#bodies are the worst

[rosefyrefyre]

My body: You know what would go really great with feeling like shit after getting a flu shot and a Covid booster? Me: No, and I don't want to. My body: Too bad. Here's your period. Me: ...Fuck. You.

[misguidedandperplexed]

why isn't there a loyalty program for chronic or severe acute medical or mental health conditions? there should be a punch card for that. amass 10 conditions and you get a prize. what prize? i don't know. but we should be rewarded in some way for all of our suffering, dammit

[bbcphile]

Adventures in Chronic Illness Hell: Medication edition

My narcolepsy meds—which I spent 4 months fighting insurance and my sleep doctor’s office to finally get approved, and which revolutionized my sleep and gave me some semblance of my former life back—cause tachycardia and high blood pressure, and a host of other frustrating related symptoms.

Taking propranolol to lower my heart rate and blood pressure just makes me horribly dizzy and light headed and gives me non-stop headaches, so I can’t do anything but sit on the sofa. (And it doesn’t lower my blood pressure.)

I have one more thing I can try to make the narcolepsy med work. Because of hEDS, I don’t metabolize food or medication correctly, so if the high heart rate and blood pressure are caused by my metabolizing issues, then starting this new med has a chance of fixing those things. But, I learned the hard way that I have to make other med adjustments first; I tried the metabolism med without other changes and learned 1. It works, because 2. Suddenly I was metabolizing all my other medications, because I managed to get all side effects of all of them at once, which almost landed me in the ER.

So, I am currently off my narcolepsy meds (and dealing with sleep attacks and debilitating fatigue) so that tomorrow I can go off some of my MCAS meds and try the metabolism med, so that I can ultimately try the narcolepsy med again and hope the high heart rate and blood pressure go away.

If that fails, then I will have to spend the next several weeks trying to convince my sleep Dr and insurance to let me try one of the other nighttime narcolepsy meds, in which case I will be desperately hoping that they don’t cause anaphylaxis, the way that over half of the meds I have ever tried do.

I fucking hate this.

[werewolves-are-real]

Today I got the rare variety of headache where i have pain/nausea only when sitting or lying down. Which is a great excuse to do tons of cleaning, I GUESS, but all my hobbies involve sitting down. I've been sitting down 15 minutes and now I'm dizzy again. Ugh.

[oars]

[inkskinned]

you want them to text back but that's anxious attachment isn't it. it's just that you can feel on the wind when you're not wanted anymore. when they've fallen out of love in any small part of their marrow. you have a hawk's eye for disharmony. you can tell when she has begun packing her things.

don't be annoying. you want to write: i have never experienced unconditional love as an explanation but isn't that pathetic. in adulthood all love is conditional and it should be. you've been to too much therapy. touch grass. how sappy can you be.

but they don't reach for your hand while they're driving. they forget to ask you how you're doing. the call times no longer read 12:34:19. they're 30 minutes and perfunctory before she says baby please, i'm tired. i need to go to sleep. where in her life do you fit. why is it that you never fit into anyone's life very long. oblong creature with so many needs, spilling up and out and over everything. it's a fucking shame the first time she said she loved you it was for your independence. and now look at you.

hollow pit in your stomach, body shaking. fuck, not again. you're not going to ruin another relationship like this, codependent and toxic, spiraling. and in the other half of your brain: if that's your wife, wouldn't she want to hear it? wouldn't it be fine? wouldn't she just comfort you and you can both move on and nobody dies?

but you're crowding her! read another instagram Positive Vibes Only type of post that talks about calming your heart and your brain and your body. try to sit in silence. the thing is that you do have a life outside of her, remember? go back to it.

great news, your parents fucked you up and now you have no idea how to deal with love. you just keep wanting to be chosen. to be real to someone, all the way through. real and kept. held closely. seen as precious to somebody. why even is that? didn't you always swear that people can and should complete themselves? why are you so constantly driven to beg for love, doglike and barking?

it's just the tiny things. it's just that you have to weigh every silence and sentence like bricks on an exposed belly. you have no idea how to shut it off. every alarm bell in your body saying: this isn't safe. start scrambling. she's already going.

[sqrkyclean]

being vulnerable for a second to use my pooltoy furry oc to convey what recovering from contamination ocd has been like while undergoing hrt.

[defiantbird]

I continually get into good habits only for my period to come and make me incapable of having the willpower anymore.

I stopped taking naps over my lunch break! Ope nevermind I'm now more iron deficient than usual and can't stay awake.

I'm either exercising or stretching every day! Ope nevermind the idea of moving is abhorrent now.

I'm eating healthy! Ope nevermind I really really NEEDED cake and a giant bowl of pasta like I need air.

Weh :<

[kyouka-supremacy]

Finally cracked what was going through their minds in these panels

[eldritchmochi]

i Desire to goop my new boots but im still so incredibly shakey from not eating for ten days (why is it always ten days) that i am not sure i could do it effectively >:C

[zorangezest]

skybound

[sandushengshou]

[basalting]

after jasons death bruce "accidentally" slips harvey a crowbar while hes in arkham and kisses his cheek and says, voice soft and colder than ice, "make him hurt for me honey"

it takes 6 guards to sedate and drag two face off the joker the next time two face sees him and for the rest of their lives as soon as harvey sees the joker he goes after him like a rabid dog.

[wanologic]

Dan Doodles

[sirenium]

Include men in your body positivity. you are not body positive if you make fun of male pattern baldness, neckbeards, fatness, etc in men. these traits are just as worthy of acceptance regardless of if it's wrapped in pink bows or not.

[tagidearte]

My internship has started and I'm overloaded with doing historical illustration + writing a whole ass roman history of the region book for children, so... No time for finished stuff any time soon (except one I've already started and will probs post within the next few days). Take this quick messy shippy little concept.

If they ever got separate bodies, I know they would be touchy. Trying to get as close as they once were.