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In 777 Ways I Love You (A VV Fluff Fanfic)

RATED S for Sickly Sweet.

Ville takes care of you when you’re not feeling well. ❤

On a chilly October night in Helsinki, you were lying in the fetal position on the couch, stomach in knots and deeply uncomfortable. Ville, your longtime boyfriend, was due home from a work trip any minute and the house was a disaster. You usually had the place nice and clean for him whenever he got home, whether it was just a day in the studio or a month-long tour, you liked being able to welcome him home to a tidy house, a hot meal, and an adoring woman.

Unfortunately, that just wasn’t in the cards for either of you today. You’d been feeling poorly since before he left a few days prior, and the fact that he’d be coming home to a messy home, no groceries, and a disheveled looking girlfriend just made you feel so much worse. Obviously he was the breadwinner between the two of you, so when you felt like you couldn’t pull your weight, you felt incredible guilt; regardless if Ville never made you feel that way.

As you considered what Netflix show to put on while you waited for your pain meds to kick in, you huffed a sigh and decided to at least attempt to pull some things together so you’d feel less guilty. But as you shakily picked up the trash from the coffee table that had accumulated from the last few days, you heard keys in the door.

Ville walked in, backpack hanging from his arm as he dropped the keys into the dish that sat on a table beside the door. He turned his head to greet you and the smile on his face quickly dropped when he saw you and the current state of the house.

“Hi.” you spoke up timidly, discomfort painted across your face.

“Hey…” Ville began, his eyebrows gently furrowed with concern as the blackpack slowly slid off his arm and onto the floor.

You quickly cut him off when you read his face, mistaking it as frustration with you, “I know, I know. It’s a disaster zone in here, I’m sorry. I’m working on it.”

“Are you alright? You look like you’ve had a rough day.” he inquired, taking his hoodie off and draping it over the back of a chair before him.

“Not really, this period is kicking my ass, I’ve got two different doctors appointments this week that I’m dreading and the house is disgusting and it’s giving me a lot of anxiety and—” you stopped yourself short as you grimaced and bent forward slightly, cramps kicking into overdrive with the tension you were experiencing.

“Hey, hey, the house is fine. You remember how I used to live before you came into my life?” You gave a small smile recalling just how nasty his apartment was when you first met. Ville was a trash hoarding gremlin. Villle pulled the trash bag from your hands and pulled you into his arms. “I’m just happy to see you.” he kissed the top of your head sweetly, which made you cringe and you wondered if he could tell you hadn’t showered since he left. You’d been too tired and out of it.

“Don’t worry about cleaning up, I’ll clean up. Right after I make some food, I’m starving. Are you hungry?” Ville questioned gently sitting you down onto the sofa beside you. “Well, I kinda also didn’t make it to the grocery store either.” you admitted painfully.

Ville sighed, “Well… wouldn’t really make sense to go shopping at this time of night. Alright, I’ll run back out and grab some carry out.” “No… please don’t do that.” you whined, guilt bubbling to the surface. “You just got home.” “Y/n, it’s not a big deal. I just want to get back quick so I can get some time in with my girl.” he smiled, pulling his hoodie back on. “I’ll be right back, text me if you need anything else.” he grabbed his keys and headed back out the door.

You sighed, you never felt good asking anyone for anything. You hated feeling like a burden or putting anyone out of their way. He just got back from a work trip in Germany, and now because you hadn’t done anything the last few days, he couldn’t relax after a long day. You hated this feeling. Cramps be damned, you were going to get your ass up and clean, it was literally the least you could do to not feel like a total bum.

After about an hour later, Ville came back in, two large paper bangs in his arms. “Hey, I’m sorry it took so long. I decided to stop off and–” he stopped when he realized what you were doing. “Y/n, what the fuck….”

You were carrying a basket of dirty laundry and struggling due to the radiating pain in your abdomen and back. Unbeknownst to you, your face was flushed and you really looked uncomfortable. Before you could explain Ville dropped the bags onto the sofa and took the basket from your hands. “You don’t look well, you need to sit down.”

“I just– I felt so bad that you *just* got back and immediately had to run out and–” you tried to explain, nearly in tears, though you could barely keep your thoughts straight. 

“Y/n, stop. You’re not feeling well, you’re not doing anything wrong by taking care of yourself. Now go sit down, stop trying to be Wonder Woman.” he admonished gently.

He unpacked the first bag, food from your favorite restaurant. The second bag, a collection of items he clearly got from the pharmacy. “I picked you up your favorite snacks,” he explained each items as he pulled them from the bag and sat them on the table before you. “Gatorade, ibuprofen, tampons, some ice cream, and… this.” It was a stuffed jack-o-lantern plush, and cute as hell. “It’s a heat pack. Since you said your heating pad doesn’t get nearly warm enough anymore.”

You looked up at him with tearful, thankful eyes, “Babe…” you whined. “Thank you.”

“Of course, doll.” he kissed your forehead and went into the kitchen to put the snacks away, put ice cream into the freezer before it melted, and to get the food he’d brought home onto plates.

After you both eat and caught up on the episode of the show you’d missed while he was gone, he draped a blanket over you both and pulled you into his arms, “I missed you.” he muttered, gently kissing your forehead. You snuggled into him closer and just as you felt yourself drift off to sleep, you felt it; a gush. “Oh shit, fuck fuck fuck, shit!” you scrambled off of Ville before you hemorrhaged all over him. Evidently, Ville had been beginning to drift off to sleep too because he looked startled too. “What? What? What’s going on?” he asked sleepily.

You didn’t have time to answer him, you instead rushed upstairs to try to stop bleeding like a gunshot victim. You reached the bathroom and to your utter dismay, you had bled through your sweats. Ville’s sweats you had borrowed. “Babe? What’s wrong? You alright?” Ville asked delicately through the bathroom door. “No…” you replied, sounding way more annoyed than you intended to. “I just fucking bled all over myself.” You heard the door click open, “It’s fine, we’ll get it taken care of.” “These are *your* sweatpants…” you admitted with a mortified groan. “Oh please, I’ve had all of your bodily fluids on me at one point or another, this hardly bothers me.” “It’s going to stain!” you complained, trying to rinse them in cold water in the sink.

“Y/n… I promise, it’s not a big deal.” Ville reassured you as he turned the shower on. “I’m going to run you a shower, I’m going to start the laundry…” he trailed off, taking your bloody clothes from your hands, “and then I’m going to get you all comfy cozy in bed.” Ville reached into the shower and tested the water’s temperature with his hand, “Alright, perfect, get in. I’ll be right back.” Ville headed downstairs and threw the laundry into the washer and began picking up your dishes from dinner so you wouldn’t worry about them. He listened carefully to the upstairs shower, making sure he was up there before you got out. He popped the jack-o-lantern heat pack into the microwave and grabbed the ice cream and Gatorade before heading upstairs to meet you.As you got out of the shower, Ville was waiting for you with a towel open in front of him. You let him wrap it around you and it was warm.

“Mmm…” You moaned happily.

“I tossed it in the dryer so it would be nice and toasty for you.”

You tilted your head and whined, “Babe… you spoil me way too much.”

“Nonsense.” he quipped back, kissing you on your wet hair, “I love you, and I’m going to take care of you today, and I’m going to take care of you tomorrow, and every day for the rest of my life.” he continued, looking you deeply into your eyes before scooping you into his arms and carrying you bridal-style into the bedroom. He’d picked out some clean, comfy clothes and placed the ice cream and Gatorade on your nightstand. You dressed and he pulled the covers up over you and fixed your pillows so you could sit up comfortably.

“I’m sorry your home coming wasn’t more relaxing.” you said sheepishly.

Ville side-eyed you as he climbed into bed, “Apologize for another stupid thing and I’m stealing your ice cream.” he joked.

You offered him a spoonful and he playfully licked it making you laugh. “I love you. Thank you so much.”

“It’s my pleasure, darling. You’re the most important person in my life, I’d do anything for you.” he snuggled in next to you, turning your favorite show back on to pick up where you had left off, both of you the happiest you’d ever been.

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nyctophobia

chapter 8: trigger

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summary: think of the biggest hater you know. it's a man, right? prom '05 has finally arrived, and it's about to get uglier than edward cullen up in here...

word count: ~7.7k

warnings: more of the same in previous chapters + blatant sexual tension and flirtatiousness + extra profanity (first "fuck" incoming) + physical violence

thank you so much to everyone who's been following along and being patient with me. I told you it wouldn't take me this long to give y'all another chapter! I just wanna add that I know we all know how the original story that smeyer gave us ends for our princess diana of the twilight saga, but let this be a reminder to have fun and like… live in the moment of the story lol. while we all know how shit goes for lee-lee in canon, this story is still a fanfic. just trust me.

this chapter was masterfully beta-read by @bellasdumptruckass. tytyty so much for taking this chapter from a good 8.5 to an 11. I'm SO proud of how it turned out.

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The demands of today’s world, with digital screens and office work and meetings, can make outdoor time feel like a squeeze. But the many benefits of hiking—mental and physical—show us that it’s important to carve out time to recreate outdoors and connect with nature. Some researchers1 have even found that spending time in nature, regardless of exertion level, can result in lower heart rates and decreased feelings of anxiety. Hiking can conjure up mental images of scaling mountains and braving dangerous outdoor elements—but you don’t need to go to extremes (seriously, "soft hiking" is a thing). Visiting a local trail or nearby state park is enough to help your mind and body. And beyond the beautiful scenery and fresh air, the benefits of hiking include some impressive fitness boosts: It's seriously good exercise and can help improve your overall physical health. The differences between hiking and walking Although they’re similar, there are some nuances that separate walking from hiking. Colorado-based Patricia Cameron is the founder and executive director of Blackpackers, a nonprofit that offers curriculum-based, professionally guided, fully outfitted outdoor experiences for free or subsidized cost to those at the intersection of underrepresentation and economic vulnerability. Cameron is an experienced backpacker and thru-hiker as well as a wilderness first response instructor. She has completed multi-week and multi-month backpacking journeys, including hiking the Colorado Trail. “To me, a hike is a walk in the great outdoors—I don’t like to box ‘hiking’ into one specific definition, like bushwhacking up mountains,” Cameron says. “Hiking is an activity that intentionally places you into the outdoors, but the ‘outdoors’ can be in a local nature preserve or park. It doesn’t have to be climbing a mountain.” Walking is a motion that moves your body from place to place, regardless of the setting. You might walk a city block or walk to the grocery store, but those wouldn’t be traditionally considered hiking. Hiking is the act of walking (or power-walking) on a trail or route that intentionally winds its way through nature. The intensity of the movement isn’t what defines hiking; whether you leisurely stroll on a trail or aim to get your heart rate high while immersed in nature, both still qualify. Edward Phillips, MD, associate professor of physical medicine and rehabilitation at Harvard Medical School and co-host of the Food, We Need to Talk podcast, says that hiking gives you all the physical and mental benefits of walking—plus some. “There are wonderful benefits to your mind to forestall depression, anxiety—all of those things just from going on a short walk,” Dr. Phillips says. “So with hiking, you get all of those benefits and then, as the old commercials used to say: Wait, there’s more.” Physical benefits of hiking Building muscle One of the key reasons to take a hike is that hiking builds muscle (and strengthens it) in key muscle groups all over the body, according to Australian physiotherapist Calum Fraser, CEO and owner of Advantage Physiotherapy. “Your muscles gain a lot when you go hiking: Your glutes, hamstrings, quadriceps, and calves are all activated by hiking on the uneven surfaces frequently found on trails. This provides those muscles with greater stimulus than walking on flat areas such as a sidewalk,” Fraser says. “Incorporating trekking or hiking poles also engages your upper-body muscles like the arms, chest, and back for a full-body workout.” Improved cardiovascular health Hiking can also assist in improving your aerobic capacity and cardiovascular health. “Hiking is an excellent cardio exercise due to the common changes in elevation or long stretches of uphill gradient,” Fraser says. “Hiking or power-hiking up this kind of terrain will raise your heart rate, which can in turn improve cardiovascular fitness, enhance the lungs’ functionality, and improve blood flow through the body.” Better balance

Because hiking often takes place on terrain that’s a little rougher than your residential sidewalk, it’s an excellent way to challenge your balance. All of the movements you make throughout a hike, from stepping over a big rock to walking across a log, train your body to maintain its equilibrium under a slew of different circumstances. “And the more you challenge any system in your body, the more your body is going to adapt and get better at it,” says Dr. Phillips. So if you find yourself stumbling down a trail littered with loose stones or take an unintentional dip in a babbling brook, don’t fret. Your next foray into the forest will likely be a little smoother. Better metabolic health Hiking is also great for metabolic health: It can improve the efficiency of your metabolism for up to 14 hours after the hike is complete. If you want to improve markers for metabolic syndrome, hiking is an excellent option, according to an older study2 that found, after hiking at a moderate intensity four times a week for three weeks, participants saw better fasting glucose, total cholesterol and LDL cholesterol, resting systolic and diastolic blood pressure numbers, as well as some body composition changes. Hiking at high altitude may confer even more benefits:3 Another older study found that hiking for 16 days at high altitude resulted in a loss of body fat with no significant decline in the resting metabolic rate, which is how many calories the body burns when at rest, such as sitting or sleeping. Preventing disease The American Diabetes Association also recommends at least 30 minutes of activity a day to decrease your risk of developing Type 2 diabetes. Hiking for at least 30 minutes a day can therefore help you stave off conditions such as diabetes or heart disease. In some cases, hiking may even help normalize insulin sensitivity, as demonstrated in a 2004 study4 where a small population saw normalized insulin levels after 25 consecutive days of hiking. Improved sleep  Spending time in nature by hiking or camping can also help you sleep better. One 2017 study5 published in Current Biology found that spending extended amounts of time outdoors can help humans regulate their circadian rhythms, and that humans can respond quickly and effectively to the natural light-dark cycle. Healthy aging Hiking could be key to aging well, suggests one 2019 study6. A group of older adults were split into two study groups, with one group spending time hiking for a week and the other experiencing a more sedentary adventure. The hiking group showed improvements in static balance, gait speed, and quality of life—and had increased muscle mass. The group that went on the more sedentary adventure did not reap the same benefits, implying that incorporating appropriate levels of intensity during hiking as you age could benefit your physical health. Mental benefits of hiking Improving mental health A 2015 study published in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences7 found that people who walked for 90 minutes in nature (not an urban or suburban area) showed decreased activity in the part of the brain that plays a part in developing depression. Dr. Phillips encourages hikers to try out the Japanese practice of “forest bathing,” a type of mobile meditation where you focus on the sights, sounds, and smells of the natural environment around you rather than, say, gabbing about the latest work gossip. Studies8 show that slowing down to take in the natural environment around us on a hike can help put us into a more relaxed state. Calming and centering effect Cameron agrees that hiking is particularly calming and centering. “The sound of the trail crunching under my feet is such a comforting and familiar sound to me,” Cameron says. “The background noise of life drowns out, because your goal is very simple in that moment: walk from point A to point B.” When hiking, Cameron is able to see and connect with different wildlife, flora, and even people than she would if she were at home on the treadmill.

Social connection Although hiking can be done solo or with a group, it’s difficult even on the most remote of trails to avoid seeing a single other person. A 2020 study9 in the International Journal of Wilderness found that for those preparing for longer thru-hikes, using social networks was a large part of preparing for their trip—a combined 65% of those in the studies leveraged Facebook connections and online forum interactions to create their thru-hike plans, and 22% met up with others in-person to build their routes. According to the same study, hikers often want to interact with other hikers, too, with 53% of respondents saying they hoped to meet new people during their thru-hike. Use your best judgment when interacting with strangers, but know that it’s likely fellow hikers simply want to say hello or make a friend. There's also some evidence that hiking together can deepen a relationship, so next time you need some help communicating with a friend or partner, go take a hike. Dr. Phillips says even hiking in silence with another person can foster feelings of connection. Encourages challenging yourself Hiking also empowers Cameron by reminding her she can do hard things. “I like being outside and proving to myself that I can survive outside of my house,” Cameron says with a laugh. “That’s always a big win—and in that vein, it helps to keep my goals of the day simple and uncomplicated: eat, drink, stay safe.” Connecting to your innermost self Perhaps most importantly, Cameron says that hiking can help you “hear the voices that you may have lost in yourself,” and reconnect with who you truly are. “When I hike, backpack, or thru-hike, I get to hear the voice of who I was before I became a business owner and a wife and a mother. I love all of those things, of course, but it’s nice to tune out and reconnect with that inner voice,” Cameron says. “You get to tune out the ‘bad noise,’ like thinking about bills or pet care or other responsibilities, [which] can distract me from hearing who I truly am.” Hiking tips to help you get started It may be tempting to head out into the great outdoors as soon as possible, but before you go, make sure to follow these beginner hiker tips so you can maximize the benefits of hiking in nature. Equipment Cameron believes that expensive and niche equipment is not needed for hikers, especially beginner ones. She recommends the following hiking gear to get you started: Hiking poles: These don’t need to be expensive, but they will help offset the impact on your knees and assist with balance on uneven terrain An emergency or first-aid kit with basics such as antibacterial ointment or wipes and bandages Sunscreen A water bottle with water and/or the ability to treat water found in nature A physical compass, not just an app on your smartphone Sturdy shoes with good treads on the soles. You don’t necessarily need hiking boots, but close-toed shoes with good grip are ideal Wool or wool-blend socks: Cotton socks easily cause blisters when hiking Choosing a trail Not all hiking trails are created equal—some will be easier or harder than others, and it’s important to choose accordingly. Cameron recommends considering the following when choosing a hiking route: Total elevation gain and the elevation profile of the hike. Cameron recommends not exceeding more than 200 feet of elevation gain per mile for beginner hikers. To calculate how many feet of gain there are in a mile, divide the total elevation gain of the hike by the number of miles of the hike. Total distance of the hike Shape of the hike (point-to-point, a loop, etc.) Terrain of the hike (crushed gravel, rock scrambling, etc.) Although it can be tempting to choose a hard or “impressive” hiking route, it's always better to go for a safe and appropriate trail—a successful day in the wilderness is one that ends with you back at the car! Safety Hiking in nature can come with its fair share of safety concerns. Knowing and addressing these concerns ahead of time can mitigate your risk of danger while out on the trail.

Always tell someone what hiking route you are completing and when you think you will be back from the hike. Check the weather early and often. Know how fast you hike and on what terrain. Always bring water and food, no matter how short the hike. Be aware of how far you are from resources such as emergency services and cell reception, and if your comfort level with hiking in nature aligns with that. Seasonal changes can make big differences in terrain and weather. Know what mistakes to avoid when winter hiking, and be prepared for summer heat or changing conditions in the spring and fall. FAQ How long does it take to get in shape for hiking? You do not need to be “in shape” to begin hiking, but you should choose hiking trails that align with your current level of fitness. Shorter hiking trails with less elevation gain are a good place to begin getting in shape for hiking, and then you can choose longer, more challenging trails. What equipment do I need for hiking? While you technically do not need any specialized equipment to go on an easy hike, it is recommended that you bring a pair of hiking poles to assist with balance, a first aid kit, sunscreen, a water bottle filled with water, food, and sturdy, close-toed shoes with socks that won’t give you blisters. Is hiking better for you than running? This depends on what your fitness and wellness goals are. Hiking is, in general, gentler on the joints than running and moves at a slower pace. For those who want to maintain a decent level of aerobic fitness without high levels of impact on your joints, hiking is a better choice. If you are looking for a more intense workout that can build aerobic and muscular endurance quickly, running may be a better option. Both hiking and running provide opportunities to improve cardiovascular and muscular health and can also offer numerous mental health benefits such as decreased stress and improved sleep quality. Well+Good articles reference scientific, reliable, recent, robust studies to back up the information we share. You can trust us along your wellness journey. Lee, Juyoung et al. “Influence of forest therapy on cardiovascular relaxation in young adults.” Evidence-based complementary and alternative medicine : eCAM vol. 2014 (2014): 834360. doi:10.1155/2014/834360 Greie, S et al. “Improvement of metabolic syndrome markers through altitude specific hiking vacations.” Journal of endocrinological investigation vol. 29,6 (2006): 497-504. doi:10.1007/BF03344138 Armellini, F et al. “The effects of high altitude trekking on body composition and resting metabolic rate.” Hormone and metabolic research = Hormon- und Stoffwechselforschung = Hormones et metabolisme vol. 29,9 (1997): 458-61. doi:10.1055/s-2007-979077 Lee, Wen-Chih et al. “Effects of hiking at altitude on body composition and insulin sensitivity in recovering drug addicts.” Preventive medicine vol. 39,4 (2004): 681-8. doi:10.1016/j.ypmed.2004.02.035 Stothard, Ellen R., et al. “Circadian entrainment to the natural light-dark cycle across seasons and the weekend.” Current Biology, vol. 27, no. 4, Feb. 2017, pp. 508–513, https://doi.org/10.1016/j.cub.2016.12.041. Prossegger, Johanna et al. “Effects of moderate mountain hiking and balneotherapy on community-dwelling older people: A randomized controlled trial.” Experimental gerontology vol. 122 (2019): 74-84. doi:10.1016/j.exger.2019.04.006 Bratman, Gregory N., et al. “Nature experience reduces rumination and subgenual prefrontal cortex activation.” Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, vol. 112, no. 28, 29 June 2015, pp. 8567–8572, https://doi.org/10.1073/pnas.1510459112.

Miyazaki, Yoshifumi et al. Nihon eiseigaku zasshi. Japanese journal of hygiene vol. 66,4 (2011): 651-6. doi:10.1265/jjh.66.651 Cole, Taylor, and Jennifer Thomsen. “Understanding the Role of Social Interactions during Different Phases of the Thru-Hiker Experience.” IJW, International Journal of Wilderness, 13 Apr. 2021, ijw.org/role-of-social-interactions-during-thru-hiking/.

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Bagaimana jika kesempatan sudah terbuka lebar tapi keadaan tak mendukung?

Hari ini adekku yang jurusan Teknik Mesin ngabarin kalo dia keterima beasiswa es2ua di Tekwan sekaligus sebagai asisten profesor, padahal sidang skripsi aja belum. Katanya ketua jurusan langsung yang minta dia buat ke sana, dan berangkat September nanti. Sebagai nak ambis sejak kecil, aku cukup tau kalo dia bahagia dengan kabar itu. Sebagai mbak yang ingin adek-adeknya terbang lebih tinggi, aku juga mendukung penuh. Mumpung masih muda semangat masih membara kebebasan belum berubah, gapailah mimpi selagi bisa.

Tapi kebahagiaan itu seketika redup ketika nelpon emak. Ridho Allah ada pada ridho orangtua, dan emak ga setuju! Bukan karena mau lanjut kuliah, bahkan emak berharap bisa menghantarkan anak-anaknya sampai ke jenjang pendidikan tertinggi. Tapi karena kenapa harus sekarang? Kenapa harus Tekwan?

Memang didikan emak ke anak perempuannya berbeda, apalagi setelah abi pergi. Gak boleh malas dan manja, harus serba bisa, harus mandiri, berani, dan gak bergantung. Disediakan fasilitas lengkap untuk kami kuliah, termasuk kendaraan pribadi, agar apa-apa bisa sendiri ga minta tolong ke orang lain apalagi teman lelaki. Disuruh ikut beladiri untuk keamanan diri sendiri. Dikasih tips perjalanan sebagai perempuan biar bisa aman berpetualang. Dan lain-lain.

Termasuk bahasan ini; aku dan adek ga dibolehin kuliah di luar, kecuali sudah nikah! Alias: kalian kalo mau ke luar harus nikah dulu, cari suami yang sama-sama mau kuliah di luar, jadi di sana nanti ada yang jagain. Kuakui menjaga diri sebagai perempuan-muslimah-lajang secara utuh tu susah, susah banget! Ramah dianggap suka, cuek dianggap sombong. Kaki adalah aurora, lengan adalah aurora, bahkan suara pun bisa mengandung aurora. Pake warna-warni bibir salah, berkarya di muka salah, pakaian gak longgar salah, seolah seluruh apa yang ada di diri perempuan bisa mengundang fitrih dan aurora. Mungkin itulah kenapa dijanjikan surga sebagai balasan bagi orangtua yang berhasil membesarkan dan menjaga anak perempuannya.

Aku gatau gimana perasaan seorang ibu karena belum pernah di posisi mulia itu. Mungkin kekhawatiran emak terhadap anak perempuannya sangat tinggi. Apalagi melepas di negeri yang beda agama dan beda segalanya. Jangankan itu dah, ndaki gunung aja kami ga pernah dibolehin. Mo blackpacker sendiri ke luar ga dibolehin. Bahkan mo terjun ke lapangan juga ga dibolehin. Alasannya cuma satu; karena kamu perempuan.

Tapi..

Apa harus seperti itu jalannya?

Akhirnya kukatakan ke emak, "kasian dek Balqis Mi. Doa Ummi kan berarti banget untuk dia. Coba sekarang Ummi izinin dulu. Kalo emang ga baik dan bukan rezekinya, pasti ada aja nanti hambatannya kan. Jadi sekarang biar ngalir dulu aja biar ga pupus semangat dia."

Ya.. apa yang menjadi takdir kita ga akan terlewat, kan? Dan mungkin cuma itu yang bisa kulakuin sebagai mbak, yang juga ingin ke luar suatu hari nanti..

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@werechads Hey have Paul save us some dogs for the Council tonight!! Cause the Black Pack is coming!

[andyyweed]

Pack Black Gifs

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[blackaltarapparel]

So, as many of you know, we are currently in Oslo, Norway. 🇳🇴 But the question is, why are we here? Well, isn’t that obvious? We are visiting all the iconic & historical Black Metal places & sights. 🤘🏽

We started today by visiting the National Library of Oslo to see the Bad Vibes exhibition. Let me tell you, this is one exhibition we would encourage any Black Metal fan to visit. It has the first pressings of Mayhem’s groundbreaking album, Deathcrush & Darkthone’s Under The Funeral Moon. It also has some handwritten letters by Per Yngve "Pelle" Ohlin (Dead). And the icing on the cake is the original door from Helvete, along with lots of original flyers.

There’s so much to see at this exhibition & it’s free! So, have you been? Do you plan on going? Please be sure to turn on post notifications to see daily uploads of our Oslo trip. 🇳🇴

[twihard-diehard]

Ewww....I just realized something. So somewhere and I think I posted it; there were a few posts about how Mormons have an anti-native nature. And then there was a post about how in most North American countries natives weren't even people until almost the civil rights movement and some later.

Okay so that's so bad and shit and then I read a post about Leah which is now on the @wolfpackcult page. And it freaking clicked.... Jacob imprints on the baby partly because of the whole FLDS (my two churches post) and partly because he overcomes his 'heritage' and becomes a godly Mormon like the rest of the khaki wearing Cullens....

So again I'd just like to say

Ewwwwwwwwwwww

[teamjacobthot]

nyctophobia

chapter 10: hater

read on ao3 | read on ff.net

summary: that's that Lee espresso.... word count: ~3.4k warnings: profanity, sex mention, the usual

thank you to everyone who's stuck with me for these updates. I appreciate all of your kind words.

huge thank you to @bellasdumptruckass for getting my ass in gear yet again. I always appreciate your insights and talents and your galaxy brain <3<3<3

tag list (literally just copying and pasting from old posts - pls lmk if you want me to tag/untag you in future nyctophobia posts): @leahclearwaterdefensesquad @cheerynoir @big-idiot-wolf-boys @the-golden-onion @howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen @phil-dwyer-stan-account @paulxlahotee @edwardsmedow @the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis @effervescent-influenza @gezellig-writes @witchyangela @leahcee @haletwinsstan @musingsofvenus @leahclearwlwater @haemshaems @vampiresarezombies @femmealice @blackpack @bellasoutrageousflavor @tenarcansteponme @me-and-jake @plainjaniedee @renegadepack @manicpixietwilight @emotwilights @jacobyouidiotihadit @edwardsmate4ever @sugarshackpeasant

[williamsclassics]

One of our new 2020 Defender 110’s, this is our own edition if you are interested in a similar vehicle or having any work done to yours send us a dm and we will be in touch. #williamsclassics #landrover #landroverdefender #l663 #blackpack #jamesbond #notimetodie #2020 #mudterrain #defender110 (at North Wales) https://www.instagram.com/p/CG-ikZ6sV67/?igshid=mobvv90hh3tz

[sethsclearwater]

family drama pt. 1 | jacob black

Request: “Hi😊 Could you do a Jacob imagine where the reader is Bella's little sister and he imprints on her and he gets angry because he thought that she was in love with someone else... But everything ends with a happy ending.”

Notes: None

Warnings: Swearing

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You had been in love with the one and only Jacob Black for as long as you could remember. Since you’d moved to La Push in 9th grade the two of you had become good friends. You weren’t best friends, but you were close. That was, until, him and his two other friends, Embry and Quil, had all decided to join Sam Uley’s cult leaving you behind.

You were never one to sit around and sulk so you got up and moved on with your life. If they weren’t going to be there for you then fuck ‘em. You had gotten a new group of friends and they were pretty nice for the most part. You talked with them at school and saw them outside of school occasionally. You had honestly thought you’d forgotten about Jacob until you ran into him at the supermarket.

Whilst carrying bread, three cans of chili, butter and some tampons you had managed to slam right into the boy, knocking yourself down in the process.

You quickly scrambled to get all of your items back in the basket you were carrying while Jacob just stared. First he has the audacity to ditch you, now he leaves you on the floor and just fucking stares.

Though before you could make a snarky remark, he reached down and helped you up. “Sorry… Are you okay?” He asked awkwardly and you nodded, turning to leave but he grabbed your arm and spun you back around. “Wait- I- Uhm- I’m really sorry. Please. Can we talk?” He sighed and you roll your eyes at his patheticness though you did want to talk to him. You weren’t sure what was drawing you towards him but something made you want to give the boy a shot.

But, before you could say anything, Tyler, one of your new friends, walked up to you. “Hey Y/N, are you okay? Here, let me take those for you.” He offered, taking your pile of items from you. He then turned to Jake and raised a curious eyebrow at him, looking almost… irritated in a way.

“Tyler, I’m okay. Just… could you give us a minute?” You asked him quietly and he nodded, not before pressing his lips to your forehead earning a growl from Jacob.

After Tyler walked away with your things, you turned your attention back to Jake who seemed to be fuming. “You’re dating him?” Jake spat out and your eyebrows scrunched together. Who the hell does he think he is? He leaves you for over a month and now he thinks he can come back into your life out of the blue?

“What does it matter to you anyways? You didn’t seem to care about anything since you joined Sam’s cult anyways.” You bit out just as venomously.

Jacob sighed quietly, averting his eyes to the floor and you placed your hands on your hips, looking at him expectantly. “I’m sorry.” He murmured so quietly you thought you’d misheard him for a moment. He looked back up at you, his brown eyes softening as he said, “I know I left you… I… It’s hard to explain. I swear It wasn’t my choice. I just… I… I need you. I need you so badly. I can’t be me without you and...” He trailed off and you watched him, your harsh glare turning more sympathetic as you tried to figure out what to do with him.

“Jake… You left me. For over a month.” You started, and he nodded, stepping towards you but you stepped back, cutting him off as you continued your rant, “No. You don’t get it. I called you every day for an entire month and you didn’t return any of my calls and your dad told me you were too sick to answer any of them and all of a sudden you see me here and you’re perfectly fine again? What the hell Jake?” You sighed, watching him teary eyed. You wanted to forgive him, you really did but it was hard. You weren’t sure whether or not to trust him again. Your heart wanted you to, god your heart wanted you to trust him again. But your head screamed otherwise. He left you after all.

“I know and I’m really sorry. Just… Can you give me one more chance? Come back to my house and I promise I’ll explain everything. I just… I can’t do it here.” Jacob ran his fingers through his hair anxiously, looking anywhere but you. You bit your lip as you contemplated his offer. After all, how bad could it be? What was the harm?

“Fine. But I’m only staying for a half hour. I’m going out tonight.” You lied, already knowing you’d end up staying at the boy’s house for the rest of the day. He always had that effect on you.

Jake’s eyes seemed to brighten at your acceptance and he nodded eagerly, grabbing your hand and tugging you towards the front of the store where you found Tyler patiently waiting for you with all of your groceries, already paid for.

Tyler eyed you suspiciously and you sighed, mouthing to him that you’d explain later and he nodded, offering you a kind smile as you were eagerly pulled out of the store by Jake and into the Rabbit.

To be continued...

[yara-kremen]

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[landroverphotoalbum]

I've heard a few claim new Land Rovers are the same. They are not! By @landroverphotoalbum #L405 #RangeRover #landroverphotoalbum #inkyenston #4x4 #offroad #landroverevolved #blackpack (at Snowdonia)