#been thinking about morty sooooo fucking much

[twocorvids]

sure sure Rick is really fucked up and should eat glass, cool cool— can we please discuss poor fucking morty for a second?

the way he clung to robo-Rick, literally let go of the ledge to go die with the version of his grandfather who he felt actually loved him— a version only capable because he was forced to love him. programmed to.

the way this kinda reframes solaricks for me in a particularly devastating way. obviously Rick wasn’t a robot at that point, (he was only one for the morty sun ep) but I’m talking more specifically about how this frames morty.

“you’re my grandpa, Rick.” and what a spectacularly shitty grandpa he is. “Rick and morty, a hundred years.” and god, morty truly seems to be keeping his word even to his absolute detriment. and it honestly hurts to watch at this point— the way morty keeps clinging to Rick and trusting him despite the traumatizing shit he pulls as easily as he breathes. from a plot point it almost doesn’t make sense, but when considered with the context of who morty was and who he is now…. who else could morty turn to?? who else could morty be? who else does he have but this abrasive, dependent monster who loiters around as his grandfather??? whether he likes it or not— Rick is the only constant in his life. Rick is the only grandpa he’s ever known— all other family is replaced, recycled, and buried. he’s a terrible consistency that drags morty down far more than ever raise him high, but a consistency nonetheless. I’m not saying that morty couldn’t do/be anything else without Rick— but from mortys perspective???

god, what can this poor kid fucking do?

[avaisnerdytoo]

What makes C-137 Rick different in the eyes of Evil Morty? A simple list.

I had this drafted around when the episode came out and I hadn't finished it, sooooo here you go heh:

This is arguably a pretty obvious set of answers, I'm not making any big deep dives here or anything, but I felt curious enough in wanting to see some kind of realized list of how many ways our Rick is different from his counterparts, specifically to the eyes of Evil Morty, that's to say, within the show, what kind of interactions have made Evil Morty slowly chip away in his absolute ideas about our Rick specifically.

Contains content since season 1, but mostly Season 7 due to the amount of interactions.

Bullet point is the actual list, indented is additional, but optional, context I deemed valuable:

C-137 Crying: Obviously the first would be Evil Morty - through Evil Rick - seeing our Rick cry when seeing baby Morty, even if we don't have that explained yet, this genuine care that shocked E-M this much was only reinforced in Season 7 when Rick, just before going to hunt Rick Prime told Morty he "couldn't go", evidently so that he stays safe.

This is extra reinforced when Evil Morty and Morty Prime join Rick against our big bad, E-M throws an insult right away expecting the reason for Rick's frustration to be "they did something cool and I didn't" (a jump cut), but no, C-137 only says... "You brought Morty???"

Evil Morty is a Morty registered within the Council's data base, he's been passed around, probably adopted by various Ricks, of whom clearly view that service as a tool to reinforce their detachments. Even if there is a petty and truly emotional reason underneath the existence of such a program, the Morties in those centers only see the very worst of Rick, because that's who they are paired up with, they only see how disposable they are every single time, time and time again.

C-137's respect of Evil Morty: Right away as S7EP5 begins, and E-M joins in with our duo, he's immediately greeted with what I am willing to bet is a different kind of attitude, one of respect. Rick is not dissmisive of Evil Morty, granted he knows his capabilities, however he even compliments Evil Morty on his journey to fucking off, a life style he very much enjoys - supposedly, but still - this is reinforced the moment Evil Morty suggests the modifications to the fracking machine, one which Rick takes notice of an implements right away, no insult attached interestingly enough.

That respect is also seen after Rick connects the dots with Evil Morty being responsible for hacking his Portal gun, back in Season 5, a detail which most Rick's would've arrogantly shrugged off by underestimating Morty. I am not saying respect can't be earned from other Ricks, after all he was president, but I am focusing the basis of this on Evil Morty's absolutist mindset regarding how Ricks are meant to be.

Teamwork: Although Rick points out the same logic we as the audience and fans did in theories prior to Season 7, regarding the assumption Evil Morty would hate Rick Prime more than our Rick because he's even worse, the actual teamwork simply plays out naturally, first through circumstance, but then by convenience. Nonetheless in each step Rick is once again cooperative with Evil Morty, treating him like an equal in a way that I think we haven't really ever seen before besides Beth, and sorta Summer.

I feel it's no small detail that E-M's first instinct after grabbing the Portal guns they were quickly tinkering with to escape the box was "don't freak out", the subsequent lack of freaking out also reinforces all of the shit I'm repeating myself on haha, again list of the obvious remember?

And finally the most obvious: C-137's goals are focused on avenging his Wife, as we well know. This singular detail already places him on a different bracket of existence as Rick's aren't meant to care for anyone other that themselves, even if this goal was the reason that fueled Rick's cooperation, signs of respect and more towards Evil Morty, he still did them... That would also technically place the other trapped Ricks, like Nerd Rick or James Bond Rick, as other challengers in Evil Morty's views.

This is how Evil Morty finally showed a crack in his absolutist views about Ricks.

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"You are a little different, Rick..."

Maybe I can use that someday...

[sadiecoocoo]

Sooooo I just noticed another difference between morty and evil morty…

Whenever evil morty is in a fight, he seems calm and collected. He acts like he already knows the ult one of every fight he’s been in. He plans ahead, and knows who he’s fighting so he has no need to worry about losing a fight.

Morty, on the other hand, is a fucking psycho. During the purge episode, he purged like no other. When he destroyed that narnia place at the start of season 5, it was in a blind rage. He doesn’t think before he fights. And sure, he worries before hand cuz that’s just who he is. but when he gets into it, everyone who tries to beat him is FUCKED, especially when Morty has some of Rick’s tech.

Another example would be in the episode with the death crystals. Morty found out that he was in danger and that one of his bullies may actually try to kill him, and did he try to resolve the situation peacefully? No, he stole a bunch of Rick’s tech and obliterated the people who tried to hurt him.

Morty’s even shot Rick before because everyone was insulting him and he couldn’t take it anymore. Of course, it was a fake gun, but it was obviously implied that Morty didn’t know that.

Also not to mention the fact that Morty dominated a fight pit in a post apocalyptic world because he was pissed about his dad leaving. Morty even refused to go back with Rick because he didn’t want to leave the only place where he could get his anger out (there were probably better ways but yknow he’s a teenager and this is Rick and morty where the characters healthy versions of themselves are still pretty fucked up in their own way)

So, what I’m getting at here is that Evil Morty is calculating and weighs his options to get the best outcome that will benefit him. Morty, in a fight or flight situation where he’s been pushed to the edge, fights like the everything he’s ever cared about is on the line with little regard for who he has to kill or hurt to protect himself.

Morty is scary as fuck sometimes

Edit: I keep thinking of different scene where Morty goes fucking insane with a blood lust, so another example would be when he fucked up Ethan’s anatomy and shit because he made Summer feel bad. Ppl rlly need to stop messing with Morty, like that mafia boss in the Jerrick Trap had the right idea…

Another thing, in the Jerrick Trap he felt no remorse when shooting down all those guys in the mafia when he had just spent a few hours of getting to know them (he was probably just making them run errands for him but he was still technically hanging out with them, I mean he played ping pong with at least one of them)

Another edit: there r so many clips of morty loosing his shit and being a murderous psychopath I need to stop editing this every time I think of one lol… but remember the vat of acid stuff? Morty was annoyed that Rick wasn’t listening to him even though mouthy was ultimately right. He was sick of having to sit around in a tub of fake acid waiting for guys that he and Rick could easily kill to leave. So when he finally had enough, he just got out and tried to shoot them.

This child needs so much therapy.

[fandomwe1rd0]

Wrote a songfic with the song "This is Home"

TW FOR SUCIDIAL THOUGHTS UNDER THE CUT

Often I am upset, that I can not fall in love but I guess, this avoids the stress of falling out of it.

Rick was sitting in the brown driver's seat of his spaceship. This wouldn't be quiet.

"No wonder Bird person rejected you, who would want to date a piece of shit like you?"

His grip on the steering wheel tighten, his jaw clenched.

"You're just a drunk alcoholic piece of shit…"

He fucking knows that. Shut up.

"Unity and Birdperson were smart to leave you when they did…they would've just died like Diane."

No.

His grip on the steering wheel was so tight that he thought it might break.

"Don't fucking bring Diane into this." Rick demanded though clenched teeth.

"Awwww, what's wrong? Did I touch on a sore spot? You deserve to be remembered of it anyway, it's your fault."

Don't.

Please.

"Diane would've been here too if you didn't stand there motionless like a pussy when the bomb dropped to her feet. You would've not been the horrible piece of shit you are now, but noooo, you had to sit there like the little bitch you are."

Rick let his head fall on the horn as it let out a long, loud honk.

Are you tired of me yet? I'm a little sick right now, but I swear, when I'm ready I will fly us out of here.

Rick walked into Morty's room, smelling heavily of alcohol

"Heyyy buddddyyy." Rick slurred out when turning on the lights.

Morty blinked and his face scrunched up when he smelled the sour smell of alcohol that hung over Rick like a weighted blanket.

Rick hugged him and Morty groaned "Rick I need to go to bed, I have a test tomorrow."

Rick laughed drunkenly. "You don't need to worry about that silllyyyyy. I'll just take you out of school! You don…you don't gotta worry about a thing…g-grandpa's got you babyyyyy"

Morty threw his head back and groaned "I don't wanna get t-taken out of school Rick!"

Rick hummed glibly as he nuzzled into Morty's shoulder and Morty sighed "You're not listening to me, are you?" Rick just giggled "I-I'll take you o-on a fun adventure buddyyyyy" Morty rolled his eyes "mhm…" "Y-you're gonna have sooooo much fun, I promise." Well that was a flimsy promise… "Sure I will…."

Rick laughed "Y-you're funny…" "Hilarious." Morty spat out with an undeniable venom in his voice. "L-let's go right now!" Rick took Morty's hand while Morty kept the other one fisted in the sheets "Rick! I just said-" "G-grandpa had a tough day today, he needs his little budddyyyyy." Morty struggled when Rick pulled him out of bed "RICK!" Just then Rick passed out. Morty got free from his grip and went back on his bed, looking at his grandfather's passed out body on the floor and sighed, muttering while shaking his head

"What are am I going to do with you?"

(...) I can't really think right now and this place, has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane.

Rick heard all of the sounds, the beeping and saw all of the bright colors. Blitz and Chips was cramped due to the recent redecorating and Rick was less than thrilled about it. He gripped his hair as he gritted his teeth. It was too much. Too many people up against him, too much noise, too many colors, too much of everything. Just

too.

Much.

He removed his hands from his hair and gripped his ears, fighting the urge to rip them out so he wouldn't hear the noise anymore. His head was pounding and he felt tears spring from his eyes. He felt like his legs could give out at any moment.

He hated that he could feel every little touch. It was too much, too much, too mu- Morty tugged on his labcoat "R-Rick are you-?" "Shut up." "But-" "MORTY SHUT THE HELL UP!" Morty flinched

"Nice going dumbass, now the kid hates you."

Rick growled as he tried to go to a quieter place.

(…) Are you dead? Sometimes I think I'm dead 'cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head

"You should kill yourself." Rick's inner voice reminded him for the millionth time. Rick didn't have a lot of reasons for living to be sure.

"It's your fault Diane got killed, it's your fault Unity and Birdperson left you. You should try killing yourself again." Rick's inner voice hissed.

"Why don't you? Nobody loves you anyway"

Rick looked over at Morty, who was asleep with the side of his face pressed up against his window. He let out a exhale with a fond smile on his face.

But I don't want to fall asleep just yet.

(…) Get a load of this monster.

"R-Rick-" "What?" Rick growled out his voice laced with poison.

"Why are you mad? I s-saved your life-"

He doesn't know how to communicate.

"You could've gotten fucking hurt!"

"So? S-Since when do you care?!"

He grabbed onto Morty's shirt collar, pulling him off the ground, as his feet dangled in the air

"You think I can fucking lose you!?"

"YES! You constantly tell me I'm replaceable!"

"Do you have any idea how much fucking work it'll take to replace you?!"

"Then why don't you replace me already!? You already did once!"

His mind is in a different place.

Rick's grip on Morty's collar tightened. How the fuck was he supposed to tell this kid that he was his reason to live?

"You fucking weak ass bitch. This is Prime's grandson. You should just kill him to end Prime's bloodline.

No.

He can't.

Will everyone please give him a little bit of space?

He dropped Morty as he turned his back on him.

"Just go."

Morty looked down to the floor and left, leaving Rick alone in the garage.

Get a load of this trainwreck, his hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet.

Morty hugged his knees, crying. Out of anything, he thought fucking saving his grandpa would earn him a little bit of affection, but nope! He can't do anything right! No matter what, Rick would only ever see him as a worthless sidekick. He gripped onto his jeans so tight, they almost tore.

"You're so weak." His inner voice snarled "Of course he would never love you, who would?" Morty hiccupped as he sobbed desperately into his knees.

Rick went into his room and his stomach dropped when he saw Morty crying.

"Look at you, you made a little kid cry you piece of shit."

Goddamit. He has to ruin every good thing in his life, doesn't he?

"Just leave. You can't help him. You know you can't you'll just make things worse."

Rick's grip on the doorknob tensed.

It was right.

Just as he was about to leave. Morty looked up at him with wet, red, and puffy eyes.

Well fuck. He can't leave now.

(…) But strangely, he feels at home in this place.

Rick went over and sat at the foot of his bed, stretching his hand out "Mo-" Morty drove into his chest, sobbing. Rick sighed, wrapped his arms around him, and muttered to himself so quietly that Morty couldn't hear him

"You're gonna be the end of me kid…"

[intertexts-moving]

YOUR TAAAAGS YOUR TAGS YOUR TAGS YOUR TAGS. ok. off is kind of hit or miss for most people because its so weird and vague and i am extremely biased bc its one of my favorite thinfs ever BUT. i am going 2 say i think u will love it actually. its got soooo many fairytaleisms. its got tragedy. its got extremely morally grey characters. theres no good guys or bad guys. ITS GOT WEIRD LITTLE GHOSTS !!!!!! look at these bitches i used 2 doodle the off spectres in my notebooks like constantly they feel like home 2 me

the art style is so unsettling and creepy. its got sketchy lines and weird freak of nature characters. i am going to be EXTREMELY selfish here in saying that i think u will very much enjoy the art style and also i want 2 see how u would draw some of the characters bc ur style is very monochrome and messy (<< i mean this in a beloved sense i love your linework so much) and i think it fits the vibe so perfectly. on a completely unrelated note are you still taking commissions.

ITS GOT ONE OF THE ALL TIME BEST OSTS EVER BTW. i still have the main battle theme (which is called pepper steak btw. best name for a song ever) as my ringtone on my phone. my video game ost rank goes 1.portal 2 2. off 3. undertale 4. minecraft. the off ost holds higher regard in my brain than undertale. shaking your shoulders it fits the vibe of the game soooo perfectly.

i will not get into the story too much here bc i already talked about some vague spoilery stuff in that post and i dont want to tell u too much more in case u do play the game urself BUT. ohhh my god. i could talk about the story for hours. u can ask aster after we finished the game we sat on call for like 2 hours while i walked her through my personal take on the ending and then she gave me her thoughts on the ending and EVEN THOUGH WE PLAYED THE GAME TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME (i streamed it for her) WE HAD DIFFERENT OPINIONS ON THE END. ITS SOOOOO FUCKING GOOD its one of those things where like. its so open ended that nobody ever gets into fights about what the "right ending" is because. well. there isnt one UGH i love that shit.

also zacharie is here. he is such a beloved character to me hes been one of my biggest huge comfort characters since like. 2015. i love him. hes like sans undertale for people in 2008. he was the original sans undertale. i think they would be best friends

oh also despite the fact that the setting is very much like. weird abstract, sort of fantasy sort of industrial, the main character is a fucking baseball player. hes so out of place its so funny

^ official art btw. to give u a taste of mortis ghost's art style. its so silly and weird i love it so much

OK THAT WAS MY OFF PROPAGANDA SORRY FOR INVADING UR INBOX I LOVE YOU also ive been in a huge off mood for like 3 days now and have not been able to talk about it so im EXPLODING now

OHHHHGHGHGHGHHH. MACKERELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL MAC U CAN'T DO THIS TO ME..... ohhhh my god. ok. ok yeah im pinky promising u right now i WILL play it. like. SOON. it looks so good hooly shit. game that i can TELL will rearrange my brain. also it looks SO nice... i like the art style so much. mac u are GETTING me here u KNOW what u are doing. u cant just go ros theres an unsettling morally gray tragic game with an incredible ost and weird art and NOT expect me to go fucking bonkers.

[sjweminem]

Is top surgery worth the lack of epic tits. Will I be real boy then

i promise that most people would tell you differently and they are the ones to whom you may want to listen more but. in MY experience???? god no. if i could go back i would never do it again- but i don't want you to get the wrong idea, you should probably get MORE of an idea re: why i feel what i feel and endured what i did. so. storytime about That Year (many of you already know which year 😭) but first i want to start on a light note because BOY do i know the epic tits struggle!! i was so proud..fuckin 5'8" with 32Ds that were so naturally perky even the surgeon commented on how that gave us options.....rest in peace god's greatest creation

AND!! before i begin! do keep in mind you do NOT have to get a wholeass mastectomy, i mean it's fat that hangs off your chest, no arbiter of maleness. you could totally go for a breast reduction down to the precise size/shape you want, then as for passing, depending on your clothes, binding would be easy as hell and for other clothes, not even necessary! i wish i had the foresight to do that

my surgery experience was traumatic (not the actual surgery, my doctor did an incredible job) but i was in for a slide leading, as months went by post op, into the year i. died forever (2015) as the person i was. simple. it began w being left with this tremendous, unfixable ribcage and sternum deformity that we always knew was there but my boobs were big and hid it- but getting that vest and bandages off was a horrible, horrible experience. facing what was underneath, what i had so been hoping would be a body that felt, perhaps, even more like my own, like all the experiences i'd heard and the big step it meant blah blah etc- i quit my AMAZING JOB for this! i thought i had an even bigger future!! but i fainted when i saw that deformity in plain sight, and one which turned out to be on THE most severe end of standard cases so i found little solace in looking up other images.......i was worse than all of them. and that future i had in reach and was kinda counting on eventually dropped me, too. zero life structure, just this frightening body to look at all day.

so naturally being on the schizophrenic spectrum i bodyslammed into a full blown, unrelenting dissociative/depersonalization state and effectively began cutting ties with my body (even going so far as to cut IT off lmao you can do some seeeeerious shit if you have analgesia!!! 😭 even still- like last month i tracked some major healing w photos and my left arm looked to be in fucking livor mortis.. another reason probably to not listen to how i answered your question). i stopped feeding the fuckin thing, thought i might lose enough weight to PHYSICALLY leave it??? overdosed on dilaudid that i shot up w one of my IM hormone needles & snorted ambien, sat on my floor day and night bloodletting into jars as much as i could get out of myself till approaching fainting, bc that jar of blood meant SOME part of me was able to escape! this is a VERY very condensed and censored little back-cover summary of what 2015 meant, and still does every minute of my life.

this is zero of what you asked for really, but i can't speak simply about the worst trauma i've ever endured (and i legit WATCHED my dad die), it is so heavy in me it rages in me physically i can't speak it quickly, and unfortunately it happens to begin with that simple operation, and i think you should know whom you're asking and what advice to perhaps take with a grain of salt..cuz if i PERSONALLY could do it all over again i never would have gotten that mastectomy, but that has sooooo much to do w my wildass unique factors!!