#best decision there to plan a gig for my bday

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Actually can't believe I'm going to see my boys (read: Muse) in three days 🥹 somehow I've survived thus far

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harry styles !  |    look at the credits to find bodie montgomery ( he/him ) ! the twenty five year old camera operator is known for their work on the hit show: ftlog. their fellow crew members see them as being dependable and humorous, however they are actually very blunt and cynical. seeing them always reminds me of countless empty cup of noodles, a queue of buzzfeed unsolved autoplaying on youtube, sleeping til 4pm & staying up til 6am. 

hello everyone !! it’s caro here back with another annoying boy. i also play my big dummy percy, but i really wanted to bring someone not famous into the mix. this is my smol bean bodie!! just so you know under the cut is a tw for cancer, & mentions of death

my little camera man bodie – also goes by bo or bode, around set a lot of crew members call him by a shorter form of his last name, monty

growing up was quite uneventful in the best of ways. bodie had a pretty pleasant childhood. loving parents and a relatively healthy, happy family. his father is a big hollywood plastic surgeon and mother an architect. they are both extremely hard working and made it a priority to teach him the importance of discipline and responsibility at a young age. they set their expectations for the boy high.

often in his teen years he took care of his two younger sisters, as his parents both work full time. they had a nanny to help, so he didn’t have to, but his sisters always came first to him and being the oldest he is definitely a protective older brother

cancer & death mention tw :  when he was fifteen, his youngest sister, at six, was diagnosed with leukemia. for 2 years his life revolved around her. bodie was never extremely social to begin with, but in high school he was always invited to the parties & the tailgates. it wasn’t a very hard decision, but the boy chose to stay home with his sisters pretty much every weekend.

when she passed away, his family never seemed to get back on their feet. her room was left like a museum, tears and shouting resulting from his mother whenever anyone touched anything in there. once he turned eighteen, bodie moved out eagerly – nothing drastically far, still in the same city (he couldn’t leave his other sister behind!! los angeles born and raised!!! gimme childhood friends plots!!!!) bodie just moved to some shitty downtown LA apartment. being in his childhood home made him feel like he was drowning. tw donezo!

though his family is quite wealthy, his parents believe in bodie earning what he has, when he first moved out they only gave him some of an allowance every semester to help with his tuition. but he got a hold of his trust fund when he turned 21. he’s v frugal though and doesn’t flash his money at all, most people don’t even really know he has any money unless they knew him when he was younger.

SO bodie graduated with a bachelor of fine arts, concentrating in media arts. he hit the ground running as a production assistant in the cinematography department and that was really how he worked his way up to his position now. he aspires to continue to pursue a career as a cinematographer. the boy has a side hustle and shoots for aspiring instagram models lol, he also shoots special events upon request like weddings/bdays/parties

during his time at uni he met a beautiful gal that he fell In Love with. things moved so quickly between the two of them, they got engaged a year in. it was a romantic WHIRLWIND and a really exciting time of his life. but as they began planning their wedding, small arguments turned into full blown fights. they started spending less and less time together and going on less and less dates. they stopped talking about the wedding altogether, but still went through the motions of being together. he didn’t really know he had fallen out of love at first

this is probably his BIGGEST regret of his life – mainly because it fucked with his self perception and he started to let this define him. ALSO he had always prided himself in his ~goodness~ and didn’t really think he was capable of causing sUCH pain and being sO inconsiderate/selfish.. but he started sleeping with one of his close male friends while still engaged and in a relationship. because of that saying “once a cheater, always a cheater” he just can’t forgive himself and also doesn’t really trust himself. he was YOUNG and DUMB, but still wouldn’t ever use that as an excuse. bodie has definitely learned from his mistake.

OKAY jumping to present FINALLY!!

ftlog was not exactly the show he applied to the position for -- he has been with studio3 for a few years working on shows under other titles: production assistant, 1st/2nd assistant camera, he’s worked in the light department for a few smaller shows as well. bodie never really connected with ftlog, but it's his first gig as a camera operator, so he’s pretty excited to finally be the main guy behind the camera.

he’s basically a big fluff ball that has a past and is just trying his best to Be Happy

bodie is an irresponsible mess most of the time to anything non work related. he has to set a million alarms because more often than not, he sleeps through the first few – literally would wake up late in the afternoon every day if he could (HE LIVES FOR OVERNIGHT SHOOTS), he’s is constantly late to everything unless it’s work related. all his closest pals know if u want bodie to be On Time you have to tell him to get there at least a half hour before he really needs to be. he can only make it on time to set tbh. maybe u could see this coming, but he’s pretty much a night owl. he’ll stay up into the wee hours of the morn dickin around

says “oh baby!”, “nah” and “sick” way too much

overall pretty loud and outgoing once he feels comfy around you

is extremely flighty and unreliable when it comes to all things romantic

has 2 instagrams: 1 for business purposes that is solely his photography, and 1 for his artsy fartsy selfies lol and cryptic captions

CONNECTION IDEAS: a crew roommate(s)!! bodie doesn’t need a roommate for rent reasons, he just is definitely someone that likes the company of roommates. university pals!! maybe a star he shoots frequently on his side hustle, so they’ve developed a friendship. an ex!! bodie hates the spotlight though and actively works to keep himself as much of a fly on the wall as he can so if his ex was a star he’d literally combust the first time they got papped together. there’s a good chance bodie would break it off b4 it really got serious tho. this is all i have rn but i’m down to plot or go of chem!!! like this and i’ll come bug u!!!

[neverforgetyourdreams442]

1. What’s your favorite way to spend a day off? Chilling, watching Netflix, playing my guitar and singing.

2. What type of music are you into? Classic rock, funk, gospel, jazz, bossa-nova, blues etc

3. What was the best vacation you ever took and why? Florida. It was the nicest place I’ve been to so far.

4. Where’s the next place on your travel bucket list and why? I want to go to Greece. It looks so dreamy.

5, .What are your hobbies, and how did you get into them? Playing the guitar, singing, drawing etc I loved doing them ever since I was little.

6. What was your favorite age growing up? I think 12-13

7. Was the last thing you read? I don’t remember the last time I read a whole book.

8. Would you say you’re more of an extrovert or an introvert? Introvert

9. What's your favorite ice cream topping? Cut up fruits

10. What was the last TV show you binge-watched? Ginny and Georgia

11. Are you into podcasts or do you only listen to music? Music

12. Do you have a favorite holiday? Why or why not? Yes, christmas. I love being with my family and having fun and playing games and doing secret Santa.

13. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? Burger

14. Do you like going to the movies or prefer watching at home? Going to the movies

15. What’s your favorite sleeping position? Belly down

16. What’s your go-to guilty pleasure? Chocolate

17. In the summer, would you rather go to the beach or go camping? Camping

18. What’s your favorite quote from a TV show/movie/book? “That’s what she said” - Michael Scott, The Office

19. How old were you when you had your first celebrity crush, and who was it? I was probably like 13 and it was Zayn Malik

20. What's one thing that can instantly make your day better? Laughing with family and friends

21. Do you have any pet peeves? Yes, when people come too close to me

22. Which meal is your favorite: breakfast, lunch, or dinner? Lunch

23. What song always gets you out on the dance floor? Chá chá slide

24. When you were a kid, did you eat the crusts on your sandwich or not? Yes

25. What activity instantly calms you? Singing

26. Ideally, how would you spend your birthday? Going somewhere to eat with my family and friends

27. What do you do on your commute to/from work? I talk to my mom and text my bf

28. Do you have a favorite type of exercise? Yes, I like weights and doing leg

29. What's your favorite season and why? Spring. It’s not that hot and it’s not cold either

30. What's the best joke you've ever heard? I don’t remember any lol

31. What's the phone app you use most? Instagram

32. Would you rather cook or order in? Cook

33. Have your ever disliked something and then changed your mind? Yes lol

34. What's your favorite board game? Monopoly

35. How do you take your coffee? Black with 3 sugar or with milk and 2 sugar

36 What's your most prized possession and why? My family. They are my everything.

37. Is there any product that you couldn't live without? Makeup

38. Do you sleep with a top sheet? Why or why not? Yes I do. It’s more comfortable

39. If you could have any exotic animal as a pet, which would it be? A tiger

40. What would be the first thing you'd do if you won the lottery? I would buy my parents a house

41. What’s your favorite thing about your current job? The friendship I have with my coworkers and my boss

42. What annoys you most? People coming too close to me, or calling me all the time.

43. What’s the career highlight you’re most proud of? Growing into my position in my company

44. Do you think you’ll stay in your current gig awhile? Why or why not? Yes. Because I love my coworkers and boss

45. What type of role do you want to take on after this one? I would like to be a wife and a mother

46. Are you more of a "work to live" or a "live to work" type of person? Work to live

47. Does your job make you feel happy and fulfilled? Why or why not? Yes most of the time.

48. How would your 10-year-old self react to what you do now? Probably think it’s disgusting 😂

49. What do you remember most about your first job? I used to do a lot of physical work and my back would hurt lol

50. How old were you when you started working? I started babysitting and teaching h.w to kids when I was like 15 and my first job in a place was when I was 20 I believe.

51. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? My old job because I would have to be standing the whole day

52. What originally got you interested in your current field of work? The salary

53. Have you ever had a side hustle or considered having one? No I never did. Yes, I have.

54. What’s your favorite part of the workday? The morning time when I am here in peace and quiet and I can organize the office.

55. What’s the best career decision you’ve ever made? To quit my old job and come to the one I am currently in.

56. What’s the worst career decision you’ve ever made? I don’t think I ever made a bad decision. It was what I needed in that moment.

61. When will you know you've "made it"? When I have a husband, a baby and a house of my own and my parents have a house of their own and they can rest

62. Are you looking forward to retiring, or do you plan to work as long as possible? I plan to work as long as possible but I would like to retire when I get to a certain age.

63. Have you ever had "imposter syndrome"? No

64. What do you think about workaholics? I don’t think about tem lol

65. What qualities do you look for in a boss? Someone that will be beside you and a friend, someone that is kind and understanding.

66. Do you have a professional mentor? If not, do you want one? No I don’t have one and never thought about it.

67. Do you have a work best friend? Yes I do

68. Are you into after-work happy hours? No

69. How do you motivate yourself in your career? I just think of the money I will get

70. What's the best career advice you've ever heard? Be a good worker but never break your back giving more than you are valued for.

71. What's the worst career advice you've ever received? Never did

72. When you started your current job, what most surprised you? That I barely had to do an interview to get in.

73. How do you pick yourself back up after making a mistake at work? I just fix it as soon as I can and I apologize if I have to

74. How do you deal with work stress? I listen to music, talk to my coworker and I breathe and I pray

75. What energizes you about your career? Being able to buy things I couldn’t before.

76. What's one work-related thing you want to accomplish in the next year? I want to be more organized with some paperwork I need to do

77. Who has had the biggest impact on your career choice? My ex

78. What does your family think of your career? They think it’s a good job

79. What's the best thing you've learned in your current position? Communication

80. If you could do it all over again, would you pursue the same career? Why or why not? Yes I would. It’s a good career

81. How much time do you spend with your family? Not as much as I’d like to but as much as I can.

82. Who do you most like spending time with and why? My family and friends because I love them

83. Were you close with your family growing up? Yes

84. How do you define your family now? Amazing

85. What traits are most important to you in your family members? They are funnt, kind and smart

86. Who are you the closest to and why? My mother and sister. Not sure why lol I just am..

87. Do you want a family of your own? Yes

88. What’s your favorite family tradition? Waiting for the clock to be midnight when it’s someone’s bday and we will go to the person and give them a group hug singing happy bday

89. If you could change your relationship with a family member, would you? If so, with whom? No. I have a great relationship with them all

90. What was it like growing up as the youngest/oldest/middle/only child? It was a little hard because my parents were just recently became Christians so everything to them was wrong and I would get in trouble for stupid things. They didn’t know better

91. Does your family ever take trips together? Yes

92. What’s your favorite family memory? Going to florida def and camping

93. What TV family most reminds you of your own? A show in Brazil called a grande familia

94. Do you ever wish you were raised differently? No

95. What’s the best piece of advice a family member has given you? Stop letting people treat me less than what I deserve

96. Do you wish you had more siblings? If so, why? No. I have plenty lol

97. Did you ever hide anything from or lie to your parents? Yes

98. If you had a family business, what would it be? A movie place or gaming place

99. Do you and your family have any nicknames for each other? Yes

100. What's your favorite way to spend time with your family? Watching movies and eating

101. How do you show your family you love them? I do things for tem, I make them laugh and I hug them

102. Have you ever been to a family reunion? Yes

103. What's the most important holiday you spend with your family and why? Christmas. I love being with them and having fun

104. Who in your family would you describe as a "character"? My sister

105. How do you feel about family events? I love them

106. What's something your family would be surprised to learn about you? That I have sex with my bf

107. Which family member do you confide in most? My sister

108. How do you deal with arguments between family members? We just cool off and then say sorry

109. If you have children, how do you want to raise them? Like my parents raised me

110. What's more important: family or friends? Family

111. Do you have any friends you would consider family? Yes

112. Has your family ever pressured you to act a certain way? Yes

113. Did you ever get to meet your great-grandparents? Yes

114. What personality traits do you share with your relatives? I could be very impatient sometimes, very playful and I am kind

115. What physical traits do you share with your relatives? Big thighs, butt, fair skin

116. What stories did your family members tell you growing up? Many lol

117. How did your parents (and/or grandparents) meet? My mom was friends with my dads sister in school.

118. What makes you proud of your family? The way we are United

119. Who's the newest member of your family? My little sister

120. What can always bring your family together? A movie and food

121. What’s a relationship deal breaker for you? Cheating

122. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you want? Sight

123. What is your definition of success? Being happy with a healthy family traveling

124. What makes you feel at peace? Music

125. What are you most proud of in the last year? Deciding to leave my last relationship

126. What makes you feel most accomplished? My way of thinking

127. Who do you admire most in the world? Compassion

128. Would you rather make more money doing a job you hate or less doing one you love? More money doing a job I hate

129. Which of your personality traits are you most proud of? My sense of humor

130. What’s the first thing you look for in a partner and/or friend? Sense of humor

131. How has your perspective on the world changed over time? It’s crazy how people are “cancelling” people and people get so butt hurt about everything

132. Do you live by any piece of advice or motto? No

133. How can someone earn your trust? By their actions

[dairy-of-fucking-isolation]

DAY 2 - 17th MARCH

You know the news. The world is ending or just going on a weird loop in a way that none of us expected, anticipated or requested. 

Maybe planet Earth needed this, who the fuck knows. 

This dairy - yes i know it is supposed to be diary but i hate dairy so out of hate I made it even more significant it’s to memorise and to document what is currently happening. The situation changes every single day or almost every single hour so if there’s anything you were planning to tell your unborn and not conceived yet children this is the thing you will be telling them for sure. Create stuff, make notes, send a letter to a pigeon whatever floats your boat. 

There we were in the beginning of 2020, starting the year with a hope that this year will be our year and we can carpe diem every bit of it. Yes Brexit is horrid, and yes we all hate Trump and yes it’s all going to shit, but we have just made some plans. We just went through a counselling session and want to start a better chapter and make sure we are on the right track. We booked some tickets! Fuck yes we booked some tickets and trips, we will go places, we will see things, we will take shitloads of photos and posted on insta and hashtag out every little piece of the scenery, and we will book tickets to gig, and we will book tickets to see our family. We will be in this machine of plan makings, little hamsters running in their cage of commitment and paying bills and yolo the fuck out of what we’ve got. Then boom! Unexpected happened yet again, and all our plans have been burned to the bottom or just someone added mentos to our bottle of Coke and we are exploding in a sweet, dizzy mess avoiding touching our faces. 

Today is only the second day of the official quarantine. Bo-Jo finally decided yesterday that we should stay home if possible. Still not all the right decisions have been made. However, this diary (dairy) is not the political one and not about making some theories or explaining how everything is supposed to work and what is the best way to deal with a pandemic. This is a document of my own experience. 

32 year old since only just yesterday. What a weird time to have your bday ha! Does anyone even care? Yes people still do, but have no clue what to do with this weird ball of fluff and emotions. 

Recently we don’t want to socialise as much, we are running around chasing our own tails and making plans on google calendar checking when we can see our mates and we are texting that we’re not feeling well and in reality we just can’t be bothered to talk and socialise. Suddenly the power of the virus is taking away this control and decisions away from us and we realise we are people person and we need each other. Staying together alone, singing songs on the balconies etc. 

What is happening today? What I've seen today? 

I did some yoga in the garden, it was sweet. The sun was shining in the very end of our garden, the chairs sitting in the corner were trying to catch every single ray of it. When I wasn't staring at Adrienne telling me on her YT channel what move to do next I was looking at the sky and planes’ little cloudy tales crossing each other on the blue canvas of sky. It felt good, it was nice. I do have a photo proof of it, taken by my flatmate who came back home quicker as since today she’s wfh. I won’t post it, because it’s a very weird pose and shows my bottoms in the way I didn't expect to see it. Therefore it will be only for me to see. Sorry not sorry. 

I decided the most important thing in all of this is to have some sort of routine otherwise it will be just Sunday 1 and Sunday 48 in a minute, and we will be eating bad news all day and then shitting it out using all this toilet paper everyone is buying so desperately. 

Situation in tesco around 5pm was more empty than yesterday. All the red chili is gone, people still don’t want to buy mushrooms, no eggs in the eyesight, alcohol is still there and winking to us. Notes outside closed restaurants are trying to be positive, our neighbours started a whatsapp group for our street which is sweet and great. The sense of community is what we would buy on amazon right now and ask to be delivered to us in the next 24h.  

Will this forever change human contact? I bet there will be a dance when people are not supposed to touch each other. I just hope they won’t call it ‘ Wuhan dance’. We are all already expecting a flood of short movies telling tales of using condom with Hinge and Tinder flavour. Maybe people will be just sex calling and sharing videos of wanking off fest? 

Only the future will tell. That bitch has seen it all.

Over and out from day 2 of sitting on my ass at home. 

P.S considering ordering two desks at ikea so me and Jess can sit in our garden and work from there

P.P.S WFH home joke ‘ is it home time yet?’