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[ashadowwanderedfar]

I'll share my current feelings about being open about my alterhumanity.

I'm still figuring out this alterhumanity thing. I only awakened a little over a year ago, and it's been significantly more complicated than when I realized I was trans.

I realized I was trans because I was directly exposed to the possibility in the form of a youtube "How to know if you're trans" video. (I know it's silly, but this was my internet personality quiz phase stemming from boredom). I immediately knew that I was trans, and took some time to see if my confidence would waver. It didn't, and I came out and transitioned. Pretty simple. I'm just a guy, right? Pretty obvious where the problem was and how to fix it.

I awoke to my alterhumanity because I was experiencing phantom limbs/pain/shifts and species dysphoria. It's not like it came out of nowhere; it was always there, same as my being transgender. And same as me being transgender I was never directly faced with the possibility that I was alterhuman until I couldn't ignore it anymore. I did some googling and was like, *sigh* "goddammit I guess this is me."

It's taken me a long time to try to figure out what my actual form is, and even then I don't think it's entirely accurate, because I simply don't have the references for it. It's not like I can just go, "ah yes I am a cat, I know what a cat generally looks like and can go from there". I'm not a creature from Earth, and I'm not a mythological being either. I'm just me, and I haven't found anyone quite like me. With that, it's hard for me to say "I am X/Y" or whatever. I don't like using the term otherkin for myself partially for this reason, because I can't narrow down a specific species to call myself. With being transgender, I can just say "I am a guy" and it's pretty obvious what I mean.

After all of that, there is the question of what to do with the knowledge of my alterhumanity. I think that if I really wanted to, I could box it up and shove it into the attic of my mind and pretend to be human. I would still still have these phantom limbs, and these parts of me that aren't human and never will be. Or I could just... Not. I could embrace my alterhumanity, despite the fact that it's not as easy to understand, not as simple as my being transgender.

I do think that it will be hard. I don't intend to be quiet about my alterhumanity. I want to wear Digilegs and claw glovea and a tail and anything else that will bring me closer to the form I want to have. This will make me stand out. I'm not someone who likes to stand out... But as someone near me said, I stand out a lot for someone who prefers to remain unseen. I think I'm okay with this. If me standing out by being myself helps more people to feel free to be themselves too, then I'm glad for it.

I don't have digilegs yet. Or claws. Or horns. Or anything else that outwardly makes me appear nonhuman. But I will. And when I do, I want to wear them proudly.

I'm already taking some steps in that direction. I have IRL friends who know I'm alterhuman. I have a pin with my neopronouns and the alt key symbol, which I have said "f*** it" and been wearing publicly. I'm nervous for the bigger things. But I don't want to shy away from something this important.

I didn't mean for this to sound as dramatic as it did. Please disregard

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