#bmc squip smut

[your-funky-squip-companion]

today's post for squipjer week!!

i know its not squipjer, ugh

but i didn't have enough time today to create something new

so i compiled a whole bunch of previous snippets of squip x reader i had done. i think because of my time constraints this week is just a celebration of be more chill in general for me. so possibly the next few days im gonna just post big projects about bmc in general

[cecelianonymous22]

Thinking about how my two favorite BMC fics are genuinely some of the most fucked situations I have ever read but in a really intriguing way

And then the author who wrote both of them dated another BMC fic writer who wrote near exclusively Squipemy or other Squip/teen smut

Crazy

[noplacelikelondon58]

bmc appreciation post for DivineProjectZero on ao3!!!

or, on tumblr, @listentotheshityousay

ill only mention a few, so go read the others!!

Endgame: i am such a sucker for practice kissing (especially with boyf riends), and this was executed perfectly. michael's pining feels so real, and jeremy not catching feelings, but still realizing that something feels different is just amazing.

for your eyes only: AH! this has got to be my favorite glasses-less michael fic. the great middleborough melltdown might be my favorite pun ever (and obi weed kenobi). i love this so much.

across the river, into the sea: sososososo abstract, and sososososo beautiful.

Protector: at first i thought the whole predator/prey simile was weird, but I love it so much now. i always love michael speaking tagalog, and this ending was sososo amazing. this was just all awesome

your song's got me feeling like: literally the best smut fic I've ever read. i love dj!michael, SQUIP being an acronym for shamelessly queer up in prospect, rich's little texts to jeremy about jake, just everything. also, one of the only smut fics I've ever read where the position isn't physically impossible. they're also so michael and jeremy even without knowing eachother.

also, all in all, beautiful writing. it makes you feel so... present in the story. i feel like I'm reading published novels.

go read these awesome fics rn

[maybe-i-should-try-harder]

FRIEND TAG !! TYY

1. How many works do you have on AO3? - 20

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? - 20,647

3. What fandoms do you write for? - deh and bmc

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? - OH MY GOD my first ever kleinsen fic ive uploaded (I HATE IT) and the rest is mostly boyf riends I AM NOT LINKING THEYRE OLD AND BAD

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? -I LOVE COMMENTS I TRY TO ALWAYS REPLY

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? - ....one of the many fics where either jared or jeremy die at the end

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? - hmm i like good endings but my happiest fic has got to be my summer jared fic

8. Do you get hate on fics? - not that ive seen any no?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? - nah im a virgin

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? - once. Kleinmell/Mellman. also Jared getting a squip (still a wip)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? - not that im aware??

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? - nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? - once LMAO

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? - i guess kleinsen would be right since its been there since the start and never left

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? - yes

16. What are your writing strengths? - somehow i write in a poetic way?? or so ive been told

17. What are your writing weaknesses? -I CANT DO LONGFICS... I CANT DO ACTIONS I AM ONLY GOOD WITH DIALOGUE MAYBE

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? - if you or your friend speak the language it's fine! otherwise google translate will butcher it.

19. First fandom you wrote for? - .....fnaf.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? - i do like my sun jared moon evan fic!

20 Questions for Fic Writers

@rmd-writes @welcometololaland @three-drink-amy thanks for providing me with procrastination material <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

58

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

957,577. with the unpublished words of meet you after dark, I'll be very close to 1,000,000. I'm almost certain I'll hit it by the end of the year (at least that's my goal)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

911 Lone Star

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

anchor up to me, love (this being my top fic by kudos is so shocking to me lol it's just a 3x05 coda that I think I wrote the day after the episode aired, I really didn't think it was that special)

pushing boundaries

haunted by the ghost of you

one single thread

yours for the weekend

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes, I try to respond to them all! That being said, I've very behind right now but I promise I'll get back to you!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hold on - This is probably the only 'unhappy' ending I have, but it's more so just unresolved because it's a 3x01 coda written before any of the other episodes in that arc aired. and 3x01 is not a happy episode lol

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they pretty much all do in general so I don't think I could pick one specifically that stands out

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really, but it has happened a few times

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes, but usually incorporated within a story, not as a standalone. I think the only PWP fic I wrote is when push comes to shove. and even that has some plot

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

No crossovers

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

As far as I'm aware, no

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don't think so

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not officially

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Carlos and TK <3

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

idk if I can call this a WIP, but there's always been an idea in my mind about writing a fic inspired by the book Carlos was writing in as if you were a mythical thing. it's a 1970s camp counselor slasher murder mystery style fic that I wrote a little bit of for this prompt fill, but I don't know if a full au will ever come out of it. shame because the playlist and moodbord would slap

16. What are your writing strengths?

world building, banter, angst that feels like a punch in the gut, giving the happy ending room to breathe

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

smut I feel like. need to learn new ways to say the same exact thing

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I think it makes total sense and feels authentic for it to be there every once in a while for non-crucial story details if a character speaks another language

19. First fandom you wrote for?

911 Lone Star

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I'm going to go with your first string. I think that has my most full-fledged character arcs and full circle storyline. It's my longest fic and I never really got sick of writing it, which is a pretty good indicator that I enjoyed it

no pressure tagging @reyesstrand @carlos-in-glasses @theghostofashton @orchidscript @freneticfloetry + anyone else!

[flan-anon-blog]

Whiteout

Oof I’m so sorry this is really late and the anon who requested it probably gave up on me ever writing it. Also, thank you to @the-androgynous-student-anon for the help! I really appreciate it! TW: kinda ooc, Smut, SMUTTY SMUT SMUT, swearing ———— You sat at your desk, typing away at the keys on your computer. You had an essay due and you’re squip was totally slacking, which you didn’t even know he could do. You hadn’t seen him since you took a the first sip of your drink, which was about half an hour ago. As you pondered what the cause of this may be, your squip started to appear next to you. As he drifted into existence you couldn’t help but notice he look different. He looked frazzled, his face flushed and his hair messy. He wasn’t one to be flustered, and you had to say that this was quite the sight. “(Y/n), what are you drinking??” He asked urgently. That’s odd. “Just Mountain Dew-“ “What flavor??” You could tell by his voice that he was really off. ”Whiteout? Why? What’s wrong?” You ask worriedly. He pinched the bridge of his nose, taking a seat on your bed. “This is bad. This is really, really bad.” He groaned. “What? W-what’s wrong?” You looked at him, your face showing a mix of concern and confusion. He let out a deep, frustrated sigh. “You know how you can only activate a SQUIP with original Mountain Dew?” He asked. You nodded in response as he continued. “Well, other flavors take affect on me too. Voltage puts me in full control of the host, Throwback makes me act like I’m from the users favorite time period against my will-“ That’s when you stopped his informative lecture from going any further. “So what does Whiteout do?” You questioned. “Whiteout makes me feel human emotions. Not the same as what you, the user, would be feeling right now, but feelings that all humans experience, like sadness and anger. But since there’s no reason for me to feel either of those, I have to feel the third most human emotion...” “Which is?” You did a little hand movement, as if telling him to continue. “..lust.” His voice cracked as he choked up the word. You couldn’t help but blush. This wasn’t a conversation you’d ever think of having with anyone, especially your squip. “How long do the effects last?” You asked, still blushing. “Usually only for a few hours. Unless, in this case, it’s ‘taken care of’.” He tugged at his button up shirt, trying to manage his high temperature. The way he put it. ‘Taken care of’. It replayed in your head over and over. The warmth you felt in your cheeks was rising with every passing moment. The squip was clearly uncomfortable with the unfamiliar heat he was dealing with. He was not used to feeling temperature, and this for sure as hell was not his cup of tea. “Seriously have you never heard of a fucking air conditioner, (y/n)?” The Squip snapped suddenly, breaking the silence. You couldn’t help but laugh at his unusual conversation skills. “What’s so funny?” He growled, stomping over to you and pinning you against your desk chair. You quickly stopped your giggling. This was oddly turning you on. once realizing what he was doing, the Squip pushed himself away. “I-I’m sorry, I seem to be dealing with hormones.” He said quickly. “My sensitivity has been increased. I apologize for any of my future actions.” He sighed. You were thinking of how you could fix this, when you realized what the only option was. “No! Absolutely not!” Your squip hissed. You suddenly remember that he was in your brain, and knew exactly what you were thinking. “Well, I don’t know what else to do! You’re not giving me anything to work with and, might I remind you, I have homework!” You grumbled. He tapped his foot impatiently as you went back to typing. “This sucks. Do all humans really experience this?” “Yes, very much so. Now shut up.” Uncomfortable silence filled the room until he let out a groan. “Fine, we’ll go with your plan.” He didn’t expect your eyes to light up like they did. Sure, you were a horny teen, not to mention a virgin, but he didn’t think you were that desperate. You were very confused at how you were going to do this. “How do I touch you? Like, so my hands don’t just go right through you?” “Simple. I can manipulate your nerves and trick your mind into thinking we’re making contact.” He said as if it wasn’t that big of a deal. “And you’ll feel it too?” You asked. “In the state I’m in, yes I will. And I would prefer you stop asking questions and get on with it.” You tried putting your newfound knowledge to the test by pushing him down onto your bed and smiling when he complied. You got on your knees, kneeling in front of him, and yanked his pants off, expecting them to just land anywhere when you threw them, but even more surprise when they just dissipated into thin air. You gazed upon his well shaped legs and claves. Perhaps for too long, judging by the way the Squip cleared his throat. You snapped back into your previous mind set, reaching for his boxers. He nodded, letting you know you were okay to take them off. You slid them off and stared at the sight before you. Of course he was a computer who only picked what you would like best, but damn, he was perfect. You reached for the base. Quickly glancing up, you looked at him for approval before doing anything else. He smiled, appreciating the gesture, but practically begging for you to continue. You licked the tip ever so gently, causing his back to arch. He was practically shaking, his hair messier than before and his body propped up on one arm with the other covering his mouth. “You don’t have to do that. I’m the only one who can hear you.” “It’s still embarrassing to let someone else hear you moa-AAan!” He couldn’t get out the full sentence. Your tongue running along the shaft of his member was far too distracting. His hand retreated into your hair, pushing your mouth impossibly closer against him. You pushed back slightly to take the rest of him in. His hips bucked against your mouth. The feeling was new and unfamiliar to him but he was enjoying it very much. He yanked your hair accidentally, earning a moan from you that vibrated against him. The pleasure sent shivers down his spine, prompting him to pull again, only this time harder. “(Y/n)..” he gasped. You knew what he was trying to tell you. You pulled away before he could reach his climax. He looked at you in confusion and disappointment. Without another word you sat on his lap, softly grinding against him while unbuttoning his shirt. You momentarily paused your current task and quickly began to strip yourself as well, pulling your shirt up and tossing it. All that remained was your bra and your jeans, which were quickly discarded as well. As soon as you were naked you went to take off the squips shirt and partially untied tie, only for him to grab your hands. “Leave them.” He growled. You’re face turned a nice shade of scarlet, earning a chuckle from the man underneath you. You cleared your throat, taking your hands back and sliding them up his bare sides. You pressed yourself against him, causing much desired friction between his length and your clit. Any and all stress from before was forgotten while you were lost in ecstasy. You pushed yourself up, lining him up with your entrance. You looked at him one last time, making sure this was ok. Rather than nodding or smiling like before, he pushed you down by your hips, ramming himself into you. You felt a pain that caused your eyes to water, but it was soon replaced with pools of pleasure. He bucked his hips into yours, pounding harder with each thrust. One of his thumbs traveled down to your clit, rubbing circular motions against it. You failed to hold in a moan, thanking everything that you were home alone. You’re hands travelled to his shoulders for more support as he continuously pounded into you. “Do-AAaah! Don’t stop!” You whimpered. He moved his hand up to your breast, the other remaining in your hip. Your nails dug uno his back as he moved his mouth to your soft skin, moving from your neck and down to your unattended breast. He bit down on one of your buds, making sure you felt every sensation. Your back arched, pushing your body closer to his. You grasped onto his blue button up shirt for dear life. “SqUIP!-“ you moaned. A soft gasp escaped his lips as your walls closed around him, causing him to finally climax, you following close behind. You flopped down next to him, your chest heaving. “Man, I’m so glad I drank that Mountain Dew.” You choked out.

[somekindofloser]

Returning to the Be More Chill fandom in 2022 is like finding a food you’ve been looking for in the back of your kitchen cabinet but then you realize that’s it’s been expired for several years

[insolentparis]

In which Jeremy and Michael are in a generic sleepover fanfic.

(Preview)

“Hey! That’s not fair!”

“Haha! Way too slow for your own good.”

It was almost 2 AM and an iconically inseperable duo of teenagers were lying on two stuffy yet surprisingly comfortable bean bags playing what looks like the retro version of Mario Kart against each other. They were having so much fun they didn’t seem to have a care in the world.

[ask-halfsquip-jeremy]

So Jeremy what did you and Michael do~ ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

JS: Well, if you guys really wanna know…

JS: And that’s not all-J: IF I COULD STRANGLE YOU I WOULD! GET OUT OF HERE THIS IS MY BLOG!JS: Our blog, since we’re the same person-J: OUT!

[og-doubletrouble-kinnie]

Hi, I'm a Squip that loved their Jeremy, and if people could stop making me hate myself for it... That'd be great

[techno-trash]

When @nygmanatic follows the squip smut tag bc she's a sinner

[flan-anon-blog]

Possessive squip dirty talk? (you write him so well im cryin)

“God, how dare that creep touch to you like that. Who the fuck does he think he is? You were clearly uncomfortable. What a fucking douche.. nextime I’ll beat the shit out of him and show him you’re mine..”“On your knees, baby. Apparently I have to make you scream my name to let everyone know that you’re mine.”“You’re mine. No one else’s. I don’t want anyone touching you like this, except me.”“Hnnn.. you look so good under me, (y/n)..”

[generalthirstclub]

Coming here was a mistake, now I wanna fuck the soda AI and it's all your fault. (Could I have some soft smut of him? as a treat? 🥺)

the... the what? if this is about the squip that ship has sailed and i state in my desc that this blog isnt abt bmc; it hasnt been for years. if this is about a different ai then im all ears. if this is about kazuichi soda from super danganronpa two goodbye despai

[ao3feed-bemorechill]

DEH and BMC Oneshots

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/30uR5gX

by QueerHeere

a collection of one-shots from Be More Chill and Dear Evan Hansen

Words: 600, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Be More Chill - Iconis/Tracz, Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson, Heathers: The Musical - Murphy & O'Keefe

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Major Character Death, Underage

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Jeremy Heere, Jake Dillinger, Jenna Rolan, Jeremy Heere's Squip, Jeremy Heere's Father, Michael Mell, Brooke Lohst, Christine Canigula, Chloe Valentine, Rich Goranski, Evan Hansen, Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen), Jared Kleinman, Zoe Murphy, Alana Beck, Kurt Kelly, Ram Sweeney, Veronica Sawyer

Relationships: Jeremy Heere/Michael Mell, Jake Dillinger/Rich Goranski, Brooke Lohst/Chloe Valentine, Jeremy Heere/Brooke Lohst, Evan Hansen/Connor Murphy, Evan Hansen/Jared Kleinman, Evan Hansen/Jared Kleinman/Connor Murphy, Connor Murphy & Zoe Murphy, Alana Beck/Zoe Murphy, Jeremy Heere & Michael Mell, Christine Canigula & Jeremy Heere, Christine Canigula & Jeremy Heere & Michael Mell, Kurt Kelly/Ram Sweeney, Christine Canigula & Michael Mell, Christine Canigula/Jeremy Heere

Additional Tags: Smut, Fluff, Angst, Cheating, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide, Dorks in Love, Blow Jobs, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Alternate Universe - No Squips (Be More Chill), Protective Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen), Crack, Crack Treated Seriously, One Shot Collection, Unrequited Love, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Mutual Pining, Masturbation, Slow To Update, Friends to Lovers, Childhood Friends, Soft Michael Mell, Bisexual Jeremy Heere, Autistic Jeremy Heere, Jewish Jeremy Heere, Gay Michael Mell, Trans Michael Mell, Gay Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen), Bisexual Evan Hansen, Connor Murphy Lives (Dear Evan Hansen), Evan Hansen Deserves Happiness, Genderfluid Connor Murphy, Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen) Has BPD, Gay Jared Kleinman, Jared Kleinman Is Bad at Feelings, Jared Kleinman Being an Asshole, Jared Kleinman Eats Bath Bombs, Connor Murphy & Zoe Murphy Reconciliation, Pansexual Jake Dillinger, Disabled Jake Dillinger, Jake Dillinger in a Wheelchair, Rich Goranski's Lisp, Bisexual Rich Goranski, Aromantic Asexual Christine Canigula, Autistic Christine Canigula, Good Friend Christine Canigula, Lesbian Brooke Lohst, Lesbian Chloe Valentine

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/30uR5gX

[squipjerebmc]

Rating:

Explicit

Archive Warning

:

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Category:

M/M

Fandom:

Be More Chill - Iconis/Tracz

Relationship:

Jeremy Heere/The Squip

Characters:

The Squip (Be More Chill)

Jeremy Heere

Additional Tags:

BDSM

masochist Jeremy Heere

sadist Squip

Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot

Smut

Be More Chill - Freeform

bmc

[geniusbuilttm]

🥰 & 🤐!

Be More Chill Ask Game!

🥰 - Favorite Change From the Original Production? A few things... but def the new songs and the Squip and Jeremy’s dynamic (IK IT SAYS SINGULAR BUT FUCK IT). LGW and Sync-Up are amazing and the switch from just blunt directing with a depressed Jeremy to a frustrated teenager who is trying his damn hardest to make life better for himself being manipulated from the very start by the Squip... GOOD SHIT JOES, TYSM FOR THIS!!!!!!

🤐 - Unpopular Headcanon? I have many (apparently) unpopular HCs so lets go with another one! I don’t like a decent portion of the fics for BMC because they’re sexualizing minors. Aging them up doesn’t excuse making smut for M I N O R S. They’re 17 at most (you can only drive in New Jersey once you’re 17). Your junior year is when you’re 16-17 years old.  Stop. Sexualizing. Minors. I say as a 20 year old. :’)))

[pheacas]

Anon Response to “Musical Fandom is Sexist” Response Post

I need a better title for response posts

I got a super intriguing set of asks about my post from yesterday so I thought I would quickly address it!  (They weren’t mean don’t worry I guess do want to have a discussion about what they said because it is a super interesting point and I love discussion)

This was a seven part ask, so I thought it would be a lot simpler just to copy and paste for response (also assuming paragraphs so it isn’t one huge block)

Anonymous said to coltonryan:

(yeah this is a long one, sorry) I’ve got some thoughts about your response to the ‘fandoms are sexist’ post. first of all, I agree that just looking at ao3 ship data isn’t The Most reliable way to fully gauge the feelings of an entire fandom. but, since one can’t translate “I generally have noticed a trend of __” into a concrete statistic, and making a survey big enough to get useable data would be torture, and ao3 gives convenient neat little numbers, it’s currently the best option.  You’re also right that just looking at ships is two narrow, but even when just looking at the characters people write about, there’s a clear lack of interest in women. and the Big Musical Fandoms do seem to have formed around male led works, and one can feasibly say that’s for reasons unrelated to the gender of the characters. so. with that in mind, let’s talk about /character/, not /ship/ statistics, and focusing only on the /leading women/. bmc has four lead characters: jeremy, michael, christine, and the squip. understandably, people won’t be writing as much about the squip due to it appearing as a grown man, being a computer, and the villain, but one would expect jeremy, michael, and christine to be the most written about characters, given that they have the most material to work with, right? yet looking at what characters are most popular in the bmc ao3 tag, jeremy and michael are the top two, but christine is /fifth/ after all four male teen characters. the leading girl is less popular than the most minor boy. same thing when it comes to the characters in deh: zoe, despite being the female lead, is the fourth most popular character after all the teen boys.

hamilton is a very different beast, having MASSIVELY more fic and also being a very different genre than deh and bmc, but it still has the same problem. eliza, one of the three leads (hamilton, burr, eliza), is the fourth most written about character after alexander, laurens, and lafayette.

if you want to talk percents and not just relative popularity, there are 3928 deh works on ao3, and 2089 of them feature zoe, which is 53.2%. zoe, the co-lead of her show, is in just over half of its fic. hamilton is a whopping 16516 works strong, and eliza features in 6124 of them. 37.1%. waaay under half. bmc weighs in at 5469 fics, and christine can be found in 2040 of them, or 37.3%, a very similar number to eliza’s.  like, you can’t deny that there’s a trend of important women being passed over for literally any men.

💙💙💙 (Note: I spent almost ten hours today bingeing a new show so please excuse any excessive rambling)

I think the main issue with your argument anon (and also this is a good ask post ily anon don’t stop) is that it really does harken back to the issue of the initial post; fan fiction cannot give you a good estimate of how the fandom really feels.  Most of the fan fiction written, I would say 90-95%, is ship-related, and these male-led shows (which there’s really only two big ones, discrediting Hamilton, which are, of course, BMC and DEH) have a lot of m/m fanfiction for sort of the reasons I stated previously.

I know when I’m writing, if I’m writing a ship, for example, I sometimes won’t tag the people who aren’t involved unless they play a major part in the story, and, when you look at stories about ships, they are a lot of them that are written in a ‘bottle episode’; taking place in one area for the entire piece.  That doesn’t give a lot of room for writing about other characters other than the ship.  And there are a lot of 100-300 word fan fictions that are essentially ‘I like this boy but uwu he won’t like me back and I’m sad’ or just quick little fluff/smut pieces that the women…  Wouldn’t fit into.  Like I personally wouldn’t want Christine tagged in a one-shot about Rich and Michael getting it on in the bedroom, and I’m pretty sure the writers know this too.  And, a lot of fan fiction is fluff/smut.

Hamilton isn’t a show I like to address with shipping, since I’m really iffy on the idea of shipping real life people, even if they are already dead and who you are shipping are fictional versions of such characters, but also when it comes to shipping they’re really in the Dear Evan Hansen category but worse, since even though there are four characters around the same age compared to two, three of them are sisters and the other one was the woman Alexander cheated on Eliza with (plus Peggy was dead by the time Maria came around).

Also I mean just in general some people suck at tagging other than the super main characters (aka the ones in the ship).  Like there’ll be two tags and be like ‘what am I staring at’ and it’ll have a lot more in it than it implies from its two tags (although I haven’t honestly read fan fiction minus a Kleinphy and Zoevan one in a hot minute (people give me recommendations for good ones please I’m a Kleinsen, Zoevan, and Kleinphy ho)).  Like tags in general are so hard to go off of.

But, to address what you said in the very beginning, I do agree that it would be impossible to get information from everywhere to compile neatly, but, also, that’s the biggest crux in the entire comparison; this isn’t good enough information to use to make any sort of a solid conclusion.  It’s only a small part—and, might I add, a slightly too specific part—of the entire fandom to declare that the fandom is sexist or doesn’t appreciate women.

To be real though I love asks like this that spark discussion send asks for essays straight my way and ily anon