black-girl-in-a-white-world

[jasscheeks]

Hi hi! Your blog is so good! I really love it, especially the jjk smaus recently lol! What do you think about some Haikyuu smaus too? (I just have been in my zone since the movie lmao)

haikyuu! boys if…

you tell them you’re on your period…

pairings: bokuto, suna, iwaizumi x f!reader

warnings: girlfriend is used, just suna being suna.

thank you for your request!! finally i get to post these because they have literally been collecting dust in my camera roll 😀

let me know who you guys want to see next!!

m.list | kuroo, oikawa, ushijima ver.

thank you for reading!! let me know if i should make a smau storyline 😛

m.list

[nitaekook]

Give You Love

by nitaekook | 1/? | NR | 4,354

Akaashi Keiji faces the pressures of school and family while navigating his deepening relationship with Bokuto Koutaro. As they grow closer, the challenges of being open about their feelings weigh on Akaashi, especially under the scrutiny of others. With Bokuto’s unwavering support, Akaashi begins to find his footing, and together, they focus on their shared goal: leading their volleyball team to Nationals, despite the obstacles that stand in their way.

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I’m baaack 😋

[haikyuudescendants]

happy december 20, my love.

[thinkin-bout-milgram]

Hello! If it’s okay, I’d like to know your thoughts on the Trikoto theory (3+ alters). I think it’s a cool theory! And pretty likely, honestly. (Here’s a document about it in case you don’t know what I’m talking about. I didn’t make it, and I unfortunately don’t know who did, I just found it in another blog)(I really hope that link works lol)

Hey FF! I was wondering when you might send something in. Not the topic I expected, but I'm here for it!

I've definitely heard of this theory before. I can't say I know for sure where it originated, but I've always been under the impression that a blog called @bertrandcaillet started it as they're the first one I saw talk about that theory and they told me about it a while ago. They've since deactivated, though, so I can't really check with them to see if that's true.

I think the trikoto theory is interesting, and I fully agree with what's said on the document about how it would be nice if Milgram is showing a system with more nuance than just having two alters.

That being said, I personally don't believe this theory for a number of reasons. I'm going to do my best to explain why here. I do want to say going into this that while I do have extremely minimal psychology teaching (as in, undergrad psyc MINOR), I do not claim to be that educated on DID or similar struggles. So, anything that I say will be focusing much more on Milgram as a piece of media from a writing standpoint, because that's what I have much more extensive experience in.

I will say that I am very aware that most systems have more than 2 alters. That being said, I think I also remember from my psyc class that the average number is, like... 16? I'm not at my dorm right now and that's where my notes are, so I can't check, but I remember specifically thinking about it in the context of Mikoto and trikoto theory, so I'm pretty confident it's Above Three. That means that either way, it's not like we're doing The Most Common Number, so I think two versus three is largely irrelevant on that point.

For the sake of clarity, I'll be using the names in the doc (Akakoto, Midokoto, Aokoto), but I only personally believe that two of them (Akakoto, Aokoto) exist. I've taken to calling them Orekoto and Bokuto, but for this post, Akakoto and Aokoto it is.

At its base, my problem with trikoto theory is that I don't see a lot of evidence for it. Most of what I've seen has been talking about the implications of it if you assume it's true, but I've just never really been convinced in the first place. I'll just go through some of the main reasonings real quick:

The RGB Colors

I do acknowledge that I'm very much not a visually oriented person, so the color shifting is something I'm less inclined to notice. However, while the background of the room is blue and the train station and apartment are pretty green, I don't feel like there are ever really any red backgrounds (other than when the headspace becomes red as ooposed to blue). Because of that, I have a hard time believing that the backgrounds themselves contribute to the idea that there are three. I definitely think the red/blue coloration in the eyes and such are indicating different alters, but I don't think that specific fact supports there being three of them.

The Voice Changes

This might be a me issue, but I only really hear two different vocal inflections. I understand the point about there being some harsher (?) sounding vocals that don't have the growl, but personally, I still think the tone matches the one described as Akakoto enough to count. Similarly, the parts towards the end that are picked out for Midokoto ("I'm probably not to blame," etc.) actually sound more like Aokoto to me even if I do try to track the three voices.

I'm hesitant to go too hard in believing the different voices because to me, doing so would severely limit the amount of control Natsuki Hanae would have over the emotions he wants to put into the song. The vocalists in Milgram do a fantastic job at using specific vocal intonations to convey deep layers of emotions in their songs. I feel like it would be very limiting to only be able to use certain vocal effects (ex. growl) in specific places due to the limitations of the characters. If there are two, the two voices are far more separate, which gives more space for customization within the bounds of each voice.

This is also a little bit iffier on evidence, but there's the Es cover of MeMe. I don't know how much Yurina Amami knows about Mikoto's story and the entire video is in grayscale, so take all of this with a grain of salt, but to me, I feel like Es uses two voices here, not three. Notably, they even have a bit of vocal growl on the "switch" and on "split and half, make that heart beat," which are both squarely in the Midokoto tone. They do still have the two voice split, sounding a bit more apathetic and aggressive in the Akakoto parts and cuter in the Aokoto parts. To me, that signifies that there's suppose to be two voices going on, not three, but you could argue that that's just Es' perception of Mikoto, so it's not decisive or anything.

Mikoto Fighting Es

Yes, in his first audio drama, Mikoto is able to beat Es up until Kotoko stops him. Yes, that's inconsistent from what we've seen from Futa and also t2 Amane. I agree that that's because the Milgram rules only apply to one or more alters, and thus any others that may exist can get around the rulings. We saw this between trials, too, with how Mikoto (seemingly Akakoto at the time) was able to avoid being restrained despite his guilty verdict, likely through the same loophole.

(Side note: this implies to me that Milgram's system for restraining guilty prisoners is, like the protective barrier around Es, somewhat magical and isn't a physical thing. Thus, if we were to, say, vote Amane as guilty, I am fairly confident she would be unable to harm any other prisoners, as we've already seen the barriers are able to prevent her from attacking others. I still lean Amane innocent anyways, but I wanted to point this out.)

Anyways, I don't think that this is actually evidence towards trikoto theory because it works perfectly fine with just the two of them. Aokoto is the prisoner in Milgram and Akakoto isn't. This doesn't necessarily mean that Aokoto is the one who was fronting while the murder happened, though; the rules of Milgram just necessitate that the prisoner is involved in/related to a death. It can be indirect.

I think that that's exactly what Milgram is asking us with Mikoto. The question is, how do you fairly hold a system accountable? Can you blame one alter for the other's actions?

Milgram loves to complicate these, and I can see the appeal of a complication being learning about a third alter. Personally, I think it's much more likely that the route Milgram is taking is looking at how much knowledge the alters have about each other and asking how much Aokoto would have to know to make him an accessory to Akakoto's murder plans. It could go either way, though.

Some Bonus Points

I think the strongest piece of evidence brought up is the use of threes in Mikoto's design. Other than "they just liked it aesthetically," there isn't much of a counterargument I can make about it. My best one would be that they might be going for a "switching between black and white" type of thing, which would work better with more stripes, but that's pretty weak. I also had the idea that the first character of his name looks like three stripes, which might be a better or worse explanation! You get to decide, I have no idea.

The cake sells me less, though. It's true that Kazui's is a perfect 50/50 and that Mikoto's isn't, but that's because they're representing different things.

Kazui's is half and half because his song is called half, and it could also be a sign of how he and his wife didn't actually connect more in a marriage sense; they're still two fully separate people rather than being a unit.

Mikoto, if he has two alters, is still physically one guy. Mikoto is mostly sitting on the flower designs. I'd argue that the flowers are meant to show Mikoto as a whole: the connection point of the two alters.

That's pretty much all of what I have to say on the doc (in terms of the trikoto aspect, whether I believe it or not there's some good work done in character/lyric analysis that applies to two or three alter theories), but I'll go over some of my reason for why I actively believe there to be two, because there are some reasons.

Reason 1: The Song Titles

The doc explains what the meaning of MeMe is in trikoto theory, but it definitely still works with two, more obviously so. That's not evidence, though, because the trikoto theory has a viable explanation too.

I have no idea what they'd be doing with the song title Double, though. I guess it would be a play on somebody being someone else's double, meaning they're someone like them, which is no doubt part of the song title either way, but I think it's difficult to ignore the meaning of Double that means, y'know... multiplied by 2, or:

But that could very easily be a diversion and we haven't seen the second video, so I'd let that slide. However, that brings me to the bigger problem:

Reason 2: Upright Versus Reversed

AKA, the tarot cards.

Tarot cards can be read two ways, Upright or Reversed, based on the orientation of the card when it's placed/picked up/whatever. I already went over in my original theory (which is pretty outdated, I could do a way better job but I wrote that one literally first out of my milgram thoeries and I hated not having a good name scheme for the various alters) why I believe Akakoto to be the Hanged Man (Upright) and why I believe Aokoto to be the Hanged Man (Reversed).

I struggle to imagine why the devs would pick tarot, something that clearly has two meanings to it, when there are actually three alters. Maybe it'd just be to throw us off the scent, but it feels a bit too intentional to me.

Plus, if it was meant to throw us off, I'd expect we'd get a different metaphor/symbol for the second MV (as we have been with pretty much everyone). However, the association between Mikoto and "reversible" things has continued into trial 2, even before his MV has come up.

I say this because of his trial 2 cover song: Reversible Campaign. Funnily enough, I actually thought this song would go to Kazui before it was announced as Mikoto's, but then I looked again and understood why they wanted it for Mikoto.

My thoughts get confused and fight with each other

Very Mikoto, works for either two or three alter theories. However:

I just want to waver between black and white

It's turned me upside down

There's more that seems to paint Mikoto's mind as a dichotomy, not a... trichotomy? Is that a word? I don't actually know.

The Song Lyrics of MeMe

This is sort of an extension of the above part, but there are also definitely song lyrics in MeMe that sound like they're heavily implying two. Again, you could argue that that's trying to throw us off the scent, but some of them are, in my opinion, actively difficult to justify for trikoto theory.

Split in half, Make that heart beat

I cannot for the life of me understand why any of the three alters would say "split in half" if there are three. I guess if any of them were aware of one of the other alters, but not the other? I don't think that's what was being argued, though, sorry if I missed that.

I’m already the fake one

Little harder to argue this one because I don't know how definite versus indefinite articles work in Japanese, but saying the fake one really sounds to me like there is one fake and one real. If you were just having a moment of existential crisis, in most situations, I think you'd opt for "I'm already fake."

The Mirror

This is sort of the same argument as the tarot cards, but there's also the use of mirror imagery in Mikoto's MeMe MV. Mirrors have two sides and are a reflection. You could use Haruka logic and say that it depicts self reflection, I guess, but considering the reflection acts differently, I think it's much more likely that this is meant to show the two alters.

Conclusion

Hopefully this all made sense? I respect trikoto theory and I could easily be super wrong about it (see also: my original opinions on gay Kazui theory and police Kazui theory), but I've just never really been sold. It's possible my opinion would change if I saw evidence that I felt worked better for trikoto than... twokoto? theory, but personally, I feel like most evidence I've seen for it is still better explained by there being two alters. Let me know what you think, though :)

[kolya-rat]

Another haikyu hc, because I seem to have a lot of these lately.

Akaashi Keiji listens to the songs his mom does 😕. Like, for example his mom when he was a kid would probably turn on the radio and the songs playing would be things like Miki Matsubara, Anri, Taeko Ouki, you know the 90s city pop style. And so, that kinda just stuck to him and he practically adores them now.

But he would also definitely listen to some anime soundtracks, but only the chill ones. It's a big headcanon of mine that the only anime he watches are the manga he's read. I believe in Akaashi OHSHC fan itenerary. (He literally edits for a manga company in timeskip so.... yeah he probably reads them.) I believe that he reads more shoujo manga over shounen manga. (Still buys Shounen jump though.)

Barely plays video games because he prefers to read but probably saw Kenma playing once during their training camps or maybe hangouts playing some games and got interested in a few of them. I personally hc Persona 4, Steins;gate, Gitaroo Man (unironically), Golden Sun, and FF IX. (Also I hc that Kenma is a P3P fan, while Akaashi insists on P4 being the best one. Kuroo says it's actually P2:Innocent Sin and they both look at him like 😒)

His love language for his friends is bullying. (Not much of a hc since we see him playfully bully and tease Bokuto a lot in the anime 🫢)

Played Angel's Feather at some point in his life and didn't know it was a BL game. It definitely awakened something in him though.

[kingdaddydaichi]

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‎♡‧₊˚ HAIKYUU BOYS WHEN THEY GET SICK

ft. daichi. osamu. bokuto. suga. asahi.

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‎♡‧₊˚ DAICHI

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Work

WILL STILL TRY TO GO TO WORK

“daichi, baby, you can’t go to work! you work with the public. what if you get people sick? what kind of police officer gets people sick? your job is to serve and protect and you can’t even protect people from your own germs? no, you shouldn’t go!”

but he’ll try to go in any damn way😤

“nah, i’m fine!” he’ll say before going into a coughing fit.

stubborn man

he’ll get ready for work looking and feeling like shit, but he’s determined - he’s Going To Work™️

it would take an army to stand between him and his sense of duty

mans won’t listen to reason

so after he leaves, you send a text to his sergeant: “i tried! i tried to get him to stay home but he wouldn’t listen.”

sarge is like: “damn workhorse.”

gets yelled at by his boss at the station then comes back home

his sergeant’s all “what the fuck are you doing here? go the fuck home. that’s an order, sawamura! i’ll take your fucking badge!”

Home

45 mins later he comes walking back IN the door

and you’re just there like “mmhmm” as he hangs his tired head and mopes back to the bedroom to change out of his uniform and back into his pajamas

daichi: you texted him, didn’t you?

you: how far did you make it in before he turned you away?

daichi: he was waiting outside. wouldn’t even let me in the door.

“i told you. you work too hard, baby," you say, following behind him with the cooling strip you just grabbed from the fridge. you’d put it in there to start getting cold as soon as you realized he wasn’t feeling well.

he was on his back when you woke up next to him that morning, his t-shirt slightly damp in the front and back. he’d been sniffling and congested since he got home from work yesterday afternoon.

will still try to do everything himself

you’ll come through the living room to check on him and find that your sick husband is missing from the couch.

so you finally get him settled down on the couch only to return after leaving the room for a few minutes and…your husband is missing from the couch! AGAIN!

“are you serious?” you go looking for him, exasperated. “daichi?!” 

“‘m in here,” he croaks from the kitchen.

“what are you doing?” you ask impatiently.

“i wanted more tea.”

“i told you if you needed anything, let me know, i’ll get it for you!”

you have to shoo him back to the couch while insisting that you’re going to take care of him.

Medicine

he’ll take medicine. he’s stubborn, not stupid. he’s Enneagram Type 1.

“if you get sick, you take medicine. why? ‘cause that’s what you’re supposed to do.”

Doctor

won’t go unless he’s been sick for a few days and isn’t getting better. and even then you have to make the appt for him sometimes. 🙄

stubborn, stubborn man. 😮‍💨 but you love him more than the sun loves the moon.

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‎♡‧₊˚ OSAMU

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Work

he wouldn’t go to work; it wouldn’t be difficult to get him to stay home bc he knows he works in the food business and he doesn’t want to contaminate any food or run the risk of spreading anything around.

he’s got customers AND employees to think about!

once he feels better tho and he’s not contagious anymore, even if his symptoms aren’t completely gone yet, he’ll go to work and wear a mask which is pretty standard if you're sick in Japan anyway.

Home

he’s just so chill

he’s been calling the shop every 2 hours. “how’s everything going? did so-and-so show up? did you clean out the rice cooker?”

he doesn’t mean to micromanage, he just misses his business. and he’s hands on. he works the front of the house ffs.

maybe he just calls a couple of times a day tho.

“how’s everything going? hm…okay. if you need anything, call. you know how to get in touch with me. please call me."

employee: "what?"

osamu: "what?"

Medicine

used to be anti-medicine UNTIL he became a business owner

“i don’t need no stinkin’ medicine.”

he’s a tough guy

but nowadays, he wants to hurry up and feel better so he can get back to work.

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‎♡‧₊˚ BOKUTO

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Work

he would be bummed bc he couldn’t practice or play with the jackals. he doesn’t even get to sit on the bench bc he has to stay home. the team is like “stay. the. hell. away. from. us.”

he got the whole team sick once so now he sneezes during practice and everybody just stops and turns around and looks at him like “istg bokuto! are you sick? if you sneeze again, you’re outta here, we are NOT going through that again!”

the whole team once got a stomach bug on his account. he tried to power through it and went to practice and they had a big match the next day, but everybody was fucking SHITTING, PUKING and the whole fucking team was down. they had to forfeit the game and chalk it up as a loss. they were so pissed at bo.

bo rolled his ankle during a game once and had to be benched. he was so bummed that he couldn’t play as you walked with him and the assistant coach to the infirmary to have it checked out. once there, his foot was propped and iced. you told him you’d be right back and he looked up at you with limp hair and sad owl eyes, but you assured him you’d be right back.

you ran to the away campus’s gift store and managed to find an owl plushie. you held it up, beaming at it. perfect! you rushed to the cashier to pay for it before running back to the infirmary.

holding the plushie behind your back, you opened the door and walked inside, bo’s hair and facial expression just as you’d left it. but his eyebrows arched in curiosity as you smiled at him before presenting him with the owl. his hair perked back up as a pouty smile covered his face, his big, round golden eyes filling with unshed tears.

“for me?”

“for you,” you nodded, proffering it with outstretched arms.

“y/nnnnn!” he cried, grabbing your arms and pulling you into his lap to hug both you and the plushie.

you kissed his cheek with a sweet smile. “i hope this helps you feel better, baby.”

he clung to that owl plushie for the rest of the game, like a mother owl protecting her owlet.

to this day, whenever he gets sick, he asks for the owl plushie. it’s his comfort lovey, his security plushie.

he’s so adorable…like an overgrown toddler, basically.

i luz he.

Home

B A B Y

he’s SUCH a baby about it the whole damn time

omg you will just hear him groaning from the other room

just “ohh ughhh ohmygod uhhh…i feel so awful…oh god i can’t breathe through my nose…ohhh i’m so hungry but i don’t wanna get up and get anything to eat…babyyyyy can i have a grilled cheese sandwich?”

he’s so sweet about it but he’s a baby

he’s such a hypochondriac, y’all.

Virgo much?

he’s all up on webmd using the symptom checker

“i don’t know, baby. what if it’s not just a cold? what if it’s this rare disease that’s only found in Antarctica?”

“bo, you don’t have that. only penguins get that. stop.” 

you finally have to just take his phone away so he’ll stop googling stuff and trying to diagnose himself with a brain tumor

“bo, you not being good at math is NOT a brain tumor symptom!”

he gets so much as a sniffle and he’s down for the count

he can barely get out of bed

“baby, come check my head. am i hot? am i running fever? where’s the thermometer?”

“no, baby, you don’t feel warm.”

“are you sure? you better get the thermometer and check just in case.”

Medicine

will take ALL the medicines

he’ll be looking for the cough suppressant and you’re like “bo! you don’t even have a cough.”

“i don’t care! i need all the things!”

you have to keep the medicine cabinet under lock and key, otherwise you might find him hallucinating and drunk on a cocktail of NyQuil, DayQuil, Benadryl, eyedrops, heartburn medicine, and Orajel. 

Doctor

calls a neurologist and tries to schedule a CT scan.

and you’re in the background, “BO! I TOLD YOU YOU DO NOT HAVE THAT PENGUIN DISEASE! DO NOT SCHEDULE A CT SCAN!”

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‎♡‧₊˚ SUGA

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Work

finally, someone with enough sense to stay home from work when he’s sick. you won’t have to tell him twice bc he cares about all the crotch goblins at school and doesn’t want to get all those kids sick.

Home

suga…he’s clever

and mischievous

getting him to stay home from work is a piece of cake, but good luck getting him to stay down

he takes care of others, not the other way around

you catch him doing stuff too

unlike with daichi, it’s not that he doesn’t want to be a burden, it’s that he can’t NOT be a caretaker?

you try to take care of him but he ends up taking care of you…and you’re not even sick?

like, not only does he not let you take care of him, he does stuff for you

he doesn’t go out of his way to do stuff for you, he’s just thinking like finally! i’ve got a day off during the week so i can get some things done around here. stuck at home, can’t go anywhere else so it’s a perfect opportunity to get caught up with housework!

you try to stay home too to take care of him but he INSISTS that you leave

“i will kick you out of the house if you don’t leave!”

so you leave - you go to work but before you walk out the door you point at him and you’re like “okay…but you better rest! i know you! you’ll take this opportunity to get a bunch of shit done around the house. don’t you do it! you better rest and take it easy!”

and he’s all “yes, okay, yeah yeah yeah. fine. go. bye.”

and sure enough you come home after work later and this motherfucker has done laundry, he’s probably prepped dinner, graded homework - and he’s laid up on the couch just GROANING bc of how terrible he feels. and you just look at him with your hand on your hip like “mmhmm! mmhmm! look at you now. see! i told you!”

he told you “sure! sure i won’t do any work…” liar

you come home and he can barely hold his head up.

poor guy.

“i don’t feel sorry for you. you did this to yourself.” 

but you take care of him anyway. “suga? why do you do this to yourself, baby? next time you get sick i’m getting horse tranquilizer to make sure you get rest. i’ll put you down sir!”

Medicine

so when you get home and he’s remodeled the house, having forgotten to take any medicine so now not only is he exhausted from overworking himself when he should’ve been fucking resting, but also his symptoms have gotten out of hand. 

“well,” you put your hand on your hip and raise your eyebrows at him as he lies groaning on the living room floor. “i hope you’re satisfied. because now you’re staying home tomorrow too. on the bright side, you’ve gotten all the work done around here so I guess tomorrow you might actually rest." cute dumbass sometimes.

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‎♡‧₊˚ ASAHI

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Work:

he’s so easy?

“asahi, you’re sick, baby. you need to stay home from work.”

“okay.” he’s not gonna argue.

he might try to say “well i’ve got such and such show coming up. i’ve gotta have this and that done…”

and you’re just “asa. that’s why you have people there to back you up. you’re not a one man team. your colleagues will help. you’ll more than make up for it bc you’re such an amazing designer! now go lay down.” and he will. 🥲

Home

he’s not gonna fight you on anything bc he doesn’t fight at all

he’s a lover, not a fighter

model patient

avoids conflict at all costs

“yes, darling. yes, dear. okay. okay.”

doesn’t complain

so easy to take care of

except he won’t ask for shit

will either try to get stuff himself or just go without bc he can’t decide what’s worse - burdening you, or getting in trouble for being up walking around again bc you told him to let you know if he needed something

so he just kinda tries to do without shit? and you have to come check on him.

“asahi? when’s the last time you had a drink of water?”

“uhh…two hours ago?”

“ASAHI!”

“it doesn’t matter what I do, i feel bad! i can’t win for losing!” 

finally you get through to him and he’ll ask for shit, but he’ll apologize first. like “um, babe? uhh…”

“hm? what ya need, asa?”

“umm, i’m so sorry to bother you but would you…could you…possibly…maybe…potentially…”

“oh my god, spit it out. and don’t apologize.”

“oh,” he says, averting his eyes in shame. “s-sorry.”

“stahhp!”

"sorry"

Medicine

he will take it bc you told him to and he doesn’t want to fight

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‎♡‧₊˚ hq mlist ‎˚₊‧♡

‎reblogs and (nice) comments are wonderful !! ♡

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[thinkingotherwise]

just a little post to keep info on all my WIPs that will be posted here sooner or later

[HQ] Wakatoshi Ushijima - his s/o and their first kiss

[WB] [request] WB characters- Blue Lock/Football Player! reader

[GI] [request] Halfdan

.

[DC] Straight Where It Hurts part 8+ - Jason Todd x OC

[WB] Wind Breaker characters - Kiss, kiss, fall in love

[WB] Shishitoren - Ways of Loving

[GI] Lessig Lawrence x Liyue! Fem! reader - smut?

[GI] Livre x Snezhnaya! Fatui! Male! reader x Caron - smut?

[HQ] Daichi Sawamura - his s/o and their first kiss

[HQ] Toru Oikawa - his s/o and their first kiss

[HQ] Kotaro Bokuto - his s/o and their first kiss

[HQ] Yuji Terushima - his s/o and their first kiss

[HQ] Kaname Moniwa - his s/o and their first kiss

[FF XVI] Cidolfus Telamon - Waiting

[FF XVI] Cidolfus Telamon - Stolen clothes

[WB] Akihiko Nirei - Star Lover

and many more saved all over my apps and notes

[calqlate]

HAIKYUU AS THINGS MY FRIENDS AND I HAVE SAID PT. 21

INCLUDES: bokuto + daichi + kawanishi + kuroo + oikawa + semi + sugawara + tendou

CW(S)/TW(S): coarse/foul/strong language used + includes sensual content

MASTERLIST

kawanishi: tbh my only level of flirtation is this hutao sticker

tendou: R U SRS

semi: speak with words not stickers

semi: have you not read enough nuc content

tendou: all those hours on nuc for WHAT

kawanishi: u wanna have the heaty meaty rod up ur pretty pink hole

daichi: DOES THAT STOP YOU FROM PLAYING NUC IN PUBLIC???

sugawara: I DONT

sugawara: PLAY THAT IN PUBLIC

oikawa, replying to daichi: no

[talking about the smut that they're writing]

kuroo: RMB ALL THAT GROPING ON THE STAIRCASE

oikawa: i call it passionate touching

kuroo: NAW SQUEEZING FFS

bokuto: WE'LL JUST SEE WHERE THIS GOES

kuroo: IT GOES SOUTH WHERE ELSE

© CALQLATE. all rights reserved. please do not copy, modify, repost, or translate my works on any platform.

[funpoire]

Hello

So actually I was trying to find some merch haikyuu and I found some doujinshi AND OMG it brings very old and bad memories lol

Yeah today's subject is haikyuu doujinshi in 2020/2021 (lol it sounds too serious when it’s just about weird fan creation)

So basically if you were on tik tok back in 2020/2021 yk that haikyuu was very famous at that time and because of that the fandom created a lot of things like dance, fan merch, very pretty cosplay, a trend were people act like playing volleyball was that serious and you say goodbye to your favour character with the haikyuu opening in the background…. Yeah I could do a post about this funny time but it would be kind of bullying and I don't want that lol yeah also the fandom has that whole area where it was very NSFW and corny and both of these areas got in common: fanfiction (obv but not the subject) and doujinshi

The corny part :

So like I said before I found out people selling doujinshi so you kinda had to be there and chronically online to know what I���m talking about but back in the day a few TikTok accounts appeared and they were reading and translating those mangas were it was just some x reader thing nothing harmful just kinda silly now that I think about it

This is probably the most famous corny doujin I don’t really remember the story behind just that some could be a little bit spicy but I don't really remember just that most of the people who watch it were delusional

Now…. Let’s talk about the corn doujin (don’t worry i’m not gonna say some outrageous thing)

Ok so tik Tok anime was known to put corn in front of really young audiences cause idk I forgot why they decided to do that I guess to destroy your innocence like Bronny fan did first but some doujin ended up being famous in the haikyuu fandom don’t remember the name and if I did I would NOT share it cause yes share stuff like that is bad basically it was bokuto, akaashi, tsuki and kuroo playing twister in a bed and yeah I saw that when I was 13…. Anyway that thing could stopped there but the fandom talked about it for like 2 weeks and they even wrote some FF about this ship nothing wrong with polygamy just that the fandom made the whole ship super weird and it was just “yeah let’s play Twister every sec of the day” (not sure hypersexual content is a very good representation) when I think about this I also think about this zoo fanfic that was very NSFW but I feel like it wasn't that famous so I can’t really yappe about it and you guys doesn't miss nothing trust me also I like to believe that the ship Tsuki kuroo came from here or at least it get more popular because of that doujin idk

This post is so long but I have no one to talk about that thing might start a podcast

I just hope my English wasn't that broken

Bye it was Pomme tough

[happy-hokkyokugitsune]

It's been gnawing at my mind for a while now, but:

Is it safe to say you are the CEO of TenYachi or SemiTenYachi? The pairings make a lot of sense, yet before stumbling across your page, I never thought they existed.

Also, I've been thinking about a name for the SemiTen child, thought I'd throw out some ideas. (ft. rough meaning/translation) Akari (brightness), and Airi (love and affection) These two stuck out to me but I thought to see if you had any ideas!

I hope you've been well!

I think it's safe to say that currently I am the ceo of tenyachi and I have now fallen in love with semitenyachi so probably that too. I do know of a poly challange fan art that does include them and two other people - I should reblog it.

"They make sense."

ASGSJSKLALJSJ YAS! YES THEY DO! 😭💛

Holds self back from a long ass ramble about why.

But yeah def CEO (anyone else wanna dispute please do!) Considering the last Fanfic besides mine is a translation of a fic from 2016 - and then of course the noodle gum tragedy 😭. I can't even find any on other fanfic sites and fan art is minimal, like maybe three besides mine, I need to post more of them. I also have had people tell me how happy they are that the ship is alive again. 💛☀️💛☀️💛

SOMEONE SEND FICS AND FANART IF YOU FIND MORE, PLEASE!!

Olololo~ I'll have to have a little think about other names but I really love Akari between the two, I can just hear Tendou singing it.

Aaa-Kaaariiiiiii! My little loooove!!

(I'm also a huge fan of kurobokuyachi - kurotenbokuyachi - and any variations between them - Hm add Semi? Hmmmmmmmm, the only answer is yes. Tendou, Yachi, Semi, Kuroo, and Bokuto are my top five fave characters and I have many thoughts.)

I'm doing pretty good, dead tired because our kid has decided they are going to be an extreme sport youtuber, you show a snowboard video one time and now it's every tv time kid wants to see other kids doing those kind of sports. This dude is three and a half ffs. Anyways, long story short I have to chase them all over the skatepark while kid is on a bike or trying to skateboard and it's exhausting. We have a pretend youtube for them loool

I hope you are doing good too, I'm sorry about your dog 💛

[touchlikethesun]

why do dub kuroo and bokuto sound like creepy uncles who did the casting for this they are in high school ffs 😭 kuroo’s voice is wayyyyy to gruff and mean and bokuto gen freaks me out i can’t

[nitaekook]

Slipstream

by nitaekook | 1/? | NR | 3,109

Akaashi Keiji prepares for his Formula 1 debut at the Bahrain Grand Prix, determined to prove himself amid accusations of nepotism. His confidence is shaken when Bokuto Koutarou, a mechanic from Vetra Dynamics, unexpectedly joins the race as a last-minute substitute, starting from the back. Despite having no formal racing background, Bokuto’s raw, instinctive driving style allows him to surge through the pack. As the race progresses, Akaashi’s calculated precision is tested when Bokuto closes in, leading to an intense battle between the two, neck and neck for position.

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Updates every Monday 😊

[ao3feed-iwaoi]

Born From The Concrete

Read this masterpiece on AO3 at https://ift.tt/o8ft9kn

by 2myoneandonly2

Hinata è un ragazzo energico ed esuberante che a diciotto anni, subito dopo il liceo, riesce a entrare in una delle università più rinomate per lo sport. È deciso a voler entrare nel club di pallavolo e costruire una carriera in quel campo, ma per poter emergere come buon giocatore ha bisogno di una squadra forte alle sue spalle. Per fortuna, Hinata avrà modo fin da subito di incontrare molte persone con le quali farà amicizia e alcune di esse, in particolare, entreranno nella sua vita e, forse, la cambieranno per sempre.

Haikyuu alternative universe, multiship, con la presenza di tutti i personaggi e lo sviluppo della maggior parte di essi. Abbiamo messo più hashtag possibili, ma ci saranno altri singoli tw all’inizio di alcuni capitoli. Presenza di scene smut. Ci saranno diverse reference all’anime e manga, non come spoiler ma perché la ff ricrea tutti gli eventi non più incentrati solo sulla pallavolo, ma sui rapporti e le relazioni tra i personaggi.

Words: 1154, Chapters: 1/?, Language: Italiano

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Hinata Shouyou, Kageyama Tobio, Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime, Sawamura Daichi, Nishinoya Yuu, Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Azumane Asahi, Kuroo Tetsurou, Kozume Kenma, Bokuto Koutarou, Akaashi Keiji, Tsukishima Kei, Yamaguchi Tadashi, Ushijima Wakatoshi

Relationships: Hinata Shouyou/Kageyama Tobio, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru, Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Kageyama Tobio/Oikawa Tooru, Azumane Asahi/Nishinoya Yuu, Kozume Kenma/Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou, Tsukishima Kei/Yamaguchi Tadashi, Hinata Shouyou & Kozume Kenma, Shimizu Kiyoko/Yachi Hitoka, Hinata Shouyou & Yachi Hitoka & Yamaguchi Tadashi, Nishinoya Yuu & Tanaka Ryuunosuke, Bokuto Koutarou & Kuroo Tetsurou & Oikawa Tooru

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Alternate Universe, Haikyuu!! Manga Spoilers, Hurt/Comfort, Aged-Up Character(s), Fluff and Angst, Developing Friendships, Developing Relationship, Trust Issues, …a lot of trust issues, Backstory, toxic, and they were roomates, Explicit Consent, Enthusiastic Consent, We Love Consent, FTM Oikawa Tooru, Trans Male Character, top surgery, Hook-Up, Kinks, Smut, Shameless Smut, Bisexual Character, Asexual Character, Gay Panic, gayyyyyy, Everyone Is Gay, Anal Sex, Vaginal Sex, Oral Sex, First Time, Anal Fingering, Vaginal Fingering, Worldbuilding, Heartbreak, Communication, Epic Bromance, so gay bro, silence heteros, Character Development, Semi-Public Sex, token straight tanaka, OR IS HE, Yes he is, spacchiamo tutto bro🤜🤛

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/o8ft9kn

[lnarizakis]

━━━━━3:27 pm ;; bokuto koutarou

"You should tell him how you feel,” your friend persuaded. You shook your head bashfully, and through the phone she laughed as she watched the little version of you through her screen on her phone cover herself with embarrassment. 

“I could never,” you exclaimed, and you felt yourself getting warm all over because of how silly you felt, crushing on the cute boy in your class.

“But he definitely likes you back,” your friend told you, “Have you seen the way he looks at you? God, it’s like he’s in love.” 

You sigh, falling back down onto your bed. You held your phone in the air, trying to get your good angle on the camera. 

“Get real. He looks at everyone like that. Hell, he looks at the world like he’s in love with it.” A pause. “Which he is, by the way,” you added. 

“...So does that mean you’re his world?” your friend joked. 

[voidcat]

– The Calm of the Night

Characters: Bokuto Koutarou/reader

Word Count: 2k

Genre: fluff, established relationship

requested by anon, I rlly needed (to write) that ty for requesting this!!

Lying down on the bed, you listen to the silent calling of the city.

It feels quiet, too quiet. Almost like the calm before the storm. You suppose, in a way it is the calm before the storm, the nationals approaching fast and steady. The day waited by many has come already.

Closing your eyes, you try to imagine what your friends must be feeling like right now, what they’re doing. Are they up making plans, deciding on strategy? Watching videotapes of the team they will be going against tomorrow? Hugging your Nemo plushy to your chest tighter, you wonder how Bokuto must be feeling, picture him sitting down with the others, discussing. He’s probably standing, making too many gestures as he speaks, plotting what moves to use, what strategy to follow…

The calm of the night time is disturbed with a ding. Reaching for your phone blindly, you hear a knock on the door. So you get up and walk, phone clutched in one hand, looking for another object to use for defense in case of an emergency. As you tiptoe to peep through the hole, another notification from your phone startles you. Glaring down at it, only for your shoulders to ease when you see the name, you open the door to the one and only Bokuto Koutarou.

He looks guilty for waking you up that late and opens his mouth to say something, probably an apology. Shushing him with a finger on his lips, you close the door and grab his hand, dragging him to your bedroom. Because you don’t need an apology or an explanation. Not when you see the look on his face, not when you see his eyes. They tell it all.

Silent steps in sync, he goes to sit on your bed as you put your phone down. When you turn to him, you see his gaze examining each object in your room, eyes going from one place to another, never staying still; as if it’s his first time here. Resting your hands on your desk and leaning back against it, you watch the fascinated look of his with a smile to match his. You can’t help but wonder what must be going through his head now, what memories each object must be bringing. Once he is done, his eyes land on yours and you swear you see the light in them only get brighter.

“You have made few changes since the last time I came.” He says in a whisper. Pushing yourself off the desk, you start walking to him. Placing your hands on his shoulders, you let your weight make the both of you fall back on the bed. “The last time you came, we were studying. There were books everywhere.” Before you can position yourself to rest your head on his chest, he straightens with you in his arms and lies down on the bed properly. Maybe a pillow or two to support your heads isn’t such a bad idea.

Now lying, in his arms, it feels much better. Yet his attention seems to be focused elsewhere. “You still keep him around?”

You reach for the Nemo plushy. “Of course. He keeps me company whenever you can’t.”

He mumbles a silent ‘sorry’. Placing him aside, you wrap your arm around him. “Don’t be. It’s impossible to be together all the time. Plus what would poor Nemo do if you were by my side 7/24? He would be lonely too.”

“I’d have no choice but to bring the one I have back home then.” A smirk can be heard and felt from his words.

With that you snuggle to him further and listen to his heartbeat. It sounds as relaxing as ever. It sounds like home. You can’t help but wonder if your heartbeats are as in sync as your footsteps. They must be.

As time goes and no more words are exchanged, the vague ticks of your watch reach your ears once in a while, you let yourself get lost in the embrace. Having moments like this is not rare for you maybe, but you like to savor each and every.

The wind gets quieter and your heartbeats get louder together, you try looking up to his face. It proves to be difficult from your position, all the movement you’ve made in the process gathering Bo’s attention. No more getting curious whether he has fallen asleep or not.

“What’s on your mind?”

He is the first to ask though you are dying to know how he feels. “Nothing much, just thinking about you.”

“Thinking about me?” The smile in his voice evident, you can sense him move a little. “What for? I’m right here.”

“I know. I want to find out what goes in here-“ you stroke over his heart lightly “and here.” Another light touch you leave over his head.

Reaching over to hold your hand, he plants a kiss on the back of it, then inside your palm. He guides your hands his chest, his hand resting atop yours. “If this is an alternative way of asking about tomorrow, I feel as usual as the day before any match, I suppose.” You hum back in response and listen to his breathing.

When Bokuto speaks again, it takes you a few seconds to answer. A second to realize he’s talking to you, another second you realize it’s a question and a third one to focus on the question itself, only to hear nothing. You must’ve missed it. “Huh? Can you repeat that?”

He lets out a short giggle, the vibration of his chest shaking you too. “I was asking how you were feeling. You seemed to doze off too much nowadays.” A soft smile appears on your face, even now he worries more about you than himself, his team and his game.

“I guess with time passing so fast and Nationals around the corner, I’ve grown more and more worried of the future.”

He doesn’t respond immediately and you don’t expect him to. Just laying down with him, in the dead of the night, away from everything and everyone. It feels like a getaway from life, time feels it has stopped, all your worries have flied off your head; until your boyfriend asks about them of course.

It is left unsaid but it hangs in the air. “You can talk about it if you’d like to. You can tell me what has been causing these worries and we can find a solution to them, take a first step in ending them.”

Even when he’s the one who should be worried, stressed, restless or afraid; he still puts them aside to worry about you and for you. It reminds you once again how big and made of gold his heart is. Despite the goofy air he has about him on the daily; seeing him, watching him and being in presence of him brings you hope; hope for what’s to come, hope for humanity.

He feels out of this world, a hero from storybooks and the old tales you were told all these years ago.

“It must be the people around me I’ve seen recently. How some of our friends have started breaking up because they don’t think they can make it work when they go to separate colleges.” Bokuto quirks an eyebrow at that, something you don’t need to see to know it is happening. “And some people I’ve talked to before, for career choices. How sad and miserable they’d sounded when they told me they picked something they loved for their jobs, only to grow to hate it. You should’ve seen their faces or heard them speak, it was heartbreaking.”

“Maybe it’s the thought of falling out of love with something in the future that worries me.” You add lastly, barely in a whisper.

His first response to your words is to tighten his arms around you, deepen the embrace in a ‘I’m-here-for-you’ way. You can feel the warmth spread from his chest to yours with the gesture, a temporary consolation but it works for now. You return the action by burying your face to his chest.

“If your concern includes us, please do not get worked up and worry yourself over that. Just because some people around us have fallen out doesn’t mean we will too.” You think of replying back “I know that too.” But you don’t find it in you to open your mouth, move your tongue and make the words come out. And so continues Bokuto.

“We love one another and know it too. Few meters or kilometers wouldn’t make a difference, for we carry one another in our hearts.” This time, you tighten your hold of him and nod a few times, to show that you believe and know this fully. He lets out a soft laugh at the sudden movement by his side.

“Well, maybe physical touch can become a problem. But not one we cannot work around. Our love was never physical to begin with after all.” His words providing a much needed comfort and a reminder. "And do not pay attention to those who have sulken?? within their jobs. It is never out of your hands to take the charge, to let it stay as joyful as the first day or become mundane.” After that the two of you fall back into silence, this time it’s calm and welcoming, just like his scent.

As time passes and the night grows tired, his heartbeats indicate he is lying awake still. Clearing your throat, you decide to speak up. “I will wish you good luck in formality tomorrow but not mean it, just so you know.”

As you wait for a change in his behavior or a response, nothing rises out of him. Taking it as a cue of waiting, you continue speaking.

“Because I know you will give it your all. You don’t need such a thing as luck, when you are you and have this amazing team to play with side by side.” He kisses the top of your head, as you finish your sentence. You can feel your smile get wider and feel his in the kiss.

Rolling over, you break free of his arms and open the top drawer of your nightstand. “However, this does not mean I didn’t make a little something for tomorrow.” Putting the little braided keychain in his hand, you leave a kiss on his lips. He tries kissing back a second too late as you draw back, which results with him kissing the air. This erupts a muffled laughter from the both of you.

As he raises it in the air to examine, you lean on one arm and watch his face.

Once done examining and putting it inside his pocket, Bokuto turns to face you fully. “Something tells me it’s more than just a little something ‘for my game tomorrow’.”

“It’s a piece of me too. Or, a piece from me. For the future to come, be it together or not.”

“The future we will live to the fullest, together. The only way I am accepting this is as a promise. The promise of a future that awaits the both of us. A life time to spend side by side. No ‘falling-out-of-love’s,-“ As you open your mouth to mumble a reply, he holds your free hand with his. “-no ‘but’s. Give me this one promise and let us worry for the future together. We can worry for the yeast we prepared not being good enough or for eating too many eclairs. We can worry about midterms and matches that await us and laugh them off once we are done with them… How does that sound instead?” His smile never falters as he speaks, eyes shining like two bright stars guiding the lost ones in the woods, like a lighthouse showing the way to sailors. The same caring eyes, seems to be holding the same warmth when you first saw them; yet it feels the intensity only keeps multiplying, redefining its own limits, shining brighter than ever.

“Sounds like a better worrying scenario than mine.” Leaning over to steal another kiss, one he does not miss this time, you fall back into the comfort of his arms. With the blink of an eye, you fall into deep slumber together, not even the dreams separating your minds and hearts.

[ashiiixoxo]

“you shouldn't receive those spikes with your face” Bokuto Koutaro x fem! reader

anime: Haikyuu!!   Character: Bokuto Koutaro   Genre: Fluff  

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 |

it was only one day before nationals began and the nerves started to build up. practice after practice, everything went well so what was there to worry about for us? we can do this, we will win again! yet, I couldn't help but feel nervous. 

since that day, Bokuto and I have been texting and calling every now and then after practice or before we went to bed. it was weird but very comforting. I could tell he was slightly nervous too.

“i’m definitely going to watch your match!” that's what he said. and now I suddenly remember why I felt nervous. he would be watching me play. it wasn't like last time, when he was benched. this time he would be cheering for us. and because he will be watching, i can't help but feel nervous.

i tied my shoelaces and got up. “ready to go? Tomorrow we will be meeting at the school entrance.” Yuna announced. we left the changing room and left the school grounds. 

“so, when are you and Bokuto having your date?” Rachel asked when the others parted ways. I shrugged. “we haven't talked about the date yet.” I looked  at the streetlights. “strange, I thought you two would go on a date before nationals started.” I nodded. “that was the plan but we both had practice and such.” 

Rachel pouted. “well, do you like him?” I raised an eyebrow at her question. “you have been smiling more, checking your phone more often than you usually would. so~” she was right. ever since I started talking to him, I had the urge to look at my phone more often or remember silly things he told me the night before.

“i don't know.” I answered. “huh?” 

“you haven't acted like this since-” I interrupted her. “please don't bring that up.” I shook my head. “of course he makes my heartbeat speed up and such. but I think its because I'm just not used to any of this.” Rachel slightly nodded.

“well I hope that you still get your date~” she teased and I smiled. “wether its now or after nationals, the date is assured.” 

-

after having a shower I flopped onto my bed, scrolling through my snapchat. ‘damn the streaks’ you took a picture of your ceiling and send it to all your streaks. I didn't feel tired so falling asleep won't happen that easily.

my phone buzzed and i plugged in some earbuds and answered the call without checking. “hello?” 

“why are you snap chatting this late at night, young lady.” I smiled at scolding. “well hello to you too Bokuto-san.” I slightly chuckled. “let me guess you can't sleep?” we both said and chuckled. “I feel too excited!” he exclaimed. “hm” you nodded. “I feel nervous..” you mumbled. Bokuto laughed. “you and nervous? for a match?” you kept quiet.

“oh-” he realised that i was serious. “well I'm going for a jog or something to kill some energy.” “oh all right. it’s cold so don't stay out too long kay?” he giggled at my words. “yes mom.” I smiled and bit my lip. “bye” “bye-bye” we hung up.

talking to him made me feel less nervous but now my head was filled with him which still made it impossible for me to fall asleep. after twisting and turning for the past half hour, I sat up. maybe was Rachel right. 

my phone buzzed again. ‘come outside.’ grasping my phone, I left the room and put on a coat. it was already 2 AM. unlocking the front door I quietly slipped outside and saw Bokuto standing in front of the porch, staring at the door.

I might or might not have lost the ability to speak. bokuto stood in front of the porch wearing sweatpants, a hoodie and a black long coat to keep him warm. his hair was down, making him look even more handsome. ‘wait shit-’ 

he waved once he spotted me. giving him a quick ‘hey’ I stood next to him. “since we both can't sleep, maybe we can make that date still happen?” he looked a bit sleepy. “sure.” he offered his hand and I put my hand in his. 

we walked through the neighborhood, laughing and joking around while talking about our volleyball practices. it became quiet for a while. both of us were admiring the colorful streetlights of Tokyo. 

one of the billboards displayed an add for the volleyball nationals. “you know..” I looked at Bokuto who had broken the silence.

“the first time I saw you was on that billboard, you looked really cool..” he trailed off. “I admired your skills, it showed me that I could never beat you, so I worked harder to get on the same level.” he chuckled. i couldn't laugh at all. the fact that it made him feel like he wasn't strong enough to play against me made my heart sink. 

“after nationals last year I wanted to play against you so badly, your team is strong and I knew that if I could beat you, i could possibly go pro.” he admitted.

“i am pretty sure that an ace like you can, indeed, go pro.” he stared at me for a few seconds. “you think so?” he asked. I hummed. “yeah.”

we walked through some unfamiliar streets in the city, admiring the cold air and the bright lights. 

“can we- you know, play again some time?” Bokuto blushed. giving him a smile, I nodded. “I would love to.” “next time I won't receive with my face though.” I laughed. 

“maybe I can receive something else with my face?” the grip on my hand tightened. raising an eyebrow I turned to him. “like what?” 

he turned crimson. “your lips maybe?” he mumbled. biting my lip, I held back my smile. he turned to me, holding onto my waist instead and leaned in.

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OHMYGOD IM SO SORRY HFDJHFD IM REALLY BAD AT FLUFF BUT I WANTED TO GIVE THIS A TRY ://

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