#beware; the tags are worse than the post

[lunarflare64]

We forgot that we simp like crazy for Scarecrow (as in Jonathan Crane, the Batman villain) and holy fuck are we having a Moment right now, how did we forget this one, holy shit FUCK

[nocentis]

Black Arum ┆ Siegrain

Content warning: main character death, cannibalism, gore, toxic/unreliable narrator, highly canon divergent character portrayal. Read at your own risk. You will probably take psychic damage from this.

╳┆A lure was stuck in the soot between his lungs. Many times he'd felt the tug — enough that the wire fray had worn a rut where his ribs met — and many times he'd found her on the other end, reeling for remnants of him that no longer existed. She would aim to break him open, sift around in the cinders for those specks of him she wanted to confiscate, keep for herself, so that she could finally be rid of him. Once those flecks were washed and panned, the remains would reek like plough mud closure. For that reason he would come to her whole, every whit of ash accounted for.

A cherry little game they'd play. Her with flint and steel, eager to reignite that paltry spark of "good" that flickered freely for a lapse before he remembered himself. Him with tinder and kindling, letting it light only to call on the rain again. Her with just enough hope. Him with just enough time.

That resolve was so very compelling. More than her beauty, her candor, and even that glow he so loved to bask in — that luster he wanted to hold between his teeth and bury under his nails — more than that, her tenacity was a toothsome temptation, and he wasn't keen to deny himself anything.

So when he felt the pull, he caved to the beck and spooled the lisle. That day, the line seemed lighter, thinner, than it ever had. It should've been strong. Tensile. Instead it felt gossamer fine and just as frail, poised to tear at an ill touch, and he wasn’t exactly renowned for his gentle hands. Still, he gathered it with both palms and wrapped it proudly around himself like a ceremonial sash, grin scrawled across his face something devilish.

╳┆He found her lying in the shade beneath a long-lived magnolia, still and silent as she never was, with the color of her namesake spread around her head in halo streaks. Battle-torn, as she so often was, and yet uncannily... passive.

Anything he'd planned to say went out the airlock. Instead, he stood there with an anchor in his stomach, reaping the benefit of doubt.

Not a frown nor a sigh when he darkened her sanctum, only heavenward eyes tearless and unblinking and a resigned breath just short of peaceful. That worn tether waned phantom thin, light as helium, and the tension in his chest went slack.

There was no definite snap. No dramatic severing or ear-popping moment of clarity. Only the vague sense of loss so fresh a wound that denial was a numbing salve.

“Get up,” his voice a command, sandgrit against whetstone, thickened by an unnamed antigen.

The silence felt like mockery. A placid scene void of chittering fauna, clouds' drum, or even the most timid breeze. It wanted him to hear the absence of her breath and the stillness of her chest. It wanted him to hear the hollow. The empty. The nothing. Wanted it to resonate; to find the furthest reaches of his mind and clean them out until all that was left was this icy, clarifying silence.

He knew the end when he saw it. This was something much worse. It was robbery.

Her life wasn’t for the world to take. It was for him to hold in his hands. 

Something wet and pathetic slicked his tongue — some whiny, pleading thing — and it was stubborn as oil. The authority slid to the back of his throat and left him choking, “You are the indomitable Titania. You’ve laced fingers with Death time and again only to rise and slay and conquer, so get up.”

Her warmth was set to a slow drip, spilling from her in tired beads and seeping soundlessly into her chosen ground. Little whispers of her lost to greedy loam, sullied, never to be returned.

A waste of precious love. The sod won’t drink of her as he will. It will take of her and give back what? New “life” so fragile and fleeting? A feeble weed will take root, bloom its days few, and curl itself inside out? Pathetic. An insult to her legacy. An insult to the diamond-split sharp of her bladesoul.

His heart boiled over — popping, sticking, simmering sicksweet saccharine. It colored him cloying, flooded his mouth, and forced him to kneel at her altar.

"Please," he keened, hollow and morose, and his own pleading sickened him, “Say something.”

The sun trickled through the leaves like ichor, lighting up her black-blown eyes and the thin ring of honey surrounding them. Dim, distant, and dead as the moon.

His hand carved a path to her face, fingers featherlight against her fading flush. He brushed her bangs from her eyes and forced an unbroken breath through his quavering mouth. He traced each scar too faint to see and the parts of her skin their star kissed. Memorized the map of her face — each curve and crease, each fine hair, and every eyelash. He would carve out a space in his mind in her shape and fill it with the thousand sweet nothings he kept in his pockets.

He gathered her hand and threaded it with his own. When he opened his mouth, a rickety twine escaped from the deepest point of his chest, so he forced his jaws shut to keep the grief corked. He uncurled her fingers and pressed his cheek into her palm, trapping her there against his own scarred skin. His eyes fell shut as he breathed in this borrowed touch — this moment fated, stolen from him by this world's insatiable avarice.

He kissed her palm directly in the center; held it against his mouth and felt his own ruined breath echo back to him from the deepest grooves of her skin. Again, he begged, “Please, Erza.”

Of the armors innumerable now haunting this hallowed ground, this one least befit her. 

He revered Death. If there was a god, surely it was Death, he thought, for Death asks for nothing but life. The dead don’t know that they’re dead. They know a split second of euphoria and then a sharp, definite end. Isn’t that the work of a gracious god? One last stroke of color whether in peace or peril, and then eternal rest. Back to the dust you sprouted from.

But now he couldn’t see any of that beauty he often waxed poetic about. All he could see was change yet to come. All he could see was her, and he wanted her back.

He wanted her back, yet he knew better than anyone that there was no such thing as resurrection. While Death might be gracious, it was not generous, and it was not to be reasoned with.

The thought of her buried deep, bathed by the dark and abandoned to rot — it washed his mouth acid sour. It ate straight through his tongue and lingered in the roots of his teeth, burning, raging redhot in his jaws’ marrow.  A grave didn't suit her anymore than a pyre.

Soon she would be cold. Stiff. A feast for flies and their insatiable young. In the days to come, she would bubble and bloat and sallow. Her skin would loosen and slough off. The sun would bleach her bones. The meat of her would melt into oil and fat and bogspit. She would mix in with the soil, the groundwater, and this thankless magnolia would thrive.

It was tall, thick, with branches spread in all directions. The lowest of its limbs showed off the varied deep greens of its large waxy leaves, their undersides a chalky brown. A few white flowers bloomed, palm-shaped petals open in praise like they'd come to witness and worship. There was no question why she'd chosen to crawl here. It must've reminded her of home.

Despite its beauty, it was hardly worthy of her. Nothing in this ravenous world was. Her grave should be carved within his chest. There, he could keep her warm. He could host her in his veins. One day, they would wade the waters of woe together. Until then she could live under his skin.

He wouldn’t allow her to spoil. Wouldn’t place her gently into time’s whittlesome hands only to lose her peel by peel by rotting peel.

This world has taken much from you. Do not allow it to take her too.

A carnal ache etched itself into bone, a depth of passion he hadn't felt since he wrought for a false Heaven.

She is a fruit, ripe as a plum and twice the taste. Peel her open. There is a seed at her core. Plant it in your soot-field chest and watch her bloom anew.

What are these hands for if not this?

Flesh like sheets of silk. Muscle like rope. Blood like honey. Bone like an ivory trove. The splitting, the squelching, the straining, ripping, snapping; it burrowed marrow-deep and lingered there. Her chest peeled apart like jagged teeth, jaws croaking their rusted tune, and inside that redslick maw was the center of the universe.

The heart upon its throne, still as she, shielded by her precious lungs. It slid into his palm like it was always meant to be there. Raw, rich, and so very scarlet. Its sinews strained against his pull — those hollow vines that fed even the furthest parts of her — so he wrenched them free and draped himself in them like matchless finery.

Eat. Eat ‘til you’re sick. There’s a hole the size of her in the pit of your stomach. Eat until you fill it. 

What are these teeth for if not this?

Tough as leather; smooth as rubber. His teeth slid right off the rind and clicked together with nothing but metallic sheen between them. He gnashed at that ink-dripping muscle until he found a spot weak enough to tear apart. It tasted of rare meat and iron; a heady gore thick enough to drown in. He swallowed, gasped, and that first new breath felt like a blade.

The child inside him saw her split-open ribs as his cradle. He wanted to crawl inside, curl up, and die. He wanted to paint himself her color.

He lost his vision to the hot, angry wash. His own sobs were a distant sound, muffled by meat and blood and his own desperate fingers. He was numb in the mouth and in the shake of his hands, but he forced himself to eat, eat despite the choking, the gagging, the wet, weeping remorse.

Don’t you dare throw her up. Be grateful. Swallow and say thank you and finish what you’ve started.

He bit into his own palm, indistinguishable from her core, and he cried out in sour relief. His hands spread raw grief over his face, through his hair, and down his neck.

You’re no better than this starving world.

He curled into himself, hands clutching his own aching chest, and despite the cloudless sky, he called upon the rain.

[pupwashing]

dad!jimmy x daughter!reader

tags: this work contains incest, noncon, and choking!!! beware!!!!

a/n: as promised.. dad jimmy :3 im gonna get to work on the other two requests I received and those should be posted sometime soon.. keep your eyes peeled!! hope those who wanted dad jimmy enjoy..

dad jimmy. he’s barely a father, more like an overseer of your life.

he isn’t the most affectionate, nor is he interested in what your ambitions are, but he’s most certainly there.

even though he’s shitty, you can’t bring yourself to hate him. he’s still your dad.

you never knew your mom, and jimmy would rather not talk about her. he always gets apprehensive if you try to ask, so you stopped when you were a child.

jimmy has weird habits. he stays up late, later than any person should stay up. you swear you’ve never seen him asleep.

his state of always being awake makes you uneasy. you’ve been hearing noises late at night, like your door knob rattling.

when you bring it up to jimmy, he brushes you off. he insists you need to relax, that no one’s out to get you. it’s just the late night paranoia.

it’s sound reasoning until you wake up with him on top of you.

one hand grasping your neck, the other aiding him and getting his pants off.

he doesn’t realize you’re awake until you try to kick him, and he catches your ankle before it can hit him.

“relax, kid. it’s not gonna hurt you.” he grunts, moving to take off your panties. it’s not surprising to him that you sleep in so little; your mommy’s a whore. that’s how you came to be.

it’s sickening to jimmy, to see you flaunt your pussy like a wild animal. didn’t he raise you better than this?

he felt his stomach twist when he realizes your pretty cunt is already shaven. were you trying to impress someone?

his hand around your neck squeezes tightly as he stares down at you.

“who’s this for, kid? you planning on meeting a guy?” he asks, gritting his teeth.

you gasp, much smaller hand wrapping around his wrist.

“no, dad. i’m not meeting anyone.” you choke out, eyes wide with fear. he wouldn’t kill you, would he?

his grip on your neck loosens, and he nudges his cockhead against your hole.

you aren’t that wet, so a glob of spit will do the job. he’s sure you’ve taken worse than him.

you plea and cry out, but he ignores it all. in fact, you see his cock twitch as you struggle.

you aren’t strong enough to get him off of you (obviously), so he proceeds with sheathing inside you.

you scream, and he clamps his hand over your mouth. at least it’s not around your neck anymore.

“shut up.” he commands, not giving you any time to adjust before he begins to pump his hips.

his dick isn’t huge by any means, but it’s enough for it to hurt when he moves. all of your cries are just fuel for him to keep going.

for someone who’s acting like they don’t like it, your pussy squeezing him awfully tight. your gummy walls accept him, even if your mind does not.

jimmy’s eerily quiet as he fucks you. he doesn’t grunt, he doesn’t groan. he only breathes, and it’s hard to believe this is your father doing this to you.

each snap of his hips brings you closer to the edge instead of your peak. as his dick violates your guts, you look up, seeing your father’s face.

it’s the last thing you see before your vision goes black. you pass out right before he cums.

when you come to, the dull throb between your legs reminds you of what occurred before you lost consciousness.

you look down at your tummy, noticing the dried cum. he hadn’t even tried to clean up the evidence of his assault on you.

you decide against getting up, and instead lay on your bed in silence.

you don’t even have the energy to cry.

you hope jimmy got what he wanted out of you.

[cookiesupplier]

Every Rose Has Its Thorns - Part Twenty-Nine

pairing: Ricky Olson x ofc x Chris 'Motionless' Cerulli

warnings/tropes: slow burn, soulmates, strangers to enemies to lovers, betrayal, angst, fluff, smut, language, panic attack, stalking, online bullying.

summary: In a world where soulmates inexplicably receive a tattoo that will match that of their soulmate the moment they turn eighteen years old, being famous and covered in very visible tattoos can make finding your true soulmate a questionable fate. For everyone involved.

author’s note: Unbeta'd, readers beware as always lol.

tags: @tearfallpixie @cncohshit @jordynyingling0219 @faceless-mirror @nyxthedestroyerofworlds @wild-child-7747 @witchyweeb34 @black-damask1999 @jilliemiw86 @ilovesamkiszka @lyschko666 @lacktoesandtoddlerants @bngurngheart @collapsedglasshouses @laurpartyprogram @sunsshinesunny @malerieee @talialovesmiw

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What. The. Fuck.

The doctor had been no help at all. If anything he’d been worse than no help because the man had pretty much told him from the tests he’d gotten back during his post tour check up, he seemed like he was in perfect health. When Chris had told him about his shoulder, of course, he’d examined him, but then he’d come up with nothing. Nothing. 

Hearing that had echoed in Chris’ head, over and over, even as the doctor ordered more tests, an ultrasound, and x-ray, just to cover their bases, make sure that nothing was going seriously wrong with his joint. He might not be an athlete, but performing was a part of his life, he’d rather not do it in pain, and having a doctor that understood that was important. But mostly Chris was just lost in his head right now as he left the office.

He was sitting in his car thinking about the fact that right then, at least, he’d found nothing. He could tell Ricky that there were still more tests, but, would that matter when Chris, Chris had felt his mark, it had reacted yesterday. It had been reacting, he didn’t want to admit it, he didn’t, but it had been aching, hurting, and it just.. What was happening.

Should he call one of his friends that did the soulmate research? Should he log in to one of the message boards to see if anyone else had heard of people with deceased soulmates getting this kind of, of, sensations?

He was so confused.

The most confusing part was that fucking kiss, if he was honest. It had been barely a peck on the lips, and it had turned his head around, but that had been from the tingle in his skin that had followed it.. The tingle that screamed at him, why did he bother coming to the doctors at all, when the tiniest kiss had made the very skin his soulmate mark sit on, feel like that? Because his soulmate was dead, that was why. Furthermore, Ricky was Talia’s soulmate, not his. End of story. 

It wasn’t even the first time Ricky had kissed him, nor the most intense. They’d completely made out before, years ago, before he’d gotten engaged to Julia, or Ricky had met Grace.. Before either of their lives had gotten fucked up. Had his mark reacted then? No. Not at all. So why was it reacting now? It didn’t make any sense to him. 

Should he ask the boards, call one of his researcher friends.. Or, should he do as he had promised yesterday, just go home and talk to Rick about what the doctor said, and go from there?

Split the difference, he wasn’t calling his researcher friend yet, because this wasn’t just about him, this was about Rick, and in turn Talia too. Chris wasn’t going to talk to anyone else without them agreeing first. However, he could do something anonymously. He pulled out his phone, made sure his VPN was running, and went to post a question to the board as a guest only.

Ever heard of anyone with a Passed Soulmate, that's started experiencing strange sensations from their tattoo, during specific moments. For e.g. Intimate contact, aka, kissing? Strange sensations such as distinct tingling, almost burning up etc.

Chris paused, before sending the message from his phone and posting it on the board, not sure what kind of responses he would get; after he did that, he closed the window so he wasn’t tempted to just sit there and keep refreshing the page and waiting. Even then, it took a moment of restraint for him to not open his phone again and check the post almost instantly. Chris knew he wasn’t likely to get a response already, didn’t make it easier not to feel the need to want some sort of answer, something, anything to sooth this feeling inside of him. After a moment, he knew what he should do, go home, go home and do what he said he was going to do, touch base and talk to Ricky. Last time, he learned the hard way that he needed to talk to thigh around him more, to connect with others and stop isolating himself, just like he’d watch Ricky do dealing with Grace despite his warnings. As difficult as all this was, as painful as everything was concerning losing his soulmate had turned out to be, which was shocking because for the longest time he had been so in love, so happy, he’d convinced himself he didn’t need a soulmate, and then it all slipped through his fingers.. 

He didn’t know which had hurt more, losing his fiancé, or his soulmate.

One knew him and still chose to walk out of his life, and the other, never got to make that choice. Neither would be something he wished on anyone else. As he drove, he tried not to be distracted from the buzz of notifications of his phone, forcing himself not to look, his car system not telling him they were texts or calls so they weren’t important. Even if they were from the message board. They could wait until he got home.

He pulled over to the side to check a second later. He was too impatient to wait until he got home, obviously. 

Oh, it was a reply to his message alright, another anonymous one. 

Man, sounds like you got a tattoo STD, be careful you going kissy kissy with 😘😘😘

Chris threw his phone down on the seat of his car with a groan. 

“Shit.”

The message board was only for those with tattoos, eighteen and up with verification, but it never stopped underage little shits from getting in.. and even then, he couldn’t even be sure it was someone that was underage. For a board that was supposed to help people, some of them were complete morons despite claims to have lost their soulmate. There were days that some people just seemed to only want to be there to spread the pain, and it made Chris irate sometimes. Massaging his temples, he started his car again and continued to drive home. 

Ricky had been messaging Talia most of the morning, worried about Chris. He found himself wanting to make sure that she was doing okay as well, knowing that she had to be dealing with a lot, not just with her break down, but also after the backlash with Grace. He was thankful, though, that the general response to his video had so far seemed to be positive in light, or at least, what was still visible.

By the time he had gotten online to check to see what was happening with social media, so much had already happened. Even though he’d turned off the ability to comment on the video he had made himself about the soulmate situation, the fans always found a way to talk about it. Whether it was commenting on past videos, past Instagram posts, tweets, or whatever you called them on the X app now, there was always a way for the fans to make themselves known, whether it be for good or bad. 

Ricky had a feeling there was at least a lot of hate that had disappeared before he got online, probably that he would never have seen anyway, considering he’d been informed that Grace had deleted all of her online profiles. An in pouring of support had come for him, Talia, Ava, and Vinny after the way they’d been treated after Grace’s Instagram live. After the hate that they’d all gotten for the way she claimed they’d acted in her version of events. Was it horrible that Ricky almost felt bad that he could cause a person's opinion to turn on a dime with nothing but his word?

Almost.

He’d been honest, though, and Grace hadn’t. She’d forced his hand and if she’d left well enough alone he would never have made the video. If she had left it as an amicable breakup it would have never come to this, but she hadn’t. Grace had been the one to push, and the tide had eventually turned against her. He might feel the tiniest bit bad that they’d turned on her on only his word, and he had no proof of her actions other than that, but he’d done nothing but tell his truth.

None of this however was making him feel good.

According to Talia, Vinny and Ava were happy with everything that was happening. Ecstatic even. Ricky, however, he was still worried. He’d thought Grace was gone before, he’d broken up with her, kicked her out of the house, changed the locks, up the security, blocked her. Stalkers were dangerous, the problem with them, was not knowing where they were going to pop up next.

Ricky would have preferred if she had kept her accounts online. At least then someone would have been able to see what she was doing, wherever she was. He was taping out a message to Talia, she had asked if he’d heard back about Chris yet, just as he heard his car coming up the drive. Deleting the message he’d been writing about the fact he wasn’t home, sending instead that he was just getting in, and he’d let her know, just as Chris was walking in through the door. Slipping his phone into his pocket then, Ricky just glanced up at him slightly, but other than that, he didn’t say a thing. He didn’t want to put any pressure on Chris, even if he had said he’d talk to him.

Chris saw Ricky the moment he walked into the sitting room, he was just there, waiting on a couch, typing on his phone like it was every day, like that peck on his lips yesterday hadn’t changed everything. Sure, his shoulder had already been playing up, but that kiss and the feeling that had come with it had been intense and absolutely impossible to ignore. It hadn’t just been some almost random ache in his shoulder.. while watching his best friend with his soulmate..

Fuck.. fuck, was he jealous of Ricky, was that what this was? Talia was amazing though, And Ricky’s mark reacted to her, why was Chris reacting to him? It wasn’t like he wasn’t attracted to Talia too, he was, he couldn’t hurt Jelly Bean like that, he wouldn’t.

Swallowing..

“He didn’t find anything.. Ordered some more tests, x-ray, ultrasound.. But uh,”

Chris was looking down at his hands as he started pacing along the length of the couch, off to the side from where Ricky was sitting. He didn’t even dare to look up to see if Ricky’s attention had come up from his phone when he continued to speak.

“I know it’s not my shoulder, I know that you were right. Something is happening with my mark.”

Closing his eyes as he held his breath for a moment. When Ricky didn’t say anything, maybe he wasn’t even listening, who the hell was he kidding, of course Rick was listening. Glancing up from his hands, his thumb digging into his palm nervously, instantly, his amber brown eyes meeting Rick’s stormy blues and his mark was tingling again, shit.. Shit shit shit..

“Chris-”

Before he could continue, Chris cut him off.

“It tingled when you kissed me, Ricky.”

That, was not what Rick expected him to say about his mark. Not from what he’d observed when it came to the moments Chris reacted to his shoulder..

“Me? Don’t you mean Talia? Your shoulder is always playing up around Talia.. When she was upset, when you were sitting with her the other night, and we were joking around..”

Shaking his head, he had been sure that Chris was forming some sort of attachment to Talia. He knew it was going to be difficult enough considering the way Ricky’s tattoo had been reacting to thinking about them together, but he had noticed since Talia’s breakdown, his hadn’t had any of those darker reactions about Chris. Then again, he hadn’t thought of them alone like that quite the same way. Seeing the two of them together, wrapped up almost with both of them on the couch, it had felt.. Different.

“It has?”

Ricky nodded.

“I saw it, the other day, multiple times, it's why I brought it up yesterday, why I asked if you were okay.”

Looking at him, Ricky hated how nervous Chris looked, he hated that he wasn’t sure what he could do to help him.

“Well, I don’t, I don’t know what's going on, because it tingled when you kissed me, and Talia.. She’s your soulmate, your real soulmate, Ricky. Not me. My mark, I don’t know what's going on, and, and it’s freaking me out. This isn’t something I’ve seen theories of.”

Ricky set his phone aside and patted the cushion beside him for Chris to join him. They needed to work this out, and doing it alone wasn’t going to help anyone.

“Come here. How about we call Talia? We’ve learned the hard way all of this crap isn’t something we should work out on our own, because it just blows up in our faces, and we do stupid things.”

Like fucking in bathrooms and kitchens where anyone could have found them while they were spurred on by mystical tattoos.

Chris sucked in a shaky breath before he moved to the couch and sat beside him, leaning into Ricky’s side, bring his head down onto his shoulder not caring if it was awkward, he needed it. He shuddered a little at the feeling that ran through his shoulder when he did.. Shit, if that was the feeling that had started driving Ricky and Talia from the start.. Well..

“Yeah, okay. Don’t get any ideas, though, I am not fucking you in the bathroom.”

“Oh my god.”

Worth getting hit by the couch cushion.

Dividers by @saradika-graphics

[taki118]

SuyaLight Master Post Part 17

I really like these two there’s not a lot of content for the fandom as a whole soooo here’s my submission as I get every moment of these two royals who literally share a braincell (and I love them for it) First up this is just on the manga if you are anime only its going to have stuff you havent seen, yes even with what the anime covers (so read it) and there will be spoilers so beware. If you prefer Demon Monk/Cleric/Leo (which I don’t really get) I am sorry this isnt for you. Lets go! Part 1 is here Part 2 is here Part 3 is here Part 4 is here Part 5 is here Part 6 is here Part 7 is here Part 8 is here Part 8.5 is here Part 9 is here Part 10 is here Part 11 is here Part 12 is here Part 13 is here Part 14 is here Part 15 is here Part 16 is here

So Twilight tries to go on a simple work trip but Suya tags along

at least this time it was really her fault

But Twilight realizes just how bad this looks from the outside

But mostly from how Leo will view it, whom he has to have a video call with

But he's got a weird supernatural sense that she's around

Twilight almost manages to get out of this situation but Suya ruins it and Leo like teleports there to freak out on Twilight

Suya tags along when they visit a like resort casino and I dunno this is cute

They all get distracted

Suya is excited about Twilight befriending the owner of this place for her own reasons

They're just so cute

But it was a trap and I think its cute they share a bird

Again Suya has a very good understanding of who Twilight is

She seems kinda sad for him and his poor self confidence (So she should stick around and protect him from himself haha)

So the boss who has taken over the demon castle and reveals he's done a better job at managing it than Twilight and Suya judges him (even though Suya isn't making the situation better by constantly breaking and stealing things)

Someone might say this goes against my point but like again she can objectively look at Twilight for who is is faults and all

But they find out the Boss really is just a big Twilight fan and did all this to impress his subordinates

How does Suya know thats what its meant to be?

So the Boss starts beating himself up showing his self confidence issues are worse than Twilights and Suya is confused by his actions

But she figures out what his intent was quickly

She learns....something from Twilight though she doesnt voice it well. Empathizes with others even through something like low confidence is a good trait to have even within a leader. Suya sees that Twilight is willing to let others see his worst side if it will help them.

Suya seems to sense when Twilight is in trouble for good or bad, its bad here

See while the Boss was pretending to be Twilight he made peace with Hades and Twilight has to keep up the lie, but he know she might just let it slip, she does causing the two to fight. This causes them to deage a bit and make the line to the underworld thin and have Suyas soul stuck in the underworld........I'm doing my best to focus on the two

Anyway they go to save her and we get this cause I mean it is kinda his fault

So they assume Twilights ancestor who started the war with humans captured her, but Twilights just annoyed at how Suya gets herself in these situations

Turns out all the problems in the underworld are cause by her which Twilight started suspecting before finding her like this

They try to get her to stop but she won't because she want's to help Twilights grandfather, who has difficulty resting because of the problems he caused in life.

[riacte]

rria . ria dont convert the timestamp of receiving this ask to est but i finished false episodes and i get it i understand the devotion and the homies and the protectiveness hoyljjy fuck save me 🦅🐕save me. beware of dog reapers watch out rendogss about false false false you won💥💥💥😺💥💥💥💥💥💥

RIGHT. THEY ARE SO SWEET IT MAKES ME WANT TO EXPLODE.

When I was watching the first part I was like ohhh she sounds SO soggy when he’s not talking to her. I don’t think I’ve ever seen her this soggy. And then it was slowly building and oh we’re really in it now.

BUT THE REUNION SCENE IS SO!!!!!! They’re so happy for each other 😭😭😭 False saying he deserves the win even though it’s her who won 😭😭 Ren coming in like YOU WON!! YOU WON!! :DDDDD

And I was already screaming and dying. But you can really tell how fond they are of each other. And False being more excited for the cool hat than the Demise prize and he literally promised to give it to her tomorrow when things had calmed down— and she won!! All the dots are connected.

And the end. MAN. “Watch out, Rendog is about” in all caps. Her putting his name and head on her build. And the giggle before the cut. And I’m left sitting here like OKAY THAT JUST HAPPENED. WOW.

I feel slightly insane because it’s like …??? It’s so obvious how core and special their friendship is to both of their contents on HC. Take a quick scroll through their thumbnails and they pop up every now and then. All the collabs. AND STANDING NEXT TO EACH OTHER IN GROUP RECORDINGS (this always happens). We even have major standout events like Blue9 and BRR and S6 neighbours. And now Demise because DUDE. THAT WAS CRAZY.

And still Tumblr (and both of their Twitch chats) seems to be the only site in which people majorly care about their bond? Does that make sense. Tumblrinas screaming and crying and filling up the main tags. Actually Twitch chat is the mvp here because I feel like every single stream of theirs has a mention of the other and chat is like :DDD we love you and the other person :DD. They’re invisible on blue bird site and THANK GOD and STAY AWAY. Orange app is a bit better bc at least the Mc Championship guys recognise them but you know when there was a post back in HC Reddit then asking for “underrated” duos and we had to post FalseRen because other people weren’t. Are they underrated? Do other people think they’re popular. Like Ren isn’t usually paired with False in fanon but I think most people have the awareness to include bits about their friendship? But still? I would’ve expected more… why aren’t they more popular like some other duos even after the five million obvious / dramatic / cute / wholesome stuff 😭 Ren’s favouritism gets worse every time I check in 😭

(I know. It’s because fandoms tend to like same gender pairs. But it does notttt explain why everyone happily pairs up Stress+Iskall and Joe+Cleo and it’s all recognised and these two are like …? oh yeah they’re friends. Right. They’re friends.)

Anyways this got long. That vid makes me soooo happy and it’s sooo good. I know Ren is probably going to make his next ep thumbnail his really cute hut but if False is also on there or it’s titled after something like “WE DID IT FALSE” I would further explode into millions of pieces. 🥺

[ethtyn]

haha jesus just realized i haven't posted here beyond like, surface level liveblogging/queueblogging in a hot second

check the tags before clicking the readmore pls !

this is a lot of just brain rambling bc i have been bottling this up so i'm sorry in advance

for those of you that don't follow my main (beware, here be griefposting), my cat passed away last month, and like. you'd think it'd be easier bc i work in vetmed or whatever, except it's not. and in fact it's almost worse, because i know more than the average person, y'know?

anyway i just realised that i'm still processing grief, which sucks because i fucking hate grief, it's messy and destructive and ugly and it hurts. get over it already, you fuck /s

anyway! i have requests in the inbox i have wanted to work on since i got them, but Kitty's decline was slow, and my job is hard, and all of this is to say they're coming, and hopefully i will post more regularly again here...soonish. i know y'all don't give a fuck about the art as long as i'm cool but i fear i must compulsively justify why i am not providing y'all with the art anyway or i'll spontaneously combust. or something.

also: i would prefer that if you want to send condolences/say anything about this at all that you please just like the post instead. my brainworms have a hard time when people are nice to me about uncontrollable parts of life, you see.

i think this was sufficiently incoherent enough to be slightly worrying probably. sorry about that. i just needed to talk about it for a second or i would explode, etc.

tl;dr i miss this space, back in full Soon™ ♥️

[youraverageaemondsimp]

BEWARE OF AN AI ARTIST!

I've recently noticed an account post AI art on my for you page and i have something important to say.

See there's nothing wrong having fun with AI but passing it off as your own work is not good at all, that art wasn't created by you, but by a software.

The account is pretty self aware and tags it under AI art, but what makes me confused is when they are watermarking the art to pass off as their own, usually nobody looks at the tags (because come on, who would? they only exist to block/find things, not to read it), and that's the only place where they say that its AI artwork, other than that they post usually like how normal artists would, and what's worse is that they have a unique type of art style which makes everyone on the surface believe that's it's their own art until you look closer.

I don't think I'll have to explain how AI art/writing damages the community since everyone is pretty aware, I don't want anyone to harass the person for posting AI art, but simply, do not reblog their posts or promote their account!

The account is @/hollyfreyjames i have blocked them since I don't support AI "artists" and dont want any of their content on my feed, if you wish, you could do the same.

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

Why Did I Have To Find A Toxic Anti-Helluva Boss Post... And My Thoughts On Verosika’s Posse And Other Stuff....

[Note: Please Don’t Reblog This Post.........and Reading This Post Is Optional.....I also want to say that this post will have the tags “Not For Kids” and “Mature Audience Only”, also this will mention misanthropy...also if you support some Toxic Anti-Helluva Boss Humans, just...don’t bother even reading this and just go and check something else out....it’s fine if some just ignore this post and wait for a theory post about either a show or video game or movie...]   

seriously, it’s bad enough what went on Archive Of Our Own/AO3, but hopefully that will be fixed soon, even if it might take some time.

but of course, with humans being well how they are, they have to assume most anything is racist, I mean seriously, even if some of the human disguises of Verosika’s posse, as well as Verosika and even Vortex have dark skin...

don’t mean they are being slag fragging racist, I mean seriously.

Josh, Apple and Kiki’s human disguises are white, and I’m pretty sure they did their fair share of seducing as well.

also some fans may be happy that Coco and Apple are a couple, 

like even if they have to seduce some humans, they might be in a committed relationship, same goes for Josh and Ace. 

Verosika might be a jerk, who one might need to beware of her siren call...

but if I had to choose between hanging around her, or some toxic-humans who crossed a line like some do, then I’m picking her.

and yeah, I know that isn’t really possible....but excuse me if I’m a bit not so happy with some humans....

plus is it possible if all the succubi, plus Vortex were all white, would that whole racist remark even be talked about....

also some people do have interracial and international heritages, but who knows if some toxic-humans care about that or not...

I’m not even gonna say who that person is, but I will say this that I don’t even think trying to get through to them will even work, because they will just be all like “your just defending the show cause your racist.”

and if they so much as say that, they are just gonna add to my reasons of being Semi-Misanthrope, at least some humans in this world, no matter what race they are, will have more sense than to pull that disgusting card....

especially to some people, who’s ancestors aren’t all white...not like it matters to some people who have to play that stupid card. 

I am just tired of humans like that....

also even if Barbie was a jerk as well, but of course some humans have to misinterpret her in the wrong way as well, why am I not surprised...?

and yeah, before the episode showed, most fans assumed she had a human boyfriend, which turned out to be debunked, plus I don’t think she had any romantic interest in him or any type of interest in him besides working with him to do what she needed for her job...I’m not saying any more than that, spoilers.

I might talk a bit about the episode that Blitzo’s twin sister Barbie appeared in, maybe in a few days or maybe next month. 

anyway I decided to block that jerk, I don’t know which is more disgustingly worse, their whole false accusations, some people actually liking that post they did, or the whole toxic-religious people who cross lines they shouldn’t and misuse the words “may the lord have mercy on you.” or “may god have mercy on you.” even if you try to tell them to stop it and they are hurting your feelings and making you cry, but they keep misusing the words and throwing them at ya anyway, even if you try to tell them to stop it and you got no other choice but to block them, I know I’m still not gonna be okay with what that toxic-religious jerk did a few years ago...

I am finding some humans not to be all that attractive, I mean even if by chance there can still be small crushes on some, but I’m not interested in trying to date anyone who is Real-3D, I would rather marry that Egg-Himbo Doctor Deep from Sonic Prime, than humans who cross lines they REALLY shouldn’t. 

and yeah, I know it isn’t really possible to marry that Egg-Himbo, but he would probably be a bit better than some humans in this dimension...

at least not every human on this planet are toxic-jerks that cross lines they shouldn’t.

the reason why I’m not full Misanthropy, is because people who don’t pull that slag that some Anti-Helluva Boss people are pulling, and maybe some shows should call out some people like that...

not everyone has to be a fan of some series, but that post....that can cross lines and could end up offending some people who know better than some humans...

I don’t think I hate Verosika, and I guess I could be neutral about her and her posse.

I do like Vortex, he is a sweet guy and seems to care about Loona, and maybe Loona will be over her crush on him and go for that new crush of hers that I’m still gonna call Eclipse until we find out his real name if he appears again later on...

I still think it might be possible that it’s only the Embodiment Queens, that have more sense than the Embodiment Kings....

Bee has a good heart, and maybe that is one of the reasons Vortex fell for her, and Bee might also treat Hellhounds and Imps equally, and might not agree with how they are treated by the rest of those who live in Hell...

I guess I am a bit neutral when it comes to Fizzy and Ozzie, I mean they are one of my OTPs, but I wouldn’t be surprised if those two got their karma from Bee when she finds out the stunt they pulled over at Ozzie’s.

I can’t help but view Ozzie and Fizzy as being adorkable and I can’t fully dislike them, because they are just so adorable, even them being all cute together...

one of the things I hope is that I’m not the reincarnation of that Sarah, who Asmodeus was smitten like a kitten for in that distant past, well it might be possible I’m not, even if it does turn out I could have some connection to her, like if it turn out that she was in fact a Earth Angel and at some point a fragment of her soul broke off and half of it became me...

well maybe I can try not to worry about that right now...

when trying to check out some Helluva Boss Fan Art, I did not expect to find that kind of bull slag, hopefully I wont have to find too much of that Anti-Helluva Boss stuff too much.

even if I can be a bit weird and silly at times, and I even gave myself the nickname “the embodiment of weird” or “the embodiment of weirdness” 

but even I have a side to myself, I don’t want to be let out at times, I mean if I can help it, like sometimes you got to get some of those negative feelings out, even if it might have to do with some bull slag that some humans talk slag about....

but you might even find times there is still some negative feelings you can’t share, because you might think it’s best to keep it to yourself because you think some might not want to hear it or like they will just be all “your just looking for attention.”

and you might end up being a bit closed off, and only talking about some stuff that peeves you off, but not sharing everything, because you might think it’s best not to but might have thoughts of wanting to try to talk about it in the future.

I still don’t like that disgusting misinterpretation of a post that had to do with Verosika’s Posse & Vortex and if I remember right, it might of talked about Barbie as well...

I can only hope that AO3 gets fixed soon, cause I would like to get back to reading that story I was reading, maybe to help take my mind off of some toxic-humans who think they aren’t being racist themselves...

I was reading a interesting Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel Fan Fic, when that whole mess started up, and hopefully they can fully fix it soon...

maybe I can try to check again later, to see if it’s fully back to normal.

I did make a post before this one, that talks a bit about what I had found out about AO3, and hopefully it will get fixed and better soon...

I guess until then, I can either read some other fan fics at some other places, or like watch a movie or some shows or read some books I have.

that or play some video games, and I need to take my mind off of that bull slag stuff that has to do with that, and even if I do point out how they are the ones who are being stereotyping, of course there is a possibility they or those who agree with them, will say that they aren’t stereotyping, and I am not gonna even freaking try....

it can also suck when ya let a bit of your accent show, but the one who show it to, ends up misinterpreting....and think your making fun, but even if you apologize, the misunderstanding is still there.

and you know, it might be possible that even if Blitz wasn’t a Imp or if he was a Sinner Demon that used to be Human, Stolas would still end up falling for Blitz.

sure when they first met, Stolas’s feelings were like in the just romantic crush stage and wouldn’t reach the mature attraction until much later on in his and Blitz’s life, even if he had a crush on Blitz that he wasn’t fully aware of before, he might of still valued the friendship he formed and yeah, I’m still gonna view that Butler that is seen in that one episode that showed Stolas when he was just a little kid, as Stolas’s True Father Figure.

he does seem more of a Dad than Paimon, who thinks he is “so good at daddying.” but some fans might disagree and might view the Butler being “awesome at daddying”, I hope that character gets a name, maybe if it turns out he doesn’t get one, fans can just call him by a fan-dub type name.

I’m still gonna view that Imp-Butler as Stolas’s Real Dad, even if he isn’t his biological father, but sometimes a real parent isn’t always the one who brought you into this world, it’s the ones who raised, loved and took care of you.

even if Blitz isn’t Loona’s biological father, he is still her REAL father.

Rose from Silent Hill Movie, is Sharon’s Real Mother, even if she didn’t bring her into the world, and Sharon is possibly a fragment soul born from the good part of Alessa’s soul and was send away to live a normal life and find a family to love her.

Dark-Alessa was possibly another fragment soul born from the Original Alessa.

and I find the words “Mother Is God In The Eyes Of A Child” from that Silent Hill Movie, to be interesting...like if the I.M.P. and Hazbin Gang were to watch that movie and hear that part of that movie...

I wouldn’t be surprised if Blitz and Alastor both agreed about that...

it be interesting if Millie and Charlie found that really adorable. 

also maybe we will get to see more of Verosika and Blitz’s past, as well as Blitz and Barbie’s past and why Verosika and Barbie seem to hate Blitz so much.

though with the Ozzie’s episode, some of Verosika’s reasons might be uncalled for, I mean she is a succubus, and if some succubi ain’t careful they can suck the energy and stamina of others, even if it does turn out that Blitz and Barbie are part succubus, they could possibly still have their energies drained, but because they aren’t humans, they wouldn’t be in life threatening danger.

my theory about Blitz and Barbie being part succubi, has to do with their Mom and how I believe she could be a Succubus, she could possible be a Imp-Succubus Hybrid, which might mean that both Blitz and Barbie are quarter succubi. 

and I guess it could be possible that Fizzarolli, could be half-succubus.

Incubus could be slightly different from Succubus in Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel, because apparently even the guys are called succubus or succubi.

of course it would suck for some who are Earth Angels, to have some kind of succubus heritage, and have to protect themselves from the energies of some humans and even some Incubus/Succubus....

I’m still not sure if the whole gems being used for the purpose of protecting you from other energies that might be harmful to you, will work for everyone...

I’m not really sure if it could work for everyone or not.

it does suck that person who posted that Anti-Helluva Boss post, seem to ignore the whole Josh, Apple and Kiki, and the fact they also did some seducing as well...

even if some parts of this month of July had pretty much sucked, at least some good came out of it, like watching fireworks, even if the sound of some of them did spook me a little....

one of the things to look forward to this July, is the FNAF Ruin DLC, as well as the Season 2 of Sonic Prime.

also maybe Verosika and Blitz will end up patching things up, even if they might not end up back together, and unlike in some Fanon, they might not end up in a poly-relationship with Stolas, but maybe in the canon, they could end up becoming either frienemies or friends. 

it’s not like Blitz is the only one at fault, and the sooner Verosika, Barbie and Fizz realize that, the better.

they may share the blame as to why their relationship with Blitz, both platonic and romantic, had fell apart and turn into heartbreak...

but instead of taking responsibility, they make Blitz the full on scapegoat.

hopefully history doesn’t repeat with Stolas, as it would suck if Stolas did the same thing that those three did.

Blitz might be not perfect when it comes to romantic relationships, but no one has to be perfect at it, and who says there is one way of being romantic.

I mean just watching a movie together or playing video games together, and respect each other’s space when needed, is good and it doesn’t always have to be all kissy or the other stuff all the time.

Verosika, Barbie and Fizz might not even get that they aren’t the only ones who ended up hurt, and Blitz was in fact hurt, by THEM....

of course they are too full of themselves to see that, and maybe those three will get their karma, and if one of the sneak peaks have anything to go by...

Fizz will be the first one to get the karma, Fizzy I love ya, but you know this was coming....I might not be a Fallen Earth Angel, but I sure get Broken at times.

which there can be a differences between a Fallen Angel and a Broken Angel.

a Broken Angel gets emotionally hurt way too many times before they can heal properly, and it could be possible that while they do heal, it doesn’t mean they still aren’t broken on the inside.....maybe some will understand what that means.

and yeah as weird as it might sound, the thoughts that pop into my head are the words “don’t take sass from angel-boys...” which is different from what Charlie learned from her Dad...

maybe I can try to get my mind off of that post, by just checking out some stuff on here and maybe later, I can check to see if AO3 is back to normal.

maybe I will watch a movie later, but I guess if I don’t feel like doing that right away, I can try later tonight...

maybe I can just try laying down on my back and try that family tradition of Blooky from Undertale, not sure if the Blooky from Deltarune has the same family tradition, but it be interesting if they both had the same family tradition.

I don’t think I feel like doing that Blooky Family Tradition on the floor, so I can just lay on my bed and try to relax and try not to move.

anyway, maybe we will see more of Barbie Wire’s past and why she seems to hate her brother now, but it might be a while before we get the full story, even the full story on Blitz and Fizz, as well as Blitz and Verosika. 

also it might be possible that some of Verosika’s Posse aren’t all insensitive jerks, because not all of them ended up harassing Moxxie.

also what sucks that when a character show they aren’t perfect or flawless, some people have to be all not so happy about it, like in the wrong ways.

like instead of showing sympathy or empathy to the character, they start to dislike the character, don’t know how many people ended up doing that, but maybe it isn’t that many.

and yeah, I see a kindred spirit in some fictional characters, like Steven from Steven Universe, Chara from Undertale, and even a character from RWBY...

oh, and I think I could view Spinel from Steven Universe as a kindred spirit as well, kindred spirits don’t have to be 100% the same, but might know how it feels to be hurt past the breaking point.

it is possible that some fans, will find a kindred spirit in the shows or movies or video games or books they love so much....cause they know how it feels to be hurt past the breaking point. 

and even if we try not to think about the really bad negative stuff and even try to see the good positive and try to take our minds off of the really bad negative things that make us unhappy, it doesn’t mean it wont still place a wound, well emotional wound in our hearts that wont end up opening at times.

and yeah, sometimes some bad feelings can make ya cry.

anyone would become sad or mad or both when their own negative feelings are ignored or seeing as not important enough...

and even if I can talk about some stuff, like getting some negative feelings out, there is just some negative feelings, I can’t talk about, but if I decide to, maybe I will bring myself to do so. just not right now...

and I guess in a way, that post had triggered me, well anyone can have different ways to be triggered, but we can at least try to do stuff to take our minds off of it....plus it can suck when your feelings are misunderstood and not everyone will try to understand them. 

I’m not gonna talk a lot about that disgusting post, I mean the less I get involved with that post the better, and even if I do try to point out how disgusted I am with that person, it is possible not everyone will understand or be on my side, they will take the side of someone who believes some bull slag that isn’t true. 

plus, apparently there is more than just that one....

maybe I can try to take my mind off of that, by just checking out some stuff on here and maybe in my next post I can post a theory or a drawing.     

and who knows, maybe in the future, Verosika, Fizz and Barbie will finally see they aren’t the only ones who were hurt, and them scapegoating Blitz, is only doing more harm than good....I still don’t think Blitz is the only one at fault and his actions might of been because of how he was treated by Verosika, Fizz and Barbie, but instead of them trying to understand this, they point fingers and place all the blame on Blitz.

maybe I can talk about that whole Verosika, Fizz and Barbie scapegoating in another post...

maybe I will talk a bit about it after I post this, I don’t think I want to get into too much of my disgust with that person and their bull slag and even those who seem to agree with them...maybe doing some stuff that make me happy, can help with my mood and help me take my mind off of that post.                                         

[outsidereveries]

If u hav done ZB1 readings, what’s ur opinion on them overall.

Do you think they are a group formed by fate? I’ve seen a lot of people on stan Twitter and fans in my county ( they use Facebook) have said many things abt how they are destined to be together.

Because like when I ask local tarot readers abt members ( I asked two and one is disgustingly accurate abt stuff lol), some connection between him and other members are pretty interesting.

Like between Jiwoong and Matthew, he said sth like “they do compliment each other a lot and bring good fortune to each other.” They are very popular duo.( under ZB1 tag in Korea, they are like the top 1 and there were like thousands of posts saying they want them to debut together)

He even said like “if Matthew was in a duo with other member than Jiwoong, that duo wouldn’t be this popular”. If that sounds bad, that sounds worse in our language. He is not a kpopper so he even compares to marriage. 😭 how some marriage can make one’s fortune worse and how some marriage can bring good fortune to people. Lol.

I do think they are rly close too because Matthew said he used Jiwoong’s customized perfume as a good luck charm before going to stage back in BP so Jiwoong gave custom blended perfume made by him to Matthew on his bd.

(Actually, when Matthew’s rank dropped to 9, a lot of Jiwoong’s fan dropped him to one pick vote Matthew TO THE POINT THAT Matthew’s fans have to stop them because they also want Mattwoong to debut together.)

When someone asked abt Hao and the client shared the answer publicly, the local tarot reader even said “you only asked abt Hao but I saw Hanbin too like they are always together”

And Gyuvin and Yujin, they are very close, too.

Abt Taerae, there’s sth I forgot to mention last time. He is the only xxTx in that group( mbti). Other members are xxFx. So, there were many jokes abt Taerae being awkward in the group. And hanbin mentioned that since Taerae is only xxTx in group, he finds him funny. They joke abt that a lot but I feel like it’s difficult for Taerae.

Another tarot reader also said on fb “this gp will be very popular for at least a decade. I know Wakeone is shit but they are not letting go of this gp and will treat them well”. And she said that in April when everyone is against W1 and there were alot of comments hating her because she mentioned one or two members being mistreated. Personally, I think she was right. w1 is treating ZB1 pretty well.

So what’s your opinion?

I talked a lot because you said you love this discussion so … thank you a lot.

I thought I’m the only Jiwoong bias here but when I saw other ppl question abt him, I was rly surprised and happy. Feeling validated I guess.

i am answering your ask before i upload all of the requests everyone have about them, so beware of this.

i am certain some of the members have been together in a past life. i’ve felt some of the connections are even soulmate-worthy to me.

however, i don’t think they’re formed by fate to this extent. i am certain 2 members were rigged to debut (one of them possibly might be matthew/taerae but i’m not sure), and honestly i am questioning gyuvin’s thoughts of one-two members. (i questioned taerae’s before but i’m not questioning it this much anymore bc i felt that he’s finally attached to someone😭)

about gyuvin and yujin.. i saw totally different thing.. someone asked about how zb1 sees yujin and when i asked how gyuvin sees yujin, the devil popped up with the ace of wands in the bottom, so gyuvin might think yujin is too attached/obsessed of him. i wasn’t expecting that but i expected some sort of neutral answer, or for gyuvin to block his thoughts since it’s happened before 😭

about zb1’s popularity, i didn’t saw anything significant for them, at least currently. there were some questions about it and i felt their debut won’t start that well possibly because of other people. maybe there will be manipulation scandal? (like chart/sales one, not dating for sure) but with the time they’ll gain fans. however, i don’t think they’ll be as popular as they really deserve. they might be remembered after disbandment, which to me isn’t suprising.

and i agree that zb1 will be treated quite better compared to kep1er.

i’ll upload the requests as soon as possible to see what i’m typing about^^

ps. i saw taerae likes hao and i jumped out of joy😭😭😭😭😭😭 taerae finally wants to know someone better

[booksinmythorax]

On Tyranny and Tumblr #2: Defend institutions

It is institutions that help us to preserve decency. They need our help as well. Do not speak of "our institutions" unless you make them yours by acting on their behalf. They fall one after the other unless each is defended from the beginning. So choose an institution you care about - a court, a newspaper, a law, a labor union - and take its side.

I've talked about this lesson in relation to libraries on another post, but tl;dr: a lot of American institutions are broken, but if we don't want them to get worse, we do need to show up for them.

According to Snyder, authoritarian governments may either completely obliterate institutions (e.g. when Rep. Matt Gaetz introduced a bill that would have eliminated the Environmental Protection Agency during the first Trump administration in 2018) or make them counterproductive or ineffectual (such as when Trump appointed cronies like Betsy DeVos to his cabinet during his first term).

Defending these institutions can look like making sure they stay open and/or making sure they stay effective. Individual schools, libraries, and newspapers can be institutions we choose to "take the side of", which can feel less intimidating than choosing the institutions of "public schools", "public libraries", or "the free press" as a whole, but going small or large are both fine choices as long as we do something.

This is honestly one where you'll get more mileage doing offline things than online ones. Go to board and commission meetings, join a union, physically go to your library, and you'll be doing more for institutions you care about than you even know.

That said, some ways we can apply this in our online lives include:

-If you can afford it, subscribe to local newspapers or other local publications and read them regularly. If their leadership or coverage changes such that they become arms of the state, sound the alarm. This requires reading entire articles, not just headlines. You don't have to read every article in every section, but read at least a few pieces all the way through every day. If you can't afford to pay for a subscription, your local library may offer you online access to local and national newspapers for free with a card.

-Your local library very likely offers access to online collections with a card. Borrow digital materials!*

-Engage with your government at the local, state, and national level. 5 Calls is a good app for phone numbers, call scripts, and examples of current issues. You can find lists of your representatives at all levels using this USA.gov tool.

Feel free to list other ideas in the comments, reblogs, or tags on this post.

*A note of caution here: ebooks, digital audiobooks, and some other kinds of digital materials often cost libraries money per circulation, or their licenses may expire after a certain number of circulations and require them to be re-bought. Unlike with physical materials, please only check out digital materials you think you will read, watch, or listen to. No shame if you check something out and end up running out of time, but please do intend to use what you check out digitally!

Other lessons from On Tyranny:

#1 - Do not obey in advance

#3 - Beware the one-party state

#4 - Take responsibility for the face of the world

#5-7 - Remember professional ethics, Beware of paramilitaries, and Be reflective if you must be armed

[embracing-the-ineffable]

This is really thoughtful, thank you for sharing. For anyone who wants them, the full audio plus transcripts for all four episodes of the podcast are available to download here (for one more day before the link might expire), or you can read all four transcripts in your browser.

Also, I'm tagging my relevant posts (mostly reblogs) with #ineffable grief, and you can see all of them here.

OP also has a reaction post here which is worth thinking about. Quoted below:

"Regarding Neil Gaiman:

Neil Gaiman is not innocent. This is not a smear campaign. However the circumstances are so much more complex and nuanced than they appeared in the article. The headlines and article were misleading.

At best, he is an irresponsible BDSM partner who did not create a safe environment for these women, exploited his position of power/fame over them, and has at least two specific credible allegations of SA. At worse? Well, it's not good.

Did this rise to a criminal/prosecutable level? No. The police refused to take up the victims complaint due to lack of evidence and text messages of consent she sent. We can never know if it was true or false consent (and that obviously doesn't cover every circumstance), but there were messages of consent.

The fact of the matter is, yes he's a creep. He messed up. He made bad choices. Is he a monster? No. Is he a good person? Also no. He's just a man that we don't know, who made some terrible decisions and hurt people in his personal life. Beware of posts that will tell you he is either a irredeemable monster or completely innocent.

Regarding the Victims:

There is no such thing as a perfect victim and this is crucial in this case. These are two women who now feel traumatized by their relationship with Neil, and make no mistake, they are victims here. There is one undisputable instance of SA with K, and Scarlett's first encounter with Neil (assuming Scarlett's version is truth) was also SA. There is no getting around this fact. While age gaps are not inherently bad, these two, coupled with Neil's fame, created an environment that was harmful to them.

However, it is not true that they had no agency in this. They did make decisions, however understandable, that create a case that is complex and unclear. There are multiple times where they knowingly lied about consent during acts they did not actually want, and both verbalized it in writing and in their own words on the podcast. This does not negate their trauma about these events, and this not mean the consent in those moments was freely or unproblematically given, nor does it imply blanket consent. But in the end, consent was given at the time for some acts they now regret, and no concerns were voiced to Neil directly until after their relationships ended. (This is a separate point from the two specific SA allegations)

We do not need to blame them, condemn them, or dismiss them. But we also don't need to purify them and ignore the responsibility they had in how some of the situations played out. (Some not all)

Beware of people calling their allegations false because of revenge, as a political plot against Neil, or fame. And beware of people refusing to look critically at this at all. These are complex, hurt, scared women. I feel so deeply for them and understand their regret and pain on a personal level. But in my case, my hands weren't completely clean either, and it's not victim/self blaming to discuss this aspect.

Regarding Tortoise Media

It is important to discuss that this was reported on by a conservative publication with ties to TERF activists. This is an undisputable fact and does play into how this entire situation has been shaped.

Their political bias absolutely impacted the way this story was told, presented, and investigated. This is not a fully credible source. There are multiple times they refuse to ask follow up questions and leave things intentionally vague. They are not open about sources, haven't provided proof of any of their claims outside of the podcast, and consult extremely politically biased experts. I do not believe this story would have been run by another publication.

As I said in my write up post, the fact that they view BDSM as impossible to be consensual (and in their words criminal in the UK) has an impact when talking about a relationship that included BDSM. They view this aspect as inherently abusive no matter the context and it's part of their main allegation.

However you cannot use these facts to dismiss these allegations all together. Most of this was told by the victims themselves in their own words speaking on the podcast. The issues with the publication does not negate these allegations. It is another piece of the puzzle. Be critical of their presentation, as I absolutely believe they exploited and sensationalized this story, but that doesn't mean there is no truth at all to be found here. Be critical of ALL MEDIA"

I’ve listened to the neil gaiman podcast. Here is a recap of the allegations and trigger warning I will talk about it in detail. This is an incredibly complex situation, so take care of yourself

Scarlett, one of the victims, met Amanda Palmer (Neil’s ex wife) and became friends with her. Scarlett was out of work and started to do odd jobs for Amanda and eventually starts doing some babysitting/nannying for them. It sounds like she was already very close to Amanda at this point.

So far I’ve seen her kind of referred to as just an employee and while it is factually true, I don’t think it’s completely honest. She was very much a personal friend of Amanda’s first and clearly had many interactions with Amanda that were not strictly professional. What I’m saying is that the boundaries between employee and personal friend were blurred from the beginning. Though blame still falls on Amanda/Neil for mixing personal and professional boundaries and not on the victim. I just point it out to say all three were already acting inappropriately for an employer/employee relationship

The first night she meets Neil Gaiman, he alleges that he asked her if she wanted to take an outdoor bath (I’m assuming this is a hot tub) together. Her story is that she did not know he would join her in the bath. He was naked but she thought it might be “normal” because she was used to seeing Amanda naked often. He says that the shared bath was consensual. She says that he pressured her into giving him a handjob and when she said no, he said she was “missing out” and he masturbated in the tub with her and then penetrated her anally with his fingers. His account was that this instance was only consensual cuddling and making out. She is clearly uncomfortable during this scene and any consent that may have given does not seem genuine. She does end up messaging him that night, “Thank you for a lovely, lovely night. Wow. Kiss”

From there however, they continue to have sexual encounters involving some potentially extreme BDSM scenes. In WhatsApp messages she repeatedly consents/expresses a a desire for these encounters. She tells a friend the sex is “rough” and “amazing”. There are A LOT of messages with clear and enthusiastic consent and love for Neil.

One message from Scarlett read: "I am consumed by thoughts of you, the things you will do to me, I'm so hungry. What a terrible creature you've turned me into. I think you need to give me a huge spanking very soon. I'm fucking desperate for my master."

"I may be ill [covid] but I am lying here with my sick little mind wondering into terrible, filthy, dark places, and I want you to, if I'm lucky, occasionally instruct me with naughty things to do so that I can fill all this alone time imagining your cruelty. I'm sorry, I'm such a desperate and perverted and kinky sad little girl. What do they say? When you play with fire"

Neil’s replies are described as neutral, affectionate, brief, and non committal. At least via messages it seems like Scarlett was the one perusing sexual contact.

She goes on to describe one encounter as so painful she blacked out and he hadn’t noticed and had left to watch rehearsal tapes? And that she had been bleeding? This encounter was very unclear, violent seeming but hazy. It’s really unclear what happened to her. It sounds like it might have been painful anal sex. Potentially consensual in words, but she clearly was not taken care of. He alleges that he only ever penetrated her with his fingers.

At some point she tells a friend about these encounters and the friend points out the power imbalance and tells Amanda. Scarlett says to Neil in clear terms that everything was consensual and though it may have “crossed boundaries at the start” everything after was consensual.

EDIT FOR CONTEXT: the beginning of this conversation opens with Neil saying: "Honestly, when Amanda told me that you are telling people I'd raped you and were planning to Me Too me, I wanted to kill myself. But I'm getting through it a day at a time."

Scarlett: "Oh my god, Neil. I never said that. I have been deeply upset about it all because it's triggered things from my past and also for many reasons. I feel whiplash. But I am horrified by your message." [more messages inbetween] "I have never used the word rape. I am just so shocked. I honestly don't know what to say."

Neil: "It was very unstabilizing. I spent a week actively not killing myself, if you see what I mean."

Scarlett: "I feel like bawling my eyes out. I would never Me Too you. I don't where that came from, and I have told Amanda that even though it began questionably, eventually it was undoubtedly consensual and I enjoyed it. Heart is pounding too."

Neil: "Knowing that you would be prepared to say it's not true, it was consensual, he's not a monster, makes me a lot more grounded."

Scarlet: "It was consensual. How many times do I have to fucking tell everyone?"

It has to be said that Neil implying he considered suicide over this adds context to Scarlett’s messages of consent and how true those feelings were at the time. It was incredibly manipulative on his end.

Scarlett seems to go through some pretty traumatic life events outside of this situation and is hospitalized for suicidal thoughts (actions? unclear). Neil sends her messages of support, which she now in hindsight finds it was his way of pulling her back in. She asks Neil to pay her rent and Neil agrees to. Neil’s bookkeepers ask her to sign an NDA, not specifically about any allegations but just talking about his personal life overall. She admits to not reading the NDA.

EDIT 2: I believe the timeline of Scarlett’s hospitalization occurred before she messaged Neil and said their relation was consensual.

She does end up filing a police report in summer 2022 but receives rent payments until winter 2022 and drops contact with Neil completely Jan 2023. She says her view of their relationship changed after her hospitalization.

It is clear from this situation that Neil did act inappropriately but this is not a black and white situation overall. Their first encounter in the tub is very disturbing. The texts/relationship after are very complex and I’m not qualified to place judgement.

Now important point I want to make about this podcast and its reporting. These podcasters are vehemently against BDSM and they made it clear they don’t think BDSM can ever be consensual. I think critiquing this podcast itself is a discussion worth having. I find this podcast to be pretty biased in that sense. An “expert” they have on as a guest says, “the idea that you can consent to degradation is such a stupid idea. Only men can think this up.” I’m not saying that Neil engaged in BDSM with these women in a healthy or consensual way, however the podcasters make it clear that they don’t believe BDSM could ever be consensual and they consider these acts as blanket abuse in any situation.

The second victim K, did meet Neil at 18 however they had no sexual/romantic contact until she was 20. She says,"I never wanted any of the stuff he did to me, including the violent stuff, but I did consent to it." Neil says they were in a two year relationship that was completely consensual. He says that he has record of hundreds of emails between the two of them that never show any sign of distress. K began to become upset that Neil did not plan on leaving his marriage (open at the time I believe?) or ever make their relationship public. Unfortunately it does feel like K consented to things she didn’t necessarily want to keep Neil in her life.

She alleges that they did not use lube during sex and it was often painful for her. During one encounter she alleges she told him not to penetrate her due to a UTI and he did so anyway.

K and Neil have an argument that leads him to break the relationship. He leaves, and buys a plane ticket home. K buys a ticket on the same flight, follows him onto the plane and begs him not to end their relationship. Security ends up removing her from the plane. They continue to email from 2008-2022 pleasantly and flirtatiously.

The podcast reached out to other sexual partners of Neil’s and they did not have any stories of misbehavior.

Overall, this isn’t a clear cut situation. Neil clearly did take advantage of his celebrity and position of power and failed to protect these women. He was the instigator in all these relationships and he does seem to seek out younger more inexperienced partners. Partners who don’t seem to have the social/mental footing to consent properly. There are times where he clearly crossed boundaries and assaulted these women. The bath/hot tub and UTI instances were clearly not appropriate consensual acts.

But I think there’s a discussion worth having about intentionally lying about your consent. Hindsight and experience can certainly recontextualize everything and I understand why they may have consented in the moment. The pressures they were under etc. They clearly at times felt like they couldn’t say no in some ways. But they also both actively perused the relationship and admit to giving clear verbal consent often. I very very much feel for these women and I’m so sorry that they had such a negative experience.

I have no answers on any of this and it’s not my job or place to. I hope this recap provides more context and that everyone comes away knowing that this is not a black and white issue.

I also hope everyone does not tie their identity/enjoyment of good omens/his other works on this. We as fans are not responsible for the actions of others. Our engagement with Neil’s work is not an excusal or support of his actions. We are not responsible for what he has done in his personal life. If you end up seeing posts that imply you are somehow a bad person if you engage with his works now, that is not a healthy or good take.

Be critical, be open to the facts as they develop, find where your comfortability with engaging in his works is, and do not tell others how they have to feel/act about this situation.

Much love to you all as this situation unfolds

[clancabur]

// Hi! I'm Jack. This is the pinned post for clancabur, and has my rules, a link to bios for my muses, and a taglist. It also has a list of potential triggers you might find here.

"What is a Guardian?" "To answer that, I must tell you a story.

"Once, there was a garden, before the existence of all things. This garden was creation, infinite and ever-growing, ever-dying. This garden was tended by two impossible beings; a Gardener and a Winnower.

"The Gardener nurtured new growth. The Winnower used its knife to shear away the old and dead, taking these cleaved things from the garden. This was its nature.

"But a thing whose nature is to take is ever-hungry, and gradually the knife became a sword, cutting deeper and deeper, until the garden bore so many scars it could hardly be called a garden anymore.

"So here is the truth, then;

"A Guardian is the Gardener's answer to the Winnower's knife."

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Communicate!! My #1 rule for rp is communication. If you're upset, want to change something, just having fun- please tell me!

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BIOS: [X]

Potential Triggers; Violence, death, discussions of death and trauma, occasional unreality, possible descriptions of panic attacks

TAGLIST;

threads : running strikes end thread : transmat firing starter call : looking for a fireteam open starter : solo patrols closed starter : fireteam patrols prompts : hunter's dare ask : van-net anonymous : civilians OOC : traveler's dreams guests : destination contact blog maintenance : redjacks inbound crossover : what surpasses total relativity collapse? musings/headcanons : ghost's thoughts aesthetics : sniper's perch wardrobe/gear : visiting the loom music : tower bazaar silly things : a purple ball! janus : smother the lights and run dice : mighty are they of the stormcloud thrones arkades : beware the promise of a wanderer verse : in death or finality but never both (canon) verse : think of spacetime as a tapestry on a loom (time loop) verse : do not grieve the dying star (wings)

[parm4carm]

Love you, Jade ❤️ And though I know it's not the most important thing right now, speaking out and often is more important, I do hope you are okay ❤️

hiii oh my god has it forreal been weeks since you sent me this?? i swear i just saved this to my drafts three days ago .. the passage of time truly fries my brain

first, this is so sweet of you to send to me and i'm so grateful that people still check in on me when i'm quiet online <3 i know i am a veryyyyy unreliable presence here but i really do appreciate all the love and i'm sending it right back to you <3

you've kind of given me the perfect jumping off point to just throw a lot of updates and ramblings in one spot bc truthfully i do not feel right posting normal posts and taking up space with things that are trivial in the grand scheme of things. i genuinely don't have the brain capacity for much else these days besides keeping up with palestine/congo/sudan etc related updates + the occasional few hours where i can watch a movie or a show without feeling guilty

(general life update dump below so beware bc i talk a lot)

brief mental state check in but i am not doing well! not just with the weight of the world but with everything else in my life lmao. pretty much everyone who knows me knows that the holidays/the winter are the roughest months for me so i'm usually radio silent :/ this year has been... so rough and i don't know why every year feels worse than the last but it really truly does! i'm particularly lonelier this year and it's honestly my fault. idk how to reach out to people when i'm so isolated tbh i feel like a burden at all times especially now that most of the people i used to talk to daily online and irl are doing way better than me and i'm just. always stuck here in this really shitty space i can't seem to get out of no matter how hard i try

i don't talk about my problems a lot online but like. after losing my childhood pet and then getting accepted to two different programs in one year (grad school and community college) and having to drop out of both AND dealing with a decline in my mother's health AND my grandmother's cancer scare AND my own financial issues AND unemployment i'm just exhausted. because of all of this i truly don't know how to function like a normal person or make friends or keep friends anymore i'm just miserable tbh

okay i know this is a hard pivot, but i thought i could just compile things that have brought me a little bit of happiness that i haven't talked about here! it's all on me to feel like this, but i have intense guilt about posting anything not related to current events, so this is my way around that! so.. enjoy i guess <3

personal stuff (you can send me asks to explain more if you want)

i beat my new years' resolution of watching 365 things this year – i'm up to 500 logs!

a lot of new tv (28 total, entire shows, rewatches, new seasons, miniseries, and documentaries included)

fixated on kpop this year and listened to 30 groups whole discography! i actually counted and it was exactly 30 lmao ask me ab my fav groups and biases if you dare

started drinking tea every day :)

redecorating my apartment and it's so much cozier now

i've become more of a snoopy/peanuts fanatic :)

to build on the new years resolution, i've added quite a few horror franchises under my belt :) my horror tag on letterboxd is roughly 250 now!

i think i'm finally breaking my lifelong nail biting habit??? fingers crossed!

buying more things secondhand and feeling way better about it! mostly clothes and dvds but me and my partner are huge fans of knick knacks

have tried a lot of new food this year :) and am cooking new recipes a lot more too!

went to the beach for vacation for the first time in ten years <3 went to this cool little record store and got a band recommendation from the owner that's now one of my underground favs!

celebrated ten years with my partner this year and although it's been such a rough year for the both of us and we're not nearly where we ever thought we'd be, we're more solid now than we've ever been!!! i really would not have made it through this year without them

honestly this year has been a blur 90% of the time so there's obviously been more little things that make me happy but! it's been a big year for consuming media bc i don't have much energy for creating anymore unfortunately

[cookiesupplier]

Every Rose Has It's Thorns - Part Six

pairing: Ricky Olson x ofc (Talia)

warnings/tropes: slow burn, soulmates, strangers to enemies to lovers, betrayal, angst, fluff, smut, language.

summary: In a world where soulmates inexplicably receive a tattoo that will match that of their soulmate the moment they turn eighteen years old, being famous and covered in very visible tattoos can make finding your true soulmate a questionable fate. Not that it is any easier for the soulmate in question. Thus is the fate for Ricky and Talia. Sooner or later, however, life is bound to collide, but what will happen when it does?

author’s note: Unbeta’d, so please readers beware. Sorry for the mis-post before!

tags: @tearfallpixie @cncohshit @jordynyingling0219 @faceless-mirror @nyxthedestroyerofworlds @wild-child-7747 @witchyweeb34

If you would like to be added feel free, please let me to know, whether to this list specifically or in general.

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So, there were two weeks left of the tour. Two weeks, and it was obvious that neither Vinny or Ava just wanted to walk away immediately now that they found each other. As awkward as meeting your soulmate could be, especially under trying circumstances, they obviously had a connection already and wanted to spend time together, and Talia envied them that. She however, didn’t want to think about the way Ricky looked at her, she’d obviously set this whole thing up just to spite him.

She couldn’t blame him though, in less than a day his whole life had turned upside down. One the other hand she’d had years to adjust to her predicament. Not even the fact that she’d lost him, but the whole issue of being his soulmate in the first place, and how people treated her for it. Really, being treated what felt like a little bit like a pariah sometimes in her own family, like she was mental for believing what she did, and unlike Rick she’d had plenty of time to adjust. He’d had the rug pulled from under his feet. Sure maybe it was new for him, maybe he’d dealt with soulmate issues before in the band in a way she hadn’t, but this had to be horrible, had to be worse. Or at least, new, fresh.

Maybe he could not blame her though?

Still, when Vinny suggested that maybe Ava could join them for the last couple weeks for the tour, Talia jumped at the chance to point out she’d make a fantastic PA, even if just helping out with general housekeeping on the bus and making sure they don’t go stir crazy for the last leg of shows. After all, helping her was pretty much what she did.

~~

“How will you ever cope without me?”

Talia laughed at her best friends dramatics as Ava went and pressed her hand to her chest with a gasp as she just shook her head,

“I think I’ll survive just fine.”

Oh, she knew she’d miss her best friend something awful, all three of them would, but there was no way that Ava wouldn’t keep them updated. Talia knew how Ava was, she’d keep them updated to how she was going on this every step of the way, she could only hope she wouldn’t drag her into it as well, there was only so much that she could deal with right now.

“You should come too, right, Vin?”

“No!”

Before she could even argue, the other person she knew would spoke first, she glanced across the once more empty table after the waitress had come and collected their plates after they’d finished eating their breakfast, Ricky looked livid, and she knew instantly she was going to have words with him about how he was going to be treating Ava.

“I can’t go, I have clients, set appointments, you know that. Either way, you don’t me dragging you down, use this time to get to know Vin, okay, you’ll get to spend so much time together, getting to know each other.” “Only getting to know each other. No sex on the bus.”

Ricky was quick to point that out kicking Vin under the table, smirking a little, only for Vin to snort in response as he grinned back,

“Yea like any of us keeps to that rule anyway.”

Of course, the moment the words slipped from the younger man, he seemed to remember the fact the issues at hand, which was stupid because they were here, and why they were talking and it had just come out, fuck, he back peddled,

“Whatever, Ava is probably going to want to kill me after me making her living in a bus full of dudes for two weeks anyway, Talia you’ll say something nice at my funeral right? I’m not sure I can trust Rick, he’d be snarky.”

“Oh Vin, I’ll always be on Ava’s side.”

“Dammit.”

Chuckling… his grin, she loved this, he would be great with Ava. She wondered if she’d ever be on Ricky’s side, like she was sure Vinny would be on Ava’s but she doubted he’d ever want her there.

At least they weren’t trying to convince her to come on tour anymore, she couldn’t keep saying no to Ava, and the thought of actually having to handle the painful glares from Richard Olson. She could work around her clients, take vacation time, she hadn’t had vacation time in so long, two weeks would be nothing, but the thought of being in a cramped bus, with those glares, bearing down on her. Stripping away at her soul, ripping her open and bleeding her heart dry? She couldn’t do it, she couldn’t put herself through that. While she could handle all of this, she needed to handle him and his, and she figured, justified anger, at what he was going through, from far away.

“Okay, so, we should get going,”

“But-”

“You have to pack, you’re going on tour for two weeks.. You have to go home, pack, and call Bee and let him know you’ll need vacation time for soulmate reasons.. and get back to the the bus all before they leave.. We should get going.”

Ava sighed, nodding quickly,

“Okay, okay.”

Getting up from the table, it was when Ava was hugging Vin tightly talking quickly, probably whispering some shit, who knows, that Talia didn’t want to think about that she grabbed the sleeve of Rick’s jacket and pulled him over to the side.

“Hey, lay off.”

Oh, he was in a real mood still, annoyed at the very least, didn’t want to calm down at all.

“Not going to check the attitude at all are you? Well you can with Ava. I don’t give a shit how you treat me, it’s obvious you hate me, I get it. I know why, I don’t blame you. I didn’t want to fuck up your relationship anymore than you wanted it to be, but now here we the fuck we are.”

Ricky just glared at her and she swallowed, even though he was short, he was taller than her, she’d always been tiny, and right now, she hated it. It was only a few inches, half a foot at best.

“But so help me, if you treat Ava like shit, I will stick my foot so far up your ass Richard Olson.”

Standing so close to him, her head tilted up, his eyes boring into hers, the fierce stare piercing, and the blue was like ice in her veins. This was why she couldn’t go on tour, and this was why she was worried about Ava. All she could hope, was that if he couldn’t play nice, was that Ava was far too wrapped up in her cocoon of Vinny to notice the hostility coming from Ricky in waves.

“Oh don’t worry, Talia, I’m sure I’ll get along with her famously. You are the only problem here, I’m not putting up with anymore of this soulmate shit.”

Talia sighed,

“That, right there. Don’t call it shit in front of Ava, she believes in this stuff, and loves it. She just found Vinny, her soulmate. Support them. I can’t be with them okay, I won’t inflict myself on you like that, and if you can’t support them, keep your mouth shut, got it?”

She just stared him down for a long moment, so much so she didn’t even notice the far that Ava and Vinny weren’t talking anymore between themselves and were just watching them, watching them standing very close, and bickering as they were. There was something dangerous in his eyes, and she didn’t want to think about how it felt to be this close to him. She didn’t want to think about the fact that despite the pain of how much he hated her right now, just being near him now, actually filled her with a sense of warmth that her breath caught slightly. Swallowing, she didn’t want to think about it, she didn’t, she couldn’t, not like this.

“You got it, Sweetie.”

With a parting glare, his shoulder shoved hers as he moved past her and walked out of the diner. She sighed and turned to see Ava and Vinny staring at her now, only her with Rick already gone.

“Don’t.”

~~

Most of the drive home was completely silent. Absolutely completely silent. Talia really didn’t want to talk about any of it anyway, but she was waiting. There was no way that Ava didn’t want to say something with the way that she’d been looking at her along with Vin before they’d left the diner, it had been on the tip of their tongues she could just bet it before she’d grabbed her best friend's arm and rushed her out. She had her bags to pack because he had a tour to finish.

“So, that was something.”

“Please, please don’t Ava.”

She didn’t want to talk about it, she really didn’t, she could feel herself cracking even as she said it.

“That was intense, I mean, if I didn’t know better, with how close he was standing to you, I’d think he wanted to..”

She giggled.

“Vinny hasn’t even gotten that close to me yet, and Ricky was right there babe… and Sweetie?”

Talia shuddered hearing it again,

“He wasn’t saying it as a compliment Ava, he was saying it to insult me, I heard that loud and clear.”

Even if Ava was right, even if what she was saying had crossed her mind as the silence of the drive back to their apartment went on. It was hate though, that was the intensity, so her giggle was misplaced and Talia couldn’t let herself think about it.

Talia had to remind Ava multiple times she was only going to be gone for two weeks, and staying one a tour bus with so many people that there wasn’t going to be room for a heap of luggage. Pack as if she was going to be living out of a carry on bag. She was no happy, but, for Vin, she did it. They called Bee, and the owner of the parlour was ecstatic for her, and Ava, without asking Talia, even flouted the idea of Talia taking some time off in two weeks, while they were on the phone. If she hadn’t been about to leave, she would have killed her for that. Fuck. But at the same time, it wasn’t in stone, all she said while they were talking to Bee was she’d think about it and that there was no appointments set on the books anyway.

~~

By the time Ava got back to the bus they had smoothed everything over, sorted the schedule so they were heading out to the next town as soon as she was settled.. And Rick was staring at the empty bunk she would be sleeping in when she got there.

Grace’s bunk.

He couldn’t, he didn’t even want to think about this, not about the fact that Ava was going to be taking up Grace’s space, that Grace wasn’t going to be here, that every time he even looked toward the bunk all he could think about was her lies. There were so many memories, moments, good moments, that were each turning sour and toxic one by one in his head with this poisonous little darkness in his head reminding him about how she lied. Reminding him about how it was all a trick and that she had been manipulating him from the very moment they met.

Distraction, he needed to think about something else. Update, a tour update, he could do a tour update before Ava got here, he’d already talked to Vin earlier about whether he wanted to let anyone know about her, and the consensus was that he wanted to talk to her first, so this update would be better to happen before she got here anyway. Rick also wasn’t sure how to update his socials about Grace after how open he’d been about his relationship, so here he went. Everything was going fine, until it wasn’t.

He ran into Justin.

It was nothing. He knew it was nothing, it was nothing. But it felt like everything. He just exploded and just started yelling at him to get the fuck out of his way and why the hell couldn’t he do anything right. Why the hell was he always in his fucking way. What was wrong with him?! Ricky Shoved the at the bassist and it took Chris coming to grab him, the singer literally grabbing him and heaving him up and carrying him, yelling out of the bus, before he started to calm down.

What the fuck, was he even doing.

That was exactly what Chris didn’t need to ask him because if anyone knew what he was going through it was Chris. The women that had tried to manipulate him into believing they were his soulmates, and ruined his real relationships in doing so. This time, this time, the fake soulmate exposed his real relationship as a fraud soulmate herself.

He left him outside to calm down while they had time, before he had to be closed up in the bus again for the night while they travelled to the next town. Standing there, Rick slipped something out of his pocket, and looked down to the box in his hand, he’d not known what he was going to do with it..

Taking in a breath, he reaching back, and threw the ring box holding the engagement ring he’d bought for Grace as far as he fucking could from the tour bus. Hopefully whoever found it got better use out of it. Sell it, use it, he didn’t give a shit, he just didn’t want to see it ever again.

~~

Talia dropped Ava off at the bus and watched it drive away before heading back to the apartment once more. Two weeks, the start of two weeks alone. Alone with nothing but time to think about Ricky and the way he’d stared at her with such hate… and the way it made her feel.

When his arm had been around her during the VIP, her tattoo had been warm, it had tingled. She wondered on some level if that had been her imagination, or something real. Just the way he has been looking at her made her feel something as well, even if he was looking at her with such hate, it was with such intensity that it warmed her. Like a spark had been ignited inside of her.

The kind of spark that she’d imagined she’d feel when her soulmate looked at her with a very different kind of intensity. Like he wanted her, instead, instead he hated.

Dropping her keys in the bowl by the door, Talia walked into the empty apartment, moving through the big, empty apartment with no one waiting for her, no one. Letting the crushing weight of the day, of how Ricky looked at her made her feel press down on her now, and she crumbled. Collapsing to her bed she cried until she could do nothing but fall asleep. 

[goingmorry]

[One Piece Headcanons] OP Boys -> when you ask them to kill an insect

Characters: Zoro, Sanji, Law, Kid, Ace, Sabo, Luffy, Killer, Shanks, Mihawk

Tags: beware of bugs, this is a joke post

Author's Note: Asked my husband to kill a spider the other day, so thought of this. 😭

RORONOA ZORO

Tries to convince you to kill the bug yourself.

When he realizes that he can't get through your stubbornness, he relents and asks you to show him the location of the disgusting creature.

Ends up annihilating the wrong insect. Wait! There's more?

Gets way too into it and goes on a bug killing spree.

Weapon of choice: defaults to swords but has to consciously remind himself to use his fist for fear of causing unnecessary structural damage.

Score: 6/10; drops to 4/10 if he forgets to switch out of using swords.

SANJI

Mr. Prince Charming over here is more than happy to destroy the insects for you.

Goes above and beyond; will do a full sweep of the room to ensure that no other bugs are near the vicinity.

Weapon of choice: haki-infused leg for a fiery effect.

Score: 8/10

TRAFALGAR LAW

Hates bugs with the burning passion of a thousand suns.

Rolls his eyes at your silly request.

He's sassy, but he'll do as you ask.

Decent bug killer; can easily kill them with his devil fruit, but chooses not to use his powers for such "meaningless tasks" — his choice of words, not yours.

Weapon of choice: rolled up previously issued World Economy News Paper.

Score: 7/10

EUSTASS KID

Calls you a wuss for enlisting his help.

Acts like he's doing you a huge favor, but you quickly find out that he's quite terrible at killing bugs; you would have better luck asking Killer for help instead.

Ends up destroying property in his pursuit of the pesky little critters.

Weapon of choice: mechanical arm; no wonder the bugs escape from his clutch.

Score: 3/10

PORTGAS D. ACE

Enthusiastic, loving boyfriend to the rescue.

Though, his enthusiasm doesn't translate so well for his bug-killing abilities.

Treats the entire situation like a game; wants to use creative ways to catch the troublesome pests.

Weapon of choice: homemade bug traps; they're useful 70% of the time.

Score: 7/10

SABO

Expert Bug Exterminator™

Killed plenty of bugs during his time growing up with the Revolutionaries; Koala made him do it.

Could start a side business for pest control if he wanted.

Weapon of choice: maximum strength indoor bug spray; it's effective every time.

Score: 10/10

MONKEY D. LUFFY

Congratulations, you played yourself.

Won't kill bugs even if you beg him to.

Good luck; you're on your own.

To make matters worse, he picks up the bug with his bare hands and chases you around with it.

Weapon of choice (if he could actually kill them): flip flop; the power of la chancla.

Score: -1/10

KILLER

Has built-in ESP or something.

Predicts your intentions before you can request his help and asks, "Where do you need me?"

Say no more; he's on it faster than you can count to thirty.

Weapon of choice: bare fists; there's nothing quite like some good old fashion hand-to-hand combat.

Score: 9/10

SHANKS

Teases you every time you run to him for help.

Playfully bargains with you by saying stuff like, "Sweetheart, I'll take care of this insect problem of yours for the small price of one smooch. It's a bargain."

You reprimand him but kiss him anyway, much to his satisfaction.

Weapon of choice: store-bought insect traps; he's lazy and you can't convince him otherwise.

Score: 8/10

DRACULE MIHAWK

Kills bugs with the precision one can expect from the World's Greatest Swordsman.

True to his namesake and similar to how a hawk zeroes in on its prey, no bug can hope to escape from Mihawk's impeccable vision.

All you have to do is show him where the insect is or where you last saw it, and he'll do the rest.

Weapon of choice: handheld bug zapper; gotta keep it classy, fellas.

Score: 10/10