#being the only one to mourn
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well i think an nge au with vash would be fire. if u even care
#vash who is the grown up#nai who “died” a child soldier in the 2nd wave#as in they found the eva empty and its core was gone#love the idea of vash sitting down on his brother's 10th death anniversary#a day of international celebration#being the only one to mourn#and of course they make him get in the robot btw. for the 3rd wave#bc hes the only one with any eva compatibility#even tho he hates to sit in his brother's coffin#and the core is a child that only remembers violence and the angels keep telling him they love him and they're waiting for him#vash getting progressively more mech pilot insane... tasty. TO ME#milly and meryl are his govt assigned friends so he doesnt go crazy being a pilot#it helps to a Point#unfortunately the angels can reach him even whn he's not in the machine.#where does the machine end and vash start#why does the boy in the eva look more human than him#why is Everyone more human than him#the boy in the eva says 'take my hand. we'll fight like humans. teeth and claws. make it bleed until it stops'#also the supercomputer will be called LIVIO/RAZLO#for the reasons we all suspect
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What a lovely family portrait👨🏻👨🏻👦🏻🖼️
Enhanced image of A-Yuan's first sword flight.
#Modern AU WWX is a pro skateboarder who got vestibular damage after a head injury and-#-has such bad vertigo he can never skate again. But has to keep finding excuses to not reveal his affliction.#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#a-yuan#ask#I honestly have no idea if A-yuan would have flown via sword before this point.#But I can absolutely see him being 1) So delighted and 2) Very Unaware of the danger of hieghts.#At the age he is - it's also likely that he just trusts that these adults will keep him safe.#This is all to say: A-yuan's danger sense is not yet developed and flying is the coolest thing that has happened to him. Maybe ever.#The discussion in the comic tags/comments about how sword flight got me thinking about how it works when someone had passengers#If using a sword requires having a goldern core - what about riders who don't?#I have to imagine it is like currents and magnets. And LWJ is the only one who is magnetized to the sword.#WWX is but a unpolarised clown on a swiftly moving object with a low friction quotient.#He's not the untamed anymore. He's the untethered. He made it through the trip through sheer force of will and hand strength.#The only equivalent I have is#He keeps refusing to get in cars/buses because he 'loves to walk'. He mourns his days of sick drops. Chenqing is his walkman.
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Lost boys
#mayhem art#star wars#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker fanart#obi wan kenobi fanart#star wars art#this one was sitting in my drafts for about a month. idk why I was holding onto it -cries- anyway#this is shortly after Qui-Gon's death. Both of their lives just got flipped upside down. Anakin is traumatized by having to leave#his mother behind‚ then his Master's sudden death‚ and he's left with no certainty in his future.#Obi-Wan just witnessed his Master die‚ helplessly‚ then having to take care of this little human in his Master's stead‚ meanwhile feeling#wholly inadequate to be so suddenly knighted let alone immediately becoming a Master and taking responsibility for another being.#Both of them losing the constants in their lives. left uprooted. the only anchoring point being each other.#I imagine Obi-Wan wouldn't reach out to Anakin first‚ but if Anakin expressed compassion with him‚ grief‚ and his need to feel secure‚#Obi-Wan wouldn't turn him away#this was just my excuse to give them a proper soothing hug in their time of mourning
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Have some very low effort AU doodles
#Heng is so pretty…#Shuanshuan had an older sister now and they will get along great#them together is too much cuteness in one room Yi’s heart will implode#also the siblings reuniting was definitely quite shocking for both of them#Yi had been mourning her for two years at that point while in the peach blossom village#Heng I think would only have been awake for a few months at this point so she hadn’t quite gotten to the point he had#she had also been having to cope with her entire life being taken from her so it was just a lot#she’ll definitely get over the emotional whiplash of Yi being alive way faster than he will with her#he’s suddenly rethinking his past choices..#art#my art#doodle#nine Sols#nine Sols au#stowaway au#nine Sols stowaway au#nine Sols yi#nine Sols heng#nine sols shuanshuan
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bee's protective nature over anyone persists even as a ghost & i think he sometimes forgets or doesn't care that only star can see him (sadly no touch tho) & will start shouting & angrily try standing between people who are mad at starscream even tho he can't be seen, he just wants to try & help anyways bcs STOP IT >:(!! BE NICE !!!! cried the ghost no one can hear or see except for the poor guy getting yelled at & trying to overhear the conversation over bee's frantic rebuttals while trying to discreetly let bee know it's ok while ALSO trying not to look Insane .
continued attempt at a 4am drawn doodle comic below
i might draw detailed later but yeah i just wanted to give yall this headcanon bcs i love starbee so much... the nagging wives finally finding their true loves... another nagging wife.
' you .. do know only i can hear and see you, unfortunately, right? or are you starting to go loopy, because i don't need another insane figure haunting me. I have enough already, as you can try and fail to imagine, little bee . '
' trust me, im Well aware .. of everything you just said . .. but i just. i couldn't just Stand there and do Nothing while someone talked to you like You were Nothing . that's not the autobot way. that's not- my way . '
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#starbee#transformers#maccadam#tf idw#transformers idw#bumblebee#starscream#bee posting paragraphs of opinions no one cares abt to his new twitter after his old one got sniped#for telling megatron to offline himself#except no one gets notifs when he follows them except for starscream for some reason so#starscream is bee's only follower but bee keeps posting paragraphs abt anything anyways#' atp just dm me bee.' ' OPTIMUS. CaN YOU BELiEVE HE SAID THIS TO ME????? I CANNOT BE- ' optimus has never touched twitter in his life#jazz made and controls his twitter for him but no one knows bcs jazz uses it to roleplay as optimus and mourns bee being dead#bee keeps commenting hes not dead but jazzOptimus never gets the notification & hes rlly popular so rip bee#i love starbee bcs starbee is when theyre both cringe but free#when the foils meet and have fun the world burns but i am at peace bcs i love them so fking much#anyways um hiii if u guys see this and wanna be moots hiiiiii id love to be moots pls just comment hi or smthing#i need tf friends sobad#sorry for drawing bee like hes princess peach but im not bcs he is indeed my princess#he is my beautiful princess disorder#starscream social distancing from ppl & making ppl think hes an even bigger awkward jerk (he is) but rlly it's to give bee#space to stand between the conversators with his hands on his hips to exchange glares between the two#or just so starscream can see his opinions on the guy hes talking to better#'i think' 😾 that's a'😾 ' it's a gorgeous' 😾 i dont Like that Guy starscre'PLAN'#( um.. why are you shouting..) ' ...... NO.REASON. ' bee in a corner whistling somewhere#starscream grinding his fucking teeth#hes so fking annoyed at his ego being hampered by this hauntful creature but also it's so worth it to see bee be brought out of that#smiley ' lets go autobots!! yes sir optimus sir! ' shell he always puts on for everyone else so it brings starscream away from his#egotistical shell as well and they just both encourage growth from each other by being silly and cute and WAGHH TOGETHER#WAGHHH WAGHHH I LOVE STARBEE WRAGHHH!!!!!!!
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There's something about blurryface (album) that's kind of like. Sticky. In the way that your skin is sticky when it's summer and it's past midnight and you have the window open to try to sleep but it's still too warm. Or, sticky, in the way that your hands are clammy when it's drop dead winter and you're driving around someone else's suburb, looking down the weird little leftover alleys between houses and wondering if something's going to be standing there looking back at you. And you are profoundly lonely. And you walk to a gas station, it's september maybe, and everything smells like spilled gasoline and stale cigarette smoke and there's brightly colored trash in all the gutters and all the neon signs glare off the asphalt, and when you go into the convenience store the single employee looks at you like maybe there's something weird about you, but you don't know what it is. Too quiet, maybe. Something wrong with your face. You don't smile enough. You don't want to be smiled at. It's dark all the time. But it's also springtime and the sky is pink and everything feels fleshy and delicate and rabbit-esque (tiny little heartbeats bursting everywhere), and you pick the first dandelion you see growing through the sidewalk cracks and it gets sticky milk all over your fingers. And you are profoundly lonely. You're pretending things would be better if you lived in a city where it rained more often and you could feel the hum of passing train tracks under your feet, but the truth is you're going to be lonely everywhere you go because there's this sticky ugly hollowness in you that you can't wash off no matter how hard you scrub. And maybe it would be better if you drove back home and closed the window and never left your house again and let all the lightbulbs die because something about the dark hurts less. You're running from something. What is it? Why can't you ever quite catch your breath? Why are you so sure this all has to end badly? You grew up but haven't yet learned how to grow out of anything. It's dark all the time here. Your face isn't the right one but there are no other faces. Your skin is sticky and you can't sleep. You are profoundly lonely.
#twenty one pilots#blurryface#tyler joseph#josh dun#this is based off a thing i wrote years ago and lost#smashed it out in 10 minutes and im not editing it bc my brain is fried#doing bad. i want to eat goner. hometown only song of all time. that's the post#also this should be a separate post probably & not just tags but#thinking about. how a lot of pilots pre trench is about wanting to run away from something (usually yourself)#and midwest indigo says actually we can't play that game anymore we grew up too much#stressed out is like. when you hit the part of your 20s where it truly sinks in your childhood is over#and mourning that#and midwest indigo is the next step kinda. where youre confronting the painful mundanities of adulthood and adult relationships#i think a lot about pilots being a Growing Up band bc i have grown up with them but also because they get it right
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We only see each other at funerals
(On Jason, Thalia, Nico, Bianca, and their parallels/connections)
The Titan's Curse (Rick Riordan), @/anxiousmaya_, Right Now (Gracie Abrams), The Battle of the Labyrinth (Rick Riordan), Joan of Arc (Mary Gordon), The Lost Hero (Rick Riordan), Episodes Toward and Elegy for Halley's Comet (Lindsey Drager), Jason Grace (Riordan Wiki), The Gods Show Up (Michael Kinnucan), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), What the Living Do (Marie Howe), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), Planet of Love (Richard Siken), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), Tangerine (Nolune), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), I Bet On Losing Dogs (Mitski), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/abhorarchive (Twitter), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), Seventeen (MARINA), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/rollercoasterwords, The Tyrant's Tomb (Rick Riordan), @/the-overanalyst, Where Things Come Back (John Corey Whaley), Grit (Silas Denver Martin), Softcore (The Neighbourhood), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Frost (Mitski), @/moonbends, I'm Your Man (Mitski), Sun Bleached Flies (Ethel Cain), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Three (Sleeping At Last), My Art
#nono you don't understand it's about the siblings#it's about how thalia lost jason once only to get him back and lose him again#it's how jason and bianca both walked into their deaths with their eyes wide open#it's about zeus trying to kill nico and bianca and him doing nothing to stop jason from dying#it's about thalia being in the hunters and nico hating her but he knows how to grieve with that kind of loss#so he'll help her. for jason. for bianca. because no one deserves to mourn a sibling alone#like these four barely interact but they're soooo connected i could go on forever#i'm so sad thalia and nico never actually got a scene together after the burning maze#and ALSO#it's about the fact that reyna is one of the most (if not the most) important people left in their lives#LIKE#do you think thalia found out how close nico and reyna were and started watching her more closely#because every person the two of them have shared has ended up six feet under#so reyna gets annoyed with how protective thalia is but she doesn't stop her bc part of her can tell thalia needs it#and nico constantly checks to make sure reyna's life force is still strong#bc he never wants to be caught off guard by a death again#ok im done now i promise#the trials of apollo#trials of apollo#nico di angelo#reyna ramirez arellano#reyna avila ramirez arellano#web weaving#fanart#my art tag#thalia grace#jason grace#percy jackson#percy jackson fanart#bianca di angelo
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Considering the idea that Angel could find a LOT of information, either on tapes or in files. During their time in the factory. Do you think they'd share with the toys who they once were?
Or would they just... Let the past stay in the past?
if they could even get to each of the surviving toys' files, which, unless they're lying around in the open, are probably locked in a filing cabinet somewhere.
if they did manage to find their files, y/n would ask the toys first. do you want to know?
and i think that the toys would say no. poppy seems like she may already know who she used to be, kissy would be too upset by it, and dogday doesn't think it matters.
they appreciate y/n going through the trouble of looking for them, but there's no way for it to be fixed. there's no way for them to become those people again, so what would knowing change?
(some wonderful fics take the idea that y/n gathers up all the evidence of playtime co.'s wrongdoings and gives it to the police. files, tapes, any evidence they can find is bared to the public. they can't fix what happened, but they can at least get a little justice for the victims)
#i wouldnt want to know#if i had been so fully changed and conditioned into believing that i was something other than myself#and physically changed beyond any ability to fix#i dont think i could cope with the fact that i could never go back to being me#id rather just have the knowledge that i used to be human so i only have one thing to mourn
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Has anybody thought hard about falmer culture.. not the snow elves idgaf, i mean the blind people who domesticated Chaurus bugs and make poisons, the falmer who were coerced into blindness by the dwemer... like, theyre blind. Hows their life? Their culture? They have hairstyles and armor and structures. Do any of the falmer have a favorite chaurus, feeling a notch in their chitin and knowing its their favorite? One falmer whos better at making poison than the others so everyone always hands them the nightshade... break up fights between their tamed frotsbite spiders and their chaurus..... do they do eachothers hair? They have what seem to be shrines or maybe storage containers we cant access, someone had to make those. Someone made the homes and the fences and the chests. Are there baby falmer? Grits my teeth i give a fuck about the falmer. Dwemer when i get you dwemer......
#skyrim#falmer#i love. autism#everyone is so mean to falmer they didnt ask for this.....#for non skyrim fans the falmer are elves#they were being genocided so they went to the dwemer (dwarves) for help#and the dwemer agreed but only if they ate a fungus that would blind and warp them#then all the dwarves disappeared and its a big mystery but the falmer remain#so theres all these dwarf ruins and the only people left are the falmer and bc its skyrim instead of a good game#the falmer are just enemies to kill wothout regard#grits my teeth... falmer.......... do you think they mourn when their chaurus die and are reborn as chaurus hunters...#do they have language or writing. instead of looks ots texture and sound thats important to their culture#they grow mushrooms! they cultivate mushrooms for alchemy!!!!#i wish skyrim was a good game instead of a shit one
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In my daydreams, this is where you lean over me and slap the wall
#thefatfemme#Some very self indulgent gifs of Taash's first romance scene#They're just so cute I can't help it#And this is a whole new experience for Tillie#She's only short compared to other Qunari#she thinks of herself as tall and to most people in her life she is#she's not used to being the small one and she's also not used to being pursued like this#her heart is doing flips about it and I love how it's written all over her face#girl's got it BAD#Rook x Taash#OC: Mathilde Ingellvar#Taash#Taash dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#datv#Veilguard#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#dragon age#Rook Ingellvar#Mourn Watch Rook
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andrzej sapkowski in the witcher presents his reader with many curious and refreshing takes on the fantasy genre, such as "what if dragons were good" and "what if elves were incels"
#i joke it's more like what if the ethereal being had angsty mournful man feelings#that he has feelings but can't work through them because#overemotionality is considered base and human so he's basically been bottling all of this for centuries#the elbow-high diaries#plus that his only purpose was really to be with lara and now she's gone and so what does that make him#i'm not getting all MRA lmaoooo what i'm saying is that there needs to be two to make a baby so he was one-half of that#and destiny didn't work out as planned so ... this is all that's left#reading ch 5 of lotl for the first time: THIS IS SO MESSED UP WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO CIRI!!!#reading ch 5 of lotl again and again: my god EVERYONE here is so messed up and SAD. well except eredin#eredin is like cool im gonna go fight a unicorn#'what are you talking about he wanted to kill auberon?' but not in a very intelligent way he was like to ciri 'so you wanna... kill him?'#imo book eredin is kind of a meathead and it's kind of refreshing with all these 4D chess players around
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gina’s opinions on valentine’s day reflected in her wardrobe
#hsmtmtsedit#hsmtmts#gina porter#s2#2x03#2x04#*#ginaporteredit#black = mourning#such a way with words#this has been brought to you by me not realizing there were tiny little hearts on gina’s sweater until i made that set in jan#i’m still on a self-inflicted hsmtmts ban but. this doesn’t count#only one gifset standing between and my hsmtmts rewatch - i will be back to being annoying over here SOON#ewit
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*grinds my teeth together and pretends to be normal about people reducing Bilbo taking Frodo in to simply a Bagginshield thing with zero regard to Frodo as a character save how he can be compared to Thorin or Bilbo and zero regard for the deeper reasons why Bilbo might have been compelled to take in a young hobbit at that stage in his life*
#man…..#frodo baggins#bilbo baggins#it’s happening a LOT in Bilbo and Frodo’s tags rn#why would that be the only reason Bilbo thought to take Frodo in???#im POSITIVE there was more than one blue eyed brown haired child in the Shire. y’all have to go a little deeper!!!#once again reducing Bilbo to the mourning widower with absolutely nothing else!!! maybe Frodo’s PERSONALITY WAS INTERESTING…#Frodo is not Bilbo and Thorin’s love child!!!!! he had parents!!! isn’t it a cooler story to have that complication????#like it’s fine to call attention to similarities but the thing is I’ve only ever seen Frodo’s appearance being cited as the ONLY reason.#that being reminded of Thorin would be the only reason Bilbo would take Frodo in#it’s also putting Bilbo in much more of a fatherly role than I think he actually was in canon— Frodo called him ‘uncle’ for a reason!#I don’t at all mind some fan imaginings and such. it’s just when people reduce these stories to such 2 dimensional angst plots#I’m bitching a lot on here but man it’s sad when the majority of people just are fine with engaging in shallower and more trope driven ways#then actually taking the story and all it has to offer with merit and working with it
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Holding out hope that the writing in veilguard will get more bearable but rook saying to lucanis that it's "not nice that Spite hurt him" and he "shouldn't accept that it’s fine bc it wouldn't be ok if a person did that" like. That is a demon. Built off a single emotion called SPITE. Rook I am finding it really hard to believe that u have lived in thedas for more than 30 seconds.
#wow the demons which are one of the consistently evil forces in these games did something bad#hey players do you know that that was not nice#ok thank you. do u think I am 4#dav spoilers#veilguard spoilers#dragon age the veilguard#also grinding my gears that everyone (including dalish elves???) just immediately accept the evanuris are evil/have come back#like the first person to not immediately believe it is the first warden and honestly he is the only character so far I respect#like maybe if this was like inquisition and a huge hole in the sky/rifts opened everywhere#but it seems like nothing like that happened but everyone somehow magically knows about the ritual and instantly believes everything rook sa#the more I think about these things the more annoyed I get#guys did you know being a leader means u sometimes need to make hard decisions... varric taught me that in my ma15+ game#i am enjoying the combat at least lol and I like Bellara and want to see Babylon so I'm in it for the long haul#why does everyone have a gun to their head making them nice though like it's so painfully out of place sometimes#and being able to only say the same thing but in a slightly boring slightly funny or slightly serious way is driving me insane#like I seem to be the only one who had no problem w the limits on dialogue in inquisition but this is driving me insane#Mourn watch rook what if you were somehow boring and nice. yay thank you bioware#ALSO rook stop talking and forming opinions without me getting to choose what u say like no I don't want u to day we have to save that perso#ok I swear I'm done now.. I need to go back to writing my thesis instead of grinding my teeth about this game#this is all coming from an inquisition enjoyer as well (sorry) but like so far I have found nothing I enjoyed about inquisition in this game#maybe if the inquisitor and Ghilan'nain are cool latee on I can focus on that (big maybe)#I am only early on still (just met first warden) so there is still time... i guess..
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@vulpixisananimal sifstem art jumpscare!! more specifically i got bored and decided to mess around with sif and mal's outfits.
#my art#this is how I think theyd present themselves either in person or in headspace. the slouchers <3#sifs outfit is simple; the boots i always give them (but with star laces for funsies); loose sweater; simple pants#the pants are Meant to be jeans but isat doesnt Specifically Have Jeans so. theyre just Pants.#the sweater is slightly looser bc sif doesnt seem like a Form Fitting Clothes kinda guy to me but hes Trying to be more open#on particularly good days theyll roll the sleeves up or wear a sleeveless one methinks#even if everyone Knows abt the self-harm scars its hard to Look at them.#i also associate them being more open with them not wearing an eyepatch. esp bc hes the only one of the three to go without it#for mal (or 'ami' as i like to call it) i wanted smth reminiscent of a mourning outfit bc mal du pays means homesickness#and i picked 'ami' as a nickname bc ami means friend :] at least according to my basic translator. i dont speak french <3#ami's outfit being dark is also reminiscent of the inversion thing its got going on in canon.#ik the veil is starred in the original but i think ami would want the fewest reminders of home. on account of The Issues#(actually if i can come back to sifs laces sif also has issues with reminders of it bc of the memory loss but the shoelaces are His Choice—#—which gives them a form of control over it and they can keep it subtle or undo it if he wants. which makes it easier)#anyway. i put amis hair in an updo and smoothed the hat bc i think ami wants to be Unremarkable. Unknown. so it keeps its silhouette Simple#(it still keeps the pins. theres smth comforting abt them. they shine like stars and theyre not stars and theyre not Home. but theyre You.)#and i kept the long hair i gave loop. dont ask me why its so long when the canon hair is short. maybe their hair kept growing over the loop#OH and i drew ami in a side profile bc Silhouette and also bc i think itd make an effort to keep people away from its blind spot#andddd i think thats about it? plus i actually managed to keep this one within a reasonable timeframe.#if their hair changes lengths/the proportions change between drawings. no they dont 💛 peace and love and body craft#OH AND YOU FINALLY GET TO SEE WHAT I MEAN ABT SIFS BOOTS BC THESE ARE THE BOOTS I GAVE THEM ON MY REGULAR DESIGN ARENT THEY NEAT#i did actually try to give sif a different font but nothing Works for them like the pixel font. i cant explain it.#i think 'ami' would be a nickname that mira gives it. bc. shes Fantasy French. and its a sort of 'youre more than your yearning/loss' thing#me every time i think abt sifstem: yeah they just rotate in my head. nothing major#me every time i talk abt sifstem: oh hey im almost at tag limit again#au Good what can i say
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i do have words and a story to tell,
it's just really fucking hard sometimes when
these are all pieces of me i feel like i should keep to myself.
#today it's mourning all the wips that will never make it out there bc insecure writer hours never ended#but in all honesty#to the too scared to share my works with the world writers#to the this much isnt good enough writers#to the will i ever improve and will it ever become something i can be proud of writers#the only doing this for the validation and the i want someone to love this as much as i do writers#to the ones too scared of pouring out their hearts only to be met with no response#and the ones who envy how easy it seems for others#the ones who wake up at 2 am with a thought and write until the break of dawn#the ones who dream more than do#and the ones that do more than dream#to not being able to look back bc you feel like you have nothing to be proud of#or getting bored of your own stuff and thinking who would ever read this#to every writer really#you're all doing so well#and you got this#be patient w yourselves#you're allowed to put things to rest#you're allowed to start a new project#you're allowed to do whatever you want to if it makes you happier#everything is within your hands
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