#bokchoyspeaks

[rainbowbokchoy]

so I've seen a lot of people who missed Ambrosius's long hair-- which, yeah no that would have been fabulous-- but i think i understand the choice hair choice (finally!!).

at first I thought, you know, he's young so he'll keep it short for the sake of convenience and such. BUT THEN!!! I realized:

Ambrosius is modeled after his voice actor, Eugene Lee Yang, who is Korean, so Ambrosius is obviously also is of some Korean descent as well. His hair is naturally black. But in order to keep up appearances, he dyes/bleaches it blonde. And I think that fits so perfectly with the model minority aspect of Nimona, because it's just another subtle reminder of how people are forced to change themselves to be accepted.

Keeping his hair short, while a bit less fabulous than his Rapunzel look, more clearly conveys the contrast. And maybe they could've just made his roots black (would have done the job well I think?), but the bluntness of the long wavy locks Gloreth once had against the close shave of black has a certain effect to it.

I like to think that, after all is well and they've had an enough months years to heal, Ambrosius would stop dyeing his hair, and grow it out. Let those long locks shine, baby.

(this is not to say that hair dyeing is bad, which i'm not sure this is implying but just in case. Ambrosius not dyeing his hair is for more Symbolic TM purposes than a stylistic choice, which I'm not sure he's gotten to make given gems been bleach blonde since he was young)

[rainbowbokchoy]

what is your character's defining trait?

now, where did they get that from? past experiences? family? did they chose to be that way or was it forced into them?

there's a man who's known as a hermit because he caused a massive and fatal accident years ago in his village. there's a loud boisterous kid who was raised to hide themselves for the sake of love.

this thought is mostly what i use for making up the lore of a character, but also can be used as a base for what the characters reaction might be to a certain situation.

I need everyone’s best character advice. STAT.

[boiledpizza]

why is there a bracket for flat cheeks

[rainbowbokchoy]

Thanks for the tag @perseverantdt!!! This is really just a bit late so apologies for that. I've never shared much about myself before, but let me give it a go!

Last song: No idea, but probably Ikaw Lang by NOBITA, the Cabin Fever album by Purple Kiss, or Chandelier by Sia

Last show: Vanitas No Carte (The Case Study of Vanitas)

Currently reading: Daughter of the Moon Goddess by Sue Lynn Tan!! and Minor Feelings by Cathy Park Hong

(I'm reading Babaylan: An Anthology of Filipina and Filipina American Writers by Nick Carbó as well, but a bit less frequently since the content is a bit heavy)

Currently watching: Jujutsu Kaisen and Kimi ni Todoke

side note: I WANT TO WRAP SAWAKO IN A BLANKET AND GIVE HER A HUG

Current obsession: Diluven. Diluven brainrot. Also how to integrate magic and sci-fi together for my wip (but mostly diluven brainrot). Like it's the themes. THE THEMES. eternal lover and fiery mortal?? blue and red??? guardian and their god?????? HELLO?????????

Anyway, I feel like this is a bit short compared to others, but that's it from me!! I'll just tag some of my fellow writing peeps :D

Tags: @autumnalwalker , @shiversdownyourspleen , @hellfire286 , @toomanystoryideas , @so-many-silly-words

(If you would like to be removed / not tagged in the future please let me know!)

[rainbowbokchoy]

70!!!! percent!!! done!!! with outlining!!!

[rainbowbokchoy]

[1st Photo ID: Top of a Google Doc, with the title set as "sapphic mystery paranormal romance thing"

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[Photo ID: The title of a Google Doc file that reads: "friends-to-lovers w a dagger

/End Photo ID]

I thought it was only me

Someone: having a proper title before you start writing can be useful, since it helps keep you on track with themes, motifs, characters, etc. 

Me: uhhh

[rainbowbokchoy]

finally, FINALLY, making a proper draft for my first full original fiction book :>

I'm following @ bookishdiplodocus 's outline which gives *just* enough structure for me to feel supported yet unsuffocated. It also helped me get started without being overwhelmed by the whole I'm-going-to-write-an-actual-book thing

I'm currently writing out the individual scenes, then I'll probably move to basic character building (motivations, main characteristics, arcs, what have you). After I'll plan out the type of diction / devices I should use and then ✨START WRITING✨.

At some point between the brain ache of writing and the brain ache of not writing I'll hopefully get a WIP page up and running!!

[rainbowbokchoy]

guess who fell behind on their readings!

me it's me

[rainbowbokchoy]

This doesn't apply to everyone, but when I say I'm genderfluid I'm referring to my experience with gender. Yes, I am technically nonbinary, but that doesn't mean referring to me as a man or a woman is incorrect.

When I say I'm genderfluid, it means my gender is fluid, which should be self-explanatory. But many of the people in my life don't refer to me as a man or a woman, but rather always as a person or "something unidentified" (as a joke but come on). Sometimes, they refuse to refer to me as a woman/man, even when I've asked them to. Other times, specific people will go out of their way to correct me when I refer to myself as a man or a woman, and instead tell me that "I am a non-binary person."

This technically is true. Being genderfluid means I fall under the umbrella of non-binary people. But that shouldn't stop me from identifying as a woman or a man and calling myself such. Because that's beauty of genderfluidity: being able to change your gender based on what feels most comfortable.

In my mind, the term genderfluid means that my gender is fluid. It will change. Meaning that when I feel like a woman but you insist on calling me a non-binary person because "that's what I really am", you're really just overlaying your own experiences/knowledge of genderfluidity/other gender identities onto mine and pretending that you know better when it's not your body and mind.

When I feel like a man, I am a man. When I feel like a woman, I am a woman. When I feel like a non-binary person, I am a non-binary person.

Please don't trap me in the box of your understanding. Please respect both the non-binary AND the fluid parts of my identity. Thanks.

Note: I want to reiterate that this is my personal experience with genderfluidity, and thus doesn't apply to every single genderfluid person. I just wanted to voice my frustrations on what (I hope) is simply a misunderstanding about my genderfluidity and not the persisting stigma that genderfluid people don't actually exist. This is not meant to be educational or defining about the genderfluid experience in any way, since it greatly varies from person to person.

[rainbowbokchoy]

i'm going to try to do the softer version of nanowrimo, where the goal is just to write every day of November. im 99% sure i've seen it somewhere on here but i can't remember what the challenge was specifically called 😭

who is doing nanowrimo this year? how prepared are we feeling?

[rainbowbokchoy]

recently wrote a little short story with some metaphors about disgust and the self and such, fully intentional. tell me why i got baja-blasted to a higher nexus when a reviewer actually. caught on. told me the themes i wrote and i thought: where did those themes come from?

[rainbowbokchoy]

i love how ao3 had to make it clear they're legally not responsible for people's exposure to bad spelling

[rainbowbokchoy]

forgot the phrase "the collective" and my brain could only think of that pinterest tumblr something meme where the lady is a daycare babysitter and that kid goes "it belongs to the COLLECTIVE", which it dubbed the "communism children meme"

[rainbowbokchoy]

Selfie Picrew Tag Game

thank you @shiversdownyourspleen for the tag!!

this is me. yeah :D

also tags for anyone who sees this and wants to cause I'm too shy to tag people for this one

[rainbowbokchoy]

worldbuilding is simultaneously so fulfilling yet so draining.

it's like, I'm creating a whole world in my head that *needs* to be materialized in some way. Writing, drawing, anything medium honestly. it's would be too difficult to remember all the minutiae without it, but it's also difficult to motivate myself to even write! Of course, it feels amazing to create, but it's also making my head hurt and my soul feel like bits and pieces of it are being stripped away and into a tiny mixing bowl.

I mean, I guess that is what's happening

[rainbowbokchoy]

does anyone know about a show or movie or SOMETHING where two guys casually arm wrestle while staring at each others lips? I need to know

also here's a video of it for reference

[Video ID:

Two men are arm wrestling. Both have dark hair, light skin, are wearing pale blue button-ups. The one who eventually wins the arm wrestle is also wearing a black vest. As they test their strength, they look at and into one another's mouths and eyes. The vested one is more confident in his staring, while the unvested one is more shy. Despite distance likely being a factor in how much strength one can employ, the two are quite close together.

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