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Pond Diving - emilyshurley

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Name: Emily

Age: 21

Location: India

URL: @emilyshurley

Why did you choose your URL: Okay this is embarrassing. I was trying to sign up for AO3, so I did a quick Google search for two things, what's the name of Dean's daughter? Emma, and Chuck's last name, Shurley

I accidentally typed Emma as Emily and that's it.

There was a very real chance that my url would have been emmashurley. Thoughts on that one? Maybe I'll change it someday.

What inspired you to become a writer: Being an only child who wasn't allowed to watch tv for more than 2 hours. And not having friends, that also had something to do with it.

How long have you been writing: Fanfiction? 4 years (was on Wattpad before this). In general? 12 years, I guess... I remember showing my first short story to my english teacher in 6th class.

What do you do when you are not writing i.e. Job/Hobbies etc? Cooking, eating what I made. I don't get to cook often so I enjoy it when I can. Other than that, college takes up most of my time. Currently getting my bachelor's degree in science. It's my last year, will probably get master's in zoology next.

How long have you been in the SPN Fandom? 4 years

Are you in any other fandoms and do you write for them? Way too freaking many. But I write for marvel and I'm thinking of re-posting the very first vampire diaries fanfic I wrote. But are people still into vampires?

Do you do any writing outside of fanfiction? If so, tell us about it? Mostly journalling, but I occasionally take part in writing competitions and things.

Favorite published author: Amish Tripathi (He mainly writes Hindu mythological fantasy? If that's anyone's jam here)

Have you ever read a book that made an impact on your life? Which one and why?: Leap of faith by Danielle Steel. Not for any reason other than the fact that it was the first novel I ever read. My grandfather was reading it, and I told him I wanted to read something too so he gave it to me.

Favorite genre of fanfic (smut, angst, fluff, crack, rpf, etc):Platonic fluff!!!! Give me all the fics of best friends being adorable.

Favorite piece of your own writing: Once upon a Winchester. But I gave myself so little canon to work with that I think I'll continue it after the show ends. I have to know the ending to continue it.

Most underrated fic you have written: Letters to no one. For any marvel fans, it's a two part fic in Natasha's POV, just some letters she thought no one will ever read.

Story of yours that you’d most like to see turned into a movie/tv show: Project Latrodectus, again marvel. I kinda feel bad for mentioning my marvel fics so much but I'm pulling influences from the story of Eklavya in Mahabharata, which is a Hindu epic so complex that I won't attempt to explain it here.

Favorite Tumblr Writer(s): Ahh that's a tough one. I love so many people. At this point, mentioning Myin ( @myinconnelly1 ) feels like cheating because another who has ever looked at my posts can tell she's my favourite human. So I'll try not to mention her further.

Otherwise, Beka ( @impala-dreamer), Kate ( @katehuntington ), @katymacsupernatural and other hoomans I can't remember because I have been away from Tumblr for a while.

Favorite Fic from another writer: Blood and Honey by @kittenofdoomage. And the proposal by @katymacsupernatural

Favorite character to write: Marvel: Natasha Romanoff, Supernatural: I have never written Charlie but I'd love to.

Favorite Pairing to write: So they are platonic ships but Dean and Charlie, the boys and Garth and Clint Barton and Natasha Romanoff.

Least favorite character to write (and why): Easily John Winchester. I don't know, my brain just can't process his character. Like no matter how many times I try, John just sounds off.

Do you have anyone you consider a mentor? Irl, my grandfather. On tumblr, Myin. I know, I know I said I won't mention her but Myin is my support system here. No matter what goes on in my brain, no idea is too crazy for her.

Do you have any aspirations involving your writing? To make people feel less alone because I think that feels like shit. My goal moving forward is to write more Indian reader and LGBTQ reader fics because I think not many people in the fandom (that I know of) are writing those fics.

How many work-in-progress stories do you have: Four, all of them are series. Technically 2 are my ongoing ones. And one is an MCU x SPN crossover that's taking a while to plan.

What are you currently working on? Nothing focusing on college these days. But will write random one shots here and there.

“Pond Diving” - All About The Writing

What/who has had the biggest influence on your writing? My inability to write romance. No joke, I don't feel like I write it well. So I tend to write general fics and crack fics.

Best writing advice you've been given: Someone recommended the book, writing down the bones, to me a while ago. In the very first chapter it says, use a cheap notebook (so you don't feel guilty about 'bad writing') and a fast writing pen.

Since most of my non fanfic writings are done by hand I like that advice.

Biggest obstacle you’ve faced in your writing: Procrastination. I'm the creator of my one misery here. I push stuff till the last moment then complain about being too busy to do anything.

What aspects of writing do you find difficult when you write fanfiction?Smut. I can't. I don't know I like to say I don't feel comfortable writing it but the truth is I just think I'd put people off. Which is not the intended outcome.

Is there anything you want to write but are afraid to (and why): More LGBTQ+ characters/reader inserts. Why? Say for example, even though I'm bi, but my version of bisexual Dean might not be something other people would relate to and I'm scared of accidentally offending someone.

What inspires/motivates you to write: What if scenarios. I love speculating and coming up with the context behind what we see on screen. Like an idea that I'll one day use is, what was Sam going when Dean was in hell or purgatory. Sure in one case he hit a dog and met a girl but how?

So I want to write more general fics or like filler between the scenes we see on the screen.

How do you deal with self doubt: By talking to people, knowing I'm not alone in this helps. And sending fics to friends before I post them.

How do you deal with writer's block: Play the sims. What I mean is take a break, do something completely different for a while.

Do you plan/outline your story before you start: I don't, for one shots. For series I have to have an ending or else I'll lose interest very quickly.

Do you have any weird writing habits: Would you consider writing/planning things on paper before writing it on the computer weird?

Have you ever received hateful comments on your fic and how do you deal with it? I did. My very first fic on Tumblr. It was a Tony Stark x Indian!Reader fic and someone messaged me saying most content media is written for an American/Western audience. And that Tony Stark would never actually do for someone who's Indian because well Indian characters aren't primarily present in the MUC. So no one wants to read it.

What I did about it? I deleted the fic and every backup I had of it. Because in my head they were right. All Indian get is Bruce Banner doing charity work for "all the poor Indians".

It wasn't until recently that I started talking to @desisamslut that I realised that people actually want to read about reader inserts that are like them. I mean it's called a reader insert for a reason how could I not see it?

Conversely: what’s been some of your favorite feedback on your fanfic?When someone made a mood board for my Black Widow fanfiction.

If you could give one piece of advice to a new and/or struggling writer, what would it be? Hang in there, no matter how uncommon you think what you want to write about is, you'll find an audience. I mentioned @desisamslut in another answer, the first thing she told me was she has never seen an indian reader fic, so she felt happy when she read the one I wrote recently.

#pond diving #spnfanficpond #pond diving: emilyshurley

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mrswhozeewhatsis · 4 years ago

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To stop the accusation that I’m dragging this out to please the drama llamas, I’ve studied everything I got (and spent a fair amount of time searching for things on blogs), and managed to whittle things down to their bare essentials. I’ve also tried to talk to everyone about everything, which took time. I won’t address everything that everyone has said on both sides, just a few points that are either concrete, or I can’t address them privately for whatever reason.

The timeline as I’ve been able to piece it together is like this:

Vanessa made a post about more popular writers complaining about lack of feedback.

Beka messaged Vanessa wanting to know why Vanessa had a problem with her.

Vanessa responded in a way that upset Beka.

Beka blocked Vanessa.

Vanessa got around the block and sent anonymous asks to Beka.

Beka outed Vanessa by responding to the asks publicly.

Vanessa deactivated her blog.

Friends of both proceeded to attack each other.

Claims about Beka (this is not a complete list):

Only supports her friends on her blogs and in Pond Angel Fish Awards

Although it’s been a couple of months since Beka has reblogged fics from other writers at all, by going back through her #read with me tag, I see reblogs of fics from at least a dozen different writers just in May and June. I’ve only been tracking Angel Fish Awards since February, but since then, Beka has nominated 8 stories by 8 different writers.

Ignored asks for Big Fish advice sent to her blog

If there were a way for me to prove this, then I wouldn’t be listing it here. As it is, it’s impossible to prove. As a Pond admin, I’ve experienced the weirdest stuff with asks. I spent one evening chatting with a member while they repeatedly tried to send in asks, and we didn’t get a single one. I do know that asks sent via the app seem to be more likely to be eaten than asks sent via desktop, but asks sent both ways have disappeared.

There are other claims, this is not a complete list, but I will be addressing them with Beka personally (I have already started doing this, actually). I’m only including these two because they can be proved or disproved with facts. Some of the other claims have been leveled against Big Fish in the Pond other than Beka, as well. The Pond will deal with those privately, but we hope you will see an improvement in these areas when the Pond returns from hiatus.

Claims about Vanessa:

I’ve talked to Vanessa about these, without anything constructive coming from it. I tried. I tried to explain to her that she could have gotten further by using less provocative language and offering constructive suggestions. We ended up having the same old arguments about unrelated issues and going around in circles. The only thing Vanessa ceded was that she should not have continued to reach out to Beka after Beka blocked her. She has apologized for this. I don’t need to list the rest here, just know the conversation happened and nothing came of it.

Claims about Beka’s opposition:

Made unsubstantiated claims about Beka sending herself anon hate

I’ll be the first to tell you that I don’t have a single clue how to figure out who has sent an anonymous ask on Tumblr. However, what I do know is that it requires access to the inbox the ask was sent to. In order for someone who is not Beka to say that Beka sent herself an anonymous ask, they would have had to have hacked into her account, somehow. I don’t know much about this, but it sounds illegal. Since there was proof of this offered, it’s a useless claim.

Picked apart posts on her personal blog and said they were intended for her writing audience when they were not

Beka’s personal blog was, she thought, relatively private. It was not meant for her readers to see. (There is an argument to be made about how it’s still a public blog that the world can see, but the charge is that she intended for her readers to see it and respond, and that is not the case.) Yet, someone took it upon themselves to stalk it, and then match posts between the two blogs, making it look like it all came from one blog. They then took their argument to the absurd and claimed she was using her mental health issues to drum up patrons on her Patreon. If that were the case, then it all would have been on her writing blog. But it wasn’t.

Belittled Beka’s cries for help, and then attacked her further

I don’t care if you didn’t believe her when she said she was on the edge, you just don’t do that, folks. That right there is the point where you either walk away or report her to Tumblr as a threat to herself. The last thing you do is double down on your attacks. Take a break, walk away, find a kinder, gentler way to make your point. I don’t care who they are or what they believe or have done, when someone puts the gun to their head, you do not tell them they are an awful human being.

Dissected every post, word by word, including auto tags, using intentionally provocative language

Not every post made was like this, but a lot were. This is high school stuff, guys. To rip apart words used by someone obviously in pain instead of reaching through and looking for the meaning behind it is petty and cruel. Not to mention it takes so much more energy to dig into things like that than to just respond to the meat of things. To take someone’s blog name and twist it into a degrading moniker is sickening. To attack words used in an effort to distract from the topic at hand, or to just add on to the already heaping pile of anger you’re throwing around is unconscionable and pointless. This is not what people who are coming from a place of love or kindness do. This is what you do when you hate someone, and that’s just not cool, guys.

Brought up old issues thought to have been settled a long time ago

My husband calls this “stamp collecting.” There’s a statute of limitations on things, and it depends on the thing, but my personal limit on Tumblr is about two weeks. If nothing has been said about something for two weeks, I assume it’s in the past and I try to move on. I say this because, if it weren’t settled, then we’d all still be working on it, right? If something is bothering me, and I work on it with someone, but I’m not happy, then I’m gonna keep working on it with that person. If they seem to forget (which happens because we’re all human), then I’m gonna send them a quick message. “Hey there! I’m still working on this thing. Can we talk about it again?” I do this with contractors who work on my house. I did this with clients when I worked in an office. To bring up something that happened a long time ago like it’s still an active issue is pointless, and goes against one of the main tenets of effective arguing.

Taking obvious glee in tearing down another person

Do I really have to talk about this? If you had any care for the other person, even enough to just care that they are a person, you would not gloat about how you’re going to tear them apart.

Really, all of this stuff comes down to if you are approaching the world and everything you do from a place of love or from a place of anger and pain. Even if you are angry and in pain, treat other people like you love and respect them, and you will find that everything is just better.

If you feel like I’m coming down on one side or the other of this situation, just know that I’m not. Pretty much, I don’t like things that were done by both sides. These are just the things I feel more comfortable talking about in a public post like this.

Other stuff that’s come up in the course of all of this:

Complaining about notes/followers

So many writers, lately, are frustrated. Tumblr sucks balls on a good day when it comes to notifications and the whole algorithm mess, and that’s still being generous. In an effort to keep the porn blogs at bay, they’ve stifled all creators. Add to that how tags seem to never work when you’re searching for something, and disseminating your work is nearly impossible.

I could tell you all the different ways you can change your focus on the readers you do have, give you lists of things you can do to expand your audience, and offer advice about not comparing yourself to other writers. But you’ve already heard all of that. So, I’m just gonna say it.

If you complain publicly about a lack of notes or followers, you’re gonna look like a dick.

That doesn’t mean you are a dick. You’re just gonna look like one. You’re going to look like you’re ungrateful for the readers that you do have, which is going to turn off those readers, and you’ll end up with even fewer notes and followers. If you manage to disparage other writers while you’re complaining, you’re gonna look like an even bigger dick. So, just don’t do it, unless you don’t mind looking like a dick.

Need to vent about it? Find a close friend and send it to them in a private message. Have a funny thought about it that you want to share? This is exactly what private messages are for. Create a group DM in discord. Heck, I think even Tumblr has a group chat option, now. Just, don’t put it on your blog, unless you want to lose followers.

The number of admins at the Pond

Some folks seem to think that the Pond needs to add more admins in order to react more quickly when something goes down. Honestly, I have talked to Mana and Kale about stepping down as admin because I believe the opposite is true. We have a policy that we all must agree on the big things. However, we are separated by 8 time zones. There is a rare hour every few days (sometimes it’s weeks) when all three of us are awake and not occupied with caring for family members. We have a private group chat thing where we each toss ideas and questions and such into the pot when we’re doing things. When the others get to it, they add their two cents. Usually, there are two of us active at a time, and then we wait for the third to stop by for approval. Often, the third has a question or argument that then needs to be addressed, but the first or second one isn’t available. More admins would only be a good thing if we were all in the same time zone. But we’re not. We are an international group, which I believe is a good thing, but the downside is that it slows us down. Sometimes, being slow is a good thing, too. Generally, at least one of is calm and level-headed at any given time. It shifts on who that one is, but they keep us from doing anything rash.

The whole problem is that no one feels like they can tell you when there’s a problem

I’ve heard this so many times, now, but I haven’t responded to it publicly, so here goes.

Most of you don’t know what I’m like in person, but I’m built like a linebacker. I’m tall, I’m heavy, and I have wide shoulders. I have literally scared small children. Take Jared Padalecki, add another Jared Padalecki on the side, and then take away all the pretty, and you come close to what I’m like when you see me walking down the street.

I don’t want to be a scary person that anyone is afraid to approach. My goal in life is to be kind and fair. I will give you second and third chances, because I know how awful it feels to be written off.

My ask box is always open. My chat windows are always open. My email address is [email protected]. I’m the same on discord and skype. I don’t care if you think your thing is stupid, if it’s something that’s bothering you, and I can help, then I want to help. I can’t always help, but I always want the opportunity to try.

If I have ever done anything that made you feel like I didn’t care, then I give you permission to tell me. I’ll hate hearing it, but I need to hear it.

If I have forgotten to follow up on something for you, PLEASE REMIND ME. Holy, cow, I have a TERRIBLE memory. It’s really bad. I have tricks and stuff that I do to try to make sure I don’t lose track of things, but it still happens. Please, come back to me and remind me that I promised you something. I guarantee that I will not be mad or upset. I will be glad, because you’re helping me to be the person I want to be.

I think that’s about it. The Pond is still on hiatus, indefinitely. We have a lot of things we’re talking about for if/when we come back, and some of them are really exciting to me. I hope we come back. I hope we can make the Pond what we always meant it to be. We’ll need help, and constant feedback from our fishy family, but I still have hope.

#incoherent babbling by mrswhozeewhatsis #michelle rants #mrswhozeewhatsis rants

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ticklygiggles · 6 years ago

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Lunch date | OtaYuri

A/N: yes I can! Thank you very much, I'm glad you enjoy my fanfics! 💕💕 I hope you also enjoy this one!

Summary: Yuri has some peculiar ways to convince his boyfriend to forgive him. Otabek is embarrassed.

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“Yes, thank you,” Yuri says to the waitress before turning to his boyfriend, who's sitting beside him, looi

king away from him. He can’t help but smile. “Oh, c’mon, Beka,” he wraps an arm around his waist, his lips close to Otabek’s ear. “I already said I’m sorry.”

Otabek pretty much avoids looking at Yuri's face, eyes closed, eyebrows furrowed together and arms crossed on top of his chest. “Mila really wanted to practice with me!” Yuri tries again, leaning closer to Otabek, trying to look at his face, but Otabek simply moves away a bit more.

“And I really wanted you to have lunch with me,” Otabek says, not even bothering on looking at Yuri as he speaks.

Yuri chuckles, Otabek can be extremely cute when he’s being grumpy, (and jealous); he swears he can even see a little pout pursing his lips. Extremely adorable.

However, he really feels a bit bad for making Otabek upset, even when he knows that he will be fine in a few hours. He had asked Yuri for a lunch date after practice for weeks now and everything was setted up, finally, but Mila, after finally being able to see Yuri’s practice, begged him to help her out with her rutine, saying that she needed some advice in one of her jumps.

Yuri didn’t forget about his date with Otabek, he, actually, remembered it even before he said yes to Mila, but he just couldn't help but flash his abilities to his friend... even if it costed him arriving late to their date, a grumpy Otabek almost finishing eating his lunch alone in one of their favorite tables in the place.

Yuri is really a bad boyfriend.

"We’re having lunch!" He says, looking for the waitress and his order. Only then Otabek looks at him, an eyebrow raised in annoyance.

"You are having lunch, I had lunch without you and I should leave without you too."

"No, please don't leave, Beka," Yuri begs, his arms embracing Otabek's waist and his nose nuzzling behind his ear, knowing very well that that spot makes Otabek melt. "I'm really sorry. I know you don't believe me, but I am sorry about being late for our lunch."

Yuri notices Otabek chewing on the inside of his cheek, something he does when he's nervous or thinking about something. He also notices the light blush spreading on his ears, the shell quickly turning a lovely pink color. Yuri grins.

"I promise I will be a better boyfriend." Despite his playful grin -which Otabek can't see because he keeps avoiding looking him-, he really means his words. "I know you really wanted us to have this lunch and I ruined our date, but I'm truly sorry, babe."

Otabek was long gone, his body slowly leaning against Yuri's until he shivered with every word whispered in his ear. "You promised."

"I know I did, Beka. Would you forgive me?" Yuri nibbled on Otabek's earlobe, making him sigh softly.

"I know what you're doing." He feels Yuri smile around his earlobe.

"What am I doing?"

"You want to convince me by doing that."

Yuri chuckles, "how can you say that, Otabek? I'm just giving you some affection."

Otabek hums, not believing any word Yuri has to say, but still not pulling away or pushing him off.

"Besides," Yuri continue, "I have plenty of ways to convince you to forgive me."

Otabek raises his eyebrows, finally looking at Yuri's face. "Do you, really?"

Yuri nods, "I do. For example..."

Otabek takes a sharp breath when he feels fingers curling on his side, near his lower ribs. He jumps, jerking away from the touch. "Don't," he warns.

"Don't what?" Yuri beams at the reaction, his fingertips wiggling into the curve of Otabek's waist.

"Do. Nohot." Otabek squirms

"Do not what?" Yuri holds him tighter. "Will you forgive me?"

"You don't have any methods of convincement except for th-thihihis, stop!"

"Well you caught me there, I only have two methods and this is the second one already" Otabek tries to push Yuri's arms off him, but he's holding tightly, his fingers digging into his right side, squeezing it until he was doubling over the table, trying to hide his smiley face. "What's wrong, Otabek?"

"You definitely will not convince me with this mehehehehethod!' Otabek spoke so fast Yuri barely catches what he was saying. "Yurahahaha!" He muffles those embarrasing giggles with his hand, a shriek escaping his lips when Yuri finally uses both hands to tickle both of Otabek's sides.

"Am I convincing you yet, baby?"

"Yuri, please!" Otabek gasps, his body squirming and jumping with each squeeze at his sides. "Plehehease! We're in puhuhublic!"

Yuri smirks, but he looks around to make sure no-one was looking over their spot, not because he was feeling embarrased, (he would never feel embarrassed to tickle Otabek, not even in public), but because he wanted to grant his lover the satisfaction to know that anyone was watching him laughing like a school girl.

"There are hardly any people here, Beka," Yuri says, his fingers moving up to Otabek's ribs, making him throw his head back, letting out a bark of laughter. "You can laugh 'till your heart is content."

"No mohohohore!" Otabek holds onto the edge of the table, trying to get up and escape, but Yuri easily puts one of his legs on top of Otabek's lap, holding him in place as his fingers clawed at those sensitive ribs. "Tihihihickling is not fahahair!"

"It is fair," Yuri says, but then ponders for a minute. "Well, I think it's only fair if it is me who's doing the tickling and you are the one receiving it."

Otabek shakes his head, unable to stop the laughter bubbling out of him. His hands try to get a hold of Yuri's, but, lifting his arms off his sides, he leaves an aperture for Yuri to wiggle his fingers into his armpits.

Otabek lets out another shriek before it dissolves into more laughter, his arms glueing to his sides, trapping Yuri's hands underneath them. "For God's sahahahahake!" Otabek leans back against the back of the chair, his legs kicking under the table and his body twisting as much as he can without falling off the chair.

"Look how much you are laughing right now!" Yuri says cheerfully, his skilled fingers wrecking Otabek's underarms. "And I haven't even touched your hips yet!"

Otabek shakes his head rapidly. "Not thehehere! Not there!"

"Tell you what," Yuri says with a grin on his face. "If you say you forgive me this time for being late-

"Fuhuhuhucking sto-ahahaha!" Otabek arched off the chair, lifting his butt off the seat as he keeps laughing helplessly.

Yuri chuckles, his cheeks flushing as they always do when he sees Otabek laughing like this. "Fine, I'll stop for a little while I tell you our deal." Yuri slows his fingers to a stop, but he keeps his hands under Otabek's arms just to have him on his nerves.

"Okay, so I was saying," Yuri continues, his fingers twitching slightly to make Otabek giggle. "If you forgive me for being late to our date, I promise to be a better boyfriend- no, an exceptional- no! The greatest boyfriend of the universe!" Otabek looks at him with teary eyes, heavy breathing and a cute smile on his lips. "And I also promise to stop tickling you."

"Wha-what if I don't forgive you?" Otabek jumps and laughs when the fingers move again.

"I'm gonna tickle you until your face is blue! And I'm also gonna tickle you here," Yuri teases and he pulls one of his hands out from under Otabek's arm to squeeze at his hipbone.

Otabek cackles, jumping away from the touch. "Okahahay! Okay! I forgive you! I fohohor- plehehehehease, Yurahaha!"

Yuri stops again and this time he pulls his hands off Otabek completely, letting him relax against the chair as he gulps into precious oxygen.

"Do you really forgive me?" Otabek nods, reaching for his cold tea and drinking all the liquid at once. "I'm truly sorry, Beka. I promise I will never do it again!"

Otabek puts the empty glass back on the table and turns to look at Yuri. A warm smile on his lips as his hand reaches to brush a stray piece of blond hair behind Yuri's ear. "I know you are, Yura. I really forgive you."

Yuri smiles and he leans into Otabek's hand, closing his eyes for a moment before he opens them up again, looking around the restaurant, his cheek pressed against the palm of Otabek's hand.

"How much does it take for them to make a sandwich?" Just as he spoke the waitress appeared with his order.

"I'm sorry for being late," she says sheepishly. "I noticed you were a bit... busy, so I thought I could wait for a bit."

"Uuugh" Otabek covers his flushed face with his hands as Yuri lets out a chuckle.

"Thank you," he says as the waitress leaves with a smile on her own.

"You said anyone was watching!"

"Well, I think she was hidden somewhere, because I didn't see her watching over here."

Otabek growls again and kicks Yuri's foot under the table. "Just eat so we can leave fast!"

Yuri laughs as he munches on his sandwich. He was glad Otabek was back to his self, embarrased, yes, but at least he was not upset anymore.

"I love you, Beka."

"Uuughh, shut it! Iloveyoutoo."

#yuri!!! on ice #otayuri #otabek altin #yuri plisetsky #tickle fic #mia's things #mia's fics

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because-imma-lady-assface · 5 years ago

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Give me some advice

JK...well sorta you really do need some sleep.

Advice for my Beka...

Remember you are not responsible for how other people act, or react. Remind yourself that in order to be there for other people, you need to be there for yourself first, if you constantly put yourself last eventually there'll be nothing left.

Oh and drink more water and always wear sunscreen.

#its thursday i'm bored

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beararcheryproducts · 6 years ago

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Thinking about Bowhunting? Here's How to Get Started

If you’re just getting started in the world of archery and bowhunting, it may feel like there’s a lot to learn however, it’s important to keep in mind that you can bowhunt for years and still not know everything. It’s a lifelong learning process and regardless of your age or how long you’ve been doing it, there’s always something new to learn or master.

There are a few basic guidelines that can help get you started and gain the confidence needed to get in the woods this year.

1. When you purchase your first setup, take your time and ask the store employee a lot of questions. It’s important to make sure you’re getting the right setup for you. Bring along an experienced mentor if you have one that can help give advice. If you shop at a local pro shop, you will presumably receive more coaching and one-on-one time with an experienced bow technician.

2. Become familiar with your gear. You need to be confident in your equipment and knowing your equipment is key. If you’re shooting a compound bow, learn how to adjust your bow sight and rest. You will also want to learn how to switch from field points to broadheads and safely adjust the draw weight on your bow. If you don’t always have someone there to assist with these adjustments, learning how to do them on your own will help you become more independent.

3. Practice. Practice. Practice.

4. Be consistent in what you do. It may be difficult at first, but form and consistency are key in shooting accuracy. Once you choose an anchor point that feels comfortable to you, stick with it. Concentrate on releasing the arrow the same way every time. Sometimes working on breathing techniques and concentrating on which muscles you are using can help. If you aren’t consistent, your arrows won’t be consistent.

5. If you get frustrated while shooting, stop shooting. Sometimes it is best to just put the bow down and walk away for a little while. When we become frustrated, we get in our own heads and overthink it. Continuing to shoot while frustrated usually leads to more frustration, which is never good. Try to end your shooting sessions on a good note.

6. Don’t “over bow” yourself. We’ve all seen the shooters pulling 65-70 lbs. bows and that’s great. But if you can’t handle that weight comfortably, you shouldn’t be shooting it. Start with a weight you are comfortable with and work up to a heavier draw weight if you are so inclined. You will shoot better if you aren’t struggling to draw your bow.

7. Number your arrows. This may seem silly but hear me out. Have you ever had that one arrow that just won’t go where you want it to go? If it’s the same arrow consistently flying differently, there may be an issue with it. A vane coming partially unglued can go undetected if you aren’t looking for it. Break out a Sharpie and put a number on each arrow.

8. Once you’re shooting consistently accurate enough to get in the woods, practice real-life scenarios. Will you be bowhunting deer soon? Grab a deer target or draw one on a piece of cardboard. When you’re out in the stand, the deer won’t have a target conveniently painted on the side of it and there aren’t any helpful dots to hold your pins on. Familiarize yourself with the concept of picking a spot on the animal and releasing your arrow with confidence.

9. If you’re planning on shooting from a tree stand then practice from a tree stand. When shooting from an elevated position it’s important to remember to bend at the waist and keep proper form. This can be tricky at first which is why it’s great to practice. If you plan on hunting from a ground blind, practice shooting from a sitting position ahead of time.

10. Don’t overthink it. Archery can seem very complex when in reality it’s fairly simple. If you’re not relaxed and enjoying yourself, you’re doing it wrong. As the infamous Fred Bear once stated, “Nothing clears a troubled mind better than shooting a bow.”

About the Author

Born and raised in New Jersey, Beka Garris grew up hunting, fishing, and farming and continues to lead an avid outdoor lifestyle on her farm in Ohio. When she’s not shooting her longbow or shooting fish, she’s sharing her passions with her audiences through her social media pages, blog, and cookbook.

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namjoonieftw · 6 years ago

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50 questions! I was tagged by @knjclubie! Thank you my love

1. what takes up too much of your time?

literally everything; school, my job, sorority life, rugby practices

2. what makes your day better?

coming home and listening to music,

3. what’s the best thing to happen to you today?

I got bubble tea!

4. what fictional place would you like to go to?

I just wanna go inside the Millennium Falcon

5. are you good at giving advice?

sometimes? my brother convinced me to take up a minor in social work so ig?

6. do you have any mental illness?

yea

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

OH GOD all the time in my old house

8. what musician inspired you the most?

so many? mcr, fob, bts, logic

9. have you ever fallen in love?

yeah, once. ONCE.

10. what’s your dream date?

going to a museum and then getting like coffee and talking about our favorite pieces

11. what do others notice about you?

how tall I am?

12. what is an annoying habit you have?

I talk very very loudly, and walk super fast

13. do you still talk to your first love?

nope, got ghosted and haven’t spoken since

14. how many exe’s do you have?

officially: one, off the record: who knows

15. how many songs are in your playlist?

in my biggest playlist: 596 songs (36 hrs 47 mins) in my daily playlist: 347 songs (21 hrs 49 mins)

16. what instruments can you play?

i used to be able to play the piano and violin

17. what do you have the most pictures of?

bts,,,,awks

18. where would you like to go before you die?

Japan, i want to eat so much food there

19. what is your zodiac sign?

LEO

20. do you relate to it?

heck yea

21. what is happiness to you?

sitting in the sun and listening to my favorite music while people watching

22. are you going through anything right now?

a lot of trying to figure out who I am and what I really want to do in life

23. what’s the worst business decision you ever made?

honestly buying literally anything

24. what’s your favorite store?

Ocean State Job Lot, they have everything you could ever want

25. what’s your opinion on abortion?

do what is best for you in your situation

26. do you keep a bucket list?

hell yeah, not a lot gets crossed off but i still have one

27. do you have a favorite album?

yeah i have like way too many ok strap in tight yall: mcr - danger days, rm - mono, the 1975- the 1975, bruno mars - 24k magic,

28. what do you want for your birthday?

my mom and i might get matching tattoos

29. what are most peoples first impression of you?

i am loud and tall

30. what age do you seem according to most?

honestly my dentist thought i was 15 but then people also think im 24

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping?

next to my bed, on my desk (that’s if i don’t fall asleep with it on my face)

32. what word do you say the most?

dope like yeet dab spicy

33. what’s the oldest age you would date?

34. what’s the youngest you’d date?

35. what job/career do most people say would fit you?

event coordinator, any job where i am organizing stuff

36. what’s your favorite music genre?

anything except country and screamo

37. if you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?

Probably Australia, I just want to live there for a few years

38. what is your current favorite song?

Crying Over You - HONNE ft RM & BEKA Twilight - ATEEZ

39. how long have you had this blog?

since,,,, the summer?

40. what are you excited for?

all my concerts coming up, seeing my parents in a few months, seeing my best friend in a few months

41. are you a better talker or listener?

talker?

42. what is the last productive thing you did?

eat lunch, that just speaks volumes

43. what do you want for christmas?

honestly i just want to be with my family

44. what class do you get the best grades in?

out of my psych, cj, and social work: social work

45. one a scale to 1-10 how are you feeling right now?

7 - the library is just really hot right now

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

Hopefully just being happy

47. when did you get your first heartbreak?

18? 19? I think I was 19?

48. what age do you wanna get married?

honestly never? going through a wedding is a huge deal and so is changing your name, so idk

49. what career did you wanna have as a child?

astronaut, fashion designer,

50. what do you crave rn?

to not be sweating my ass off in the library right now

I tag: @bangtantannie @carrotgguk @cafejoon @rmonochild @officialjoon

#tag game #personal

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yukipri · 6 years ago

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Otayuri

Thank you so much for sending this! ^ ^

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: Otabek x Yurio

When I started shipping it if I did:

I don’t ship them romantically at all, but definitely one of my fav YOI BroTPs!

My thoughts:

While they’ve only known each other for the shortest time during the anime, I think their friendship has a lot of potential and I hope to see it grow ^ ^ They’re both awkward af and don’t have much experience with close friendships, and at the beginning, I can imagine them both sorta nodding and going along with what the other says bc they assume this is just Friendship TM BUT they both have not a clue LMAO

I also think they have really complimentary personalities, especially since I see Yurio as the type of guy who needs someone to talk to, and Otabek is a good listener and can boost his confidence in the right ways. Yurio’s also brash and reckless whereas I see Otabek being more more careful, so I also see Otabek kinda going around trying to prevent/fixing Yurio’s disasters ^ ^;

What makes me happy about them:

I love imagining their friendship growing over the years until they legit know everything about each other. I love thinking about them having gone through so many awkward, hilarious, miserable, and absolutely joyous times together, and them being able to reminisce ten, twenty, thirty years down the line. I think they’d laugh at how awkward they were at first, especially compared to how they are as Veteran BFFs who’ve now been together through it all.

What makes me sad about them:

The fact that they (especially Yurio) didn’t have friends that they could trust up until they made contact in Barcelona, and it’s one of the reasons why they latched on so quick. Like I’m glad they clicked so fast, but it’s also a bittersweet reminder of a lonely past.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me:

When Yurio is hyper feminized in comparison to Otabek (especially in ways that are depicted as degrading because they are feminine, or Yurio is depicted as being ashamed of his femininity, because I personally feel Yurio sees his femininity as a powerful tool in his arsenal).

Things I look for in fanfic:

Them being super supportive, encouraging, and understanding of each other, but also getting to know and care for the people around them! I read a lot of Japanese YuriYuu fanfic/doujins, and I strongly prefer when Otabek’s in the picture, actively giving advice to not just Yurio but also sometimes Yuuri, giving insight in ways only a BFF can. I love the whole, “My BFF cares about you, which means I care about you.” OtaYuu is infinitely rarer, but same deal ^ ^ And as always, I don’t think a romantic partner is ever more important than a nonromantic one, and I like seeing them still value and spend time with each other!

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:

YUURI, definitely, strongly preferred AHAHAHHAHHA. Preferably both of them, together at the same time ^v^)b Co-husbands eyyyYYYY

Yurio I’ve always shipped exclusively with Yuuri, but until a year ago I was a lot more flexible with Beka and sorta liked him with Mila as a side ship. Now OtaYuu is a super core OTP for me AHAHAHAHA

My happily ever after for them:

Once again self-promotional since I legit designed this AU to be my personal ideal happily ever after for these characters, Future!Verse ^ ^;;;. You can sorta see my take on Yurio & Otabek’s friendship in this HC post HERE.

Who is the big spoon/little spoon:

Both big spoons, or rather Beka can Big Spoon Yuuri and Yurio’s just sorta splayed out over the both of them ^ ^;

What is their favorite non-sexual activity:

I like to think they can do anything together, but for this I’m gonna have to say road trips!

I feel like Yurio would eagerly learn how to ride a motorcycle by himself as soon as he can (and Beka has to make sure he doesn’t do anything too stupid or reckless, like try to ride without his helmet ^ ^;;;). I don’t think Yurio ever becomes as good a rider as Beka, but he gets darn close, and more than anything enjoys it and the calming meditative feeling of being on the road with just him and Beka.

Whenever they go somewhere that’s not in the city and they have some down time, Yurio and Beka will rent a pair of bikes and just GO. They like the country where it’s just miles upon miles of roads, sometimes with some stops planned ahead, other times just going until they see somewhere they want to stop. And maybe they’ll stop at a peaceful view with no civilization within sight, take some photos to send back and share the memory but not the experience, and then just chat for a few hours. I think it’s nice for them to be able to get away from the pressure of society and responsibilities once in a while, and just be the two of them and their bikes and the endless road. Then they’ll maybe hit their destination, grab some souvenirs, and then go back home.

send me a ship and I will tell you/Give me a character & I will tell you/send me 5 characters and I will rank them in order of preference

Please send me more~!

#Anonymous #YukiPri replies #Yuri Plisetsky #Otabek Altin #Ask meme #predictable and consistent YuriYuu + OtaYuu lmao #tho again I do love them as Best Bros ^v^)b #when she's older Arisa likes going on the road trips with them #she's the only one of the kids who ever gets really into it #Still working on the others but I can defs take more! <3

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ao3feed-victuuri · 6 years ago

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When JJ meets Isabella

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2QPzSGv

by Cinnas_muse

Yuri was pulled out of his thoughts as Otabek winked at him from across the room, holding up his phone and pointing at where Yuri’s rested in his lap. Yuri quickly unlocked it and swiped to read the message.

From: Beka Bear <3 I know this is boring for you, but, we’ll be done soon and then we can go home. Also, JJ is totally hitting it off with a fangirl right now.

Yuri’s head whipped up as he read the last sentence, his gaze drifting towards the other end of the table where JJ was seated. He was animatedly talking with someone. The woman(she’s definitely too old to be called a girl), was breathtakingly gorgeous. Her hair was chopped just above her shoulders in a style that Yuri remembered himself wearing when he was a teenager. But, where it had made him look like he was trying to keep 2000’s Emo alive, hers looked effortless and pretty. ___________________________ JJ meets Isabella and Yuri is forced to confront what he might feel for him, just as him and Otabek are getting closer to putting their relationship back together.

Words: 6323, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 2 of GOLD

Fandoms: Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M, M/M

Characters: Yuri Plisetsky, Katsuki Yuuri, Otabek Altin, Viktor Nikiforov, Jean-Jacques Leroy, Isabella Yang, Leo de la Iglesia, Lee Seung Gil

Relationships: Otabek Altin/Yuri Plisetsky, Jean-Jacques Leroy/Isabella Yang, mentioned Jean-Jacques Leroy/ Yuri Plisetsky, background Viktor Nikiforov/ Katsuki Yuuri

Additional Tags: Katsuki Yuuri gives good advice, Yuuri and Viktor are pretty good parents, Even though Yuri will deny they are his parents until the day he dies, healthy family dynamic, Denial of Feelings, Discussion of feelings, Otabek Altin is the best, Past Infedelity, Relationship Discussions, Yuri has issues with feelings, Established Katsuki Yuuri/Victor Nikiforov, Established Otabek Altin/Yuri Plisetsky, No Sex, surprisingly no song lyrics

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2QPzSGv

#ao3feed #fanfic #victuuri #victor nikiforov #katsuki yuuri #yuri!!! on ice #yuri on ice #yoi

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yoiotdfics · 6 years ago

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Fic Rec List August 2017

The Complexities of Eros

FullBladderLemons (orphan_account)

Summary:

Yuuri has to pee and can’t get out of his Eros costume…Victor helps. That’s about it. Pre-relationship/pre-canon.

Red As Carnations

v_larr

Summary:

“You made flowers grow in my lungs, and although they are beautiful, I can’t breathe.” ~~Unknown

Pillow Case

Creep

Summary:

He checked that he has all his stuff and he was about to leave when his eyes caught the pillow on the bed. It still had the imprint of Yuri’s head. On impulse, Otabek grabbed the pillow and took the pillow case, putting it on his bag.

He left his room and wondered what the fuck he had just done

sweet citrus scented sin

Yasuo_Karada

Summary:

Yuuri’s first mistake was consulting Chris for advice.

Yuuri’s second mistake was clicking on the link that was sent his way.

His third mistake was allowing the ‘Well…’ to pop into his head, as if that was enough to justify things, and before he knew it he was packing up two grapefruits into the cart, tossing in some oranges and a handful of random other fruit to make it less conspicuous. Viktor didn’t even bat an eye at the checkout.

Promises, Promises

mousapelli

Summary:

They really shouldn’t, but that never stops Yuuri and Victor.

Bachelor Party

justrae2010

Summary:

It’s not every bachelor party that you’re treated to a strip tease from your fiancee.

set my heart on fire

FunnyLittleOwl

Summary:

In a world where a broken heart was a literal condition, it was unbelievable to think any owner could be so careless with their own beating organs.

Victor Nikiforov was.

So it wasn’t the least surprising when his Heart decided to take matters into its hands.

(Inspired by the short In a Hearbeat.)

Jokes

kiazareni

Summary:

“Beka,” he says his name again and plays with the longer strands of black hair, strokes his nails against the bristles of his undercut, “you’re the worst best friend ever. Pay attention to me!”

Based on the tumblr prompt: things you said when you thought I was asleep

St. Petersburg is for Layers

Perpetual Motion (perpetfic)

Summary:

Otabek vs. the Russian Winter goes exactly how you’d expect.

he took me to my knees (and now he’s got me prayin’)

orphan_account

Summary:

Viktor and Yuuri try out something new: cockwarming.

your warmth is home

DefiantDreams

Summary:

Viktor Nikiforov would give Katsuki Yuuri the world, whether he asks for it or not. He wants to love Yuuri, and this is simply just one of the ways he knows how.

aka:

Viktor the service sub, ft. cock warming

in which otabek is a (dog loving) criminal

sshibal

Summary:

“I can’t believe you were getting dicked and didn’t tell me,” JJ says when he catches Otabek sneaking out of Seung-gil’s hotel room.

Seung-gil kind of/sort of runs illegal dog cuddling sessions during competitions; Otabek is his unlikely partner in crime. Or three times Otabek introduced people to Seung-gil’s dog on accident and one time he does it on purpose.

But Sometimes Family Picks You (goodbyes)

FyreFaerie

Summary:

He hadn’t been stupid. He’d known that his grandfather was getting old and worked too much for his age. He just hadn’t been ready to say goodbye

Warning: Character death (I feel like the summary kind of explains it though…)

Social Network Cinderella

Lanerose

Summary:

Yuuri calls Phichit the morning after the Sochi Grand Prix Final to let him know that he has found (and lost?) his soulmate.

Phichit comes to the rescue the only way he knows how.

The Perils of Praises

WinterSky101

Summary:

Mari and Minako were Not To Be Trusted.

call me!

its_nochillforov

Summary:

There’s a beautiful stranger on Yuuri’s train so of course the only practical course of action is reading over this beautiful stranger’s shoulder. In Yuuri’s defense, it’s actually a really good book. And the stranger’s cologne smells really good.

And in that moment, Yuri realized: he fucked up.

SparkleMeow

Summary:

“At the hospital:

*Viktor wakes up from an accident*

Viktor: Where’s Yuuri?

Yurio: Who do you think gave you this heart?

Viktor: *starts tearing up* no…

Yurio: JK he went to the bathroom”

Honey, Bee Mine

emeraldonyxdragon

Summary:

Inspired by a silly discord chat. Yuri loves going back to visit Gramps’ farm over the summer, but not so much when his indoor cat Potya decides she likes life outside better. After some fruitless chasing, Yuri decides that he might have to let Potya out more often if it means getting to talk to the young beekeeper next door. Also includes art!

[Art] Honey, Bee Mine - An Otayuri Beekeeper AU

thisiseclair

Boys & Their Toys

orphan_account

Summary:

“Yūri!” Phichit exclaims, picking up the phone on the third ring.

“What does it mean when your neighbor gives you a dildo?” Yūri asks without preamble.

On the other end of the line, he hears something that sounds like choking, followed by a series of violent coughs.

Idol Eyes

Sotakura

Summary:

Yuuri begins packing up his life in Japan, preparing for his upcoming journey to St. Petersburg.

Victor offers to help, but finds some surprises buried in Yuuri’s closet.

(or: Victor finds some hidden merch with his face on it.)

Intoxication

Zetal (Rodinia)

Summary:

After the short program in China, Chris goes out to dinner with a group of friends. Masumi, after spending months avoiding Chris, goes with them.

Katsuki “PDA Monster” Yuuri

Adrianners

Summary:

When he kissed Yuuri for the first time, Viktor assumed that would be the end of any public romantic gestures between them. Yuuri, however, had other plans.

Five times Viktor was surprised by Yuuri’s penchant for public displays of affection, and one time he wasn’t surprised at all.

Late-Night Drive-Thru

domokunrainbowkinz

Summary:

Victor gets hungry at 3 am and goes to McDonalds

Late-Night Drive-Thru (Cursed Version)

domokunrainbowkinz

Summary:

Victor gets hungry at 3am and goes to McDonalds. Yuuri is also hungry, and works at McDonalds. What happens next will blow your mind.

Mint Chocolate Chip

CrystalizedCherry

Summary:

Yuri’s never had ice cream before. Otabek remedies that.

Those Deadly Creatures

ilien

Summary:

Their human is moving in with Christophe. He should have warned them that Christophe lives with a monster.

As A Rule of Thumb

agroovymutation

Summary:

As a rule of thumb… good Catholic boys don’t try and summon demons. As a rule of thumb… 700 year old demons don’t entertain the summons of a 19 year old.

Otabek is a demon, summoned by good boy JJ.

burning in her firelight

TheCookieMonster77

Summary:

Sara likes dresses. She likes them vintage or off the runway, sleek or flowy. Mila’s seen the inside of Sara’s closet, bursting at its seams with endless colorful skirts and lacy necklines. Mila loves Sara in dresses, loves the way Sara loves herself in dresses, but never has Sara in a dress knocked the air out of Mila’s lungs like this.

Because this is Sara, wrapped up in a suit that’s all pinstripes and crisp lines.

“Surprise~”

two gay gals do some shopping

ItadakimASSu

Yuripaws

Summary:

Viktor has a special request involving sushi. Yuuri just rolls with it.

Ways to Love

Viktuurious (Sourwoif)

Summary:

Based on the writing prompt: “different ways to say I love you”

“Hey,” Yuuri returned, unaware of his interruption. He balanced two plates in his hands, smiling up at Viktor, “I got you some samosas and those shrimp wraps that you like.”

Viktor grinned and pressed a kiss to Yuuri’s temple.

“There’s more than one way to say it,” Viktor offered.

Yuri watched them, unsure how to respond. He settled with scoffing and walking off to find someone who made more sense.

call of the wild

thishasbeencary

Summary:

After his failure at the Grand Prix Final in Sochi, Yuuri goes home, but home isn’t back to Hasetsu. Home is the sea, where Yuuri lives as a siren, who feels as though he’s a failure to his family because he’s yet to place a successful Call on a mortal. It reaches Yuuri that Viktor Nikiforov has shown up in Hasetsu to coach Yuuri, and Yuuri doesn’t understand why, and doesn’t feel worthy. He’s not even human, but for some reason, Viktor has chosen to coach him. Nonetheless he goes back to shore.

For some strange reason, Viktor Nikiforov seems unbelievably attracted to Yuuri.

(Or: The canon divergent au where Yuuri is a siren.)

#yoi #yuri on ice #fic rec list #August Fic Rec List 2017

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impala-dreamer · 4 years ago

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Do you think fanfiction is really bad to get involved with? Let's say a 20 year old was writing and reading it, her parents find out. Thus advising her to stop, what do you think is wrong with that if it helps her improve her writing, excel creatively and ace her English classes?

Why would reading be wrong? All I’m ever told is “you should read more”

Why would creative writing be wrong?

Why would doing something that makes you happy be wrong?

Fanfiction is looked down upon but it is legitamate writing. It is creative writing. There is no difference between me spending two months writing a fanfiction series and spending two months writing a novel to publish. The only difference is the names. You know how I know? Because I turned one of my fanfiction series into my first novel. And sold a few hundred copies to ‘non-fanfic readers’. If I had called it fanfiction, they would have looked down upon it. But because it’s just fantasy fiction, it’s “fine”

A story is a story. And every story is based on another story. Every song is reminescent of another song. Should you not write poetry in your spare time because someone already wrote a poem about love? So it’s off the table now? It’s bad to get involved with?

I know a lot of writers who hide what they do in the fandom due to work or family. I feel terrible for anyone who has to deal with that.

Something that you love should be celebrated. You should be able to talk about it, share it, or- at the very least, not be criticized and brow-beaten over it.

If you want to be part of it- do it. Hide it if you must, but I think you should be open about it.

There is nothing wrong with reading or writing fanfiction. There is nothing wrong with fandom. There is nothing wrong with doing something that you love.

#fanfiction #beka gives advice?#writing #reading #Anonymous #Qs & As

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spnfanficpond · 6 years ago

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February 2019 Pond LiveChat Recap

We had a great time chatting today with @impala-dreamer!! Thank you so much, Beka, for joining us!

We talked about self-publishing through Amazon, how to do it, what the benefits are, and the challenges to making a finished product. A rundown of the chat, as well as some general Pond news, is below the cut!

Q: What sort of music do you listen to when you write?

Beka: Oh, uh... Well, Actually, I have a lot of playlists on youtube. So it depends. I have a hardcore smut list that is just music that gets my hips moving... then a romance thing which is feely stuff. A "Deanspiration" list that oddly has zero Zepplin in it, just stuff that reminds me of him or gives me ideas. Sometimes I hear a song and it instantly snaps an idea. I write to music a lot.

Q: For everyone, do you reblog everything you read or do you think likes have the same “power” behind them?

Beka: No. If I read it, I reblog, unless it’s iffy. Iffy means, I read it, but wasn’t up my alley or I think it would be too triggering for people. I avoid those types of fics, anyway.

@mrswhozeewhatsis: There is a very small percentage of things I read that I won't reblog, but then, I haven't really read them, I've noped out for one reason or another. Usually grammar/formatting or content, not writing style, to be clear.

@girl-with-a-fandom-fettish: I guess one reason I suck at reblogging is a lot of the stuff I read has nothing to do with what is currently reblogged on my blog and that just doesn't match in my very matchy brain...is that just me?

@mrswhozeewhatsis: I believe that everyone should be able to put on their blog what they want. Some folks see their blog as a collection like in a museum. Some folks, like me, see it as more of a news feed. Collectors are less likely to reblog because they're carefully curating their blog. My advice to collectors is to then make a side blog where you can reblog the things you don't want to collect.

Q: What’s the biggest challenge you find in writing?

Beka: I think the biggest challenge for me is writing in the moment. I can't write if it's not flowing, and sometimes I try to force myself just to get the story out bc i fear i'm letting people down by not posting enough? But it’s not good when I do that, so I have to let myself go with the story that's with me at the moment. Sometimes it's two at once, like today. lol. Also, Sam is hard. (heheh no really, he is. also he is. but pg13)

Q: There are so many questions to about this process!

Beka: I do really get asked about it a lot, and it's really not that hard once you do it. It's annoying to navigate and decide what you want to do, but it really is awesome and not too frustrating. Amazon is really great because they do have an extensive help section AND message boards so you can ask and talk to other self publishers so it's like having someone with you.

Q: You said you chose to publish through Amazon. Out of curiosity, were there any other ways you heard about or considered before you settled on Amazon, and if so, was there a specific reason you didn't use them?

Beka: I'm basically a Google fanatic, so when I decided to do this, I had no idea what I was doing so basically I goggled "How to self publish a book" and there were THOUSANDS of sites thrown at me. I honestly can't remember the other sites I looked at, but it basically came down to amazon was a company name I knew, I trusted, and had the best help and resources. And I have a kindle, so I figured that was easiest. I think I only looked into one or two others but I can't remember what they were. Amazon just stood out. I did read up on like actually doing it yourself like through a book binder and all that and it was SOOOO much work this was just the easiest and most cost effective.

Q: Okay, but with Amazon, do they, like, own part of your content if you publish through them?

Beka: NOPE. I hold copyright to all my works. they just are the people who produce the actual physical book.

Q: What was the time frame, like from start to finish, I guess? Or the process if you don't mind. What did you have to do to get set up with Amazon?

Beka: Ok- so getting set up was easy. if you have an amazon account, you're good. Or you just make one. then there is a website- kdp.amazon.com -and they literally walk you through the entire process. Someone up there asked how long it took - I rushed it. my novel started as fanfic, which I wrote in about 2 months, then I took 2 weeks re-editing and changing to non-fanfic, then about a week editing again and formatting and then i had my hard copy. So, all in- maybe 3 months, but the actual amazon stuff takes a few days to get you a book in hand.

@kittenofdoomage: One thing I will say about Amazon, it's very convenient but I struggled with the covers and formatting.

Q: Did you have to use special software to submit your work?

Beka: I write in google docs, but amazon no likey- so I had to move everything over to Microsoft Word. and from there it gets updated. HOWEVER, there is now in beta testing an amazon program which I downloaded for my 3rd book but was too frustrated to figure out so I never used it. it's specifically for Kindle, but kindle didn't like my poetry format so I couldn’t do it.

@kittenofdoomage: They have step by step guides. And I use Google Docs, too, but you can download into a PDF or .doc file from there.

Q: So it's not a copy-paste thing, you upload the completed file then reformat it for amazon?

Beka: well... it's two different things for paperback and kindle. There are specific formatting guidelines for paperback such as margin sizes and gutters and such so when you turn a page it's not all wonky. Kindle formatting is MUCH easier to do. you just upload and it does it for you. The files for paperback need to be formatted with specific things. it's not hard... just annoying.

Q: You mentioned changing your fanfic into non-fanfic. Does that mean you can't have any fan elements in a story to publish it?

Beka: Well... my novel was basically a J2 x Reader BDSM fanfic, and so I changed J2 to original characters, I changed the show, the car, the everything. If you know that I write SPN fic, and you read it, you can see it's clearly SPN, but those who don't know SPN don't know that, because I've asked. lol. Also- someone read it recently and thought the Jared character was Jensen, so I guess I changed it enough. I personally would not publish anything that actually said SPN or J2 or anything because those are copy-written characters and not mine so it does seem illegal to make money off of them, ya know?

@mrswhozeewhatsis: It is actually illegal to make money off of fan fiction. The WB owns the characters and the show. If anyone else tries to make money off the characters or identifiable elements of the show, the WB can sue and win.

@kittenofdoomage: Those who use Patreon are covered under fair usage only because Patreon is a donation site.

Q: Were there any parts of the process that surprised you?

Beka: Honestly, the entire thing surprised me. I went into it like just to see if it was possible and then i realized- I CAN’T publish my work. they WILL sell it. People WILL buy it. and it was all very shocking. It was scary, and I know people are intimidated by it, but it really was simple in the end, and if you want to do it- do it. It's awesome to look over at my bookshelf and see my name on actual, physical books ya know?

@kittenofdoomage: I was the same, Beka. I procrastinated for months. And okay, it wasn't a huge success but I learned from the first time, bettered myself the second time, and now.... I'm procrastinating again but that's not the point lol

Q: How much money do you make per sale?

Beka: It depends on the format and the cost you put. Like, for my short story and poetry book I make PROBABLY a few cents on it. My novel I make around $2 depending on the price I set. You set the selling price, and you can do sales and freebies.

@kittenofdoomage: You can choose everything. They tell you how much you'll make from each copy sold.

Q: Do they tell you how much other authors sell similar works for, to give you an idea what others think is reasonable?

Beka: Yeah, you can look it up, too. They have a chart that's like, "This is your sale price. This is how much we take to make it. This is how much you get," and you can fiddle with it.

Q: Is there any kind of marketing happening on Amazon’s side, or is it all you?

Beka: They can do promotions, but you have to pay them to promote it.

Q: Did you look into promotion costs through Amazon? What kind of money are we talking, here?

Beka: Honestly, I don’t remember. When I see a fee of any kind I run for the hills because I'm cheap like that. lol. It's prob not too cheap BUT they also have this thing you can sign up for that's like a library kinda deal where your book can go on the free book a month kindle deal- i didn't do it bc you don't get royalties for it. but more people read it? idk what's best. It's all very over my head marketing.

@mrswhozeewhatsis: I guess if you're looking to become a popular selling author, and you have the cash to pay to promote it, then after a few books, it would pay off when you develop an audience.

Q: Do you think self publishing is the way to go long term, or maybe a better in terms of testing the waters? I realize you are still in the latter stage but I'm curious about your opinion...

Beka: Here's my thoughts: I used to be a singer/songwriter. I played in Manhattan. I had paying gigs. I recorded an album. I thought I could make it work. But I didn't go for it. No one handed me a record contract. I let it all go to have my kids and family. I want to write. I realize no one's gonna stick their hand out and hand me a publishing deal. BUT I might be able to pay some bills with my books. I might be able to write enough, well enough to sell some books. and if i sell enough books, maybe a publisher WILL see me and then I can attempt the next stage. I think self publishing is great. Why not? Do it if you want to do it. If you want to write, write. If you want to share it, share it. Who's to stop you? And if you can share it through self publishing with people all over the world?? freaking do it, man.

Q: What is your best piece of writing advice?

Beka: OK, my best writing advice is... See it, feel it, write it. If you don't feel what you're writing, I'm not gonna feel it reading it. I think i'm more of an emotional writer than a descriptive. I can't tell you what the room looks like that they're in, but I can tell you how it feels that Dean just stepped on that Lego. ya know? Idk. Write what you see and feel, and put yourself into it, and it'll be amazing.

Q: Are you a planner or a pantser?

Beka: Planner? SOMETIMES. It depends. I have plans for series, but shorter things I just go with the flow. I'm constantly messaging Ashley like "DEAN JUST DID X. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING!" lol

Q: Do you outline at all, or just have a general goal in mind?

Beka: I do outline series. but not... strictly or drastically. Like, right now i'm working on a series for my kink bingo that's alternates between the brothers. I have a general plot line over all to follow, but i've also set it up like c1- flogging. c2- spanking, etc.

Q: What is something you know now that you wish you knew before you published?

Beka: I think I'd tell myself to not worry and just freaking write what I want.

Q: Do you have a writing schedule or something that keeps you productive?

Beka: No. I try very hard to have a schedule, but I'm a little... slightly... bipolar I think and my writing follows my moods. I can write 20K in a weekend and then nothing for a week. I just literally ride the wave of ideas. Like, currently I'm in a slump. but I wrote 10K this week before the slump hit. It's quite annoying.

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lumorie · 7 years ago

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So you ship otabek and yuri? Whats your stance on the age gap lmao

I don’t get why people make such a discuss because of it actually. Like two years…. that is nothing…??? Look I am now 22 and I am friends with people that are 20. So when I was 18 they were 16 and you didn’t had any feeling them being soooooo young. Actually my friend was always “more grow-up” then me because I am a big kid and she was/is responsible and know what she wants to do with her life since she’s like 10. SO… who cares about such a tiny gab except tumblr?

And would that mean: You shouldn’t have a relationship with someone not being your age? Do you always have to look after it? “Oh you are one year younger… soooorrrryyy… I only date people being less then a month younger or older…”

This is like over dramatic but I hope you get my point.

And with 15/16/17 you totally feel like you are an adult so when you date someone being a two years older… yeah and? Really it belongs to the persons. I never had the opportunity to be interested in someone being older than me so I can’t give any advice on it if it’s good or bad. But with 22 I do not care about someone being two years older or younger.

Wouldn’t it be great to feel love. I mean you always can make bad choices. They can be a huge douchebag in every age. So please talking about age gaps for non existing characters is for me so exhausting.

I always had friends being two years older or younger than me, my grandparents have a age gap from ten years, people I know are in relationship with age gaps bigger than two years. Once you get out of school age doesn’t really matter anyway. Not that I would go in a relationship with someone being ten years older than me. But who knows - If I find someone being perfect well who cares not me. Being happy is what matters.

So bringing it on the point. My stance is that I do not care about Yuri and Beka’s age gap as some other people here on this website. I liked to draw them, I like the show and just to say it Yuuri and Victor are way more apart then Yuri and Beka. ( I guess it was five years. OMG FIVE YEARS. Victor is bad for Yuuri!)

So, sorry for this loooooong response but this is what I think about it and you wanted to hear it and I do not address you especially. It was more a generell thing I wanted to say. Because people here should learn that you can block people/tags, unflollow them and should not attack others. Just enjoy life and let people be for such “unimportant” things like … a amazing series.

#I know how important fictional characters are #but they only should avoid things they do not want to see #a nd that's it #it's easy #so again #sorry for the ramble but this one of the reasons I do not care as much for the ship anymore #ask #delete later #once this will get a discuss I will delete everything #because I am here to enjoy art and theories xD #but thank you for your ask ^^#hope I could make it clear #long post #Anonymous

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bekayim-archive · 7 years ago

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Hey Beka, since its pride month I was wondering if you had any advice for someone who is still mostly closeted but wants to celebrate?

Hello there. The best suggestion that I can give is to celebrate as an ally. When I was still in the closet, it was what I would do. I would shout and march and cheer and wear all the colors and when asked I would say that I have close friends and family that are LGBT, this is me supporting them.

#stealthfire

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otabottom · 7 years ago

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Jjbek prompt anon-sorry for forgetting, you pick the category!

anonymous asked:

15-JJBek!

15 - “She’s/he’s not my boyfriend!”

When Otabek sighs for the umpteenth time like a lovesick idiot that he is, Yuri thinks, ‘that’s it’. He closes the magazine he’s been reading as forcefully as he can, slapping the pages together to get Otabek’s attention.

“All right, you dumbass. That’s enough of the pining. Please, just go text your boyfriend, alright?”

Otabek lifts his head up to glare at Yuri. He’s sprawled on Yuri’s bed like a starfish, hand over his head while Yuri has been reading on the couch like a normal person.

“He’s not my boyfriend!” Otabek insists. Yuri has never heard him whine, but the tone he just used comes pretty close.

Yuri rolls his eyes and throws a sofa cushion in the general direction of Otabek.

“Then make him your boyfriend. That’s what you want, right?”

It’s been infuriating seeing Otabek moon over that Canadian idiot. Mostly because Jean-Jacques is a huge douchebag, but also because lovesick Otabek is lethargic and lifeless, only perking up when there’s a message on his phone (and only to sulk ten seconds later when he realises it’s not from JJ). Yuri would spend all his free time dragging Otabek that the object of his affection is the literal dictionary definition of a fuckboy, but he doesn’t have the heart to do it. Yuri has never seen Otabek act like this towards anyone else. There was that awkward stage where he and Otabek tried out the whole dating thing, but that doesn’t count. They were pretty awful together, Yuri thinks. Awkward and completely on a different wavelength romantically. They are great as friends, though.

Which is why Yuri doesn’t want to sabotage Otabek’s love life, even if he thinks that JJ is no way in hell deserving of Otabek.

The sofa cushion is flung back towards Yuri, but Yuri is used to these kind of attacks so he just ducks his head while making his way towards the kitchen.

“I don’t know!” He hears Otabek’s exasperated voice from the alcove where the bed is. His voice is muffled, so Yuri suspects that Otabek has drowned his face in Yuri’s pillow (again). “Maybe! But he’s - he probably doesn’t even remember who I am!”

Yuri rolls his eyes again as he pours them both a glass of Coke. Not diet coke, but the real stuff. He also balances slices of cold pizza on top of both glasses before returning to the living room. He places the glass and the pizza on the nightstand next to Otabek’s head and returns to the couch, tapping an affirmative answer to Netflix’s ‘are you still watching Friends?’.

“Of course he remembers you, Beks. Just text him, for god’s sakes. You guys talked for hours at the banquet and he barely left your side the whole evening,” Yuri says, mouth full of pizza. He knows Otabek is going to force them to go running tomorrow morning, but before that he’s going to shove as much pizza into himself as he possibly can.

Otabek and JJ talked a lot during the banquet. Yuri doesn’t know whether Otabek had been thinking about JJ even before that (because he is a secretive asshole and Yuri has to constantly remind him to share his thoughts), but the banquet was the first time they met face to face. The Canadian boy sauntered over to Otabek to congratulate him on his creative short-program that gave him the best personal score of the season. Yuri didn’t hear the whole conversation (because apparently eavesdropping was rude), but he remembers how soft Otabek’s eyes went and how he couldn’t quite hide how nervous he was, standing in front of JJ. His cheeks were a little pink and he played with the collar of his shirt a little too much to seem casual.

Since the banquet, Otabek has flushed deep red whenever Yuri mentions anything about the subject. He spends all his free time looking through JJ’s Instagram and Snapchat, sighing and biting his lip.

“Have you seen his latest Instagram pictures, though?” Otabek asks.

“No.”

“He’s in most of them with some girl. He’s someone else’s boyfriend, Yura!”

Yuri gives Otabek an amused look. “Who, Isabella Yang? They’re not dating.”

“How can you know?”

Yuri is never going to tell Otabek that he’s done some snooping around like friends do, because, well, Otabek would murder him with his bare hands. But Yuri is friends with Mila, and Mila is friends with Sara, and Sara used to train with Isabella together in Italy. (It’s lucky the whole figure skating scene is this small.) Yuri requested Mila to ask around for him and yep - Isabella and JJ used to pair skate together when they were little before Isabella decided to drop skating altogether, JJ continued by himself. They’ve been friends their whole life, but they’re not dating. And in fact, according to Mila, JJ is very much interested in men.

“Because I listen to gossip more than you, Beka,” Yuri says with a shrug of his shoulder. “Just please, please message him. He was impressed by the fact that you mix your own music to your programs, right? Maybe you could offer to make something for him for next season?”

Otabek has been scrolling his phone, but he pauses to look at Yuri. He’s frowning, but he’s not instantly screaming ‘no’, so that’s good.

“That’s dumb,” Otabek says slowly.

“Well, you are quite dumb to like him in the first place, but here we are.”

Otabek licks his lips and glances at his phone. “I don’t have his phone number.”

“Just DM him in Instagram”, Yuri suggests. Who the fuck even sent text messages these days? Oh, that’s right - Otabek did.

“And if I did that, what should I even say?” Otabek asks, defensive but clearly desperate for advice.

“‘Hey’.”

“That’s it?”

Yuri lifts his brows to the boy. “Y-yes? That’s what people say when they start a conversation.”

Otabek flips his overgrown hair from his face. “Are you saying that you, who’s currently seeing three different ice hockey players and who’s had more boyfriends than I’ve had kisses in my entire life, just sends messages that say ‘hey’ when you want to open a conversation?”

Yuri gives the boy a pained look. He knows Otabek is not yet very experienced with dating, but holy fuck, Yuri had no idea he was this clueless. “Yes.”

“And then what?”

“Then they say ‘hi’ back and ask you how you’ve been. You answer them and ask them how they’ve been. They tell about their day, you tell about your day. They compliment your most recent selfie and you compliment theirs and boom, you’re exchanging dick pics.”

Otabek goes deep red and opens his mouth to protest. Yuri thinks he’s going to say something about Yuri being too gross or explicit, but instead what comes out of his mouth is: “But I don’t have any pictures of me on my Instagram. There’s nothing to compliment.”

Yuri smirks and lifts up his own phone, twirling it in his hand. “Babe, this is exactly why I have a whole folder dedicated to candid photos I’ve taken of you.” He pats the place next to him on the sofa. “Come here and pick one with me. After we’ve posted it, we’re going to message JJ.”

Otabek huffs and stomps to Yuri, throws himself into the sofa like this is the worst thing he’s ever had to do.

“Fine! But if this blows up in my face, I’m going to blame you,” he says, but Yuri hears the excitement in his voice. He huffs a laugh, because he remembers how he and JJ been in the bathrooms the same time and how JJ had fussed with his awful haircut for and opened too many buttons of his shirt before returning to talk to Otabek. Yuri is sure a fuck that JJ is thinking about Otabek, too.

“Just thank me at your wedding,” Yuri sing-songs as he begins scrolling through the pictures on his phone.

#jjbek #well kinda bc it's just otabek pining after jj #ficlet #my writing #lmao this was so fun to write??#i love my sweet boy otabek who's head over heels in love with jj #asks

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sanity-is-overratedxp · 7 years ago

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Innocent

A/N: Hey guys. I was feeling really down and upset when I wrote this and it came through strong. If you get triggered easy I recommend not reading this and just skipping to the next fic on your list. I’m pretty sure I put all the bad stuff under the cut.

Warnings: ***TRIGGER WARNING.***

Mental Abuse hinted at, slut-shaming, violence (reader slaps someone) and a lot of cussing and angst. But it ends happy.

Summary: You decide to go home for the week. What happens when your adopted mom has a fit? Based on the song Innocent by Taylor Swift.

Pairing: Klaus x reader with some other family member friendships thrown in.

Innocent.

It’d been a horrible week. You had just gotten back to New Orleans and all you could think about was how you never should’ve left, never should’ve gone back home to Texas. Every time you went back it always resulted in a fight between you and your adoptive mother. You never wanted that. This time had been no different, the whole trip had been full of derogatory comments about who you were, what you did and your elusive life. It seemed your mother was convinced that you were a drug addict who worked at a strip club or something along those lines just because you wouldn’t tell her every little detail about your life.

When you got there it had started out okay. No weird comments just inquiries about your job and friends. Nothing you minded answering. You were working for a company in the city doing your dream job, designing ad campaigns for the biggest names all across the globe. As for your friends, talking about the Mikaelsons was always enjoyable. They never failed to provide you with stories about their lives and while living with them you had plenty stories of your own. But the peace never seemed to last very long.

It had all started when you were telling a story about you and Kol’s latest prank while standing around the living room, “The look on Rebekah’s face was priceless! I swear I have never seen her so gobsmacked!” you said. Everybody had been laughing and it had been one of the best nights so far. “The only downside was she knew it was us who pulled the prank so I knew I would have to sleep with one eye open if I didn’t want retaliation. Lucky for me Klaus owed me a favour so he kept an eye out for Rebekah while I slept.” you said as you calmed down from laughing. All of a sudden a look came over your mother’s face.

You knew in your gut that something bad was about to happen when she opened her mouth, “You’ve mentioned him before… Klaus. Do they all have a key to your apartment or something? I mean that’s the only thing that makes sense to me for them to be able to get in your apartment to pull pranks…” you could tell she was fishing for something but you didn’t know what.

“They all had keys to my apartment back when I had one. But once I moved in with them it became a little harder to keep them out of my room.” you joked. You knew then what she had been fishing for. She hadn’t listened earlier when you had said that you lived with them. You knew that was weird that she hadn’t said anything about that.

“You’re living with them?” she screeched. “Let me guess, you’re in a relationship with the girl! No no no… that Klaus guy. I mean I should’ve known! There was no way you could have afforded those clothes on your own. Well maybe that hideous blue ring. And that necklace… that’s real diamonds I bet. How does it feel to have a Sugar daddy? Does he expect other things from you? You know what I bet he’s your Pimp! Gotta have the merch looking it’s best huh?” she screeched again.

“STOP.” you yelled. The look of satisfaction on her face as she accused you of being a whore had been enough to release a part of you that rivaled Klaus when he was angry. “Why? Did I hit the truth on the head? I bet I did. You never had the talent to make it as far as you have. Makes sense why you’re that successful. Your man bought the position for you.” You couldn’t take anymore at that point. You slapped her. And the worst part… you enjoyed it.

“If you say one more word about the people that mean the world to me I swear that slap will be like a hug in comparison. What would be wrong with me being in a relationship with Beka? She would be an amazing girlfriend. And Klaus, yes I’m dating him. We’ve been together for about two years now. But before you start. No. He. Is. Not. My. Sugar. Daddy. He loves me very much. As for my clothing and jewelry, I bought this. I bought everything I’m wearing except the ring that you called hideous. That Klaus got me. It’s our promise. The symbol on it is his family crest. I make a seven figure salary per year. And I earned that position with blood, sweat, tears and my own talent. And as for the accusation that he is my Pimp. I am not a fucking prostitute. I am in a loving relationship with my amazing boyfriend who if I asked… Would give me the world. But I never ask.” you grabbed your purse and phone and everything else you had brought with you. You had the foresight to book a hotel room instead of staying with them. You got to the door when you remembered something else she had said. “And about the merch looking it’s best? You better fucking believe it.” you said as you slammed the door.

As you got in your car you shot a quick message to your sister saying that you were leaving early. You drove back to your hotel room and crashed on your bed. You quickly changed your flight to the next one that day. That still left you with three hours till you needed to leave and you had minimal packing to do being the type to never unpack in the first place. So you decided to call Elijah, he always had the best advice and seemed to be the least likely to over-react about this. You pulled out your phone and said, “Ok Google, call Elijah.” as the phone was ringing you couldn’t help thinking about how this was the worst trip so far. You didn’t think you’d be coming back anytime soon.

“Y/N my dear, to what do I owe the pleasure? I know you are supposed to be visiting your family, has something gone wrong?” you smiled. Elijah always seemed to know what was going on with you.

“Is Klaus around you? I know he can hear me through the phone.” the last thing you needed was Klaus finding out before you could be there to calm him down. “I believe he is at home painting. He tends to do so when you are away. I can go find him if that’s what you wish?” “No! I just wanted to make sure he wasn’t there. He doesn’t need to find out until I’m home. Otherwise he might do something rash.” Elijah grew quiet. “Y/N what has happened.” he said with a quiet voice.

“Just a horrible mother who can’t handle the fact that I am happy, successful and in love. She umm… she called me a slut. And then accused Klaus of being my Sugar daddy. I just… I need someone with a clear head to talk to about this.” you were starting to get nervous as Elijah remained silent. “Elijah? Are you still there?”

“Yes Y/N I’m still here. Though I fear I may not be able to help you.” He said quieter than before. “Why not?” you were confused.

“Because at the moment my first thought is to join you and defend your honor by killing her. But I know that is not what you wish so I will refrain from doing so. But… I believe it is time for you to return home. Before anything else occurs that breaks what little restraint I have on the matter.” He seemed to be fuming on the other side of the line.

“I booked the next flight home. I’ll be back tomorrow. Can you come pick me up? I don’t want Klaus knowing till I am there to calm him down.” you were starting to have trouble controlling the tremble in your voice.

“Of course I’ll be there waiting for you and as per your request, Klaus will be none the wiser until you wish so. Get some sleep… your family awaits your return.” He hung up the phone. You couldn’t wait to get back home. Maybe then you could allow yourself to cry. If you did so now you wouldn’t stop even on the plane. So you held yourself together and started packing.

*Timeskip to after the flight.*

The flight had been uneventful. You hadn’t had any problems and as always first class was a good place to catch up on sleep. You had just got your luggage from baggage claim. And you were looking for Elijah. Just as you were starting to get worried that you had given him the wrong arrival time you saw him. With a sigh of relief you started to feel your walls crumbling. You ran to him dragging your luggage behind you. “Elijah!” you called out. He smiled and pulled you into a hug which surprised you. He was never one for public affection.

“I’m glad you are home. Klaus is still unaware as per your request. Though I am unsure how long that will last.” He said as he held you. Elijah had always been like a brother to you. He was always willing to listen and give advice, and seemed to have an endless supply of old quotes.

“Well at least I’m here to calm him down now.” you could feel the first tears coming down your face. You didn’t want to ruin Elijah’s suit so you pulled away. Or at least you tried too. “Elijah I’m going to ruin your suit.”

“I do not believe I care. Suits can be replaced. You need this right now and I know it, so let it out. I can always get a new suit.” He said as he rubbed your back. The soothing motion was all it took for you to let go. You felt kinda stupid crying your eyes out in an airport. But you knew you needed it. The tears stopped coming after a couple minutes and you pulled back. “There. Much better, now I believe it is time for us to leave for home.” He guided you to the car and put your luggage in the trunk. You knew things wouldn’t be this peaceful for long, you had to go home and tell Klaus everything that had happened.

You arrived home and Elijah took your bags inside. After coming back he informed you that the house was almost empty. The only ones home were Haley and Hope. You smiled and went inside. “Y/N! You’re back!” you were promptly tackled by Hope who had begun to see you as a second mother.

“Hope! How have you been sweetie? I missed you.” you had missed the entire family because you knew that this family always had your back no matter what.

“I found a dog yesterday! It was big and it came right up to me and let me pet it.” you chuckled at that. Klaus probably had a fit about that. “Daddy even let me keep it!” That surprised you. Klaus always seemed to not want a dog. You also wondered where said dog was as you hadn’t seen it yet. As if on cue you were squashed under a mountain of fur. “Bear no!” Hope called out. You tried to find a way out from underneath the dog that was aptly named Bear. Though he apparently only wanted to lick your face and while you were all for affection this was a little much.

You felt the weight being lifted off of you. “Bear no! We do not squash the nice lady.” Haley handed him off to Elijah, “take him outside please. And maybe take Hope with you? Me and Y/N have something to talk about woman to woman I believe.” you knew what Haley was talking about and you were grateful Elijah had already told her.

“Of course, come on Hope. Let’s see if we can’t teach this mountain of fur a few manners.” Elijah joked while sending you a quick smile. Haley helped you up and pulled you into a deep hug.

“Whatever that woman said, Whatever you believe, just know that we all love you and support you. And if you need me too I can tell the others for you.” you felt the tears coming again.

“If you wouldn’t mind… could you tell them? It might be more than I can handle…” your voice trembled.

“Of course. I’ll tell Kol and Rebekah now. I can hear them coming up. Klaus won’t be back for a bit though. He had to go handle something.” Haley knew that you knew he would come home in a heartbeat if you needed him.

You heard the door open and you could hear Beka’s laugh. “No Kol. I still think that woman wasn’t interested in you because she was too busy eying the cashier.” She laughed.

“But the cashier wasn’t nearly as hot as me! I don’t see how I could lose to him…” Kol replied. It was then that they both saw you. You had been crying and it was evident in the redness of your eyes. They both ran over and hugged you at the same time. Bombarding you with “I swear I’ll kill them.”/“Who did this?”/“Where are they.”/“Are you okay?” at which point Haley yelled out.

“GUYS.” They both stopped and looked at her. “She can’t answer if you don’t give her a chance.” They both backed up and looked at you expectantly. Haley beat them to the question though. “I will actually be telling you while Y/N here goes and takes a long hot shower.” you looked at her gratefully. You didn’t wanna be there while they found out.

You ran to the shower and started the water while finding all your favourite candles and a bath bomb. You grabbed your speaker and phone and set it up to play your favourite playlist. You then sent a text to Klaus telling him you were home and asking him to talk to Haley before he came to see you. After you got everything set up you slid into the bath. You could feel the stress starting to melt away. You were home and that was all that mattered.

You were sitting there listening to the music when one of your favourite Taylor Swift songs came on. You debated skipping it but you knew that listening to it would be good for you. You couldn’t help singing along to it. It fit everything that had been going through your mind all day.

“I guess you really did it this time

Left yourself in your warpath

Lost your balance on a tightrope

Lost your mind trying to get it back

Wasn’t it easier in your lunchbox days?

Always a bigger bed to crawl into

Wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything

And everybody believed in you?”

Things hadn’t always been like this between you and your mother. You used to have a pretty good relationship with her. But somewhere along the line things had changed.

“It’s alright, just wait and see

Your string of lights is still bright to me

Oh, who you are is not where you’ve been

You’re still an innocent”

You couldn’t believe you had slapped her. After everything that had happened you had never been violent… you just kept living that moment over and over again.

“Did some things you can’t speak of

But at night you live it all again

You wouldn’t be shattered on the floor now

If only you had seen what you know now then,

Wasn’t it easier in your firefly-catching days?

When everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you

Wasn’t it beautiful running wild ‘til you fell asleep

Before the monsters caught up to you?”

You’d been dealing with this for years and yet you couldn’t see it ending. You knew what you needed to do. But you didn’t know if you’d have the courage to do it. Things needed to change and you knew you would have to change them. So you grabbed your phone careful not to drop it in the bath water.

“Time turns flames to embers

You’ll have new Septembers

Lives change like the weather

I hope you remember

Today is never too late to be brand new.”

You typed out the perfect text. It was concise and to the point. No misspelling or improper punctuation. You just didn’t know if you could send it.

Who you are is not what you did

You’re still an innocent.”

“Love, can I come in?” you heard. You knew that voice anywhere.

“You don’t even have to ask Klaus. You know I will always want your company.” You put your phone down as you saw the door open and his head come into the light from the candles.

“How are you doing my love?” you shrugged. You weren’t doing great but you were doing better every second that Klaus was with you. “Want some company in there?” he asked. You moved forward as a silent assent. You heard him shedding his clothes next to you.

As you felt him settle in between you and the tub you could feel the heat from him. When he got comfortable behind you he pulled you back into him gently. You settled onto his chest and everything seemed to fall into place. Nothing could keep you down if you had the love of someone as amazing as the man behind you.

“Love… are you truly alright? You know I would do anything for you.” You smiled as you felt him kiss your shoulder sweetly.

“I know Klaus. I just want to cut her out of my life without cutting out the other people I know.” You felt him chuckle behind you.

“Well I mean, I could always kill her?”

“Klaus!” you slapped his leg.

“What? It’s just a thought!” he said as he laughed.

“You’re horrible… but I love you for it.” You knew he really would do anything for you. That’s when you got the idea. You still hadn’t sent the text because you were having trouble committing to it. You grabbed your phone and opened it. “Klaus…” he hummed an assent. “would you… send this text for me?” he grabbed your phone and looked at it.

“This one to your mother? It’s a bit nice don’t you think Love?”

“I did it that way so she can’t show it to anyone and use it to turn them against me. She knows a lot of our old family friends and they’ve known her longer so they’re more likely to trust her than me. Which means, I don’t want to give her any ammunition to use against me.” Klaus shifted behind you.

“Alright darling. If that is what you wish… There.” He handed back your phone. “It’s sent.” You felt a weight lift off your heart. This was the first step towards becoming a better you. Cutting her out of your life had been a last resort but after what she had said to you… it was necessary. All of a sudden you heard your text tone.

Klaus stiffened behind you. “Was that her?” you looked at your screen and saw her contact name. “Yes…” you felt him move his arm forward. “Give it to me. You don’t need her negativity anymore. Let me delete it before you can see it.” you thought about it…

“No. I need to do this. While I know I can lean on you for these things I need to do this myself.” You opened the text and your heart shattered again. Maybe this was a bad idea.

“Y/N what’s wrong.” You handed him the phone. After a few seconds you heard him growl. “Give me a second Love… I need to pay your dear mother a visit.” you could feel him getting up behind you.

“Klaus no! Please, She isn’t worth it!” you held him in with you. He turned you around to look at him with ease.

“No Y/N. Anyone who causes you pain… whether it be emotional or physical is worth my time. And this horrible woman has been doing so for years. If you had asked me I would have killed her long ago with glee. For you Love… the Mikaelson family would go to war.” You had started to tear up and he wiped away your tears with the pad of his thumb. “But if it’s what you wish… I will leave her alone.” You nodded. “Alright then. But if this happens again. If you get any more texts from her like this. I am going to kill her, and at that point… I’m sorry Love. But you won’t be able to stop me.” He smirked and you knew he meant what he said. You turned back around and settled back into him.

You had both been quiet for a bit when you said, “So… you let Hope get a dog… Where’s mine?” You felt him laughing behind you.

“I didn’t really have a choice with Hope. She brought it home and said “We’re keeping him. His name is Bear.” and that was the end of it. I don’t think I could’ve said no if I tried.” You laughed.

“Well then. We are getting another dog. This one will be female. Hear name will be Nevermore. And she and Bear will not be spayed until she has had at least two litters of puppies.” He slid his arms around your middle.

“I have no say in this do I?”

“Nope.” You said popping the “p”. He chuckled.

“Nevermore huh?” you nodded yes. “Edgar would be proud.”

“Lost your balance on a tightrope

It’s never too late to get it back.”

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