#bit sad for yuki if it is true

[f1ormulaone]

Is it confirmed, or just the usual murmurings?

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[himeryu]

Novels 02 (Kamisato Ayato x Reader)

CH NOTES: arranged marriage, emotional cheating, neglect, unhealthy relationship, sad ending, hurt no comfort, heavy angst, slight ooc

PAIRING: Ayato x GN!Reader (Fem terms might be used accidentally)

SUMMARY: Ayato x Fiance! Reader but you’re a hopeless romantic to your fiance who is in love with another.

A/N: inspired by Movies by Conan Gray

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I. “Why do you keep avoiding Yuki?” Ayato says with contempt, making you flinch at the tone of his voice. Kamisato Ayato is angry, all because of her. Your heart drops at the thought, yet you can’t help but feel a surge of negative emotions. Recently there have been rumors circulating about Kamisato Ayato and Kaedahara Yuki: rumors of Infidelity. 

You heard of the rumors accidentally during a social party. Before the mask came crashing down, Kamisato Ayato would clarify every rumor regarding the commission. However, despite hearing the distasteful rumor in-person, he stayed still, deciding to stay ignorant. 

You stood still as you stared at him in disbelief. Thoughts of questions about his purpose and why he is feigning ignorance circulate in your head. You felt ill, those rumors would damage his and your reputation, something that you both hold dear. But, he stood still, almost like he was enjoying the rumors. 

Why? why? WHY?

That was until everything came into place. You snapped your head away from his figure, painfully smiling to yourself as you finally understood why he was feigning ignorance. The gossipers would continue till Lady Kaedahara Yuki would personally tell them that it isn’t true. Curiously, you glanced at the commissioner, and oh how you would regret doing that. 

His smile was forced, and his gaze held a bit of disappointment. You stare at him in disbelief, your heart shattering even more. God, Kamisato Ayato broke your heart once more, what did you do to deserve this? 

But, you can’t help but laugh at the irony.

You and Kamisato Ayato have one thing in common: you both enjoy your delusions of being loved by the person you wish they hold you dear. 

Kamisato Ayato’s love for Kaedahara Yuki is unrequited. 

“[Name], I asked you a question,” says Ayato, snapping you back to reality. 

“Ah. I’m sorry, I was just lost in thought,” you continue, putting on a small smile to hide your thoughts, “What did you say?”

“Why do you keep avoiding Yuki?”

God, he says her name with so much endearment it’s making you want to cry. 

“Oh? I have never avoided Lady Yuki,” you reply with a smile. 

It’s a lie, of course. You have been avoiding the former Kaedahara heir ever since her return to Inazuma. Though, it isn’t exactly avoiding, it is more like not meeting her unless needed. Furthermore, you and Kaedahara Yuki have not been acquainted before, so there was no reason to greet her. 

However, the truth is, you can’t face her— your fiance's one-sided crush. She’s beautiful, charismatic and a person blessed by God, everything that you are not. 

You fear that one day, jealousy would taint your mind and only her highness, the shogun, would know what you would do. After all, jealousy is a deadly disease that taints both the mind and heart, a disease that could only be cured by love. But, you don’t have that luxury, do you?

Ayato sighs with frustration as he runs his fingers through his hair. “Whatever you say,” he dismisses your defense, “Don’t make her feel bad ever again.”

And so, he leaves, leaving you once more once again.

II. As a child, you have always dreamed of a grand wedding. You, standing side by side with your lover as they look at you with a loving expression as you swear your love in front of all your friends and family; And the wedding garment of your dreams adorning your body, making you radiate like you bathed in fairy dust. 

The grand wedding of your dreams should be the day you would only feel happiness, and nothing else. 

So, you await for the day that someone would give you the wedding of your dreams, someone who would give you the world just because you asked for it. And the day you met your fiance, you believed that he would be the one to do so.

Yet impressions are different from their true human nature. The impressions you perceive from people are nothing but ideas you created in your head to fill in the lack of information you have regarding that person. The impressions you formed would then form a mask that would cunningly cover your judgment towards that person, staying ignorant to his ‘true’ nature. 

Kamisato Ayato’s ‘mask’ was never there, your perception of people was just too naive and immature to handle a cunning man like the commissioner; it could not perceive Kamisato Ayato’s ‘true’ nature. But, who are you to blame? That man is cunning like a snake, crawling onto your skin as it makes you succumb to naivety. Therefore, you got yourself fooled and your hopes went up all because of your naivety and ignorance; Your impression on that man ruined your life.

Your dream wedding shattered in an instance, and your dreams for a happy future disappeared. Life has never been a rosy path with Archons smiling down at you as you obtain your happiness– so your experience is only natural, right? 

‘This is reality,’ you would say to yourself, trying to cope with your indescribable distress, ‘Life should be nothing like the novels I’ve read.’ 

Your love for reading starts to dissipate, replaced with a sense of hatred. You hate reading, it was the reason why you were so naive, so caught up with the illusions that you ruined your perception towards people.

You can’t do this anymore, you can’t star in a play you didn’t want to be in. 

You have to leave, you need to. 

You would rather die than spend the rest of your life chained towards someone who sees you as a nuisance in his unrequited love. 

But, How?

How can you, a sheltered child who only knows how to drown themselves in fantasies, run away from your family, friends…

Ayato?

You pitifully laugh at yourself, tears welling up in the corners of your eyes. 

You’re pathetic.  

You need to change. 

III. “I’m worried about Master [Surname],” Ayaka confesses with her head down. Ever since the Irodori festival, she has seen less and less of her future in-law which makes her worried. Kamisato Ayaka adores you, much to her brother’s surprise. The two would usually converse over tea about the latest release from Yae’s Publishing House, laughing and joking around about how the latest chapter was out of your expectations. 

Kaedahara Yuki listens to the younger Kamisato intently. Truth be told, she is curious about Kamisato Ayato’s, her childhood friend, Fiance, after all, she has never conversed with the aristocrat. Furthermore, you would be wed into a family that she considers her own, so who could blame her? Though, she has heard of you from a distance: the high-ranking aristocrat from the prestigious [Surname] family who is known to be collected and benevolent, delicate like a flower on top of a lake. 

Every time she asks Kamisato Ayato about his fiance, he would brush it off and discuss their childhood memories, dismissing her curiosity. She would press Kamisato Ayato for details about his fiance, even begging him to introduce her to her. But as usual, Kamisato Ayato would dismiss her attempts, making her feel down. 

But, if the oldest Kamisato can’t give her any information, shouldn't she ask from the youngest?

“I haven’t seen Master [Surname] since the Irodori Festival and it is making me worried,” Ayaka sighs, her expression down. 

“Have you tried contacting them?”

“I did try to request an audience with them, but the servants said that they wish to be alone,” Ayaka pouts. “Have you ever seen them, Lady Yuki?”

Kaedahara Yuki blushes in embarrassment, “Oh Ayaka. Please don’t use ‘Lady’ to me anymore. I am no longer part of nobility.”

Ayaka giggles. 

And so, Kamisato Ayaka stops talking about you.

Kaedahara Yuki isn’t cunning, so she does not press the youngest Kamisato anymore answers despite her curiosity; Though, if it was Ayato, she would continue to demand answers till her throat sores. 

However, if an opportunity ever occurs where she could meet you, she would grasp that opportunity immediately, paying no mind to the effects it has on others.

IV. “Aren’t you Master [Surname]?” ask Kaedahara Kazuha as you nervously avoid his gaze.

Oh fuck.

You messed up. 

For the first time, you decided to take a stroll on the streets of Inazuma late at night alone. You know this is a stupid decision, especially for someone as high as yourself. However, you needed a breather, and your family estate started to feel suffocating, so your only plan is to take a stroll alone. You knew your parents wouldn’t allow you to walk around the streets of Inazuma at night, especially without an escort, so sneaking out was only the option.

So, you hatched your plan. Though it was your first time sneaking out, you’ve read countless novels of the heroine running away to enjoy themselves in festivals. Hence, you have an idea of how to sneak out. 

It was 10:30 PM, nearing midnight. You disguise yourself using old clothes you stole from your servant, stripping all your jewelry in your possession, and only keeping a few silver coins. Sneakily, you slid past your servants and guards, climbing out of your estate’s wall. It took you a few tries due to your lack of physical strength; however, after some attempts, you succeeded. You quickly run away from your estate; The cool night breeze brushes your face as the song of the trees accompanies you on your journey. You smile to yourself-- for the first time in your life-- you felt free. 

However, your adrenaline rush was caught short as you spotted a man with silver hair in the distance. 

You tried your best to avoid him, but the man has the wind by his side. And so, here you are.

 

You awkwardly laugh, “Kaedahara Kazuha, it is a pleasure to meet you.” 

Kaedahara Kazuha stays quiet; his eyes are wide in shock as he notices your tattered clothing and unkempt appearance. You are a person of high regard, never in your life have you worn poor-quality garments and presented yourself unsightly. Even as a young child, Kaedahara Kazuha could only observe you from a distance due to the immense status gap, despite being a former aristocrat. Therefore, he can’t help but be shocked at your appearance. 

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...

'Ah. I am doomed.' You thought. Today is your first time sneaking out of your estate, and you got caught. Sweat rolls down your cheek as you wait for the younger Kaedahara to reply. Numerous thoughts fill your mind as you wait, countless of which was fueled by anxiety. 

'What if he tells on me?' 'If he ever tells this to Ayato, would I be disposed of for being improper?' 'If my family finds out, I would never be allowed to step foot outside of my family estate.'

Your expression darkens as you fall into despair, realizing the gravity of the situation. For the first time, you felt free, no longer trapped in a well-decorated cage like an ornament for display. However, you got caught. 

Suddenly, Kaedahara Kazuha speaks. 

"Don't worry," he says as you slowly look up at him, "I won't tell anyone." Your mouth was slightly ajar, confused. "Huh?" You mutter. 

Kazuha smiles, "Everyone has their reasons for running away." 

"But I'm not running away," you refute. Kazuha looks at you confused, "Huh?" 

"I'm just here for a stroll," you state. 

"Ah." Kazuha rubs the back of his neck, embarrassed, "I apologize for the assumption."

"It's alright," you smile. 

An awkward silence fills the air as you two refrain from talking. Truth be told, this is Kaedahara Kazuha's first time conversing with you; moreover, he is not one to chat with children from other aristocratic families-- that was his sister's job. Due to this, he does not know what to say. 

Regardless, this does not stop him from worrying. Why? Probably because you are his former superior's fiance? Who knows. Furthermore, Kazuha knows better than to leave you alone at night. Though you are wearing old and poor-quality clothes, your aura screams "rich noble", which can make you a target for petty thieves. 

So, Kaedahara Kazuha makes a decision. 

"I won't tell anyone," He repeats. "However, please allow me to accompany you, master [Name]." 

a/n: crazy how this took me like a year to update lol sorry

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[Fic] Aikoto Secret Santa 2024

Note: Written for the 2024 Secret Santa at the Aikoto Discord I run! I was vgf88’s Secret Santa, and he requested: “Makoto does his best to make Aigis’s first Christmas the best it can be.” Here’s my best attempt at it!

Title: Oh, look how they shine for you Word Count: 3940 words

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“Makoto-san, I know this may seem sudden, but did you have a nice Christmas?”

Aigis must notice his confusion because she smiles, a pang of sadness in her eyes.

“I recently read that here in Japan, Christmas is to be spent with friends and with… someone special to you,” she explains, gaze darting to her hands. “I know the circumstances were not ideal, but it’d mean a lot to me to know you were able to make precious memories despite… well, everything.”

Makoto stares at her, thoughts going back to December. It wasn’t a joyous month, that’s for sure, but that’s not really the reason why he didn’t do anything for Christmas.

That reason is sitting before him now, self-consciously rearranging her bangs while she waits for him to reply.

Makoto swallows, sticking his hands inside his pockets to fight off the sudden urge to touch her.

“You’ve never celebrated Christmas, have you, Aigis?” He asks instead.

She blinks her pretty eyes at him, looking more at ease.

“I can’t say that I have. But I’m sure I will be able to do so this year, once we have secured our future.”

Aigis smiles brightly at him, encouraging and full of hope. Makoto finds that same hope blooming in his heart, and he makes up his mind right then and there.

He doesn’t want to wait that long.

Not if it means seeing her smile like that.

The next day, he borrows a few Christmas-themed magazines from Bunkichi and Mitsuko. He doesn’t know what he should go for, so he decides to go for a little bit of everything.

And so, Makoto gets to work.

First, he enlists the help of the most reliable person he knows.

“Christmas, you say?”

Makoto nods, reaching for his cup of tea.

“Yeah. I thought it’d be nice to do something together before the fight, and since Christmas kind of flew under-the-radar, why not do it right?”

“I see. It’s true we were all too preoccupied to think much of it, and it would be a nice change of pace,” Mitsuru agrees, thoughtful. Her eyes meet his over the border of her teacup, a smile playing on her lips. “I must say, you never cease to surprise me, Yuki. I never took you for the kind to care about Christmas.”

He looks away.

“I’m not.”

Mitsuru arches an eyebrow at that. “Oh?”

“…Aigis told me she has never celebrated Christmas before. That’s where I got the idea,” he admits, hoping it sounds less revealing than it does in his head.

“How thoughtful of you, Yuki. C’est magnifique!” Mitsuru chuckles, setting her teacup back on the table. “Very well, leave it to me. I’ll secure the tree and the decorations, as well as an appropriate menu. It may be late, but let’s make this an unforgettable Christmas for Aigis and for all of us, shall we?”

Makoto smiles back, relaxing. Now that Mitsuru is on his side, his plan suddenly seems more attainable.

“Let’s.”

Next, he recruits some partners-in-crime.

“Dude?! Who are you and what have you done with Makoto?”

“Junpei-san…” Ken mutters, shaking his head.

“Christmas, huh? And Mitsuru agreed to it?” Akihiko ponders, crossing his arms over his chest. “Alright, count me in.”

“I’m in as well,” Ken says, sheepishly scratching his cheek. “I’ve kind of missed it. Celebrating Christmas, I mean.”

Junpei pumps his fist up in the air, looking more excited than Makoto has seen him in a while.

“This is gonna be the best Christmas ever! Leave the decorating to Santa Junpei and his Reindeers, Makoto!”

Akihiko and Ken looks less than impressed at that.

“…His reindeers?”

“Please tell me he doesn’t mean us…”

With a chuckle, Makoto leaves them to it, shoulders considerably lighter now that he has their help.

By the time he sets-out to recruit his assistants, both of them already know all about it.

“We’ve been wondering what you’d like us to help with, Yuki-kun,” Fuuka tells him.

“If you want us to keep an eye on the guys, just say the word. Who knows what the dorm will end up looking like if you leave all the decorations to them,” Yukari adds with a playful eye roll.

“Actually,” Makoto starts, taking a hand to the back of his neck despite himself, “I had something different in mind.”

“Now I’m even more curious!” Fuuka giggles. “What is it, Yuki-kun?”

Truth be told, Makoto has kind of been dreading this moment. He knows there’s no way that what he’s about to say will sound like a normal, friendly gesture, but he has gotten this far and he can’t afford to get cold-feet now.

He steels himself, holding back a sigh.

“…This is going to be Aigis’ first Christmas, so I was wondering if you could help her find something appropriate to wear. I’ll pay for it.”

As expected, the girls don’t seem to miss it. Yukari’s eyebrows shoot up so high that they almost disappear into her hairline. Meanwhile, Fuuka just stands there gaping at him, her mouth forming a perfect o.

Makoto thinks nothing could possibly be worse than this.

Well, except maybe Nyx.

Maybe.

Yukari seems to get over it first. She clears her throat, shifting her weight from one foot to another.

“Y—you mean, you want us to take Aigis shopping?”

“…Yeah.”

“W—we’d be happy to! Right, Yukari-chan?” Fuuka chimes in, clasping her hands.

“…Duh!” Yukari gives him a thumbs-up. “You’ve come to the right place, Mister! We’ll find Aigis the cutest clothes.”

They—thankfully—leave it at that, but Makoto can practically feel the knowing look they exchange as soon as he turns his back on them.

…Oh, well.

He guesses there is no avoiding it, either way. After seeing him go through all this trouble, it wouldn’t take a genius to figure out that he—

“Woof!”

With a start, Makoto raises his face to find Koromaru trotting towards him.

“Woof, woof!”

He kneels down, smiling.

“Hey, there. I haven’t forgotten you, if that’s what you think.” He scratches Koromaru behind the ear, right in the spot he knows he likes. “…I have a special mission for you.”

“Woof?”

Makoto’s smile widens.

“Something only you can do, Koromaru.”

They only have a week to prepare, and they do so quietly and discretely.

Or, well, as discretely as they can muster.

Somehow, the only blunder happens one afternoon when Makoto and Aigis come back from school and run into Junpei messing around with a Santa hat and its matching beard.

It is entirely to Junpei’s credit that Aigis doesn’t seem to find this weird at all.

When January 30 finally rolls around, Makoto does his part, making sure to stall Aigis to give everyone enough time to prepare the dorm.

“Aigis, would you mind giving us a hand with the Student Council today?”

The Student Council never meets on Saturdays, but Odagiri and Chihiro were happy at the idea of getting more work done—especially if it meant doing him a service.

“I’d love to, Makoto-san,” Aigis says, just like he was hoping she would. “Please, lead the way.”

“Oh, Yuki-kun, Aigis-san. Come on in, we've been expecting you,” Odagiri welcomes them. As per usual, he is standing at the front of the classroom, arms crossed across his chest.

Aigis politely bows as Makoto closes the door behind them.

“Thank you for having me.”

“We're the ones who should be thanking you, Aigis-san. We appreciate you being willing to help us,” Chihiro says, standing up to properly return Aigis' bow. “Please, take a seat.”

As Chihiro guides Aigis through the different tasks, Makoto walks over to Odagiri.

“I owe you one,” he whispers, smiling at his friend.

Odagiri grins.

“Don't even mention it.”

The sun has just begun to set when they start towards the dorm. As if on cue, his phone vibrates with an e-mail from Yukari.

‘Everything’s all set! You two can come home now :)’

‘Thanks. We’re on our way.’

Makoto breathes a sigh of relief, pocketing back his phone. He risks a look at Aigis, deliberately schooling his expression to not give anything away. Luckily, Aigis isn’t looking at him; her stare is set on the ground, her lips curled up in a smile filled with contentment.

The same smile she tends to wear every time they walk home together, Makoto notices, his chest swelling with fondness.

“Surprise!”

When Makoto opens the door to the dorm, a mix of greens and reds greets them; their friends gathered at the centre of it, dressed in their best clothes.

Brightly coloured lights hang on the walls and garlands on the counter; the glass-panes are decorated with wreaths and stockings, and both the dining and coffee tables are covered in various dishes.

A big Christmas tree wraps up the scene. It stands proud and tall before the bulletin board, a Jack Frost doll at the top in place of the usual star.

“Everyone…!” Aigis gasps, her face lit up in surprise. “This is…”

“Absolutely amazing, ain’t it?” Junpei grins, gesturing around them. “I swear we’ve put the Paulownia Mall to shame right here!”

“Someone told us you’ve never celebrated Christmas before, Aigis…” Mitsuru starts with a chuckle and a meaningful glance at Makoto.

“…So we all figured there was no time like the present,” Akihiko continues, nodding so enthusiastically that his Christmas hat almost slips off his head.

“It’s a good chance for us, too,” Ken adds, eyeing Akihiko with amusement.

Fuuka giggles. “That’s right! We didn’t get to celebrate Christmas together last year, after all.”

“Woof, woof!”

“Merry January Christmas, Aigis!” Yukari cheers, walking towards them to link her arm with Aigis’. “Let’s get you all dolled up now, yeah? You come with us, too, Mitsuru-senpai, Fuuka!”

“You should go get changed too, dude!” Junpei tells Makoto, handing him a Christmas hat. “And you better put this on, you hear me? I even got Kirijo-senpai to wear one, so no buts!”

“Maaaaaan what’s taking them so long!”

Akihiko shrugs. “Beats me.”

“I guess it would be nice if they could be a little faster,” Ken mutters, “Yuki-san didn’t even take ten minutes.”

Junpei jumps to his feet, marching towards the stairs.

“I’m gonna go get them! We… can’t just…”

Hearing him trail of, Makoto looks up just in time to see Yukari and Fuuka walking down the stairs with Mitsuru in tow.

“Sorry for the wait, everyone!” Yukari grins, turning back to call over her shoulder, “Come on, don’t be shy, Aigis!”

“Um, r—right…”

Makoto’s heart gives a start. Before he even knows what he’s doing, he’s getting up, his feet carrying him towards the sound of her voice.

When his eyes land on her, that very same heart suddenly starts pounding.

Aigis is beautiful, he has always known that. But tonight, dressed in a long-sleeved gold dress that brings out the striking blue in her eyes, she is so ethereal that it’s almost painful.

“Whoa, Ai-chan…” Junpei manages, just barely. Makoto can empathize.

“When Yukari-san and Fuuka-san insisted we went shopping, I wasn’t expecting this,” Aigis admits, flustered. “Don't I look… odd?”

“Of course not, silly! You look beautiful. Right, Yuki-kun?”

“…Yeah.” It comes out sounding a little choked, a little breathless. So Makoto clears his throat and tries again, eyes locked with Aigis’. “…You look beautiful, Aigis.”

Her face brightens, a rosy hue taking to her cheeks.

“Well, then… I’m glad you think so, Makoto-san.”

Junpei looks from one to the other with raised brows.

“Uh, did I miss something or…?”

Yukari promptly elbows him in the side.

“Hey, are you all done over there?” Akihiko calls back from the couch, clueless. “I thought we were supposed to take a picture together!”

“Huh? Oh, yeah! I almost forgot!” Junpei snaps to attention, a grin quickly spreading across his lips. “Since Ai-chan wasn’t there for the last one, I thought it’d be cool to take another group picture!”

“That’s a great idea, Iori,” Mitsuru approves, walking to Yukari’s side. “A lot has changed since then. It’d be good to have a picture of us as we are now.”

“Senpai…” Yukari perks up, smiling up at her.

“In that case, I’ll print a copy for each of us,” Fuuka offers, adjusting her Santa hat.

Together, the five of them walk towards the Christmas tree, where they’re joined by Akihiko, Ken and Koromaru.

This time, when the timer goes off, they’re all looking at the camera—genuine happiness on their faces.

The rest of the night is a blur of laughter and great food, courtesy of the Kirijo Group.

Everyone seems determined to make the night last for as long as possible, but after the second Christmas cake, things naturally start to quiet down.

Mitsuru, Yukari and Fuuka are sharing a cup of green tea, while Akihiko, Ken and Junpei passionately discuss which Christmas-cake flavour deserves to be number one in the hearts of the Japanese population.

Meanwhile, Makoto and Aigis are sitting together with Koromaru, just enjoying each other’s company.

Wise beyond his years, their loyal companion chooses that very moment to spring to action.

“Woof, woof!” He barks at Aigis’ feet.

“Oh! It seems Koromaru-san wants to go for a walk.”

“I’ll join you, Aigis,” Makoto says, sending Koromaru a grateful glance that earns him another bark.

No one seems to suspect anything and, luckily, they all seem too cosy to volunteer to join them, so the three of them set out into the cold January night.

“Woof, woof!”

“Koromaru-san says that he would like to take a different route tonight,” Aigis translates. At Makoto’s nod, she chuckles and bends down to scratch Koromaru behind the ears. “Lead the way, Koromaru-san!”

“Woof!”

“Koromaru-san seems more motivated than usual tonight,” Aigis muses. “I wonder if the belated holiday cheer has gotten to him as well.”

“…Perhaps,” Makoto agrees, holding back a smile.

He knows exactly where Koromaru is taking them and why, of course, but he is not about to tell her that he has one more surprise in store for her.

He wants to see the look in her eyes when she sees it.

If the dorm took Aigis aback, Paulownia Mall positively leaves her awestruck.

She rushes forward, looking around her to take it all in. The snow-patterned banners and yellow lights hanging from the ceiling; the snowflake lights dancing across the walls and floor.

From what Makoto can remember, the only things missing are the Christmas trees and the ‘Christmas’ sign above the fountain, but the latter has been replaced by a ‘Welcome’ that does the job just as well.

“This is beautiful…! I didn’t know the mall could be decorated like this,” Aigis marvels. “I wonder what the occasion is.”

Makoto knows the answer to that, too. While Tanaka refused at first, muttering something about foolish, sentimental boys and ridiculous ideas that would only waste money, Makoto knew that he would get it done—if only to show that he could.

He keeps that to himself, a half-smile tugging at his lips.

“…Who knows?”

Aigis giggles and takes a hand to her heart, gaze darting around them.

“…Whatever it may be, I’m deeply grateful for it.”

Makoto’s smile broadens, warmth spreading across his chest.

“Do you want to take a look around, Aigis?”

“I’d love to!”

“Woof, woof!”

Both of them turn to find Koromaru hanging back. Three other dogs have come to join him, and they’re all excitedly wagging their tails.

“You can go play with your friends, Koromaru,” Makoto tells him, and Koromaru gives another bark before the pack heads towards the back of the mall.

“I wonder if Koromaru-san brought us here so we could look at the lights,” Aigis wonders, looking after him.

“…Maybe,” Makoto allows, eyes twinkling. “Let’s go, Aigis.”

She nods, her grin pleased.

“Yes!”

Together, they walk by the shops, stopping here and there to see the different shapes projected by the lights. When they get to the Crane Machine, Makoto wins Aigis a Jack Frost doll. So intrigued is she by the mechanism and its odds that she insists to try it herself, and they walk away with five more dolls to their name. Makoto can only hope that Elizabeth may have some obscure use for them.

Through it all, Makoto has to make a conscious effort to keep himself from staring too long at Aigis and the emotions flitting across her face; the curiosity, the joy, the wonder. They all tell a different story, and he finds them all just as captivating.

It seems unthinkable that Aigis would have once looked at all of this with a blank face, and not for the first time, Makoto is grateful for the change.

She looks so much happier now, and that alone makes him happy in turn.

Once Aigis is satisfied, they sit down on one of the benches by the ‘Welcome’ sign. An amiable silence wraps over them like a blanket, and Makoto would’ve closed his eyes in contentment, if it weren’t because he catches a glimpse of Aigis’ hands—one laying on her lap, the other on the bench right between them.

Within his reach.

Makoto swallows, shifting slightly. The temperature has dropped and he forgot his gloves, but he still takes his hand out of his pocket.

He rests it on his leg, aimless—hesitant.

Tomorrow, they may face the end of the world as they know it. Somehow, the thought of that seems far less scary than the possibility of ruining this.

Of ruining them.

Before Makoto can make up his mind, Aigis breaks the silence, raising her head to look up at the ceiling.

“I… am glad that we got to spend time like this before tomorrow, Makoto-san,” she says, almost like she can read his mind. “Now more than ever, I am certain that I want to do my best. I want to see a future where you are all smiling like you did today.”

Makoto smiles, leaning forward to get a better look at her face.

“What about you, Aigis? Did you have fun today?”

“Yes! It was wonderful.”

He allows himself to relax, then. If Aigis enjoyed herself, then the day was a success.

“I’m glad. I had fun, too.”

Aigis’ expression softens.

“I wish… I could always… with you...”

He blinks, his heart stuttering.

“Aigis…?”

She locks her gaze on him.

“Makoto-san… There’s something I want you to have. A gift, if you may.”

His brows furrow lightly and Aigis hurries to shake her head.

“It’s nothing much, really! But still, I’d… I’d like you to have it. Please.”

She is looking at him with an intensity that leaves him caught in her eyes, unable to do anything but nod dumbly at her. At his agreement, relief seems to wash away the nervousness on her face.

“Thank you!”

Aigis reaches inside her pocket. Then, she gently takes his hand in hers, dropping something inside it and wrapping his fingers around it. When she lets his hand go, Makoto takes a look and finds a screw sitting on his palm.

A charred screw.

His eyes widen.

“That’s one of my parts that had to be replaced after I collapsed at the Moonlight Bridge. I asked Mitsuru-san to have it sent to me,” Aigis explains, confirming his suspicions. “I… have grown since then. I’m not afraid, and I won’t give up… I’ll get up back up, no matter how many times it takes. I’ll fight by your side and protect you. This is the proof of my resolve, and I want you to have it… It’s… It’s a part of me.”

Makoto can only stare at her—at the way a blush takes to her cheeks; the way she absent-mindedly tucks her bangs away from her eyes, suddenly unable to meet his.

That is just fine with Makoto, because he is finding it increasingly hard to school his expression into something less, well, this.

Into something that won’t spell out to her that he is more than a little in love with her.

He looks down at the screw resting on his palm, floored and aching.

Truth is, Makoto has been wondering about it for a while now.

Ever since he met her, Aigis has helped Makoto discover so many wonderful things; about the world, and especially about himself. She has made him feel so many things he didn’t even know he was capable of feeling.

That’s why he poured his heart into offering her the best Christmas he possibly could. For once, there was something tangible that he could do for her, and he jumped at the chance to do it.

He meant to thank her for everything she has done for him.

But this…

Makoto closes his fingers around the charred screw.

Somehow, Aigis keeps giving him more and more of herself, without ever asking for anything in turn.

He has been trying to follow her example. He really has.

But, the truth is—

…There is something I want more than anything.

“O-oh yes… Umm…” Aigis fidgets a little in her seat, still not meeting his eyes. “Of course, if I had known we were celebrating Christmas today, I’d have gifted you something more useful, Makoto-san.”

“No!”

She snaps her head to look at him, startled by his outburst. He is surprised, too, but for once, Makoto doesn’t try to hold himself back.

“Makoto…san…?”

Wordlessly, he reaches out and wraps her in his arms. Aigis gasps against the crook of his neck and his heart starts beating so fast that he can barely hear himself think, but he figures that’s just fine.

He doesn’t want to think. He just wants to be here, in this moment.

With her.

“…Thank you, Aigis,” he says once he finds his voice. “I’ll treasure this. I promise.”

Slowly, timidly, she hugs him back.

“I… Okay,” she whispers, melting into him.

She holds him just as fiercely as he is holding her, nuzzling her face in his neck, and it occurs to Makoto that perhaps he isn’t the only one who has been holding back.

“You know, Aigis…” He leans back to look at her, lips curling up. “I’ve been thinking a lot, lately… about what I’d like to do once we’ve beat Nyx.”

She tilts her head to the side in that endearing way of hers, and his smile widens.

“Is that so?”

“Yeah. Honestly, I’ve never really given the future a lot of thought, but… I think there’s one thing I’m sure of.”

He lets his forehead rest against hers.

“…I want to be by your side, Aigis.”

He has known it for a while now. Ever since the raw panic he felt when they found her broken on the Moonlight Bridge, without any means to know if she would be fine. Maybe since even before then.

Maybe since his eyes met hers on that pier and his heart seemed to set itself in motion.

“M—Makoto-san…?” Aigis whispers with a thread of a voice, and Makoto chuckles, feeling impossibly light.

“…I want to be with you. Always.”

And just so his intentions are clear, he ducks his head and kisses her.

It’s his first time kissing anyone and he doesn’t really know what he’s doing, but he doesn’t let that deter him.

More than anything, he’s just glad it’s with her.

When they break apart, Makoto finds Aigis looking at him in a daze.

“…Merry Christmas, Aigis,” he whispers, voice warm with joy.

Aigis reaches out, lovingly brushing the bangs away from his eyes as a smile blooms across her face, brightest than any Christmas light could ever hope to be.

“Merry Christmas, Makoto-san.”

END

[cheese1616]

suzuka wrap-up

well i was very late to do this since i forgot lol

Red Bull : well what the hell guys you did it again. props to checo for absolutely killing it in quali and not being ten minutes off his teammate which is what everyone else is doing. absolute 10/10 for max verstappen for winning probably the first of 20 races this season in a row.

Ferrari: kind of exactly where i expected. carlos crushed it, amazing job from him although not as good as his previous result in australia, what do you expect from a man without an appendix and a job- podium every time he’s raced. Bad quali from charles although he very much made it up in the race very well deserved driver of the day great finish from both nothing better to be done really.

Mercedes: guys please come on you can do better than this. george had a terrible quali then came back and did probably some of the best racing on the track and i’m not even glazing it especially with that battle with piastri. hamilton shockingly out qualifying george which was a little bit sad cause i thought george could do a sweep of the season tbh but good race overall i suppose. not amazing finish but come on you’re in like the 5th best car what do you expect.

Mclaren: solid. not much to say. piastri not his best race, suzuka doesn’t seem to be a good track for him so i expected it. norris pretty solid finish amazing qualifying deserves tons of credit for that. couldn’t hang onto third but hey it’s a mclaren not a red bull.

Aston: Fernando i love you so much you are an amazing king who may or may not be the greatest to ever touch the sport i hope the Taylor Swift dating rumours are true because you deserve that much credit. Lance Stroll i think is scum of the earth who is somehow fighting in formula b even though he’s in like the 4/5th best car on track. absolutely unacceptable to lose positions to tsunoda and hulkenberg in that car.

Minardi: idk what Ricciardo has been doing lately but i hope it’s just one realllyyy long april fools prank because what is this. the crash was kinda his fault tbh. very very sad and i hoped he could turn it around since he got a very good quali result. Yuki tsunoda absolutely crushed it and gets my second 10/10 for his home race. overtakes were insane. so so happy to see you thriving and getting points.

Haas: kind of a quiet race. no points for either so not much to say, both drives are 6/10s for me.

Williams: Absolutely terrible. Excited to see if they will even have a car by the end of the season from the progress they are making. Albon out immediately Sargeant not managing anything good. Hope they can turn this around soon because my fantasy team is suffering hard. Although sargeant very good turn around in the dirt have to compliment that.

Steak F1 Team: The amount of times this season i have been CONVINCED of the points possibilities only for them to be taken away by the kindergarten class that is their pit crew is insane. this really should not be tolerated at all. feel very bad for zhou as it was an unfair way to end.

Alpine: I mean there were some parts of the race where the cars didn’t even look like they were moving.

[fishyishy]

A3! Event Translation - memory of toys (10/11)

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Yuki: Yuup.....

Yuki: (I was so busy planning that I completely forgot about my original purpose coming here, which was to buy a present)

Yuki: ....Ah.

Yuki: (A dress up doll.....like the one I had before. I guess it might be too early for my little nephew......)

Citron: Yuki, is that the present you are getting?

Yuki: ......I was just thinking that maybe in the future, he might end up playing with dress up dolls like me.

Yuki: I'll just get him this for now.

Citron: Ohh, what a cute stuffed animal!

Yuki: I wonder if I should make some clothes for it and put them on. Maybe I should make a few so he can change its clothes.

Citron: What a great idea! I'm sure your nephew will be very happy.

Citron: I will also buy this, and this, and this too! So many special toys!

Yuki: Ne, now that I think of it, why did you want to help this toy store?

Citron: Well you see.....

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Since I was a child, I had to study the art of rulership in order to become a king, so I wasn't able to play with toys.

However, after I learned about Japanese culture and arts, I became interested in Super Sentai works as well.

And so, when I finally came to Japan, I saw children having fun wearing the transformation gear and having goods from the Super Sentai series.

The children would decide on transformation poses and shout out their catchphrases with smiles on their faces.

In this country, children could transform into whatever they dreamed of.

I began thinking that I was very envious of this scene.

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Citron: Toys are magical tools that can make dreams come true. You could become anything you wanted, is what I thought.

Citron: So this is like a store for dreams, where you can buy toys like that. That is why I couldn't help but speak out.

Citron: It is also convenient to buy online.

Citron: But I am sure there will be some kids who will see the real thing and will find their new dreams, some kids who will make new memories with the toys that were carefully chosen and received here.

Citron: Just like Yuki is doing now.

Yuki: .......

Citron: I am sorry, I dragged Yuki and the others into this because of my personal feelings.

Yuki: It's fine, really. I had a lot of fun doing it, and I think I was able to get something out of it.

Yuki: As a result of your feelings, the promotional video itself was effective, and the interior design became a bit of a hot topic on social media.

Citron: I am sure the effects will start to show soon.

Yuki: Besides......I was also able to perform as the doll I broke back then.......

Yuki: Somehow, I felt like the sad memories I had of that time have been reclaimed.

Citron: .....I am glad.

Yuki: Anyways, just who are these toys you've been putting into the cart for?

Citron: A present for Tangerine!

Yuki: It looks like there are a lot of otaku-esque toys in there though, is that what you're looking for?

Citron: The last time Tangerine stayed over, Itaru taught him all sorts of things.

Citron: Ever since then, Tangerine has become interested in these things. I am sure he will have fun playing with them all!

Yuki: I can't believe it.

Citron: And even if he breaks it, we can fix it here!

Yuki: ........

Yuki: I guess with an international-level patron, this store will be safe........maybe.

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[festivalofthe12]

mannnnnnnn IDK if it's just because I never fully finished the manga myself (sorry everyone;;) but I just. don't. really understand how Akito being just another one of Tohru's friends is supposed to. work. in practice. with Yuki.

Not because Akito is an ~irredeemable person who never earned her redemption~ or whatever. People being good is good!!! If Akito is legitimately a better person now, that's awesome!!! And frankly I love stories where legitimate kindness breaks through to save people who are shitty but also deeply deeply sad!!!!!

But to most of the cast, Akito was a pretty distant enemy. Yes, she'd show up in person now and then to be chilling and mysterious, but her primary source of contention was Being God. The way she ran the family and the rules she set up around it. Other characters might have spent a lot of time seething at her, but mainly to blame her for indirectly causing things to happen in their lives. Apart from a very small number, most have never actually had much experience just... talking to her.

Which is not true for Yuki.

Yuki has spent more time with her than almost anybody. By the end of the manga, she's still probably the person he's spent the most time in contact with, total, over his life. He literally could not get away from being in the same physical space as her.

His reactions to Akito aren't based on him blaming her for what she did to the Sohma family. His reactions to Akito are based on a very simple 'if I can see her, things about about to get very bad very quickly for me personally.'

At that point, it's not even really about whether he blames or forgives her, or what he thinks she 'deserves'. It is an immediate anxiety (let's be real: PTSD) trigger. It's neither conscious nor logical. He spent endless amounts of time waiting with horror for her to show up, unable to know or control when that would happen, and then having that horror fully justified. He was trained on it, endlessly.

I fully believe that Yuki would want to trust Tohru and respect her friendship with Akito and believe that everything has changed and it's all good now. But I just can't see him being him able to actually... act on that. In practice.

He never even really properly got to process it. Ayame did the classic oblivious parent thing of trying to override Yuki's negative emotions with happy ones before he was actually ready to move on. (Not critiquing Ayame; he's just a flawed human being in his own right!) Tohru comforted him and told him he didn't deserve it, and now she's friends with his abuser asking him to say everything's fine. If Kakeru ever fully found out what happened, it was off-screen, and not all that much time before this all went down.

I just. Really think that what Yuki needs is at least some time to just be better and angry, or at the very least openly mourn his lost childhood. And he needs to be able to do that without those constant triggers of anxiety from interacting with Akito. All things being equal, I think it would be for the best if he could just tell Tohru straight-up that he's fine with their friendship and he's not going to intervene but he just does not want to be in the same room with Akito ever again.

And... if I were to stretch this a bit further, and potentially really betray my unfamiliarity with endgame canon........... it is kind of hard for me to imagine Akito being okay with that.

Yes, Akito has changed. But surely she still needs time to grow and learn and figure out her new place in this world? And Yuki deliberately avoiding her would... be a difficult thing to accept. Firstly because she's still getting used to giving up that selfishness (especially towards Yuki), but also because it's a reminder of some of the awful shit she did. Which, if she's a changed person, should make her feel bad. Which again, she isn't qualified to process!!

I honestly wouldn't be surprised if Akito twisted it around in her head to where Yuki really was her friend. Like they were in this together and Akito didn't always handle it well but at the end of the day, they're the only two who can really understand each other. Because Akito really didn't have that, either. (Kureno being... idk man he always seemed more like a guardian, or at least older brother figure than someone who was 'in the trenches' so to speak with her.)

Either way, it'd all place Tohru in such a deeply complicated position. Akito is hurting badly and needs Tohru to be on her side if no-one else is, because to be fair, that's not all wrong? (Kureno has always been there, but Tohru is her saviour.) But she can't really do that if she's enforcing Yuki's boundaries for him. I feel like Akito would really want Tohru to tell her that she's forgiven and that everything's good now, and if she hesitated even a little, it wouldn't go well. Because Akito only knows how to understand two things: obedience and manipulation. So having others set healthy boundaries - and dealing with the resulting feelings of rejection and shame and guilt - is something she still has to learn how to do.

It just sounds. A bit like a clusterfuck tbh. A clusterfuck that could, eventually, turn out okay!!!!!! But one that would take a LONG time and continued process of reflection and self-awareness (and, ideally, HEAVY THERAPY, but of course we all know nobody in the Fruits Basket universe ever gets that, so). Obviously like that's the happy ending and we don't need to extend it out for four more volumes of like 'Yuki and Akito undergo cbt separately via Tohru's infinite patience' lmfao but. Idk. It just seems to imply a lot in that happy ending that has not really set up by the story to be all that easy.

Unless I'm completely wrong and the last volume or two does in fact set this up perfectly. In which case never mind!!!!!!!!!!

[gojonanami]

[lovely sab, if you do me the honor of answering this, please consider tagging it as jjk manga spoilers for those who haven't read it yet]

the way the manga is going imma crawl once again in your inbox and BEG you to keep up the fanon work cause

DAMN IT ALL WITH THAT ONE EYED CAT

I was upset when junpei died but i thought, well, it DOES serve the story somehow-

I felt so sad with Rika and the whole becoming a curse thingy, the bittersweet ending of her helping yuta let her go kinda added to it but, well, it DID have a pivotal role for a special grade with so much potential-

amanai's death was so sudden I had to close the manga for a sec, but it starts off geto's villain era and well this IS a major point-

and geto, I was DEVASTATED when he died he is my FAV and while it did stay true to the tragedy of his story it was HEARTBREAKING-

haibara did NOT deserve to die and that is ALL that needs to be said-

toji was kinda going for it, but still his last memory of his wife was a tad too much to bear, still-

AND MIMIKO AND NANAKO, WHY ?? JUST WHY ?? THEY WERE JUST USED FOR THE GRANDEUR OF SUKUNA NO MORE NO LESS-

its WAY too soon to talk for nanami, that man is still gnawing at my mind, all the pressure he had and he never got the chance to get the rest he wanted, still it was probably done to turn yuji to the state he is currently, losing a mentor he had-

i did not like mai to begin with, guilty as charged, but her becoming a sword for her sister, and requesting she destroy everything, it made me bawl-

the zenin clan can die all they want no rant for them

and yuki, well, she did tick me a bit but her dying without even accomplishing her goal-the black hole and all-

hell, NOBARA ????? why ???? WHY GEGE ????

BUT

THE LAST DAMNED STRAW

WAS GOJO NOT ONLY DYING

BUT BEING USED AS A PAWN

AS IF THAT WASNT THE CASE FOR HIS WHOLE LIFE

SO SAB PLEASE KEEP UP I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO GRIEVE THEM ANYMORE

no literally anon, I feel the same way. I feel like we were all fooled by the first season in a way (despite junpei and the other horrors) but we were lulled into thinking it would be okay for our main group.

but it wasn’t.

I’ll never be over nanami tbh — that death literally hurt so bad and mappa made it worse somehow — don’t know how they did it. all the death is supposed to demonstrate how cruel jujutsu is, but at some point I feel like I become both numb but too sensitive to it — like a scabbed over wound that won’t heal because it’s picked at.

gojo hurt so much the first time and 261 feels like I’m mourning him all over again — I honestly am so glad for break week because I don’t think I could take it personally. I’m so worried for yuta - I don’t even know how to deal. and gojo being inflicted to the same fate as geto will never not hurt me.

I am trying 😭 my actor au is my way of acting like everyone is fine and that it’s just a show (I mean it is a show but you know what I mean) - I’m Gege now guys, cannot deal with that one eyed cat anymore 😭😭

[parkjayssi]

Hellooo, I hope you are doing well, I'm happy the fictional character game won, and I would like to participate, please!

Info: My initials are ASLS. I'm Ara~, leo Sun, and my favorite color is orange.

Characters you can choose for me (I'm writing several in case you don't know them from highest priority to lowest, so it doesn't take you that much time, hehe).

1. Yuki Sōma from fruits basket. (Big number 1 😭)

2. Tsukasa Kazuki from romance killer.

3. Ash Lynx from banana fish

4. Kureno Sōma from fruits basket

5. Kurapika from Hunter x Hunter.

6. Haruka Nanase from free!

My reading:

The character I chose for you is:

♡ Howl from Howl's Moving Castle ♡

First of all I feel that at the beginning they wouldn't get along at all, maybe the way they met was a misunderstanding, making Howl treat you in the most egocentric way possible, however, you have that "something" that makes him want to take care of you, making little by little his attention more and more directed to you, making him do little actions on the sly, like leaving you an umbrella when it's raining and you don't have one, or leaving a little flower in your window when you are sad, however he would do those things hoping you wouldn't know it's him, but he would make a mistake, so you would know it's him, despite his main attitude you wouldn't have any problem or annoyance with him, it would just be like "What's wrong with this guy? " Confused, but he would get your attention, yes do I get it? Well we come back, because of these actions you would start to like him a little bit, and he would have this sense of protection, but he would be in denial of romantic feelings, the love trope of "She falls first, but he falls harder" comes to mind. You would become friends, he cares for you and you like him, then you would realize that each other's personality and principles do match, and he would start to realize that he has feelings for you, but, he would go into denial "I can't fall in love.", "We're just friends.". Realizing that he actually has feelings for you, he would feel a little regret over his major actions, treating you better, but without confessing his feelings, waiting to see if his feelings are reciprocal, however, before confessing something would happen that you would have to separate for a while, a trip to another city with your family, or something like that, in that time he would realize that his feelings are sincere and what he wants is to have you by his side, after the confession that the feeling is mutual, he would have this thought (Channeled messages) of "I will be a prince for you. ", "I want to teach you everything I am.", "Everything I do is for you.", "Let's be together forever.", "Be my princess.", "Whatever you go, I'll find you.", "No matter if in your life you didn't feel like one, I will make you happy because you are my princess.", something I heard a lot was "Forever together."

Songs:

I hope you like it 💓

thank you for joining and the reading! i can see myself in that kind of dynamic with howl, and honestly sounds like a dream come true haha. you're lucky i know all of the characters mentioned here, even if haven't watched them properly. so i will be doing a reading between you and yuki sohma as requested.

YOUR STORY: the dynamic and your fate card pulled : strength (rx), three of pentacles, 2 of pentacles, nine of cups(rx) so the card i pulled is strength, and that too, reversed. we all know yuki has major self-esteem issues and that affects about how he feels for you in general. there is a certain blooming crush from his side which has been held back. when i asked my guides for more context, the cards kept falling down, which i believe tell me that this is his indecisiveness against his own feelings. i still ended up pulling three of pentacles. he still is willing to put his effort at the end of the day to figure out what he feels for you. he is willing to try and understand, working through his issues at the same time. with the two of pentacles, i can see yuki appearing in your life when you are in a situation where you have to make a choice if you want to put the effort with him or not. whether you want to be with him when he already is questioning his feelings can be tricky. nonetheless, my guides show me that you and him do, in fact, work through his and your feelings, one step at a time. sadly, nine of cups is a bad card for relationships and you both end up breaking away, knowing that yuki is still not fully healed, as he realises it's not your responsibility to heal him, and dealing with that kind of person can be tiring. my guides show me that you two would still, ultimately end up with a good note. this seems a karmic relationship, where you both learn from each other. and even then, you both cherish each other as a good memory than drowning yourselves with toxicity. they say "all's well that ends well" and that can be certainly applied here, albeit you both would need time before you can see each other again without regretting things extra messages : " thank you for giving me a chance", "i hope we can still be friends in future", "sorry for disappointing you", "i promise, one day, we'll be happy, even if we didn't find it together", "i'll always cherish you for giving me such good memories" aww he does regret how things turned out to be :( since you also provided songs, here's some for you:

(this kept looping in my mind while i did your reading)

hope you liked your reading! please provide me feedback if you can. that helps a lot with increasing the quality of my readings

[gojosbf]

I started following you after 236 because your emotions and posts echoed my sentiments. I love your posts. They make me laugh, they make cry. But most importantly they make me feel like I am not insane to feel this way for something fictional.

I hate the fact that bringing any criticism towards Gege’s writing results in being called a Gojotard. You can like the entirety of something and still criticise certain aspects of it.

I am not condoning all the threats and hate directed towards Gege but fans are allowed to be mad at the direction this story is going. Yes it is Gege’s world but we can have complains about it. That doesn’t make us fake fans. That just shows how much we’ve loved what he has created and how it affects us when it is taken away.

I feel many fans are tiptoeing around it because there are two extremities now in the JJk fandom. One - that will defend anything Gege produces and the other who is so done with characters being killed off and not adding anything to the plot. Both these sides are equally loud and thus polarising this fandom. People were on the edge after how Yuki’s fight with Kenjaku was handled and I think 236 was the final blow that divided the fandom.

I came across one post yesterday where it highlights the huge power difference between good guys and the bad guys with just Sukuna’s power alone. This is minus all the power Sukuna gave up (we don’t know if he got them back after).

It contains spoilers for 237 - https://www.tumblr.com/sleep-deprivedracoon/729649802609082368/jjk-manga-leaks-heavy-spoilers-ahead-please-do

To me, it feels like Gege has written himself into a corner indeed with shattering the ceiling (Gojo’s power was considered the ceiling in JJK power scaling) with Sukuna’s abilities.

What do you think?

i am trying to piece all my thoughts together in this so pls don't mind if it gets too long or loses track a bit.

first of all thank you and we are in this together i feel you I am still trying to wrap my head around the recent leak, until and unless we have proper leaks i will remain in denial about megumi also it's so sad to see how after the massive shock and reaction we got last week we've just given up this week it has become a thing where we are just hoping gege doesn't kill another of our favs and atp this trick is getting too overused to be appreciated (also the reason why as you mentioned we have two extremist side of fandom). i get it. gojo's death and sealing got jjk trending yet again, publicity even if negative publicity is still garnering the intrigue of many more people, not to ignore we have equal amounts of, if not more gojo haters because he was too strong.

now coming back to the story line, yes we are allowed to criticize when there are obvious plot holes and it serves for no purpose other than shock factor. Gojo's death was massively poorly written because all this time gege kept implying that even if sukuna had all his fingers gojo was the strongest (which is why he had to use mahoraga) his plot was gojo and sukuna are AT par with each other which is why this was a big deal and why he had to be sealed so kenjaku could follow through his plans and when sukuna regained his powers gojo wouldn't be a hindrance. now compare that to 236, it says sukuna actually wasn't going all out and NOW sukuna is to reveal his true form. really? really?? when the strongest character you've ever created does not stand a chance against this demon we're supposed to believe that the rest can? his students who are yet to unleash their full strength, the only special grade is supposed to? i mean we can still hope on yuuta because he has rika, the queen of curses and sukuna being the king of curses (love kashimo but as they said he's probably not surviving) but that doesn't seem much of a hope (as much i wish it was).

now coming back to the topic of when was the last time the good guys had a proper win since shibuya? do we really remember it?? (ofc apart from maki and unsealing) the bad guys are still standing strong, we have yet to see atleast one of main villains to fall and when is this going to happen??? it's been over 2 years now just how long are we supposed to keep digesting as "not so shonen" writing? (even mahito's death was just kenjaku absorbing him). i mean yeah it keeps us on edge but you as the author have the responsibility to keep the readers addicted and going and by the looks of it the og fans are dropping it one by one, is it really worth it? is it gege?

ofc course i don't condone the death threats but cmon a frustrated reader watching their favourite characters losing all the time is allowed to express themselves, maybe gege has a plan to turn this around but right now people are allowed to be angry and pissed and confused and frustrated, it's only natural, they cannot just expect people to see evil winning all the time and be alright about it now can they? these people calling others a "gojotard" are here for fun and they understood the premise of the mcs always losing so they root for the overpowered villains and hence enjoy the manga and move along what they fail to understand is that some of us are not capable of switching sides, we are still rooting for trios, the initial sorcerers whom we got attached to and we are tired of seeing them constantly unhappy. you're allowed to complain!! criticism is valid!!!!

and i seriously hope gege has some trick up his sleeves or he's ready to lose a good chunk of his loyal fans because this isn't looking good. we wasted last six months for nothing really, unsealing gojo did not help with anything except a 13 chapter long fight. and the outcome? back to square one!!!! so what was the point of the whole unsealing arc and shinjuku fight? not to mention the lukewarm reaction to his death portrayal and barely a passable explanation. sukuna is very oped currently but i have two bets against him, angel and yuuta (remember when sukuna thought angel was a pain and he wanted to kill them because he thought they could get in way).

i agree with t user sleepdeprivedracoon hakari has to win, there's no way gege is planning to kill him because then the manga is done for and i do not care what others say we are allowed to grieve, complain and make memes and jokes out of this hopeless situation we are currently in because that's literally how this manga is going so others who are so aggressively defending gege need to understand the criticism is valid and these reactions are valid and they need to get off their high horse. the not so shounen excuse is really not that convincing and we are allowed to be frustrated and angry it's a natural human reaction damn it. till then keep reading and remember life gets better but jjk doesn't (surpise us this halloween gege pls)

[uriekukistan]

1, 23, and 24 for jjk for the ask game :p

suddenly i'm scared to have opinions but i do wanna get a lot of these things off my chest so

1 - the character everyone gets wrong :

i wanna say the character people get the most wrong is gojo actually. so many people just portray him as a cocky, silly guy, and miss the deep loneliness and insecurity that comes from being the strongest. its kinda sad because i think his inability to form a true and vulnerable connection is not only heartbreaking, but fundamental to the way he acts and how the story has played out thus far.

that being said, the most frustrating thing for me, and this is not an everyone thing, but i would say the overall...horniness of the jjk fandom contributes to a lot of mischaracterizations. im not saying there's anything wrong with writing or reading smut fics, but i think for a few characters their smut fic personalities have led to a more shallow understanding of their character. gojo is one, as i just mentioned, but also choso and sukuna. (im a bit scared to put this opinion out there, but it's been on my mind for a bit, ever since the gojo figure incident)

23 - ship you've unwillingly come around to :

i guess choso and yuki is one? i didn't really see it at first, but i guess it's kinda sweet, if a little bit one sided. i just don't see choso as the type to be seeking anything out like that, his priority is very clearly protecting his family.

there's more ships i wouldn't touch with a 10 foot poll that i don't see myself ever coming around to, such as MEGUMI AND SUKUNA???? aside from the fact that megumi is 15/16 and sukuna is 1000+, it's still an absolute no from me.

24 - topic that brings up the most rancid discourse :

i try not to get involved in jjk fandom discourse (except this post maybe?), and i wouldn't say this is "rancid" more-so irritating, but i mentioned today how i think specifically the tiktok jjk fandom lacks basic reading comprehension and analysis skills. people are understandably bored with the kind of cyclical writing gege has been putting out there recently, but also some of the ways in which they are criticizing jjk just show a lack of understanding of what's actually happening and the story that's trying to be told. spoilers here i'm sorry you thought the biggest supervillain of the series was going to be taken down easily? i'm sorry you weren't expecting lots of battles in jujutsu kaisen, which literally means sorcery battle? i think it was pretty obvious that this wasn't going to be a normal power of friendship manga from the junpei incident. the whole point of the hidden inventory arc was to show that the point was always to raise a new generation of sorcerers who would be able to work together and be the strongest together. gojo was never going to singlehandedly take down sukuna, and neither will any other character. the individual battles themselves could have more variety, but the direction the story was going was clear from pretty early on. no more spoilers

yeah anyway that's not really "discourse" im just sick of seeing the lists of reasons people think jjk is "mid" now, and all it is is them saying they dont understand plot points that were clearly established and explained.

[f0point5]

Austin didn’t happen, that race was shit. I was betting on Max and Lando being 1-2, battleing in out, till the last corner.

But at least Liam and Franco delivered. The commentaitors where I watch, analysed Yuki and his performance whenever he’s running behind his teammate, and it’s not good. He can fight anyone, but the second his teammate is in front of him, he starts making mistakes. It’s sad, but true.

I am so over watching Max and Lando battle honestly because of the crazed fans. I’m just there praying they don’t touch because then I can’t open Twitter for 12 hours 😂

I’m just really happy Lando didn’t win actually.

But also, I feel like Lando was so chill this weekend it was kind of worth it just to see him not looking and acting like he was walking over glass all the time. He seemed a lot less tense.

Yuki is a little bit of a terrorist lol. But I get why he crumbles when he is behind his teammate because he keeps getting told he is the benchmark for every driver that comes in. Keeping them behind him is the only way he has even the slightest hope of a Red Bull test. Obviously he should be concentrating on his own race but he has this pressure of being the yard stick by which Red Bull measures drivers hanging over him. Idk I think he’s hella delulu about getting Red bull seat but you can’t knock his commitment.

Franco is the real deal. I’ll be quite sad if he doesn’t get the Sauber seat.

[putschki1969]

New Album『Sono Saki e』 Comments by Everyone Involved

This album may have been the longest production period in my career. It took more than a year to complete this album full of messages that Wakana wanted to convey. I have been working with Wakana since her solo debut, creating works together, producing her live performances, etc. The first concept we came up with for this project was an image of a ray of hope shining brightly through this sad and suffocating world, with Wakana's voice representing a soothing light raining down from heaven. I asked all the composers, lyricists, arrangers, and musicians that I truly trust to help us express such a scenery through their music and words. Wakana herself spent a lot of time working on her lyrics, practicing her singing, and recording. It was her who suggested the title "Sono Saki e (Beyond this Point)". She was very determined about everything she wanted to express with this album. It’s about the strength to open up and stay true to yourself without being afraid to move forward and not allowing yourself to be held back by current events. I am proud to say that all the songs are sparkling and shining just like Wakana herself. I am full of gratitude to all the creators who have contributed to the production of this album. I hope that everyone who listens to these songs will continue to move forward together with Wakana! With this album all we wish is for everyone’s future to be bright, kind, and full of love.

Producer Satoshi Takebe

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This was the first time I wrote lyrics for Wakana-san. When I heard Muramatsu-san's beautiful yet sad melody, there was only one thing that came to mind. All the tragic events that have taken place in Ukraine right after the invasion, women and children leaving the country, having to say goodbye to their husbands, fathers, sons and brothers who remained in order to fight. Countless fateful choices had to me made, families and lovers were torn apart. Yet the war still continues in this opaque world. I wanted to provide a bit of hope for such dreary times, show a way how we can continue living despite not knowing what lies ahead of us. Wakana-san sings the lyrics perfectly, accentuating each tiny fragment of sadness and hope.

Yūho Iwasato ("Kibou" - Lyrics)

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I would like to congratulate Wakana-san on her album release! I am very happy to be in charge of composing and arranging the lead song "Butterfly Dream". It was my first time working with Wakana-san, in preparation for our first session together I listened to her past works and tried to get a feeling for her voice, gradually my image of Wakana-san was expanded and I was able to create a new worldview for her. I wrote the song so that Wakana-san's delicate and powerful voice would stand out amidst mysterious chords, I wanted her vocals to feel as if they were floating on top of the melody. As for the arrangement, I played around quite a bit with various tricks such as chord progressions, different melodies, and rhythms, so I'd be happy if you could listen to the song and discover various things!

Yuki Kishida ("Butterfly Dream" Composition & Arrangement)

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"I would like you to write a song for Wakana that showcases her beautiful voice and talent. She is an incredibly capable singer so she can 100% do a song with a high degree of difficulty.” When Takebe-san made such an offer to me, I got very excited and ended up writing a very difficult song. I honestly struggle to play it myself. But somehow this is what it took to create and express such a "beautiful harshness". Just as Takebe-san said, Wakana turned out to be a singer with great talent!

Shin'ya Kiyozuka ("KEMONO" - Composition & Piano)

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Hello, I am Kujiraba. I am an artist and usually draw manga but this time I was asked to write lyrics for a song. When I listened to the demo tape, I felt a strong sense of frustration and the urge to run away. Immediately I was reminded of the confusion and pain that is prevalent in today's society. If you're in a place you don't want to be in, don't give up, continue resisting even if you don't have the strength to get out. Sharpen your fangs and claws and prepare to escape. KEMONO is a prayer song for escape, hoping that you can go to places you have never been able to go or places you have given up on. It’s for everyone who feels alone, anytime, anywhere. If you are in a difficult place right now, I would be happy if this song could provide some comfort for you.

Kujiraba ("KEMONO" - Lyrics)

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Before I started working on this song, I wanted to get a lot of input from Wakana, I wanted to hear what she had to say, listen to her story. After spending a lot of time together, learning more about her and sharing our tears, I wanted to write a song that perfectly encapsulated all the precious feelings that Wakana-san carries in her heart for her late father. I wanted to make sure that every word she told me would be sown into the very fabric of this song. Her path as a singer, the way her father had always encouraged her, how her existence in the here and now is her father’s legacy. Wakana's clear singing voice has a radiance that seems to reach the sky. I am so grateful that I got the opportunity to work with her.

Yoshiko Hanzaki ("Shirushi" - Lyrics & Composition)

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A broken heart Carrying the smallest suitcase Heading to Haneda Buying a random ticket on the way there Wanting to go to the farthest place. Anywhere. Just far away from here

When you are in your 30s, the times are over when you scribble the name of your crush over and over again, you are no longer naively infatuated with the feeling of being in love. You have reached an age where you should be able to recognise each other's strengths and weaknesses. I was thinking about the relationships between men and women. How you should go on a trip all by yourself in order to be able to accept all the things that you previously weren’t able to accept about your partner. This way you can become stronger. This song is a poem about how I felt when I traveled to Easter Island once upon a time. I imaged Wakana-san singing the song standing on the cliff. I want them to shoot a beautiful music video with a drone *laughs*.

Yo Hitoto ("Rapa Nui" - Lyrics)

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When I started composing Rapa Nui, I had an initial meeting with Takebe-san over the phone. The main goal was to create something that wasn’t J-pop. I gathered a lot of ideas, I wanted to give the song an Irish touch, maybe make it a little folky. Listening to Wakana-san's older songs, I got the strong impression that her voice was very clear, resounding like a fresh breeze through the air. That's why I thought it would be nice to have an ambient melody with a bit of an ethnic essence. In the end, it turned into something that can’t really be labelled properly but Hitoto-san’s lyrics made it possible to envision sceneries of a foreign place. I usually write quite hectic chord progressions but this time I stuck to one chord for the verse and then changed the chorus to a minor key. The part at the beginning of the chorus is very difficult, but as expected, Wakana-san sang it perfectly. I would be happy if you could feel the quiet rock amidst the gentle atmosphere.

Tatsuro Mashiko ("Rapa Nui" - Composer)

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When writing music, the most important thing for me is the voice of the artist. Wakana-san's voice is ethereal and full of emotion, there’s a complexity to it that makes you see both light and darkness at the same time. And the lyrics she wrote mysteriously matched the world view I had imagined, it really became a unique song. I hope that Wakana-san's voice will gently light up the hearts of many people in this age of uncertainty.

Toshiaki Matsumoto (”Sono Saki e” - Composer)

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During the production days of "Sono Saki e" I always had everyone’s feelings in mind. I wanted to fully understand the world and thoughts envisioned by my producer Satoshi Takebe-san, all the composers, writers and musicians. That’s why I did my best to carefully challenge each song. While feeling the music soaking into my body, I experienced the joy of unraveling the feelings contained in each and every one of them, adding my voice to them many times during the production process. However, there were also many times when I felt frustration and resentment towards myself, occasionally it was painful and tough, but to be honest, those moments were necessary. What do I feel in this world right now, what do I want to cherish, and what do I want to convey to everyone? I put all these thoughts into my album. When you feel overwhelmed by sadness and loneliness, I hope that there will be a moment when my music can provide solace for your heart, even just a little.

Wakana

[cosmical-flowers]

who's your top three favorite characters from enstars and danganronpa? im curious and havent found someone to talk to about danganronpa in a while hehe

mb i have to post this the day after this was asked because THERES A POST LIMIT???? Im so mad. Anyways. Characters!

Danganronpa + Fanganronpa:

1. Yuki Maeda (SDRA2)

I loveeee his character arc. I like the way he decides to cope with only being the Ult. Lucky Student. His growth from that as well is interesting to me! His backstory intrigues me as well. Hes awesome, top 5 blorbo of mine. His character design also looks cool, I like the school boy fit.

2. Kaede Akumatsu (DRV3)

I died in chapter 1, recovered, and died in chapter 6 again. I like her optimism in the game so much. Shes so cool!!! Also her character design is mad cute. Like the pink and the yellow??? YES!!!!!

3. Teruya Otori (DRA + SDRA2)

the games killed me. I did a character analysis for him cause I made a playlist for him and. HES ME FR!!!!!! i like him a normal amount trust. His character arc is cool and I like how he copes with the death of his friends (im sorry if you dont know dra mutual)

Danganronpa Maingames:

1. Kaede Akumatsu

same statement as before: shes awesome.

2. Makoto Naegi

i love my very plain protagonists so much. I like how he just has the Ult. Lucky Student, and while I’ve seen others talk down on themselves because of it (cough cough YUKI MAEDA), he’s like “cool!” And moves on. I like his optimism as well, and him coping with the killing game. Hes cool.

3. Sonia Nevermind

Hey. how do i mention that i never finished sdra. i erm. got to ch1 and stopped. so uh. I like her fit! It’s very cool. I also like her proper behavior (and I remember correctly from the manga, she also likes murder mystery / true crime. I haven’t read the manga in a bit though.) shes neat!

Enstars:

1. Shinobu Sengoku

he is just. !!!!!!! I like him :D I think his character is very interesting to look at tbh, especially after reading Scroll of the Elements and Chuunibyou. The way he decides to cope with loneliness is going like “oh! I think im meant to be a ninja because they’re always alone too!” And I respect that so much. As an only child myself, he’s just. Cool!!!!!!!

(I also struggle with Identifying voices sometimes in songs and if they’re too similar I cant point them out. He has a really identifiable voice so like when I listen to a song im like “THATS HIM!!!!!” And it makes me happy :D)

2. Subaru Akehoshi

The lore… uwagh. I love when really cheery characters are more than that because it’s me fr. Im happy go lucky, Im also sometimes sad!!! I also like Trickstar in general because I like the orthodoxness of the group (is that a word. prob not.) And he is just!!! Silly!!! He should be allowed to do as many antics as he wants. BIGBANG REFLECTION!! that song is so good.

3. Hiiro Amagi

difficult choice tbh. But gets the spot since he was the first one I had a major hyper fixation on. I like how he decided to deal with being in a new environment and what he does. I think of scout white lilies everyday too. Its one of the first ones I read. Anyways, I also like his red hair and how he has an undercut. Its awesome to me.

[m1ckeyb3rry]

SHSHSHS HONORARY MUTUAL SHUT UP IM SO HONORED!!!! Also @/i-am-so-strange you’re too kind!!!!! Hsjshsjs always happy to provide more bllk content hehe but also thank YOU for supplying us with that glorious art I really got a kick out of seeing that LMAO I’m ngl stressing hiori is one of my favorites HAHAHA

BRO I LOST IT AT THE YUKI MARIOKART!!! We’re literally being stalked it’s insane….yes Reddit is definitely….a place…..honestly I only really use it when I wanna see non bot reviews for things and occasional bllk news because there’s usually at least one chronically online member active whos posting the latest stuff….

LMAOOOO NO ITS SO FUNNY HAHSGSHAAH ok but that makes more sense I feel like it’d be hard to expand too much on a request like that!! I love how it coincidentally lined up with Isagi being difficult/not as interesting to write about though LMAO

Wait that’s a good point HAHAHA maybe your inner tabieitaken agenda seeped out and you attracted side character enjoyers (me)……is that a sign to slide in secondary main character thoughts /j that is pretty hilarious though……I mean granted I also contributed to the hiori pile a bit when I sent in that like…(wanted to put this note in here that I straight up FORGOT what I wrote omg let’s see how long it takes me to scroll and find that ask I could’ve sworn I wrote it down somewhere but the fact that I don’t remember exactly what I wrote down is kinda embarrassing LMAO)

LMAOOO no because I love the idea of building up ego nation and just leaving like idk those cheesy stories where the lore is like yeah our great founders/creators one day disappeared HAHAHAHAAH I forgot that the man canonically doesn’t do laundry or cook decent food so that’s true too I’m here for the long ride though if you do end up writing that at some point then we can truly become the fake ego nationals LMAOO

MEGUMI I love megumi too omg bruh the recent events in jjk are really not good for the soul someone bring back megumi and his shadow animals :( Ah yes very brief Yuta interlude LMAOO (pi slapped so hard) also SHDJSH GET OUT SHIN AHS MY FAV TOO I also really liked Kija too!! I’m still sad that they didn’t continue with the anime though I heard it’s because it was just promo for the manga? Man. Ok but being converted by content is a little too real it happens to me too often….you know what’s funny. I saw a tiktok roasting Karasu for being number 3 and then like disappearing and I remember saying to my friend “yikes I don’t even like Karasu but why’d they do him so dirty” haha. Ha. I have no idea how it spiraled from there but it was quite literally shortly after that moment. But yeah I’ve definitely been converted by a good edit or piece of art! I’m pretty certain I started liking chigiri after seeing some fanart someone showed me LMAO

No I have full faith in you….you’re cooking in Michelin chef mode…so take your time LMAOOO it really does make me realize yet again that no one is serving Karasu nation like you s2 bring my man some justice….ok genuinely crazy has me really curious like if we’re talking genuinely crazy via Mira standards I’m eyeballing something around 30k (don’t say anything to this LMFAO)

WHEN I TELL YOU I LAUGHED SO HARD “I’d stay downstairs when my brother has friends over” IS SO FUNNY??? I’m actually crying but also agree!! I usually don’t watch as much slice of life to begin with so

the oikawa thing is actually so funny as a running joke now but I think (I’m also not a hardcore hq fan nor have I dipped my toes in the hq circles on social media) it stemmed from people actually thinking oikawa was really mean…? Maybe?? But if that was the case I’m like…..he seems pretty regular to me….seeing people put him next to like Sukuna and Kenjaku though is so hilarious LMAOOO

“#unfortunately idt I am built for the sports manga/anime life” AHAHABAAHHAAHAH you really were in for it LMFAOOOO

The soccer dudebro side of the fandom…ah yes….you know sometimes I forget dudebros actually watch and then I’m painfully reminded by some power scaling tiktok…this is also oddly specific but I remember seeing Maddie on tiktok talk about how she traded some blind bag keychain pull with a dudebro and gave her Kunigami to him for nagi or Reo or some Nagi Reo combo keychain and I really thought to myself like wait dude bros watch and buy merch?? Then I realize it makes sense that he wanted Kunigami LOL

HAHA Honesty translating is so fun and gives me more opportunities to use the target language too so I got you!!! <3 Classic Otoya activities indeed….CHATTER X CHATTER CHEMICAL REACTION IS CRAZY guys we are devouring bllk itself we devoured kaneshiro now he’s gotta give us his seat as bllk creator!!!!!! And also ok good I’m glad LOL I didn’t want to be like rapid fire pinging your inbox and messing up anything HAHAH

Oh…omg…….wait I hope that all worked out ok for you because omg….yeah that’s so awkward and honestly sounds like a nightmare…..hoping you get some platonic male irls too!!! Maybe you just have too much rizz LMFAO well….at least you didn’t find out during the actually dinner ig!

-Karasu anon

LMAOOO idk if i follow you or not but trust i would if i don’t…you’re like one of my tumblr besties atp HAHAHA one of my elite employees 🫡 and YES that art cracked me up poor hiori was struggling

to be honest if i’m looking smth up or i have a question i always go straight to the reddit results…truly it’s the best place for research questions because you can tell by upvotes how accurate smth is and especially if you’re looking for an answer about the contemporary world it’s better to get answers from people who live that experience vs study it!! so i can never be a full reddit hater even if some sections of the community are horrific

HAHAH i think a more focused prompt like that might’ve made me struggle for ANY character but yeah it coinciding w isagi definitely made me do a double take…although i would def write for him again if anyone else ever requested for him LMAOO i just wouldn’t seek out writing him on my own the way i do w tabieita and nagi

LMAOOO i give off a general aura of side character enjoyment 😩🙏🏻 that was back when my blog was only nagi themed too and he’s pretty popular so i’m surprised i didn’t get more reqs for him too!! you can always slide secondary main character thoughts my way 😋😏 but yeah i just found it funny that i’ve gotten more reqs for karasu than literally any other character…maybe too it’s because once i wrote for a side character the people who are into more random characters realized i would write for them and came to req?? vs people who like more popular characters have a wide range of people they can req/read from so they might not even see my blog in the results compared to me being one of very few authors who writes longer fics in the hiori/karasu/otoya/etc tags…idk if that makes sense but it could be one explanation

no because idk if you saw the vol30 color spread with the coaches but why is ego looking lowkey kinda…like sure i’ll join ego nation myself if i must HFJDDNJSSN

OMG YONA OF THE DAWN FAN???? you are officially my fav person ever I LOVEEEE YONA OF THE DAWN I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU ALSO LIKE SHINAH BCKDNFJSDJDMSN WHY ARE WE THE SAME PERSON 😭😭😭 he’s my fav ever omg…besides him i rlly liked hak and soowon 😓 but shinah is my number one my bae my man 👹 forever hoping for a reboot of the show because from what i’ve heard the manga is sooo good and yona is such a well written fmc!! i need them to get mappa level animation and finish the whole show 😔 i’m surprised they haven’t yet it’s one of the most popular mangas i’ve heard?? i know SOOO many people would watch it if it came out plus it would appeal to such a broad audience because it truly has everything 😩 okay sorry for the brief rant i just love yona of the dawn i wish the fandom wasn’t NONEXISTENT because it has so much potential for fics art and analysis!!

i’ve learned to never say i don’t like a character because almost immediately after i WILL fall in love with them!! idek how i started liking karasu because after season one i could not tell you who karasu otoya or any of the others were (i did remember liking yukimiya though)…after i finished the show i was SET on not reading the manga because i thought it wouldn’t be as fun as watching it animated but the same mutual who convinced me to watch the show told me to read the manga and eventually i caved 😩 and that was when i was like “ok lowkey why is karasu so fine…” but it wasn’t until i took a break halfway through third selection to read epinagi that i really became a FAN 🤔 at least i think that’s how it happened HFJDJSN i don’t remember it as well as i remember becoming a fan of nagi (didn’t gaf abt him until i realized i was lowkey giggling at his scenes in team z vs team v…tried to hold out as a rin fan throughout second selection but it was impossible and then i was the number one nagi fan before i knew it)

i will not comment on your prediction 🤐 but michelin star meal OMG i can only hope it’s that good…truly i am doing what i can for karasu nation 😭🙏🏻 laying a foundation for those to come after me (aka his fandom which will surely grow after s2) 🤞🏻 i wonder what his fanon version will look like actually 🤔 are we going to get fboy tabito??? hopefully not because aiku and otoya are right there but bby karasu is a sarcastic dark haired handsome asshole who’s secretly a sweetheart so i do fear he’s going to be bastardized a la the itoshis a bit 😔 at least i can imagine him being flirty even if i do think he’s too much of a loser and undercover loverboy to ever sleep around or anything

i guess by slice of life/chill anime standards oikawa might seem mean?? like he’s nothing compared to sukuna/kenjaku or even kaiser but in comparison to others in the show he might be ruder hence the general perception of him being as such…no idea though 😩 i agree it is funny seeing him in the top villain compilations

LMAOOO I HAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME TRULY now i’m in so deep but like i love it…the bllk community on tumblr is also rlly fun and i’ve made so many mutuals/friends because of being active in the fandom which has been awesome!! no regrets for sure

PLEASEEE the dudebros are awful but also hilarious to me like lowkey i love them because they simply are so unreal like NO ONE irl talks like that 😭 one time i commented on a bllk dudebro’s tik tok and my comment was the only one he responded to despite how many of his fellow dudebros also commented…tell me that was the most interaction you’ve had w a woman in weeks without telling me 😓 but also omg the chokehold that kunigami and barou have on dudebros HAHAH i’m always scared to say i like barou because i need to specify it’s NOT in a dudebro way it’s in a “he’s my housewife and i love him very much” way

PLS WE DEVOURED KANESHIRO FR entering destroyer mode now…watch out the tongue’s abt to make an appearance 😩

unfortunately i have a lot of accidental rizz 😔 one time i actually didn’t realize i was on a date (i thought it was a family hangout) until the guy’s mom told us she was leaving so she didn’t third wheel us and then i had to pretend i had a boyfriend so i could escape 😭 that was a crazy day because that guy knew i was in love with his best friend?? so idk what he thought he was doing there…anyways this time i just pretended like my father wasn’t allowing me to hangout with anyone so i got out of it 😪 unfortunately no matter how hard i try to have male friends irl it inevitably ends up with them asking me out and me saying no 💔 one day it will be different i hope 😩

[lostbutterflyutau]

(The picture is old, but it's the only one I have)

With Fruits Basket Mondays coming up and me wanting to do some of the prompts, I figured I should introduce y'all to my Furuba OC. Because in my mind, there is no Fruits Basket without her, so you'll be seeing a lot of her in my upcoming ficlets.

*** Shima Sohma is an aspiring writer and Shigure’s younger sister who joins his household shortly before Tohru, Kyo and Yuki begin their second year in high school. Though she is initially regarded as a side-character in Fruits Basket, she plays a major role in the events of my headcanon sequel, After Story.

Personality Shima is a gentle, reserved girl who tries to keep a positive outlook. She doesn’t like when other people are down and will always do her best to make them smile when they are. She also joins her brother in making jokes when she’s not scolding him. However, she’s also shown to have a rather serious, secretive side due to her knowing the darker sides of the Sohma family and the Zodiac curse. As a result, she forces herself to keep her emotions in check and has been known to suppress her own desires in favour of family interests. Early on, she is described by Tohru as having a hidden sadness in her eyes that betrays her loving, happy smiles.

Despite her need to often swallow her own emotions, Shima is shown to be rather loving and affectionate to those she cares about. She is unwaveringly loyal and can be rather overprotective over certain members of the family. She absolutely hates seeing others hurt and will go to the ends of the earth and back to make it right if she has to. With the affection also comes a caring, motherly side that she shows first in her worrying over Kyo, Yuki, Tohru, Isuzu and later on, the girls of the Flowering Trio, especially Seiya. She offers advice when asked and always seems to be there when someone needs a hand and a shoulder to cry on. It’s been speculated that this may be part of her way of dealing with the awkward position of being outside the Zodiac circle, but also not a full “outsider” due to being in the main family. It’s a way for her to feel useful when she’s lost in the shuffle of things.

Following the breaking of the curse, Shima begins to drop her secretive, reserved side and begins showing off her positive fun-loving side more, revealing herself to also be a bit of a flirt in the process.

Fashion Note    Shima prefers casual, comfortable clothing that’s both durable and fashionable. She usually wears dresses and skirts paired with either layered tops or simple shirts accessorised with cardigans or jackets. In the cooler weather, she adds leggings to these outfits and, in winter, opts for tights, only donning pants when she absolutely has to. Colour wise, she is typically drawn to pinks, blues and purples in varying shades. She tends to gravitate towards plainer styles and doesn’t particularly like wearing patterned clothing or gaudy accessories.

Role in Canon Shima is Shigure’s junior by seven years and was largely ignored by him for the first few years of her life. He was rather indifferent to the idea of having a sibling and didn’t even have anything to say the first time he saw her after she was born. To him, she was just there one day. And also an occasional inconvenience the few times he was charged with watching over her.   

However, despite his early indifference towards her, once she got older and started showing an interest in stories and books, the shared interest combined with them often being left to their own devices due to their parents’ busy schedules, led to them forming a close bond. Or as close as Shigure will let himself be to someone. She is one of the few people we do not see him manipulate, though it is speculated this is more because she’s never fit into his larger plan, even if her presence irritated Akito when they were younger.

Part of the reason that Shima clings to her brother is that he is her only real, true friend. She had trouble making friends at school due to her living on “the inside” and having to follow the rules that disallowed outsiders. The other girls at school decided that, because of her family status and the fact she never invited them over, she didn’t want to associate with them and thought herself above them. This led to her being outcasted and sometimes bullied by her classmates.

In her first official appearance Shima shows up on the doorstep of her brother’s house one early February afternoon and is greeted by Tohru, however, before she can introduce herself, Shigure walks by and is subsequently ambushed and transformed by this girl who Yuki identifies as “Shima.” A brief conversation reveals her as Shigure’s sister and a second-year university student who transferred to a local school after having trouble fitting in at her first choice. She declares that she is going to be living in the house, having been promised a place by Shigure the previous semester. However, he reveals that a lot happened and that since Kyo and Tohru moved in, there’s little space, forcing Shima to share a room with her older brother after some thorough cleaning and organization.

Following that cleaning, Shima accompanies Tohru on a grocery shopping trip in an attempt to get to know her a little better. During this trip, Tohru learns that despite not being part of the Zodiac, Shima has her own set of troubles that come with being the “normal” sister of one who is cursed. However, before she gets too far into the story, Shima cuts herself off and tells Tohru not to worry about it.

From that point on, Shima spends much of the series alternating between being an observer and a player in the main events of the story. She is revealed to be attending university alongside Kagura and is studying literature with the hope of becoming a proper novelist like her brother.

Shima, Kagura and Isuzu attended the same middle and high schools. However, despite Shima’s constant attempts to form a true friendship, Isuzu has typically regarded her coolly, presumably because she was simply afraid of and confused by Shima’s advances and kindness with her own history of abuse and Shima’s closeness with her manipulative brother. As a result, Isuzu constantly pushed her away, even though, deep inside she wanted to accept Shima’s affections.

Despite the distance she put between them, Shima still watched over and worried about her, even visiting her in the hospital against her wishes. It isn’t until after Tohru manages to soften her heart that Isuzu finally begins to open up to Shima, who not only rushed out to help comfort her as she clung to Tohru but also assisted in making gelatine, which she identifies as one of the few foods she’ll eat while in hospital.

After spending time with Isuzu following an altercation with Akito at New Years in which, after a chance meeting in the hall following the incident with Yuki, an already enraged Akito grabbed and proceeded to swing her around by her hair until Kureno and Shigure stopped it, Shima becomes increasingly curious over the secrets and plans that her brother is keeping when Isuzu reveals that she went to ask himabout breaking the curse. She also points out the fact that he’s always been close to Akito as reason to be concerned – especially after what happened to Shima a few nights prior. However, for all her efforts, Shima finds that she just can’t figure out what he’s doing, not until she overhears him speaking to Tohru at Kazuma’s dojo while on her way to visit Isuzu. Coming around the opposite side of the house, she stops and slinks back behind the building when she hears his voice, and though Isuzu does see her, she says nothing.  

The following night, though Shigure is out late, Shima waits up for him. When he slides open the door to their room, he’s greeted by Shima sitting in his chair. She turns her head in his direction and, using his full name – which she only does when she’s angry – says they need to talk. She then continues on to say that she overheard him at the dojo and questions if not only what he said about the ending of the curse is true, but if he’s actually been using Tohru as one of those “changes” the whole time. He doesn’t answer, but the look he gives sets off an emotional tirade that ends with her claiming that, “This isn’t a family. It’s a goddamn circus act! And you’re trying to be the ringmaster!”

Shima then goes to smack him, but Shigure catches her hand and tells her to mind her own business. Knowing that there’s no more to be said, she pulls her hand from his grasp and goes to leave, stopping only to say that she doesn’t believe he – or anyone else in the Zodiac – is a monster.  

The conversation puts a wedge between the siblings. Shima retreats into herself and becomes rather aloof and far more quiet than usual, as his reaction marks the first time in a long while Shigure has outright rejected her, leaving her feeling left out and useless. This rift appears to be silently mended following Tohru’s fall from the cliff and everyone’s focused shifting to her as both seemingly realise that there are more important things at stake. She also previously ran off with Yuki to find Kyo and along with the former, is the one to find Tohru at the bottom of the cliff, covering her with her cardigan after being the one to lean over and confirm that she’s breathing. And, during Tohru’s hospital stay, Shima assumes her household duties on top of her own without a complaint and reassures her during a visit that while she is missed, for the time being, the house is running just fine.  

During the breaking of the curse, Shima is shown with Shigure at the house, and when she notices his change in demeanour and goes to ask what’s wrong, he grabs her wrist and pulls her towards him, saying that he knows how long she’s “waited to do this” as he hugs her for the first time. However, he also says that there is one more thing and, shortly afterwards, Shima is introduced to Akito as a woman in a private meeting.

After learning this and listening carefully to her story, she offers a hand of friendship to Akito that the other woman reluctantly accepts. Shima is then seen leaning against Shigure with her own book in hand after Akito reveals herself to the younger members of the zodiac. After hearing the footsteps, she silently reaches up and tugs on her brother’s shirt to get his attention, he gives her a look and she stands without a word, only pausing to give Akito a smile before exiting the room.

Finally, in the last chapter and episode of the anime, Shima and Akito are out shopping together and engaging in playful banter to which Shigure comments that they’re “Getting along as fine as ever” with the girls commenting that their tiff is just “part of being besties,” signalling that, not only has Akito accepted Shima’s friendship, but that they’re close enough to be considered best friends. 

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Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

I have, but luckily I enjoy gushing about some of my favorite characters aksjdklkgl so I'm happy to answer again! Last time I just listed some but this time I'll 1. Do a limit of one per series and 2. Give an actual description of why I love them. Also I'm so sorry this will be mostly animanga characters just because these characters stick in my head easier for some reason? My memory is truly awwwwful. (Also also this is by no means a definitive list or order, just some that I really really like).

Zoro (One Piece)

I feel like I've talked a fair length about Sanji and Robin and why I love them so much, but I have a little bit of a difficult time with Zoro. Fun fact before I started watching one of the few things I knew was that he was a fan favorite an was determined that I wouldn't like him that much, he's the "cool and badass and broody" one and I thought he was gonna be the kind of character similar to Megumi (JJK) or maybe Bakugou (MHA) both who I like but it's not favorite archetype. But then I realized. He's just a Guy. a Silly Guy. My man is stupid in such interesting and unique ways ajfdklsl. But what I REALLY love about his character is , yeah, he is kind of broody and reserved, but it seems more like a burden he puts on himself in order to protect the people he loves rather than a true reflection of himself. He cares SO much about the people that he loves and it's clear to me that his greatest fear is not being strong enough to protect them. His "I need to get stronger" attitude honestly seems to stem a looot from his anxieties and maybe even trauma around losing Kuina at such a young age. Ok I could talk forever about him and it's actually not difficult to pin down why I love him but I'll end it there.

2. Kenjaku (JJK)

I've kind of built a bubble within my online presence where I don't really see the vitriol, but I know this is REALLY not a popular opinion, and a lot of people are confused as to why I really like them (biggest offender is my sister who gives me shit for this constantly lmao). And I get it! Kenjaku is genuinely vile in what they have done (particularly as Kamo Noritoshi) and what they're trying to do with the merger. By all means he shouldn't (isn't) supposed to be likeable. But they REALLY captured my attention when I caught up to JJK back in August and read the Culling Games arc in full. For starters, silly guy, and I love silly guys (see above example). They're pretty unique where they fall into this "mad yet cold scientist" trope but...they're playful? They're genuinely excited about sorcery and will be kind of annoying where, for the life of them, they CANNOT read the room that everyone just doesn't care or actively hates them (which makes me a little sad honestly lol)? Little bits of information were just constantly intriguing (their relationship to Tengen, being a foil to Yuki, and not to even start on them being Yuji's mom). What really cemented it for me was the Takaba vs. Kenjaku fight though. Kenjaku before this seems driven to keep going for scientific curiosity, but it's clear to me that they're bored, disappointed, and even seem depressed a little bit ("And yet...there must be more to human potential"). But then Takaba comes along. And they honestly have an instant connection while also pushing each other in ways nobody has before. Isn't that insane on Kenjaku's part? They've been alive for over 1000 years!! They find someone who understands them, they might be enemies but they are a duo. Gahhh I could talk about Kenjaku forever they have so many layers and they just fascinate me SO much.

3. Yona (Yona of the Dawn)

One of my favorite protagonists of all time, without a doubt. And I didn't even like her in the beginning (you're not supposed to really). At the beginning of the series, she's honest to god, a spoiled brat. She whines, she complains, she's incredibly weak and takes people for granted. But good god, this is one of the best character arcs I have ever seen in my life. When her entire world is thrown upside down and she's betrayed by her childhood best friend, and has to go on the run with Hak, she just matures and grows into herself so beautifully. She travels around her kingdom for the first time and sees the complexity of the situation where, yeah, she lost her father because of Soo-Won, and that hurts still, but she understands why because it becomes kind of clear that her father was pretty incompetent as a ruler. If I picked one character on this list that just has the best character development, Yona sweeps I'm sorry.

4. Killua (HxH)

Ugh this really should be both Gon and Killua but if I had to choose one it's Killua. Another great example of amazing character development. At the beginning he's already a fun character to watch, he's easygoing and quippy and just cool honestly. But with his upbringing as an assassin he's clearly not very...well adjusted to what a normal life looks like. He's raised to be a cold and ruthless killer and nothing more, and that's reflected in the Hunter exam arc when he swipes a guy's heart from his chest without a second thought. But then he meets Gon, and for the first time in his life he gets to just be a normal 12 year old boy? And as he goes on this adventure you can just see him become more human to the point he can't ever return to how he was at the beginning of the series. And to have that parallel with Gon (particularly in the Chimera Ant arc) where Gon is losing his humanity while Killua gains it?? UGH I want to give this kid a hug so bad I love him.

5. Riza Hawkeye (FMA)

On this list because she sent me into my first gay panic (at least, the first one I was consciously aware of LMAO). God, what a woman. She is incredibly hot but I do love her character as well. It's hard to talk about her without also talking about Roy (and vice versa) because they are just SO intertwined, but god if there were ever soulmates, it's maybe them. Just the level of respect and trust they have in each other is unlike anything I've ever seen, where they both are so haunted by their pasts but they keep each other going and are able to so easily rely on each other? Ugh they're just so amazing, and with Riza seeing how strong she is where her own father uses her to protect flame alchemy, and her just 100% trust in Roy to burn the tattoo?? Wowowowowow she just. She changed me.

6. Anatole (The Great Comet of 1812/War and Peace)

Ok so um. My big secret is that I'm a Musical person. I really don't talk about it much here lmao, but when I tell you I was like. Obsessed with the musical The Great Comet of 1812 for a solid two years that's no joke. Which is just. If you don't know a musical that adapts about 90 pages from the novel War and Peace (stick with me here). And my even bigger secret is that I'm obsessed with Anatole, who is the villain/antagonist. Um he's not even particularly deep I don't think, he just sucks. But he captured my heart by being a silly guy. This man is an arrogant piece of shit man but also kind of a coward, and him singing the line "Just as a duck is made to swim in water, God has made me as I am" to justify him cheating, I-...it changed something in me. Never before or after have I wanted to dissect a character's brain so much in my life. He's maybe the first silly villain that I just really loved lmao, maybe there's a Anatole -> Kenjaku pipeline (this pipeline only exists for me and no one else in this world).

7. Toph (Avatar the Last Airbender)

God choosing between Zuko and Toph was difficult for this entry, but I want to talk about Toph lmao. Just. What a unique and refreshing female character where I still think her writing is ahead of it's time. Just on the surface she's so fucking cool right. What an introduction where she's soloing all these musclehead earthbenders and putting grown men into the dirt. And such good representation of a disabled character where she's clearly not incapable and the things she can do well, she does really really well! But she is faced with the reality of needing help sometimes and she's not ashamed to ask for it, and I think there's this really good balance struck with her character between these two factors. I think she also just blends into the gaang seamlessly while also challenging them in new ways, and vice versa, and they really don't seem complete without her.

8. Eurydice (Hadestown)

Ok oooonnnnneee more musical character and this is definitely more justified lmao. Another big secret is that I love Greek mythology, was obsessed with it as a kid and still am. And Hadestown twisting the Orpheus and Eurydice story into this grim early 20th century industrialist/capitalist setting with jazz elements?? I'm a history major I'm such a BIG nerd for shit like this, and this is the best iteration of Eurydice to me. In the original myth, she gets sent to the underworld because a snake bites her, there isn't any agency to it, it's just bad luck essentially. In the musical, she CHOOSES to go down with Hades to the underworld, and that small thing does wonders for her character. She obviously loves Orpheus, but the fact is, she's going hungry and growing cold, and where before she would run away, she stayed for her love of Orpheus. And then Hades slips in to offer her food and shelter for the exchange of labor, and she leaves to the underworld, not realizing the colossal mistake she just made. She's such a flawed character but you understand why she makes the mistakes she does, and her character is just so incredibly human.

9. Mob (Mob Psycho 100)

This kiiiiiiid. God I love him. Apologies to Gojo but this is just the best instance of an "OP" character. This kid has busted ass psychic powers, powers that people literally worship. Unfortunately this doesn't save him from any of the horrors that middle school presents. He can't talk to his crush, he kinda sucks at sports, and he has little to no social skills. And on top of that he feels the need to suppress his emotions due to the consequences of his powers? GAHHH I just think Mob is maybe one of the relatable characters ever, you can be the best at something but that doesn't save you from the growing pains that being a teenager presents! And just his journey of self acceptance and kindness and love is so heartwarming to see, the way he resolves his insecurities throughout the series just healed something in me too.

10. Sophie Hatter (Howl's Moving Castle)

HMC isn't even my all time favorite Ghibli movie (top 3 though), but it's certainly the one I've gone back to the most and that's in large part due to Sophie. At the beginning of the movie, she certainly isn't in a bad place in life but there is this...melancholy? sadness? to her where it seems life is more happening to her and she has zero self esteem. When the curse is placed on her and then we can literally see her character journey and the ups and downs being reflected in her appearance, it's just so unique and realistic. It's so satisfying to see her start to actually live her life, to gain confidence in all of her various states, and how she helps both her new found family and how they help her as well. Another character where her development is just unmatched.

Thank you for sending this ask, I had a lot of fun rambling here <3