#best conversation in a long time

[cable-salamdr]

Wolfcat is sooooo funky to me esp now that it’s confirmed that Sora and Jordana were in school together and drifted apart. I don’t really see them as toxic yuri anymore and more as Jordana somewhat-joining the ninja and they are both confused as fuck about one another. Just exhausted from life and scared of AND for the other person. They have so many issues to fix between each other and themselves, and if it takes them like 10 years to actually get together then I am completely okay with that. No more toxic yuri only weary yuri now.

[sideblogdotjpeg]

i am not immune to launchpad sol and albin thoughts

[sunmoontruth-stiles]

I need a completely rewritten teen wolf series with Derek Hale as the main character. I think it would heal me.

[msue0027]

Martha Jones - Jesus Christ parallels (never thought i'd write a sentence like this)

there's the other one who has sent me

For I did not speak on my own, but the Father who sent me commanded me to say all that I have spoken. I know that his command leads to eternal life. So whatever I say is just what the Father has told me to say. (John 12:49-50)

Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life. (John 5:24)

I judge only as I hear, and my judgment is just, for I seek not to please myself but him who sent me. (John 5:30b)

I have much to say in judgment of you. But he who sent me is trustworthy, and what I have heard from him I tell the world. They did not understand that he was telling them about his Father. So Jesus said, “When you have lifted up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am he and that I do nothing on my own but speak just what the Father has taught me. The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him. (John 8:26-29)

[...] for I have come here from God. I have not come on my own; God sent me. (John 8:42b)

etc., and so on...

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[datastate]

i keep finding reminders of how i used to act/type a few years ago and i shrivel up. and die.

[w-i-m-m]

[icewindandboringhorror]

Apparently I can meet my goal of roughly 400,000 words in 6 months if I just somehow write at least 2,200 words a day ghbjh... Almost 2,500 today... huzzah...

[valvesoftware]

breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh

[poisonedfate]

no wait i need to tell you guys something funny. so me and my partner moved into a new apartment like...half a year ago. all has been well etc etc but two days ago there was a letter left at our door (literally just. resting against the door). it was a noise complaint (!!) from our neighbours. i won't put a picture here, but let me tell you - the contents of it? hilarious. they wrote things like "noise from your property" and "preventing us from enjoying out home" and "we hope you do not wish us to be unhappy" and so on. but here's the kicker (or multiple): they outlined examples of the "noise" we've been making - one being a 'motor like' sound, which, first of all, could be appliances and just something that…happens, however, they specifically mentioned hearing this at 6am on the day of the letter when we were both, guess what? very much asleep! the second example they gave was screaming children. you must be able to guess by this point, but we don't have kids. did they try to talk to us before this even once, you might be asking. no! we're home pretty consistently as only one of my jobs requires me to be there in person and it's mostly when my partner has days off. oh, but that's not all! they then threatened us to take legal action if we did not "cooperate". and the cherry on top? they didn't tell us who they were. no flat number, no email, no phone number - nothing. we have an idea of who it is just based on proximity and we've tried to get a hold of them, but they haven't been around (…or just haven't answered the door). and yet….this is not the end….because they left another letter, the same one, but in our post box this time. i'm sorry. did you expect us to "cooperate"? did you expect an answer? because….perhaps….just maybe….you didn't give us any information to work with beyond threats.

so anyway. how's your week going?

[stalkertarkovsky]

i think it took someone saying "no one (else) is ever going to love you" for me to realize how stupid it was for me to think i was unlovable so at least i got that out of my last relationship. especially in the context of him saying "nobody else even believes you (were sexually abused), do you have any idea how much ive sacrificed for you", ((meanwhile he had never actually confronted the friend in question and lied to me while continuing a friendship with him for 2 months, denying it every time i asked him about it and yelling at me that he would never do that and i needed to get over myself and learn to trust people's integrity)). like it should've been horribly detrimental to my trust and brain but instead i was like wow.. what a weak and spineless person this is. and i was prouder of myself for having the strength to stand up for myself seeing what others were willing to put up with in aversion to loneliness. i always think im content with myself consciously, but this genuinely chipped away at the big block of self hatred deep down in me and i feel a lot lighter these days

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i guess i'm an adult now

[the-lesbian-orpheus]

Lil adventure time post:

Don’t come at me yet read first. Am I the only one who gets kinda sad and bummed out every time we see shermy and beth in an ep? (which I know was literally twice but just bear with me)

Not anything wrong with the characters I actually really like them and I think they have a cute dynamic and are fun. I love when people make comics of them etc

Just- knowing that it’s the future of Ooh and seeing how different everything was- like how their world is kind of a reminder that all of the characters we love except bmo are dead- (including possibly pb and marceline even though they were supposed to be immortal together forever 😭)

And also for example seeing in f&c how divided Ooh seems :C

And I know the whole point is that things end and change but “everything stays- ever so slightly” and it’s okay.

Which is actually a really nice message and sweet- but like even if the message is good and the characters are fun and reminiscent of the ones we love;

It just a still makes me a bit sad, you know?

I guess now im in my older teen 16/17 yr old philosophical existencial adventure time arc and no longer my 13 year old silly goofy arc. Me and Finn twinning frrrrr

Anyway thanks for coming to my Ted talk I continued some thoughts in the tags

[merakiui]

Genuine friend heizou would be so nice in that situation. He can gather the information needed from you, your friends, and anyone else to help you out! That's what friends are for!!

But at the same time, yan!heizou that now from the information he gathered about your past relationship, which knows what to do and what not to do. He promises to keep you safe, you don't ever have to worry about kuni ever again! DW he will always be there to help you out, that's what lovers friends are for!! :)))

Heizou is so refreshing and normal compared to Kuni. At least that’s how he seems on the surface. He’ll wrap his arms around you and Kuni, putting his weight on both of you, and call the two of you his little lovebirds, much to your displeasure and Kuni’s pride. He’ll tell the scariest campfire stories when the lot of you are in the forest, passing drinks and snacks around happily. But he always explains the twists and motivations at the very end, even though no one’s really listening when they’re either drunk or high (or both). He likes to work out the logistics of horror and to comprehend the steps that were taken to pull off the crimes detailed in these stories, some he’s made up and others cases he’s studied in class.

Heizou is always observing things around him. He likes to keep an activity record of the people he finds interesting. Because of this, he has pages and pages dedicated to his friends and their relationships, everything outlined with the occasional correction as he learns more. All of these relationships have one thing in common: you’re connected to them. Your relationship with Kazuha, your relationship with Tighnari, your relationship with Venti, your relationship with him—he keeps track of everything. What he hasn’t been able to work out lately is your relationship with Kuni. You seemed so opposed to him in the beginning, even if you tried (and failed) to hide your obvious apprehension. Heizou and his detective’s brain can sense one thing: there must be more to this than what he’s currently seeing.

And he’s proven correct when he pulls you aside one day after noticing the distress that has worn your youthful features into something tired and anxious. When you spill the truth and he listens intently, nodding and humming along, a part of him is overwhelmed with morbid satisfaction. He was right; he knew something was off between you and Kuni, but he could never quite put his finger on it. And oh isn’t this something! Heizou has read up on stories of crazy, vindictive ex-partners, but he’s never encountered one in real life. To think that the sweet Kuni could hide a side so dark, but then the best criminals cloak themselves in sheep’s clothing.

Like the good friend he is, he offers to help you gather and compile evidence so that when you do involve the authorities they won’t turn you away on account of a lack of solid evidence. Heizou really does want to help you. He’s completely genuine in his approach, but there is the side of him that’s happy to know you’re so vulnerable and easy to manipulate. Which makes him sound like such a terrible person! Really, he’s a sweetheart. You have to trust his handsome face! Heizou is just…conflicted. He’s liked you for a while now—nearly a year if he’s counting properly—and the fact that your history with Kuni and Kuni’s most recent actions are tainting your view of romance… It makes it harder for him to charm you. If you’re constantly guarded, how can he possibly slip through the cracks in your heart? Kuni’s ruining everything for him.

But Heizou has a plan. He’ll be your supportive net—the one to hold you up when you can’t stand—and he’ll work effortlessly to unravel Kuni’s terrible plot so that he can be permanently removed from your life. And once he’s gone, there won’t be anymore roadblocks and Heizou will finally get to have you for himself. He’ll show you that good guys exist—that he’s one of them! After all, he’ll know exactly how to act and what not to say or do because he has an extensive record of all Kuni’s done, both according to your retelling of events and his observations. You’ve just given him the cheat code to your heart, and he’s determined to use it to show you every good side he has to offer. Anything that isn’t so savory will be hidden under layers of sweetness. Heizou’s good at keeping secrets and even better at comprehending the complexities of the human mind. He knows just how to paint a friendly, disarming image of himself.

[prettycottagequeer]

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[jennycalendar]

rather loquacious but ultimately cheerful writing-creative-thoughts post under the cut :'D

i do know that part of developing a readership is writing consistently over a long span of time, but the switch is really making me sort of simultaneously aware of and affectionate towards the readership i developed while writing for jenny :') got very used to the certainty of knowing there were quite a few people looking forward to what i would put out next, because of course there were! been doing that for eight years! so to switch tracks and realize i'm starting from scratch a little is kinda cool, now that i know what's going to happen. i am nothing if not consistent in my interests when i find them.

i am looking at these fic projects like yeah actually this is going to be the next few years For Sure. the thought of not finishing marigold's deal is truly unthinkable, in large part bc i made her! she exists in my head which means i totally have to finish this for her! which is ngl a lot more fun than writing a girl who isn't mine and who im holding together w scotch tape.

was talking to my bonus mom about the diff btwn writing mari + my girls / writing jenny. jenny was very much mine inasmuch as jenny didn't really exist within the narrative, sooooo really anyone trying to write jenny kinda HAS to go a little oc with it to write anything substantial. but mari is all mine. home grown. as are so many of the girls who surround her.

it's a really special and exciting shift and it's fun to sort of have this slow roll-out! to have her bleed into here and know that someday people will get to know her :') to have the time and space to just be silly with it without readership anxieties.

idk man im just feeling a lot. i went crazyyyy trying to write for some imaginary gold medal. i think i really stopped enjoying writing prior to the fandom track switch because i was just soooo stubbornly entrenched in this idea of not letting go ever, to prove some sort of point to someone, or to myself, but sometimes letting go is necessary and important and lovely. you're allowed to put things down when you feel like you're done with them. and it's so fucking wonderful to be in the middle of exploring literally everything without any worries about how good i am at it! i am doing this For Fun. i am doing so many things For Fun lately.