#blame my nostalgic brain at 10:00 for this

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

You know I think it's really funny that I hate Time travel AUs in fanfic and I don't tend to like writing it in original fic...and I just wrote 269k of a giant Doctor Who AU. And I'm working on another one. And I've been thinking about the why.

There's just something about that mad man and his big blue box and the focus on the humanity of it all. The time-travel ship and the sonic screwdriver and all the other technology used as vehicles for character development and even the ship as a character in itself. The focus of the story being on the effects of time travel, yes, but far more about the ways in which time affects people than the ways in which people affect time...characters as their own ghosts...characters that can't die loving people who can do nothing but...it's about the plot but it's really not because it's just about the characters above all else. About the codependent relationship between two people who will haunt each other forever, no matter what happens to them. About how every companion asks what happens if they die before they're born and sometimes they do, because sometimes there's no other way this story ends. Time travel as a vehicle for the cycle of grief. As a vehicle for life. As a vehicle that is as much about this ship and this alien stealing you away from your life and you stealing their hearts in return. About grief and guilt and protectiveness and kindness and selfishness and constant renewal and running to things before they flare and fade to dust and going to the ends of the universe for each other and the people you meet along the way.

...what was I saying? Oh, right. I think Doctor Who fundamentally works for me because it's not about the technology of the time travel; it's about the avenues it opens up. About the fact that the time travel is paired up with the immortal/mortal dynamic, and aliens and all of the universe, about this immortal alien with ghosts in their eyes giving everything that ever has been and ever will be and ever could be to some mortal, fragile, breathtaking, stubborn, brave, reckless human and saying it's yours. You're going to watch it break. It's going to break you. And that's going to break me. But at the end of the day, it's beautiful, isn't it? Now take my hand, and let's run.

(And it's about the people who can do nothing but say yes.)

[nyarisu]

Rammstein Family Game: Get to know me! (created by @vapor-stein)

Many many thanks to @ofmemesandbands @theelliottsmiths @notafraidofredyellowandblue @endlich-allein​ and @ghostlovesc0re​ for tagging me!! (I was gonna do this anyway but now I can actually blame someone for my word salad XD )

Also of course I read what other people wrote on his tag as well and let me tell you I lived for the unpopular opinions and there was a certain one that shocked me (but in a good-natured way?). And Stirb nicht for mir being roasted because it’s so funny how strong people feel about this song in particular XD

1. I’m curious: when did you discover Rammstein? Fuck if I know. For the most time they have existed in this wierd atemporal bubble where they were always somewhere out there (which is kind of right because I’m only 1 year older than the band itself) but at one point during my childhood I must have heard Du hast. So... late 90’s / early 00’s?

2. Tell me your story. How did you discover them? Ok so this question has 2 parts because fucking none asks how I started actually LISTENING to them. The first part of the question is answered above, probably heard Du hast because I don’t really have any early memory of another song but then again I forget very easily so there’s that.

And the second part is how I became a fan. Obv over time I heared a few other popular songs and the only one that stood out was Mein Herz brennt (ok, Mutter too but MHB has like 465694831 instruments which is <3). During the tour last year, someone I follow on instagram posted the „Mein Herz brennt” part from the chorus in her story and that made me think hmmmm I’ve already been listening to it a few times lately and I love it and I’ve been saying for a few years I’ll give them a chance might as well do that now.

And it went like this: on Wendsday I listened to the recording of the live in Berlin (2019). Sometime that evening I must have discovered Deutschland because the next day I was fucking obsessed with it and listened to it on repeat the whole day. And lastly, Friday I listened to the untitled album on repeat because it fucking slapped. So there you have it, my descend to maddness (and Saturday I was fighting against my growing Till attraction until I just gave up and Sunday afternoon I admited I find a grandpa hot). So yes, the last 3 days of August 2019 were life changing :))

 3. Favorite song? Mein Herz brennt and Deutschland, they are on equal foot, no way to choose between them. MHB because it has the amazing instrumentals and Duestchland because it has the amazing voice (and also they both are favourite song of the pre- and post-knowing R+)

 4. Least favorite song? Come on. I know you have one. *pulls up the songs rating list* according to the list, that would be Jeder Lacht but I don’t really care about the last let’s say 10 songs on there so yeah. Oh yes, and also Stripped and the English versions are not on the list so they don’t even exist for me.

 5. Favorite album? I have no idea which one that would be. I mean, I could say it’s the untitled one but there are also many songs I love very much from other albums. So I can’t really choose.

 6. Least favorite album? *shrugs* don’t make me rate albums (yet)

 7. Something that speaks to you in the deepest sense of the word: a lyric? A specific song? I... kind of started relating to Keine Lust because I can’t really motivate myself to do anything anymore (but lately I’ve been better, I like to think). But yeah, if I think a little to much about the song, I’ll probably start tearing up or something.

Wilder Wein and Schwarzes Glas hit me in a very emotional way because they just make me nostalgic for a thing I never lived/experienced and it’s wierd because they are such different songs.

 8. Unpopular opinion: about a member? A scandal? Anything? *starts rubbing hands* yes! I’m seeking discord and ruin withing the fandom with my unpopular opinions I was dying to be asked this question XD Ok so I have 2. The first one I keep seeing people all the time stating the opposite, and that is: I like Stirb nich for mir (and Te Quiero Puta). It’s an ok song, I enjoy it and I have nothing against it. More than that, I really can’t say whether I prefer the album or the demo version more. They are so similar and different at the same time that my brain doesn’t really comprehend comparing the 2. And the second unpopular opinion, which I’ve never seen stated, is: I hate Schneider’s curls. Obv I hate the hedgehog style even more but... the curls! I don’t trust them! (and I’m low key glad he cut his hair again)

 9. Have you ever seen them live? Tell me what you felt. ... let’s not talk about this (I still feel like the universe is against me because I first bought Trondheim feuerzone and then find out I can’t go to because it’s too expensive and have none to go to, but now I can’t go to Turin either. Also my copy of In Quiet Nights still doesn’t want to reach me for the second time so there’s that)

 10. Do you play any instruments? If you do, can you play any song by them? The only instrument I’m playing is the voice (as one does XD) but other than that, no, I don’t and I can’t (but if I would, I’d totally learn some piano versions :D)

I’m tagging @crina-s-blog?? If she wants to do the tag?