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itadooori · 2 months ago

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s2 gihun with s1 characters PLEASE

wait i love this concept omfg

#TESTING OUT A NEW BRUSH BTW. KINDA FUCKIN WITH IT. lowkey messing with my style too we'll see where it goes #i might do more of s2 gi-hun with the rest of the s1 cast but i wanted to do sae-byeok n sang-woo for sure cuz i thought those were the #most interesting avenues to explore here #for sae-byeok and gi-hun im thinkin abt how they would end up working together since gi-hun now also has trust issues #two black cats fr #maybe they cancel each other out LMFAOOOO #real talk. maybe sae-byeok hangs around his general area lowkey spying on him after he announces hes played before #tryna see if she can gain anything from it #starts wanting to bounce maybe halfway thru the games and figures gi-hun is her best bet? idk #idk bro. just know that sae-byeok and gi-hun are father and daughter in every universe #the reason this ask took a few days to answer is cuz i was literally thinking abt s2 gi-hun with sang-woo all weekend #sang-woo would be TWEAKING bro #s he attracted to gi-hun taking charge and being so serious? yes.#is he also tweaking out because hes Not used to this dynamic between him n gi-hun and also isnt the most knowledgeable person in the room #YES.#he wants to hit but his survival instincts and multiple complexes are screaming at him 💔#he and gi-hun are having a self-loathing off tbh. its not pretty #holy shit this was a yapfest SORRY YOU CAUSED AN EXTINCTION LEVEL EVENT INSIDE MY BRAIN #squid game #squid game fanart #seong gi hun #cho sang woo #kang sae byeok #seong gihun #cho sangwoo #kang saebyeok #my art #doodle #fanart #requests

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derrygirlstrash · 9 months ago

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Not to start shit, if you know me you know I'm a "ship and let ship" kinda gal and saying this I truly have no problem with James/Orla as a ship it harms no one and plenty of people like it, I like people having fun... that said...

I have never understood the common argument that James/Erin as a ship makes no sense and James/Orla should have been the ship instead. Often one of the arguments is that James/Erin wasn't set up while James/Orla was and I'm sorry... what? James/Erin have at least one ship heavy episode each season as well as plenty of background moments and several significant moments in Erin's Diary.

Even if you ignore all the background moments of the two holding hands, being inside each others personal space, the times where they're clearly matching and whatnot. There is at LEAST the implication that Erin would ignore her supposed crush for James, that she cares what he thinks, that Erin is James's type, that they're aligned in creative values and match each others energies, that Erin thinks he's handsome, that James thinks she's beautiful, that she can't imagine her life without him, etc.

James/Orla have some touchy moments... that's kinda all they have as far as romantic coding and I don't see how those two hugging in the Season 2 finale is somehow more significant than what setup James/Erin have throughout all the seasons.

Honestly, while I can see Orla liking James - you could build a case for it and convince me even though I see Orla as ace/aro in my own personal headcanons... no one has ever been able to give me a convincing argument for James liking Orla back. It kinda feels like you have to ignore that he never has a reason to fancy Orla back and just project onto him that.

Which, again, go off if that's your bag I think their friendship is fun and I could see making a ship out of it, but the common argument is that the SHOW makes a better case for James/Orla and like, no? No it really doesn't? It's just not main girl/main boy and some people really don't like that trope or Erin as a main and I think that if you say the show didn't set up James/Erin well and you argue the show would have been better with James/Orla based on what's in the show, you just might not like Erin very much?

I've also never been able to make sense of the argument that James/Erin is somehow the trope that 'guys and girls can't just be friends' like, is that not also James/Orla? Y'know, besides that Orla isn't a girl. They do use she/her during the show time period though and some people who argue this think Orla is a girl, they just think they're not THE girl. So somehow it's better even though it's the same thing.

Basically what I'm saying is that shipping is fun and we all oughta do it. Every ship besides the obvious ones is potentially fun and I'm down for it, but there is one ship the show was setting up and we all know what that ship was and I think it would be better if we all were honest about it.

PS: "James was gay the whole time!" Truthers, if you made it through this post somehow I'd like to offer a compromise: James Maguire is the most bisexual coded male character in media history we can all win here.

#derry girls #james maguire #jerin #erin quinn #Orla McCool #james x erin #erin x james #not tagging Orla and James as a ship because I'm not starting shit it's literally just addressing a common fandom thing I see a lot #when I track discussions of the show #funny enough I do actually have a stream-of-consciousness ficlet in my best friend's dms #where very early on Orla gives James a 'Valentine You're a Horse' card and he overthinks what it means for a week:#Orla: I like horses.#James: Wait so does that mean you like me?? Cause you said I'm a horse -#Orla: *grabs his face* James. I really like horses.#James: I... okay.#Orla: So we understand each other. *walks away*#And then they never discuss it again for like ten years until his wedding to Erin where Orla says they are glad at least Erin won him #since their attempt at wooing didn't work #James: YOU DID LIKE ME BACK THEN OH MY GOD!#Orla: I TOLD YOU I LIKED HORSES HOW MUCH MORE CLEAR COULD I HAVE BEEN. WE WOULD HAVE NEVER WORKED. YOU DON'T GET ME.#This is how I see any romance between them going hypothetically: Orla making an overture James just doesn't get and nothing happens lmao #this was stream of consciousness so if this post is rambling and incoherent be nice to me I'm on my period #I am fog brained today

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biblically-accurate-dca · 2 years ago

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experimental sunman yaaaay

(ruin spoilers under the cut)

#my art #daycare attendant #dca fandom #sundrop #sunnydrop #eclipse #<- for real this time #ruin spoilers #eyestrain #im still figuring out eclipse in my brain.... but overall they actually havent changed much abt my interpretation of the dca #since my hc for them is that they started off as eclipse while they were being used for the theater #and then they somehow separated into sun and moon after they were reprogrammed for the daycare #and then the virus came along and further separated the two from each other.....#which makes eclipse seem more like a 3rd person rather than the previous combined state of the two... so who knows how the hell they work #i really like the ambiguity tho :] i've always enjoyed it when the line between sun vs moon is super blurry and uncertain #it makes it more interesting #anyway. tumblr kept fucking up my post format on mobile so i had to fix this on desktop lol. if it breaks again though im shitting myself #ruin eclipse

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sp-growingpains · 3 days ago

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SNATCHED! GRABBED EVEN!

Low effort, but I wanna draw more of these dorks.

Archie Refrence:

#KILL. THE PART OF YOU. THAT CRINGES #do things that make you happy!#south park oc #sp oc #jean wellman #my oc stuff #maybe I just wanna see a buff lady and a super responsible man kiss sometimes #maybe - I wanna see that golden retriever and black cat dynamic #MAYBE that childhood best friends to lovers shit got a grip on me #MAAAAAAYBE its the fact that I'm running on 3 hours of sleep #who can say really??#Lulu's professor Kyle design changed my brain forever #oc x canon #i forget to shade her hair and I already merged everything so...#I'm not going back #i was late to the other archie trend #this works tho #(WARNING: silly ass rambling ahead)#i love the idea of them both becoming teachers #Jean works as an elementary school music teacher when she's older #I love the idea of Kyle being an English professor #may perhaps even sneaking kisses in between classes??#helping each other with lesson plans #celebrating when summer comes around and they can both goof off #I've got a few drabbles in my back pocket about it #hey btw you guys have been so nice and sweet with indulging my stuff #it really warms my heart #in ways I can't express ♡#archie comics #sp-growingpains

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kitwilsonsass · 3 months ago

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not to be tmi but do you ever just LOSE YOUR FUCKING MIND ON YOUR PERIOD

#im being dramatic but like fucking. hell. i am just.#its kicking my ass i am so fucking tired #bc there wasnt SHIT last month and this month its like right about that how about a week early and just the worst. just the worst.#i slept so long last night but kept waking up in pain #not blackout pain at least but just constant pain #and was too stubborn to get up and take anything for it #and all day i have just had zero fucking energy #been trying not to pass out since like 11:30 bc i don't want to feel like i'm just #working and sleeping for a week straight of shifts #but i'm not actually. doing anything. because i'm too fucking tired.#and yet my brain is somehow also in 12 different directions #i've also been faintly woozy tonight which i also blame on that #and probably that i think ive forgotten to take my thyroid shit for like four days IN A ROW #so i took one now even though i took other stuff and was drinking something just in case #to get some in my bloodstream #but now i'm like oh god i hope i didnt take it earlier for once and forget #bc fuck knows my heart will explode out of my chest all night if i did #LOOK HOW MANY TAGS THIS POST HAS WHY AM I STILL TALKING DO YOU SEE THE ISSUE #i need bravier to hit me with a rubber mallet #i need PD to strap me to the imaginary curl up in between them couch #both of these things

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feralsneeze · 10 months ago

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Not sneeze just mental health rambling in the tags

#I’ve spent a very long time trying to change my brain so I can just operate at a neurotypical level #it’s always been impossible and I feel like shit for it #so recently I finally just said #I am not neurotypical and never will be no matter what I do!#so I need to be kind to myself and make the accommodations I need for myself!#which is a work in progress but idk. it’s kind of painful that the neurotypical people in my life act like I’m asking for an arm and a leg #when I’m very genuinely asking if slight changes could be made between us #I absolutely don’t expect anyone to change their lifestyle for me or anything #it’s stuff like not holding long conversations when I’m in the middle of writing because it messes up my flow #and I tell my family beforehand! hey I’m gonna write for a couple of hours does anyone need anything from me before #and they say no! but then ten minutes later will start telling me a story about their day #which I’m okay to hear BEFORE I start a writing session or AFTER #and I goddamn communicate that!!! but they act like I’m asking for nobody to ever speak to me again #another thing is that I CANNOT eat anything past an expiration date #I know it’s still probably good but my brain will just keep saying YOURE GONNA DIE OF FOOD POISONING #so say the half gallon of milk is past its date #I will buy a fresh one to start using myself but I don’t toss the old one because I know others don’t care as much #and they they complain that I’m wasting milk #like I’m sorry it’s 1) my money and 2) how is it being wasted when y’all are happy to drink it til it’s done?#idk man!! neurotypical people sure do say that shit should be easy for neurodivergent people #but they sure do struggle to be slightly accommodating without bitching #idk rant over peace out

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highraccoon · 1 year ago

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it's always so funny when someone "acknowledges" your disabilities but when those disabilities actually, you know, disable/impact parts of your life then they act as if the disability couldn't POSSIBLY be the problem and you're just bringing it up as an excuse

and by funny i mean it makes me want to powerdrill my own teeth

#sunbun speaks #like yes i am currently sitting down and eating instead of washing dishes #i need rest so i can keep the pain down and i barely eat so what do you want me to do?#I'm sorry i didn't pick up on whatever hidden message your words had in them and now it's awkward - yes it's the autism #like... if the symptom or behavior is obviously connected to a source but you don't take it into account then what do you want?#there's a difference between someone harming you and someone just not understanding what you meant #because their brain shits the bed in those situations no matter how much i work on it #like i take other's situations into account when i consider their words/actions because I'm not a self-centered prick #like I'm not doing this on purpose and I'm trying my best but i can't keep pushing myself past burnout #for people who don't even consider my struggles valid

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unfortunate--moth · 1 year ago

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i for real need to stop getting new interests my brain can only have so much space in there.

anyways. reverse 1999. is a pretty cool game. i wish i decided to hyperfixate on it AFTER all of my other projects but now i just wanna draw these silly characters. sigh. someone help me.

#reverse 1999 #moth speaks #its just ROUGH #i have my fic to work on #then i have a secret santa gif #then i might join a writing competition #then i also have a different original story ive been loving #rain code and milgram and other shit also in my brain #i wanted to draw some aoyama operetta characters too #find me dead on the floor by next week /j #already thinking about doing a crossover #between rain code and reverse 1999 #how would it work? uh! idk but itd be neat #girl help im hyperfixating on too many things

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talentforlying · 1 year ago

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father grimaldi: forgive me, lord, for i have sinned. constantine: — understatement of the bloody century, that is. father grimaldi: the chapel is closed to the public! who are you? how did you get in here . . .? constantine: did you know vatican city has the highest per-capita crime rate of any nation state in the world? i'd have thought a touch of breaking and entering's pretty much par for the course around here.

so #1, an undeniable slay.

#2, how long do we think he was sitting in the confessional booth waiting for the guy to wake up from ellie's fake vision quest. like an hour? checking his light, practicing his Big Reveal Pose TM? he probably brought a book with him and just shoved it underneath the seat cushion when it was time to show off.

#3, knowing how intensely he studied & continues to study in order to teach himself magic at such an absurdly advanced level without any teachers to formally guide him? and how that level of dedication would absolutely carry over into researching a mark / making sure he had every corner of a confidence scheme nailed down pat? i like to imagine that the day before this meeting was spent with his severely under-caffeinated ass parked at a public library computer, squinting at articles for 'most important things to know about vatican city before you travel' or 'top 10 little-known facts about vatican city' and using the back of his boarding pass to take notes on what would be the best throwaway line to blow off all the usual questions with.

also, he probably woke up still in his travel clothes less than two hours before this scene and had to hustle to get suited up in time for his Dramatic Apparition. the demon blood was boiling so bad in that chapel that it was giving him a killer migraine. he didn't get breakfast so his stomach was growling the ENTIRE time. but all that meant was he had plenty of room to eat UP the runway and that's EXACTLY what the fuck he did.i'm

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#always torn in half between 'john is a freaky little weirdo who just Knows Things and Picks Up Vibes and it usually works for him'#and 'john is the most Normal Dude in the whole london occult scene he just works w/ magic like a grad student prepping for finals week'#and you know what? the answer is always 'Both. Both is good.'#also on the one hand i'm truly obsessed with the idea of john just?? Always having a bunch of weird trivia available w/ his eidetic memory #like he read about the apostolic palace once in a book when he was with the peace convoy and his brain latched onto it forever #and it just Happens to become convenient later on and this happens VERY often and no one ever really knows how he does it #but there is a real real charm in considering that he's still Just A Guy beneath all the layers of false confidence and mysticism #still someone who had to work to get to where he is now and who will always have to work to Maintain as well #i like the mental image of him pacing around his temporary digs with index cards and drilling all the necessary details for the scam #or him and ellie getting blasted the night before and dramatically playing out their Big Final Confrontation to iron out all the beats #you just Know they were laughing til they cried workshopping shit like 'MY OLD ADVERSARY! WE MEET AGAIN!' and 'DO YOUR WORST HELLSPAWN!'#still trying to keep straight faces the day of the fake fight while drastically improvising to try and throw each other off their game #idk!!! i always enjoy the Strange and Off-Putting things about him but all of the Really Really Human stuff is also just. so so precious #we always get to see The Myth The Legend as shaped by the errors of The Man. but especially in later years actually SEEING The Man gets rar #all this to say that for every perfectly executed and properly horrifying loom out of the shadows with a glimmer of his freaky glowing eyes #there is always at LEAST half an hour or more practicing angles + expressions + mood lighting in the mirror going on behind the scenes #and that is very very special to me!!!!#( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.#( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD.#sched.

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izzy-b-hands · 1 year ago

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Trying to make my brain do anything today has just been case after case of 'well, half-assed is better than nothing I guess.'

#text post #idk why i have such bad post-survey mental dips every time but I always do #literally last night before end of my shift was like okay brain. it's ok that we aren't working after this. this is fine.#there's another survey in two weeks (for ONCE they told us in advance) and in the in between other things I can do to keep making some mone #and I felt really confident abt that at that point! wish that confidence hadn't been so misplaced bc I did in fact spiral #was actually exhausted enough to just eat shower and sleep after work but the shower was just a big spiral w/crying and scrubbing lmao #whatever. did a mini vid in the new outfit i have for the side job and will do dishes tonight #plus I'll get my shot done bc that's a day late now too #prolific and cloud i got a bit done too and i'll keep checking those thru the night #i actually wanna play gta for a bit & try it with the controller but i feel guilty every time i so much as look at steam so. we'll see #i just need to do something else useful today bc tomorrow will be a full filming day most likely so. gotta make today useful too #I know it must sound like im not really trying to work with my brain on this but i shit u not #this is my brain when im actively employing coping skills and other things to try and counteract the 'work or die' mindset #i dont know how to make it any better and at this point I don't think I can #this was baked into me as a kid lmao bc even playing needed to have a point/story/some goal to achieve #or why the fuck was i playing with my barbies or metal toy cars or dinosaur and horse figurines to begin with #im rambling to put off doing the dishes ignore me lmao

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box-dwelling · 2 years ago

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If I could get over my internalised ableism and be like 5% more organised and do shit like use my fucking support aids and take my fucking meds I really would be unstoppable.

#brought to you by me inguring my ankle and being forced to use a stick and thus being reminded that using a stick makes my life 100x easier #the gaul honestly #when i was like 14 i got it in my head that i could just stop using my aids and not be disabled anymore because then no one would know #other causalties include hand rests. physio exercies. typeing my notes instead of writing them by hand. and wearing my god damn hearing aid #and now im mostly over that but my brain sometimes screams im not fosabled enough to use a stick despite thay not being how that works #but im very very bad at habit forming so all that shit is still abandoned.#i used to be better about my meds. i really did. but now i think im drawing connections that dont exist between them and my seizures #and like. if i dont take them i still get seziures. but if i do take them i presume they casued the seizure #even though ive been taking these meds for years and the seziures have had a slow degeneration to be this bad #im calling them seziures. the doc is unsure but the are at least seizure like #fuck i just need to get my fucking shit together with my disablities #i have stuff to make everything a thousand times easier #i just dont fucking do it because im a dumb ass

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totentnz · 2 years ago

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is johnny irritating and mean? yeah but jokes on him because v always has a uno reverse card in hand but jokes on her because he actually likes that and he also has a uno reverse card

#sammy says shit #v & johnny: argue back and forth abt something stupid #also v & johnny: genuinely share a laugh about the insults they threw at each other #you know what they say if you cash out you need to be ready to recieve (i dont know if they say that actually)#but basically if you are a bitch expect other people to be a bitch too #and johnny who is all to used to people being mad at him and thinking he's an asshole (true)#really appreciates when v can tell the difference between being a jerk and... something else #my brain just stopped working and i cant make it make sense anymore #otp; just the two of us

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shoesofthefishermanswife · 2 years ago

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i would've done the fach system so much better actually (<- has never seriously studied classical/operatic voice)

#introducing a vocal type in between mezzo and contralto #<- my only evidence is that the contralto break is at D and the soprano break is at F and then mezzos have breaks at E or Eb. that's 4 #and my brain is used to the 8 prt choral satb system and the alto 2s (most of whom are mezzos and not contraltos) are Not the same as sop 2 #(and like 'light lyric mezzo' vs 'dramatic mezzo' no shut the fuck up. there should just be another classification)#also the lower voice types get 3 low ones and then an androgynous one and if a contralto is already characterized by an androgynous tone #then there should be 3 other ones too for symmetry #i am just mostly making shit up though #the fach system seems to work well for opera! and i don't understand it enough to seriously critique it. but most people don't sing opera #but since ppl (esp western ppl) always want to know their category even when it doesn't matter or is actively unhelpful #*i* think we should come up with a better contemporary system #sorry for the essay in these tags poor nia has had enough in her dms #kade speaks

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neverendingford · 5 months ago

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#tag talk #learning language just makes my brain vibrate on just the right frequency #my goal for the rest of this year and the year coming is to get really good at Spanish #between Language Transfer (really fucking good go check it out thanks to my sibling recommending it to me) and then #then all the immersion I've been doing with music and TV #I feel like I stand a chance of getting genuinely good at it #I have this dream of knowing several other languages but I need to start by developing the skill with a language I'm already familiar with #and now I'm medicated I can finally push for like.. an actual goal and achievement #this feels like an extension of my obsession with communication.#which now that I think about it. a lot of things I love have a strong communication aspect to them.#music. fashion. art. they all communicate ideas.#that's even maybe what I like about porn. it's a work that's designed to communicate a very specific feeling and idea #and kink is an expression of power and trust. control and release. poetry.#do these tags read like the ramblings of a mad man? am I just throwing darts at a wall and connecting them with red string?#maybe I am crazy. but I'm not wrong. I'm autistic I'm incapable of believing I'm wrong.#is that joke in poor taste? probably.#anyway. I love communication and learning Spanish is my gateway to an entire world of ideas embedded in the structure of language itself #plus it would probably help my ability to keep up with my brother's dreams of traveling abroad #and I could help him learn languages cause I love teaching and he's not as hardwired for it as I am.#oh also I bought a vocabulary book to work through because language transfer is teaching me the grammar and structure #but I need vocabulary to back it up #I have a small work vocabulary I use with the customers who don't speak English very well. shit like “this. it works?”#but even like. idk. I'm really good at understanding people with difficult speech.#one resident at my nursing home had severe muscle degeneration and couldn't do much outside of vague flopping #but she would still try to speak and I got pretty good at understanding her and having conversations while feeding her.#she was in the navy and ate a bunch of neat food in Korea and she's the reason I finally watched Jaws for the first time #and like.. my ability to understand is what let her influence my life like that. I got to connect with another human being.#like. it's a gift that enhances my life and I want to choose to shape my life around this gift.#my love and obsession with communication is something I've had my whole life and if is something constant I need to consider it #so many other things in my life are shifting and uncertain. I want to chase the constant source of joy that's a part of who I am.

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