#believe me or not watching a movie takes a LOT 4 me. i need insane motivation or needz 2 b dragged around physically usually by my friendz.

[malewifemaki]

Ahhh the increasing amount of maki fanartz after the movie release is just so crazy..... ... Nature is healing..,... ..

[lover-of-mine]

I just saw someone genuinely argue "as a Buddie shipper" (which I don't believe) that Buddie shouldn't happen because: their close friendship is too important, the text of the show doesn't support Eddie being gay the way it supports Buck being bi, Eddie is "not ready", and that Ryan Guzman plays Eddie "too straight" to be able to pull off acting Buddie and this feels like to me someone who doesn't actually ship Buddie but is claiming to cause they think it'll give them more credibility in criticizing it.

1) if I see one more argument about how their close male friendship is too important because of toxic masculinity and that making it romantic would ruin it I'm going to lose my marbles because this is the dumbest take. TV is FULL of vulnerable platonic male friendships - 9-1-1 is FULL of them. Also them becoming romantic does not mean they would no longer be friends.

2) So we're just pretending queer-coding doesn't exist now okay.

3) I'm sick to death of the argument of Eddie not being ready. When is he allowed to be ready??? Does he have to suffer for a decade before he's allowed to figure things out??

4) They have to be watching the show with their eyes closed to think Ryan Guzman who has been playing Eddie "Heart Eyes" Diaz for 6 seasons couldn't pull off Buddie.

I'm gonna talk about all points, but the Eddie is too straight thing drives me INSANE. Four months ago, if I said "oh, Eddie is straight, no way buddie is happening" I would have whole essays on how he's gay thrown my way before I hit post. We're talking about a character who had panic attacks about his girlfriend. Who this season had literal erectile dysfunction with another girlfriend. There is no heterosexual explanation for the way Eddie was looking at Buck during the poker game. That man looks at Buck like he's the sun, the sky, the stars, and the moon. Like Buck is somehow the best thing he ever laid eyes on. Yeah, there are threads to pull. With Buck. We only need Eddie to be into one man. And boy, do we have threads to pull there. And honestly, if you wanna see Ryan play painfully straight men, go watch anything else in his filmography, that man knows how to act painfully straight. It's not what he's doing with Eddie. This narrative that Ryan is somehow sabotaging buddie's chances is so beyond ridiculous. Personally, I don't subscribe to Eddie being strictly gay, but I legit don't care anymore as long as he's out of the closet soon give him whatever label, but even if there weren't threads to pull to make it seem like Eddie is in love with Buck, and there are a lot of them, this idea that Eddie being gay is only valid if he's a stereotypical gay man from the beginning is NUTS. Why does gay have to look a specific way to be valid for y'all? This is such a harmful point of view. You want rep but it needs to fit in this one specific box or else it's not valid? What is wrong with you?

The male friendship thing, please tell me where are we lacking vulnerable male friendships in media? Media is made of male friendships. Everything everywhere is about male characters. And Buck and Eddie dating would not negate their friendship all of a sudden. Yall do realize you're supposed to like the person you're dating, right? Isn't literally everyone on the planet telling everyone to marry their best friend? How would that ruin their friendship? It just makes them a stronger couple because they have that foundation. And there literally isn't a show or movie that had two guy best friends who weren't introduced as queer who started dating. Literally, does not exist in media, how would losing exactly one friendship suddenly destroy male friendship representation everywhere? And we weren't even be losing the friendship, the friendship is gonna be a core part of buddie forever. You want strong male friendships? Go watch literally anything else. Every procedural ever has two guy best friends. Go watch house, any of the ncis, h50, the one chicago shows, hell, go watch lord of the rings or something, there are so many male friendships in media. No one is gonna die if Buck and Eddie kiss.

And the whole Eddie not being ready thing. Are we watching the same show? The show where madney started while Maddie was running for her life or bathena started while Bobby was actively suicidal? Or that even henren was presented to us when Hen cheated? Buck's own definition of love is "So every day is the best day ever. Is that really love? Right? Shouldn't it be when you're at your worst, they're at their worst, you have every reason to give up, and you still decide you want to try again?" loving someone at their lowest is the definition of love for that show. It's working through the bad to appreciate the good. And again, this idea that someone needs to be healed to be worthy of love is fucked UP. Eddie is never gonna be fully healed. Recovery isn't linear and he has ptsd. He will forever grieve Shannon. Does that mean he's never gonna be allowed to be loved because he is a human being who has been through hell? What does it take for someone to be "ready for love", huh? What's the threshold here? He was in a helicopter that was shot down and got shot 3 times, he was abandoned by a wife he later was forced to watch die, he was shot at again in broad daylight, he watched his best friend die and had to save him, his own parents just stole his kid. What does he have to do to prove that he is worthy of love, how does he have to handle all that? What I'm getting here is that someone who's been through shit can't be loved, is that the message we're sending? Really? No one seriously wants Buck and Eddie to open season 8 dating, but they are partners and best friends and they don't have to have everything figured out before they go there, they can figure it out together, they do it together anyway. Why can't they take that step and figure things out as a couple? Jesus.

[connabeth]

that was the best episode by FAR and here’s why:

1. annabeth instinctually knowing he’s alive and refusing to lose her faith in him even when grover didn’t believe so.

2. the hug. the overwhelming relief on her face. his pleasantly surprised reaction. us being able to see everything visually click in grover’s head once he realized what he’s in for. percy teasing her about it when they’re hiding on the highway bc he assumes that’s why she’s being standoffish. grover heaving and rolling his eyes when percy suggests that. i can already envision the MoA parallels in my head of them running to each other.

3. percy and annabeth referring to each other as friends on multiple occasions like FINALLY you’re getting it

4. percy telling annabeth and grover about his revelation that the quest goes deeper than they think and annabeth and grover being light years ahead of him

5. percy’s renewed faith in his father contrasted with annabeth’s dwindling faith in her mother

6. annabeth seeing the fates cut a string and mentally preparing herself to sacrifice herself for her friends and the quest bc she’s so ride or die for them it’s insane even if she’ll deny it and say it’s for the sake of the quest.

7. none of them talking to gods with the deference they’re supposed to. annabeth cooly staring down ares like she couldn’t be blasted to smithereens.

8. annabeth casually mentioning she’s never seen a movie ever to an appalled percy, speaking to how sheltered camp life has been for the last 5 years, making her unaware of general pop culture. percy promising to catch her up on what she’s missing out on. cut to their interrupted botl movie date that’s most definitely not a date. cut to MoA when she mentions roman holiday is her favorite movie bc she watched it a lot with her dad after they somewhat reconciled…also due in part to percy.

9. annabeth getting distracted by the beauty of the machine at the entrance while percy thinks he is actively going to die. her love for design will never not be endearing.

9. percy and annabeth riding down the tunnel of love seeing hephaestus’s story play out and annabeth insisting that sally prepared him the best way she could’ve—with unwavering loyalty to his loved ones, the antithesis to the gods.

10. annabeth being so ready to sacrifice herself for him, especially after probably being ridden with guilt and self-hatred for letting him get the best of her at the gateway arch, and understanding he would never let her do that. his pure faith in her as being the most capable—“You’re better at this than me. You just are.” with the utmost conviction in his voice. both of them tearing up and percy begging her to do what he originally chose her on the quest for. annabeth fighting back every instinct within her that despises standing back and letting someone else take the fall. him turning to her and saying “i need you to promise me something” and her immediately swearing if she’s able to save anyone on this quest, it’ll be his mother, knowing that’s the most important thing to him in all of this. him asking she come back for him and her scoffing “you think you had to ask?” and his sad watery smile back, knowing he didn’t need to….ALSO the ever-iconic “seaweed brain”. PEAK cinema i’m telling you

11. percy trusting annabeth with riptide as his parting gift and thing to give her strength and remember him by. paralleled with how she’ll (hopefully) untie her camp necklace and tie it around his neck before his final fight with ares as a token of good luck and entrusting him with the home she wore around her throat…

12. the well-written conversations with the gods, though unexpected. grover being FAR more clever than he’s given credit for, manipulating ares’s tendency towards anger, bitterness, and pride to get what he wanted out of him. annabeth rejecting hephaestus’s promises of power and glory and the renewal of her mother’s favoritism and pride, something annabeth used to crave with her entire heart. annabeth echoing to hephaestus what she said to percy in the tunnel about him not being like the rest of their godly family and telling the god that she refuses to be like them too. that the way they treat each other and their children isn’t right, the same way percy insisted to her last episode. hephaestus being one of the only gods capable of empathizing with her and telling her “you’re a good kid, annabeth. i’ll put in a good word with your mom for you.” no one speak to me i’m unwell

13. timothy omundson in general…although i keep hearing him as lassie in my head 😭

14. ares negging on them and warning percy his dad’s mind is as fickle as the sea itself and percy won’t be able to hold down his father’s favor and percy responding by threatening the literal god of war in the most percy-like fashion

15. ares didn’t call twitter X. but now we know who’s behind the mentally ill stan wars

things they really didn’t need to change:

1. the one thing i am really miffed about it is them robbing thief annabeth from my cold, dead hands. i wanted to see her raid a store without a second thought and be a little gremlin!!! she has hermes’s influence all over her (thanks luke/being a runaway), let us see it!!!

2. percy and annabeth being slightly awkward at the entrance of the thrill ride of love didn’t carry the same humor as the book scene because they’re such children about it in tlt and annabeth is extremely flustered but we don’t see that here.

3. aphrodite’s scarf. it was a fun detail they could’ve kept. seeing percy making heart eyes would’ve been funny (and maybe a glimpse into future seasons)

4. percy seeing a clip of gabe being gabe and saying “im going to kill him” is merely a NUGGET of the hatred we should be seeing from percy for that man. especially in area’s presence which feeds off of and amplifies everybody’s anger and hatred and bloodlust. there still needs to be more build up to turning gabe to stone at the end of all this

5. percy blacking out from using his powers to get him and annabeth out of the water. while he’s nowhere close to being a master at his craft at this point in the books, and he is known to lose control, even as a more seasoned warrior, i don’t think what he did warranted a blackout. i feel like they’re underselling his innate strength a little bit.

6. overall, although it kind of worked out, there was just a lot of plot deviation from the books—grover not going to waterland, no mechanical spiders, percy and annabeth not jumping out the ride into free fall and being saved by grover wearing maia, although they crash into a billboard etc etc.

[sarcasticsra]

I cannot stress enough how much everyone should watch Starkid’s A VHS Christmas Carol if you haven’t seen it yet. It’s pretty short, only about 45 minutes, and it’s truly one of the best adaptations of A Christmas Carol that I’ve ever seen.

No, seriously. I think it has even surpassed The Muppets Christmas Carol for me. That has been my favorite Christmas movie since I was a child. My mom and sister and I used to watch it every Christmas Eve. I still love it dearly and it is an amazing adaptation that I’ll defend to my death, but you guys. You guys. A VHS Christmas Carol is just THAT GOOD.

It’s done in the style of 80s music/videos, which is delightful. It’s an opera, so it’s all sung through, which I love. And it’s so good!

Let me enumerate the ways. Spoilers to follow. (Can you spoil A Christmas Carol? Once a story becomes public domain does that exempt it from spoiling? Idk, lol. Spoilers for the show, anyway. Also for Avatar: The Last Airbender. …I promise there’s a path.)

1) Bah Humbug! - Song number one and it goes hard right from the start. It is everything an opening number should be. Dynamic, sets the tone, and an incredible fucking bop. The interactions between Scrooge and Fred and Scrooge and Bob are done so well, too. You so quickly get a sense of their characters. Obviously we know their characters because this is a story that has been told many a time before, but it does it so well that you would immediately get them even if you were an alien who had never in your existence been exposed to A Christmas Carol in any capacity. That’s impressive to me. It’s not relying on the familiarity of the story to do its character work.

2) 3 Spirits - I love the tone of this song. This is a Marley with true regret and pain who is absolutely pleading with Scrooge to take the chance he’s being given. It’s less “scared straight” and more, “I need you to understand this like you’ve never understood anything before.” Marley becomes a character in his own right as opposed to merely a backdrop for Scrooge to react to. That’s a theme with this adaptation. Characters who are pretty flat in a lot of adaptations seem so much more like real people in this one. Also, whoever decided to cast Meredith as Marley here is a fucking genius. She’s so goddamn talented and she really shines here. The emotion, the weight. Gah. Beautiful. The interplay between Marley and Scrooge is incredible as well; these are two insanely talented performers breathing a new life into tried and true characters, and you really feel the relationship between them.

3) I’m The Ghost - Christmas Past is so pointed and snarky and incredible, making Scrooge come to certain realizations. “Huh, little boy left all alone. Oh, your sister died so young. Didn’t she have a son though? Why are the employees so happy, this party didn’t cost much? Thinking of something? Okay, last stop, buckle up, it’s all your own doing.” I love it so much.

4) That Scrooge - You guys. You guys. They’ve done what I assumed was impossible. They’ve done what even the Muppets couldn’t. It’s a Scrooge-Belle breakup song that isn’t the most unbelievably boring and bland thing you’ve ever heard in your life. Belle is a fucking person! She has a personality! She’s very clearly stating her case, that he’s changed and she doesn’t like it and does he have anything to say? No? Okay, bye! THE EMOTION IN THIS SONG. Scrooge starts singing not just with her but to her! All the things he didn’t say before! And then he starts singing angrily about/at his past!self for being an idiot! You actually FEEL THINGS about this relationship. It was a deep love and losing it super fucked him up! I have never before seen Belle/Scrooge done as well as this one (1) song handles it.

5) Christmas Electricity - Get ready to have this song stuck in your head for ten thousand years. This song is, I believe, the standard classical definition of “a fuckin’ bop.” It’s so high energy and exciting, you really can understand how Scrooge gets so caught up in it himself. You also see more of Fred in this song and, again, he’s a person! He has specific motivations for why he keeps reaching out to Scrooge. Corey’s Fred is hands down one of the best performances of this character full stop. He took what is usually a bit, side character and made him a full human with understandable thoughts and feelings. They gave the Fred-Scrooge relationship such incredible emotional weight because of it. I think that’s one of my favorite aspects of this adaptation.

6) Priceless - Here we see the Cratchits enjoying their Christmas with an incredibly sweet song about having little but feeling like they have a lot. I really like the way this song feels a bit cheesy (goes with the whole 80s vibe) but they also feel like a real family with some silliness and some sweetness and Bob’s wife having very strong opinions about Scrooge that he’s too polite for. Also “listen to this key change out of the bridge” goddamn just show off constantly how freaking talented this entire cast is, why don’t you.

7) The Final Ghost - I probably have too much to say about this song. It’s my favorite, which considering this entire show is pitch fucking perfect, is really saying a lot. Dylan Saunders is truly one of the most talented performers I’ve ever seen, and his Scrooge is so, so good. It really shines through here. His interactions with Christmas Future show him mirroring Bob from earlier (he has a line that’s almost an exact quote of a line from Bob in Bah Humbug!), correcting himself, and trying to be respectful/humble. Subtle displays of emotional growth even before he gets to the truly scary parts. The song is of course a darker tone, as is correct for this part of the narrative, perfectly setting up the finale song. We get Scrooge overhearing about a funeral no one cares about, the same man being robbed after death, and this death bringing actual happiness to people. Throughout it all so far Christmas Future only speaks in a wordless melody, as is apt. Scrooge asks for tenderness connected to death and is shown the Cratchits mourning Tiny Tim, which breaks him, and he asks who the dead man was from earlier. Still wordless, Christmas Future leads him to a cemetery, and that wordless melody perfectly transforms into an eerie, ethereal, “Ebenezer Scrooge.” The fucking amount of sheer EMOTION Dylan packs into Scrooge pleading for his soul, that he is changed, and the final bit of narration… fuck, you guys, it’s so good. I love all of the “scene” parts of this song so much. It all builds so perfectly.

7a) The narrator. - This isn’t a specific song, I just want to call out how excellent the narrator is through the whole show and how perfectly the narration ties the whole show together. It’s one of those things where it goes unnoticed because it’s so perfect, but if it were bad you would definitely notice. You need it to be there and understated or a lot a falls apart, but it can be such hard balance to strike. This show nails it.

8) Christmas Day - The finale! And what a finale it is! The energy is a perfect contrast to the song before it as Scrooge delights in being alive and having time to make things right. His joy is palpable as he goes about his day, buying Bob a huge turkey, making an incredible donation to the charity he blew off the day before, and showing up at Fred’s. Guys. This scene. Especially when I watch the live, but even sometimes just via the soundtrack, this scene just fucking perfectly, beautifully guts me. You know how in Avatar: The Last Airbender, Zuko has to go on his whole narrative arc to eventually join the right side, and along the way sort of betrays his Uncle Iroh, aka the only good father figure he’s ever had, because he’s a traumatized teenager, and eventually he meets back up with him and starts stumbling out an apology and Iroh just sweeps him up in a hug without a word, and you sob because it’s perfect? That is the energy present in this, what, 15-second scene, just this incredible emotional buildup and payoff accomplished in a scant 45-minute runtime. It’s truly wondrous. The finale, as all true finales should, calls back musically to previous character beats, and ends on the perfect bookend to the opening number. It’s just so, so immensely satisfying.

Tl;dr - this musical has made me feel more Christmas-y than I have in a long, long time, and I have listened to little else in terms of music since I watched it two weeks ago. (It was literally the only music I had listened to since then until right now, and that’s only because I’m in a van on a road trip to my sister-in-law’s for Christmas. While I would have been perfectly content to listen to this soundtrack on repeat for the entire 8-hour drive, I also recognize that the four other people in this van do not have my particular flavor of hyperfixated ADHD brain and probably would not appreciate that, heh. Thus I played it once and then other music. Compromise!)

But yes. Seriously. It’s so good. Gah. Go watch it!

[agaypanic]

honestly, that 90s show isn't that bad! of course it'll never hit like the original but personally i like the different elements they add. and i absolutely love the new cast, i think they just need time (i fully believe this next season is that time) to build up the character chemistry.

getting to see a taping of the first ep of season 2 was also amazing, the cast is so sweet and i feel bad abt the unnecessary hate they get tbh. they are funny and work well with each other

i think it's worth giving a try though! as long as you don't spend the time constantly comparing it to the OG show, you'll have a good time watching. and the new cast does a phenomenal job at capturing the 90s essence too.

(personally Jay kelso has my heart, mace coronel captures the kelso genes so fucking well it's insane.)

and even if you weren't to care for the new cast (which is lowk a crime) the reoccurring characters from t70ss are also cool to see and fit like they never left.

(lmao sorry for the whole ass essay i am just an avid t70ss and t90ss enjoyer and love to encourage ppl to actually take the time to watch t90ss without being so negative.)

i think i might just be autistic bruh (pls no one be like “don’t self diagnose” “blah blah blah”. not only do you not know me or how i act irl, but autism and many other disorders are under researched in women compared to men and it is therefore a lot harder for women to get diagnosed and/or taken seriously) i have such a hard time watching new shows/movies. i think ive watched malcolm in the middle (im literally malcolm y’all, he’s me and im him) and that 70s show at least 4 times each in the past few years

i think that’s partially why i don’t watch many spin offs or reimagines of shows/movies (only exception i can think of rn are those hercule poirot movies, they slap) like i still need to watch chilling adventures of sabrina but not only am i too busy to invest myself in a show like that, but i also really liked sabrina the teenage witch and i know the two shows have very different vibes (don’t tell me i have to watch it, im already planning on watching it lol i just don’t know when😭)

considering it’s getting a second season instead of getting canceled like other netflix originals (or that 80s show pffft) shows that it’s a pretty decent/well received show. and based on the trailer for the show i know ill probably like it. i just hate change🥴

[toomanyfandomsthings]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

OOOO thank you so much for asking, I've never been asked that before! ✨️😃✨️ It's not a top 10 in any particular order (except for number 1, that one is number 1 😂), but mostly the characters who have impacted me a lot or have a special place in my heart right now. Also I'm terribly ineloquent, so please bear with my while I try to make sense -

1.) Aki Hayakawa (Chainsaw Man)

Oooooh my God, where do I start? XD This one was easy because Aki is like my favorite of favorite characters in anything 😁 Such a sweet, caring, protective figure who doesn't see himself as any of those things. He's such a heartbreakingly realistic portrayal of how someone can be self-destructive and I love seeing his dynamics with the cast start to change the way he views and values himself. I love how his instinct to be a big brother shows itself in small ways that don't get directly pointed out - to avoid manga spoilers, I'll point to the scene with Denji in the hospital where Aki makes him the apple bunnies - and just the little ways that he shows he cares for people. I think stuff with him later on in the story is some of the most well written and heartbreaking stuff I've ever read, and I genuinely think he's a wonderfully different take on the revenge plot line. I also have like...way too many figures of him...and plushies...and acrylic stands...and key chains.....and a snow globe I got from Hot Topic- I just love him a lot! 😂💕

2.) Ken Kaneki (Tokyo Ghoul)

I have a little less to say on this one because I haven't read Tokyo Ghoul in a long time so I'm a bit fuzzy on plot details. 😅 But I read Tokyo Ghoul in college at a time where I really needed it and saw a lot of myself in Kaneki. He's such a sweetheart and such a deeply lonely character, and the ways he changes over the course of the story, for better and for worse, are absolutely brilliant and tragic 🥲💕 And I love how, throughout all of these shifts in personality and role in the story, he still feels so distinctly Kaneki. Like, in spite of how cruel and difficult things get, the sweet, book-loving college student is still recognizably there. Kaneki Ken did nothing wrong 😂 Also I wrote a far more eloquent 35 page paper on Kaneki as my final thesis paper for college, soooo that speaks to my affection for him 😂

3.) Felix Hugo Fraldarius (Fire Emblem: Three Houses)

There's gonna be a lot of Fire Emblem characters here, I'm so sorry XD But I love Felix so so much! He's a tough personality and admittedly can be incredibly harsh when it's not called for, but he's given so much reasoning as to why he has this attitude and it makes him such an engaging character to watch. He cares so much for everyone around him and just for the life of him cannot communicate that, nor does he want to admit it to himself for fear of losing them like he did his brother. He works so hard to be stronger than his brother so he can protect everyone, to the point where, definitely post-timeskip, he's long since reached that goal but still refuses to believe it. He's a caring soul who's taken on a lot at a young age and has suffered a lot more than he cares to acknowledge. He's also insanely smart (which he is never given credit for in-game which is a crime) and an absolute monster of a unit and is good at basically anything you try to teach him, so he's also just objectively cool 😂

4.) Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd (Fire Emblem: Three Houses)

Same as Felix, I love Dimitri so so so much 🥲 I think his character arc is so beautifully written (if you couldn't tell, I favor the Blue Lions quite a bit XD) and he's just such an absolute sweetie who's been through entirely too much. I love how protective he is of his loved ones and how the weight of all that he's been through wears on him in big and small ways (I think of little things like his lack of a sense of taste, which you only find out in his support with Flayn, which then recontextualizes little moments like Felix commenting on Dimitri acting like he dislikes the food at meal times and ahhh the character writing in 3H is so good). Also, I am partial to sweet characters becoming absolutely unhinged (see #2 😂) so I knew I'd like Dimitri almost immediately XD Didn't know he'd break my heart as much as he did though 😂

5.) Kaoru Sakurayashiki/Cherry Blossom (SK8 the Infinity)

Cherry is so great, what a truly insufferable person (affectionate) 😂 He's such a brat and I love his dynamic with Joe so much. They argue in the kind of way you only could with someone you've known your whole life, and they clearly love each other and always look out for one another. Also, the interviews with Utsumi which say that he's also anxious and a generally lonely person break my heart, and also inform why he's *always* at Joe's restaurant. He also clearly cares for the little skateboarder family they've made and i love that he takes on a sort of mentor/parental role for the kids. Also what an absolutely chaotic idea for a character - a formerly emo/punk, professional calligrapher who also designs robots and helped establish an illegal skating competition to which he attends in a ninja costume with his AI skateboard - I love him 😂💕 He's also got an amazing character design, like, I want to be him 😂

6.) Zelkov (Fire Emblem Engage)

ZELKOVV I love him so much, he is the character currently occupying my brain the most. 💕 Much of what I've said before, such a sweetheart. I love the way the portray his mental health struggles through his need to constantly have a pursuit or task or hobby to keep his mind occupied, and how it eventually resolves with him opening an orphanage (which is such a perfect resolution for his character 🥲) He's such a caretaker at heart, and I think it's so interesting how that is juxtaposed with his past as an assassin. Plus I think coming into a revenge plotline 10 years after the revenge has been had is just such an interesting take on it. I dunno I just love him so much I could go on for ages but I'll stop here...kinda

7.) Kagetsu (Fire Emblem Engage)

And I say kinda because Zelkov and Kagetsu are inseparable in my mind 😂 I love Kagestu, what an absolute cinnamon roll! 💕 Such a sweet, silly little friend! He's so eager to make friends, almost to a fault. I'd hazard a guess that after leaving his family, not knowing if he could ever go back or if they'd even want him to come back, the eagerness to make friends is sort of a coping thing - trying to reaffirm that he's not alone and that there are people who like him. I love his dynamic with Zelkov and Ivy - he draws the two of them out of their shells and gives them the direct and clear love and affection they need, and in turn they reassure him that he is cared for and give him a place where he is truly content and happy 🥲 He's just a genuine ray of sunshine with more depth than you'd think at first glance.

8.) Yuki Soma (Fruits Basket)

Yet another character that I feel directly called out by 😂 I love him so much, I love that he's such a kind person but doesn't view himself as such because he way overthinks about the nature of what "being kind" is. I love his arc about learning how to better yourself little by little and taking small steps to change; I really find it so inspiring 💕 His backstory episode ruined me for the rest of the day, I literally couldn't sleep that night after I watched it.

9.) Lukas (Fire Emblem Echoes: Shadows of Valentia)

This is my weird pick, but I still think about Lukas and the game came out when I was just starting college XD So kind and so caring, but still very pragmatic and reliable. I think his self reflection on how he feels he may be emotionally broken is so fascinating and relatable, and I love how his support with Python and his ending resolve it in a very satisfying way (I teared up when I saw his ending when I beat the game, though I also may have been going through something at the time XD) His big brother energy to Alm and the kids is also very endearing (especially him and Alm in the Drama CD oh my God) I'm not explaining it well, but I need to give this sweet depressed fellow a hug! 💕

10.) Megumi Fushiguro (Jujutsu Kaisen)

Ahhhh my son, my sweet boy who can't catch a break 🥲 So kind, so caring, so unable to see his own self worth 🥲 Like Aki, I like how the show points out his character flaw maybe once or twice, but it's showed off in dozens of more subtle ways if you pay close attention. I love how kind he is, how much he cares even though he struggles to display it, how he's got a self-admitted flawed sense of what justice is and how, like Kaneki and Dimitri, he's also sliiiightly unhinged XD

Hugs, hugs for all of these characters 😂❤️ Also sorry, I kind of went off, iiiiii got excited 😂 I also left out a bunch of characters because I didn't want it all to be Fire Emblem characters 😂 Thank you so much for asking!!

[blaintism]

what's your ranking of the klaine seasons? (like, how much you like the klaine storylines for each season)

oooo this is a toughie because i like some seasons a lot for different reasons

1. season six. NOW THIS SOUNDS INSANE PROBABLY. i know a lot of people despise the season six breakup but i LOVE IT. i think it was so necessary for them to split and come back with some character development and the angst is perfect. especially because it’s mainly on kurt’s side, and i love seeing kurt actively pursue blaine when he’s been sort of just coasting along for a bit at this point, caring but in season five being too emotionally exhausted to put in very much effort. i love seeing him confront his fear of vulnerability and opening up to other people by being so straightforward with blaine right away that he wants him back. it makes so much sense for what was established about kurt even way back in season two, that he believe he has to go through hardship alone, and he was closing out blaine in the wake of losing his brother, being in the hospital etc. it makes him purposely getting blaine to sing with him and running to his house to tell him that he loves him SOOO good. on the flip side with blaine, i know this is where people have issues but i love that he’s seeing someone else, that he’s happy with it, that he’s been able to pick himself up and move on (with therapy! both of them got therapy) because he had this opposite struggle of people pleasing and clinging too hard and resisting change. and in season six he’s such a BITCH. like he’s still a little muffin but he’ll also storm into the auditorium and yell at kurt for taking one of his students, he’ll refuse to go easy on them, he’ll even insult rachel a little (“huh that’s so unlike you”). and finally, that scene outside rachel’s house is one of my favorites in the entire show. everything they say, reminiscing, and blaine kissing him suddenly. it’s EVERYTHING. i just love the longing. kurt glancing over during Home or crying and them flashing a bunch of clips during Will you still love me tomorrow/head over feet. blaine seeing them as warblers during it’s too late. I WROTE ALL THIS AND DIDNT EVEN MENTION THE HURT LOCKER. best ep ever

2. season two. this is the cliched favorite but i can never not have love for those two sad little sweet kids. i love that first meeting so much and how meaningful it all is for kurt. that he’s finally found someone who understands him. who he can have feelings for without being seen as crossing some line. who will hold his hand and dance with him at prom. it’s way more kurt focused but also i DO love blaine, especially the bit we get about his dad and the sadie hawkins incident, an exercise in deepening his backstory they will never do when he’s a main character for some reason. especially prom queen is my favorite episode of the series and klaine are the best part.

3. season four. i guess i’m a break up stan? I love some yearning alright. and this has SO much. i think The Break Up (the episode) could be written a thousand times better but hey. we got all those songs from it. i love kurt trying to move on but still calling blaine, still loving blaine as well, spending christmas with him, and crying watching Their movie. especially come what may is just unlike anything else the show ever pulled for ANY couple. and that’s how you know klaine are the it couple!!!! and on blaine’s end it’s kind of the best blaine season??? the way he becomes Real and has interests and makes friends is so important to me personally. but i also love of course when kurt comes back and he’s like omg.. we need to get married. he’s crazy and i love it

4. season three. they’re adorable in this season. big brother is one of my fave episodes of all time, it’s an actual blaine plot filled with sweet sweet klaine moments. but the thing is there’s just moments? they don’t get much outside of the first time and dance with somebody, which are opposite ends of the season. hell, blaine is absent on valentine’s day 😭😭. i do like pretty much every scene they do have though. also the network censorship during this season is glaringly obvious to me.

5. season five. confession i’m a bit of a season five hater. i just get BORED. it’s not to say they don’t have their moments in this season. the proposal is the most beautiful scene. got to get you into my life is their best duet. they’re so cute living together in nyc. that scene in tested is probably what i use for gifsets more than anything else. but also they’re pretty separate the first half and i find some of the new york parts stressful (blaine’s crisis in tested) or unnecessary (the june plot).

anyways, i ended up saying a lot about each which i don’t know if you needed. 2, 4, 6 could probably shuffle around at different moments but this is how i feel rn

[meherya]

Let's talk about The Brothers Sun :)

I think, my number one gripe with this show was that, I could see the potential... there were scenes where you could see the insane shit this show could have pulled off if it was written by literally ANYONE else

The first thing that really made me go 🤨 watching this show was the incessant references to #diasporaasiankidtingz.. I'd understand if it was here or there as some sort of comedy relief... But no it was literally every other scene if not every scene....

From a cop adjacent character eating buldak noodles at an active crime scene, to teaching a Taiwanese gangster the hidden asian mom language... it was just so... stupid? Is the only way I could describe it, it's like someone compiled a number of posts from Facebook's Subtle Asian Traits page and structured the story and dialogue around that? Thought it was kind of funny that they remembered "Asian" doesn't just mean East Asian when they threw in random brown girl from the morgue...

Actingwise, Justin Chien is by no means a bad actor, every scene where he speaks in mandarin his acting is a lot less wooden than when his dialogue is english and I genuinely believe it's because of the rigid way they wrote his lines in english... as for everyone else.... Sam Song Li was rlly putting his whole bussy into his americanized first gen immigrant kid schtick and like whatever...

I found the concept of this top Triad guy coming to LA to look after his mom and brother after an assassination attempt on their father to be intriguing... his mom was as cool as I expected (her own fight scene... ofc she should've been head bitch in charge!!!) but ofc his brother would be a whitewashed loser!! But you know, it could've worked!!! It could've been interesting if they didn't have Bruce emulating Marvel movie comedy all the fucking time... But if you think about it too hard you might go, why would the son/best fighter of this Triad leave the whole business behind to look after his mom/brother and not take back up with him?? Some math was simply not mathing... but we move on

There's just a lot of points that don't make sense plotwise? Like oh so now this random cop girl is actually childhood besties with Charles?... And the way they try to force some semblance of chemistry between the two with them hamfisting by them just going back and forth like "remember when-"... and their flirting was gag worthy bc they had her speaking huskily for no reason?? It was really lifeless sort of interactions and they were really trying for the star crossed lovers bit but it simply did not work sorry.... It was kind of fucked because the tension between Drowsy and Charles in like 1/4 of an episode was 10 times whatever the cop girl and Charles had going on.... Though I do appreciate it how the show does go "once a rat, always a rat" bc she really fucked that man just to get a bust on him like woah!!! Of all my grievances with that lacklustre romance I do appreciate them not being together and her being loner loser at the end.

But anyways... I think the show did decent job at showing how trying to live up to a parent's expectations can break you as a person and force you into a role you dgaf about, and how it's important to also put your needs first before you become a shell of a person... But also they could have done it without being corny as fuck...

I think the plot with this underdog group of anti-Triads would have been soo good, if it was integrated better? Also Grace randomly approaching Bruce like we all knew she was gonna be a traitor... And like!! She wasn't wrong!! Their group was wasn't wrong!!! Why should the Triads exist when all they do is profit off others misery??? Like we are supposed to cheer on the Triads why? Because that's who we follow largely, and because of Bruce's bitchass.... He pissed me off soo bad by the end it's not even funny...

Think the show could have had merit if Bruce decided to join Grace after seeing old bald dude get killed, and realizing how fucked his family is... Him snitching to a group of people who want to murder your family, claiming that was him trying to save his family from themselves.... And believing them when they say okay well we'll try not to kill them but no promises... How are you a pre-med when you're that stupid lol

I was gonna write paragraph of how I wanted to see this go and how they could have factored in Charles being ordered to kill Bruce (which was fucking insane by the way, my fave episode of the series) to be even more wild but like it's marketed as a comedy so whatever but man it was fucking corny as shit with random gaping plot holes that we really dont want to think too long and hard about .... I will say tho, kudos for not having white people in this as love interests or sidekicks so!!!! So 2/5

also curious what Taiwanese ppl think about that scene where Bruce just calls Charles Chinese... Ik Taiwan and China got some beef, idk the specifics of it but 👀

[hacawijo]

My Top Ships of 2022 Countdown

10. Timmy and Zeta (Love Island USA) - Okay yes, this is a real-life couple, but the point of dating shows is to ship real-life couples, and Timmy and Zeta are the best. They both came into the show with the right balance of self-awareness and optimism, and they were by FAR the most mature and likable people on the show.

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9. Aaron and Bobby (Bros) - Definitely the rom-com couple of 2022! Aaron is cute, but Billy Eichner’s Bobby is definitely the reason I ship this couple so much. He’s a gifted comedian and actor, and it’s really cool to see the perpetually sarcastic Eichner playing a little earnest in this movie. The ship itself is well-developed and I particularly love their P-Town moments.

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8. Aloy and Kotallo (Horizon: Forbidden West) - This is the first of several crack ships on this list. Aloy is the protagonist in the Open-world RPG Horizon: Forbidden West and Kotallo is one of her companions. I love Aloy from the first game and she continues to be awesome in the second. Kotallo’s voice acting is deep and commanding (but not loud) and he’s a great blend of competent and tortured (like a cross between Rowan from Throne of Glass and Hunt Athalar from Crescent City) and I found many great fanfics to feed my interest in them together! Full disclosure, there’s no indication of romance between the two in the game and a lot of people speculate that Aloy may be queer or asexual.

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7. Rhaenyra and Alicent (HotD) - I’m sure I don’t need to expand on this too much given that House of the Dragon is a worldwide sensation. Needless to say, I think Olivia Cooke is incredible as older Alicent in the show, and there’s something incredibly tragic about the love they had for each other (platonic or romantic) being destroyed by the men around them. I do read a romantic undertone in their relationship, but I don’t know that either of them realizes it themselves.

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6. Bruce and Selina (The Batman) - The Batman was probably my favorite movie of 2022 and I loved the chemistry between Selina and Bruce. I’m glad that she’s more than a love interest for him - she has a real role in the story - and there’s something pretty lovely about how she teases Bruce because he’s so awkward. It makes sense that Bruce would be awkward in romantic interactions! He’s not a stud! He’s a traumatized man who has devoted all of his time to destroying crime in Gotham, of course he doesn’t know how to flirt! But it’s just even more endearing and a cool, (relatively) un-explored take on Batman.

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5. Draco and Hermione (Draco Malfoy and the Mortifying Ordeal of Falling in Love — among others) - It would be difficult for me to not include my OTP on this list. Not just because they’re my OTP, but also because the Dramione fanfic economy is incredible! New works are published and updated everyday, many of which are better quality than a lot of published novels. Draco Malfoy and the Mortifying Ordeal of Falling in Love was my absolute favorite - incredibly well-written, with a believable and multilayered interpretation of both Draco and Hermione’s characterization. Unfortunately the slow burn is agonizing, and the fluffy part of me wishes there was more time in the story where they’re truly together, but it’s a great story. Below illustration by @elivrayn - who is insanely talented!

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4. Janine and Gregory (Abbott Elementary) - Janine and Gregory are like those two friends you have that would be perfect for each other and who deserve to be a lot happier than they are. Obviously the show has to keep up a will-they-or-won’t-they dynamic— it’s practically a requirement of sitcoms like Abbott Elementary thanks to Jim and Pam from The Office — but that doesn’t make it any less frustrating to watch them dance around each other! I love the characters, the actors, and the show, and I won’t be surprised if I eventually rank them among my favorite TV sitcom couples.

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3. Lidia and Ruhn (House of Sky and Breath) - HOSAB came out at the beginning of the year and so I almost forgot about this great new ship! Their couple name (NightBright) is fire, their circumstances are beautifully tragic, and Lydia is especially a fascinating new character in the series. Ruhn was already a fan-fave, so SJM probably knew she needed to DELIVER for his ship. Their relationship is particularly aesthetic and ethereal, and the cliffhanger at the end of HOSB is so incredibly heart wrenching, maybe more so than any other couple SJM has ever written. by @sncinder - INCREDIBLE

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2. Leighton and Alicia (Sex Lives of College Girls) - So this might technically be more of a 2021 ship, but things DID happen for them in 2022 AND I only watched season one this year. Leighton is one of the best characters on the show and following her journey of understanding privilege through season 1 feels pretty realistic, as does her hesitance to come out of the closet and it’s affect on her relationship with Alicia, whom she loves. In Season 2 she does come out and has a whirlwind semester, only to realize in the end that she doesn’t want to be in a sorority or date someone who is close-minded and rude (RIP Leighton and Tatum). She and Alicia reunite and even in just those last two episodes she seems SO MUCH HAPPIER. I love them.

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1. Hannah and Fox (Hook, Line, and Sinker) - My number 1 for 2022 really just couldn’t be anything but Hannah and Fox. It Happened One Summer by Tessa Bailey was lovely, such a great read, especially because Piper feels a lot more fleshed out than many female romantic leads. That being said, it’s Hannah and Fox’s love story (a sequel to Piper and Brendan’s) that truly blew me out of the water. Fox’s grappling with the expectations of the people around him and the way he’s constantly over sexualized by everyone around him is heartbreaking. People expected him to be a player and so he played into their expectations because it felt better than being rejected for trying to have something real. Hannah and Fox are so completely lovely, and their ending is perfect. It’s refreshing to read a het romance where the woman is ultimately the one who feels more self-assured about who they are and the one who is positioned to do the big romantic gesture, even if she doesn’t see it as such.

Honorable Mentions/Ship Seeds of 2022

Ithan and the Fendyr heir from House of Sky and Breath

Sandman and Johanna Constantine from Sandman

James and Erin from Derry Girls

[theangryjikooker]

I'm not really a vminie, other than that I enjoy their bond and sometimes blink several times in amazement at them, but if I could maybe build a little on what your last anon asked and maybe throw a few of my big vmin eyebrow raises into your ask box to maybe start a discussion? I honestly think it's really healthy for jikook shippers/believers/whatevers to get into the weeds on vmin ship tumblr or twt. You could pick any ship for what I'm about to explain, but taekookers tend to be explicitly nasty, yoonminers just straight up explicit, and the rest of the ships just don't have the presence to create a good deep dive (except for maybe namjin? who wants namjin deep dive blog recs?) But vminies are mostly normal. They think their ship is in love (or at least used to-- huge drop off in those blogs and twt accounts posting in the past year or so, for obvious reasons) and they base their theories around that. They're rarely super disparaging towards the other members, and the vmin bond is so open that they don't need to really create insane theories. They just vibe. They also seem to be handling the more recent proof that their ship isn't real extraordinarily well without falling into delusion. I would say none of the other big bts ships would do the same. (and I have proof tkkers wouldn't). But for anyone who really thinks Jikook is real (I'm like 75/25 myself), I think it's valuable to look another narrative, with a lot of genuine contradictions in it to the 'standard' jikook one, straight in the face and take in how perspective can change something. It's healthy. These spaces so quickly fall into echo chambers.

off the top of my head, my big vmin eyebrow raises:

vmin have zero physical boundaries. open affection, sometimes truly bafflingly so. all over eachother and almost never pull away. (jikooker: of course they don't pull away, they're not hiding anything. do you see the way jimin leaned so naturally into jk but then saw the camera--. vminie: vmin go 2 seconds without touching eachother challenge failed)

they literally acted out being boyfriends on more than one occasion (jikooker: it was s roleplay! you know how tae is! vminie: they're trying to tell us!)

4'oclock, scenery, and sweet night. 4'oclock is explicitly about jimin and has been confirmed so on MULTIPLE occasions by the members. That in and of itself is insane (i wrote a long long letter to the moon one night but it wasn't as beautiful as you PLUS namjoon's moonlight movie ref, whew), but if you then look at the lyrics to scenery and sweet night the lyrical parallels and common themes paint a pretty crazy picture. Vastly beyond any song jikookers have ever managed to tie to their ship, except for maybe the serendipity i am you you are me. (jikooker: tae is just a lazy songwriter of course he's using the same themes, you don't know his live. vminie: LOOK AT HIM ALL HIS SONGS ARE JIMIN CODED HES CRAZY)

I also think jikookers could use a solid rewatch of older bangtan content. I'm watching BV2 right now and the amount of time that Jimin spends hanging off Tae/they spend together is truly incredible. In Jikook spaces all I got out of it was a few scattered fragments of interaction (Jungkook spends WAY more time gravitating towards Seokjin in Hawaii at least by my read)

Do I think vmin is real? No, for obvious reasons. But I think paying attention to the way a ship can generate these narratives is important for all shippers.

Co-signed 100%. I always find discussing Jikook and Vmin and the difference in their dynamics really interesting. What I covered isn’t anywhere near the level of discussion I could go into, and a few followers I’ve exchanged DMs with know what I’m talking about lol.

I also need to watch the BV series again and have been planning to. It’ll be nice to watch them with fresh eyes.

[ohworm-writes]

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Just saw the movie about- what, 30 minutes ago? Oh. My. Gods. Above. This is the only thing I will be talking about for the next 3 weeks.

I’m already in the middle of planning a fic (read: I’m insane). HOWEVER, this being said, the fic will be posted within the next few days.

Someone has to help feed this fandom as it grows. ;-) See you soon, and remember! Don’t talk to strangers…

178 notes - Posted June 25, 2022

#4

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295 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#3

▬ LOVERS ROCK PT. 1 ▬

Pairing: Jschlatt x Gn!Reader

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Minimal cursing

Synopsis: Fall is in full swing in you and your boyfriend’s shared home. So, that means some baking is in order, yes?

Word Count: 1.3k

Author’s Note: Miss me? Here’s a little something to give you a taste. I’m back.

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419 notes - Posted November 1, 2022

#2

This whole situation is almost ironic to me. See, a few days ago I was sitting in my room and the thought of Techno came to mind. It was random, I’ll be honest, as I haven’t thought about him since April. But anyways, I wondered, you know, “How long has it been since he uploaded?” “I wonder where he is/ what’s he doing now”.

But, most importantly: “I hope he’s okay.”

I was at a party yesterday when I got the news. We were watching some movie and I wasn’t at all paying attention to it, so I went to TikTok to pass the time. And then I saw it. Someone uploaded a video saying something along the lines of “I hope this isn’t real”.

So, I checked what happened, and there it was.

My friend came over to talk and checked his phone and then he saw it and we were just speechless. I couldn’t process it until the car ride back, where I started tearing up and then fully sobbing when I got home.

I started rewatching videos as I cried myself to sleep, and then I woke up this morning and it started all over again. And while it hasn’t stopped, I have to continue to remind myself to be strong because this goofball was my inspiration! So much of myself is taken from him and I constantly have to remind myself that “It’ll be fineeee.”

I’m not okay, but really nobody else within this fandom is right now, I know that. But we have to be strong, as much time as it’ll take.

Cancer dies with the person it takes, so even here he didn’t lose: a draw, if you will. We’ll learn to be okay, however long it’ll take. And it’ll take a lot of time, believe me, but we’ll be okay.

Everything is within his calculations.

683 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I need more people to write for The Black Phone like- I’m at the point where if nobody will do it in the next 5 seconds, I will.

There are 2 fics over the course of any website I can find for it, and I swear to the gods above I KNOW the movies doesn’t come out for another few weeks but PLEASE!

Like- we can all agree that he’s hot, right? It’s not just a small group of people, right?

You guys get it, right?

Edit: Let’s acknowledge this character was based off of John Wayne Gacy and it has been stated in interviews that this character would be a pedophile. I can’t tell you who you can’t and can simp or obsess over, but I’d like anyone reading this to take in these facts. This post was made before the film debuted and before I knew who this character was based off of, and in no way do I support or condone it. I’ve since left this fandom of sorts, and while I do find Ethan Hawke attractive, I can no longer say the same for this character.

843 notes - Posted June 13, 2022

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

hi okay I need more people to know this because for……….reasons (my thumb gets tired even though I’m trying to be so brave about it)

if you use the mobile app a lot and you post fanfic or really long headcanon lists or literally whatever and it’s too much effort for you to go onto desk top and add the “keep reading” tab so you just don’t do it even if you want to, then here’s the mobile version:

If you type “ :readmore: ” (the stuff within the quotation marks but not the quotation marks) and then press enter it will add a “keep reading” line break

colon (:) no space, the word “readmore”, no space, another colon (:), enter

and when you post it will post as a normal “keep reading”

mobile users <3 please use this feature <3

genuinely you do you if you know about this and just don’t like the keep reading but if you didn’t know, now you know!

165 notes - Posted March 14, 2022

#4

hello mi cielos! I am back with the first uquiz of the new year squeee

go on a picnic with me and I’ll tell you what “thing that humans do that make me believe we’re magic” you are!

CW: alcohol mention, food (as this is a picnic, there are three questions where I ask you to choose food)

it took me an embarrassing amount of time to finish this but listen okay in my defence finding the exact right pics always takes my full attention and about 16 hours of my day! fully worth it!

as always there’s 10 q’s, poetry (hah I snuck it in there), clothes, and delicious food!

enjoy and let me know what you get in the tags <3

175 notes - Posted January 7, 2022

#3

the new bears in trees song is soooooo driving down the highway on a saturday afternoon and getting ready with your friends for a day at a garden market and screaming in your bedroom at 2am and the intro scene to the main character in a coming of age movie circa 2004 and also for having a concert in your shower

213 notes - Posted October 9, 2022

#2

how to "get shit done": uni work addition

hi loveliest people so this is a sort of guide to how i get through uni work without going completely insane (make no mistake there is still some insanity present). I hope you find it helpful, or at least entertaining,

(disclaimer cause this is the internet: these work for me, they may not work for you)

table of contents:

a. date it

b. set reminders

c. how to stay on top of it

d. how to get on top of it if you aren't already

e. learn when your brain needs a break

f. uni is a full time job, treat it as such

A. date it

okay the first thing i do at the beginning of every semester is put uni dates in my calendar.

Term dates: when your term starts, when it ends, and your holidays. this is not just for information purposes but also so you have something to look forward to. additionally, it helps later on when you have to plan out assignment and test dates.

Assignment/ test dates: scour through the course outlines of all your courses and put every single date into your calendar. every assignment, every test, anything you have to submit goes in. that includes things like "weekly quizzes". make it a recurring date and chuck it in there.

B. set reminders

so i usually do this in my calendar but if you have a reminders app, or prefer other ways to set reminders then use that.

these reminders are not to make you feel bad for not doing work, it's to hold you responsible for your work. if you know you spiral at the idea of seeing a reminder when you haven't done work, this strategy may not work for you. don't give up, something will work. keep trying and have patience with yourself

if you know something is approaching it's easier to plan your life and your tasks around it. if you never know how long you have or you're always scrambling to figure out when something is due your mind is so focused on the dates it has no time for the work

Assignment reminders:

2 weeks before // 1 week before // 3 days before // 1 day before // 10 minutes before // on time of event

Test reminders:

1 week before // 3 days before // 1 day before // 1 hour before // on time of event

I know this may be excessive but if you're someone like me who constantly forgets things, it is very helpful to keep yourself on track

okay trust me you got this! i promise it's not as bad as it looks. right onto readings and assignments.

C. how to stay on top of it

do one reading per course per day: this is non-negotiable. trust me it is the easiest way to get through readings for a week.

if you have four courses of five readings each you will end up doing four readings a day from Monday to Friday. it is workable and you can do it. uni is fucking difficult and everyone has a story about why they're there but i promise you if you're there, the selection processes decided you were capable enough to handle it. and you are. if you can, start a week earlier so you're a little ahead otherwise it's totally okay.

2. start research for assignments 2 weeks before it is due. this will give you time and space to sort through what is relevant, useful, or should be discarded.

i have a folder for each assignment where all my research goes. within this folder there are three other folders: a. done and dusted b. too long/ not relevant c. could be helpful if i cared enough

and as i go through each paper/article/etc. i sort it into one of the three folders

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My #1 post of 2022

hi tumblr i made another uquiz. i've lost track of how many i've made at this point hehehe

anyway it's seven q's, no celebrities, and descriptive results. there's of course poetry, some clothes, and general fun things. anyway take it and let me know what you get in the tags.

it is worth mentioning here: i'm gonna ask that if you do not like men (as in you think negatively of them), do not take this quiz. you will most likely not be happy with it. pertaining to results: there are no descriptions of physical appearance, additionally, all of them apply to trans-men as well. i will eat you if you're transphobic on my quiz.

okay i love you byeeee

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lmaooooo it’s been a year indeed <3 mwah! I love you all thanks for being my tumblr humans :) I’m here again next year, cause I can never leave this brain rot

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Paparazzi, part one

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When I see you again.

It was Friday, one week later. We reached the airport of Monaco which was already a hard thing bug as soon as we smelled the sun and the air of Monaco I felt better. “God…it’s sooo hot” Olga said and sighed. “Yeah…I love it” i said taking a deep breath with closed eyes before we searched for a taxi. We reached our hotel and what can I say…it was right in the middle of the city, if we wouldn’t have tickets we could watch the race probably from our balcony because it was pretty close. The hotel was really interesting, not really my type but it was perfect for two nights. Olga and I got into the first bedroom and Maureen and Annabelle took the second one. I wasn’t really in for unpacking so I just unzipped the suitcase and got the bags with the hygiene products to bring them into the bathroom we four share. “Well…probably not the best choice” Annabelle said a little embarrassed. “Oh come on, Belle…I already love it here, we all do and I think most of the time we’ll be outside and for those two nights it will do things” i said smiling at her. “I’m so excited” she said as she started to over-line her lips. “Me too…I can’t believe it…we’re in Monaco…watching a race…agh” i said excited giving her a wink at my little pauses. “I can’t wait” she said and I chuckled. “So…you got any plans on what we could do tonight?” i asked her smiling as I brushed through my straightened hair. “Totally” she said smirking. “Let me hear them” i said turning to her. “I found a really beautiful restaurant, we could go around and visit the city a little, doing some shopping, then go to this restaurant and whatever” she said smirking with a nod. “Lit, I like it” i said smirking at her. “Good we got some plans” she said and we struck. “Tell this to the girls…my mom’s calling” i said getting out my phone while she nodded.

We walked through the city and were at the best places and did a lot of sightseeing, thanks to tiktok cause it helped us a lot. Especially right now I was thinking about marrying a rich old man just to cheat him out for his money, we walked down the streets looking at those luxurious fashion stores just like Dior, Chanel, Luis Vuitton, etc which made my jaw drop. “This is insane” i said shaking my head. “Yeah right” Olga whispered, my jaw was still dropped. “Sign the contract and this life is gonna wave at you” she said winking at me. “Funny, Ola, Funny…” i said sarcastically. “Just saying“ she said smirking so I playfully punched her arm which made her laugh. It wasn’t only the luxury or the money or the places or the atmosphere/vibes…it also were the people, they smiled a lot here and it was definitely different to Berlin or Munich. I wasn’t used to this and I needed my time to process it but I liked it. “I might have a shock” i said looking at the women here in Monaco. “You just need a shot” Annabella said chuckling. “Me too…I’ll get thirsty by seeing this” Olga said and we all laughed while walking around trying to see as much as possible which was kinda hard because me and Maureen got literally distracted by anything.

“Now I’m in for the shot to be honest” i said smirking as we sat down on the chairs on the front terrace of the restaurant. The restaurant itself looked like a typical restaurant out of a french movie. “Yeah…me too” Maureen said. “Shots? I’m down” Olga said and Annabelle got us 4 shots.

My eyes were everywhere and I enjoyed the breeze of Monaco, the air and the sun. It was something else and NO comparison to Germany, even the wine tasted better, the food was better, the people were nicer and the weather was better no matter how hot it is and it was even better with my best friends. Maureen was -same as Olga and Annabelle- my best friend since Kindergarten and is same as me half-french, Maureen Grace Lilac-Lane, her beautiful dirty blinde hair went to her chest and shined in the sun even tho she straightened it yesterday. Annabelle Amelia Moreau, she was like a twin of Maureen and a combination of party-girl but also it-girl. Olga Novak, my dearly trusted sister by heart, from the moment she moved from Poland to Munich I knew her and me belong together and like that it was. “Even the wine is better” i said after taking a sip of the wine. “That mist be the water…the Monaco air and all that” Annabelle said and I chuckled. “So how are we doing this tomorrow?” i asked while leaning back in the chair. “Yeah…well the race is starting at 3 p.m so we have the whole morning and noon to ourselves but the catch is that we need to be there at 1 p.m because of the V.I.P tickets, we get to see the paddock, the cars, the pit, everything” Annabelle said super excited. “Wow…I’ve heard the cars are super hot” Maureen said playing with her press-on-nails. “And loud” Olga said next to me. “I want to get some pictures with the drivers” i said and then laughed. “Of course you do, baby” Olga said and laughed with me. “We all do” Maureen corrected and I took another sip of my wine.

(in correct order, Maureen portrayed by Ashley Benson, Annabelle portrayed by Blake Lively, Olga portrayed by Magdalena Lamparska -the right one-)

Charles Pov

I’ve seen a lot of girls in my life but Madeleine was something else, she intrigued me, she made me curious about her. Madeleine I repeated in my head. In Monaco you see a lot of woman, beautiful women but almost everyone of them had done something to them in a surgical way but Madeleine was something else, she looked good without that, she didn’t need it. I could swear that she would look beautiful even after waking up in the morning. I had to shake my head and smile as I saw her leave the grocery store. I have never been in Germany or Berlin before but we had a race here and before we leave I wanted to cook something instead of let someone deliver my food.

I was sitting in my uber and got a call from my mother. “Maman…what can I do for you?” i asked her over the phone. “Hello, Charles…I just wanted to ask how it’s going?” she said and I could hear her smile. “Good, we’re doing good, I’ll come over tomorrow when I’m going back” i said softly. “Sounds great, son…you sound…happy…did something happen?” she asked surprised but with a chuckle. “No…I’m just excited to see you again tomorrow” i said my mind going back to the brunette I just met. “I’ll cook something special for you…oh by the way…is Alexandra coming with you” she asked slowly getting serious at the mention of Alexandra. “I don’t know, I don’t think so…she’s busy a lot lately” i said to my mother as she mentioned my girlfriend. “Oh…well…then I’ll make sure to make you a typical french dinner” she said casually. “Sounds good” I said and she said goodbye before ending the call. It was no secret that I had a girlfriend after all me and Alexandra are a couple since 2022 and we weren’t really hiding it. Alexandra was not my first girlfriend but she was the one that I chose the only problem was that she was always busy and had from time to time less time for me and my family. I don’t care but she also isn’t really the girl for everything, she’s more the girl that looks good and doesn’t leave the house without makeup. There have never been much problems but lately we had more arguments which is quite understandable with my career and how she acted sometimes. Every time we would do something without my fans or my career she got a headache and to be honest I only visited my parents with her two times. I sometimes really had to hold back myself because it annoyed me but I am a really understanding person and I tolerate her things like she does with mine…tho I can’t get the stranger out of my head. I needed to clear my head.

Madeleine Pov

The night was a pretty sleepless one for me because the mattress and the bed made my back hurt and not even Olga cuddling up herself next to me was helping there. I tried my luck on the couch in the living room and kitchen which was a challenge too but less than the bed in my room. I already knew that it would be painful for me in the morning no matter where I slept. “Did you sleep on the couch?” Annabelle whispered facing me as she got out of her room with me laying on the couch scrolling through my phone. “Yeah, the bed killed me” i said annoyed. “Oh shit…sorry” she said grimaced. “Don’t worry…I only got 3 hours of sleep…I hope I’ll don’t fall asleep today” i said rubbing my eyes, putting my phone away. “You won’t, not at the race, trust me” she said smirking before adding “But I think you need a strong coffee, just like me” walking over to make some coffee. “Yes please” i said frustrated which made her chuckle. “I was thinking about going to the beach today” i said walking over to her. “The beach?” Annabelle asked amused. “More the promenade” i said tilting my head. “Sounds good…we’ll wake up Maureen and Olga later and walk down to the Promenade and walk around a little” she said handing me the coffee. “Thanks…Sounds good” i said as we both took a sip of the coffee.

We were dressed up for the race and as always completely plan-less about what we should do. We took a Taxi to the location since the race was going through the whole city. As soon as our tickets were scanned we entered the whole thing and put the tickets with the ribbon on it around our neck. “Okay where are we starting?” Maureen asked confused. “I already talked with a guy I bumped into, he said water is right on the left in there, the toilets are on the left in there and he also told me that we have paddock tickets which actually means that we are standing right at the garages and we get like ear protection that look like headphones cause the cars are driving really loud and you’d hear it from everywhere which sounds a little dramatic to me but hey…better than nothing” i said gesturing with my hands too, as always. “Huh…good thing actually” Olga said nodding while having a confused look on her face. “Okay we’re just gonna walk around look at everything maybe go to that guy so he can give us some advice or tour…and have fun” Annabelle said looking around. “Wait…I might have an idea” she said smirking as she walked up to a random guy and asked him some things while we stood there watching her. “That’s one way to solve it…” Annabelle said impressed. “She’s quite smart actually” Maureen said and we nodded in agreement. “I wouldn’t have recognised the guy so…” i said as we waited for her. She came back with her phone and a mischievous laugh. “What did you get?” I asked curious. “I took notes of the things he said, it’s his third time and he told me the ways and some infos and I got a number too…his number…” she said casually and I laughed. “Cute story…now let’s get going” Olga said as she took Maureen’s phone and read through it to get a little planned.

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8 Risky Relationship Myths

The majority of us grew up watching Disney and Hollywood movies where very attractive ladies frequently fall in love with equally attractive guys and everything just happens by magic. Frequently, finding the ideal companion simply requires a slight change in appearance or manner. Relationships are typically effortless or not meant to be, depending on the situation. the phrase "let's get started" and "let's even begin",let's even begin,even let's begin,even let's begin There are many of these things that begin as a movie or something we read in a book and then, for whatever reason, change into a relationship myth that we take to be a realistic expectation in real life.

Myth 1: Perfect Relationship

A perfect relationship does not exist. Simply put, they don't exist. Relationships are mostly about people, and individuals are basically flawed and not perfect. Nobody is ever going to be flawless. They may be admirable, decent, compassionate, and wonderful people, but they are not infallible. Everybody experiences difficult times; it's natural. The most crucial thing to keep in mind is that communication is essential and that talking to your partner can help you with many problems.

8 Risky Relationship Myths Myth 2: Happy Couples Don’t Fight

Another ridiculous relationship myth. Many people believe that happy couples never fight or argue, and that they always agree on everything. But that is not the case. Everyone argues, in fact, arguing is a normal and necessary part of any relationship, that's how you work through any issues and find a way to solve it, or find a compromise. Arguments have a bad reputation, and people believe that if you argue a lot, you'll break up soon. However, people who argue more are more likely to overcome their problems and stay together for a longer period of time.

Myth 3: A Good Partner Knows What You Want and Need

8 Risky Relationship Myths Let's be clear about one thing: no one knows what you want or need unless you tell them, unless they're a mindreader. But how likely is that? A good partner cannot magically know what you're thinking and what you want or need at any given time. They will learn to predict certain events and read your body language, but that is all. Just work on communication and let your partner know what you want. The lesson here is that a good partner is one who talks to you, asks questions, and listens rather than one who reads your mind.

Myth 4: If You Can’t Find A Partner You Need To Change Your Looks

8 Risky Relationship Myths Experimenting with one's appearance is fun, but it should be done for one's own enjoyment and fun, not to please others. If you prefer to wear sneakers and jeans because they make you feel more at ease, there's no need to start wearing pencil skirts and heels to attract a man. It doesn't work like that. And what's the point of attracting someone who won't be interested in the real you, but in this strange version of yourself you're attempting to be? Simply be yourself.

Myth 5: An Affair Always Means A Break Up

While affairs are painful and damaging, they do not always lead to the end of a relationship. This whole attitude of "I could never be with someone who cheated on me" works for some, but it doesn't have to be the only option. Many people in long-term relationships have to deal with someone having an affair or cheating on them once. It's difficult, but with forgiveness and hard work, people can move on and have long-lasting relationships. It does not have to be the end of the road for everyone.

Myth 6: ‘The One’

This whole concept of 'the one' is completely absurd. There are no soulmates, and the idea that there is only one person who will be perfect for you is completely insane. It causes people to be constantly on the lookout for someone who will be absolutely perfect, but who does not actually exist. They don't know what they're looking for. Don't pass up on wonderful people because they don't fit your bizarre idea of the ideal partner.

Myth 7: You Should Never Go To Bed Angry

We have no idea where that saying originated, but we've all heard it so many times that we started believing it. That mindset can sometimes cause more harm than good. If you're having an argument and it's not going anywhere, thinking you have to resolve everything right away will only escalate the situation and make it out of control. If it's a late night fight - go to bed, you'll be much more rested in the morning and better equipped to deal with this situation.

Myth 8: Marriage Is The End Goal

Too many people believe that marriage is the ultimate goal of any successful relationship, or that it is the natural next step for those who have been together for a long time. That is not the case for everyone. Some people have no intention of marrying, and there's no reason to feel obligated to marry someone just because you've been with them for a few years. On the other hand, it's foolish not to date someone you think you'll enjoy spending time with just because they don't look like your future husband.   Read the full article

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23 Things I’ve Learned In 23 Years

I turn 24 in less than a month (which blows my mind) and today I had the idea to list 23 things I’ve learned in my Jordan Year and the years prior. This year has been insane. Like legit insane. I have elevated so much, grown so much, cried so much, laughed so much, traveled home more than I thought I would just to be around family, I’ve loved, I’ve definitely lost but most importantly, I found myself. Who I was always meant to be. So, with that being said, 23 things I’ve learned in 23 years:

1. You are your home. Treat yourself as such.

This year I realized that I only get one body. One chance, really. To treat my body like the temple it is. My body has carried me through every single thing I’ve been through. My body has kept me alive all of this time. It (and you) deserves to be treated with the utmost love and care. 

2. If you want it, it’s yours. No questions asked.

This is the year I really got into manifestation and LOA and I’ve mastered it in that time because I learned not to complicate it. If you want it, it’s yours. Simple. Live in this truth and watch your life change. You deserve your dream life but better yet, you have it. 

3. Living for other people is boring.

Being yourself is so much more fun. Not caring what people think is so freeing and you owe it to yourself to live authentically. You only have one chance. Plus, the world needs who you were made to be. What the world doesn’t need is any more carbon copies. It has enough of those!

4. Use all of your vacation time and sick time. You deserve it and it’s not selfish.

Using your vacation time to take trips, experience life, sleep in a little extra longer with your lover, taking the day to just relax and watch movies all day. Whatever you choose to do with your vacation time, make sure you use it. ALL. Your job gets your full attention and effort every day you’re there. You are allowed to want and need days for yourself. And never feel guilty about it! But, always leave a little cushion until the end of the year just in case you get sick or an unexpected event comes up. If you still have that cushion by the end of the year, make sure you use it!

5. Saving money is great and extremely necessary but so is living and enjoying what you work for.

You work to be able to live, yes but the key word in that sentence is LIVE. You don’t exist to work, pay bills and that’s it. You’re exchanging your time for the money you make. After you pay yourself (putting up some money in your savings), use the rest to actually live life. Go to the mall and buy yourself something you like every paycheck, buy the groceries you need AND want, get a massage or facial. Money is not just for paying bills, it’s also to enjoy life.

6. Being lonely is okay. Use that time for yourself.

This year I was pretty isolated for a lot of the time. Due to COVID but also due to losing a lot of people. I was pretty lonely but in that time, I focused on myself and learned and grew so much and I had a ball doing it. You don’t need friends or a partner to have fun!

7. With #6 in mind, alone time is necessary.

Tying into the last point, having alone time is necessary to recharge. Always being around people and around noise drowns out your inner voice. Every day, at the very least every week, make sure you schedule in time to enjoy things by yourself. That’s how you get to know yourself most and how you recharge your energy battery.

8. Life is too short to be embarrassed.

Being embarrassed is literally make believe. If you aren’t embarrassed than no one else will be embarrassed for you. If you act embarrassed than other people will be embarrassed for you too. Laugh it off, own it and move on!

9. Everything you go through is a lesson. 

Look for what the situation is trying to teach you. If you don’t, the lesson will repeat until you get it. Might as well try your best to understand the lesson the first time and apply what you learned. It saves a lot of heartache. 

10. Nothing is wrong with being a hopeless romantic but be smart about it.

Romance is amazing. It feels so good and it fills your heart up with love. But not everybody out here has the best intentions. Before you give them everything, honestly before you give them anything, make sure as best as you can that they have good intentions. Truthfully, if you don’t sense true interest in you during the first conversation, leave because they aren’t going to be worth it. Protect your heart as best as you can. That doesn’t mean you can control everything though.

11. Heal before entering into anything new 

With love, sometimes you get hurt. You try your best to make sure that person is right for you but sometimes it just doesn’t work out or that person wasn’t who they pretended to be. But, the person you’re dealing with now is not the person that hurt you. It isn’t fair to assume they’ll treat you the same way as your ex. Drop that baggage before entering into anything new. You owe it to yourself to not carry that excess weight around and it’s not fair for your new partner to be weighed down by luggage that is yours. It’s painful and not fun to hear but it’s true.

12. Stay ready so you don’t have to get ready 

Before starting this journey, I got caught not being ready too many times. I had to shave last minute before my man came over, I had to run out and buy an outfit before an event because I didn’t plan ahead and then had to just throw the outfit together, I ran out the house with ugly sweats and a sweatshirt on and ran into someone of importance while out, etc. Only after starting this journey did I learn to always stay ready. #1 always looking your best should be the standard for yourself, #2 it elevates your vibe which attracts more like to you. 

13. Drink water before any other beverage in the morning 

Just do it. Your body needs it after sleeping and processing everything you went through the previous day. While you’re at it, find out how much water you need to drink for your specific body and drink that amount of water daily.

14. Listen to your body 

A part of the journey to being high value is valuing your body. Valuing your body includes listening to it. Eat when you’re hungry. Stop eating when you first feel full. If you feel exhausted, skip the gym and rest your body. Not listening to your body only ends in your body screaming at you so you will listen. Which usually results in medical bills you don’t want to pay.

15. A cheat meal every now and then won’t kill you or your progress

During this journey, specifically the healthier lifestyle part, you tend to want to ex out anything unhealthy you once enjoyed. That works for some but for most, it makes the changes unsustainable and the change not as fun. There is nothing wrong with being invited to dinner and getting the steak and fries instead of ordering a salad. Food is made as medicine to our bodies, to fuel us but sometimes that medicine is meant for our souls. One unhealthier meal every now and then won’t kill you or the progress you’ve made. 

16. Your parents aren’t always right but they’re pretty darn close to it

You are an adult yes, but if you’re struggling, need some guidance or just need another opinion, your parents dealt with a lot of the stuff you’re now dealing with. They can give you invaluable guidance. It’s still always your choice if you want to apply it or not. Either way, you’ll most likely find out they were right.

17. Living on your own is more beneficial than you realize

Moving into my own apartment activated growth in ways I never even dreamed of. If I had stayed at home and not ventured out on my own I would be a way different person than I am now. Now of course not everyone has the means to do this right away but trust me, it’s beneficial to live on your own for a while. You learn so much about yourself and the world.

18. Watch what you let into your energy and space

People. Music. TV. Movies. Social Media. All of it. Your energy is sacred and impressionable. Be careful who and what you let influence it. Watching scary movies all the time, listening to degrading rap music all the time, that stuff has subliminals in it. People can also influence your energy and spirit negatively. Protect yourself like the prize you are and be discerning with who and what you let in.

19. Privacy always wins

For the reason above in regards to people, protect your life by protecting your privacy. Not everyone needs to be privy to your personal information, your goals, your body, you in general. Sometimes it’s better to not tell anyone anything. You don’t need to explain anything that way. There’s not so many prying and / or hateful eyes that way. Protect your peace. Protect your goals and vision. Protect your quality of life.

20. Stop waiting for a special occasion 

Being alive is the special occasion. Wear the dress. Buy the bag. Celebrate yourself. Romanticize your life. Life is the biggest blessing of all. You should be celebrating that every day. You don’ t need to wait for a special time or occasion to do anything. Having breath to fill your lungs is the special occasion. YOU are the special occasion.

21. You don’t need to be good at something to do it

Who even said you needed to be good at something or it’s not a hobby or something you enjoy doing? If you suck at painting but it relieves stress for you, do it. If you love to express your feelings through writing fantasy but you feel it’s not the best, so what? Hobbies and activities are meant for enjoyment. It’s not always about maximizing it for profit or being the best. Plus, the more you do it the more you’ll improve anyways. Although that’s not the point of doing a hobby.

22. The nice guy is almost always a better pick over the hot one

I’ve learned that sometimes, the nice guy you’re talking to just to talk to, ends up being the guy you fall for. The one you may not be AS physically attracted to than the guy with abs and muscles. More than not, the nice guy is the one that ends up being the most compatible and worthy of your time. The one that brings you flowers. The one that pays for everything. The one that makes you feel as loved and as special as possible. Some of you ladies who are more into hypergamy and leveling up in that capacity might not agree and/or think I’m crazy and that’s okay. For what I’m looking for, this point has been true more times than not.

23. The best investment you’ll ever make is investing in yourself

I am very careful about how I spend my money until I reach all of my financial goals. It’s how I’ve always been. But, growing up, that translated into me not spending any money on myself and if I did I would feel so guilty about it because I didn’t save it. Following this journey, I realized that I am more than worth investing in. Nail salon trips, hair appointments, eyebrow waxes, clothes shopping, taking myself out to eat, going to the movies because I enjoy it, booking a trip to go somewhere, buying the book because I enjoy reading, all of it. I’m worth investing in - physically and mentally. I pay myself first and the rest is disposable income I earned the right to spend and enjoy.

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Breaking Free

Warnings: Mentions of cheating, Elliot and Jules, Fluff, Mentions of drug addiction and Parent death.

Summary: Sometimes all you and rue need is each other

Reader x Rue bennett ( Platonic )

When rue told you that elliot and jules hooked up, you didn’t know how to react. You and elliot had been dating for 3 months. 3 months of love and devotion you put into the relationship only to have your heart broken in return.

You didn’t believe her at first. you were always under the impression that jules hated elliot’s guts. considering the interrogation she gave elliot that she forced you and rue to partake in with her, never in a million years would you have ever thought they would hook up.

It wasn’t until elliot admitted it once you confronted him. As he glossed over the details of their hook up, your heart was breaking in your chest. Not only did they hook up but they did it while you and rue were just in the other room.

It took a lot for you and rue to recover from this heartbreak. you both spent countless nights holding each other and crying while listening to rue’s breakup playlist she made when jules left her at the train station only a few months prior.

Looking back at that time made you want to laugh. you cannot believe you were so heartbroken about a guy who didn’t give a damn about you. looking back at you and rue back then and now made you want to cry in a good way.

Rue was now clean, not having touched a single drug in days. she looked better too, clean hair and clean clothes. you two spent hours deep cleaning her room along with leslie until it was practically unrecognizable. you were insanely proud of your best friend and she was insanely proud of you.

She would immediately gain a smile on her face when witnessing you walk into her house without red eyes or dried mascara rolling down your face. She noticed you cut a few inches off your hair and along with her, started taking care of your appearance more.

“Hey remember our high school musical phase?” You asked rue, giggling as you remembered how obsessed with the movie you and rue were at age 8-10

“Oh my god do not bring that up” Rue groaned playfully while turning to her side and facing her back towards you. the two of you were laying on her bed while watching the newest season of love island.

“Oh come on don’t tell me you forgot” you dramatically gasped while sitting up and turning the tv volume down.

“Oh i would never forget it. Remember when I dressed up as troy for halloween?” Rue stated while reminiscing of that day

“And I dressed up as Gabriella” You nodded, smiling as memories of that day flashed through your mind.

“And gia as kelsie” you and rue said in union while giggling at the memory of 4 year old gia wearing glasses and hat with lyrics in her hands.

Robert, rue’s dad kept a photo of the 3 of you dressed up in his wallet for years. He was also a big fan of the movies. he always sang along with you and rue and would sometimes play the role of darbus or sharpay when needed.

When he died that’s when rue started to hate the movie. She always cried when she remembered the times they’d blast breaking free in the car on the way to school. She felt bad loving something she loved with her dad when he was no longer with her.

She felt like she was betraying him

Slowly she started to get over the hate she felt for the movie. After much convincing from gia, the 3 of you watched it again after years and she realized that instead of frowning at the memories with her dad, she smiled at them.

Rue knew that cherishing these memories instead of trying to erase them would help her instead of harm her. Rue felt bad for always snapping at you when you’d bring anything high school musical related up in a conversation. She hated how she basically forced you to hate the movie too.

“I miss your dad” You said after a few minutes of comfortable silence. Robert was basically a second father to you. The bennett family happily welcomed you with open arms whenever you would be there. you had your own spot at the dinner table and even your own mug.

“Me too” rue said placing you hand on yours and turning back so she was facing you. Rue had an idea in her head and suddenly shot up from her bed. you grew confused as she ran to the other side of her room, into her closet.

You squinted your eyes as you studied the clothing in her hands. Suddenly it hit you as you smiled with nothing but glee

She held your old halloween costumes

“You kept them?” You asked laughing as you unfold your old Gabriella costume. it was nothing but a flower dress and a white science lab coat.

“Of course” rue replied while looking over at the white tracksuit in her hands. Her dad let her barrow one of his as she didn’t have one. She remembered putting it on for the first time as a child and vowed to be the best troy bolton East highland as ever seen.

you and rue stared at each other and grinned. she nodded at you making you squeal and rush to her laptop. you typed in “Breaking free” and clicked onto the video you haven’t watched in so long.

Little did you know, Elliot and jules had driven over to Rue’s house. They wanted to desperately get their girls back as they realized how idiotic they were to ever do what they did. To jules, Rue was her first love.

But to Elliot, you were his something new. He had been “in love” before but after being with you, He realized that the girls he were with before do not compare. They always judged him for his drug use and the fact that he was not close to his family.

But you were different

You never judged him for taking drugs. you were understanding of his past with his family and never wronged him for it. He has been haunted by the look in your eyes and the tears down your face when he admitted to cheating on you with jules. It was something he would forever regret and he won’t stop until you were his again.

Not knowing you both were happy without them, Elliot and jules walked around the house to rue’s bedroom window. They knew that if they tried the front door leslie would most likely slam the door in their face.

They peeked through rue’s bedroom window only to be shocked at the sight. There the both of you were

You were dancing around the room in your flower dress that still fit you like it was yesterday while singing to Gabriella’s parts.

Rue was across the room, running around her room while singing along to troy’s parts while having a true smile on her face.

“Can you feel it building like a wave the ocean just can’t control” Rue sang while doing a short moonwalk just like troy did in the movie

“Connected by a feeling ohhh, in our very souls” you sang, facing her as you strutted towards her to hold her hand

Leslie walked towards rue’s room to inform the two girls that dinner is almost ready and was surprised at the sight of rue twirling you around while you both sang along to a song she hasn’t heard in a very very long time.

Leslie peaked her head inside the room and almost teared up at the sight. she hasn’t seen a sight so familiar in a long time and is glad that rue’s finally happy again.

no drugs

no jules

Elliot and jules felt hurt that you both seemed better off without them. they both knew that you two wouldn’t ever get together romantically but the thought of the love of their lives being happy without them stung.

Elliot wished he never laughed and refused whenever you’d ask him if you can sing to high school musical songs. He thought it was childish that a high school girl was so obsessed with a children’s movie.

But looking at the way you and rue danced along to the song while dancing made him want to go back in time and soak up the opportunity of you being in his arms singing along to Breaking free.

Jules felt no different, She grew envious at the thought of rue being happy without her. she was so used to being rue’s happiness that it became her source of happiness and without it, she was empty.

The two blondes looked at each other and realized that they lost the two best things to ever happen to them.

Gia walked outside of her room, wanting to know what the loud noise echoing through the house was only to see her mother outside her older sisters door recording whatever’s inside.

Gia moved past her mother to see her two sisters dancing along to one of her favorite songs. she smiled as her favorite part was coming soon

“soarin’ ” you sang as rue twirled you so you were facing leslie and gia.

“flyin’ ” rue waved her arms around happily as she noticed her mother and little sisters smiles directed at them. rue was glad to be the reason her family smiled and not the reason her family cried.

you both noticed gia fiddling her fingers, a sign she wanted to join in but not wanting to bother or stop the girls. you immediately ran towards the two women and grabbed both of their hands. rue was clapping and cheering them on from behind.

Leslie yelped as she was suddenly brought into a circle between her daughters and playfully groaned but sang along. she knew deep down she also wanted to join in.

The 4 women were dancing in a circle while screaming along to the lyrics. they knew that no matter how bad the hard times are, the good ones make up for it all.

Rue looked around at her family. gia was looking at herself in the mirror and singing along, you and leslie were holding hands and playfully singing to each other.

Rue realized that no matter what happens with her and jules, it doesn’t matter because in the end

all she needs is you.