#bleh ramblings

[blehblarghblah]

Binge culture really has killed patience.

An amazing animated show or cinematic live action series can have such a great start but people will foam at the mouth anticipating the next season to immediately be the next year. Creators can make posts/interviews and fans will just spam the comments wondering, “Next season when?” It’s almost always impatient consumption.

Same goes for fandom intake too.

Artists and fanfic writers who make great comics/stories will have schedules or not, but the expectation is apparently frequency not consistency. The ability to deliver the same level, if not better, quality each update doesn’t matter if you could just do it more frequently. “Your whole story’s done? Well, why don’t you just post it all now?”

What happened to schedules?

I get it’s exciting, I too binge my shows and fics sometimes. But I also like sitting and waiting. I like week-to-week watching/reading. I like knowing certain days have something to look forward to because something I like is gonna be updated/released then. I also like the waiting in between seasons and volumes.

Things take time to make. Animation, voice acting, writing, drawing, score—all of it takes time. And sometimes the wait is worthwhile. But honestly? These days, we can benefit from slowing down just a tad. The sense of urgency toward our entertainment sparks from our passion and excitement. And I think creators appreciate that. It can be motivating!

But as fans, I think it’s also important to realize that why so many of these fandoms we like die off, is partly related to how quickly things come and go in terms of our overconsumption of content.

But that’s just me.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[bloggingboutburgers]

Quick reminder since apparently it bears reminding in both directions: if bigoted people, closed-minded people overall, or your own internalized insecurities misinterpret a queer person’s message in a way that hurts/endangers you, yeah, it sucks, but it’s not the fault of the queer person in question, nor should it be a reason for them to silence themselves. They’re probably as hurt/pissed as you are that someone misinterpreted and misused their message to do harm.

Of course sadly there’ll still be queer people that actually DO mean harm and dismissal to other queer people – I ain’t speaking for those and it’s not the best way to ensure their and others’ wellbeing imo. I’m just saying – not all people will be like that. That’s what I want to believe. So hopefully let’s not put everyone in the same bag, keep supporting each other, WHILE allowing each other to advocate for our own visibility, without having to self-erase or self-censor to accomodate to what haters might say.

It’ll be tougher this way, maybe, because humans seem to like to draw extreme conclusions very quick, but I don’t believe there’s any better way for us all to be alright and stay alright on the long run.

[james-is-not-here]

YALL IT FINALLY HAPPENED WE GOT DON LEE AND CHANGBIN!!!! WE GOT FATHER AND SON!!!

And the caption with Don's reply!! Oh my god, I'm fine, it's just so freaking cute 😂

Chan was there too!!

[cube-cumb3r]

while im at it neopronoun opposition is weird to me as a swedish person.. the whole debate is so anglocentric that they assume every language landed on the same solution they did, to reuse a plural pronoun as a gender neutral one and then they think any other solution is absurd or unheard of. what do you mean you just made another pronoun up you cant do that!! etc

coz its like here in the 2014 the swedish academy accepted 3rd person pronoun "hen" (as opposed to hon/han) like officially into our word list after it gained some popularity in the 2010s. like that is a NEOPRONOUN that someone just Came Up With in like the 60s and then people just started using it and now its just a recognized part of our language. sure we could've also reused our plural pronoun "de/dem" as a gender neutral one but we just made up a new one instead. and to like imply that mainstream use of a neopronoun is just UNHEARD OF and that neopronouns is something the mainstream could NEVER GET USED TO EVER!!! is... your perspective is very limited to the english speaking world is all i can say

[kaydreamsart]

Exasperated Loop experimental sketchy thingy

[sm1l3b0t]

this panel is so evil in the context of the parallels drawn later on between haejoon and eunyung's father like. from eunyung's perspective this is a completely random bout of violence from someone who while not a father figure is somewhat filling a familial role. haejoon and eunyung may be close but when it comes to conflict resolution haejoon still goes immediately to physically attacking him because at the end of the day eunyung is weaker and haejoon knows he can use that. and this is not a new situation for eunyung, who wants revenge against all the people who have done this to him, starting with his dad, and lashes out at haejoon about it. he wants cocky fuckers like haejoon, like his dad, like all the people who have ever attacked him to get beaten the shit out of one day!!! and doesn't that recognition of the similarities between these situations explain a lot about his behaviour!

and then when you think about this in the context of the more explicit parallels between haejoon and eunyung's father that get drawn later on, and haejoon's decision to stop fighting with others because he no longer wants to be that person taking advantage of other's weakness. he no longer wants to be one of those aforementioned cocky fuckers who would attack eunyung first and ask questions second and godddddd their relationship!!! its so!!! good!!

[teaboot]

In my line of work, I stop people from doing something bad, and trust them not to do it again. And then they do, and I stop them, and trust them not to do it again. I watch them, I monitor them, but I give them a chance not to do it again. To make a better choice. And when they don't, I stop them again.

My coworkers think I'm gullible and naive. They say I haven't been doing this long enough yet, and that eventually, a day will come when I learn to hate people.

I don't hate people. I don't want to hate people. People make me tired, and sad, and disappointed, but I don't ever want to hate them for it.

And I think the reason is, I remember... not even making bad choices, or hurting anyone, but being in a place where everyone believed I was bad on purpose, and nobody wanted to give me the chance to prove otherwise. Because why take a muzzle off a mad dog? Why give it the opportunity to bite you like you know it will?

And I remember one day, very clearly, thinking, "nobody believes that I'm trying to be good, so I'm not even gonna try."

It was freeing. Exhilarating. And incredibly sad.

I don't want to hate anyone. I don't want to stop giving opportunities to do better. Not to jump in first on blind faith, but to creep in slowly, watch from a distance, and see what happens.

People I work with tell me that the people we deal with are animals.

I think that if you treat a person like an animal long enough, they'll become one.

[dootznbootz]

"Oh, that's technically your half-brother. You shouldn't call them your brothers because that gets confusing for others-" True, we have different dads. But I'll still call him my brother. He will always be my brother.

"She's really actually their aunt-" That's their mom. They call her mom. She is their mom.

"They're not even related to you-" That doesn't mean they're less of an uncle to me.

Don't be the "Technically" police with what people call their family members! You can take note but don't ask them to change what they're called because it's "confusing"!

[oblique-lane]

Sniper tf2 mentality

Today I will be talking about Sniper's personality because I often see people portraying him DRASTICALLY different abd I wanted to understand what's going on and why all of the interpretations are correct (in my opinion)

Let's name the most prominent thesises:

Sniper is shy and introverted.

Sniper is unhinged and bloodlusty and is annoyed by people.

Why do i think that these aren't exactly contradictory?

I think at this point it's safe to assume Sniper is autistic (I mean lol this is easier to prove than to disprove). As an autistic person myself, I can see why he could be perceived like that.

Sniper doesn't talk to people and mostly observes them and the situation. Very in tune with his profession. That, however, might be perceived as being shy or very introverted or both. People love talking and expect others to share information, yet Sniper never says half of the things he's thinking about.

But let me tell you, it's NOT because he's shy. If he was shy, it would show in his body language as being stiff and rigid. He's not. His body is pretty relaxed and takes enough space. Still crosses his arms, but in a "don't bother me" way, not a "please don't judge me" way.

He's just disinterested.

I relate to it a lot in real life! People at my job think I'm too shy to talk to them, but no, I just DON'T WANT TO. I'm not scared of any if you, there's just nothing to talk about. I don't know your business, you don't know mine, our interests don't collide. If I talked to you about my interests you wouldn't listen anyway. Small talk? Ew, are y kidding me?

However, I like to listen. I'm an extrovert personally (unexpected huh) so I love being around people, but it doesn't mean I have to takk to them. I'll just sponge the information they are babbling about so I know my community better. When I meet new group of people where everyone knows eachother but me, I'm not going to feel awkward, it's perfectly fine to observe.

Sniper seems to fit into this kind of behaviour too. So he's not shy in a social anxiety sense".

NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT THE BLOODLUST!!

Yeah you all know his in-game voicelines. You feel either horny or assaulted after he rolls these sadistic words on his tongue. Yes I said sadistic, are you gonna argue?

"We professionals don't give speeches we just take a shot" he says in the comics. OH YEAH? IS THAT WHY YOU HAVE THE MOST FUCKING VOICELINES OF ALL OF THEM??

Have you ever noticed how much attention he puts into saying how 'professional' he is? Like, yeah no shit, they all kinda are. But why, unlike other mercs, he insists on calling himself a professional with standards and morals, detached from emotions and feelings, so much???

There's literally no reason to be ashamed of being a killer and to admit that you enjoy killing people, you were hired to Mann Co. for that specifically!!!

My assumption: it's a personal disgust towards himself and his anger issues. I've said it before already and I will again.

His so called 'shadow side' that he suppresses so much. It loves to cause people pain, it loves releasing the inner anger, it is being feral and impulsive in nature. Sniper cannot let himself be like that for whatever reason. He's already built a clear picture of what he is in his head and he doesn't want to destroy that.

The only time he allows himself to be a monster is in the battle because it comes naturally. However, when it's not a situation of adrenaline rush, when people want to talk about his persona face to face, he starts to defend himself and bury his face under the lies he believes in.

And THIS is anxiety. To be scared to be truly perceived. Not like many people tried, but I assume he wouldn't like it.

Bro really thinks he doesn't have feelings lmaoooo imagine being so emotionally immature the only way to process your emotions is to shot a human dead.

So, is Sniper anxious? Yes. Is this social anxiety? No, he's not shy. Is he an unhinged murderer? Yes. Does he identify as one? No. It's really a little bit more complicated than the two thesises from the beginning.

He's a person. Obviously not mentally healthy. High dimensional. Can be potentially broken or healed in terms of a good character study.

I might be very wrong though and most of the assumptions are simply guessing by grasping the patterns, but usually when I analyze someone like thus, it turns out mostly right. But correct me if you feel like it.

[galactic-rhea]

The thing is,,,,abuse doesn't have anything to do with intelligence or lack of confidence, though yes, a person with low self-esteem is an easier target for abusers, however that's what not I'm talking about.

Like I'm someone who doesn't like to take part in The Discourse (tm) because this is fandom, I'm here to talk about my favorite dolls and create silly scenaries with them. And it might feel a bit egregious to talk about something as delicate and serious as abuse, grooming or domestic violence but also it's the perfect playground to explore such themes and you can learn a lot by psychologically analizing a character and do your own research on the matter so you can understand abuse better, and sometimes that way you can also have a more critical view on real life, and for some of us, also come to terms with our own lives.

That said, back to my original point, it has nothing to do with intelligence. A person that falls into a cycle of abuse doesn't make them stupid, the whole deal of predators and abusers is that they know how to play their game, they know how to manipulate. A victim's mind will always try to cope with the abuse in ways that can be hard to understand sometimes in ways that will make you say 'well, that's enabling their abuser', but is not a statement on their intelligence or lack of it, abuse dynamics are extremelly complex, and victims will go through several states such a guilt, or violent outbrusts, fear, appeasing, avoidance, sometimes all sometimes just a few. And it's because no one is the same and no one's experiences will be the same, even though there are patterns you can identify sometimes.

So when someone wants to argue against a character being too smart to fall for abuse or manipulation, it's a bit sad to me. Not necessarily malicious or dangerous, or anything, again this is fandom and fandom runs rampant with whatever takes that makes all of us grimace. But because that's not how it works, if a certain dynamic isn't abusive by your pov, then it has nothing to do with the character's intelligence. It's not about being strong, or confident; that downplays how abusive dynamics come to be.

Like for example y'know I don't think padmé and anakin were abusive, I've made several posts about it, but it's not because they are too intelligent for that.

Likewise, Anakin wasn't stupid for being groomed by Palpatine; the contrary, he was quite literally a gifted child and a genius at mechanics and was good at many things, including drawing and strategies, but he fell for Palpatine's grooming because:

a) Palpatine is an evil top tier manipulator and predator who knows how to play adults, he literally knew how to play the jedi council, what was a 9 y/o going to do about it.

And b) Anakin's trauma and unattended mental illnesses made him an easier victim for grooming; he was already used to be a thing and be a servant from the moment he learned to talk.

But even if we weren't talking about someone as deeply messed up as Anakin was already, abusers and predators always will take advantage and exploit of the weaknesses and flaws on an individual, they will adapt and change their tactic according to the victim needs, that's why anyone could become a victim, it doesn't matter if your IQ is up there on the moon.

It's not about being too "stupid" to not realize there was abuse, it's a deep, complicated and terrible ensemble of thoughts and insecurities tangling around the brain in such a way that there's no a way to blame the abuser without feeling at fault, or at the very least without feeling scared of retaliation or lost, it's a power dynamic that messes up the sense of self.

[moonlit-dreamers]

"your ship will never be canon give up"

bro if they make sun/eclipse canon im ripping my house apart dont they DARE touch my otp

​all my shit will never be canon and it should STAY like that

[james-is-here]

Was reminded of Wooyoung speaking super quick and suddenly thought of how my mom would sometimes call me "Ninety to Nothing" cause of how fast I talk depending on the topic and that got me thinking of Reader being a naturally fast speaker and sometimes being able to rap so fast even Changbin or Han can't do his parts and Reader just gets shy.

Fast talker Mn who talks too fast in either korean or english while speaking what's on his mind from whatever they were talking about that the boys always turn to him when he's done with an amused chuckle and a confused "What??"

Fast talker Mn who once read the lyrics to one of their songs calmly and normally as he usually speaks during an interview and the hosts stop him saying he was to speak it not rap it and the boys laugh while Mn confusedly says "But I am??" with the most confused, innocent look on his face that make the others laugh harder cause the hosts are completely shocked that he was speaking normally.

Changbin and Han's raps are difficult? Try Mn's raps lol

[moonsinkfoxgirl]

honestly if I have to choose I'm gonna pick ''the women in this story are questionably sexualized''-misogyny over ''the women in this story are constantly sidelined and shown to be less competent and less important than the male main characters who the story is actually about''-misogyny every time, at least for the former you can interpret it as being for lesbians a lot of the time

[shoplifting]

The thing is that as long as the hegemony is white, any deviation from the white "standard" will cause a member of the hegemony to also be mentally excluded by any white person less deviant, while the excluded person includes anyone at their level of deviation but no more.

Like, take Tumblr. "We're the queer neurodivergent former gifted kid website" - let's assume that's even true - "that's why we act like this" ok. So. We know you actually act like that primarily because you're white - that's not debatable, it's fact, even if you choose to ignore it - therefore you're excluding all POC from this hegemony. So we know the perceived hegemony is the white queer USAmerican neurodivergent gifted kid crowd.

"We act like this," and "this" is defined by the speaker as writing essays on fiction (real example I saw yesterday). Hi! White queer USAmerican neurodivergent (AuDHD) former gifted kid here! I don't do that because I have a writing disability and language disorder! You have therefore excluded me from the dominant class, even though I am white, queer, and neurodivergent in the same ways as you.

What do white queer neurotypical people generally think of you? They think you're not the default, they think you're weird, and they might be treating you as a liability behind your back. What do cishet white people think of them? The same! And that's not even bringing up how intersex, physically disabled, non-AuDHD neurodivergent people, and anyone higher needs have their deviance weighed more heavily, particularly I've seen online, which bleeds into real life.

That's what defines whiteness, I think. "Everything as deviant as me is ok because that keeps me included, everything moreso is weird and bad." Please just unlearn shame, and never lump me in with you in your conversations.

[cherry-pop-elf]

Mouthwashing Hogwarts Houses

Curly: Gryffindor

Anya: Ravenclaw

Daisuke: Hufflepuff

Jimmy: Slytherin

Swansea: A professor that doesn’t get paid enough for this bullshit

I said what I said

[corrodedcoughin]

pretend with me for a second that the song ‘when I think about you I touch myself’ came out just after the defeat of Vecna. Steves car is in the shop and Eddie’s van is still detained as evidence (even though he was cleared months ago)

So they are without a car and in need of a ride. Which is how they find themselves being driven to hellfire (honorary member Steve is attending so he can stare at Eddie under the guise of babysitting and Eddie? Eddie would do anything to have him there because, no, they still aren’t together yet. Both of them convinced the other just wants a ‘friend’)

And who is driving them? Claudia Henderson. She actually insisted when she found out neither of them had a car, wanting to try and pay them back for everything they’ve done for Dustin. Of course said boy is sitting between the other two in the back of Claudia’s car. She also insisted that they all sit in the back ‘let me be your chauffeur for the night!’ And none of them were going to deny her, they’ve seen her wrath before.

Claudia’s got the radio as close to blasting as she’ll allow, Dustin is squeezed between two of his favourite people and Steve and Eddie? They are doing their usual game of cat and mouse, sneaking glances and hoping the other boy doesn’t see.

Which is when the fateful song comes on. Newly released. None of them aware of the lyrics. So as the singer croons

‘I don’t want anybody else

When I think about you I touch myself’

The car goes dead silent. I’m truth dustin and Claudia aren’t really paying attention, in a world if their own. But Eddie? Steve? It’s like a bucket of cold water has been poured over their heads. Eyes trained to anywhere but each other. Steve has a thousand yard stare directly out the window and Eddie is fumbling with his rings as he takes them on and off, dropping the majority of them when the chorus comes round again.

It’s a very long car ride.