#birthdaywoe

[emmecordeiro]

Why are birthday cakes so damn expensive????

[callmecaoimhin]

80 days of No Social Media

I started this off with the intention of taking 100 days off of social media. Partially to clear my head. Partially to allieviate distractions. Mostly to reduce the feelings of anxiety, jealousy, frustration, and a swinging pendulum between the highest of highs and lowest of lows in the matter of seconds. 

I’m due to “return” on April 11th (the 101st day), which is coincidently my birthday. I faced up to the reality that this would have been disastrous for my emotional wellbeing. My birthdays as of late have consisted of me feeling guilty for not having acheived as much as I would have liked, for not having had as much fun as I thought I should have, for not being better, doing more. So having to contend with seeing my social feeds for the first time in over 3 months alongside those feelings...well, it would have been awful. So through a conversation with a friend, I made the choice to extend my hiatus. To 120 days. Still a round number. Still a good amount of time off. And it puts off the apprehension I will feel about going back on the grid.

Regardless, I think this break has helped to rewire my brain. I don’t feel the urge to check my phone as much anymore. I don’t feel the addictive pull. The FOMO. 

Anyway, this concludes my sporadic updates on my progress during this wee project of mine. Not many people see it, but I like putting them down anyway. For me.