#brinn watches bnha

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hold on wait wait a minute hold on the banksy ova got suddenly heartbreaking so this villain's quirk is making everyone laugh like ms joke right and it works on everyone endeavor starts laughing like a maniac bakugo starts laughing like a maniac it completely disrupts whatever they're doing and puts them flat on the ground it even works on a fucking robot somehow....but when shoto gets hit

his shoulders are shaking and his breath is kinda stuttery, but he is silent. a quirk that took down ENDEAVOR, the world's most joyless man now that nighteye is toast, in an absolute fit of loud laughter but shoto just BODIES it that's fucking heartbreaking man like he is so used to forcing himself to be quiet that he does so instinctively and even worse the thing he's stifling is laughter it's like a fuckin metaphor for shoto not getting to experience any fucking joy

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god the real tragedy of all might is that despite his veritable cavalcade of ex boyfriends, no one has ever treated him like a human person except nana, and he had her on a pedestal. everyone either puts him on a pedestal or keeps him at arms-length, and neither of those things provides for the real human connection that all human people need. under all the muscles and persona he's just, like, a guy.

which honestly is why I find pairing him with aizawa so compelling because aizawa's the only one who reacts to him with anything except hero worship. and it's not accurate, and it's certainly not kind, but it's at least different. canon only gives tiny bits and pieces of that relationship developing into mutual respect, but I've seen it explored in some depth in fic and it's just so good. all might just needs someone who'll treat him like a goddamn equal

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most of the time I am very not a "I could fix him" type of guy but I do think with adequate therapy and probably some sedatives I could fix dabi don't worry honey I'm your dad now and we're gonna throw endeavor right in jail forever you don't need to kill your brother

if I think about dabi too much I have to lie down for a while cause like...I get it man I get being that angry I even get taking it out on your siblings who were also mistreated if in a different way than you I get blaming everyone who seems even vaguely similar compassionate intervention at literally any point in dabi's life would have completely changed the course of it and that's tragic his whole thing is just tragedy it's just cycles of abuse repeating it could have happened to shoto as well he could have been exactly that angry exactly that violent but he made friends and let people in and dkjfgksjdhfg

lays face down on the floor todorokis

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"you will live up to the reason I created you!!!!" that is a HUMAN PERSON ENDEAVOR. that is a human child!!!! a person!!!!! I'm gonna put send endeavor over niagara falls in a barrel flame up under six million cubic water a minute BITCH

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actually catching up on the bnha anime was a mistake the new credits sequences took me out back and shot me I'm fully not going to survive deku vs class a

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well this is fun in light of recent manga Happenings huh

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hissing and spitting and yowling about the second part of the provisional licensing exam shoto tries SO hard to keep his cool despite his RAMPANT ptsd he announced a plan and gave inasa a good suggestion that was EVEN PAIRED WITH A COMPLIMENT and inasa didn't actually say anything just blasted off without comment

to say nothing of their first meeting, and sure inasa doesn't know anything, but endeavor definitely told shoto he would come in first or else so shoto was probably a little preoccupied with trying not to get the shit beat out of him after running a three kilometer obstacle course. like that's not a stretch; endeavor canonically beat the shit out of him from literally five years old kljdfhgh I'm going to CHEW GLASS anyway the point IS inasa STARTED with "I hate his eyes" from first meeting even if he didn't SAY that he basically started with it again out loud at the provisional license exam like he literally says the exact same thing shoto's mother said before she poured boiling water on his fucking face. no wonder he doesn't like you inasa!!!!!! but despite the fact that all this happens and shoto is working at a severe disadvantage from some dude straight up triggering his ptsd, he STILL manages to work with inasa

honestly this makes me angry in the same way as the final exam arc because one person is SOLIDLY at fault for the lack of cooperation and the other person, which is Definitely Currently Experiencing some ptsd, is considered equally at fault for that. but at least with the final exam fight, mido's not framed as equally at fault by the narrative. it's akdjfhjkghdf I mean okay I GUESS there's an argument to be made that no one KNOWS about shoto's whole horrible life so they're not inclined to cut him any slack and from the outside it just looks like they were both stupid but I KNOW and it isn't FAIR and the narrative doesn't DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT and ksjdfhgdkdkhfg bark bark bark

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bold of inko to assume she could keep izuku safe by sending him to a different school that kid would run into traffic if he thought he could help someone like no offense ma'am but your kid is an idiot with a reckless disregard for his own safety and he didn't get that out of nowhere

and like sure he's always gonna be targeted because of one for all which inko doesn't know about but even if he was still quirkless he'd be finding fun new ways to break all his bones all the time he ran into an actively on fire crime scene when he was 14 and quirkless bold of you to assume it's UA harming this kid

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"wah magne's a villain she killed people" trans women can kill whoever they want

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I know mido is the one who actually goes and does it but of the kids in class a, I think the one most likely to actually go vigilante is todoroki everyone else, including midoriya to some extent, believe in the system and are actively trying to be part of it, but todoroki knows first hand that society is kinda fucked like....the system created endeavor. if a man like endeavor, who has a history of abuse, can still make it to be the number one hero in all of japan, then like, what is that ranking even worth? it's like... he's the kid of a cop who hits him and his mom and all of society praises the cop for being a hero and never stops him or even asks questions and then shoto...what, becomes a cop too?? even if most heroes aren't like endeavor, enough of them are to excuse his behavior, and the system is designed to cover it up.

I would read a hundred different flavors of shoto becoming like, disillusioned with his goal of actually becoming a hero (and I am currently writing one), but I think a fun one would be like, shoto looks at how people continue to treat endeavor even after it comes out what he's like and goes "nah that's not for me" but instead of becoming like idk a preschool teacher or izuku's live in lover, he goes straight to vigilante. he's got a strict sense of justice and clearly wants to help people and he's got all this simmering resentment and anger and hurt and I just think it would be fun if he channeled that into "fuck the police"

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still thinking about that all might and tsukauchi post from yesterday....when all might tells midoriya that he used to be quirkless as a kid that's probably the first time he's gotten to tell anyone that in....god, maybe ever? in decades at least because even the tiny circle that knows about ofa wouldn't necessarily assume all might hadn't had a quirk of his own before because nana did.

it's like... he's the symbol of peace in a society with more and more powerful quirks and fewer and fewer quirkless people and no one can ever know ofa is transferable so there's this whole section of all might's life and his childhood, stuff that clearly effected the person he grew up to be but he can never talk about it to anyone because 1. he's the symbol of peace and there is So Much PR and propaganda that has to go into that, including, probably, that All Might has always had a quirk and 2. who the hell is he even gonna talk to about it? and midoriya is the one person on the entire planet who can not only know but will understand. and it's different now, with fewer quirkless people but god what a relief it must be simply for someone to know this about him, someone who understands intimately the feeling of wishing so desperately to be helpful, to be normal, someone who understands having to bury such a foundational part of yourself for the sake of the world

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the fact that dabi is fucking. holding shoto. cradling him even. while trying to burn them both up. the fucking. facsimile of comfort. someone hug dabi right now but also ten years ago.

also mido really did say "it's your quirk not his" to two separate todorokis i have to lie down for a hundred years I am DISTRAUGHT I will never recover seeing this fight animated has ended me and now I'm a ghost good fucking BYE

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I tend to focus on the provisional license exam for obvious reasons but endeavor probably beat the shit outta shoto after he didn't win the sports festival too second place never good enough for piss pants fire bitch

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death arms like "wahh no one appreciates me everyone is saying mean things to me I'm so unappreciated guess I can't be a hero" congrats you big baby you've experienced the same sensation of every single service worker on the planet get yelled at by starbucks karens for 11 dollars an hour you fuckin bitch

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endeavor really said "why the fuck should I care" when the police asked the NUMBER TWO HERO to help them rescue a KIDNAPPED CHILD "why should I help clean up ua's mess" because a CHILD has been KIDNAPPED and you are supposed to be a HERO you asshole piece of shit lsjdfhgkjdfhg dissolves into furious barking like I'm hound dog

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sports festival like present mic about the son his husband is already planning to adopt: feel free to beat the absolute hell and shit out of each other cause recovery girl is here