf roped me into jjk and then i see it firsthand and AAAA i'm down so bad for this prick uHHHH and that's so true the power behind that undercut is so🥲 that's totally okay i think of him as the best slut there is AHAHAHAH

A WORM😭😭😭 i'd flip and fall😭 i do wear flipflops but still... what's flipflops gonna do against the sand?🫠 during my company retreat last year, i wear flipflops and but my feet would crash against... rocks?🫠 it hurts *sobsobsob* and it got inside my nails i was like 😭

AHAHAHHAAHAH THAT'S SO TRUE OUR MOM😭😭😭 aww you're very much welcome!! i wished someone would say that to me too and i'm glad that you're encouraged🥹 ahh don't worry! GPA isn't everything. in real world, what matters the most is our communication skills and how we present myself🥹 not to brag, but my last GPA is 3.56 and my friend's is like 3.9-ish (nearing perfect omg) but now i got the better exposure and ratings🥲 my team leader says that's because i make friends with everyone and do presentations better than her (simple things like presentations matters a lot apparently i just knew it🥲) but that's not to say that we should ditch our GPA... just study well and do your best! <3 God will do the rest i assure you! don't give up, disco anon!! <3

i relate to you, me and my friends used to be a group of 6, but now the one who sticks with me is just one🥹 it hurts but sometimes that's just the way it is... especially when we don't share the same interest...

I'M A WALKING SUSHI ROLL REALLY AJAISJDAOISJDAS

okay i think there are at least 3 people saying that a good day to be a dog is good so... i relent🥹 i'll watch it!! PARK SEOJUN is so dayum there omg he's so pristine and aisjdoasjda okay i'm totally normal about him... totally... normal... the plot is unique and i love it but yes, i do have to agree that the CGI looks a bit off🥲 but pay that no mind and just look at park seojoon🥹 everything will be well AHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHA OMG WE'RE SO THE SAMEE i used to get the boyfriend asks a lot and they even tried to set me up!!😭 thank god i found a bf already or else they'll start putting me up for sale😭 that aside, don't take those questions to heart, that's just how nosy aunties are🥹 ah fyi, i'm of chinese descent so i totally celebrate the chinese new year and all of those praying anniversaries that i... don't remember a single thing about🥲

HAHAH THAT'S SO FUNNY pls disco anon don't dissolve😭 omg flower agate tower?? i lit looked it up... what is this?🥹 it looks cute and it says it's for healing... (pls correct me if i'm wrong because... most likely i am...)

oh my!! i'm so happy for you!!🥹 honestly some people in my office have gone to her concert too and i'm interested... but i'm not a fan of being squished in the spectator stands🥲 wishing you to have the most fun there!! <3

ADAKSJNDAKSJDA omg marius he's draining my schips and NOW I WANT LUKE TOO BUT AKDASDA I CAN ONLY DEPEND FROM THE DAILY(?) FREE PULLS AND I HAVEN'T GOTTEN HIM STILLL i forgot that it's the pilot card that i've been looking forward too omg i was so in for the suspense and all but i was too blinded by marius😭 YES it's so fun! tbh during bakerlon and the cafe event i was like ??? many times but here it's so engaging and everyone looks so pretty!!🥹 rosa in chinese qipao is sooo pretty godsssss i don't usually stan for girls but she's the only exception!!

have you caught up with the main story and all? honestly i haven't been able to catch up with it🥲

[nelly-wants-to-b-skinny]

I've been wanting to do this but I'll just do it all together :)

1. weight- 185, chest- 41.2, waist-34.0, hips-44.0, thighs- 28.0

2. 5'5, yes im totally okay with my height tbh

3. we have a very similar body type so i feel like it's the most realistic for me

4. tbh just losing my dd boobs that's it.

5. im tired of being the big and ugly friend, i owe it to my young chubby self to finally be pretty.

6. define binge lol. to me if I eat normally i define that as binge. but tbh I don't think I actually binge idk.

7. yes they do, however they don't know how far I'm willing to go. but they don't. they're actually happy I am.

8. i would do cardio 3 times a week, and then do core 2 times a week, but now im doing chloe ting workouts so :))

9. 100% all the time, I've hears it ever since grade school tbh, and it's literally ruined who I am and my relationship with food.

10. i guess my love for baking, it's been really hard baking for my friends and family and not having the opportunity to have these things yk.

11. lol i don't have one hahaha.

12. hmm that's a good question, i usually stick to fruits i try to stay away from meat and dairy, however it's not always easy. but for a good day, I'll have my black coffee in the morning and then like a garden salad in the afternoon.

13. definitely unhealthy lmao, I will starve myself until I lose as much weight as I can.

14. 120lbs, it used to be 140 but that's how much my sis weighs and I wanna be smaller than her

15. I'm neither but I seriously am considering going vegetarian bc I didn't eat meat for 3 days and lost literally 7lbs so I just might.

16. I've always tried to lose weight, yk go on a diet, work out, however this year I realized I was going to go on vacation and I needed to look pretty for my pictures so I decided to go back to my old habits and I triggered my ed, it took some time like 2 months until eventually in the end of March I started thinking the same way once again. I would starve and calculate calories.

17. im not sure. I don't want to say yes since I'm not diagnosed, but I will say I have disordered eating 100%.

18. cheese. ik ppl are gonna scream, but I love it so much lol.

19. hmm actually a while back I think like a couple weeks ago maybe I month.

20. ballerina diet ahhh or maybe the iu diet.

21. triggered. lol I'm usually a L/XL for jeans I'm a 14. bra size is 38DD.

22. damn idk bruh, I remember when I used to be 160, that's the lowest number I can remember, that's when I started weighing myself and it ruined me. I don't remember gaining weight tbh, I think it was when I was recovering.

23. absolutely. growing up I watched eugenia a lot and i loved kpop in ms so I would always wonder what it would be like to be skinny like them.

24. uh i don't like them, but that's me personal. I'm not someone to encourage this illness to someone else.

25. yes. I've done it multiple times. my first time was at a party actually. I had eaten 3 slices of pizza and my stomach hurt rlly bad I had told my friend and she told me she'd find me laxatives or smth I told her no. so I hard searched up what to do and I found a reddit form about purging I did exactly that and threw up as much as I could. it was so bad I was crying bc I felt to bad but my stomach felt better. I think that's when I realized I could enjoy my food but also not consume calories.

26. CLOTHES. finally getting to wear what I want and look pretty no matter what. ugh I can't wait.

27. i try to slip into a mentality of like food isn't fuel it's trash, and it's gonna make you rot.

28. I'd love to, i want to lose as much thigh fat as possible I don't think i could think bc of my family genes

29. anything but me. I don't think beauty can be defined. to me beauty is a subjective what is beautiful to me is not beautiful to you.

30. im hispanic. i have curly hair. im bi. i have a gf. i like to bake. i can't swim. i have insomnia. i have social anxiety. i love kpop. coffee is my bsf.

[missusdiary]

july 19th. 2024

i’ve found myself doing more research into the art of detachment recently.

for a while now i’ve attempted some semblance of detachment by just ignoring the things that happen to me and then try to forget about them. sometimes i would think about how they made me feel, and what i could do to stop feeling that way, but i never actually solved what was ailing me and moved forward from it.

i ended up carrying things with me, despite my wanting to move on because i didn’t actually work through it. thinking about things over and over doesn’t do that, and while it seems simple when i write it out, it’s so hard to tell if i’m convincing myself that i’m getting over something versus actually getting over it.

somewhere along the way -i guess this might stem from trauma- i suppose i stopped analyzing and listening to any emotional turmoil and forced myself to get over it because i wasn’t receiving any support or comfort from it. maybe because when i was younger, and people brushed off my, well, everything..i stopped actually listening to how i felt and just tried to forget about it.

i remember i recognized the pattern around 13 or 14 but could never decide if i wanted to change it or not because at the time it kinda worked for me. i was unhappy and i always felt misunderstood but as long as i knew how i felt, it didn’t really matter.

thus, i’ve grown into an adult who holds grudges for years and years instead of speaking up about things when they happen. things i will never confront anyone about because i’m a coward.

so, in comes the art of detaching properly!

i’ve wanted to work on this because of the problems listed above as well as just not feeling like shit and overanalyzing things i cannot control. it’s exhausting and i’m so sick of it. i want to learn how to not think about things or take things personally and all that.

for a while i thought i was doing pretty well and i was pretty chill but i’m all fucked up and i want to be better.

this next part is kinda the catalyst to all this.

i am surrounded by couples, have been for years now, and the one i’m closest to are open. one has a crush on their friend whom they introduced to their partner, and now both of them are crushing. they don’t know this person’s exact orientation or type.

my closer friend was kinda joking but also serious saying “oh y’all cant meet” because what if the person likes me?

my closer friend of the couple claims they have romantic ish feelings for me and we’ve entertained the thought of being together casually for a couple years now, and have kissed a couple of times. they’ve expressed that they want me, but i think the problem is that i do not want them. not because they’re unattractive but, because i want someone to myself.

i’ve been single forever. literally. every little fling or situation-ship i’ve had has crashed and burned and i keep hearing that certain things are better when you have someone you care about to do them with.

okay, cool. i don’t get out much, so i doubt i’m finding them anytime soon. whatever, i need to work on myself anyways.

however, it’s lonely as fuck not being someone else’s first priority. not having someone just for me, not being able to share things only with one another. my own person who actually likes me.

pair that with literally everyone else having some kind of personal support system to themselves and boundaries between us, while also being their emotional support?

bruh.

so when they were like “what if they like you?” i was like

“idk, what if?” i’ve never met this person, idk anything about them, so i’m not really really thinking about it.

in passing, before this conversation -because i’m a lonely bitch- i thought “omg what if they’re my soulmate?” and then i was like “if it happens it happens” and of course i’ve got a bit of hope in my soul because i’ve waited long enough have i not? don’t i deserve to be happy as well?

but i wasn’t planning anything. i really just brushed it off. then we had the conversation and i was like, well if someone else thinks there’s a chance it could happen, mayhaps? but the thing that bothered me was, while i know they have their crushes, i do not know this person. this person is not a thing to put dibs on or internalize plans to woo them.

i just felt kinda weird about the whole thing, because what if? and my question wasn’t really answered.

i felt like, because of my friend’s romantic feelings for both of us, they were kinda trying to fit me in a place where they could have me and have the other person as well. it was just such a weird conversation and i’ve been thinking about all that’s been implied from it.

for now i’m just gonna say i’m reading too much into things, and keep with my “whatever happens, happens.” mindset because that’s all i can really do regarding this.

there are more pressing things to attend to.

[emeraldbabygirl]

BITCH I AM SALISH. I THOUGHT I WAS FLATHEAD BUT NO ITS SALISH

AND I FINALLY FOUND A LANGUAGE APP SO I CAN LEARN SALISH IM SO EXCITED

And for anyone wondering yes my background is Xen uwu

[petersnya]

because i love you | peter p

anon; can you do a peter parker one based like a year or so after NWH where the reader is his girlfriend (him and mj were never a thing and he made strange exclude reader from his spell) one day he gets down on one knee and says “this was aunt mays ring. i want you to have it. she want you to have it.” just tooth rottenly fluff?

bruh— idk y i didn’t do this sooner cuz it’s so fcking cute!!!! i rlly like this. no i love this. this is my personal fav so i can’t wait for u guys to read it !!! okok love u - xo

post nwh!! so there will be spoilers ; peter parker x fem!reader ; warnings: fluff. like FLUFFFF, cursing, kissing 😗 wc; 1k

Six months. It's been six months since what happened to peter.

And now, here you were. Six months later. Peter was doing better- much, much better actually. He was starting to go back to how he used to be. But, obviously, he would never be the same; and you couldn't blame him. He started to kendal a friendship with Ned and MJ again. He couldn't bear to watch them laugh and joke without him. He especially couldn't sit back and watch people flirt with you while at college- not remembering you had a boyfriend, cause that boyfriend was peter. No one remembered him.

“Hey pete? Im back,” you dragged out the last bit in a singsong-like voice with a smile lighting up your features. But you got no response. Placing your keys on the dining table, you made your way to your shared bedroom. You peaked your head in and still saw no sign of Peter there. Your smile faded as you entered the doorway.

“Peter?” you noticed the door to the closet was ajar with the light on side- shuffling coming from inside.

“In here y/n,” Peter called back to you.

“Peter what the hell are you… doing?” looking at him in confusion, you leaned on the closest door frame with your arms crossed over your chest. Peter just turned his head over his shoulder and smiled at you with his usual cute little smile- and you couldn't help but to smile back.he was hunched over a small, cardboard box, tossing things out as he looked for something with such urgency. It took you a second, but you soon realized that the box was titled ‘Aunt May’. you heart snak but you tried your best not to show it cause for some reason.. Peter looked happy. Almost excited. So you didn't show the sorry you felt for him and yourself.

Your smile soon found its way back onto your face as you heard the sound of Peter's small, victorious ‘yes’.

“I assume you've found what you were looking for?” you questioned with a smirk.

“Yes.. yes i have,” watching Peter, he stood quickly as made his way past you as he stared at the small box in his hands. He walked over to sit on the bed, still staring at the small, blue velvet box.

“Oh um… come- come it,” Peter patted the empty spot next to him on the bed. You gladly took the offer and sat close to his side. Then you noticed a little sniff come from him.

“Peter, are you ok? Is there anything i can do-”

“No, I'm fine,” Peter laughed at you as he wiped the tear that fell from his eye. He could tell that you were still tense, so he took your hand in his tenderly. You looked down at your intertwined hands, watching as he rubbed the back of your hand slowly. He let out a tremiling breath that he had seemed to be holding in this whole time.

“y/n… you have been there for me, always. And I can't thank you enough. You were there when i became spider man- you were there for me as the old peter too. And I will never leave your side, ever. And I know I say that I love you.. But I just wanna show you how much I love you,” and with that, Peter pulled you up to stand with him and walked you two over to the door of the balcony of the apartment. You don't know how you missed it, but there was fairy light and flowers all over.

Your breath caught in your throat as you let Peter lead you to the place he wanted you to stand. You were so busy looking at the whole set up, and whipping the tears that fell from your eyes to even notice what Peter was doing.

Looking around, you didn't see Peter at eye level, but then you looked down to see him on his right knee. Tears rimmed at his eyes as you looked up at you with every ounce of love he had in him- and you did the same.

“Before you say it- no i'm not proposing… yet,” the both of you broke out in laughter at his comment. “But,” your entire body shook as you watched Peter hold out the blue box in front of you.

“This was my Aunt May's ring. and .. and I wanted you to have it. I knew she would want you too.”

You couldnt to do anything but smile at him as he slipped the ring on your finger with a shaky hand. He quickly stood and pulled you into him tightly- rubbing you back and placing many kisses on your forehead.

“Why me?” you don't know why you asked the question, but curiosity was getting the best of you.

Peter didn't say anything. Instead he lifted your head and connected your lips in a passionate kiss. The kiss started to get carried away- but Peter suddenly stopped it.

“One sec,” he quickly pulled you inside and closed the balcony door. You watched as he picked up a hidden cam corridor that was angles towards the both of you. Laughing, you looked at him with raised brows. “I wanted to charise the moment.

Once the camera was off he rushed over to you and pulled you into a now lustful kiss- that you enjoyed immensely.

With his hand on your lower back, he moved you to the bedroom door. When your back hit the door, you fumbled to open it. And once it was, Peter pulled away to catch his breath. Then his mind went back to the question you asked you had asked earlier.

“Because I love you.”

[sctoru]

First date with the haikyuu boys ✯

Fandom: haikyuu

Characters: nishinoya, kenma, osamu

Genre: fluff

Warnings: swearing

Nishinoya

Tbh, it took him 3 days to have the balls to ask you out on a date (thanks to ennoshita and tanaka)

You both decided to have a picnic date (ngl i would want it 😪)

For a good 5 minutes, nishinoya was looking everywhere trying to avoid meeting your eyes (poor baby is still shy)

"Nishinoya?? Are you okay? What's the matter?" Nishinoya directly looked at you "a-ah! n-no nothing!"

Finally, he soon relaxed a bit and found a topic to talk to you abt (ex: how was the day, how pretty you look, etc) while you both ate your foods. He also joked around to make the atmosphere more comfortable

Nishinoya was the one who brought the foods

Not long later, his head is on your lap while looking at the skies with you, he soon ended up sleeping but its fine, you just need to wake him up later

Kenma

This man litteraly asked you by texting you (even though kuroo said that its better to say it in person)

Kenma

Hey y/n, i dont know if you want to but will you go on a date with me? I know its a sudden but if you dont want to, its fine

Y/n

Ah? Are you for real?! Of course i want to!

gaming date, gaming date, gaming date, gaming date, gaming date, periodt. No one can change my mind

You'll be invited to kenma's house, you'll be in his room sitting next to him with a PS4 in front of you both

He might get shy at first but he'll soon be comfortable!

At first, you both played call of duty but you realised you're bad at it so you asked kenma to change the game, so...you both ended up playing minecraft which is actually fine to him

"Ah shit! These blazes are getting on my fucking nerves!" Kenma chuckled a bit and you were shook, he actually chuckled! "Just try hitting it y/n, im sure you'll be able to kill it" kenma smiled, you were even more shook now but kenma realised what he just did and became shy again

Oh and! You both ordered your food! You wanted McDonalds and he agreed, when the food came..you both ate while playing minecraft

You ended up going home at 11 pm bcs you got carried away by the game

Osamu

He wouldn't be so shy to ask you out but he does felt nervous

He was shook and happy you accepted it this boy is screaming his lungs out

He shows off to atsumu (LOL)

"hey, guess what? Y/n accepted it" with a cocky grin on his face that made atsumu annoyed asf

Your date with Osamu will probably be in his house but huft well uh shit, it wont go well bcs there's atsumu

But uh anyways, you both have netflix movie night dates

You'll be cuddled up with him with a cozy blanket and snacks all over the bed. You know- just chill with him while watching stranger things? Idk up to you though, he is always okay with your choice of movies except for fifthy shades of grey and 365 days (LMAO SORRY IM JOKING)

Atsumu always barges in just to get osamu annoyed, usually when that happens..Osamu will kick him out and lock the door 😊🤝

Always checks up on you like cmon bruh fr

"Hey, are you okay? You cold? Need sum' more cozy blanket?" You shook your head, "nah, i just like how warm your body is"

Congratulations, you've made him blush 😌✌

The date ends with you sleeping on his bed (dw he'll wake you up and walk you home)

[sortasirius]

“Inherit the Earth” and the Fakeout

Absolutely genius.  Amazing, iconic, legendary, something only our showrunner Andrew Dabb can pull off.

"But Lilly, the episode was so bad!  It was just the brothers, they didn’t look for Cas and Eileen!”

YES.  THAT IS EXACTLY THE POINT.  THIS WAS A FAKE ENDING, THE END OF THE SEASON, NOT OF THE SERIES.

Let’s get into it.

An empty world.  No one left but Sam, Dean, and Jack.

So Dean ran, he somehow managed to pick himself up off the floor of the dungeon and meet up with Sam and Jack.  That jacket was this silent reminder.  Remember what I’ve been saying, Cas has occupied the negative space all season, this is no exception.

Dean can’t look either of them in the face, he’s doing that thing, where his eyes move everywhere BUT where he should look. 

“I couldn’t save anybody.”

Sam couldn’t save the world and Dean couldn’t save the one person that means the world to him.

“Where’s Cas?”

“Dean?”

I think it’s there, in that pause where Dean tries to push down the emotions, continue the fight, not think about the memories he left in the bunker, that Jack realizes what must have happened. Jack is the only one that knows about the deal, he has to know what Cas not being there must mean.

“He saved me.  Billie was coming after us.  Cas summoned the Empty.  It took her...and took him.  Cas is gone.”

This may shock you, but I am GLAD they didn’t talk about Cas, especially with what happens at the end of the episode.  Cas is allowed to just take up unsaid space.  It’s obvious he’s missing with the way they blocked things, obvious he’s missing here.  This whole “oh well they don’t care about Cas because they didn’t talk about him”?  Malarkey.

“Jack I’m sorry.”

Guilt.  Regret.  Pain.  Dean will carry this with him for the rest of his life.  Not only that he lost Cas, but that Sam lost Cas, that Jack lost Cas.

That SHOT, with the distance between Jack and Sam where Cas is SUPPOSED TO BE, and then a zoom out to...THE WORLD.

Okay, as usual, Bucklemming has the subtlety of a sledgehammer lmao.

Jack crying???  Praying to Cas????  Bruh?????

Also it’s just straight-up frightening for everything around my boy to die he is my baby son.

Also not to point out the incredibly obvious, but Dean starts drinking immediately, and continues drinking throughout the whole episode.  Grief arc 2.0 babey.

“We can what, Dean?  There’s no one left to save!  Everybody’s gone!”

“You can’t just give up.”

“What other choice do we have!”

Idk why, but for Sam, who’s the constant, the one who’s always had hope, through everything, through all these years, when he finally says this, when he finally loses his hope?  It hits the hardest.  Sam is the leader, so not only is he grieving the loss of Eileen, he is a general grieving the loss of his soldiers, his friends, the world that he feels the duty to save.

When they go to meet Chuck, I just can’t get that image of Dean, leaning against the car, handprint still on his jacket, staring at the ground out of my head.  It takes him a few seconds to catch up to Sam, like he’s pulled out of thoughts like deep dark water.  Remember friends, it doesn’t have to be loud to be powerful.

Chuck wearing BLACK?  FEAR.

“That’s right, the whole Cain and Abel thing.  Us dead, whatever.  I’ll kill Sam, Sam’ll kill me, we’ll kill each other.  Okay, you pick.  But first?  You gotta put everything back the way it was.  The people, the birds...Cas.  You gotta bring him back.”

Willing to kill his brother.  Willing to die.  Tears in his eyes, begging God to bring Cas back.

And Chuck?  Chuck doesn’t care about their surrender, he knows he’s already got them beaten.  He cares about their pain, he cares about them suffering, because to him?  That’s the entertainment.  He’s not entertained by their found family, by their happiness, by their joy.  He wants them to suffer, all of them.

“Eternal shame.  Suffering.  And loneliness.”

And he leaves them with just that.  No hope, no family, just the three of them, broken, alone.  Jack locked in his bedroom, Sam trying desperately to make life “normal” again.  And Dean.  Dean who drank so much he passed out on the floor.

He doesn’t feel terrific, he feels like shit, because not only is he dealing with the shame of an empty planet, he’s dealing with the guilt of being back in the place where the Empty took Cas.

This whole thing with the dog was just absolutely heartwrenching shit and if I didn’t hate Chuck before, him snapping Miracle right in front of an already fragile Dean would seal that deal.

I just want everyone to know that this is a Jake Abel stan account.

“Daddy’s boy” is a big insult for my boy Dean to use considering his own past with his trash abusive father but I’ll allow it.

I do think it’s interesting, ending of his arc aside, that Michael is willing to help them now.  What changed?  Sure, he ended up trying to help Chuck, running back to his father, but why get back in the game?  I wonder if it has anything to do with the loss of Adam.  It’s an interesting parallel, a man loses his angel while an angel loses his human.

Everything is so DARK in the Bunker now too, even the lighting is loud.

When I tell you I lost my shit when I saw Cas was calling Dean, when I heard Misha’s voice??  I knew it didn’t make any sense but I didn’t care, I would’ve been one step behind Dean as he sprinted towards the door.

Fuck you, Eugenie.

I mean it’s torture not only to Dean, who looks beyond fucking crushed when it’s damn Lucifer at the door, but for us too.  Who the FUCK wanted Lucifer back?  And to tease Cas???  Garbage.

I mean...fam.  Listen, we know who’s writing this episode, this whole Betty thing is just like blatantly unnecessary but again, Eugenie loves Lucifer, gotta distract her with a shiny toy lmao.

It was cool to see Michael and Lucifer onscreen together.  It was a cool dynamic that we rarely got to see.

The whole episode is just twist after twist.  Listen, it’s their last episode so I guess they needed to fit in a season worth of twists in one episode.

Bye Lucifer.  We know Eugenie can’t bring him back.  Blessings to all.

This scene with Adam is the FOURTH scene where Dean is drinking...big yikes to my guy’s liver.

Here’s the thing about Michael.  He’s a mirror for Dean in season 5.  Loyal to an absent father.  He has never changed, but Dean has.  Dean is able to acknowledge now, the trauma that his father put him through, he was able to move past the need for pleasing him at any cost.  Michael and Chuck?  Are John and Dean, if Dean had never been allowed to grow.  And Chuck proves, like John did, that he would always put his wants (in John’s case “the mission”) over his children.

Also not to beat a dead horse but Michael’s death was also peak Eugenie.

Sam getting to punch Chuck in the face?  Thank you, he deserves that.

Obviously I don’t love any scene of my boys getting brutally beaten.  But what I love, what I will always love about them, is what Chuck hates about them:  they won’t ever give up.  They know they won’t win against him, they don’t even land any hits, but that’s not what matters.  What matters is their controller doesn’t control them anymore, that they really are free.  No matter how hard they get hit, the get back up.  It is their choice to stand up to him, no matter the cost.

The moment where Sam and Dean are supporting each other, covered in blood, and they look God in the face, and they laugh.  That is why I will love them unconditionally for the rest of my life.  That is who they are, they will never cow to the villain, whether that’s Azazel or Alastair or Zachariah or Lucifer or Amara or Death or Metatron or Cain or God.  They will always choose to stand up.

“Why are you smiling?”

“Because.  You lose.”

Chills.  What a line.

And Chuck is left, small, human, no longer a villain, no longer anything.

Gotta be real, woulda been nice to, idk, not see all this essential plot in a flashback, but I know I can only ask so much of Bucklemming.

For Dean to walk away from killing Chuck, right after he’s called him “the ultimate killer” is quite simply the most beautifully heartwrenching thing I could ever ask for.  Because that’s who Dean was under Chuck, that’s who Chuck wanted him to be.

And he would have before:

But he’s heard some things since then, heard some things about how others see him.  Not as the killer, not as a monster, not as angry and broken or his daddy’s blunt instrument:

I’m not saying that Dean doesn’t kill Chuck for Cas.  He doesn’t kill Chuck because he doesn’t think he has to anymore, he doesn’t kill Chuck because he listened to Cas, he took Cas’ words to heart.  He made the choice not to be the killer.

“See that’s not who I am, that’s not who we are.”

And Chuck is angry, because he thought, after everything, even after losing, that he would still know Dean well enough to know that he would kill him.  But Chuck has never really known Dean, he has never understood where he’s really come from.  Cas understood, Sam and Jack understand, but Chuck never did, and writing off Dean as angry and broken is his biggest mistake, because that’s never been Dean.

“It’s not his power anymore.”

And it’s not just his physical power, it’s his power over the story, over the boys that’s the real power taken from him.

For Jack to be the one to bring everyone back, for him to be the hero of the story?  That’s poetic right there.  Now, I will say, I don’t think this story ends with him as God, because for him, the child, to take on this burden, it doesn’t make a ton of sense to me for his arc, but we shall see next week.  It felt pretty tied up, but there’s one major loose end: and that’s Jack seeing Cas again.

“Just you and me, going wherever the story takes us.  Just us.”

“Finally free.”

This doesn’t feel triumphant to me, it doesn’t feel like relief.  It feels like they’ve settled, like this is the best they’re going to get, so they might as well make the best of it, at least they have each other.

For Cas and Jack to be carved into the table?  I cry.

And for the montage, very similar to “Swan Song” to be set to “Runnin on Empty”?  Sorry but that’s just too sus to be ignored.

They packaged this episode as an ending, because for many, it might be.  The season’s story, the season about fighting Chuck is over.  So, you might be asking (or, well, screaming, judging by my replies lol), what’s left?  And that’s a good question, Chuck has been defeated, so what is left?  What’s left is what’s really mattered all season: the relationships that have been crafted over the years.  Dean and Sam’s unhappiness at the end of the episode, where “just you and me” sounded more of a grudging acceptance than anything else, is one of the clues that has to be looked at.  Why didn’t Sam find Eileen, why didn’t Jack bring back Cas?  Those two characters specifically are the ones we need to watch out for.  As I’ve said over and over again, peace, contentment, satisfaction, those don’t come from Sam and Dean on the open road together anymore.  They have a family, more of a family than they did when they started hunting together all those years ago, and that family is what holds them together.  They need each other, of course, but each other isn’t enough anymore.  Sam needs Eileen, Dean needs Cas.  That is where they will find their peace.

This episode, as many written by Bucklemming was sloppy, rushed, packed full of shit, and had little gems that we can talk about forever, but that was the end of the season, and next week?  Andrew Dabb brings us home, where Dean and Sam will finally be able to choose what they want for themselves, and that, my friends, is Eileen and Cas.

[hellmothereva]

I HAVE FEELINGS! FOR ZOMBIE-ALIEN-HUMAN-HYBRIDS!!! I need to talk about Army of the Dead (2021) by Zack Snyder!!!

Lately I saw a lot of review-videos on YouTube about the Zack Snyder movie "Army of the Dead" (2021). It started with this Pitch Meeting video and now I have seen so many other people I never heard of talking about this movie I never watched. Because tbh I am TERRIFIED of the zombiegenre. I hate horrormovies! The only horrormovie I could ever watch on my own with a big grin was Scream 2 because it was so ridiculous. Also the Scream-guy stalked around like Otto Walkes, a german comedian. This took a lot of "scarieness" from it.

But Back to AOTD: Yes. I have never watched this movie. But I know everything because I watched the Making-of, reviews, clips etc. I know so much about the characters and I am so salty that the only surviver was Kate and that fucking cliffhanger made me so angry.

Ngl, this logic in this thing is a mess™️. I think Zack Snyder just had too many ideas and creative freedom in this. Also wtf, MATTHIAS SCHWEIGHÖFER???? WTF??? A GERMAN ACTOR? Named Ludwig Dieter???? 😭😂😂😂 Seriously, my motivation to watch it is 0. BUTT! I found a comment underneath the Pitch Meeting video saying something like: "Man, you haven't even mentioned the Zombie-Fetus" and I was instantly like "BITCH, the Zombie-WHAT???" and searched for it. I even found it. This could have been the end of my mini-AOTD-phase. I found what I was looking for. I found the fetus. Fetus found. Mission accomplished. I could have just forget it and laugh about it how the zombieguy showed the dead fetus around like fucking Simba.

And then I saw something in the google-picture-recommediations that touched something inside of me. A gif that reached a spot in my deepest depths, that made me feel fuzzy and happy. A gif that was pretty much this:

EXCUSE ME???? THEY'RE IN LOVE? SO I'M IN LOVE?????

This is so cute! I might cry! This touched my heart! I've been watching the damn scene the gif is from for 2 days now and I still feel so full of love for them! I was given zombies but IN LOVE!!!! ZOMBIES LOVING EACH OTHER! This scene had such an affection without them saying anything. Well... They growled a little. And tbh their growling and almost-head-rubbing had something so intimate! FFS, I felt like watching two cats greetings each other. I never saw two zombies (at least he is actually a zombie-human-alien-hybrid) showing actual love and emotion for each other. I mean maybe this isn't actually that new, IDK, I HATE ZOMBIES! BUTT!!!!! This awakend something in me and I will not stop thinking about them for at least (!!!) the next 5 minutes.

AND IT GOT BETTER!!!!

When her body was freed from her head and she screamed for him he CAME! And when he found her decapitated body he was so SAD! OUR BOY WAS DONE! And when he tried to save his baby and it died HE CRIED! ACTUAL ZOMBIETEARS!!! EMOTION! He was emotionally attached to babyfetus and his girl! HE MOURNED! MOURNING! Our boy mourned more for his baby and wifey than I did for my favourite pair of shoes when I had to throw them out. Bruh, I am still sad for him and his little fucked-up family. I would have never thought I would feel so much for zombies in love 😭

And in the end, when Lily (with zombie-queens still living head) and he were standing on the rooftop and Lily threathend to shoot zombie-queens head. COME ON!!! The looks he and his girl gave each other... I can't be the only one who thought this was very tragic and kinda sad? And when Lily threw zombie-queens head down the building and he ran for her falling head, trying to catch it in the last second and everything was slow-mo and he was unsuccessful... Bruh, that's rough, Buddy😥

FOR REAL! I don't care much about the humans in this movie but I would pay actual money to see how tf the lovestory between these 2 zombies came to be. Where are the mosterfuckers when I need them for the first time in my life??? I need fancontet! Fanfics! Fanart! Theories! Seriously, there are like 3 actual nice fanfics I could find about my zombie-otp. We need more!

ANYWAY, THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TEDTALK, GOODNIGHT!

Also I want to mention that their actors did such an good job and I actually give Zack Snyder credit for using actual humans/practical effects and not only CGI. He even used a real horse named Ace with a full zombie-body-suit. Love it!

[thermaflute]

hii i’m happy i found a pov writer idk if you’ll do this but can u make a story of a fem s/o and bakugou going to a cookout thank u 💗💗💗

I haven't been to a cookout in a proper minute. I miss normal outside activities man.

Cookout

Warning: cussing, implied spicy times

💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣💣

Your car drove around the twisting roads, avoiding cars parked in the road and children playing in the street. They seem mostly unconcerned until the car is right near them, to which they part and stare at the drivers intensely before continuing their game. There was someone mowing their yard, a couple talking in their messy garage, someone fixing their car, all normal neighborhood activities. None of it bothered you, but you could see by your boyfriend's intense expression that it was starting to get to him. You took one hand off the steering wheel and placed it on his shoulder, "Suki baby, are you okay?"

He kinda grumbled out a passive yes but you knew better than that. The car finally stops behind a ton of other cards parked outside of a house. You can hear the sound of music thumping throughout your car. "Are you nervous about my family?"

"No, I just haven't met them so I don't know what to expect." He continued his glaring out the window.

"They're like me, and you love me."

He smiles at you, "Who said that?"

You roll your eyes and jokingly punch his shoulder "help me get this stuff out of the car babe."

He grumbles at you and opens the back door to the rental, y'all grab a backpack with your swimsuits,a bag of plastic cutlery and napkins because your uncle forgot to bring it, and Katsuki carried all the packs of soda. 

The door swings open to the house, you can see someone in the living room chasing after a toddler with a diaper in hand. Your cousin at the door beams at you.

"Y/N! And who is this? Baby is this your MANS?? When you said you were done fucking with bums you MEANT that shit."

You two burst into laughter and Katsuki keeps a stern look on his face. Your sister brought you in for a hug and you immediately felt at home. "See Suki, they like you." 

"Tch, whatever." Yall walk into the house, music from the backyard is absolutely booming through the walls. You drop off the bag in the kitchen, making sure to hug your aunt that's making lemonade before walking to the backyard.

"You know when you said you were going on that study abroad I thought you'd be doing more studying?" You turn to see who's dissing you, ready to roast em back. It's your mom.

"Don't complain, he helps me with my work mom." You hug him and he looks off, placing his arm around you. 

"I'm just messing with ya." Your mom grins and gives both of you a hug. "I'm so happy you two could make it." 

As the day goes on, you almost forget that he was nervous earlier. He went back to his loud self and your family seems to not mind that he's a bit abrasive. If anything they enjoy it.

"Why he so angry Y/n, tell his ass to calm down before he pop a blood vessel." Your cousins laugh as Katsuki appears to boil. 

"Oh he just has a lot of energy. If he's being rude just bawl up on him or ignore him." You flick his arm and he turns to look at you with that teasing look. 

"Ignore him huh?" He moves you off of him and you giggle. 

You suck your teeth and give him a kiss "now shut your crybaby ass up and get in the pool with me." That lands you a swift pickup and drop into the pool. 

"Katsuki!" You move your curls from in front of your eyes and stare up at the man snickering in front of you. 

"I ain't getting in the water." Your little cousins gang up on him and push him into the pool, earning a laugh from everybody that was watching. 

"Now what loser" you say as you float against him. He grumbles the word 'dumbass' and you feel your heart flutter. You're so glad he's enjoying himself. 

The time continued to pass, and your dad calls everyone to grab a plate. Katsuki looks in pain at your father's choice of footwear (them whack ass new balances bruh). 

"Imma buy you one of those for when we throw our own cookouts" you whisper to him.

"I think my parents would kill me."

The night was full of music and laughter, the only reason y'all haven't gotten a noise complaint is because the whole neighborhood is here. You turn around in the lawn chair to see your boyfriend struggling to do the cupid shuffle. Your aunt is cracking up at his sudden inability to dance. "You didn't tell us he couldn't dance now."

Your uncle joins in "It ain't even a dance, the instructions are literally in the song." 

"Hey, this ain't the kind of dancing he's used to" you snicker, your cousins and friends roaring at your response.

"Y/n!"

"Oop, sorry dad." You swear he always catches you saying some nonsense and never when you're saying anything regular.

Katsuki comes walking over and sits on your lap, clearly exhausted. 

"Get up, you're too heavy for that." You slap the sides of his thigh, feigning pain.

He relaxes into you further "nah you can handle it." 

You roll your eyes and smile, "if you wanna go back to the hotel you could've just asked." 

"Nah I'm cool, your mom said we could stay." 

"And sleep where? My tiny ass twin bed?" 

"You were cool with it back in your dorm." 

"Don't get me wrong babe, It's fun but I'm ready to be alone for a bit. This function will guarantee go until like 3 AM." He hops up and y'all say your goodbyes, promising to see everyone again before you leave back to Japan. Suki high fives your little cousins as y'all make your way out, them taking a strong liking to the Hero.

You secure a pan of leftovers in the backseat when you hear your dad call to you. "You're gonna see us again before you go right? You have a habit of disappearing Y/n!"

Katsuki leans out the window of the passenger seat "Don't worry, I'll make her."

You run back up to the front door and hug him goodbye before running back to your car. He waves y'all down as you two drive off into the crisp night air.

"Thank you for being so open. I know I kinda sprung this on you but I think it went really well."

You could tell he's looking at you without even having to turn your head. "It was fun, your family is cool."

You reach a stoplight and decide to push your luck, "Well I'm not tryna say I told you so but-"

He puts his hand on your thigh and you straighten up quickly, the light above you turns green on cue, "Shut up and drive dumbass." 

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OMORI SPOILERS, but it accidentally turned into a long appreciation thread for the game and fandom??

[TLDR] I am very greatful for this community and the game because it pretty much got my life back on track ♡

Anyways thinking about how in the "netural" ending when basil yknow, uses the garden sheers on himself, sunny decides that nothing is there

Sometimes i wonder if sunny really still cared for basil or not, but thinking about it now

He did

He still cared for everyone.

In his mind basil was still his best friend, and to see his best friend do that

Fuck man

Omori hurts bad

Whenever i sit here and think about the little things

The slight details that i missed in febuary

Theyre all so

Hurtful

So greatful that i found out about this game man, it means so much to me, before Omori i spent all day miserable thinking about the same thing that upsets me so much but

Omori gave me something new to think about, something that wasnt distracting because it made me sad or someones life was at stake, but because it made me happy

I finally have the motivation to draw and animate again, and sure the bad things are still on my mind all day but, i see an omori video or meme or fanart or just think about the game and the bad thoughts are completely lost for a moment

I could talk about this game for hours on end, truly

And Basil man, ive never related to a character so well, its so nice seeing someone whos like me, even if its fictional

Its like nobody understands me as a person but if Basil were here, he would because he IS that person

Ik it sounds corny, but its 5 AM and im in a strange mood, no, more like a greatful mood

I think im starting to be happy with the things in my life, and that happiness started because of Omori. And fuck yeah this fandom is amazing, a majority are great people, you guys make beautiful art and animations, hilarous memes, cool ass fanfics, all the good shit

Its stupid, i know, to say a video game is whats picking my life back up, but ive felt so fucking terrible for over a year and finally, finally im starting to be okay again

Its not just omori of course, but i can thank omori for being the reason i started appreciating the things i had more, and loving my people more, i spend time with my family now, i dont just sit in my room miserable all day. I sound like an idiot huh

Idk man im just rambling

Rambling my thoughts onto this silly app and like 10 people will see this and read it through

Idek how this post got to this point, i just wanted to talk about a little detail i noticed

Idk man, this game will likely forever be my number one, maybe im wrong but, right now, where im at, this game is like motivation for me

Thank you Omocat for creating this game, thank you everyone who donated and made the games creation possible, thank you to a majority of the fandom (excluding the ppl who would look at or make r34, blame basil, and argue over ships aside from the hero x anyone but mari and the sibling ships cuz wtf?? Why would u ship siblings or hero with the friend group??) Because truth be told, with how small this fandom is, its like every day i have new fanart to look forward to

Just off the top of my head, ginumo and tabdood i owe you 2 a lot <3 U two are one of the main reasons i stayed in the fandom at the beginning and i look forward to every piece of art you guys make, so thank you

Theres others but im bad with names

Not just them tho, every piece of fanart i see, i love it

I love beginner artists making fanart because fuck yeah its so sweet, and one day they'll look back at it, thats where they started, and they'll want to revisit omori, and all the artists that have been drawing for years and years making omori art, YEAAH MAN EVERY FANARTIST BRUH <3

I love all of you, every creator in this fandom, yeah im talking about you

What you just made one drawing?? Oh u just discuss the game?? FUCK YEAH I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THE GAME !! THAT ONE PIECE OF FANART IS GOLDEN BRO !!

Dont get me started on the comics yall make

Even the people who like or reblog, yall keeping the fanartists and discussors going bro

Love yall

Everyone of yall

Goodnight ♡

[mercydreaming]

this is super random but like I was thinking about the movie Over the Moon (spoiler warning obviously, imma talk about the ending and major plot points)

Its on Netflix, and its a super well made movie. I don’t know much about it tbh. I usually don't research everything about the movies I watch, and rarely do I look more in depth into accuracy or things like that since Im just so tired these days.

but I watched the movie some months ago and found it super sad and cried like 5 times and spent like 3 hours watching it, pausing and stepping back, and processing it. It was a beautiful movie with pretty animation and nice songs, but like it just made me so sad that I couldn't finish it just in one go. Hence the breaks and the deep breaths and the bathroom breaks. It’s really not the kinda movie that forced you to stay on the edge of your seat/that forces you to not pause it/that makes you want more by the end.

it wasn't the best movie I'd ever seen, and like nothing really compelled me to rewatch it several times, the way other movies have. But I thought it was a good movie by the end. a solid movie. It finished, I had a pile of tissues next to me, And life moved forward/

until yesterday:

My mom, brother, and I were taking turns picking movies to watch and I happened to see it on one of the Netflix lists and just casually was like “oh yeah I remember that movie, was pretty good. sad though/” and my mom and brother weren’t opposed so we watched it.

BRUH I AM STILL BROKEN

It’s such a sad movie! I cannot stress this enough. This movie would bring anyone to tears because like it just deals with character death in such a painful way that you cant help but feel for the characters. Fei fei (the protagonist) loses her mom in the beginning of the movie and is stuck in this realm of missing her. She cannot imagine how her father could ever move on from loving her mom. So when this other chick (nice lady, Mrs.Zhong) comes into the picture and seems to be a “replacement mom”, Fei Fei feels hurt and betrayed in a way. Like how could her dad not think that she and the memory of her mom are enough? (idk if I like saying “memory of mom” since like it feels kinda hand wavy but ughhh I’ll leave it like that for now)

And the whole movie is about how she goes to the moon to find Chang’e and prove that it’s true, and show her dad that their family, as is, is good enough. (Prove that the story of true love where Chang’e waits for her Houyi is real, and show how strong true love is. show how strong the love between her mother and father still is)

On the moon, there are some plot development points, she learns the truth about how Chang’e really is now, and in the end she learns about how her heart can be big enough to love new people and still love the ones that have gone. Bittersweet ending because you can never bring back the loved ones who have gone but you can always have room for new ones that love you too.

And like my heart was in so much pain because of how much you could see the pain Fei Fei felt in losing her mother. It was just such a terrible emptiness and I imagined my own life without my mother and like noooooo, ugh im about to cry again. (My brother was like “why do they always kill off the parent that the kid loves more?” and bruh, I felt that.) And just the pain she feels at the reminders throughout the movie as she missed her mom (the cutting off of her hair in the exquisite chamber of loneliness because the long hair was too much a reminder of her mom?? yeah a bitch cried buckets at that scene) continuously broke me.

But I think what hurt me so much more at times was the story of Chang’e. Like here she was just trying to spend time with her true love, just one more time. and she is doing so much to see him again only for it not to work out because he tells her that she has to move on??? I was sobbing like I haven't cried in months. oH my gosh the idea of how love was the only thing keeping her going and yet here she is not being told that although their love Is forever she has to learn to move on because she’s immortal and houyi wasn’t?? love stories with unhappy endings are such fucked up ones to me, like why cant everyone be happy??? just imagine finding the love of your life, being forcibly separated from them, waiting to see them for thousands of years, and then realizing that you'll never be with them again because of a stupid mistake that made you immortal while they can still die?? the loneliness? the heartbreak? the fucking terrible bitterness that I know would consume me? I cant go on bruh, its too much

Oh my gosh though I just had to write about why this movie hurts me to watch and why I cry so fucking hard when watching it.

Y'all should watch it though. The story is so fucking important to experience. Very much a movie that you have to watch at least once.