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[dorianmathay]

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Hey mom..happy Mothers'Day!

[olivianyx]

I didn't knew u were a respawner! That's so cool, I've been on my respawn journey for like 1-2 months, I hope this is okay to ask but how is your respawning routine? Currently I am taking a break but I would love to hear abt your respawning journey so far :>

Heyy! I'm glad I find many people who are into respawning! Actually mine's a long ass story and you might wonder how am I even doing fine to this day 😭

Okay so long story short, let's begin.

Back in 2022, I discovered shifting. After finding out about loa in 2021, I was anticipated to shift realities just to escape this one. I hated being here. I was suffering with depression, bi polar, avpd, anxiety and maladaptive daydreaming, and I was from a toxic household with narcissistic, toxic and strict parents and fake af friends. It was really hard for me to even open up to somebody. It was hard for me to handle (actually I'm tearing up rn while I type this... Especially those traumas are the worst thing I ever experienced)

When I started my research about shifting, I got into amino. I saw the word 'respawn' and I was like tf is this?? I thought it was some gaming shit and then when I researched it on amino, I really wanted to go away from here and be happier than ever. I wanted to be in peace and do whatever I want in my reality. And no one should judge or stop me from getting what I want. I quickly scripted the place I wanna respawn, and other stuffs. I decided that I will get tf outta here.

Well because I had a reason that I'll respawn, I completely ignored my 3D circumstances. Like I stopped taking care of myself, stopped talking to people around me, stopped studying, stopped doing everything. I just was desperately trying to respawn every night telling myself that I will.

When in fact I was wasting my time and energy into lack. I almost didn't study for my finals and wrote the exams and hope that I'd respawn before my results will be declared. I used to keep time crunches to respawn, and when I didn't, I used to get so depressed, that I attempted to take my own life for the first time ever back in may 2022.

My brother accidentally entered my room and saved me from doing that. When I say I've almost attempted to take my own life for like 10+ times that same year, I still didn't give up. My exam results came and I luckily passed my exams.

So after all these I decided to give a break for 3 months completely for my own mental health. Ik my journey for 2 years wasn't smooth, it was full of ups and downs, and it messed my mental health up. I wasn't even using loassumption in a proper manner at that time. Ngl, I was so damn desperate for manifesting even the smallest stuff (I just wanna time travel back in time and slap the shit outta that version of me that I was back then 💀)

So when I got into a medical university in 2023 January, I completely forgot about respawning for a while. And again in October 2023, I logged into Tumblr, and became friends with one of the respawner Julie. She was so sweet, that she even answered every stupid doubts of mine (God give me Julie's patience 🗣️🗣️) she had respawned back in October 2023.

She was the one who told me 'SELF CONCEPT IS THE KEY!' so I started working on my self concept for like 1 and a half-ish months.... Well, I wasn't even perfect with it, but I tried. I did many challenges but the meraskii one had a good effect on my mindset. So last Christmas, I even learnt about the void (I hate implying it as void, I'd rather say it as I AM state) I wanted to enter it so bad.

I just did my affs, persisted in it, and listened to subs, and on Christmas Eve, I got into it successfully.

This year, I find respawning a very relaxing topic. Like I don't even get bothered by it. I know I'm already where I wanna be. And don't worry, my mental health has been good for a few days now. I was thinking of changing my script, so for the past 2 months, I've been scripting my new reality, well still it's only half way done hehe.

By the end of this month, I'm planning on respawning through the void. So till then I just wanna be thankful for everything here and enjoy every moment here without regrets.

Everybody's journey is different. All you have to do is embody your desired state. You just have to be the version of you having your desires. Be the one who already has it. For me, that took 3 years to click. I just had to relax and give myself in. Let go and enjoy the fact that I already have my desires in the 4d.

Ig this helped... any further doubts, you can ask me! Lots of luv 🤍🤍🤍🤍

- olivia 🤍

[damagedintellect]

Craig Tucker x Fem!reader

💌 Craig Tucker is a mother fucker: Chapter 2  💌  

Summary:  You want to say that it wasn't your fault buuuuuut it kinda was. You didn't think much of it as you casted your joke vote for the "Hottest guy in school" and in hindsight you should never listen to Clyde but it was pretty funny at the time. Craig just wanted a peaceful junior year and you can't blame him for that however waking up the morning after a party, in his bed, being told that you two were dating wasn't exactly your definition of peaceful either.

Notes:  I was always too scared of the fandom to post it back in the day but I wrote this before Creek was made canon so let's just say Craig is bi for my sake because I've had a huge crush on him since forever. My S/O pointed out that Craig is just Trafalgar Law but with a guinea pig instead of a polar bear and I haven't been the same since I have a type and it's them.

💌 Word count: 3,047 💌  <= Previous | Chapter 3 =>

The next morning everyone anxiously awaited the results of the list. There was a crowd around the bulletin board as Wendy and the other heads of the committee were about to post the results. Cartman stood in the way.

"Cartman what are you doing we're trying to post the results." He only cleared his throat with a shit eating grin "Ehem" he pulled out a piece of paper of his own "On behalf of the boys WE decided it was high time that we made our own list." Cartman posted the list and walked away. Wendy looked at it and grit her teeth. It took a lot for her to not punch Cartman in the face. As more people got to view the lists the entire school was in an uproar over both of them.

You woke up late and missed all the commotion. By the time you made it to the main hallway you saw a big crowd around the bulletin board and a shocked Wendy who looked just as pale as she did yesterday. You didn't even need to look at the hot guys list, you knew already. You heard that this was the first time in 3 years that Stan wasn't the number 1 hottest guy in school, you knew since you turned in your vote that Craig had won. You broke the tie after all, but no one needed to know that. You hoped no one knew. On top of that it was more of Clyde's vote than yours but that's beside the point. Clyde asked you to keep it a secret and to your knowledge Wendy would be the only other person that knew. For some reason as you walked through the halls everyone kept looking at you muttering to themselves. You had chills as you made your way to your first class.

You looked around as everyone was shuffling in to their seats and to your surprise it seemed like Craig wasn't there. It was only the second day and he was already skipping class. You'd hate to admit but it made your class kind of boring. Well for the most part it was boring. You noticed that people would look at you a lot more than they have since you moved here. You wondered if there was something on your face or in your teeth. As the bell rang you walked a little faster to your next class. Honestly the attention was starting to creep you out. You turned out of the main hallway to a less populated route and that's when you saw Stan and Wendy. You were going to say hi to them when Stan put his arm around her. You immediately turned back the way you came but you bumped into someone. You weren't falling but they grabbed onto your wrist "We need to talk, now!" it was Craig and he did not look happy.

"When did you get here?" He didn't answer as he pulled you along to an empty hallway and pushed you up against the wall "(Y/n), did you give Clyde your vote or did you vote for me yourself." you stared at him, it took you a little bit to register what he said. You didn't hear anything past your name. You think this is the first time he's called you by your first name. He never calls you by your first name that's kind of a thing you both do. It's not rocket science you call him Tucker and he calls you (L/n), he broke the rules. You felt weird but you tried to shake it off "You called me (Y/n) are you feeling okay" you put your hand to his forehead. He was pretty warm but not warm enough to be running a fever. Craig grabbed your shoulders leaning in as you flinched in response. What is happening to you. You heartbeat quickened and you couldn't look him in the eyes.

"Did you vote for me because Clyde told you too or-."

"Why does it matter?" You spat back as he released you and growled pacing back and forth "Wendy said that you were the last one to vote and that up until that point it was tied and Clyde was going around asking for people's votes yesterday. He thinks he was being sneaky but that bastard forgot I was there when he asked you." you couldn't help but laugh at his frustration. This was the biggest range of emotions you've seen from him to this day.

"I almost forgot. Congrats on being the hottest guy in school." you shot him a finger gun and wink before you continued "But my lips are sealed" you pretended to zip up your lips and started to walk away. You felt him follow you, he was in your class after all. "Do you even understand how irritating this is for me?" you took your seat and Craig sat next to you despite that not being where he sat yesterday. Glancing around, it seemed that the class was more talkative than before especially when you two walked in together. "Hmmm let me think about it." You took a long pause sustaining a "hm" as you pretend to mull it over "Nope I have no idea." you smiled at him and turned towards the board.

"Um that's my seat." you heard someone say to Craig "Not today, it isn't." wow Craig was not having it. You heard the other guy huff but go away. This was really bothering him for some reason, like you knew it was going to annoy him but you weren't expecting it to be this bad. You turned back to him, he looked as pale as Wendy did this morning and he seemed just as jittery at Tweek. Honestly you wouldn't be surprised if he passed out, maybe you should take him to the nurse. You tried to pay attention during class but you could feel him staring at you. Today was a really weird day.

As soon as class ended you got up and walked out. You made your way to the cafe and again people were staring and whispering. It wasn't until you got to the usual table that you put two and two together.

"How's the hottest couple in school doing?" Clyde welcomed you while Bebe and the rest clapped "Congrats guys"

"Hold up hold up hold up." you paused "WHAT!?"

"Apparently the guys were making their own list and apparently you're the hottest girl in the school (Y/n)" Bebe said as all the blood left your face "Clyde I swear to god is this what you were doing yesterday!" you grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and shook him for emphasis "I thought you only rigged Craig's votes!" Everyone on the table glanced at each other for a moment.

"Since when do you call him Craig?" you heard Token say as Craig snapped also grabbing onto Clyde "You mother fucker I knew you had something to do with it!" Clyde put his hands up in defense "What the fuck (Y/n), you said you wouldn't tell!" you dropped your grip on his shirt "Did you rig the votes for me!"

"No, (Y/n) you won on your own." he looked at you and back to Craig "I did vote for you though but I didn't think you BOTH would win. I thought it would be funny if it happened, but seriously how much influence do you think I have." Craig dropped him and groaned "Ugh this is so annoying." you sighed sitting down "Tell me about it." you see other tables stare and whisper.

"I don't see what's so annoying, you should be happy so many people voted for both of you." Bebe said genuinely happy for you "I-I am so confused. I would have thought that it would have been you or Wendy. I don't see how I was even in contention." Craig looked at you and rolls his eyes while Token chimes in "Well Wendy placed second and Bebe placed third but I did hear you won by a few votes and not just one" he jabs Craig's arm

"Fuck off" Craig crossed his arms and hunched over. "Argh, It doesn't matter! There are more rumors than ever plus all these girls trying to flirt with me. I just wanted a peaceful Junior year is that so much to ask!"

"Yes, yes it is. Dude look at who you're best friends with." Clyde motioned to himself but Craig ignored him "Hey Tweek, Clyde is dead to me I'm looking for a new best friend." everyone laughed while Clyde fell silent with his mouth opened. You put a hand on Clyde's shoulder "Shocked Pikachu" Clyde pushed your hand off "I hate you guys" Bebe hugged Clyde "Aw you know you love us." He tried not to smile but he couldn't help it you all were assholes but you were his assholes.

The bell rang not too long after that and everyone went to their next class. You had Theatre with most of the guys next. Yesterday was pretty boring so you zoned out as the teacher was going over the misconceptions of Shakespeare, iambic pentameter, and the difference between poetry and verse. Today you were getting scenes to work on to get used to the feel of the rhythm but ever since word got out that your teacher was certified with Dueling Arts International everyone pretty much begged them for the scenes with heavy stage combat. You were not one of these people. Between Clyde, Token, Kyle, Cartman, Stan, and Craig you didn't trust any of them with broadswords let alone yourself. You take it back, it seems the scenes were from Romeo and Juliet so you would actually be fighting with rapiers. Not as scary but still dangerous. Most of the girls also opted out of combat, which was nice since the best scenes were of Juliet and the Nurse. As everyone got handed their scenes the teacher looked you over a little bit longer before handing you one.

"I feel like you would do well with the balcony scene, Stan will be your partner." you were taken aback "S-S-Stan?" You and Stan. The love scene. You cleared your throat trying to get a hold of yourself "You didn't want stage combat?" he shook his head and gestured over to the rest of the group who were being shown how to hold the broadswords "Nah, I don't want to get in between Kyle and Cartman with swords. I'm just going to play it safe until football season starts." you nod as you look over and see Clyde already goofing off "Fair enough, I was thinking the same thing about Clyde and Craig" he awkwardly smiles as you both looked over the scene. It's such a romantic scene you looked up from your script and over at Stan. This was your opportunity to get closer to him but what could you even say to him. You didn't want to embarrass yourself. In the end you were too nervous to start a conversation and you both just worked on the scene and you cursed yourself for it.

The class period was just for practice you'd be getting a new scene and partner next class. However the teacher did want to see you perform the scenes before the end of class. You and Stan were told that you could use one of the side stage tables for the height difference. You and Stan set up the table carefully making sure the other groups had enough room. "Are you sure you're okay with standing on the table?" Stan asks as he helps you up. You tried dancing about to see how wobbly it was "It seems stable enough, I should be fine." You run the scene a few more times after that. The words came out so natural to you and Stan stood staring in amazement. "I'm still kind of tripping over words but you're really good at this (Y/n)."

You blush slightly, little did he know it wasn't so much that you were good at acting. It was because you were saying it to him that made it sound just right. "All I did was put the beats in the right spots. Once you break it down it's simple. It seems every second syllable has the emphasis." you tried to sound smart taking this opportunity to start a conversation while you still had the chance, but it was short lived.

Your teacher approached you before he could reply, they were excited to see this scene. You guys started out just fine but Cartman got a little too excited to be playing Tybalt and pushed Kyle harder than he should have. Kyle knocked into the table causing you to loose your balance. For you it felt like you were falling in slow motion before you fell hitting your head pretty hard on the floor. You tried to keep your eyes open but they closed on their own. The last thing you saw was Stan, Clyde and Craig hovering over you to see if you were okay.

Moments ago Clyde and Craig were practicing their scene. It was the last fight scene in the play Clyde was Paris meaning Craig was Romeo. They we marking the fight choreography at 15% speed as Clyde spoke. "This is kinda fitting don't you think?" Craig waited until the end of the phrase before speaking. He didn't really understand what Clyde was referring to but he assumed it had to deal with you. "What are you even talking about?" Clyde smirked and put an arm around Craig, gesturing to you from across the room "You being Romeo and (Y/n) playing Juliet." Clyde wiggled his eyebrows at Craig who stares blankly at him "And you're Paris, what's your point?" Clyde waved him off and shyly smiled "Actually I like Bebe but that's not what I'm getting at, it's funny because Romeo cares about Juliet." He nudges him in the side until Craig pushed him away "I fucken don't." He rolls his eyes in your direction and his eyes widen. Clyde follows his line of sight and they both see you fall off the table. Clyde watched as Craig instantly dropped the sword and rushed over. Clyde carefully put his sword down before also running to check on you. He couldn't help but stare at Craig thinking to himself.

"He really has no idea what his feelings are"

When you came to you were in the nurse's office but the nurse didn't seem to be around and for some reason you had Craig's jacket draped over you. You turned to see him sitting in the corner on his phone "Well, look who's alive. How are you feeling?"

"Not great." you groaned rubbing the back of your head "Why are you here?" Craig shrugged not looking up from his phone "Well Clyde and I carried you here but the nurse was out. Clyde didn't want to wait, said he had class with Bebe so he left." He shifted in his seat "I stayed because I've been getting bothered by stupid girls since this morning and I don't feel like going to class." he looked over at the clock despite having his phone right in front of him "I thought the nurse would eventually come back but I guess I was wrong." you laid back down, his jacket was warm and comfy. "Is that why I have your jacket?"

"You were out cold turkey. I thought it would help." he said and went back to messing with his phone.

You put his jacket on. It was pretty big on you, you liked it, you were swimming in it. It made you smile as you flail your arms making the sleeves flop about. You did this for a few minutes not exactly having anything else to do to kill time. You only stopped when you heard muffled laughter "How hard did you hit your head?" You hugged yourself tightly "I like this. This is mine now you're not getting this back." he rolled his eyes at you. "If you say so."

The bell rang and you slowly sat up, you seemed to be fine for the time being. Plus you were super comfy in Craig's jacket. You reached for your stuff but Craig grabbed it for you. He didn't say anything and you didn't either. You just stare at each other. He started to walk out of the room so you just followed him.

There were more eyes on you then you would like. Probably because you were wearing his jacket. You looked up at Craig, he wasn't paying attention. He seemed to be walking slower than usual which is weird because normally he would want to get out of school as soon as possible. He kept checking his phone for some reason. He probably was trying to meet up with someone but you couldn't know for sure.

Once you guys made it to the entrance you could see that it was raining. You did have an umbrella back in your locker but then you would have to go and get it and it was on the other side of the school. You look over at Craig and pull up the sleeves enough to start unbuttoning the jacket. He looked at you and raised an eyebrow "What the fuck are you doing?"

"It's raining."

He sighed "Yeah, no shit Sherlock." you undid another button "I was going to give your jacket back." he smirked at you and crossed his arms "Oh? And here I thought you said it was your jacket now." he said in that snarky tone you loathed so much. You glared at him putting the jacket back on out of spite "Fine then, what's the game plan? You're just going to go jacketless?" he shrugged "Well I can't get a hold of Bebe or Clyde and I'd never hear the end of it if I left you here, so yeah I'm gonna go jacketless." you rubbed your temples you felt bad but he offered. "Okay fine but if you get sick tomorrow it's your own damn fault."

It was the weirdest day you've ever had, you were wearing Craig Tucker's jacket while he was walking you home.

[teaziecups]

TRIGGER WARNING: All forms of abuse, grooming, mental illness, stalking, paranoia/delusions/etc., self harm, eating disorders and overall saddening topics.

Read this with an open mind.

Summary of Elliot's and (somewhat) Rett's history/lore:

• Early life:

Elliot and Rett was born to an anomaly father and human mother further corrupting both of them and the rest of their siblings(6 including Elliot & Rett). Sadly both have faced all forms of abuse mainly from their father and reactive abuse from their mother. Pushing Elliot to develop amnesia as a way of coping(Elliot doesn't remember this unless therapy intervenes). Rett, however, suprising remembers a great deal of this.

Furthermore, at the age of 13 the family moved to America. It was quickly changed when CPS(or some other form of this) split the family up and deported the parents back to Greece. (Kept the children because they were "Exotic")

● Tween/Early teenage years:

Elliot starts to struggle even more with mental health issues. Falling into self harm/slight drug abuse. At around 14 years old Elliot starts to heavily pick up on the behavior. Elliot's abusive foster parents/group house doesn't help with this and in return Elliot tends to run away and stay outside more often to cope with this issue. Elliot aswell got moved around a lot and sent to multiple mental hospitals. School became a huge issue and Elliot suffered greatly with anxiety. Elliot was heavily troubled and his bizarre behavior made him a massive target for bullying. At a young age Elliot starts to develop more suicidal thinking and attempting it. (Staying with him up until 16-17)

Elliot sadly developed a heavy addiction to the internet and found many flings that ended up taking advantage of him. Once they discarded him, Elliot would find something else to fill in a void within himself. By late 14 going into 15, Elliot meets someone that goes by "Lu-Lu" online and develops a fascination with them. Later turning obsessive and protective of Lu. Lu ended returning the favor. They later on started dating and Lu shows more mentally ill characteristics. Then started to take advantage of Elliot, Lu revealed his real age, putting a worse dent into Elliot's mental health. Lu had ended up being a groomer towards Elliot. After a year of this Elliot broke things off and Lu caused an outrage. During all of this, Elliot develops anorexia as a way to cope/have control in life.

Rett struggled mentally with severe social anxiety and anxiety in general. School was a huge burden and he wanted out of it. Later on he developed severe panic attacks and would get sent to the nurse often until he got meds to help him. Rett sadly self harmed but quickly cut the issue out because of shame and regret. Rett's foster parents never helped with his issues until the school nurses got involved. After this he got helped and got put into different classes to help with this issue. Along with all of this, Rett let's on bizarre behavior and struggles with no filter on his mouth. Saying random and paranoia inducing things.

● Later teen years/Recent times:

Heads up: Both twins end up moving to Canada at different times. Rett ends up going first and sooner later Elliot. Due to the service they both went through to get adoptive parents, they were aware of the twins history. Contacted the adoptive parents and brought the twins together.

Elliot goes through intense therapy to cope with everything. Discovers Ms. Hamilton (therapist) a trusting adult in their life. (Elliot later on gets diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder Bi polar type 2) Adoptive parents are extremely kind, overly kind. Elliot's paranoia gets increasingly worse by the minute due to this. He develops a paranoid delusion that they want something out of him. While this is the total opposite of what's going on, Elliot develops a more stiffer/stubborn personality by late 15 leading to 16. Elliot gets increasingly angry and hostile. Building up a terrible reputation for himself. Elliot cuts off most of his online internet usage as he sees the online word useless, until school stars up again with him. Even then it's still incredibly limited. During this (a more happier time in his life) Elliot starts to eat a normal amount, then overeating out of pure boredom. Elliot is overweight now.

Elliots reputation carried into school with him, luckily not many or at all many people knew of him. As he is a new student, in a new country, in a place with less than 400 in population. He saw school as a breeze now, he passed most things with ease. Then, he met one of his peers named "Draw", Draw showed an interest in Elliot, but Elliot didn't return the favor. Until Draws behavior shined onto Elliot more and more as the days grew. Elliot decided to take it upon himself to develop a new friendship, it ended up going extremely well. Draw showed such interaction with Elliots interests and was engaged with him. Later on tensions grew within the friendship.

Elliots new aquaried friend turned bitter sweet when Draws enthusiasm towards Elliot started to die out. He finds out that Draw has been engaging in high school gossip/rumors about Elliot, that he didn't like. Draw only wanted to engage with Elliot through an online app called "Frizzbee", this upsets Elliot. As Elliot sees this as a way to talk to him without talking to him at school. As his new girlfriend "Ava" puts it out that she doesn't like Elliot. Ava believes in the rumors. However, through all of this Elliot only stores the inner turmoil and releases it when Draw sends Elliot spiteful messages. Messages that show the deranged and ill side of Draw. Draws facade breaks through messages but Elliot cuts him out of his life when faced with this. Angering Draw and causing a stalker for life, Lu ends up stalking Elliot aswell when he finds his newer accounts.

Rett gets an amazing adoptive family and starts his healing journey once in Canada. Happily living life and aquaring new special interests. Later on attending school, Rett is faced with little to no challenges. People seem to be a lot nicer to him, seeing him as the "quiet kid" and someone to overlook in a not so harmful way.

Both the twins face each other and reunite after many years of seperation. Elliots intense paranoia flares up because he doesn't remember Rett. Amnesia consumes Elliot. Despite this Elliot makes an effort into helping and bonding with his newly gained best friend.

● Future/Later events:

- Elliot gains Blair as a stalker when Elliot doesn't return any of the favors Blair gives

- Peppermint/Basil become his partners. Basil being first than Peppermint

- Draw ends up stalker Elliot up into adulthood

- Lu stalks Elliot more heavily. Sicko.

- Elliot and Rett move in together for College

[foraltruism]

CHARACTER INFO SHEET ;

NAME : itadori yuji

NAME MEANING : ita containing the kanji for tiger, dori meaning rod/cane. yu meaning permanence and ji benevolence, humanity

ALIAS : Tiger of West Junior High

ETHNICITY : japanese

ONE PICTURE / ICON YOU LIKE BEST OF YOUR CHARACTER :

That's his papa, you cant take this away from me.

THREE HCS YOU NEVER TOLD ANYONE :

Yuji is not only proficient in Taido Martial Arts, but while training with Kusakabe and Maki, he also trains up on Judo Wrestling, and Taekwondo. He practices switching between the 3 while honing his new cursed technique.

2. He's Bi-curious at best, Pan at excellent. Yuji is the kind of guy who doesn't care for the gender of the person he dates (even though initially he is pretty sure his type is a woman with a big butt). At the end of the day he is a kid with a lot of love to give.

3. Even in current, Yuji has nightmares of Shibuya. He loses a lot of sleep over what happened. Losing Nanami and Nobara hit him hard as well. When he can't sleep he tends to sit somewhere alone for a while just to let himself cry, often times apologizing to the nameless/faceless people he's killed. He knows Sukuna feeds off his misery, so he tries really hard not to make it a habit.

THREE THINGS YOUR CHARACTER LIKES TO DO IN THEIR FREE TIME :

cooking - yuji just enjoys cooking in his leisure time, and eating. he is a huge foodie and when going over to anyone's home he always offers to help cook, or try to learn different recipes. he also watches the cooking/food network channel a lot too when he's not doing much else.

karaoke - a fun activity to do with friends. yuji is tone deaf a little though so he always scores horridly (and nobara picks on him for it). regardless he has a lot of fun singing the latest anime openings or just messing up english lyrics.

watch TV - yuji has a bad habit of just leaving the TV on when something is re-running (unless its his favorite episode) but he was definitely a TV child growing up. he cant sit through a meal unless there's a screen in front of him, unless its in the company of good friends.

PEOPLE YOUR CHARACTER LIKES / LOVES :

His Grandfather: The man who raised him for as long as he can remember, and taught him what moral compass he should follow being as unique as he is. He often thinks of him when he's going through hardships, knowing is his old man saw him at his worse he would get hit over the head.

Kento Nanami: Someone he sees as a mentor, the one who told him that it's fine to be a child, and not to grow up too fast. That the weight of is actions as a Jujutsu Sorcerer are fine as long as he put his best foot forward with no regrets. Yuji just finds his fatherly aura calming.

Megumi Fushiguro: Someone he considers his best friend. Yuji risked his life for him. Yuji feels the most like himself with Megumi, even if his energy is vastly different from his. They compliment each other despite being polar opposites. He admires Megumi for his intuition and quick thinking even though they're the same age.

TWO THINGS YOUR CHARACTER REGRETS :

being unable to gain control over Sukuna in Shibuya : even though he commends Choso for being a strong opponent, he hates how he lost to him, and his body was seized by Sukuna to do such vile acts. with his body he killed so many people. inumaki lost his arm because of him, megumi almost died because of him, the casualties in shibuya were so devastating because he was knocked unconscious. he couldn't regain control fast enough. if only, he often tells himself.

his naivety / weakness : it's not until after Shibuya Incident that Yuji cursed his own naivety and weakness. he thinks a lot, and often on how to repent, and all he can do is fight.

ONE PHOBIA YOUR CHARACTER HAS : Not a documented phobia, because who swallows the finger of the King of Curses and fights possession every day? Losing himself, his soul, his body to Sukuna is a fear he has every day. Though his body acclimates every time he swallows a finger, sometimes, even Post- Shibuya, he fears losing control of his body to Sukuna.

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[casscreva]

My OC:

*:･ﾟ✧ Nakia Character Bio *:･ﾟ✧

✧ Name: Nakia Leónis Zamir (FC: Matthew Cegielski)

✧ Age: 16 (2023: 21)

✧ Gender: Male

♡ Sexual/Romantic Orientation: Pansexual

✧ Nickname(s): Nana, κακό(evil or wicked in Greek- used in derogatory manner), Kiki, Naki, Zamir

✧ Birthday: Oct 31, 2002

✧ Zodiac Sign: Scorpio ♏️

✧ Godly Parent: Hades

✧ Ethnicity: Greek 🇬🇷

✧ Languages: Sign Language, Greek, English

✧ Blood Type: AB-

✧ Theme Song: VOID- Melanie Martinez

☆*:.｡. The Character’s Appearance .｡.:*☆

✧ Eye color(s): Violet(right eye), Gold(left eye)

✧ Height: 5’5

✧ Weight: 150 lbs

✧ Handedness: Left

✧ Jewelry/Accessories: 2 lobe (both sides), double helix (left side), nostril (right side), septum, nipples (at age 18). He wears an eye patch on his right eye in order to hide it.

☆*:.｡. About the Character .｡.:*☆

✧ Personality: INFJ-T (Turbulent Advocate)

✧ Camp: Half-Blood

✧ Favorites: Cherries, gem mining, different types of tea, watching the stars at night

✧ Least Favorites: Crowded places, boba, loud/problematic people, dragonfruit, grapefruit, being called κακό

✧ Hobbies/Interests: Drawing, reading, playing the harp, and learning the ocarina

✧ Phobias/Fears:

･ claustrophobia (fear of confined spaces)

･ astraphobia (fear of storms)

✧ Habits: Saying sorry, flinching at loud noises, chewing skin off lips, picking at nails, self isolating

✧ Disorders: Dyslexia, Generalized Anxiety disorder, Bi Polar, and Moderate Major Depressive disorder

✧ Disabilities: Hard of hearing

✧ Mannerisms: He is very quiet, doesn’t really speak unless spoken to, and speaks with an accent. He tends to mix Greek words/phrases in while speaking English (Often times he has to end up translating it). When he speaks English, he always signs as he’s talking out of habit. He is very polite, tries to be nice to everyone. Nakia can be VERY stubborn at times He tends to be a bit skittish when talking to new people, often stuttering. Tends to avoid eye contact.

✧ Skills/Talents: Chaos Magic which can allows him to alter reality and control various forms of mystical energy.

✧ Best Qualities: He is the caretaker friend. If any loved one needed anything, he would go to the end of the earth to get it. He is very determined often times and won’t stop until he accomplishes his goals. Very loyal to his friends.

✧ Worst Qualities: His magic is often controlled by his emotions- which can be very dangerous if not monitored. He can be very self-sabotaging and often lets his emotions get the best of him. He can be very quick to anger given the right circumstances. He’s usually a bit too determined- if he doesn’t reach the goals in the way he planned to, he gets extremely frustrated. He is usually extremely anxious and can have a very turbulent personality.

☆*:.｡. The Characters Relationship to Others .｡.:*☆

✧ Reputation: His magic causes many of the campers to either be afraid of him or bully him. There are often rumors about him and his magic roaming around. He doesn’t confirm nor deny them which leads most to assume it’s true. Chiron is more strict with Nakia in opposed to others in the camp.

✧ Love Interest(s): N/A

✧ Friend(s): Annabeth, Will, Nico, and Leo.

✧ Relationship(s):

• Annabeth: She always manages to lighten up Nakia’s mood. She often defends him in many different ways. Nakia can be very protective of her at times, but only when he feels like she can’t/ won’t defend herself.

• Will: Nakia’s best friend. He enjoys watching will play different instruments and is given lessons on how to play them. Will’s personality is the complete opposite of Nakia’s, but that’s what he loves about him.

• Nico: His brother. They weren’t as close until Bianca died, Nakia tried his best to be there for Nico. They became extremely close and often hang out with Will. Nakia is very protective of Nico.

☆*:.｡. The Character’s Abilities .｡.:*☆

✧ Fighting Style: In order to avoid using his magic, Annabeth gave Nakia lessons on different techniques. He is better at hand-to-hand combat because he tends to be more agile. He’s familiar with many different weapon types, but tends to stray away from long-ranged weapons out of preference.

✧ Preferred Weapon(s): Quarterstaff, Spears, and Daggers.

☆*:.｡.(On a scale of 1-10; 1 being terrible and 10 being the best) .｡.:*☆

✧ Knowledge: 7/10

✧ Conceptualization Power: 6/10

✧ Motivation: 7/10

✧ Will to Act: 6/10

✧ Agility: 10/10

✧ Spiritual Power: 5/10

✧ Swordsmanship: 8/10

✧ Hand-to-Hand Combat: 8/10

✧ Long Range Accuracy: 6/10

✧ Offense: 8/10

✧ Defense: 7/10

✧ Social Skills: 2/10

☆*:.｡. The Character’s Familial/Biographical Information .｡.:*☆

✧ Birthplace: Athens, Greece

✧ Family:

• Alcina Zamir: Mother, Deceased

• Astraea Zamir: Little Sister, Deceased

• Ezra Zamir: Little Brother, Deceased

• Hades: Father, Immortal

☆*:.｡. Background .｡.:*☆

Nakia came from a very poor family. His mother, Alcina, was diagnosed with leukemia when he was 4 years old. He had two twin siblings, Astrea and Ezra, with whom he loved dearly. As he got older, his mother fell more and more ill, leaving him to take care of his siblings. Around the age of 7, he was making meals for his family, cleaning up after everyone, and making sure his mother was tended to. His mother ended up dying a year later, sending him and his siblings into foster care. They stayed in foster care until he was 10 years old. He wasn’t aware that he was a demigod, so he had no defense on what monsters would come after him. Eventually the monsters managed to find him, it ended up killing everyone in the foster care including his siblings. The attack ended wounding his right eye, causing him to be blind in that eyes. He managed to escape, hiding somewhere. A beautiful young woman came to him, identifying herself as Eris. She told him that she would bestow a gift to Nakia so that he would never be weak again. In his time of vulnerability, Nakia accepts. When he accepts, the wound on his right eye disappears, and eye turned into a vibrant violet color. Not too long after the incident, he was recruited into camp half blood.

-The eyes were edited to look more accurate to Nakia’s appearance-

[erinbeast]

Demographics

1. Name: Erin

2. Age: 32

3. Sex/Gender: Agender

4. Ethnicity: American

5. Occupation: Office Coordinator

6. Socioeconomic status: Middle Class

7. Education: Some college (Went for degree in Graphic Design)

8. Other notes:

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Physical Appearance

1. Eye color: Green

2. Skin color: Grey/Black/White

3. Hair color: Blonde Blue fluff

4. Height: 5’8”

5. Weight: 130 lb

6. Body type: Slim

7. Fitness level: Good

8. Tattoos: Assassin’s Creed “Nothing is True, Everything is Permitted” on inner forearms, Boo and ShyGuy on right shoulder, Doom insignia on left shoulder, Dead Space marker/Isaac mask on lower left forearm, Cheshire cat on right thigh, Iris flowers on left collarbone, Slipknot S on back of neck, Eyeball Squid on left thigh, Time is Now, Now is Forever on inner wrists.

9. Scars/Birthmarks: Covered in small scars from various accidents and such.

10. Other distinguishing features: Is a lemur

11. Disabilities: ADHD and Bi-Polar

12. Fashion style: Sweater dresses, tight low jeans, boots of all kinds, thigh high socks, crop tops,

13. Accessories: Multiple piercings on face including, Gauged ear lobes, quadruple helix on left ear, industrial in right ear, septum piercing, VCH, two lower lip,

14. Cleanliness/Grooming: Showers everyday, lets hair do whatever it wants.

15. Posture/Gait: Good posture, quick walk

16. Tics: Bounces leg all the time, fidgets(always has figdget toys with them)

17. Coordination (or lack thereof): Average coordination

18. Weaknesses: Stubborn as a mule, minor temper problem, BRAT

19. Other notes:

History

1. Birth date: 19 Dec

2. Place of birth: Hahn, Germany

3. Key family members: Mom

4. Notable events/milestones: Born, raised, went to college, dropped out of college, got job in retail, finally got out of retail

5. Criminal record: None

6. Affiliations: Themselves

7. Skeletons in the closet:

8. Other notes:

Psychological Traits

1. Personality type: Brat, likes to tease and play

2. Personality traits: Stubborn, affectionate, playful, temperamental,

3. Temperament: Certain things (Views on things) tend to rile them up as well as being ignored.

4. Introvert/Extrovert: Introvert

5. Mannerisms: A bit childish

6. Educational background: Finished High school average student, went to college but ultimately burned out/flunked

7. Intelligence: Average, loves learning new things, especially random trivia

8. Self-esteem: High, they love showing off

9. Hobbies: Crafting whether it be painting, string art, origami, drawing, working with resin, or sewing and playing video games of all kinds

10. Skills/talents:

11. Loves: Ruckus Mommy, music, and video games

12. Morals/Virtues: Morally sound, knows right from wrong,

13. Phobias/Fears: Spiders and being abandoned

14. Angered by: Idiots

15. Pet peeves: Chewing loudly, stupidity, assumptions.

16. Obsessed with: Doom, Call of Duty Modern Warfare

17. Routines: None, they are play it by ear

18. Bad habits: Assuming things, picking at scabs and creating scars

19. Desires: Dom

20. Flaws: Slightly quick tempered, bratty

21. Quirks:

22. Favorite sayings: Mine, Mommy please, and No

23. Disabilities: None Physically

24. Secrets: Can lie but pretends to be bad at it

25. Regrets: None so far

26. Accomplishments:

27. Memories: Too many to list

28. Other notes:

Communication

1. Languages known: English, sporadic Spanish and German

2. Preferred communication methods: Text and speech

3. Accent: None

4. Style and pacing of speech: Quick talker, talks too fast sometimes and stumbles over words

5. Pitch: Medium high

6. Laughter: Hehehehehe

7. Smile: Maniac grin or laughter

8. Use of gestures: Uses hands to gesture when talking, hands go everywhere

9. Facial expressions: Can’t keep them quiet enough, their face says it all

10. Verbal expressions:

11. Other notes:

Strengths, Weaknesses, and Abilities

1. Physical strengths: Stamina

2. Physical weaknesses: Strength

3. Intellectual strengths: Art history, random trivia of all kinds

4. Intellectual weaknesses: Math, Science, Geography

5. Interpersonal strengths:

6. Interpersonal weaknesses:

7. Physical abilities: Nothing special

8. Magical abilities: None other than he is a lemur

9. Physical illnesses/conditions: None, Healthy

10. Mental illnesses/conditions: ADHD and Bi-polar depression

11. Other notes:

Relationships

1. Partner(s)/Significant other(s): Ruckus

2. Lover(s): Ruckus

3. Parents/Guardians: None

4. Children: None, he is baby

5. Grandparents: None

6. Grandchildren: None

7. Family: Dead

8. Pets: 6 cats and 1 dog

9. Best friends:

10. Friends: Ryan, Thurry, and Otter

11. Rivals: Themselves

12. Enemies: His own mind

13. Colleagues: Eh

14. Mentors/Teachers: Resents old lit teacher from high school

15. Idols/Role models: None, he doesn’t like comparing himself to others

16. Followers: Ruckus

17. Strangers: They exist, wish they would keep away

18. Non-living things: He likes them, they don’t talk back or argue

19. Clubs/Memberships: Brat Club

20. Social media presence: Tumblr and Twitter, occasionally watches TikTok, not huge on the trends though

21. Public perception of them: They do not care

[starry-dream-moonlight]

well too bad i’m dragging yall down with by giving context to the question i asked eariler so hehe >:3 i’m putting it under cut tho cause it long so bleep-

So while im a bit of a mutishipper when it comes it shipping ocs with someone this is…well i think one of them- (which is funny considering how im making it where thesia and Monkai are dating in my fangan but i wanna ask thesia if that’s alright with her-)

SO during animation class me and a couple of friends were rewatching Dragon ball super super hero movie manly cause we want to discuss how our ocs would interact with them you know-

So one of them I actually thought of one and that was Monkai interaction with Gamma 1 and her sister kaori (i changed her name- and her age so she’s monkai’s age-)) interaction with Gamma 2 and those look

yes i know they’re androids but my friends wanted to start with them sooooooooooo-

Anywho-

Monkai has an interesting type while she’s more into liking people who can handle her energy and those who are loyal although that means she can ease up a bit around meaning she doesn’t lie as much considering her ultimate. And i thought her and gamma 1 might make a interesting duo considering their personality and what does one of my friends say?

“Soo basically there relationship is basically like a grumpy x sunshine ship or more like the polar opposites ones?” …..

I hardly told u flip about monkai and you guys are alreadly pulling the ship card on them? Weird (i mean Monkai is bi so-)

No wait i would be more of the weird considering i’m thinking about it working hhhhhhhh i’m weird im sorry you have to deal with my absolute weirdness with stuff like this ;w;

And honestly they slighting did the same with Kaori and Gamma 2 since Kaori is technically like a mix of emu and minori except of idols Kaori likes it’s superheros

….

Yea i’m weird imma go cry in the corner out of embarrassment hhhhh ;w; feel free to judge me now-

[allinonedentalinnovations]

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The main advantage of fixed dental implants is that they are very secure and resistant to wear and tear. This means that they are usually easy to replace if needed. In addition, they offer a stable foundation for your teeth and can enable you to regain full oral function following surgery.

One downside of fixed dental implants is that they can be quite expensive to replace. Additionally, they require regular visits to the dentist in order to remove any excess material or adjust the implant if it begins to become loose.

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Bi-polar dental implants are a type of implant that combines the stability of a fixed implant with the versatility of a removable prosthetic tooth. They consist of two parts – an anchor rod and a bite plate – which are inserted into the jawbone separately. The bite plate is then screwed onto the anchor rod, providing both stability and flexibility. Bi

How do Dental Implants Work?

Dental implants are a popular option for people who seek dental reconstruction. The implants are placed into the jawbone, and help to replace teeth that have been lost or damaged. Implants come in a variety of shapes and sizes, and can be made from a variety of materials, including titanium, stainless steel, and plastic.

Implants function by attaching to the jawbone with screws or bolts. They provide a foundation for replacement teeth, which can be custom-made to your own Smile Design. Dental implants can provide you with a more comfortable bite and improved appearance. They may also improve your self-confidence, as you will no longer need to worry about unsightly dental work or removable dentures.

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Dental implants are a popular treatment for restoring teeth that have been lost or damaged. They are a surgical solution that replaces missing teeth with artificial dental implants. The surgery is usually performed on an outpatient basis, and most patients experience minimal pain and no other serious side effects.

The cost of dental implants varies depending on the dentist and the type of implant used. Generally, the cost will range from $3,000 to $5,000 per implant. Some insurance plans may cover part or all of the cost of dental implants, so it is important to ask your insurance company if coverage is available before you make your appointment.

There are several types of dental implants that can be used in Dublin: single-tooth implants, which replace one tooth; multi-tooth implants, which replace multiple teeth; fixed bridgework (also known as fixed abutments), which attach a new set of teeth to the gums near the old ones; and free floating (or head) dentures, which are removable prosthetic appliances that are worn like regular teeth.

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[booksandwords]

His Knight by Charity Parkerson

Series: Shining Armor, #1 Read time: 2 Days Rating: 3/5 Stars

The Quote: “This is Benjamin Lee. Please don’t shoot me. I’m already having a really shitty day.” — Benny

I don't know what to make of the end of this. It loses down to 3 stars due to the ending. It's so controlling and manipulative. There is a scene that runs dangerously close to being a form of rape. If you are a fan of Asian drama it is kinda close of TorFight in Why RU? (especially when watched with one particular set of subs). The plot is okay. But I feel there are some moments of serious hero complex. I'm just conflicted, or I was until I started writing (I really dislike it). As such, quick review I hope.

I do like the characters. Benjamin "Benny" Lee is just sweet, his insecurity and isolation leanings are backed by his history and just seem right. Wyatt Knight is a typical high-end police, loyal, strong and fierce. He has a little bit of trauma gained at the start of the book, and not handled. I find Wyatt and Benny together are just weird, I have resounding negative feelings about them. I'm not sure if it is the characters of Charity's execution of their relationship. Charity Parkinson has made an impressive choice with the two maternal figures of the story. Elle is that warm, motherly, loving and protective type that is so common in this type of romance novel. But Benny's mother is a whole other deal. Benny's mother is North Korean, trapped in North Korea after being deported back there, she is the reason Benny does what he does. They are polar opposites while both being supportive of their sons.

That storyline with Jayden is written in well. Jayden is a complicated character. He is already showing himself two have more than one side. Jayden is lonely, a bit broken and needs love. We actually get to see the side of him that is fierce and caring. I do like that we met him through Wyatt they are more than a little complicated. He deserves his happiness with Darrel (book 3, His Salvation) not all readers will think that at first but trust me by the time you finish you will.

Some quotes:

There had to be at least five shooters. All in full riot gear with automatic weapons. Wasn’t this high school shit? Who shot up a college campus? — Five is a lot for a campus shooting, like unheard of from what I saw, some minor realism would be appreciated. As for that who shoots up a college campus? It's not nearly as common, I'm guessing something to do with attendance being a choice and campus size, but it's not as uncommon as we'd like to think. (Benny)

Two members of his team were dead. Their funerals had passed without Wyatt in attendance. — Well fu** you very much for that. Way to make a man bitter. (Wyatt)

He couldn’t even find one person to go to the movies with and these five people found one another to go on a killing spree. Life was funny. Popularity was wasted on the popular. — Jesus that is just grim. I mean I appreciate the quote and the thought but it is good. (Benny)

“I’m sure she’d love to have you, but then I wouldn’t get to do this,” Wyatt said, capturing the man’s lips." — Well sweetie, that went from I-can't-do-this-it's-unprofessional to kissing Benny in maybe a page and a half. I think I'm almost impressed at the speed.

“She assumed, since you’re bi, you’d be open to having other men join you,” — FFS Kayla. I can't even with you girl. Between this and your actions later... 🤬🥊 (Benny)

“I get the feeling you’re an old man trapped in a twenty-two-year-old body.” — This is in reference to Benny. It's a recurring line and theme. Honestly, it is true and a mood for me. (Wyatt)

There are some good moments in the second half that I would share but I'm not sure where the spoilers are for this and I'm not sure I have the motivation to spend more time on this review.

I will likely read others in the series because Richie's (book 2, His Loss) sounds appealing as a set-up. All of them work on the stressful situation principle to open, campus shooting, stuck lift and claustrophobia and a bank robbery. Call it a series of attempts to defy the Speed principle. I'm hoping it is still known what I mean by that but it comes from the last times of the film "I have to warn you, I've heard relationships based on intense experiences never work. OK. We'll have to base it on sex then. Whatever you say, ma'am." (Jack Traven and Annie Porter)

[martinacollenderplaywrightblog]

Hi all 👋

Tomorrow is World Bi Polar Disorder Day. They have a whole dedicated to us lunatics!

I was diagnosed with Bi Polar Disorder when I was 28, although I had been seeking help for my mental health since I was 16 as I felt there was something wrong.

I'd like to share some information with you on this day as being informed is the best tactic we have against the Disorder;

Bipolar disorder (formerly called manic-depressive illness or manic depression) is a mental illness that causes unusual shifts in a person’s mood, energy, activity levels, and concentration. These shifts can make it difficult to carry out day-to-day tasks.

There are three types of bipolar disorder. All three types involve clear changes in mood, energy, and activity levels. These moods range from periods of extremely “up,” elated, irritable, or energized behavior (known as manic episodes) to very “down,” sad, indifferent, or hopeless periods (known as depressive episodes). Less severe manic periods are known as hypomanic episodes.

• Bipolar I disorder is defined by manic episodes that last for at least 7 days (nearly every day for most of the day) or by manic symptoms that are so severe that the person needs immediate medical care. Usually, depressive episodes occur as well, typically lasting at least 2 weeks. Episodes of depression with mixed features (having depressive symptoms and manic symptoms at the same time) are also possible. Experiencing four or more episodes of mania or depression within 1 year is called “rapid cycling.”

• Bipolar II disorder is defined by a pattern of depressive episodes and hypomanic episodes. The hypomanic episodes are less severe than the manic episodes in bipolar I disorder.

• Cyclothymic disorder (also called cyclothymia) is defined by recurring hypomanic and depressive symptoms that are not intense enough or do not last long enough to qualify as hypomanic or depressive episodes.

Bipolar disorder is often diagnosed during late adolescence (teen years) or early adulthood. Sometimes, bipolar symptoms can appear in children. Although the symptoms may vary over time, bipolar disorder usually requires lifelong treatment. Following a prescribed treatment plan can help people manage their symptoms and improve their quality of life.

People with bipolar disorder experience periods of unusually intense emotion and changes in sleep patterns and activity levels, and engage in behaviors that are out of character for them—often without recognizing their likely harmful or undesirable effects. These distinct periods are called mood episodes. Mood episodes are very different from the person’s usual moods and behaviors. During an episode, the symptoms last every day for most of the day. Episodes may also last for longer periods, such as several days or weeks.

People with Bi Polar experience Manic and Depressive Episodes.

For me, when I have a manic episode, I believe I have special powers and can heal people and fix any problems in life. I also have delusions, such as seeing dead people or bears without any skin on their heads so it's just skulls as well as hearing voices to tell me to kill myself. I speak very fast and lose sleep making me more manic and tired. I spent money I don't have on silly things. I engage in self destructive behaviour such as alcohol or drug abuse. I might write but when I go back to it I find it's gibberish. I will express love I have for people in a manic manner.

A manic episode is like drinking 12 cups of coffee or taking a bag of Coke, your completely wired.

When I have depressive episode, I can't wash or sleep nor can I leave bed. I find it difficult to eat and I'm drowned in thoughts that everyone hates me and I should kill myself. It's very dark. I get so emotional it's like I've lost a family member or close friend, its dark and intense and can last days or sometimes even up to two weeks where you feel completely and utterly worthless and unlovable.

I have to be careful engaging with my family and friends when I'm having a manic or depressive episode and my ambition is to be a professional Playwright so I have to be careful writing in these conditions as often it is worthless and I have to start again.

I take two sedatives, one anti psychotic, two anti depressants, one anti aniexty, anti hystimeans to help me sleep and Lithium to manage my condition but that's all they do; is manage it. I have to work hard at controlling a manic or depressive episode, somedays I win, somedays I don't.

There's loads of downsides to being Bi Polar but the upside is that when I love, I love completely and intensely and emensly.

So if you've hung around; thank you! I hope I'm worth it. If you're gone, you're gone and there's nothing I can do about that but cry and weep for the loss of you.

Please try and educate yourself this World Bi Polar Day and reach out!

1 in 50 people will experience Bi Polar Disorder so if it's not you, it will be someone you love so please reach out and remember I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell 💙

[damagedintellect]

Craig Tucker x Fem!reader

💌 Craig Tucker is a mother fucker: Chapter 1  💌  

Summary:  You want to say that it wasn't your fault buuuuuut it kinda was. You didn't think much of it as you casted your joke vote for the "Hottest guy in school" and in hindsight you should never listen to Clyde but it was pretty funny at the time. Craig just wanted a peaceful junior year and you can't blame him for that however waking up the morning after a party, in his bed, being told that you two were dating wasn't exactly your definition of peaceful either.

Notes:  I was always too scared of the fandom to post it back in the day but I wrote this before Creek was made canon so let's just say Craig is bi for my sake because I've had a huge crush on him since forever. My S/O pointed out that Craig is just Trafalgar Law but with a guinea pig instead of a polar bear and I haven't been the same since I have a type and it's them.

💌 Word count: 3,043 💌  You Are Here | Chapter 2 =>

You look in the mirror and stare at yourself for a little bit, Today was the first day of the new school year. You had moved to South Park in the middle of your Sophomore year and needless to say that moving in the middle of the year is just plain weird. At that point in the year everyone in the school has already known each other for a while and have already formed their friend groups and at first you had a rough start making friends, but eventually you made a few good ones. You perk up when your phone rang scrambling to answer it "Hey, we're outside" Wendy said, you could also hear Bebe in the background shouting "Get that ass in the car!" you smiled as you hung up on them and rushed outside, you were excited. You could feel it, today was going to be a great day.

Today is not going to be a great day.

Wendy and Bebe lied. They said that they were picking you up early to go eat breakfast somewhere but you noticed Wendy drove straight to the school. You had questioned where they were taking you and they didn't say anything. Instead of breakfast they took you to the sunshine sparkle girls club meeting or whatever the fuck they called it.

"Why are we here" you huffed as the rest of the girls showed up to the meeting. Last year they tried to get you to join but you turned them down. "(Y/n) almost every girl in our grade level is apart of the committee." Wendy chimed in as she handed you a paper and motioned for you to sit down. "Yeah, but why do I have too and what's up with the paper?" You sat next to Bebe who was giggling at your defiance "If you're not apart of the committee people write you off as a two faced bitch. Trust me it's better if you join and just become a partially active member."

"Honestly, most of the members only participate in the first meeting which is fine because it's the most important one." Wendy walked up to the podium "Today we decide who the hottest boys in school are!"

You stared at your paper and swore under your breath "Fuck" the entire meeting was basically suggesting that you go about the first day as you would any other day but the moment a guy catches your eye you should write that name down. Most of the girls managed to turn in their votes immediately. Wendy said that you could write your crushes name down but you have until the end of the day to change your mind. Now it's not like you don't have a crush, you do, but you haven't told anyone who they are because well,

"Wendy who did you vote for" you heard some girl ask "I bet she voted for Stan she always votes for him every year." another rang and Wendy blushes "We're voting for the hottest guy in the school my crush on Stan has nothing to do with it."

And there it was, your best friend had a crush on the same guy you did.

Stanley Marsh

It's hard to explain but every time he's around, you get butterflies. You had a few classes with him last year and he seemed pretty cool even though you only talked with him a few times. Stan was the one who gave you your welcome to South Park High tour and if it wasn't for him you would have fell down the stairs but he caught you just in time. Thinking back that's probably when you fell for him, pun intended, and since then you've just admired him from afar. Getting up from your seat you fold the paper and pocketed it. You have until the end of the day to decide whether you were going to out yourself or not and worse case scenario you leave it blank. "So who'd you vote for?" Bebe asked as she walked back from turning hers in "Honestly I'm going to scout out the hotties, walk among them, become one of them."

"You have no idea who to vote for do you."

"Not a clue"

The bell rang and everyone made their way to their first class. Bebe walked with you for a little while but you didn't have the same class. You picked a random seat in the back not really paying too much attention to who was in your class. You spaced out for most of the class anyways. You guess you could always just vote for one of your friends but you wouldn't want anyone to get the wrong idea. According to Bebe the student body really liked their rumors and so far you feel like you've been pretty good with laying low. At least you haven't heard many but then again maybe you just weren't paying attention.

Mr. Garrison called on you and you didn't even notice until you felt a tap on your shoulder "Uh (L/n)?" A familiar monotone voice brought you back to reality "Hmm?" it was Tucker, Craig Tucker. You raised your eyebrows causing him to gesture towards the front at Mr. Garrison, who was waiting for you to read the next paragraph. You quickly apologized and continued where they had left off. As soon as you were done you turned to Tucker and mouthed a "Thank you" but he only stared at you with a blank expression "Yeah well maybe pay attention next time dumbass" he whispered flipping you off. "Tch well fuck you too" you whispered back using both hands to do the same. God Tucker always gets on your nerves, it might be a new year but it feels like the same old shit.

When you first moved here, you and Tucker got off on the wrong foot. You're not even quite sure why, but it did escalate to a fist fight. That was some time ago at this point and a lot has happened since then, coincidentally you ended up in the same friend group. However anytime you two were left alone you'd still butt heads. Honestly you wish you could remember what started it all but from that time last year you both couldn't stand each other.

As if you weren't already having a hard time, for the rest of the class you couldn't focus. You glared at Tucker waiting for class to end so you could bolt. He noticed you staring and stuck his tongue at you. You grit your teeth only staring back at him. As soon as the bell rang you took off to your next class.

"(Y/n)" you hear someone behind you call out to you but you were walking pretty fast.

You couldn't tell whose voice it was so you turned around and ended up crashing into someone. You felt an arm wrap around your waist as they caught you right before you hit the floor. Your eyes widen and your posture stiffens "Hey are you okay (Y/n)?" It was Stan and he was holding you.

Your hero.

You really tried to keep it together but end up stuttering "T-t-thanks to you I'm f-fine." He helped you upright as you continued "As always your reaction time is impeccable." He smiled and scratched the back of his neck "Hehe you think?" you both stare at each other laughing a bit before you both went quiet. You should say something but your mind goes blank when he smiles at you "Well anyways we probably should get to class. It was nice seeing you." You waved him off. You feel like an idiot and yup there were the butterflies. You lightly slap your cheeks and continue going to class.

You heard your name once more but you were lost in thought looking at the floor. You felt an arm around your shoulders and you were met with a bubbly voice "Oooooo, I saw that! So are you going to vote for Stan? He's been number 1 for a while." It was Bebe but not too far behind her were Clyde and Tucker as you walked into your next class. You shake your head as all four of you sat at the same table. If you did vote for Stan, Wendy would probably flip out. She's pretty compulsive when it's about Stan. "Or and this is a pretty big or, why don't you just vote for your crush." Bebe said wiggling her eyebrows at you "And up the chance they find out, sounds like social suicide to me. Hard pass."

"Wait (Y/n) you haven't voted yet!" Clyde said as he smiled in anticipation "Nope" you shook your head "Since I came in the middle of last year I wasn't aware this was going to be a thing."

Clyde stands up slamming his hands on the table "Ooo GIVE ME YOUR VOTE!!" everyone in the class turned to look at Clyde and he sheepishly smiled. You and Bebe laughed at him with how desperate he sounded "Okay, okay calm down. I was going to leave it blank but I'll vote for you." He waved you off "No not like that I mean I want to vote for someone." He grinned while Bebe gasped "WHAT? Clyde Donovan not voting for himself. Who are you and what have you done with Clyde." You both laughed as the teacher started class. It was "Life skills" which mean it was a fancy version of home ect.

The usual first day back icebreakers followed by a small overview of the class. It was mostly going to be a lot of group work and projects with the people at your table. All your classes were short because it was the first day so class went by fast. The bell rang before you knew it and you all parted ways. Or so you thought you noticed that Tucker was walking in the same direction as you. You rolled your eyes "Oh joy" you said to no one in particular as you both walked into the same classroom. He took a seat all the way in the back which you did the same only a few rows away since most of the seats were already taken. You could see Wendy from where you were sitting and you almost got up to greet her before you noticed that Stan was sitting next to her. They looked like they were really good friends, you didn't want to intrude. You frowned and rested your head on your hand. Now you just want class to be over.

Through most of the class you were just fiddling with your pencil to pass the time that's when a note landed on your desk. You opened it to see it was a drawing of a small Tucker flipping you off saying "I thought I told you to pay attention!" you couldn't help but laugh as you drew over his drawing adding in a mustache and devil horns making another speech bubble that read

"Since when could you draw?!"

Yes, you know that it's grammatically incorrect to use both punctuation marks but you didn't care. You waited for an opportunity where your teacher was facing the board and threw your reply back. You watched him open it and saw him smirk as he drew something else on the note. This was pretty much how you both spent the rest of the class scribbling doodles to each other and making snide remarks. When the bell rang you thought about trying to talk to Stan again. You looked to the front of the class to see Wendy and Stan laughing as Stan offers to hold her things while they go off to lunch. It doesn't seem like you had a chance at all they've known each other for so long and you barely even talk. A hand waves in and out of your vision "You really need to stop zoning out, you're in the way." You snapped out of it and slapped his hand "In the way my ass, you could have walked around me." you both walked to the cafeteria. Not together you both just so happened to be walking to the same place at the same time.

As you approached the usual table you were greeted by Tweek and Token who didn't miss a beat to point out the obvious. "Whoa Tweek are you seeing what I'm seeing." Tweek nodded "I-i-it's very rare to see them AH together."

"And not at each other's throats." They both gasped "Could this the start of-" Craig narrows his eyes at them flipping Tweek off and interrupting Token "Oh fuck off. I don't have a choice she's been in all my classes so far." Token laughed and nudged him playfully "I don't know there's a lot of rumors about you two."

"P-p-people think you two are-AH-dating." You start choking as Clyde and Bebe joined the party "Yeah I'm surprised you guys didn't hear about it until now." Clyde said sitting down next to Craig who rolled his eyes "No I've heard the rumors. They're annoying." He glares at you "As if I'd ever date an idiot like her."

You stick your tongue out at him "I haven't heard any, so pray tell what are they" You thought you did well laying low. Bebe laughs at you hugging you while petting your hair. "Poor (Y/n) so oblivious when it comes to herself." you tried to push her away but she hugged you tighter "It was around the end of the year when you and Craig had that big fist fight." You stopped her right there "Best day of my life, what about it." you will never forget the day you got to punch Tucker in the face.

Craig was fed up he clenched his fist and slammed it on the table "Tch, You know what? I'm out of here. I can't stand her." He left flipping everyone off. As you all watched him leave Bebe hit your shoulder "Ow, hey he can't complain about that day! He was the one who started it, may I me remind you he hit me first!" you defended yourself "Anyways that was when they started. If you haven't noticed Craig doesn't have any interest in girls." Clyde added and the rest of the table agreed "He doesn't give any other girls the time of day so naturally people would think he has a thing for you with all the attention he gives you." Token said as Clyde nods "He does treat you special comparatively. I mean I wouldn't doubt if he did."

"H-he's not good with ACK expressing his feelings." you rolled your eyes "Yeah yeah or he could actually hate my guts but whatever I don't really care." you rubbed your temples "Could we change the subject already." Bebe perked up "We could always talk about who you're gonna vote for!" why, why you.

Eventually Lunch was over and you continued with the rest of your day. You did notice that Tucker was in some of your next classes but you made it a point to ignore him. At least as much as you could anyway and before you knew it, it was already the end of the day. He wasn't in your last class so that was a plus. You slowly got up from your seat looking at the blank paper, should you just turn it in anyways? You sighed about to write a name down when you heard footsteps from outside the room.

"(Y/N)!! Oh thank god you haven't left yet!" Clyde appeared in the doorway as the rest of your classmates were leaving the room he was panting pretty heavily "I.....oh god I'm out of shape.....give me a minute." he tried to catch his breath and you pat his back "I would have been here sooner but I had to lose Craig he can't know about this. Do you still have your vote please please PLEASE tell me you do." you laughed at him "Seriously this is what you're so worked up about? You can take it." you handed it over to Clyde who scribbled down a name. You leaned over to see who he was writing. You both smirked "Oh I see. So that's why you wanted it so badly." Clyde gave you a thumbs up "I'm not saying I'm rigging this years list but I've pretty much been doing this all day." he helped you gather your things "Do you know how hard it is to not have Craig around?! Pretty fucken hard like god damn man he shows up out of nowhere!" you walk out of the room with Clyde and almost on cue you see Tucker approach. You clutch the note "My lips are sealed but I do have to turn this in now." you waved them goodbye and made your way to the committee's secret not so secret base.

When you arrived Wendy looked frantic probably from trying to tally up all the votes. You knocked on the door frame to get her attention. She looked up at you with the biggest sigh of relief "Are you turning in your vote?" you handed her the paper "Yup but, are you okay you look a bit shaken up?" you were concerned you've never seen her like this before. "Well right now we currently have a tie for THE hottest guy and everyone else has already turned in their votes. I'm glad there was one left."

"I'm the literal last vote? I feel oddly special." Wendy looked down at the paper and back to you then back at the paper and back to you. "A-are, are you sure this is who you're voting for? I mean this helps but I thought you-" you cut her off, you know how this must look but at this point you didn't care. "Don't ask I've had a time, but yes I'm sure that's my vote." quite frankly you thought Wendy was going to keel over she looked kind of pale. "Wendy are you sure you're okay?" She gave you a forced smile.

"I'm fine. If anything you broke the tie."

[teaziecups]

COMMON TRIGGER WARNINGS ARE PLACED HERE: Violance, mental health, stalking, abuse, and overall unhealthy behaviors.

OC notes shit thing, have been writing in this for months and these are random snippets of stuff.

Asks are allowed!

- An app like Insta named Hashtag for OC's that into that shit.

- An app like Discord named Frizzbee.

- Elliot beats up Draw. Draw likes it. Weirdly.

- Draw is a freeloader and is a parasite towards family an friends. Leaches off them for any sort of resources.

- Draw develops more staggering sadistic behaviors and develops scary fetishies.

-Lukas stalks Elliot majorly, Elliot notices.

-Lukas greatly misses Elliot however he wishes he cut off things instead of Elliot.

- Elliot has schizoaffective disorder- Bi polar type 2. Delusions, paranoia, and aggressive behavior dominate along with auditory hallucinations.

- Elliot struggles severely with major depressive disorder but his major symptom is pure anger.

- Elliot is genuinely apathetic to everything around him, unless it bothers or includes him, he does not care about anything around him.

- Elliot hates the fact he's hypersexual, however he's only ever sexualized himself. Elliot Is greysexual/greyromantic and hates the thought of sex with another person.

- Basil has very manipulative parents, white, Christian assholes.

- Draw stalks Elliots partners.

- Draw sends death threats and hateful messages to Elliot. Draw also sends his sick sexual fantasies to him aswell.

- Elliot teritirises Ava online, anonymously (Draws girlfriend/fling).

- Elliot struggles with empathy. Elliot aswell struggles with autism but isn't open about it.

- Elliot has sadistic tendencies towards those that wrong him and he seeks revenge.

- Reasons for Elliot cutting Draw off: Kept ignoring him, talking behind his back, would ignore him around others, get embarrassed around him for no reason & shrug him off, cold shoulder, Draw would only want to talk to Elliot online. Draw liked Elliot in the beginning but shrugged him off.

[ahookedheroespureheart]

I guess I'm kinda getting back into my Tumblr. I'm normally more active on my IG

https://instagram.com/poetgurl85

But I figured I'd do a quick about me :

Fandoms & Interests include :

Marvel

DC

Star Wars

Doctor Who

Star Trek

Musicals

Poetry

St Louis Cardinals

Tarot

Animals

Tom Hiddleston

Oscar Issac

Music of all kinds

Im a double lung transplant recipient & Survivor & will be celebrating 5 yrs post surgery on May 22nd

I'm an Taurus ♉

ENFJ

Ennegram 2

Earth Sign

I love deeply & often feel like an 'old soul'

I love talking & conversing about music & poetry.

British accents are a turn on. (even the fake ones)

I love to get lost in a beautiful pair of eyes & people have told me i have this ability to sense what their feeling.

I guess you could say I'm a bit empathic,which can be a blessing & a curse since I have a habit of putting others before myself.

Sometimes I have to take a breath while I take everything in. Sometimes my head can be overwhelming. The world is a beautiful,maddening place isn't it?

Sometimes I feel like the main character in my life,other times I've felt like a lost princess trapped in a deep sleep & waiting to be rescued with a kiss.

But you realize.. The prince isn't coming. You have to be the one to unlock your mind because you have a box of tools that have been at your disposal to use but you've been too damn stubborn to use them.

That's kinda what it feels like for me at least with having a mental illness,Bi polar & anxiety.

Knowing I'm living on borrowed time. That one day my donor lungs will fail me.

I've beaten the odds already.

5 yr survival rate of most transplants are 50%.

HALF. Everyone else goes into organ rejection.

I could go on & say 'why me?'. Why have so many others died before the 5 yr mark & not me.

But I won't. As I finish up these random thoughts,I'll end with this.

'Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.

For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction.

Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing;

And let it direct your passion with reason, that your passion may livethrough its own daily resurrection, and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.

And since you are a breath in God’s sphere, and a leaf in God’s forest, you too should rest in reason and move in passion.

Khalil Gibran, The Prophet

Oh! One last thing :Moon Knight is such a fascinating show. I'm loving how we're getting into the more supernatural/magic/mythology type stories in the MCU.

Really hoping to see Moonknight/Black Knight /Blade & Dr Strange form a version of The Midnight Sons. I will manifest that shit. Cmon Feige DO IT.

Also Oscar Issac's change from Stephen to Marc fronting. Wow. You know the scene from episode 3. Just the instant change of his demeanor. Wow

I will never truely know what it's like to have D.I.D. but I can emphasize with that feeling of always wanting connection. Feeling misunderstood.

Looking forward to the final 3 episodes.

[erinbeast]

Rhett aka BadgerBat

Demographics

1. Name: Rhett

2. Age: 32

3. Sex/Gender: Male

4. Ethnicity: American

5. Occupation: None

6. Socioeconomic status: Middle Class

7. Education: Some college (Went for degree in Art History)

8. Other notes:

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Physical Appearance

1. Eye color: Blue

2. Skin color: Grey/Black/Reddish

3. Hair color: Blue/Purple Mohawk

4. Height: 6’ 0”

5. Weight: 200 lb

6. Body type: Fit/Athletic

7. Fitness level: Good

8. Tattoos: Assassin’s Creed “Nothing is True, Everything is Permitted” on inner forearms, Boo and ShyGuy on right shoulder, Doom insignia on left shoulder, Dead Space marker/Isaac mask on lower left forearm, Cheshire cat on right thigh, Iris flowers on left collarbone, Slipknot S on back of neck, Eyeball Squid on left thigh, Time is Now, Now is Forever on inner wrists.

9. Scars/Birthmarks: Covered in small scars from various accidents and such.

10. Other distinguishing features:

11. Disabilities: ADHD and Bi-Polar

12. Fashion style: Jeans, T-shirt, Hoodie. Hates wearing shoes.

13. Accessories: Multiple piercings on face including, Gauged ear lobes, quadruple helix on left ear, industrial in right ear, septum piercing, and Prince Albert

14. Cleanliness/Grooming: Showers everyday, runs comb through hair twice and done.

15. Posture/Gait: A little slouched when standing, long sloping gait.

16. Tics: Bounces leg, fidgets (has fidget rings on both ring fingers), “Sir…sir…”

17. Coordination (or lack thereof): Average coordination

18. Weaknesses: Stubborn and can get frustrated when communication fails, little loose with money.

19. Other notes:

History

1. Birth date: 19 Dec

2. Place of birth: Hahn, Germany

3. Key family members: Mom

4. Notable events/milestones:

5. Criminal record: None

6. Affiliations: Themselves

7. Skeletons in the closet: Refuses communication with Father’s side of family despite attempts from said family.

8. Other notes:

Psychological Traits

1. Personality type: Likes to be in control, but chill. Nothing really bothers them, tends to ignore people who want to have a bad time/argue/incite things. He got better things to do.

2. Personality traits: Stubborn, affectionate, even tempered, can be manic/melancholic at times thanks to no-polar depression, creative, horny.

3. Temperament: Even, nothing much riles him.

4. Introvert/Extrovert: Introvert

5. Mannerisms: A little stuttered in front of new people (he’s a bit shy), overall chill and relaxed.

6. Educational background: Some college, left college from burn out before grades got bad

7. Intelligence: Average, absorbs new things like a sponge

8. Self-esteem: Low

9. Hobbies: Playing video games, practicing shibari/kinkaku knots, building and dressing avatars in games

10. Skills/talents:

11. Loves: Fynchie Maus, music, rope, and bed

12. Morals/Virtues: Morally sound, knows right and wrong and stays on the good side of the law

13. Phobias/Fears: Being abandoned and heights

14. Angered by: Not much, mainly people who refuse to leave him alone or who won’t drop a topic he’s done with

15. Pet peeves: Braggarts and self-righteous people

16. Obsessed with: Rope and Maus

17. Routines: Gets out of bed, plays video games, eat lunch, naps, gets up and practices knots while chatting with friends, eats dinner then bed (Very tentative routine, a lot of things tend to change day to day, especially when Maus comes over)

18. Bad habits: Picks at cuticles and makes fingers bleed, finishes peoples sentences

19. Desires: To go back to college

20. Flaws: Can be petty if you do piss him off

21. Quirks: Boops his nose when thinking

22. Favorite sayings: “Sir…sir”

23. Disabilities: No physical disablities

24. Secrets: Pretty open about everything, so none really

25. Regrets: Letting dad drift, not finishing college

26. Accomplishments:

27. Memories: Too many to list

28. Other notes:

Communication

1. Languages known: English

2. Preferred communication methods: speech or text

3. Accent: Mix of SE United States, SW United States, and Minnesota/Canada

4. Style and pacing of speech: Moderate pace when speaking but if t’s an engaging topic he might talk quickly.

5. Pitch: Low

6. Laughter: Low pitch Hahaha, occasionally snorts

7. Smile: Grin

8. Use of gestures: MUST use hands when speaking, hands are all over the place

9. Facial expressions: Can’t keep an inside voice on them

10. Verbal expressions:

11. Other notes:

Strengths, Weaknesses, and Abilities

1. Physical strengths: Stamina and Legs, can walk/jog for hours

2. Physical weaknesses: Pure strength is not his forte

3. Intellectual strengths: Video game lore, trivia, phones, and computers. Math though he hates it. Reading.

4. Intellectual weaknesses: Science (Except biology), foreign languages

7. Physical abilities: Average human

8. Magical abilities: None, other than being a Badger Bat

9. Physical illnesses/conditions: None

10. Mental illnesses/conditions: ADHD and Bi-polar depression

11. Other notes:

Relationships

1. Partner(s)/Significant other(s): Fynchie Maus

2. Lover(s): See above

3. Parents/Guardians: mom

4. Children: None and it will stay that way (He counts his cats and dog as children)

5. Grandparents: Mom side dead, dad’s side no communication

6. Grandchildren: None, he has no kids….

7. Family: Found

8. Pets: 6 Cats (Willa, Izzy, Bors Purrdinand the Fierce, Hobbes, Frank, and Bob) and Kyna a great Pyrenees

9. Best friends:

10. Friends: Ryan and Thurry

11. Rivals: None that he knows of

12. Enemies: See above

13. Colleagues: None

14. Mentors/Teachers: None he can remember

15. Idols/Role models: Mom

16. Followers: None

17. Strangers: No thank you

18. Non-living things: Like rocks… They exist? He has no real inclination either way

19. Clubs/Memberships: Only to libraries

20. Social media presence: Uses Facebook once a year, peruses Twitter and Tumblr

21. Public perception of them: Doesn’t know, doesn’t care except when he really gets inside his head and starts getting depressed/paranoid he did something wrong

[miaaartemis]

It’s Just What We Do - Sobriety in Your 20s

About 3 weeks ago I decided to give up alcohol for good. Now I know in terms of lifelong sobriety 3 weeks is merely a drop in the metaphorical bucket, but 3 weeks is the longest I’ve gone without a drink since I was 19. I think that’s worth celebrating.

The idea of going teetotal has always scared me. No more partying? No more glossy Summer arvos sipping spritzers in the sun? So much of my social life revolves around drinking - raucous nights at the pub sharing memes over spilt beers, teary DnMs in the bathroom with that girl I just met but something tells me we’ll be lifelong friends, potluck dinners fuelled by equal parts caprese salad, red wine and youthful pretension. Drinking is just as much part of your 20s as signing your first rental agreement or getting your yearly pap smear. It’s just what we do.

Those 5 words have always been the safety brake I pull whenever I’ve doubted my drinking habits in the past. There’s nothing wrong here! This is normal! It’s just what we do. Besides, I’m not an alcoholic. I don’t drink in the morning or on weekdays, I don’t stumble into work missing a shoe, reeking of whatever I was drinking the night before, and I certainly I don’t get blackout drunk. No. I’m normal. I’m just having my deserved fun.

The thing is, when I am having fun, I find it hard to stop. One drink very quickly turns to 6, and before you know it, I’ve instructed all my guests to sit quietly on the living room couch while I perform a 10 minute Irish dancing demonstration to the Riverdance soundtrack, despite being explicitly asked not to. Thankfully, drunk Mia doesn’t turn to abuse or criminal activity as an outlet, only pride wounding antics (side note: this incident is actually what first prompted my sobriety a few weeks ago. I fully intend to keep up my impromptu Riverdance performances, only sober and with enthusiastic consent from the audience). We laugh and drink some more, then finally, once the alcohol starts to put us to sleep rather than keep us awake, the night ends.

The majority of my drunken Saturday nights have ended this way, with only a crushing hangover and cringeworthy memory to overcome the next day. On some occasions however, picking up the pieces of the night before have not been so easy.

Some of you will know that jolting feeling the next morning of remembering a certain infidelity committed, or worse, (and I’m sure all women can relate to this) waking up and remembering a sexual encounter that you can’t be sure you 100% consented to. Waking up and realising you’ve cheated on your partner leaves you feeling like the worst person in the world, waking up and realising you’ve been violated but you can’t quite remember the details and hey you were both drunk so nothing can really be done about it, leaves you wanting to die. Alcohol is the number 1 date rape drug. And yet we all drink it like we’ll have the best sex of our lives.

Aside from these external factors, the internal havoc caused by alcohol should’ve left me giving it up years ago - a family history of cancer, and too many manic episodes or month long lows triggered by a weekend binge. In 2020 I was diagnosed with bi-polar type 2, and you don’t have to be a psychiatrist to understand the damage that alcohol can do to a healthy mind, let alone one that needs a little extra TLC. Now I like to think of myself as someone who is very proactive about my mental health. I regularly see both my psychiatrist and psychologist. I take my medication diligently and am constantly looking for new ways to learn and grow as a person. It saddens me to think that I used to drink so carelessly to excess, ignoring the impact my choices were having on a brain that already needs to be swaddled in cotton wool to be kept safe. If I quit drinking ages ago, would I be strides ahead in my mental health journey than where I am now? I suspect so.

3 weeks in and I’m feeling good about sobriety. Granted, there have been a few times where I’ve almost succumbed but thankfully my willpower has gotten the better of me. Like quitting any vice, it gets easier and easier the more you say no. I can’t even begin to describe how good it feels leaving the pub on a Friday night knowing that your BAC (blood alcohol level) is still at 0. It honestly feels like you can achieve anything. I’ve been reading this book by Holly Whitaker called ‘Quit Like a Woman’ (thank you Sex and The City) and in it she talks about how for the first time in history, we are at a pivotal point where the future truly DOES look female. Imagine, how much more women could achieve if we stopped drinking alcohol and actively oppressing ourselves. It’s a big call to make, but I like her point.

I’m writing this essay as a reminder to myself that lifelong sobriety is a choice that I have made and one that I must commit to, for my own happiness. It won’t always be easy, and there will be times when I question why I’m even doing it all. But in those times I’ll walk away from the freshly popped champagne bottle, pick up my raspberry lemonade, and laugh as someone asks me to do that Irish dance thing I used to do years ago.

Mia Artemis, 2022