#blackbutterfliescal

[easierlftv]

7.16.96  ☆ Happy 24th Birthday Luke Hemmings

[kaleidoscopeminds]

meg’s 1k celebration

@blackbutterfliescal || based on your blog

[devilatmydoor]

Anna!! Angel!! Congrats on 1K babe 💕 Can I request a lil something for “After everything we’ve been through, you still don’t think that I love you?” with Luke? -blackbutterfliescal💛

Brooke!!! You are the angel omg!  I hope you like this, I got a little carried away, surprise surprise  😅

“After everything we’ve been through, you still don’t think that I love you?” 

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3 months, that was less than a semester at school but it felt so much longer. It may not be  the first time he had been on tour for weeks on end but to no surprise on your end -  it felt like the first time all over again.  You kept replaying the morning he left for tour in your head;  how long he held you in his arms,  the way he smelled and how soft his voice was not wanting to let go of you. Neither of you wanted to be separated from each other for 3 months but someone needed to watch Petunia and take care of the house, he trusted you the most so you opted to stay home. It seemed like a fairly easy decision at the time, until the first week without him dragged on for what felt like a month. You couldn’t sleep because he held you at night and talked to you until you fell asleep, you couldn’t eat due to the fact that you both cooked together or ordered take out, listening to music was daunting trying to find songs that didn’t remind you of him or how you felt about him.

He called when he had time, texted you every day when he finished a show and when they arrived in the next city. He sent pictures of his outfits before going on stage when he remembered and asked how your day was and how it went no matter how tired he was.

The last time you spoke to him on the phone was almost 4 days ago, the longest you’ve gone without talking to each other. He couldn’t hide how much he missed you if he tried, his voice soft and endearing. You waited until you knew their show was finished and dialed his number, after 3 rings it picked up and he answered, "Hey baby, I was just about to call you."

The sound of his sweet voice made your heart swell, "Oh yeah? I missed hearing your voice."

"I know, I'm sorry I've been in a weird mood lately" He admitted followed by a sigh. You were starting to put the pieces together why you hadn't spoken to you in a while, he hated calling you and bringing your spirits down. That didn't mean that you preferred not hearing from him, hearing from him even if he was feeling down was much better than not hearing from him at all.

"Luke, you could've called me."

"Baby I didn't think you wanted to hear from me." His voice defeated on the other line made your heart ache. You couldn't physically do anything to help him but send your unwavering support.

"Why wouldn't I want to hear from you?" You asked, hoping he'd realize that you wanted to hear from him no matter what.

"I don't know. Hows petunia?" His voice wasn't as animated as it usually was when he asked about her.

Something was up with him and you had a feeling he wasn't going to tell you, "She's good, sleeps on her giant bed in our room."

"Yeah? I'm surprised she doesn't sleep with you." He mentioned followed by yet another sigh.

You were shocked he didn't make a remark about how he missed sleeping next to you. The both of you always said you slept better next to each other than alone.

"She sleeps with me when I'm on the couch, how was the show tonight?"

You could hear him cough and say something to Ashton before answering, "It was good, the crowd new every lyric including our new songs.”

“That’s great, where are you headed tonight?”

It took a minute to respond, “Pittsburg, I think.”

Luke usually knew where he was headed next, at least he tried to. You couldn’t help but wonder what was going on that he was being so secretive, “Luke I’m worried about you.”

“I don’t need you to worry about me! I can take care of myself!” He said angrily before hanging up on you completely. He never hung up on you on purpose, he always said goodbye and I love you, no matter what.

Something was going on with him and you were determined to figure out what, you weren’t sure how you’d figure out what it was. You couldn’t sleep after your conversation with Luke, the way he abruptly ended the conversation scared you in ways you couldn’t explain.

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A week had gone by since your last phone call with Luke, he didn’t even text you to let you know where they were. You asked the boys to let you know if he was okay and safe, it wasn’t him but it was enough for the time being. You longed to hear his voice but you knew bothering him wasn’t going to help, it was hard not blowing up his phone but you wanted him to come to you.

Your phone vibrated against the nightstand waking you up abruptly, you grabbed your phone before it fell on the floor. You answered it before fully waking up and realizing who was even calling you, “Hello?”

“Did I wake you darling?” The familiar voice on the other line alarmed you, she usually texted you causing you to wake up.

“Yes but it’s okay Mrs. Hemmings, are you guys okay?” You asked as you sat up on the matress.

“Call me Liz darlin’. It’s not us I’m calling about. It’s Luke.” She sighed and you got up from the bed in anticipation of what she’d say.

“What about Luke?” You asked nervously as your heart rate sped up by the second.

“He misses you, more than he ever has. Last night’s show didn’t go well and he needs you. He’s not listening to any of the boys.” You weren’t sure how to feel about what Liz told you but you knew what you had to do.

“Thank you for calling me, I didn’t think he missed me that much. I’m gonna fly out there as soon as I can.” You sniffled as you tried to hide your emotions.

“Of course, sorry I woke you. Get some rest okay?” She comforted it before you said your goodbyes. You got out of bed and grabbed your laptop and turned it on illuminating the room. You looked at the tour dates and found the next show, searching various websites before finding a ticket tonight at 8pm. You texted the rest of the boys to inform them of your visit and to not let Luke know so he wouldn’t try and stop you.

After waking up fully you packed your bags and prepared yourself for yourself for what was to come. To your surprise the airport wasn't as busy and your flight was okay as far as flights went, the air was stuffy and the snacks were sub par. When you landed you immediately let the boys know so they could tell you where to go, they sent you the address to the venue and you anxiously sat in the backseat of the uber. Your nerves took over as your hands shook and your heart raced, once the uber dropped you off you grabbed your bags and waited for Ashton to meet you.

“Thank god you’re here, he’s been in a mood all day.” Ashton divulged as he walked with you backstage.

“I hope I can help.”

“Michael and Calum are on the bus to give you both some space.” Ashton mentioned as he stopped in front of the door, he slowly opened it and said “Hey Lu, someone’s here to see you.”

“Maybe I don’t want to see them.” You heard Luke say sassily as Ashton stepped out of the doorway so you could enter the room. Luke was laying down on the couch, looking at his phone. You cleared your throat and his eyes met yours. He sat up straight and cleared his throat, “Baby?”

You closed the door behind you as you walked up to him, “Hi baby, your mom called me.”

He sighed deeply before standing up to meet you, “You didn’t have to come.” His voice defeated as he ran his fingers through his curls.

“Do you not want me here?” It took everything in you not to cry at his words, he looked exhausted

He shook his head and grabbed your hand, your fingers intertwined as he led you to the couch, “Of course I do, I just don’t want you seeing me like this.”

“Why wouldn’t I? Luke talk to me.”

You both sat down on the couch and he let go of your hand slowly, “I’ve just been thinking a lot; you deserve better than me. I’m never home long enough for us to spend the quality time together that we need. I’m not good enough for you, you deserve someone who is always there and giving you everything. I wouldn’t be mad if you wanted a break or didn’t love me.”

“After everything we’ve been through, you still don’t think I love you?” You sighed before holding his face in your hands, “Baby, I’m so in love with you Luke. I love you more than I’ve ever loved anyone in my life. I don’t want anyone else, I want to be with you.”

“I love you so much, I don’t want to be with anyone but you. You deserve the world.”

“You are my world, Luke. You are more than good enough.” You kissed his lips softly as he held your waist.

“I love you.” He whispered on your lips before kissing your lips again, he picked you up bringing you into his lap, “I’m so happy your here, I missed you.”

“I know, I’ll stay as long as you need me.” You wrapped your arms around his neck as he nuzzled his head in your shoulder hugging your waist tight.  

tagging my faves - @sanrioluke @twilightmomentswithyou @blackbutterfliescal @suchalonelysunflower @honeybunchcalum @himbocalum @lukeysdimples

[i-like-5sos]

Red Desert and Wildflower for the CALM asks 😊💖 -blackbutterfliescal💛

Haiiiii Brooke <3

Red Dessert: where is a place in the world you’ve always wanted to go to?

Ireland because I can’t resist an Irish accent and I think it would be fun to fall in love with every man I meet LOL

Wildflower: what’s something you find beautiful?

Irish accents -  jk lol not actually tho... This answer is pretty basic but I love sunsets, fireworks, and anything that sparkles. On a deeper level, I actually love how beautiful it is that people can find meaning in the simplest of things.

CALM questions!

[allsassnoclass]

Okay, I've been thinking about this for a minute bc I was going back an forth between Ashton and Calum. So I decided just to not decide. You're the best mixture of Cashton. I think you're very smart but also pretty introspective and thoughtful about the way you approach things. I also think you tend to be really personal and private in your connections with other people. idk if that makes any sense?? I'm so tired lol. But DEFINITELY Cashton vibes. -blackbutterfliescal💛

this is So Interesting I love the them so I will definitely take it!!!!  what an honor to give off cashton vibes, especially the best mixture of them

which 5sos member’s energy do i radiate the most

[jae-writes-fanfiction]

Hi Jae! 💕 For the fanfic writers asks, #1 for "never coming home" pretty please? I need to know if you set out to make everyone cry or if it Just Kinda Happened -blackbutterfliescal💛

Fanfic Author’s Asks List: 1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

So for that fic event my AU was “ghosts” and at the time I had just finished rewatching the Haunting Of Hill House on Netflix. That heavily influenced the melancholic aspects. Additionally the title comes from MCR’s “The Ghost of You” and that along with their song, “This is how I Dissapear” helped formulate the plot. I spent a lot of time for my degrees studying gothicism and wanted to explore Luke/Ashton’s dynamic within that context.

But yeah also the crying lol

Thanks for asking love! ❤️ ❤️

[clumsyclifford]

✒️💕😘 -blackbutterfliescal💛

[kindahoping4forever]

✨✨✨This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask box of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and out✨✨✨ -blackbutterfliescal💛

Brooke! Tysm 💛💛💛

[ashtonlrwin]

Hi there! 💕 For the album rankings - HS1 -blackbutterfliescal💛

Hi!! 💜

Okay for HS1 my:

Top 2:

1. Two Ghosts

2. Sign of the Times

Bottom 2:

1. From the Dining Table

2. Meet Me in the Hallway

I have more faves on this album than dislikes, this one was difficult thank you love!!

💌 send me an album & i will tell u my top two and bottom two songs

[redrattlers]

Hi love! 💕 If you're still wanting asks: Fine Line 🍉🍓 Also, if you want recs, I literally recommend The Maine to everyone (🤡) but I think you'd enjoy their Lovely, Little, Lonely album. -blackbutterfliescal💛

Love love love The Maine!! Haven’t listened to the full album tho and I will definitely do that!

And Fine Line... boy... what a record!

Top 2:

Fine Line

Golden

Or Adore You?

Or To Be So Lonely?

I CAN’T PICK FAVOURITES

Bottom 2

Treat People With Kindness

Watermelon Sugar (it’s in no way a bad song, just overplayed)

[tirednotflirting]

For the album thing: Four 😊 -blackbutterfliescal💛

fun fact: mY FAVORITE 1D album OH MY GOD

anyway

top 2: where do broken hearts go and fools gold

bottom 2: uhhhhh clouds and illusion

[easierlftv]

7.7.94☆ Happy 26th Birthday Ashton Irwin

[kaleidoscopeminds]

Meg! As the Queen of Cake, can I request “I don’t care if it’s freezing, I want to walk through the park!” + “Your cheeks are rosy and cute.” for those goons? -blackbutterfliescal💛

@blackbutterfliescal hi Brooke!!! queen of cake you’re so cute 🥺 anyway i hope you like this!! autumn vibes with a cheeky bit of dog!sos

“I don’t care if it’s freezing, I want to walk through the park!” Luke says petulantly, dragging Calum out the door with both dog leashes clutched in the other hand. Petunia as per usual is as enthusiastic and bouncing as Luke, Duke however looks at Calum with almost a reproachful look as he’s dragged through the door. 

“I know buddy, I’m sorry,” Calum murmurs, gently pulling the leash out of Luke’s grasp so he can let Duke trot along at a more sedate pace than Luke is setting himself and Petunia down the drive. “Luke, babe, honestly we can just loop round the block, its really fucking cold.”

“But you know the trees are gonna be all red and gold and I want to see them,” Luke calls back, smiling hopefully at Calum. “We can get a coffee on the way?”

Calum smiles and shakes his head, like he needs persuading by a coffee, Luke saying he wants to do something is always enough to motivate Calum, he knew they would be going through the park as soon as Luke had said he fancied it at breakfast. Calum pulls his beanie down over his ears slightly and locks the door behind him, going to join Luke and Petunia where they are waiting impatiently at the end of the drive.

As soon as Calum joins him, Luke slips his smaller hand into Calum’s. 

“Your hand is already ice and we’ve only just left the house,” Calum complains, tucking both of their hands into his coat pocket as they begin to walk down the road. “Why do you never wear gloves?”

“Your hands are always so warm so I don’t need them,” Luke shrugs, looking at Calum sideways and smirking a little, falling into step with Calum.

Calum smiles to himself as he knows Luke is having to consciously shorten his stride to not out pace Calum, and he makes sure his walk is slow enough to not stretch Duke too much. The old man will get tired as soon as they get to the park and Calum will undoubtedly have to carry him home again. The leaves crunch under their feet and the sun beams down on them despite the cold of the morning. 

They reach the park in good time after a quick detour to the coffee shop, and Calum finds a bench in the sunshine to sit with Duke whilst Luke takes Petunia to go and play amongst the trees.

Calum sits and leans back with Duke snuffling around on his lap, tucking his head inside the edge of Calum’s coat. Calum laughs slightly.

“Come on then Sir,” He murmurs to him, wrapping his coat around him before looking up to watch Luke and Petunia.

The morning sun filters through the trees, dappling gold onto the crisp frosty ground, the red and gold leaves looking like flickering flames against the cold of the morning. The golden light bounces off Luke’s blonde curly head illuminating his face ethereally as he stands in a small opening between the trees, throwing a ball for Petunia to fetch that he’d pulled out of his pocket. The sun lights Luke up as he laughs, the slightly red tip of his elfin nose, the pink in his cheeks and the glint of joy in his blue eyes as Petunia races back towards him with the ball in her mouth.

Calum watches him crouch down, folding his long limbs over themselves until he’s on the same level as Petunia, Calum had always found it amazing just quite how small his huge boyfriend could make himself, most at ease curled up on himself, resting his head on a pillow or any available knee, another regard in which him and Petunia are very similar. 

Calum can’t help but smile as he watches Luke kiss Petunia on the forehead, always insisting on giving her a kiss well done every time she returns the ball to him because “how will she know she’s done well otherwise?” and falls a little bit more in love with him every second. After a few throws and Luke chasing her around the trees, Luke looks over to meet Calum’s eyes. Luke’s smile gets impossibly wider and he jogs over towards him, Petunia swiftly on his heels.

“Hi,” Luke says breathlessly as he drops onto the bench next to Calum. Calum just turns towards Luke, threads his fingers into the curls at the base of Luke’s head and pulls him closer to drop a kiss onto his cool lips. Luke tastes like his caramel latte and the November morning, and Calum can feel him start to smile underneath Calum’s lips. Calum pulls away slightly, but only to rub his nose against the pointy tip of Luke’s before kissing him again. Luke begins to giggle as Calum kisses him.

“What’s this for?” Luke murmurs against Calum’s lips. 

“No reason. Maybe I just want to kiss you,” Calum responds, kissing Luke again.  “And your adorable nose,” Calum says, pecking Luke on the tip of his nose. “And your perfect cheekbones.” He brushes his lips over the apex of Luke’s cheeks. 

Luke blushes even pinker and brings his cold fingers up to hold Calum’s face close to his.

“Well, your cheeks are rosy and particularly cute right now,” Luke says smiling, pinching them between his fingers and kissing Calum again. 

“Stop that, your hands are too fucking cold,” Calum complains, but he can’t help but smile.

Luke smirks and before Calum can stop him, he pushes his hands inside the collar of Calum’s coat and presses his fingers against the warmth of Calum’s neck.

Calum lets out a squeak but Luke’s fingers just grip tighter as he tries to squirm away. Duke looks up from his lap at the audacity of Calum moving whilst he’s trying to nap inside his coat.

“Can you keep your stupidly cold raccoon hands to yourself, please,” Calum protests and Luke laughs, tipping his head back and mouth opening wide, curls catching the light again as his eyes shine with unbridled joy. 

“You love me and my raccoon hands,” Luke says smugly, finally removing his hands to wrap his arms around Calum and tuck his hands inside Calum’s coat instead. 

And that he does, Calum thinks to himself with a small smile. Duke drifts back off to sleep on his lap, Petunia lies herself across Luke’s feet and Luke himself rests his head on Calum’s shoulder; as the sun gets higher in the sky, warming them slightly in its glow.

[devilatmydoor]

✒️💞 (i know i'm late, as always lmao) -blackbutterfliescal💛

send me a ✒ & I'll write your url in my handwriting along with a little note about what I think of you

[userbadomens]

MANDIEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!! my beautiful wonderful lovely wife !!! i forgot about spideypool fic so please remind me 😍 xoxo love you -blackbutterfliescal💛

brooke my beautiful wife!! how could you forget about spideypool fic when it was your idea!!!!!!!

so the basic idea i had was like a 5+1 of deadpool ( michael ) getting in the way of spiderman ( luke probably ) while he was fighting villains and then the one time he actually helped out lmao. it's still in the early stages because even though i know plenty about spiderman research is key and i know a lot less about deadpool lmao. i was thinking of maybe doing a like sinister six kind of tie in maybe? like i said, still planning!!!!! thank you for the ask my love xoxo

[jae-writes-fanfiction]

🍃🌺🌙If you receive this you make somebody happy. Go and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get it back even better 🌙🌺🍃 -blackbutterfliescal💛

I just got off of work and this is so sweet!