#bitterdeangirl

[moonlayl]

Season 4 of SPN in a nutshell:

Sam: Heyyyyyy. So lol I drink demon blood from a human corpse that’s possessed by a literal demon from hell. And...I’ve been telling this DEMON all your thoughts and actions, even while perfectly knowing you don’t trust said demon. I’ve also been lying and sneaking behind your back for a whole year and acting like my lies and deception is the same as you not wanting to relive your very real 4+ decades of trauma and pain. Oh and also, this same demon is the one you warned me about and everything i’ve been doing is the one thing you asked me not to do right before you were brutally murdered and dragged to hell to save my life, mmmkay. 

Dean: wtf? You’re drinking people (sorry) DEMON’S BLOOD???? That’s what monsters (the ones we hunt for a living) do!!! It’s wrong! It’s a slippery slope and you need to stop because clearly you’re not thinking rationally about this!! And this demon is so clearly using you! Wake up!

Sam: OMG! You are such an awful brother Dean! You keep bossing me around! I should be allowed to drink whoever’s blood I want. I should be able to have sex with whatever corpse I want. YOU are not seeing the big picture. To teach you a lesson, I’m gonna beat the shit out of you and strangle you just to show you who’s stronger because YOU. ARE. WEAK. YOU can’t do this. YOU shouldn’t be the chosen one. I AM. Because I AM strong. 

Dean: you know what? Maybe screw Sam, alright? Let him screw himself over, why should I care? It’s his mess. *immediately gets victim-blamed and actually calls Sam to say they will always be brothers and tries to save him once again*

*The Last Seal is broken* *Dean is right and the demon was using Sam*

Dean: I’m sorry Sam. I know you’re sorry, I know you’d do things differently if you could. But right now, this is all too fresh and I need space to wrap my head around this. But, in good faith, you can take my impala (that I love very much) 

Fandom: Dean is SUCH an asshole. What an AWFUL brother. How could he push Sam away? He’s been SO unsupportive of Sam’s lying and blood drinking (cough cannibalism cough) activities. Sam is the true victim here. How DARE Dean need space from Sam even though Sam hurt him? How DARE Dean not immediately forgive and forget and pretend like nothing happened! #DeanIsAbusive 

[electric-sympathy]

So the real tragedy of Supernatural has been unmasked: Somehow, an entire production company let a man spend 4 seasons televising his character bashing fanfiction.

Because that’s what this is, you guys realize that now, right? He got the reins and got to torture Dean relentlessly until he finally murdered him for nothing. All that suffering Dean went through? Yeah, the suffering itself was the only point. None of it lead to anything. No grand schemes, no morals, no nothing. Just a pathetic neckbeard living out his hateful, embarrassing, poorly written fantasies.

[jensenkai]

wtf? I am so sick of how everything is dean's responsibility on spn .sam just blewd dean's saying up as usual.everythig sam made mistake is happned by not listening to dean.i dont blame sam for it i blame fangirl like u to make your fav good one overshadow real dean dose and he is.😈😈

and another thing: i hate how it’s implied that it’s sam’s fault because people are definitely going to be blaming him for not listening to his brother when dean told him that the visions weren’t coming from god or for going to hell without dean after he said he wouldn’t

but what was sam supposed to do? dean gave no options or alternative suggestions besides “no. it’s not happening. they can’t be from god” and then shutting down the conversation. rowena made it seem like going to hell was a time sensitive thing and dean wasn’t picking up his phone. what other options did sam have? he was terrified and he felt isolated and alone

i don’t think dean is at fault either but i would just like to point out that this was not sam’s fault

[bitterdeangirls]

You know? I just once wished Dean had told Sam off for all the crap he has done to him. Made it clear that if he ever, for example, lied to him again, he would be gone. Maybe then Dean wouldn't get stepped over again and again by the brother he gives all he has for.

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[deanirae]

ok u know what......... things are ass and also boring..........let’s return to s6 rewatch since i can’t do jack shit anyway. i’ll have u know i got lots bitterdeangirl thoughts already [and pregodstiel thoughts] but ur all friggin lucky i have no humane way of typin em out lmao

later dudessssssss

[lol-jackles]

If there's a bitter contest between bittersamgirl and bitterdeangirl, who's gonna win? From what you've seen. (yeah I know bittercasgirl exist, but I feel that's for another day, maybe?)

That’s a toughie.  In the contest of the angry, hurt, resentful fans with hyper sense unjust treatment, the bitter Deangirls edge out the bitter Samgirls by thismuch.  Congratulations bitter Deangirls, you won on my blog!

[exitpursuedbyasloth]

"Aw yiiis, Cas and Crowley traveling together and bickering about who loves Dean more, so much Destiel, can't wait!". "How about they just give us scenes between Dean and Cas like in the past?". "Noooooo! Subtext! Dean isin't in the right space yet! Subtex is good eneough! They're finally giving us Destiel!" "But". "Subxtex!"

“Oh look, goody, they’re allowing us to have our own interpretations of the characters, so long as we keep it in our own heads! They’re allowing me to have my own thoughts and feelings! Subtext is text, it’s right there in the word!! I love breadcrumbs, it’s basically the same thing as actual bread!! Who are the writers to define love? I mean, they define hetero love/lust all the time, but gay love is an unknowable ether, smoke in the darkness, how could they possibly SHOW queer romance?!?!? I mean, other than actually showing queer romance, two dudes hugging and kissing and making with the sex and cuddling under fine cashmere blankets and getting into dumb fights at IKEA and actually being involved in each other’s lives and struggles and not RIVERBOAT GAMBLING. You know, like how they show hetero romance. And not hidden behind winks and nods like it’s 1939 and Will H. Hays just pulled up to the studio.”

“Destiel is totally canon, so long as I ignore what actually happened in canon, and what TPTB have said about what actually happened in canon. I have a solid understanding of what queer rep is. It’s when two dudes bang a bunch of ladies (who are usually woefully underwritten because sexism), but sometimes they will look at the other dude and have a dude moment. How can you get more explicit queer representation than that?!”

“[Long gross diatribe about how we got our queer rep with Crowley, because of that one time he possessed a woman and raped all her neighbors while in her body.]”

 “I love when media shows me that my love needs to be hidden from view lest it offend the peoples. That my love dare not see the light of day, that it should stay firmly in the closet and not offend anyone by existing alongside heterosexual romance. That my love cannot be shown. Unlike that wholesome love between Cas and his rapist. Or Dean and a slutty little poodle or unwilling stripper or frightened crying woman who already told him she didn’t want to have sex. Or the sexy heat between an unwilling Cas and his sister. Or just anything about Busty Asian Beauties. Or the sweet romance between a sexy baby temptress and her unwilling babysitter she forces to be attracted to her.”

“There’s no such thing as queerbaiting! I mean, I know you can totally quantify it, and point out many examples, chart that shit like a motherfucka, but you know, it’s not a thing. Because reasons. Most of which involve me not being able to deal with the magnitude of Hollywood’s ingrained homophobia, which is such a juggernaut even queer media creators perpetrate it, cause hahaha I have to pretend it’s not there or it’s gonna kill me on the inside ahahahahoh fuck.”

[crowleygal]

Its hard for me to sometimes put thoughts into words, so Im going to try. First yes, I admit to being a card carrying Dean gal and I won't apologize for that. So yes, that plays into why I want Dean to be the one to dispatch Amara, but its more that that. More than anything I think Dean's character needs a win. A win for Dean, not a win for Sam is the same as a win for Dean. *I also want to say that some of the things I'm saying isn't how I personally feel about Dean but am expressing frustration at the writers. I love to watch Figure skating and one of my favorite skaters was Kristy Yamaguchi. After she won the worlds and the olympic gold, she retired. She was still at the top of her game and when asked why she said, I have nothing left to prove. This is really where Sam is at. There really is no where left to take the character. He's had multiple reluctant hero journeys, he's got to prove his strength after hell and taking on Lucifer, and prove himself to Dean with the trials. He even got to confront Lucifer this season and a few other demons. What's left for Sam to really do? What's the point of giving Sam another "look how he suffers isn't he so strong storyline." (if they are) The character has done it all. This is the problem that makes it hard to root for Sam. He isnt' the underdog anymore. When things like the trials comes up its automatically Sam (confirmed by the writers. Dean wasn't considered). When this episode description came up many people I guessed that it would end up being Sam saving the day half dead. Its exactly what happened. I have not been a fan of the way they are writing Dean this year. I find the character far too passive. May times he seems like he's just there while Sam does the lions share of the lifting. He's been the "witness" Its like Dean's lost his spark. The writers reduced him for this complex, multilayered, 3-D character to one that only worries about Sam and that he's crap and only Sam matters. We even had an entire episode written this season that seemed to be written just to tell us how awesome Sam is and how great it is to take care of him and how only he can do things. Things like this make it hard to see Sam as the underdog. When I watch Dean, I feel like in some ways the character has given up. There is this real air of hopelessnes about him. It's a lot like s7. When they did the depression story line. At first I was intrigued because Dean's mental state was always interesting to me, but it progressed exactly like I thought it would. They dumped more grief and guilt on him and then told him to suck it up and stop being a nancy. I keep hoping it might be storyline related that we'll find out his apathy is because Amara messed with him, but it sounds like the writers have no clue what they're doing with that storyline. It speaks volumes when a huge plot point, like Amara not being able to take Dean's soul, or deciding not to, that they are perfectly happy to let Dean decide. If you really look at Dean's storyline's most of them set him up to fail. Going to hell, he broke and opened the first seal. With the nature of the show Lisa/Ben could only end with Dean leaving them or them getting hurt, taking on the mark it was only a matter of time before he gave into it. Whether the writers realize it or not they did Dean a huge disservice at the end of Love Hurts. While I can admit their intent was to show Sam being supportive he really wasn't. When someone feels like they can't do something, doing it for them is one of the worst things you can do because it just reinforces the person's belief. All the writers did here was tell Dean he wasn't good enough. Being truly supportive is "I have faith in you Dean. I know you can act when the time comes." Another lesson about letting Sam go, (if the writers go that route) is only going to end in another failure for the character. Because we know that Sam will come back next season, probably have something wrong with him, which only increases Dean's guilt and worry and make him cling tight to Sam again. Which is why this can only end in more character regression. Whats the point of making the character learn this lesson (again) when we know it won't stick. Dean needs to gain some self esteem. The show never gives Dean a chance to confront his demons. They never give him that big moment to show his strength. If they have Sam been the chosen one again while Dean is a witness, again its just lather, rinse and repeat. I think the character needs to get out of the rut he's been in and move forward and come to realize that he matters as much as Sam. He needs that opportunity to prove himself.

[moonlayl]

The Supernatural writers decided that the best way to end Dean Winchester’s story was to kill him. To reduce him to nothing outside of Sam. They decided that killing  a character who has continuously struggled with low-self esteem, sacrificial tendencies, and mental illness was the only way for him to rest. He was killed on an average hunt by a nameless extra monster of the week, and by being pushed to a wall and impaled. Years of development gone; ignored; erased. Hunting was dangerous, and due to Dean’s upbringing and low self esteem, he had accepted that dying an a hunt would be the only way to go. But that was at the beginning. That was when Dean was at his worst. Dean did not want death. Dean wanted life. He wanted to live. The beach, new experiences, a dog, he wanted all of it. And he got it for maybe a second before it was all ripped away. Eighty years, and he finally became free, only to immediately die. Only for his entire characterization to become about Sam and only Sam. His dying scene? Going on and on about how great Sam was. His time in heaven? Spent aimlessly driving, waiting for Sam. He was the most affected by Chuck’s reveal that he was nothing but a puppet all these years. So devastated and broken. And he finally won. They defeated Chuck. He became free. Free to write his own story. And then he died. The writers chose to do that. They choose to write about Free Will, and terrible heaven, and addressing the bad codependency, and then do absolutely nothing about it. They chose to write an ending for him using a very basic surface level of understanding about what kind of character Dean was. Dean Winchester, one of the most beautifully complex fictional characters ever established deserved better than these writers. Jensen Ackles who portrayed Dean for 15 years and was the sole reason that Dean became more than just your average stereotypical cocky, playboy, badass, deserved better than these writers. Better than the message they choose to send. Better than the ending they chose to write. We deserved better.

[moonlayl]

This show literally as early as episode six of season one told us about how a part of Dean had always longed for a life and to live, but couldn’t and refused to dwell on those fantasies because he believed it wasn’t possible, and then fifteen years later, we are shown that it IS possible, and that he CAN have that, but they still kill him off and he still dies the same way he’s always been expected to believe he would. Dean Winchester deserved better

[electric-sympathy]

Seems like all the novel gen fanfic I ever see these days is all about Sam. Strange creature turning? Sam. Unusual vessel powers? Sam. Endowed with spooky abilities from a supernatural incident? Sam. Etc....

Somebody give me prompts for something strange to do with Dean. 

Hell I could even go off of an unusual food or energy source with no specific monster type attached. Even a single feature you find cool. Any unformed idea you want. I love building monsters.

Please mind the Gen, I will literally dropkick you if you ask for ships.

[electric-sympathy]

Damn imagine being such a pathetic piece of inhuman, robotic shit that you think unceremoniously, shamefully murdering the beating heart of a show is a good ending. Then sending him off to be a Stepford wife and not resolving “Heaven” being a shitscape at all. I feel like Dabb has simply never been through any personal hardship at all. He doesn’t understand people, he doesn’t understand family, he doesn’t understand abuse, religion, monsters, horror, or writing, and he sure as shit doesn’t understand death.

I genuinely believe he thinks the state of Heaven in SPN isn’t a big deal and doesn’t get why Dean had a problem with it, so he just shoved that bit of the show out of his way. Why did I expect anything more emotionally intelligent from this sociopath that thought it was cool to get Dean reamed by a fake psychologist for mourning his mother? I suppose I expected it to be more bombastically bad, and not this depressing oatmeal sandwich of a finale.

“It subverts expectations where Dean just dies tragically to a mook while Sam gets everything Dean ever wanted, s-s-s-o it good.”

What a fucking chimp.

I guess it’s in line for him to break Dean as badly as possible for almost 5 seasons, then look at the toy he broke in disgust and then just throw it in the trash for being broken instead of doing anything to fix it. I guess that’s what this is: He didn’t want to expend any of his soap opera hours to help Dean in any way for any reason, so he’s just leaving all the arcs unfinished and wrapping it up in the laziest way possible: By eliminating him. And he couldn’t even throw Dean’s deepest wants, like a family, into that Heaven with him. No nods, no characterization, just Dean gone into a bland baby’s first supernatural episode for Sam to stare at.

[bitterdeangirls]

Dean has always been used, lied to, betrayed,hurt and more, by his family. Sam and John always used him for their benefits. Dean is obviously so much broken and damaged, its painful to watch. And it's never stopping.

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[bitterdeangirls]

Hey there! I love this blog! Need more bitter! Dean fans to interact with...

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[crowleygal]

Does anyone else feel like Dean just got earased from his own storyline? Is anyone going to remember that Dean already tried to kill Amara. If he had the right weapon Amara would be dead. All this ending did was basically leave Dean on the sidelines again. With Sam geeting another big damn hero/save the world moment. For once I'd like Dean be allowed to face his demons instead of being told how weak he is and needs to sit it out and let Sam take care of it. It's season 8 all over again