#bodydisphoria

[justaqueerlesbiantransgirl]

FALLiNG iN LOVE WiTH MYSELF (Read.) It's been a time since I have been feeling comfortable in my own body, but I am getting there more and more. I am feeling love for myself and know that I am doing the best I can. I care about muself and make myself laugh. I found the perfect partner already. I think I am falling in love with myself again. 💛💛 I am learning. And so can you. #trans #transgoals #lesbian #cute #selflove #selfcare #bodypositivity #dysphoria #bodydisphoria #anewlife #anormallife #selfacceptance #movingon #anewbeginning (at Read.) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6u-Pbni1TX/?igshid=p2g9o8x5ng2m

[pizzalovingpuppysnuggler-blog]

I felt so mentally comfortable in my binder today. It made me confident in everything I did. It also made my chest ache and my breath short. Now I'm recovering in bed, wishing I could wake up tomorrow with no chest at all. #nonbinary #nonbinaryday #bodydisphoria #genderqueer #genderfluid #nonbinaryproblems https://www.instagram.com/p/B4QrvLlHMGS/?igshid=9edp15vwj93i

[chqnified]

I feel like we've come to a point where I'm close to giving up.

One of our close friends promised to come see us soon, but made excuses as to why she couldn't every single time. Another close friend no longer talks to us unless he wants to talk about his drama, he was the one who wanted to meet up but was all full of lies.

Our mum said she'd go into town with us Wednesday, never happened, but agreed the next day we could. We're now the next day, and it has been completely forgotten. "But aren't you in pain? You should wait until you recover?" , Not understanding that we've been like this for months now. It's not getting better, it's getting worse. Claims i should walk more, but the time I'd actually walk willingly, suddenly doesn't apply?

I'm fucking upset because I'm having to go on a summer uni experience, a 4 day thing. I don't want to go. I don't know anyone, and I don't want to have to do a 5 minute presentation infront of at least 50 people. People need to stop trying to invalidate me for feeling uncomfortable in that situation just because 'well you can perform on a stage infront of thousands of people' , it's not the same.

And I'm potentially being forced to go swimming tonight. Self explanatory. I only know that bot only will that be a bodydisphoria nightmare but i know full damn well I'm going to come out of that with even more body dismorphia issues after everyone has put in their opinion about my body. I can be fully dressed in the baggiest clothes ever and get inappropriate comments surrounding my weight.

I'm in constant agony, all my joints hurt like shit. I'm in pain and i dread having to get up in the morning, it feels like my joints are all about to slide. Yet, the blame is put on me, it's always 'you're not eating enough' 'you obviously have a deficiency ' or 'it is the phone' like lol yeah the phone explains the pain in my ankles. For once, can't someone just listen and let me go to the doctors. 'Taking paracetamols isn't good for you on a daily basis' , what do you want me to do? I'm on the maximum dose and i can feel all my joints burning and feeling like they have needles stuck in them.

My dad said to me the other night 'dont you think your mum has been through enough?' refering to my outing and also to the fact i said i couldn't care less if someone thought i was a boy, he jumped to the conclusion we were trans. Which we are. He already knows, but it never has been brought up except for the snarky comments here and there. So what? It's disrespectful to them as parents because i am who i am? I didn't choose to be trans, like i didn't choose to be born lol.

It's an accumulation of things, I don't feel wanted by anyone in my life. And i feel betrayed, i feel fucking betrayed by everyone who told that small child that they loved them, when in reality it was only if they were exactly who they wanted them to be. Or told them they loved them whilst behind their back, were backstabbing them.

I'm sick of it.

[labellebabu]

Happy Trans Visibility Day!

[justaqueerlesbiantransgirl]

Felt like a thick beech today. Might delete later. Love yourself. 💛💛🌈 #trans #transgoals #lesbian #cute #selflove #selfcare #bodypositivity #dysphoria #bodydisphoria #anewlife #anormallife #selfacceptance #movingon #anewbeginning (at LICK) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6383zDiW75/?igshid=e90n80smf6wd

[fromtheideallandscape]

Crying in the dressing room, when, for the tenth year in a row, you've grown a whole another cup size...

[triadin]

"Fly for me... my wings are still tied..." ( The Swallow) step 2 - #colors #colerase #Triadin #art #ric4art #sketch #pencil #love #family #fantasy #character #drawing #Japan #日本 #Kagawa #香川 #Shikoku #四国 #love #LGBTQIA #trans #transisbeautiful #graphicnovel #original #rogue #wip #TheSwallow #bodydisphoria

[triadin]

"Fly for me... my wings are still tied..." ( The Swallow) - #Triadin #art #ric4art #sketch #pencil #love #family #fantasy #character #drawing #Japan #日本 #Kagawa #香川 #Shikoku #四国 #love #LGBTQIA #trans #transisbeautiful #graphicnovel #original #rogue #wip #TheSwallow #bodydisphoria