#bigtittygothbitch

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It's kinda weird seeing old pictures of myself before recovery. I miss being thinner but I also don't miss starving myself and throwing up what little I did eat. I might be a bigger titty goth queen now, but at least there is life in my eyes and I am not suicidal and shit. Older photo was 4 years ago at one of the lowest points in my life. I had been sexually assaulted a year or two before then that sent me in one of the worst relapses of my life. The picture was taken on Seattle, where I had been planning to take my life. I am happy I didn't. That year ended up being one of the best in my life. I am happy I held on and I will continue to stay in recovery, regardless of society obsessed with diet culture and shirking themselves. I know where that shit leads me. I will keep living my life and using intuitive eating and health at every size to make healthy choices for wellness not weight. #bigtittygothbitch #bigtittygothqueen #gothbitch #gothqueen #hailyourself #loveyourself #believeinyourself #dietculture #antidiet #recoverybeforeandafter #bopo #haes #intuitiveeating #survivor #endthestigma #fatbitch #fatboulous #curvygirl #curvy https://www.instagram.com/p/B607uOflwwt/?igshid=tnkccug7t735

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Just a little edit I made of me

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I think my makeup is on point for Judas Priest tonight #metal #metallady #bigtittygothgf #bigtittygothbitch #gothbitch #damned #hailsatan (at Hard Rock Hotel and Casino Las Vegas) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzUD6aVFiaH/?igshid=xqbx0kz4cvl6

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The bubble run was so much fun. I miss being active. I really need to get over my fear of it. My neighborhood is nice and safe. I don't have to worry. I realized now that since my sexual assault and not having a giant pit bull with me, I don't feel safe. I remembered that I still was active after that but remembered it was when I was fostering a pit bull. I need to get over it. I need to just grab some pepperspray and go around my nice neighborhood. It's a beautiful neighborhood. I need to get out and enjoy it. #bubblerun #bubblerun2019 #bodypositivemovement #haes #plussizefitness #fitfatty #damned #bigtittygothbitch #metalhead #metallady #staystrong #joyfulmovement #5k #traumarecovery #ptsdrecovery #recovery (at Angel Stadium of Anaheim) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2H5S0yFOi_/?igshid=ydtaz4ytfas6