#blue anxxiety

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UNKNOWN PLEASURES 01.25.2024

》 DJ: REED KAVANAH

This is gonna be long but fuck it: people of Chattanooga, you're so goddamn lovely. I'm genuinely grateful that I get to look forward to Unknown Pleasures every month now, it's worth every minute of the drive from Nashville - I'm on my laptop so I can't use emojis, but imagine all the sappy ones right here, because you're all gorgeous.

The list specifies what the performers danced to. It's all their own picks, besides a couple fill-ins - they got skills and amazing taste to boot (I'm lucky to have heard some synth music Phoenix is working on and it slaps heavily).

Also, here's a SoundCloud mix excerpted from the middle of the live mix! Let me know if you want more of these.

I'll be joined by DJ THEOCULTT for our extra-cyberpunk event next month, and I'm stoked to finally be in town for their set (I've seen them go hard when I've played some of my own personal top-tier favs - this always warms my heart). Also, Ariel is coming back with an experimental piece combining her live performance with a music-video-style VHS piece my friend Julia and I shot with her (sounds complicated but I promise it's fun)... AND we've got CRT from Atlanta playing a sick live industrial/body set. Be sure to check out CRT's label, DKA Records - they're based in Atlanta, but they put out great electronic music from all over the world, and you'll almost certainly find something interesting (like FUEDAL, whose track "Movin" you heard on Thursday).

One last thing: R.I.P. Luis Vasquez, Juan Mendez, and Simone Ling. They were massive losses to music, gone for tragic reasons. Do your thing, but please be safe and carry naloxone. DIY music is in dire straits, and we can't afford to lose any more of the beautiful, sensitive people who keep it going - there's work to do and shows to see.

Can't wait to see y'all again.

xoxo,

-R.K.

P.S: There's a requests board by the booth now - I can't play 'em all but I like to know what you like, so hit me! Apologies to whoever requested Boy Harsher's "Motion," cuz I accidentally played "Electric" instead lol - I have a BH setlist hanging on the wall behind me as we speak... I've committed a sin against Jae and Gus... but I shall atone next month, bet.

》 09:00PM: R.K.

Death in Vegas - Witchdance Dub

Lesson Seven, scott crow - Blind (Mark Pistel Remix)

The Grid - One Giant Step

Wire Spine - Hellraiser

Kissing the Pink - Certain Things are Likely

Mansfield.TYA - BB

Robotiko Rejekto - Rejekto (Pefekto Mix)

Silent Servant - Cut Unconscious

Eleven Pond - Sex Robot

Portion Control - The Great Divide (Razormaid Mix)

Marie Davidson & L'Oeil Nu - Renegade Breakdown (incl. Jessy Lanza Remix)

》 10:00PM: GODDESS PHOENIX (POLE)

Nuxx Vomica - FTEV (incl. Confines Remix)

Black Devil Disco Club - "H" Friend

Echoberyl - Taking the Space

Paradox Obscur - Dark Fortress

Liste Noir - Time is Your Crime

Moon 17 - Jellyfish

》 10:20PM: R.K.

Spike Hellis - Mouth

Blu Anxxiety - Macabre

Andi, Machino - Softly, Softly

Patriarchy - Hell Was Full (ADULT. Remix)

Working Men's Club - Valleys (Graham Massey Remix)

The Force Dimension - Algorythm (Manipulating Mix)

Cabaret Voltaire - Hypnotised

》 10:40PM: ARIEL PEAKE (FIRE)

Eartheater - Chop Suey (System of a Down cover)

》 10:45PM: R.K.

Axodry - You (Beauty and the Beat Mix)

Boy Harsher - LA

Cruel Blue - Vantablack

Marie Davidson - Work It

Annika Wolfe - Bust

Special Interest - LA Blues (Marie Davidson Remix)

PVA - Untethered

Fluid Ghost - Memory Extraction

Stacian - Grey Fate (Black Light Smoke Rework)

Moon 17 - Mirror Side

Depeche Mode - People Are People (Razormaid Mix)

Book of Love - Tubular Bells (Lullaby Version)

Buzz Kull - Into the Void

Male Tears - I Expire

The Soft Moon - Become the Lies

Nuovo Testamento - Heartbeat (Curses Remix)

Korine - Mt. Airy (Nuovo Testamento Remix)

Randolph & Mortimer - Dream Hack

Electronic - Dark Angel

Sextile - Contortion (RQ)

Nuxx Vomica - Easy Go (incl. Semantix Remix)

Celebrate the Nun - She's a Secretary

Catherine Moan - Fools

Madeline Goldstein - Edges of the Lines

》 12:00AM: GODDESS PHOENIX (BIRDLESQUE)

Eartheater - Solid Liquid Gas

Donzii - Pattern 26

Joyfriend - Trouble

Patriarchy - It Goes Fast (Sacred Skin Remix)

》 12:15AM: R.K.

Zanias - Simulation (Alen Skanner Remix)

》 12:20AM: ARIEL PEAKE (WHIP)

The Soft Moon - Black Sabbath (Black Sabbath cover)

》 12:30AM: R.K.

MVTANT - Damaged Goods (Gang of Four cover)

Jeff in Leather - In Leather

Kumo 99 - Gomi

Potochkine - Possédée (Maman Kusters Remix)

》 12:45AM: GODDESS PHOENIX + ARIEL PEAKE (DUO)

Scimitar - Flame War

Kontravoid - For What It Is

》 12:50AM: R.K.

Leaether Strip - Lullaby (The Cure cover)

》 01:00AM: ARIEL PEAKE (FIRE ENCORE)

Wachita China - CRAZY ABOUT M3GAN

》 01:05AM: R.K.

DJ これからの緊急災害 - Fuck the Pa1n Away (Peaches cover)

Panther Modern - Full Capacity

Fuedal - Movin

Modern Man - I'm So Tired (Fugazi cover)

M!R!M, Nuovo Testamento - Desert Love

Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence (Ewan Pearson Extended Mix)

Identified Patient, Sophie du Palais - Crush On You

Clay Pedrini - New Dream (I-Robots Reconstruction)

Tulioxi - Another Gang of Desperates (Roe Deers Remix)

Comfort Cure - They Told You Wrong

The Psychic Force - World In My Eyes (Depeche Mode cover)

MCL, Couleur Trois - Tekno Side Part Two

Aphex Twin - Windowlicker (Zuckr's Breaks Chop Up)

Madonna - Dress You Up (mixed into Windowlicker)

Parade Ground - Moans (cut short, my bad!)

Arnaud Rebotini - To (Wo)Men on the Assembly Line

Geneva Jacuzzi - Casket

Blu Anxxiety - Send Me an Angel (Real Life cover) (RQ)

Jeff in Leather - CRUSH

Sextile - LA DJ

New Order - Confusion (Pump Panel Reconstruction)

Dark Chisme - Lucretia My Reflection (The Sisters of Mercy cover)

Louisahhh - Hammer

Xibling - Bulletproof

Boy Harsher - Electric (meant to play Motion RQ - whoopsie)

Velvet Velour - Hydrophobia (Alen Skanner Remix)

Frankie Goes to Hollywood - Relax (Club 69 Future Anthem)

Dark Chisme - Vete de Aqui

SDH - Hectic

Debby Friday - I Got It

Nuxx Vomica - No Money

Underworld - Born Slippy (Nuxx)

Ex-Heir - No Pain No Brain

Kumo 99 - Adjacent Casualty

L.O.T.I.O.N. Multinational Corporation - Cybernetic Super Lover (feat. Lulu)

Nuovo Testamento - Vanity (Nuovo Testamento Disco Mix)

The Immortal(s) - Techno Syndrome (Theme from Mortal Kombat, 12" Mix)

Kate Bush - The Hounds of Love

Outro: Carrellee - Stay (Patriarchy Remix)

...this was five hours thanks to transitions, but the Spotify playlist is over SEVEN HOURS, so you sweet bb's got some listenin' to do :)

[vampryn]

blu anxxiety was so good,, best show ive been to in a really long time~ if you haven't heard of them check them out, they're def worth seeing live

[parfaitpuppymogai]

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(art by aimkidblast, i dont support her beliefs regarding endos though.)

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[nugothrhythms]

Nugoth Band List

I started this blog specifically for all those people out there tired seeing goth blogs listing all of the same five bands from the eighties that aren’t active anymore, looking for something different and something that still exists. This list will have bands most of which started no later than 2010 (not even that new at the time that this list is being made) and that are still active. They will be arranged according to subgenre. I will update this list accordingly.

Last updated: December 2, 2020

Postpunk/General Goth

-Astari Nite

-Secret Shame

-Masquerade

-Mtvaris Dabneleba

-Cliff and Ivy

-Shadow Age

-Scary Black

-Creux Lies

-Frozen Charlottes

-Esses

-Dignitary

-Swan Wash

-La Scaltra

-This Cold Night

-Whispering Sons

-Bleib Modern

-Ritual Howl

-Wisteria

-Trashlight

-The Objects

-Slaughterstein

-Screature

-DETOXI

-Fearing

-Publicist UK

-Aztec Death

-Leding

-Blotter

-Sleeping Pills

-The Misery Coven

-Deth Crux

-Meldamour

-Over

-Gizzards

-Ghost Painted Sky

- Diavol Strâin

-Molchat Doma

-Dividing Lines

-Hände

-Jenni Sex

-Final Body

-Wires & Lights

-The Horror Club

-Ozan Çam

-The Necromancers Union

-And So We Weep

-Dead Man’s Dream

-Merry’s Funeral

-Sweet Ermengarde

-Ganser

-Twin Graves

-Black Angel

-No Gossip in Braille

-ghostland

-Old Providence

-Ill Humans

-Freedom Curse

-Programmed For Pleasure

-Belfast

-Final Body

-Dehet Sinn

-Blind Seagull

-Dystt

-Succubus

-Camlann

-Pullo

-Silent Age

-Strangers

-Pilgrims of Yearning

-The Dead Souls

-Numb.er

-The Tacks

-Sounds Like Winter

-She Lost Control

Gothic Rock

-Her Despair

-Wisborg

-October Burns Black

-Ariel Maniki and the Black Halos

-Sonsombre

-Angels of Liberty

-The Wake

-Padkarosda

-Ground Nero

-The Gnosis

-Long Night

-Naut

-Gloom Room

-Rosegarden Funeral Party

-Then Comes Silence

-The Glass House Museum

-Cult Strange

-Then Comes Silence

-Slow Decay

-Dreamtime

-Dawn of Elysium

-The Miserablist

Darkwave/Coldwave

-Ash Code

-Milliken Chamber

-TR/ST

-Drab Majesty

-Twin Tribes

-She Past Away (technically started in 2008, but they weren’t really active until the 2010s, so they still count)

-Adorns

-Boy Harsher

-Selofan

-Light Asylum

-Vandal Moon

-Night Nail

-Wingtips

-Black Marble

-Actors

-Lebanon Hanover

-Zanias

-The Soft Moon

-Lifeless Past

-Blu Anxxiety

-Bragolin

-Christine Plays Viola

-Principe Valiente

-Panic Priest

-Saigon Blue Rain

-The Agnes Circle

-Azar Swan

-Hide

-Skeleton Hands

-The Shyness

-Kriistal Ann

-Night Sins

-Aurat

-Death Loves Veronica

-Paradox Obscur

-Three Rose Charm

-Forever Grey

-Replicant

-Vice Device

-Bootblacks

-Child of Night

-Push/Button/Press

-Korine

-Profit Prison

-Lucky+Love

-Riki

-Caress

-Nuovo Testamento

-Xostume

-Red Mecca

-Mannequin

-Affet Robot

-Jakuzi

-Elz and Cult

-Buzz Kull

-Monde Cruel

-Rain to Rust

-Chaude Zéro

-Un Hombre Solo

-VR SEX

-Geometric Vision

-Body of Light

-I Tpame I Tvrame

-Bedless Bones

-Pass/Ages

-Born Days

-Black Arcade

-The Rope

-Empathy Test

-Minuit Machine

-Totem

-Contravveleno

-Child of Night

-La Mécanique

-Brandy Kills

-Silent EM

-A Cloud of Ravens

-Suffering for Kisses

-The Stave Church

-Cerulean Veins

-Deaf Dance

-Tearful Moon

-Sydney Vallete

-The Seance

-Breath Play

-Qyburn

-Mareux

-Red Sol

-The Midnight Computers

-Leathers

-Palais Ideal

-Hoffen

-Błogie Milczenie

-Dancing Plague

-Factice Factory

-Shanghai Beach

-Void Lust

-Post Tropic

-Cold Choir

-Blood Dance

-Pitch After Dark

-NATURE

-Gil’otina

-Rosy Cheeks

-Hallows

-Amrou Kithkin

-El Muertho de Tijuana

Deathrock/Horror Punk

-The Ire

-Ötzi

-Vueltas

-Radio Scarlet

-Nox Novacula

-Catholic Spit

-Medusa Stare

-Mystic Priestess

-False Figure

-Virgin in Veil

-Cemetery

-The Phantom Limbs

-Tragic Black

-The Bellicose Minds

-The Exorcists

-Lost Tribe

-Dead Cult

-Autonomy

-Adrenochrome

-Headdress

-Totenwald

-Shrouds

-Rubella Ballet

-B Ward

-Horror Vacui

-New Skeletal Faces

-Crimson Scarlet

-Coffin Moth

-MAäSK

-Arcanasphere

-Rot Remains

-Slimy Member

-Lord Travvis

-The Psychosomatics

-Annex

-The Wraith

-Twin Schism

-Echo People

-Tango Mangalore

-Mark E Moon

-The Dirty Horror

-Deep Cavity

-Love Loss

-Twins Killed Last December

-The Objects

-Dead Cult

-GAST

-Fin del Mundo

-Bastet

-Skeletal Bats

Ethereal

-Friends of Alice Ivy

-Kælan Mikla

-Girl Grave

-Hante.

-Silence in the Snow

-Venetian Veil

-Witch of the Vale

-Violet Sky

-The Eden House

-Purple Dynamine

-Red Apple Cvlt

Gothgaze

-Echolust

-SRSQ

-Choir Boy

-Traitrs

-All Your Sisters

-Reduction Plan

-Single Lash

-Second Still

-Pink Milk

-Soft Kill

-Staring Problem

-Dead Serpent

-Terremoto

-Fever Dream Horror Scene

-Schonwald

Dark Cabaret/Neo-Classical

-Tarantella

-Orphans Cabaret

-The Parlour Trick

-Venus de Vilo

-The Narcoleptor

-Mina’s Veil

Gothabilly

-Karling and the Kadavers

-Voodoo Eyes

-The Phantom Cowboys

-Screamin’ Sins

-Madame St. Beatrice

Experimental/Eclectic/Other

-S.A.D. (Sudden Axis Disorder)

-Baical

-The Bedroom Witch

-La Reina de los Condenados

-The Long Losts

-Lust Era

-Morgue Poetry

-New Evil

-My Own Burial

-Fotocrime

-VOWWS

-Cold Showers

-Terminal A

-Gross Net

-Jaye Jayle

-Mercury’s Butterfly

-Delphine Coma

-Echoberyl

-Hyoscyamus Niger

-Bambara

-Nutopians

-Deathtrippers

-Okandi

-Nass Zuruck

-Secret Mutilator

-Of Mermaids

[ts-virgil-angst]

Logan’s Lament

TW: self-depreciation, self-doubt

Genre: angst, i guess

Word Count: 745

Summary/Prompts: based on this post i made, logan is in his feelings about his place among the sides i won’t continue this but anyone is welcome to!

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There was little Logan cared about outside of Thomas’s well-being. There was, of course, his own personal endeavors that he kept himself entertained with. Like solving his dodecahedron Rubik’s cube. It still eluded him, but he was getting close—he could feel it.  

There was also discovering all the new constellations he could. In his room, the ceiling was nothing but the starry sky. With his telescope, he could spend hours looking up at the sky. There were still so many more to discover than what he had seen. It was amazing and awe inspiring just thinking about all the different constellations that could still be out there beyond his reach.

And, naturally, there was the calendar that he organized daily. With Thomas constantly taking on new projects and promises, he needed to keep it as clear as possible. Of course, it didn’t help that Roman and Patton often added things to the calendar that needn’t be there. He cared about the other two, but it didn’t help that they liked to step on his toes.

It was nothing he should have cared about, really. They all had their roles to play—and his was just as important. Or, at least, that’s how it should have felt.

Logan pushed away from his desk, walking to the grassy area of his room, plopping down. There was only so much he could do to keep his more negative thoughts at bay. He could shift the blame to Virgil for the unpleasantness in his chest, but he knew there was no one but himself to blame. That was the downside to being multidimensional: he had feelings.

The reason for his melancholy was simple, even if he wasn’t fond of admitting it. He felt replaceable. Temporary. Short term.

Falling back on the grass, he let out a sigh. He could counsel Thomas all day about the best way to proceed in his many dilemmas, but for some reason he couldn’t fathom how to continue with his own. He had wrestled with these feelings for a long time, but still couldn’t come to a logical conclusion about how to go forward. He could keep pretending, but eventually one of the Sides would notice. Despite their proclivity towards themselves, they were observant. Logical, even, in their own way.

The thought sent a pang through his heart. The other Sides…logical. That was something he loathed to think of. If they could be logical, that would mean he was as obsolete as he thought he was.

Perhaps… Perhaps that was the logical conclusion to make.

He closed his eyes to the twinkling stars above him, feeling himself relax, feeling heavy as he sank into the grass under him. He could stay here for a while; no one would notice if he was gone.

With his eyes closed, he didn’t see the encroaching darkness. It was slow, at first. First a few stars were gone from the sky. The inky blackness dripped from the sky, landing in pools before stretching out around the room. One by one, items were swallowed: his desk, his telescopes, his box of knick-knacks Patton had given him. Slowly, ever so slowly, the darkness covered the sky, casting the room in a hazy blue-grey light. The grass withered, one blade at a time, stopping just before touching Logan.

And Logan, he was oblivious to it all. Consumed by his thoughts and the heaviness they laid upon them, he sank further and further into the grass, unknowing of the destruction happening around him.

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“Hey, where’s Logan?” Virgil looked at his friend’s empty spot next to the stairs. “He definitely should have showed up by now.”

“Maybe he’s taking a nap.” Roman said flippantly, looking at himself in a conjured mirror. It disappeared with a tiny pop as he let it fall to the ground, before continuing on his spiel about their next acting opportunity.

It was unlike him to stay out of the conversation for so long. Virgil knew he didn’t care for the shenanigans that Patton and Roman got into, but he was never one to withhold his two cents from any conversation—especially one regarding Thomas’s future.

After a few moments of listening to Roman prattle on, Virgil ducked out. Logan was probably just knee deep in his studies again. Virgil tapped lightly on his door. “Logan?”

The door opened slightly and immediately, the hairs on Virgil’s arms stood on end. Something was very, very wrong.

“Logan? Logan!”

[feverdream-exe]

Once you get this you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly. then you have to send this to ten of your favourite followers (non- negotiable, positivity is cool~)🌈🌈

yo, thank u! aaight, here goes:1. i like my hair! this probably sounds silly, but it’s big n fluffy n bright blue, n i like it a lot.2. i can sketch people pretty well (i think?) n i kinda like that3. i like how my ability to keep plants alive is slowly but surely improving! 🌹4. i usually get pretty good grades, and i’m kinda proud of that5. i like how i sound when i sing!i'm sorry! i'm on mobile n i don't think i can copy-paste asks, so i'm gonna tag y'all@mr-universe99 @darkmarxism @awoohowell @cryptidsp00n @witchypunkfrolmes @social-anxxiety @starrykllance @the-one-and-only-grey @cheddar-storm @cheez-whizards @oneforalls

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On MRR Remote Radio #17, Liana Hell Lean of Decisions/Blood Club chronicles the last few years of punk and hardcore through their perspective as a young freak living in NYC (who is also frequently on tour meeting other punks around the USA).

INTRO:

JUNTA — Imminent War WE’RE HERE TO FUCK SHIT UP

HVAC — The Crystal Slipper

OLOR A MUERTE — Evoluciona

GHÜLA — Serenity

S.P.I.C. —  Victimas de Pinochet

RIP CLUB ANARCHY

RUBBER — Banshee PORVENIR OSCURO — Noche de Maldad

NAMATAY SA INGAY— Tokhang

FLOWER — What Else?

SIGNAL— Dilaila

SOME THINGS COME AND GO SPEWING CUM — Fuck School GOWANUS MUTANT KOMMANDOS — Born To Blitz

MADUROS — Choke Me

HIGH COST — Illusion

Μάτι — Έτσι Νομίζεις

YOUNG AND ON TOUR PT 1

SIDE ACTION — Pink Dick

DEODORANT  — Blue Deaths Matter

BODY BREAK  — Street Cents

TORPOR  — Terre Mére

YOUNG AND ON TOUR PT 2

SPACE FORCE  — I’m Better Than You

SPONGE — I’m A Spider

SAP  — Get Off On Death

THE BILLS  — Red

OUTRO

BLU ANXXIETY  — Uninvited To The Funeral Home

POBREZA MENTAL  — Pesadilla

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☿ KONTAKT 10.20.23 PLAYLIST

☿ GUEST DJ LUCK CROIX

☿ thank you so much for your support — we hope you find some new music you love.

☿ please support artists on bandcamp. never have they had to work as hard as they do in current conditions.

☿ substitutions may be made for unavailable tracks/versions in the streaming playlist. there are MANY unavailable tracks in this playlist, so we might make YouTube playlists in the future.

☿ next KONTAKT event TBA — we hope to see you there.

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☿ 10:00PM (LUCK CROIX)

Nuvo Bloc - Living Brigade

Peppermint Lounge - Perfect High

MAKiNA GiRGiR - Livides Clartés

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☿ 10:15PM (NON SERVIAM)

Skinny Puppy - One Time One Place

L.O.T.I.O.N. Multinational Corporation - Desert E (Estoc's Expired MRE Mix)

Gamma Intel - Automatic Illusion

Joon - Cruel Summer (Bananarama Cover)

Julian Winding - The Demon Dance

Geneva Jacuzzi - Love Caboose

The Maxx - Heavy

Silent Servant - Speed and Violence

Yello - Desire

Identified Patient - Vermoedens Van Achterdocht

Shubostar - Lynch (Original Mix)

Patriarchy - State of Undress (Automelodi Remix)

Liaisons Dangereuses - Los Niños Del Parque

Ortrotasce - Collapsing New People (Fad Gadget Cover)

Vicious Pink - Baby It's Too Late

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☿ 11:00PM (LUCK CROIX)

In Aeternam Vale - Money

Das Ding - Reassurance Ritual

Sally Dige - Immaculate Deception

Scimitar - Flame War

Steril - My Homecomputer

Absolute Body Control - Blue Monday (New Order Cover)

Andi, Machino - False Passion

Schwefelgelb - Es zieht mich

Gespenst Jugend - Vorwürfe machen

Selofan - Ist Die Liebe Tot?

Umrijeti Za Strojem - Mini-suknja I Psihoanaliza

Ortrotasce - Decay

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☿ 11:45PM (NON SERVIAM)

Emmon - Machines (Ultra Sunn Remix)

Cruel Blue - Black Roses

Randolph & Mortimer, Andi - Flesh Style

Nuxx Vomica - FTEV

Front Line Assembly - Provision

Hard Corps - Je Suis Passee

Blu Anxxiety - Send Me an Angel (Real Life Cover)

Unconscious - Angel

Pixel Grip - Bet You Do.

SDH - Denial

Andi, Machino - Secret Games

Filmmaker - Angel DNA

Ellen Allien, Ash Code - Dance and Kill

Il Est Vilaine - Night in Carnac

Patriarchy - Good Boy

Tzusing - King of Hosts

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☿ 12:30AM (LUCK CROIX)

Experimental Products - Love Changes

Artificial Control - Silent Face

Rivet - Neue Strassen (Edit)

Amato - Trois Machines (Original Mix)

Silent EM - Last Rites

Silent EM - Singular Malice

Selofan - Υστερια

Hard Corps - Dirty

Ame de boue - Cinematix

Beta Evers - Only For My Satisfaction

Art Fine - Dark Silence (Long Version)

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☿ 01:00AM (NON SERVIAM)

Actually - Lady Shave (Fad Gadget Cover)

Scimitar - Cocoon

Kontravoid - Too Deep

Pixel Grip - Alphapussy (RQ)

New Hook - Manipulation (Curses Remix)

International Music System - Dancing Therapy

Pet Shop Boys - I Want To Wake Up

Nuovo Testamento - Heartbeat (Curses Remix)

Korine - Mt. Airy (Nuovo Testamento Remix)

The Nasty Boys - I Was Made For Lovin' You (KISS Cover)

Boytronic - Bryllyant (Original Version)

Kim Wilde - The Second Time (U.S. Remix)

Madonna - Physical Attraction (Cinema City Copycat Re-take)

Dominica - Gotta Let You Go - Original '95 Radio Edit

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☿ artgoth ☿

[ts-virgil-angst]

1, LAMP?

TW: none that i cansee just ask if there is

Word Count: 745

Prompt:  If this is what Ithink it is we’re all going to die.

Notes: winged au,fantasy au

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Virgil was sure—positive!—Roman was off to dosomething stupid when he got the Look on his face. The Look being somethingthat had gotten the four of them into trouble to before.

When they were eight and Roman thought itwould be a good idea to test everyone’s wings by convincing them to jump offthe roof. Roman had been getting a good lift off since his wings had grown infaster than everyone else’s. Bright red feathers, medium in length, optimized forspeedy. He was known to use that speed against people often.

Logan’s weren’t too far behind, his long, broad,dark blue wings had managed to let him glide almost gently from the roof whenhe was pushed, but lack of experience kept him from nailing the landing.

Patton’s were still small, and they were surethey would likely stay that way if his parents were any indication. Bright yellowand made for hovering, he sprained his ankle in the fall.

Virgil, realizing just how badly theexperience was likely to turn out, had opted to watch from the ground, his own purple-blackwings resting against his back. Like his parents, his wings were long andnarrow, equipped for soaring long distances.

That instance was just one of the many timethe Look had gotten them into something less than ideal.

This time they had no time for his foolery. Thistime it was more than just a test flight from the roof of his house. This was amatter for finding an adequate distraction so that their villagers could get tosafety. For most of their childhood, the four of them, the four Noble Bloods,had been kept sheltered from the inner turmoil that had plagued the village forcenturies.

Virgil, being the fastest, had done a quick surveyof the village. Most of the villagers had escaped to the safe houses, but a fewhad become trapped in their homes. When he’d reported that back to the others,they’d sat in a tense silence. Logan paced the manor ground, wings stretchingand falling back, trying not to stray too far from their hiding spot, thinking.Being their tactician, he often placed the burden of the plan on himself,factoring in too many things for it to go well. Given the situation, no plan waslikely to go well.

Patton stood at Virgil’s side, wingsfluttering nervously. He was never one for even the smallest confrontations,but he hadn’t left when the invaders stormed the village. He had doneeverything in his power to help the citizens evacuate before finding his wayback to his friends.

It was at that point Roman had flown off, andit was all they could hope his bright plumage didn’t get him caught or worse.

Right as Virgil was going to make Logan sitdown and stop overthinking, Roman dropped from the sky, holding what might aswell have been a death beacon.

“Ifthis is what I think, it is we’re all going to die.” Logan said, comingcloser to inspect the torch in Roman’s hands. It wasn’t just a torch as Virgil might have thought atfirst glance. It was the Torch. The Torchthat held the fires from each of their families. The red fire was that the Fireof Life. The yellow was the Fire of Peace. The blue was the Fire of Breath. Thepurple was the Fire of Death.

None of them were supposed to know where thatwas.

None of them were surprised Roman knew whereit was.

“It’s exactly what you think it is,” he said.“Now, Logan, I know you’re the planner, but I was just thinking that—”

“I have a plan.” Logan’s face lit up as hestared at the fires. “It’s dangerous. And stupid. And maybe we die but, hey, we’rekind of at a loss right now.”

“Let’s hear it,” Patton said, standing firmly.“I want them to be safe. If that means we’re in danger, then so be it.”

Roman smiled, the fire making the shadows ofhis face dance. “I love it when you’re feisty.”

Logan laid out the plan—and lord what a planit was. If they were careful, then maybe, just maybe, they could pull it off.

Virgil found himself smiling for the firsttime in a long time. They had a chance, a slim one, but by god they would makethe most of it.

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[ts-virgil-angst]

Survive

Genre: unfiltered angst w/ the sides

Word Count: 1041

Summary/Prompts: something tragic has happened to them soon after something wonderful fr i just adapted something orignal just know it’s sad

Notes: tw - death || logan and virgil are brothers in the scenario, patton and roman are their friends

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“I can’t believe Roman stayed behind,” Virgil sighed. “He was the most excited too.” He shed his jacket and tied it around his waist. It didn’t seem to matter that he’d lived in Texas all his life, he was never going to get used to the heat and humidity.

“His grandma needed help and insisted we leave. Good news shouldn’t be shared over something like text.” Logan said, always being the voice of reason.

“Yeah, I suppose.” Virgil squinted away from the streetlight while patting down his pockets for the key to the cafe. “They finally fix the stupid thing and it isn’t even the right bulb. It’s way too bright for a street light.”

“Beggars can’t be choosers. And what’s that smell?”

“What smell? Ah-ha!” He pulled the key from his jacket pocket and slid it home.

“It’s familiar. I just— Virgil!” Logan’s hand shot out, covering Virgil’s eyes and pulling him back from the open door.

He wished that had been enough. He wished that my mind had blocked out the image that would now be so vividly ingrained in his mind. He wished that the streetlight hadn’t been so bright. He wished that they’d been a few hours earlier.

The café was illuminated enough to see the blood stains. The bodies. The destruction.

Logan wrapped his arm around Virgil’s ribs as the light burst.

“Patton?”

In one move, Logan turned him around, facing away from the café. Away from the carnage. Virgil tried to slow his breathing, to move his mind away from the image, but his consciousness slipped away from him.

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Red and blue swirled in his vision. A headache was pounding between his eyes. And his heart…Why was his heart hurting so badly?

“So you’re awake,” someone said. His head rested in the woman’s lap. He blinked at her flaming red hair and the stethoscope around her neck.

A stethoscope? Who was this woman? And why would she have—?

“Patton.” He tried to sit but his head refused to calm. “Where’s Patton?”

“Patton? Who’s— Oh.” Her confused expression suddenly made way for saddening realization. She glanced away. “He’s…he’s gone.”

Virgil closed his eyes. “No. He can’t be gone. He can’t be…”

“I-I know it’s hard to accept, but…” She trailed off, unable to complete her sentence. Unable to lie to the broken hearted boy in the lap. But Virgil didn’t care, because he couldn’t be gone.

Not Patton.

“Leave him alone!”

Not Patton.

“Please,” he cried. “Please don’t look at me.”

Not Patton.

“He’s still a hundred times better looking than you.” He spat.

Not Patton.

“You don’t . . . you don’t think I’m ugly?”

Not Patton.

“I think you’re quite wonderful. So what if you look a little different?”

Not Patton.

He grinned and Virgil felt something move in his chest. “I won’t run anymore. Not with you beside me.”

Not Patton. Not his best friend. Not his first love. Not his other half. He couldn’t be dead. Not someone so full of life and hope. Not someone as strong at him. But the pain wouldn’t go away no matter how many times he told himself it wasn’t true. He could still see him on the ground. Apron torn and blood staining the ground around his body.

Virgil’ chest felt heavy and tight. Every muscle, every nerve was burning with an aching pain that wouldn’t go away. He couldn’t breathe. It took everything to push air into his lungs. His eyes were stung with tears and his throat constricted.

“Patton!” he cried. “Why did you leave me?”

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When Virgil finally put away his suit, it had attended five funerals. He stared at it, hanging in his closet before taking it and dropping it into the trash can beside my vanity. It had carried him through the past week, but he didn’t need it anymore. He didn’t want it. All he wanted was to get away from it. Away from all of it.

Before he could think, he was tearing his clothes off, flinging off everything until he was left standing in his underwear. If only they had been faster. If only he’d listened to Logan. Maybe then he could have saved him. Maybe then he’d still be here. Maybe then he could see him smile. If only they’d had been faster.

“Why couldn’t we have been faster?”

Virgil grabbed the closest thing, his makeup kit, and hurled it against the wall. The glass case shattered and he found immense satisfaction in something other than his life going to pieces. He grabbed something else from his vanity—a glass statue of a doll—and threw it. Once again, glass shattered and rained down on the floor.

“Virgil!” Logan banged on his door. “Virgil, what are you doing?”

“Leave me alone!” A vase crashed and exploded. The door thudded open as Logan crashed into his room. He grabbed Virgil’s wrist before he could throw anything else.

“Stop it! You’re not helping anything!”

Virgil pulled his hand back to hit him, but he pinned his hands to his sides. “Let me go! You don’t get it! I couldn’t save him! I couldn’t keep my promise.”

“I do! I get it, Qora!” He let go of Virgil’s wrists and grabbed his face. Logan set his forehead against Virgil’s and he stopped struggling. His eyes were rimmed red with tears. “I loved him too. You weren’t the only one. You’re not alone, I promise. I miss him and I want him to be alive. I miss him.”

When he was sure Virgil wouldn’t fight anymore, he let go and wiped his eyes before going to Virgil’s drawers and handing him panta. “It’s not your fault no matter how much you want to believe it is.”

Virgil worked the pants on before dropping his head onto Logan’s shoulder. “I want him back, Logan. I want him back so badly it hurts.”

“I know.” Logan rubbed Virgil’s back like he used to when they were little. When his biggest worry was being bullied. When his worst nightmare was loneliness, not this nothingness that had replaced him.

Virgil’s body felt heavy with the weight of grief as he asked, “What are we going to do?”

“We’ll survive,” Logan murmured as he set his hand on Virgil’s head. “We always do.”