#billie eillish fanfic

[hmhas-00]

Ch. 2

Hit me Hard & Soft

word count - 1.6k

A/N - dont forget to like and rb ♡

Starting next week, my new posting schedule will be Tuesdays & Thursdays! Stay tuned!

Billie's POV

Sitting in my studio, I tweaked with the autotune feature to perfect the extended version of L’amour De Ma Vie. I didn’t realize it was already 5AM until my phone buzzed. I looked down at my lap as the screen lit up, showcasing a text from Remy.

Remy: Wish me luck! Fingers crossed I’m not fired after last week. 5:02am

Billie: 🤞🏻 5:02am

Billie: I’ll pick you up later and we’ll head to the Rolling Stone interview together? 5:03am

My eyes glossed over the screen waiting for her to reply, as I straightened my back on the chair. I locked it and put it on the table, returning my focus to my production set up. With the amount of bullshit she’s dealing with, I have a feeling Remy might bail today and I can’t blame her. In the back of my mind, I wished she wouldn’t. Finneas was so busy with his own album, so I told him to do his own thing tonight. Truth is, I didn’t want to show up to any of these things alone. Was that selfish? Lately, everything I feel is amplified, including that lonely, empty feeling I get around normal people bedtime. That’s when I did my best writing in the past year. It’s nerve-racking having all of my thoughts and emotions broadcasted to the world, and now that the tour is coming up, all I can think about is how I’ll do it alone.

The phone buzzed, bringing me out of my own mind. Upon opening, I sighed and replied while getting up to finally go to bed.

Remy: I’ll just meet you there. I have a lot of work to do today I don’t wanna make you late. 5:15am

Billie: Okay, see you there. 5:15am

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The alarm rattled my brain, startling me to death. I flopped down my arm, patting around next to me and managed to find the source. My phone had 2 missed calls and a text from Remy. She let me know she’d be a bit late but would make it no matter what. Pulling a hair tie out of my tangled mess, I dragged my tired body out of bed to get ready for the interview.

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“Billie, you’re going to be sitting over here, and Gabe is going to be interviewing you today, sitting over there.”

The coordinator waved me over in the right direction. I sat quietly and waited for the crew to finish up lighting and camera. Eventually, my interviewer walked over and made himself comfortable.

I laughed in disbelief and looked over at the coordinator, “Gabe?”

“Yup.” He leaned forward, holding his hand out to shake mine. He looked so pleased with himself. I ignored his reach, raising my brow. “Okay… nice to see you again, Billie.” He sat back and stifled a laugh.

I chewed on the inside of my cheek, and glared at him. Thinking about having to act civil around this piece of garbage for the cameras is making me sick. God, I cannot stand him and his stupid face.

“Are we ready?” He cleared his throat.

I adjusted in my seat, looking around one more time past the studio lights and saw no Remy. “Yeah.” I could tell these bright lights would bring on a wave of tics, if not the unfortunate situation before me. Cameras closed in and the interview began.

I was basically on autopilot, trying not to destroy this man with my eyes. The last time I was face to face with Remy’s ex was 2 years ago. I was screaming at him to get the fuck out of her apartment. She made him pick up his things after he broke up with her for some other girl. Gabe swore he was just chasing a job offer in NYC, but Remy had seen messages between him and someone else planning to meet up. I stood at Remy’s side as he denied everything. He started a crazy argument and threw a glass across the room. I was on the other side of the room faster than he could react. Remy had never seen me that angry before.

“So! Your fans want to know. Who did you write Lunch about?” Gabe asked, knowing it would piss me off.

“That’s what you want to ask me? Of all things?” I laughed.

“Curious if I know her, is all.” He shifted in his seat and shrugged, nonchalantly. I wanna rip off his dumb smirk so bad.

I looked over at the cameras to have my very own The Office moment, but my eyes were drawn to none other than Remy. She awkwardly stood with her arms folded. I gave her a satisfied smile and when she waved at me, I quickly realized this is the last situation she probably wanted to walk into.

“No, It’s just a metaphor. I want people to think about who they want to eat for lunch. It’s just a fun song.” I crossed my legs and resumed eye contact with him, reminding myself to not look unfriendly for the cameras.

“You’re obviously very private about your love life.” He flipped through his notecards. I tilted my head, focusing on how stupid his stage voice sounds. “You came out last year-”

“This isn’t exactly news.” I squinted my eyes, smiling sarcastically. “Do you have any questions about my new album, Gabe?” I chuckled a bit.

He laughed, brushing me off. He asked a few questions about the album and I dragged out the answers as much as I could, so he wouldn’t have time to ask anymore stupid questions.

I managed to muscle through the rest of the interview and as soon as it was over I walked over to Remy, leaving him behind.

We walked into the room I left my phone in. “What the fuck.” Remy mouthed and pulled me into a hug.

“I know, let’s fucking go.” I grabbed her arm and started walking towards the exit.

“Remy! Hey!” Gabe shouted, making his way over to us. “How have you been?”

I could feel Remy mentally wilting away. “Good, good…Crazy seeing you here.” She spoke softly, smiling timidly.

“Well, I’ve been great!” He held his arms out, arrogant as can be, as if anyone asked.

“Did New York not work out?” I butted in.

“It did, but Los Angeles is home, you know?” He responded matter-of-factly, not even bothering to look at me. “You know I just chase better gigs. Better opportunities.”

“Yeah… Good for you, I’m happy for you, Gabe.” She smiled, keeping her voice sweet and mellow.

“You still working at uhh…” This idiot couldn’t even remember where she worked. I always hated him. He didn’t care enough about her. She deserved way better.

“Yeah, I’m-“ Remy was cut off.

“Maybe we should grab lunch one day. Catch up, you know?” He stepped closer to her.

I watched her face as she struggled to come up with an excuse. “Uh, I don’t know. Maybe-“

“She’s actually good, she just doesn’t want to hurt your little feelings.” I crinkled my nose as I forced a smile at him, turning us towards the door.

“Billie, it’s fine-“ Remy grabbed my arm with her free hand and held it there.

Gabe laughed, knowing how deep under my skin he could get. “You look good, Rem. We’ll talk later without distractions.” He looked her up and down, licking his bottom lip.

I glared at him, imagining me shoving him away from her just like I did a couple years ago.

He looked down at me and paused for a second, his lips forming an overly confident smirk. He stood close enough for me to smell that gross overpowering cologne. I could feel myself tensing up and clenching my jaw.

“What, you don’t get enough attention?” I lifted my chin, looking in his dark eyes.

He breathed out a laugh, poking his tongue into his cheek. “Why, you want to share some with me?”

I took a step forward, causing Remy to put her arm between us. “Come on, Billie.” She put some pressure on his chest, causing him to lean back a bit. “Let’s go.”

He looked down at Remy’s hand pressing on his chest, then back at me sneering.

“Billie, please.” I let Remy pull me away, knowing if I stayed any longer I’d break something on his face.

He laughed to himself. “It was nice seeing you both. Good to see nothing has changed.”

“Yeah, absolutely nothing.” Remy emphasized, pushing me in front of her so we’d walk away.

We walked out past the fans screaming and reaching their hands through the holes on the fence, and straight into her car. As much as it killed me not to say goodbye to them, I didn’t have it in me to fake it.

“I hated that.” Remy began, starting her car and letting out a deep breath.

“I’m sorry, Remy, I could not stand his stupid fucking face. He was doing that shit to be disrespectful and I’m not gonna let him-“

“You can’t do shit like that! What if someone saw and wrote or posted about it?”

I put my seatbelt on, knowing I could’ve taken the high road.

“Dude you’re not actually thinking about seeing him right?”

“What? No! Why would I?” She pulled out of the parking lot, careful not to hit any fans.

“You seemed happy to see him.” I looked out the window as the people waving blurred from the increase in speed.

“No. I wasn’t. I just wasn’t going to attack him in front of his coworkers, Billie.”

“His team wasn’t in the room.” I mumbled.

She didn’t respond.

“I’m sorry, I just fucking hate him. He’s such a piece of shit.”

“Shit, did you date him too?” She laughed under her breath, looking over at me momentarily.

I laughed, shaking my head and realizing how fast things escalated. My body finally relaxed, sinking into the seat and running my hands through my hair.

[pileofpigeons]

“okay crack theory time: people keep comparing Rogue to the Doctor's past lovers, like River, the Master, Jack, Astrid (RTD even liked a comment saying Rogue is Master-coded, so possibly intentional?) but through the lens of this season being a TV show/story that Ruby is somehow crafting, what if Rogue is literally an amalgamation of all the Doctor's past lovers? The episode makes numerous references to fandom culture and there's a lot of references to modern popular things that a teenage girl like Ruby would be into (the band playing Billie Eillish and Lady Gaga, the excessive Bridgerton references, the ballroom dance scene stolen directly from Pride & Prejudice 2005) Hmmm it's almost like a slash fanfic written by a doctor who fan.... strange…”

—My friend Wyatt who doesn’t have a tumblr

[the-moon-and-stars-4ever]

Hi! If you're doing the Marauders game, then if it's okay, could you guess me?

I don't talk a lot, only with the people I'm comfortable with

I struggle with self destructive tendencies

I play piano and violin and marimbas

I love writing fanfics, but when I write poetry apparently I should start writing more?

I love Chase Atlantic, Billie Eillish, Stray Kids, Enhypen and Taylor Swift.

I'm happier around people, when I'm alone I drown in my thoughts and they become a lot to handle.

Hope this is okay!<3

barty crouch!! <3

[blakeivy80]

I used to float

Now I just fall down,

I used to know,

But I'm not sure now

What I was made for

What was I made for?

Takin' a drive, I was an ideal

Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real

Just something you paid for

What was I made for?

'Cause I, I

I don't know how to feel

But I wanna try

I don't know how to feel

But someday, I might

Someday, I might

What I was made for - Billie Eillish

@threshergm

(thanks again for the gifs ;)

And inspired by the fanfic by @indigograceauthor

[payyoubackwithentrails]

you tasted love, and it tasted sweet ❣️

rae, 19, she/they, bisexual, auDHD

- i make coquette posts, morute posts, and posts about the hollies and my ocs

- my favorite artists are nicole dollanganger, lana del rey, the hollies, cigarettes after sex, mercy necromancy, baby bugs, ethel cain, marina, olivia rodrigo, the beatles, taylor swift, billie eillish, clairo, blackpink and aespa

- my favorite movies are gone girl, girl interrupted, barefoot gen, grave of the fireflies, train to busan, black swan, the x trilogy, priscilla, orphan, and jennifer’s body

- my favorite things to do are makeup, collect plushies, write fanfic, listen to music, edit, cook and bake, play guitar and exercise!

- dni: creeps, tcc (unless you’re just interested, those who simp, bye!) blogs, ists and phobes, morute girlies who hate coquette girlies for silly reasons

[kamastar39]

Kamastar39 Spooktober 2024 Masterlist

Hey guys so I’m posting this a bit late (on the 11th lol) but I wanted to post this. I’m challenging myself to post a drawing daily for Spooktober and beat my longest streak of 2 weeks a few years ago (on a different acc). I’m going to do drawings/sketches daily and then a few scattered fanfics so I’ll update this over the month.

Warning: 🌹 = NSFW (minors DNI)

Super Masterlist

Kofi

Fanfics

1. Ex husband gojo 🌹

2. Five Breaths 🌹

Fanarts

1. Flower vampire

2. Circe

3. Pearl fairy

4. Hermes

5. Medusa

6. A talented woman

7. Shapeshifter

8. Self portrait in my style

9. Another shapeshifter

10. A noblewoman from the summer court

11. Laios Touden

12. scream tattoo

13. Eremika x scream

14. Bella Hadid

15. Matchablossom 🍵 🌸

16. Human Kuromi

17. Alien beauty (Amren)

18. Rihanna sketch

19. Billie eillish

20. Twin flames

21. La llorona

22. Avatar aang

23. Satosugu

24. Pines twins

25. The Six Eyes

26. Wandavision

27. Satosugu colored

28. Geto sketches

29. Kirara in my style

30.

31.

My plight

[my-little-universes]

introduction!

1-15-2025

hi!!! my names my-little-universes but you can call me gabi. idk how to do this but imma wing it. okay here we go.

main fandoms!

the maze runner (down badd)

marvel (also down bad)

harry potter (also down bad pt.2)

the hunger games

stranger things

avatar (blue people)

hamilton (also down bad pt.3)

stray kids

other random shit!

age - why tf you wanna know...???

music - billie eillish (!!), conan gray, mj, stray kids, megan thee stallion, chappell roan, and more.

oh im a girl. and very bi.

i curse a lot. im trying to get better, swear. (im not.)

lovee to read. and write. currently in the middle of writing a tmr fanfic!

into politics a little.

hate the living shit out of school.

my online name is gabi cuz that's what my spanish teacher used to call me cuz she couldn't pronounce my real name 😭

not a fan of math.

my ao3. dont expect regular updates. i edit my shit wayy too much.

okay idk what else to add. bye!

[korrinhorizon]

Haha does anyone wants hear one angst idea I have about Ryan x Johnny x Zotz, which is more focused on Zotz and involves a song in a background for extra dramatic effect? That I may or may not put something similar in my fanfic? And the song may be “The 30th by Billie eillish” :D

[nouvxllev]

i literally love you, thank you so much for tagging me!!!! and might as well answer these while im writing a story (also while balancing a fuck ton of deadlines)

music - honestly, completely random. one day its classical music, another its 80s-00s rock or rnb, another its rap, another its rnb, and on another day its love songs. it just depends the mood, really, but i do find myself listening to 70s-90s music and rnb alot. they just get my spirits up like no other. favs are rini, daniel caesar, gemini, and alan vuong along many others. ofc, i still like taylor swift, sabrina carpenter, olivia rodrigo, but i dont really listen to them at all that much rn (but their songs still goes hard)

life-style - wouldnt say complete shit, but wouldnt say complete happiness either. i cook for myself, work for myself, and live for myself with the addition of my friends and family. my life revolves completely around one routine being school (a fuck ton, even at home), part time, work out, study, and write when i can (which is, rn, literally i have no time for it, sadly). so, for me, its pretty hard to balance all those things together especially when i have other hobbies that i tend to take care of. at weekends, i really try my best to not focus on my academics so ill start writing again, playing guitar, painting, maybe try again at skateboarding (i literally dont know shit about biking, why the fuck am i skateboarding) then just repeat until monday hits. but even so, i wouldn't trade my life to get a slightly better one. im already accustomed to mine, and ill just strive to get a better lifestyle everyday.

writing - tbh i never saw myself actually writing and posting it for hundreds of people to see, it was just a 'fuck it, we ball' situation. my love for books and literally anything thats labeled literature even if its just fanfiction goes beyond limits but i never thought i would be the one thats going to be behind those words. i started writing on wattpad then to ao3 when i realized that i could make writing a hobby even if i suck ass at it, believe it or not, but those were short lived since my motivation eventually dried out. then one day i started going to tumblr more often to read fanfics about j.o and other actors i take interest in and then my fingers suddenly went from scrolling then to actually writing one myself. im not good at writing at all, i try to to be better everyday but i always fall short in my eyes. so imagine my surprise when i posted my first story on here and it got some pretty good feedback that eventually led me to here. i never even thought about people seeing it or even my account growing, so thank you for the people who decided that my stories were worth their mind and, most especially, their time. i write for all of them.

me - actually, i dont know. took the 16personalities quiz and it says that im an infp. im a people pleaser by heart and a idgaf person by mind (i listen to my heart more, if you couldnt tell) im a hopeless romantic with a penchant of falling inlove as if i could get someone to like me back, cries alot at the smallest things especially when someone im near with is crying, reaching for my career even if it means i would have to go through dantes inferno to even get the slightest bit of a perfect score. my family describes me as someone who they shouldnt talk in the early asscrack in the morning and whenever its a stressful week. it just equals to receiving the nastiest silent treatment. people tell me i look like jenna ortega and ariana greenblatt or that they remind me of billie eillish and finn wolfhard. its a weird mix up between the four of them. theres alot going on with me, but im a cat lover!! thats literally it.

thank you sm for tagging me bae, love ya!!

+ i dont really have any friends on tumblr 🥲 ill just leave it up to the rest

get to know you? music, lifestyle, writing, etc. just stuff that makes you, you

and maybe tag some people to start a chain? totally optional!

:D sure! thank you for the ask 🫶🏻

music: I love synths like a heathen… I write, primarily, so the lyrics matter a lot to me, but I used to play a couple instruments so I love listening to all parts of a song. hyper pop, pop rock, indie pop, indie rock? I think those are the genre names. my top songs rn are sweet dreams by eurythmics, the other side of paradise by glass animals, and sober by big bang

lifestyle: cathemeral omnivore…? my life currently revolves around school, my job, and other career responsibilities ^^

writing: sporadic (as you can tell rip), I edit in my head and as I write, I’ve always loved analyzing text and really enjoy it!

me: umm I’m having a cold brew with silk oat milk and vanilla torani rn, I have a cat I love her, I get easily overstimulated when it comes to stuff touching me but I’ll watch two youtube videos at the same time, I love food I live to eat, I love the nyt connections

tags: @woewriting @melrodrigo @mindyswhore @marvelfilth @jazzyoranges @sytoran @jjsmaybank20 @alkivm @crazyoffher I’m almost positive I missed something but PLEASE PARTICIPATE if you want <3

[navstuffs]

every time i listen to 'everything i wanted' by billie eillish i just want to write more and more about it. it is such perfect song and it has so many ways to be interpreted and written

[hmhas-00]

Ch. 6

Hit Me Hard & Soft

A/N- Don’t forget to like and rb if you’re liking the series so far! ♡

Remy’s POV

I poured some homemade almond milk over the cereal in my favorite ceramic bowl. “Bills, do you want any cereal?” That’s when the intercom rang.

“Who’s that?” Billie asked, all the way from my room.

I press the button, “Can I help you?”

“Remy! This is Rachel! Hii!”

Unbelievable. How the fuck does she know where I live?

“Uhh hi? What are you doing here?”

“I need your help with something I’m working on, is it okay if I come up? Joseph told me your address, I hope that’s okay.”

I roll my eyes and buzz her in. It’s literally 6 o’clock on a Wednesday. What is this.

I let her in when she knocked. Her stupid, pretty face annoyed me. “Rachel, it’s getting late. Why didn’t you talk to me earlier at the office?”

“Listen.” She clapped her hands together. “I want you to help me write this column. You’re friends with THE Billie Eilish, right?”

“Yeah?”

“I want to write next week’s column about her new album.” She smiled, really, really big. It was kinda creepy how perfect and white her teeth were.

“You want to use me to be able to talk to a celebrity for an exclusive interview?” I blinked.

“Who’s this?” Billie walked out, furrowing her brows.

“Oh my god! Hi! I’m Rachel, SO nice to meet you!” She walked past me to give Billie a hug.

Billie looked at me over her shoulder and laughed, probably knowing I was hating every minute. “Nice to meet you too, Rachel. I’ve heard so much about you!” She mouthed at me, What the hell?

I rolled my eyes and walked back to my cereal. I sat on a bar stool, watching them. She would not shut the fuck up. She’s insufferable. And Billie just ate it the fuck up. When I finished my bowl, I placed it in the sink, eying the way Rachel constantly felt the need to touch her when she spoke.

“You’re much more beautiful in person. I’m like, mesmerized!” She giggled

“Girl! Thank you, you’re so sweet. You’re gorgeous, are you kidding?” Billie blushed.

“Rachel, can’t we do this at the office?” I cut them off, leaning over the counter.

Billie looked at me, scratching her eyebrow.

“I just thought we’d get to know each other… Before starting on the column we’re gonna write together.” She smiled at Billie.

“You’re writing the column with her, Rem? That’s great!” Billie cheered.

I crossed my arms, “Ask her what it’s about-“

“It’s about successful artists that blew up overnight, and their advice for any up and coming artists.” Rachel said, proudly.

“Which artist.” I raised my brow, looking at Billie.

Billie looked at Rachel, waiting for her to answer.

“Only the coolest, most badass, talented-“

“It’s you.” I interrupted.

Billie looked at me, tilting her head. “Oh?” She let out a small laugh. “Well… then you guys better get to work!”

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Throughout the next few days, Rachel spent most of her time in my apartment. It was my very own personal hell.

Of course, Billie joined us each time, wanting to be in on everything we did. Rachel was loving every bit of it, I could tell.

“Remy, is your section ready?” Rachel interrupted my train of thought. She laid on her stomach on the floor, kicking her feet in the air. Billie sat up next to her, probably feeding her ego.

“Yeah, I just have to edit a few things.” I typed away on my laptop from the couch.

Occasionally, I’d look up from my screen, only to see Billie’s gaze stuck directly on Rachel’s body. Her icy eyes stared into her soul while she talked, pissing me off to the max. Who would’ve known she’d steal my job, and my best friend.

“Whatever it is, I’m sure it’s great.” Rachel’s smiled at me, shutting her computer down.

“You wanna join us for dinner tonight, Rach?” Billie asked.

Rach? Really? She had a nickname now?

I looked over at Billie, not at all happy with her proposal. The look of disdain on my face had to be evident enough for her to notice.

“Oh, no, I’d hate to intrude on y’all’s plans.” Rachel looked at me. “I gotta head out anyway-“ Getting up from the floor, she picked up her belongings.

“No really, I insist.” Billie got up, grabbing her arm. She gave me a disapproving look, which I didn’t appreciate. There’s no way she’s eating with us. I frantically shook my head no at Billie when Rachel looked away.

“You sure?” She asked

I held up a giant X in the air with my arms.

“Yeah! My treat.” Billie ignored me.

Fuck.

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At dinner, Billie sat between Rachel and I, in a round booth. They did most of the talking while I stuffed my face with pesto pasta.

“No, for real, I’ve met some rude ass famous people.” Billie lowered her voice, not wanting others at the restaurant to hear. She adjusted her sun glasses and held onto her hoodie.

“Me too! It’s sad but so many of them are too far gone.” Rachel shook her head, looking over her shoulder.

It felt like over the past few days, they shared their own little secrets. Their own little gossip session I wasn’t allowed in. Of course, I was sitting right there, but I didn’t want to be.

“Like for example…” Billie got closer to her, leaving some space between us.

I couldn’t help but feel like I was third wheeling. The way they looked at each other. The way Billie’s eyes wandered to Rachel’s lips when she talked. The way she accepted every compliment from her, even though she barely ever believes any of mine.

Out of nowhere, an obnoxious laugh startled me. Billie laughed too, but Rachel’s laugh was exceptionally loud. Billie was trying to finish her story, which wasn’t even that funny to begin with.

“She thought I was just a fan, it was super awkward!” Billie laughed. “So I just vibed with it and asked for her autograph. She was a bitch though.”

“You’re hilarious! I cannot!” Rachel’s laugh continued. It wasn’t even that funny! I sat there, straight faced, trying to get the waiter’s attention.

“The bill, please.” I quietly asked the waiter.

Billie noticed, putting a hand on my lap and mouthing

I got it.

“It’s fine, I’ll get my plate and be on my way.”

“Rem, I’m your ride home.” Billie scooted towards me.

Rachel broke out in laughter again, acting like that was even remotely funny.

“What’s funny, I’m confused.” I furrowed my brows slightly, squinting a bit.

She cleared her throat and took a sip of water, shaking her head, looking a bit embarrassed.

Billie looked at me as the waiter brought the bill. She handed him her card.

“Thank you, really, I so appreciate your invite, guys. Rem, to our column!” She held her drink up, waiting for me to clink her glass with mine.

I returned the favor, shooting down the last bit of my watered down gin and grapefruit soda. I could feel Billie watching me down my drink, leaving a hole on the side of my face.

“Ready guys?” Billie finished signing the receipt.

“Yup.” I scooted out of the booth, walking towards the exit.

Billie stayed with Rachel, allowing her to walk ahead of her. She followed behind her, through the restaurant, and opened the car door for her as the valet attendant pulled up.

The car ride was loud, and annoying. Rachel still would not shut up, and Billie was now starting to laugh at her dumb jokes.

All night, my mind overwhelmed me with hate. Whether it’s directed toward the wrong person or not, I’m still completely over it. Maybe it’s the fact that this girl has my dream job, waltzed into my home, and made herself comfortable because she thinks she can. Maybe it’s the fact she instantly got along so well with Billie, even though they’re not at all alike. Even though, Billie knows I don’t like her. After all the arguing and convincing me to quit, she invites the reason why to dinner?

“I have to admit, I hate that the column is almost finished. I loved hanging out with you.” Rachel reapplied lipstick from the front seat. “Both of you.” She looked at me through the little mirror.

Maybe I hate the way this girl throws herself at Billie. Usually, this bothered Billie. It didn’t seem to bother her as much as it did me. I mean, I could be exaggerating, I could be so heated that everything tastes sour. Logically, Rachel wasn’t at fault for getting the position. She showed up for the interview and got the job. But I wanted to hate her so much, it made me question if my heart was in the right place. Her attempts to include me and be kind made me want to pull back even more for some reason.

“You too. You’re cool, Rach. You know where to find me.” Billie smiled.

I just don’t get why Billie was being so damn friendly with her. I felt betrayed. Jealous, even. Only because of how unfair it all was. It made my stomach turn. I’d never do that to her. The slight touches, the forced laughter, the looks they shared. I swear to God if they don’t stop… If they start dating I’m going to throw up. I could imagine them kissing, ignoring me completely. There it was again. My mind going to a place it didn’t need to. I hate it, I don’t know why.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, Rem.” Rachel smiled, getting out of the car after giving Billie a hug. Only Billie called me that, I thought. She waved at me as she walked around, toward her building. I looked out the window, seeing the stunning sky-rise covered in glass windows next to us. I waved back.

“Oh, you’re not gonna go with her?” I said, sarcastically.

“Shut up. You gonna come up to the front?” Billie pats the seat next to her. “Ooh it’s warm.” She scrunched her nose.

“I’m good here.” I brought my knee up and hugged it.

“Dude. Get up here before I drag you out.” She lowers the music.

I rolled my eyes.

“Do I have to beg you?”

“Can you just take me home, I’m not in the mood.” I scrolled through my phone, knowing there wasn’t a damn notification to check.

“What’s up your ass, Rem.” She pulled out of the lot, driving toward my place, which apparently wasn’t too far from Rachel’s.

“Oh, you mean besides the fact that all night the two of you bonded over the dumbest shit, and she basically sat in your lap the whole time?”

“Huhhh?” She squinted. “What are you talking about? I was just being nice to your new boss?”

“My what, bro?”

“You know what I mean, I’m trying to help you! She gets to write her column about me, you get to impress her with your insane writing, and maybe your hard work isn’t all for nothing.” Billie looked at me through the rearview mirror every once in a while.

“Oh, is that what this is?” I laughed.

“Yeah, me helping you, is what this is.”

“You looking at her with fuck me eyes is supposed to help me? Thank you!”

“Rem, you’re actually implying I’d fuck your coworker?” She raised her brows, in disbelief.

“I don’t know, you keep looking at her like you’re going to kiss her or something. Like she’s not literally using me to get an interview out of you!”

“Okay, what if I was? What’s the fucking problem, then?” She turned into my building’s parking garage.

I laughed, getting defensive now. “Nothing, go right ahead, absolutely no one is stopping you.”

I could tell she stopped herself from saying something more petty. “Rem, I think she’s just trying to be nice by including you, and that’s better than coming in and making you her bitch, is it not?”

I didn’t answer. I knew she was right because I had similar thoughts, but I still wanted to hate her so badly. It was either her, or myself, I guess, instead of quitting and proving everyone right.

“Rem?” She looked at me again, through the mirror.

I stayed quiet.

“What if I was trying to fuck her?” She quietly asked, shrugging a little. “Why would you care?”

I struggled to get the right answer out. “Because!” I stuttered, “She’s my boss- no- my coworker. It’s weird.”

Billie stayed quiet for the rest of the car ride. I felt embarrassed, like I overreacted, which I knew I did. It made sense. She was trying to play nice, get me ahead, or something.

I unbuckled my seat belt, as did she. She got out of the car and climbed in the backseat with me and closed the door. She looked straight at me, not saying a word. She leaned back, resting her head on the window.

“So, you gonna apologize?” She crossed her arms. “Because you’re being mean.”

“I swear to you, I hate her with every fiber of my being. And I know I shouldn’t, but she pisses me off. This isn’t fair, Billie.”

“Was I supposed to be rude to her? And mess up your chance at being published on the column?”

I barely shook my head.

“I haven’t heard you once talk about how awesome it is that you’re co-writing a column. Who cares who it’s with. Your name is gonna be on that magazine!”

She’s right. This is what I wanted.

“You’re not happy, see?”

I looked in her eyes, trying to find out what she’s getting at.

“You’re not going to be content there. Because you want more.” She read me like a book. A book with really sticky pages that are hard to turn without skipping a few.

I shook my head, not wanting to accept it.

“Yeah, you’re just projecting. You’re trying to find someone to hate, when you’re tolerating everyone’s bullshit, just to prove something to yourself.”

“Billie, I’ve just had such a shit week. I wanted that job so badly. It was- it is my dream job. And I wanted it alone-”

She cut me off, “She’s giving you that chance. Maybe she hates Joe too and wants you to have what you deserve. You wanted me to support you? Well here you go, Remy.”

I nodded, “okay.”

Billie sighed, leaning forward towards me.

I watched her mouth open to say something, but she stopped. It felt like she did that a lot recently.

“I’ve always been this honest with you.” She played with her rings.

“I know… I need it.”

“You do. You need me.”

I looked up at her. “I need you to come inside so we can finish our show. We were rudely interrupted earlier by Rach.” I mocked her.

“Okay.” She laughed a bit, rolling her eyes playfully. “There’s my Remy.”

I got out of the car, glad that the tension thinned out. I walked towards the elevator and pressed the up button, noticing Billie was still in the car. I watched her sit there for a moment, then get out.

“You alright?” I asked, my voice echoing in the dim parking garage.

“Yeah, coming.” She finally caught up, putting her hoodie up, over the green bandana in her hair. Her voice was hesitant.

From this moment forward, I promised myself not to make it about myself. My time with Billie was limited, and I wasn’t going to waste it. Tour starts next week and I plan on making the last few days memorable.

[marvelsswansong]

❣️ tag game ❣️

Tysm @zaypay for tagging me, it's very kind of you!

Relationship status: single af! Never been in a relationship either. Been on handful of dates.

Favourite color: used to be yellow but lately I'm really feeling black

Song(s) stuck in your head: i guess rn it'd be "sports" by Beach Bunny, "happier than ever" and "TV" by Billie Eillish and "chanel" by Frank Ocean

Dream trip: Spain, Italy and Greece i guess. Haven't been able to see much of Europe x oh and a road trip around Australia with @scrumptious-delusion

Last book you read: Queenie Malone's Paradise Hotel by Ruth Hogan, Found it buried it in the back of the closet as it was given to me as a gift while ago but I never got around to it. So far I'm really enjoying it, the narrative structure is super unique and I really relate to the protagonist's strained relationship with her mother.

Last book you enjoyed reading: I really adored The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk. It was a fascinating read into trauma, the author speaks not just about how trauma affects us mentally but neurologically and biologically, there were many interesting forms of therapy/treatment discussed and in general I learned a lot about my own self (since my ED is a manifestation of my trauma and I am actually receiving trauma therapy in the form of EMDR rn).

Last book you hated reading: can't remember the name but it was some investing book on financial markets. Was tryna read it to impress corporate law recruiters and to buff up my financial markets knowledge but it was so fucking boring. I'm really not a math and business person.

Favourite thing to cook/bake: I made a smoothie bowl this morning and HOLY SHIT IT WAS FANTASTIC I'm gonna make more 🥺❣️But I also make a killer banana bread, everyone I made it for gives me a 10/10.

Favourite craft to do in your free time: I guess writing! I write a lot (not even necessarily fanfic either).

Most niche dislike: people who scream at concerts. Don't get me wrong, shouting along to the lyrics is fine, but when I went to the Lorde concert there was this one bitch who kept on screaming (like she was being murdered) a million times out of nowhere. Like the song could be fucking writer in the dark and she'd still scream 🙄🙄🙄.

Opinion on circus(es): if they involve animals, I'm out. I think it's cruel to train and keep animals like elephants and tigers in cages for our entertainment. If it's like Cirque De Soleil and it's just people than sure, I'm in.

Do you have a sense of direction: in life, broadly speaking, I'd like to think so. I'm a very discplined and motivated person and I think I'm exactly on the path I wanted my career to go. If this is referring to navigation/maps then uh... 50/50.

Tagging: @scrumptious-delusion @haarringtons @lovelybarnes @sapphireplums @natti-ice @lovesandotherwords @beautecus @spideyspeaches (only do it if you want besties, just tagging some of my faves/mutuals/fave mutuals)

[c0ffeeat2am]

Hi, I'm Pilu, And tbh I'm new on this app & I wanted to make this sort of presentation, just 4 you to get know me a little bit, Idk if this is a normal thing here in Tumblr but Idc I'm gonna do it anyway 🙃.

Fandoms I'm part of: MCU, Harry Potter, The Hunger Games, Star Wars, One Direction (+All the boys in solo), Taylor Swift & Billie Eillish.👌

Fav Ships ❤️: Steve x Tasha (MCU), Tony x Pepper (MCU), Jake x Amy (B99), Peeta x Katniss (THG), Kate x Lena (MCU) & Zayn x Liam (1D) PD: I know it's weird to ship real people but idc 😒.

Favorite Icons: Timothée Chalamet, Andrew Garfield, Florence Pugh, Hailee Steinfield & Jennifer Lawrence 😘.

Favorite Films: Call Me By Your Name, Little Woman, The Edge of 17 & TICK...TICK...BOOM. 😏

Hobbies:Acting, Singing & Writting. 🎭🎶

Last film: Incredibles 2 😉

Last song: Something from Taylor Swift Probably🤙

Currently reading: Fanfic 😛

Currently watching: Teen wolf & Glee👀

Currently consuming: A lot of Romanogers/Katelena Incorrect Quotes cus I think they're kinda my safe place right now

Currently craving: Something Fluff & Angst😊

4 songs on repeat: My strange addiction -Billie eillish, Only The Brave-Louis Tomlinson, More Than This-One Direction, Style-Taylor Swift.👍

Sexuality: Bisexual and proud (as you can see on my profile pic. 🤠)

[evenceflux18]

8 people you want to get to know better

Tagged by: @springzero123

Favorite colors? (purple, black, navy blue and mint blue!)

Last song listened to - No time to die my Billie Eilish because I was actually writing my fanfic while I was doing this🤣 (a d I jsut published it shshshsh)

Favorite Musicians - actually....

1. Tchaikovsky - I'm more into classical that's why...

2. Halsey - I don't even know why though..I just like how she delivers her songs it makes me feel pumped up

3. Billie Eillish - YEAH BABY! I mean...I really love her voice! And no, no, not because I like to hear until I would get depress (Goodness no, no...) I just really like the messages of her song and her relationship with her family really made my heart melt..

3. Andrew Webler - I blame the Phantom of the Opera because of it🤣

4. ANY MUSICIANS AS LONG AS IT'S NIGHTCORE

5. IF I'M LISTENING TO NIGHTCORE MALE VERSIONS.. PLUS POINTS!

Last film I watched - I watched Coraline🤣 For references and...other stuffs..that goes in my head..👀

Last show I watched - It's actually from our country titled "It's Showtime" 🤣🤣

Sweet, Spicy or Savory - I like them 3....but I chose SPICY, DEFINITELY

Sparkling water, Tea or Coffee - Coffee is a big no no for me...I GET SO SLEEPY WHEN I DRINK IT.. Tea is better..especially when I drank it with blue turnics, I also drink water🤣🤣

Pets - I HAVE 4 DOGS....AND A WUSS PUSS CAT, AND TWO NINJA TURTLES THAT I NAMED PONG AND THE OTHER IS GONG

Okay I'm done! It's your turn!

I tag: @magentacravat @artemis0122 @prixiieeleey @evbro55 @shishiyos

I don't know who else wahahahaha!🤣

[othercat2]

quarantine q & a

edit to add: tagged by @edenfalling

Are you staying home from work/school?

I am “insufficietly employed” from home, so I have no choice in the matter! I do some writing and I have a Patreon, though I don’t write as much original fic as I would like because of Mental Health Reasons and a chronic spoon shortage.

If you’re staying home, who’s with you? 

I live alone. I would have a emotional support pet but I have the insufficiently employed situation at the moment.

Are you a homebody? 

Yes. See above for reasons. That said I am going slightly stircrazy because I could at least go to the library before the pandemic.

What movies have you watched recently? What shows are you watching? 

I don’t really watch movies, and I mostly don’t watch shows. I *would* be watching crunchy roll anime but my netbook does not have enough oomph  to play them.

Did an event that you were looking forward to get cancelled? 

I have not specifically checked, but a autism event I wanted to go to probably has been cancelled.

What music are you listening to? 

A fan fic introduced me to a group called “No More Kings” in addition I’ve been listening to Billie Eillish, Dessa, Nightwish, Babymetal, Helloween, Seanan McGuire, Homestuck music, Boiled in Lead, U2 and Echo’s Children and so on. For some reason Spotify keeps giving me songs by taylor swift. I don’t like taylor swift that much, but I apparently can’t get rid of her from spotify unless I have a paid account.

What are you reading?

Mostly fanfic. I wandered back into Inuyasha, but haven’t found anything that really grabbed me. Read a bunch of Bleach fanfics, and also Homestuck, of course. I want to read Swordheart and re-read Winter Tide.

What are you doing for self care? 

Avoiding the news and hanging out on @curlicuecal‘s Discord server and a few others, including my Extremely Quiet Server.

Tag someone else! 

Um. @shadowwood  and @imhereformysciencefriends

[lemonhobgoblin]

Loki Playlist

Songs that remind me of Loki or spark scenarios for fanfics. But either way, wanted to make one these. Idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Hope y'all enjoy!

Skott-Porcelain

Wilsen-Dusk

Halsey-Control

Saint Motel-Cold Cold Man

Meg Myers-Motel

Scissors Sisters-I Can't Decide

HEALTH-Dark Enough

Mirror Diaries-Million Faces

Cavetown-Deviltown

Of Monsters and Men- Backyard

O Wonder-Ultralife

Henry Wolfe- Stop the Train

Muse- Hysteria

Cage the Elephant-Cigarrete Daydream

Julia Michaels-Issues

Khai Dream- Ultimately

Lord Huron- Meet in the Woods

Queen-Good Old Fashion Lover Boy

Cigarettes After Sex- Nothing is Gonna Hurt You

Phantogram- Blackout Days

Son lux-Lost it to Trying

Panic at the Disco- House of Memories

Kabaret sybarit-Rattlesnake

The Neighborhood- Sweater Weather

Saint Motel- Sweet talk

Cavetown-Meteor Shower

Cavetown- This is Home

The Neighborhood-Afraid

Billie Eillish- Bad Guy

Panic! At the Disco- Don't Threaten Me With a Good Time

The Runaways- Cherry Bomb

Silver- Wham Bam Shang-A-Lang

Findlay- Waste of Time

Findlay- Electric Bones

Twenty-one Pilots- Heathens

Skott- Wolf

Emily Jane White- Nightmares on Repeat

Muse- Madness

Cruel Youth- Devil in Paradise

Green Day- Bang Bang

Lorn- Acid Rain

IAMX- After Every Party I Die

Jesca Hoop- Animal Kingdom Chaotic

Panic! At the Disco- Old Fashioned

Sam Tinnesz ft. Zayde Wølf- Man or Monster

Woodkid- Iron

Blondie- Heart of Glass

Nothing More- Go to War

Melanie Martinez- Mad Hatter

Pomplamoose- Bust Your Kneecaps

Panic! At the Disco- Emperor's New Clothes

Imagine Dragons- Monster

Bright Eyes- Love I Don't Have to Love

Ruelle- Madness

Meg Myers- Poison

Billie Eillish- You Should See Me in a Crown

Halsey- Gasoline

Saint Motel- Daydream/Wetdream/Nighmare

Muse- Hysteria

Cage the Elephant- Ain't No Rest For The Wicked

Brittney Spears- Toxic

Skott- Lack of Emotion

Caravan Palace- Midnight

Caravan Palace- Lone Digger

Panic! At the Disco- Overpass

The Kooks- Bad Habit

Skillet- Monster

Petit Biscut- Suffer

Wilsen- Emperor

Queen- Don't Stop Me Now

Side Note: Art not mine, all credit goes to it's respective creator. If ya'll know who did the fanart let me know so I can credit/source them👍

Also might add more songs once in a while