#because we have time to think about how horrible capitalism is and they dont want us to have any more power ❤️

[gwensy]

sorry for reblogging fugly trends from 2012 it's for my enrichment

[tittyinfinity]

My partner and I were discussing his new job. Found out that he produces $6,250 of value per hour. Gets paid about 0.5% of that.

Most people could have their wages increased by 5x-10x or more and the owners of the company would STILL be VERY well off.

This "inflation" is 100% artificial.

[monsterswithimagines]

Undisclosed Desires - Part 11

Joe Goldberg x female!Reader

Summary: Twenty minutes before he would have met Guinevere Beck, Joe meets you instead. You intruige him, but it will soon become clear that there is something off about you.

Words: 951

Masterlist

Guysssss I'm sorry if this sucks. I spent all day at the office wishing I could write and then I got home and people just would NOT leave me alone and I had to keep taking breaks 😭😭. Also I kind of didn't know how I wanted this chapter to go at all but now that I'm past it I'll probably have less trouble.

I'm not mad, (Y/n).

It's been three days and you're still avoiding me, but I'm so not mad that I give Ethan a raise and that I buy Paco dinner twice and that I smile at everyone who walks into Mooney’s. That's how you know I love you: I understand that you need time and space to figure out how you feel. And I can wait. And I don't take it out on others. Love is patient, after all.

And this is love. I know it is. You said I am great, and cute, and ugh, and that means something. But you said it yourself: you are ruining this by avoiding me. And when I text you, you're short with me. Why are you doing this to us? Are you the kind of girl who sabotages good things?

Then you finally text me properly. It's a long string of texts, and I want to ignore you because I'm not mad, but I'm a little disappointed in you, honestly, and I think that's fair. But the more I read, the more I smile, and I know I will not ignore you.

YOU: ok im so sorry i know iv been super distant and rude and that is totally on me and id love to tell u iv just been busy or whatever but the truth is actually that i've kind of been avoiding you?? i know i know im a mega bitch. plz forgive me 🙏🏻

YOU: but heres the thing iv never??? done this before??? like gone on dates and gotten drunk and spilled my guts to a guy and liked a guy

YOU: like this is so embarrassing bc i might just be making a super big deal out of nothing

YOU: iv had like six coffees today im sorry im not making sense

YOU: iv never had a boyfriend before and i dont have any other friends here and also im kind of like. super insecure??? so

YOU: you can interrupt me any minute now

YOU: pls

ME: Just give me a moment.

Ethan isn't here to watch the register but honestly, (Y/n)? I don't care. There's only two people in the store and they've both been browsing forever. They're just going to end up buying books they will never read, so I go into the office and close the door behind me. And then I call you.

You answer right away.

“Hey, you,” you say, embarrassed.

“You should have too much coffee more often,” I tell you.

“Uh, no, never again. I have a horrible headache.”

“I'm sorry.”

“It's okay,” you assure me. I hear something slam in the background. “Oops.”

“What are you doing?”

“Just rearranging my furniture.”

“Okay. Why?”

“I'm having a… day,” you say. “Sometimes I just have these moments where I have to change something about my life right this second, you know?”

“So you rearrange your furniture and you text guys illiterate love confessions.”

“Illiterate!” you exclaim. “I will have you know I am a copywriter, and I'm very good at my job.”

“Uh huh.”

“My failure to capitalize my texts is entirely on purpose.”

“Right.”

“And so is the lack of commas.”

I keep quiet, and you realize that I called what you sent me a love confession. You don't correct me because you do love me. You do.

“So,” you say. “Thoughts?”

“I like you. I think that's pretty clear. I went to a music festival with you, and the music was terrible.”

You laugh.

“But I don't want to push you into anything. Have you really never had a boyfriend?”

“Well, there was this boy at summer camp when I was twelve. We held hands on the swings and he shared his Nintendo with me. But I don't think that counts.” I've never wanted to kill a twelve-year-old boy before. “Then there was a girl when I was fifteen. I liked her but it turned out she was just, like, experimenting. So was I, really. We lasted two weeks.”

A girl, huh? This isn't something I expected. But I don't react, because I know you want me to react, and you also don't always like to get what you want right away.

“But no,” you conclude. “I've never actually dated anyone before. That doesn't mean you're pushing me.”

You are so brave, (Y/n). You've never been in love with anyone before but here you are, taking charge.

On your end of the phonecall, something else slams. Then something shatters. You curse and someone knocks on the office window, and I hold up my finger at him to indicate one minute.

“Hey,” I say. “Do you want me to come over and help? After work, I mean.”

“No. I mean, yes to coming over, but no to helping. I'll just get annoyed because you're not doing it exactly how I want it to be done.”

“I'll just bring food, then.”

Another kock at the window. I'm going to kill this guy.

“Great! I'm craving pizza,” you say.

“Pizza it is. Toppings?”

“Pepperoni. And jalapenos.”

“You got it.”

“See you tonight, Joe,” you say, but what you really mean is I love you.

We hang up and I go help the man. I am so nice to him, because you have invited me to your apartment. You want me there. You want me to sit on your bed and feed you and watch you move your books around because you love me, and you told me you've never had a boyfriend before which means you think I am your boyfriend now.

Closing time can't come soon enough.

[blorb-el]

superman: lost finale

tldr: huge L for people who want to see clark reintegrate into his life with people who love and accept him even when he doesn't feel he's 'being' correctly due to his enormous amounts of horrible trauma (me). but also huge W for people who want to look at clark ultimately addressing his trauma by doing something so batshit insane he would never ever inflict on another person but his self standards are so toxic babygirl you are SO fucked up (also me)

short plot recap: at the end of this issue, clark and hope go back in spacetime to the beginning of where he was dumped out of the space trawler's ship, and send past!clark back to earth. then the clark we've been following goes on to help the evacuation for ten years, and then become the time loop clark we saw in issue 7, warning his past self not to try to escape, while the past!clark he and hope sent back goes on to live with lois and be the in-continuity clark we're familiar with.

various disorganized notes upon this:

clois book and clois divorce book at the same time

the book is metacommentary on how editorial will never allow clark to actually have lasting effects from trauma because that's not marketable/palatable to people both inside the dcu and outside

nerds bein like 'ohhh that's not how time travel works' news flash: time travel is not real its a storytelling device. if it serves the author then it's how it works

i. loved lois in this. all throughout. i know some people think she's ooc but she's so angry and compassionate and her concern and drive is what intersects with clark's self sacrificial brain in the end to make his FUCKED UP choice it is just. tickles the brain in a capital T Tragedy way. fatal strengths/fatal flaws chefs kiss

immediately headcanoning Gatekeeper/timeloop clark to eventually become the superman-null of Strange Visitor even though i think he was visually based on Maggin's Ghost of Superman Future from Superman 416 (which, if you like time loops, you should read, and if you dont like time loops you should read anyway because it fucks). let me have this. or, i know that Gatekeeper says he's had this conversation over and over, but i would would also accept if he figures out how to break it eventually and then becomes an iterant space paladin

the hope-is-pregnant jumpscare was. fine whatever 😔 a concession to serialized storytelling demanding cliffhangers. shoutout to parthenogenesis was nice but That Aint How It Works......like That's The Point Of Asexual Reproduction You Don't Need Another Person's DNA.......

this issue was fun to read alongside the current arc of WF since mark waid is also pointing out clark's flaw of impossibly impossibly high standards for himself in the way that main universe clark is so furious and disgusted with kingdom come clark; main universe bruce has never seen him that angry before bc clark's hatred/fury/fear of his own failures is obviously usually internalized

lex's part in this book was so damn good. that egotistical genius delusional psychosexually obsessed loony. especially the bit about the paintings. stop imagining yourself in a naked wrestling match with your enemy. time to listen to les troyens i guess

throughout the whole book the art has just been. incredible. coloring lines inking the whole thing. the stylistic change in 7 was interesting, not my favorite art, but it worked bc they were in a black hole at the time. i got some of the lee weeks variant covers and they're so incredibly good.... but the mainline covers were also wonderful.

slaps roof of superman. this fellow sure can get lost

anyway. if you made it to the end low effort mspaint sillies

[sapphic-sex-ed]

I know this is just a me problem & I need to just suck it up and deal with it but I feel... incredibly guilty about not wanting to have sex with my friends. For one, I've never had a friend actually want to engage in that with me so a part of it might be me feeling bad about "not being good enough", but another part of me feels like the queer community is advancing to new places that gives them more joy, freedom, and love and it feels like since the topic is so triggering to me (for no good reason mind you) that I just don't really belong? I haven't been able to talk to other queer people or go to pride events because I'm in such a small, homophobic town. But I feel like if I showed up to a queer event, I just wouldn't fit in and they just would not like me. Not only for looking overly masculine and kinda yucky (not in way thats celebrated in the queer community) after my transition, but because the accomodations I would need for my triggers would just be too unrealistic to expect them to accomodate to (I've been in therapy for nearly 10 yrs, unfortunately some triggers just dont go away). And also bc I'm a sapphic trans guy and ,, man idk if that would piss people off.

I just want to ask, is it okay if I still view sex as sacred for myself but don't think poorly of people who have casual sex or sex with friends? If anything, I'm envious of them for being able to have such a connection to their friends that I would never be comfortable having.

I’m glad to hear you’re seeing a therapist, it’s very clear from your ask that you’re struggling with very low self-worth and I’ve been there and it sucks.

As for your question itself — sex positivity and sex acceptance are about finding a sexuality that feels good for you and don’t shame those whose sexuality feels good to them but isn’t the same as yours. If sex is something sacred to you that is for you alone or only to share with a select few then that is always valid as long as it feels good to you. At the same time, having sex with friends and having multiple partners is just as valid as long as it’s what the people practicing it wants. Neither one has the right to shame or devalue the other.

I notice a pattern in your ask, where you make claims about how you feel people will respond to you. This is a normal thing our human brains do, but this anxiety seems to be preventing you from going out and trying. You think but you do not know that people wouldn’t accept you. Thou think but you do not know that you wouldn’t fit in. Internet queer discourse is poison basically and people in the irl communities are usually a lot more accepting. Online we kinda forget that we’re interacting with other people, but irl we can’t do that as easily (although dehumanization of minorities is a thing, so not impossible but it takes a lot more organized, structural effort). In Swedish we have this expression “provtänka” which roughly translates to “try-thinking” or “attempting-think” where we sort of say a thought we had to other people, usually friends, to try it out. It can be something beneficial like “wait isn’t it strange that inflation is up 4% but benefits have only increased by 2,6%?” and then we can all curse capitalism together. But it can also be (and this is a real example of a thing I said when I was 16) “there are so many bad parents like shouldn’t the government like make you take tests and and out a license for you to reproduce so no children get harmed” and your friends will rightfully go “no wtf??? That’s such an over-reach of government power what are you on???”. Like you try out a thought that you haven’t thought about that much or aren’t that invested in and you do a vibe check basically. Like that pregnancy thought was whack but I hadn’t really thought about it. Luckily my friends were reasonable people who asked what tf was wrong with me and explained why that was a horrible thing and I haven’t thought that way since. Online, you sorta either get jumped which has the effect of you doubling down on your not even fully formed opinion bc you get defensive, or you find other whack jobs who agree and that’s how radicalization happens.

So to the point bc I lost it bc that who I am as a person: people are a lot more forgiving offline and if someone has doubts initially, they’re less likely to voice them, and if they do they’re likely to get checked, and if they don’t just spending time with you will humanize you (which is why people from bigger cities are usually more open-minded, bc exposure to people different than them).

And a last point to wrap up: you write that you’re “envious of them for being able to have such a connection to their friends that I would never be comfortable having”. Relationships aren’t a hierarchy. Romantic relationships aren’t superior to friendships, and sex with friends isn’t superior to hook-ups or long-term partners, and partnered sex isn’t superior to solo sex. They’re different flavors and not everyone will like the same thing. I can’t stand olives but I love pineapple on pizza. I once dated a girl who despised potatoes. Neither is better than the other. I can’t really understand why she would hate potatoes and most people I believe find it strange, but like that’s just her preference. And I know many people find me strange for my choices in pizza toppings (pineapple, banana and curry).

That is to say: it sucks when you feel left out of some type of relationship you’ll never have — I’m an only child hand have always been envious of people with siblings — but that doesn’t mean that type is “better” or that that type of connection is “deeper” than what’s possible within the types of relationships that would fit you.

-mod liz

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

(Note: All of these asks are before episode 206 (Season 2 finale) so some may be dated.) 1. lmao the episodes right before the mid season finale look way better than the current ones despite time off. how is that even possible.

2. nah but its funny rachel was like wait i cant have him send demeter's a baby shower gift and cut minthe off financially thatll make him look bad! but instead adding him being AWARE shes 19 and still chasing after her "tiny pink body" and "ass shaped like an upside down heart" and having him brag about owning countless slaves makes him look better? the logic is flawless here /sarcasm

3. I mean even beyond the fact the citizens dont like him nor do the old underworld gods, how does rachel expect us to buy hades causing economical collapse in ALL the realms and causing shit with the other kings over ONE PERSON HE KNEW A MONTH doesn't make him look like an thin-skinned, oppressive dictator? why should anyone support this? he's raging out like trump when he lost the 2020 election. just because rachel keeps insisting hes in the right doesnt actually mean he is.

4. Fp- is the joke with the fur supposed to be funny? Cause it wasn't. It just shows 1 AGAIN(after buying stuff while complaining about capitalism) that Perse is a hypocrite, she knows it & doesn't care 2 Hades doesn't really care about animals beside his dogs, it's just adding to him being horrible person. If the fur was artificial she wouldn't feel bad about wearing it & it would be mentioned. Also feelings since 4th day? Creepy. Definitely that girl understands you the most after 4 days...

5. how could olympus and the underworld turn into a shitshow after persephone left? literally tho, she should have been a nobody. all the citizens should only know is that 1) hades ripped a guys eye out for her and 2) she killed humans and didn't report it to zeus. if anything, the citizens should've believed persephone deserved to be punished, and that hades is an immature manchild for what he pulled in the court,,,

6. Why doesn’t Cerberus have three heads. I’m sure this has been asked before but how you gonna write Cerberus without three heads—the one defining trait this dog has. Where are the other heads. Where are they

7. this is such a minor thing but WHY ARE NONE OF THE EYES IN LO LINED UP PROPERLY. I have a lazy eye and if I don't focus on it long enough it can go out of focus/look elsewhere, but I don't think that's what happening?? Why are their eyes always looking in different directions 😭

8. what I don't think Rachel gets this, but having Persephone and Hades cling to someone they barely know from a decade+ ago shows a huge lack of mental and emotional maturity on their ends. I realize it's a bit more complicated because we do know they end up together, but that's why placing it before they even start dating is just a bad idea. This isnt a case of lovers/spouses longing to see each other again, it's two grown adults with the emotional maturity of 15 year olds.

9. Rachel don't draw women with heart shaped faces, hourglass bodies, and huge eyes challenge (impossible for her specifically difficulty)

10. why would hebe even want to be like her mom anyway? hera was emotionally and mentally neglectful of her, abandoned her so zeus presumably raised her himself, and hera is a hypocritical, racist jerk who cheats on her husband, is misogynistic to other women, openly married zeus for power, told others about persephone's assault without her consent, mistreats her own "friend", and abuses her power of everyone else. rachel really wants us to buy she's a ~complicated woman~ over just being an asshole.

[justgotpunched]

I was watching a serial killer iceberg on yt (I found it at 2am it was done with respect to the victims and not like,, yknow hi murderbabes)

But anyway I think we need to talk about how we think and talk about killers and like pwople who commit horrible crimes in the context of the justice system.

We mostly see people who do bad stuff get convicted, thays what gets media coverage. And it is very easy to get caught up in the thinking that the courts are failing and like, yes often the justice systems of our countries fail us a lot (im not gonna go into biases, im white im from a central european country where the majority is white I dont have enough experience or knowledhe to talk abt systemic biases) but the anti justoce system sentiments are visible. Ive seen and heard multiple people advocating for capital punishment or wishing ceiminals got harsher sentences, especially in cases where in said country/place such a sentence is not available (for example, max sentence is lets say 50 years and people wish someone had idk life) as much as its natural to want to see guilty amd bad pwople get punished, theyre still pwople. Many of them did horrible unimaginable ateocities but theyre still people.

Also, we forget that these barriers, the courts just not immediately sentencing someone, the process taking time or someone having their charges dropped because there is "reasonable doubt"are there to PROTECT people. Like I said, we mostly hear about courts in context of atrocious crimes but many if not most people brought to court are innocent, at least of what they have charged against them. There are many instances even in those true crime covered crimes when the police has multiple suspects, or suspects the wrong person. And now we have to ask ourselves, do we want to live in a world where the law DOESNT need to be assured beyond a reasonable doubt that someone is guilty to give them a life. A lot of people rotted in prisons for crimes they disnt commit a lot of people died (which is why I think captial punishment needs to go, also please reasearch how "humane" the methods of capital punishment are, spoilers: theyre not). Which is why I think we need to stop demonising courts, and blaming them entirely for someone getting away. Because courts are not here only to put "bad" people away, they have to find whether this particular individual committed those particular crimes basing on proof and evidence.

Those "failures" where a "horrible human being" is set free have saved many others from unfair imprisonment, we just dont hear about those. So please, think before you say that courts should sentence people more easily, because they really, really shouldnt.

[nityarawal]

Vivek Ramaswamy: What is his Future? We have his birth time!

God help us! Lol I heard #Trumpleberry spread & got #Syphalis as Vivek handed over his votes. Nauseating my home town Fairfield, Iowa was exposed to their Germ warfare and the capital if USA politically. How can these creeps have so little respect for mothers and humanity? Viveks son looks bored and keeps getting sick on tour. Who does that in subzero Iowa bad weather? It's worse than when China unleashed Covid on globe in their censoring detention centers. I feel like @elonmuskfans all got sold out. Tell us your story. @aclu is Refunding everything and returning our lab kids now. @neuralink-api-official #Eloning works best from home. Elon is super jealous we're partying over here. I wonder if he's Trolling us here too? Still have 15 Elons writing me. Thank God Justine warned us on her Ted Talk he gets Big and flashy when he wants you- it's intense- but am grateful for his love. Praying he fixes all these shadowbans! I know he's really annoyed about it and everyone misses our dance everytime this happens. Courts are terrorising us. Peeps always want my real estate but X was turning into a creepy Bot party. I dont think he should telk people hes here though or the pigs follow! Grimesz & Airforce wanted to make me Queen of "Elon the Robot" for Eternity. Isn't that awful? Or romantic? What do you think? It's tragic to kill him for kids druggie pranks of Trump hookers. It appears all my favorite artists are so branded and botted up with identity theft that you can't even tell what's real and they want to meme and brand all of us. That's what all the court contentious kidnappings, divorces and attacks on Breeders was about. It's rough. Almost every @youtube we note rockstars lost rights to Sony or Brazil- they're just Slaves. It's very disturbing and we all need help. I enjoy my motherly platform most and many kids Crave that now. I miss my kids and friends on X. It was mean of Elons staff to discriminate against us because we have our famiky and globes best interest. They just want drug money. Sad. Rockets turned into a parody. I also note on every @YouTube many are there to remember their beloved losses these last 7 years of Jewish apartheid wars in USA. What's deal with Ben Shaphiro marching Elon all over Auscwitz as they continue to berate Gaza? ): I couldn't control political smears in my news feed on X. I tried to block Linda Yaccarino & #Trumpers dozens of times and offensive unwanted people would litter my newsfeeds. It was a Meme nightmare. #IKR @davidlynch Close it all down. Horrible waste of resources and humanity for perverts. @maharishiuniversityofmanage-blog @maharishiayurveda-blog @maharishi-junior @kyanboy @davidlynchfoundation @pranadevi @anjalikaran69 @ishawaii @pranaoperder @kyanmas @kyan-sol @prana-mudra @kyaneos7 @pranaovoltar @rickrubinlyingdown @rickrubin412 @elonmuskfans @rewindtheweek @rewind01 @rewindfoward @rewindnrestart @britneyspears @nayarivera @parishiltonismybff @parishiltonfanxo @natalieportmanlove @bradleycoopersource @keanureevesdaily

[angustully]

if you like to read about other ppls drama and problems

feels sad to say this and reflect on it during my 7 hr bus ride home today but i just dont feel like i had a good quality time with my friend quinn this weekend.. it was a short visit for sure so i wish we couldve spent more time together but also i got on the bus this morning feeling completely fine that i didnt have to stay any longer. which makes me feel so shitty but its like.. my friend is going through a breakup and basically has been for months now since june im pretty sure which for me personally its like my friendship kryptonite. when a friend is having relationship trouble of any kind i have no idea how to be a supportive friend because unfortunately yes i am the "break up with them" friend. and right now all i think he should do is ACTUALLY separate himself from her and set some fucking boundaries and not talk to her for a long time, instead of what he did over the weekend which is go to a party he knew she would be at because theyre still friends with all the same people and then also basically ditch me in the middle of rhe party to be with her all night when he knew i didnt know anybody but him and the host. sooo yeah idk that kinda sucked. the thing is too ive been friends with him for 5 years now and ive like hardly interacted with the girlfriend shes nice enough but i dont know anything about her just that she seems to also be going through some shit right now which is why i think they broke up (and should stay broken up!!!). but before rhe party on saturday quinn was like "is it gonna be weird for you to see my ex at this party?" and i almost laughed because like. why the fuck would i care gjdkdh do you hear yourself?? no the only weird part was you acting like i wasnt there after 2 hours. luckily im so charming and easy to talk to and managed to meet some of his friends hes been telling me about for years (and yet hardly bothered to introduce me to anyone) and it wasnt the best night but it wasnt horrible either. and i feel for him i do but at the same time we have completely different personalities when it comes to this shit bc when i am done with someone not even romantically but like friendships too i am capital D done, i dont want them back in my life and i want my space from them so i can actually think about what happened and move on. instead he got so drunk i had to drive us home when ive never driven a car in chicago before and he was just being maudlin about the fact that him and his ex werent leaving together. and then he asked me 800 times if i had a good time at the party and every time i lied and said yes but what the fuck else am i gonna say, that im too old and have always been too lame for parties with loud music and weed and more than 6 people in attendance? i want to help my friend i can tell hes really not in a great place right now but i also dont think he wants to be helped he just wants his fucking girlfriend back and he cannot see that that will do him no good now or in the long run. fucking christ i dont know. rocky horror was fun. the queers there all loved my orville peck costume so that was nice. and i was one of three winners of the costume contest and as a prize they gave me a button that says GIRL DICK 🤠👍

[homesickhalfling]

I watched Bo's new special Inside today.

#spoilers #Inside #boburnham #howthefuckdoiputthisunderacutidontwannaruinpeoplesfeedswiththiscrap #idontknowhowhashtagswork

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I felt anxiety before I watched it, almost like I knew it was going to hurt me.

And it did.

About halfway through i realized I had spent a lot of it literally hugging myself.

I sobbed after it was done. Sobbed.

Then I spent half an hour in the fetal position in silence in my room wondering what I was supposed to do now.

He articulated everything I had been feeling but running from for the past few years because I didn't want to acknowledge it or know how to say it, let alone fix it. ("There's that feeling again")

He proved that I was right when I had guessed that making this special would be a difficult regression for him and not good for his mental health. That he'd start questioning his life and his career.

It was hard to watch someone essentially record themselves having a breakdown over the course of a year. Even when he was trying to make me laugh I felt bad for doing it... yet I still laughed.

I feel partially responsible for his mental state. I participated. We all did. We gave him the likes, the views, the follows, the ticket sales. He was a child star and it fucked him up. There's a moment where he's sitting there watching one of his early YouTube videos and I just felt such pain for him. How horrible it must feel to live in the spotlight and be expected to make others happy ("dance you fucking monkey/ watch the skinny kid with the steadily declining mental health as he attempts to give you what he cannot give himself") and no one deserves to live their lives in that state.

He pointed out so expertly how the internet has spun wildly out of control and technology is too accessible and is ruining society. How everyone has to broadcast themselves and their opinions all the time. How kids grow up attached to tech that is rewiring their brains and development.

It was hard to watch. Of course he was funny, he made silly jokes and did silly dances and made fun of people and himself in poignant and catchy ways as he always does... but at the core of it all was this struggle of trying to make sense of a world that doesnt make any fucking sense. That is harmful in almost every way. And not wanting to participate in it anymore but having no way out.

He talked about wanting to kill himself, but not kill himself. I know that exact feeling. I have been saying it for months (maybe not out loud cause I don't want to alarm anyone but...) some days I just dont want to exist.

He talked about his anxiety, about feeling agoraphobia, about how the outside world is like a coal mine. And it's a perfect analogy.

He sang "congratulations" to Bezos. How many times have I said that exsxt thing to people? I say "Congratulations you won capitalism, good for you, now give us all your money."

He filmed himself turning 30. I turn 30 this year. It looked exactly how it feels. Scary. Lonely. Disappointing.

The ending hurt too. Its too real, too "meta". It's unavoidable and hurts to think about: He's come outside and "reentered" but all we are going to do is put him in the spotlight and laugh as he struggles with wanting anything but that. And yet he's releasing this fucking masterpiece... and like... are we not supposed to applaud him for it? It feels like a trap. Which I guess is exactly how he feels. Which just makes me appreciate his genius that much more for being able to convey that so perfectly.

He made me question everything (including my white woman instagram) because of course... what was I gonna do the second I finished watching? Post my opinion about it on social media. Like he said we all do. Like he asked us not to do. He's absolutely right that it's a pointless and empty validation thing that we all do and can't stop doing... and why? What purpose does it serve? ("Just perform for each other, all the time, for no reason")

I just kinda want to crawl in a hole and not participate in society. You know, like how I have always felt. Like my anxiety and depression have been telling me to do for years. That feeling I have to shove down every single morning before I get dressed and go to work. Pay bills. Socialize.

I dont know what to do now. I understand him not wanting to finish the special... because... then what? Just carry on like nothing happened? Go back to "normal"? Or go back to our isolation and wonder if/when things will ever get better for any of us?

Anyway... all of that being said... I think it's an important look in the mirror at where our society stands and what we have become. I think it's exactly what the world needs to hear right now even though it's hard. ("Look into my eyes don't shy away"). Bo is our mirror. A tortured, twisted, broken mirror for our tortured, twisted, and broken society.

And here I am... giving out my opinion that no one asked for or needed or cares about. Like the fucking hypocrite I am.

[reservedfort231]

My problem with Bloodline's ending:

(And the conclusion on the Wrench-Rempart conflict in general)

WARNING: Its just my stupid ass rambling about Bloodline so pls if you not interested in it rn skip it. Also my english is still kinda shit. :'(

I would use that read more thing but idk how to do it on the Mobile App so Iam sorry.

When i first played Bloodline i really liked it and i still do but i think there is a pattern when it comes to Ubisoft game writing.

I watched a review by a youtuber. I dont agree with him about a lot of things. He dislikes the whole Wd series and for me Watch Dogs 2 is still my favorite game and i also like Legion to a lesser extent.

BUT, he made an interesting point about how companies selling rebellion back to us. They use punk imaginery then they chicken out at the ending of the game. And this also true about the ending of Bloodline.( also for Far Cry 6 but lets focus on wd now)

I want to focus on Wrench's story now because i think thats the "political" part. Aiden's story is more a personal journey about making connection with others and thats fine with me.

Now Bloodline has two Act. One thats setts up the story, and the Act 2 resolves it.

The first one is very good in my opinion. The setting is that Reggie left Dedsec to case his dream to engineer things. Rempart found him and with his "help" he kinda hit it big but then he fell from grace when Rempart took advantage of him, stole his work, used him to gain even more money and now Reggie lost everything and cant look in his friends eyes because his guilt and shame.

Now i understand that some people didnt like it but i think you can do great things with a story like this.

Wrench experienced the effect of capitalism and the way the rich handles the people working under them on his own skin.

I have two favorie moments from him:

1. When he brings up that you cant just send the rich to prison. Like they are in a position where the police cant really touch them even if they want to. There are so many CEOs that known to harrass workers and nobody really does anything about them.

2. The "im tired of crimnals conmen runing the world" line, because it implies that its not just a personal thing to him. If you read the text files it is clear that Reg isnt the only person Tommy stole from. So its pretty "Dedsec bussiness" so all good. Wrench is back on track i was very interested how will he resolve it.

Act 2 comes and the answer is he...doesnt.

Like things kinda resolve themselfes. Turns out Thomas was just a rogue element of the Rempart corporation and it wasnt really a systemic problem and Daddy CEO is out for him now. All Wrench have to do to smash his equipment and all is fine, Rempart is done even tho he is the son of the one of the richest asshole around.

And it brings us to the last scene. The scene is okay on a surface level. Which means the actors are good. But the conclusion is that...

...killing is bad?? Or something? Idk!

Like the whole thing was weird and i didnt know why the first time i played it.

I noticed its because they chickened out(like Ubi always do when it comes to political stories) somewhere near when we switch to Wrench. Daddy ceo stepped in, Albion took away Rempart at the end which leaves the player with the feeling the conclusion is that the system...kinda...works??

Wrench and Aiden speak about the conflict between Reginald and Tommy like its only just a personal thing between two expartners and not a Wrench vs Rempart as the system thing if you know what i mean.

And it brings us to the problem. Corporate writing. They make good points but if you noticed they never offer a solution, an alternative because that would be counter productive to them. Like im not saying that the writing is horrible but its kinda half assed.

One could argue that its also probably because Aiden is the main character and the main story is about his character and Wrench is more like a supportive character so his story stayed in the background.

I really hope Wrench will get a novel like Aiden where he really reconcile with Marcus and the others bc i feel like his story stayed incomplete unlike Aiden. (Maybe Rempart could come after them like he promised. Its Ubisoft so its unlikely but one can hope.)

[halfusek]

I saw your reblog of the Squid Game analysis and I was just wondering...Are you okay with communism/socialist ideologies? I mean, you're a commie/socialist yourself? Of yes, why? Don't mean to be rude or anything, it's just a genuine question

well! i think that post is pretty self explanatory? i dunno if you read it but it explains a few things that suck about capitalism that are portrayed in the show (because squid game is criticism of capitalism)

i really see myself as more of a centrist if you can even say something like that truly exist: most politicians swing to the right, what's called "the left" is usually something less right or centrist, at least from what i've observed in countries where i'm more familiar with politics

i actually had/have a pretty hard time talking about modern "communism" and socialism because i come from a country that got really traumatized by soviets and communism by extension so i've basically always associated it negatively but i try to be more open minded

i don't wanna dedicate myself to praising any sort of system, i want to be critical and see what's good or bad about each of them

i personally really dislike when people put up communism/socialism on a pedestal because from the history of my country i know very well its not perfect and in fact you can use that system for horrible terrible things too so when people don't think critically of it that makes me really worried history may repeat itself someday

(and if someone denies soviets doing anything wrong then i hope they get hit by a car </3 i've seen/heard of asinine takes like that)

also i'm not at all comfortable with using ussr imageries (even just in memes), they make me feel in similiar ways seeing nazi imageries does

like would it really be so hard for socialist to use a different flag and symbols haha people were tortured and killed and terrorized in the name of this one but whatever that's not what you're asking me about i just wanted to put it out somewhere

capitalism did help the situation in my country after it was freed from the influence of ussr so i dont and cannot think that its straight up evil

that made it also kinda hard for me for a while to be critical of capitalism and think positively of socialist ideas but i've been trying to educate myself, i talked to various people who have different views and my horizons got broader

so yes capitalism is flawed and socialism isnt perfect but it surely has a lot of good ideas that can improve our quality of life and its not like capitalism doesnt have fucked up past and well present

i take one look at america and its clear to me that it needs more socialist ideas there, like... god free healthcare just should be everywhere. period. i cant imagine being afraid to call an ambulance because of a huge bill that would come after

so i guess my position is complex haha? but yep i am okay with those and i think a lot of them are very good, its just that the image of socialism was pretty demonized because of the past

countries like the scandinavian ones implement plenty of socialist ideas and they are doing great and ive lived in one and i was amazed at how easy it is to just function as a citizen there

i'm being there a bit more honest than i should maybe but i think we should try to explain and conversate calmly about these topics, especially that i myself would get just angry at a mere mention of socialism few years ago because of the way i was raised and the politics i was mainly familiar with sooo maybe my progress on getting better with being critical of systems like that can help someone else idk

i know past me definitely would have used that instead of hearing "capitalism evil" or "communism evil" only all the time without no further (calm) elaboration lol

[shoujoboy-restart]

TL:dr:

You: lol acshually these Tankies I made you in my mind soooo don't want workers to paid actually somehow because they are against capitalism so much someway somehow

Me: I mean is not like capitalists that control a good chunk of peoples existence and mobility have any care to pay or threat them well do either, plus they actually exist lmao

You: VIBES-BASED YOU DONT LIVE IN REAL REALITY LIKE ME WHOS NOT ANSWERING A SINGLE POINT MY OPPOSION PRESENTS BECAUSE IM R8GHR QND YOU ARE WRONG LAH LAH LAH

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> vibes-based ignoring reality

So black people in the USA are not 7.5 times more likely to be falselly accused of murder and violent crimes, 19 times more likely to be falselly imprisoned for drug possession by police and they are not 53% of all the criminal exonerations within the USA? I just made all of that up because I believe SATs were made with racist intentions?

Did I also make up that corporations who for whatever reason don't seem to have the money to claim they have and even find loopholes to not pay taxes aren't being bailed out by the government out of having to pay for their own inability to run a company like the entire rest of everyone which even caused the 2008 economic crisis in the United States after banks made predatory loans in masse and got a slap on the wrist for it? Did I also make that up because I read about surplus value or whatever horrible Marxist belief out there?

Yeah one time I read about how whiteness is a social construct on a huff post article and had a schizophrenic episode were I just made up that the United States financed the dozens and dozens of anti-communist violent groups and full on coups and dictatorships like Brazil's Vargas Military Dictatorship that had people tortured, killed and censored for decades because a presidential candidates made extreme communist stances like "improving health care and giving people more worker rights" as social-democrat, ur so right bestie everything I believe in based on vibes you are so intelligent and superior than your opposition?

> well someone else said!

Okay? And? Was that person Black too and you think we are too similar and therefore I must answer as them oooooor what exactly?

Like the fuck is this argument, can I never talk about the laws of thermodynamics ever because creationists wrongly interpret and use it badly for their arguments? You do guit by association on source now, who ever you got petty internet beef is now forever attached to articles and resources so you just hand waive it away from all discussions no matter what?

And how is the ideology and motivations of a bank who's going to give out loans for said research for new medical improvements irrelevant to how capitalism works? A bank that can influence how other banks also think based on their success? Or if someone like Tim Gunner that would most likely own the land the medical building and labs would be built on in Australia, how is him believing in people suffering in masse to comply to his ideology under capitalism irrelevant to capitalism as system? In a laissez-faire or anarchocapitalist setting or just a highly deregulated market, he could simply take away the lease of reserach labs property or just evict and demolish the building if he wants to control protesting if he so desires.

You are the one who made incredible vague generalized critique of a made up Tankie majority in the healthcare debate that thinks people being for work is capitalism so therefore they are totally against people being paid thought tax funded salaries like cops, military, firefighters and public workers...somehow someway I guess? And therefore inherently made a generalized defense of capitalism which inherently allows to make also a generalized critique of capitalism. Like you outsource your argument throught generalized statements...but me making a generalized critique is bad? Okay werq I guess.

I don't get how people can believe that doctors are overworked and how medical industry is hellish about worker rights, but expect medical researcher to invent a cure overnight without any pay whatsoever

but if they want to be paid, that's capitalism

people being paid for the work they do is exploitation of labor

[rosyerim]

bad boy au | na jaemin

na jaemin, the notorious playboy of his school

literally flirts his way out of trouble

his english teacher caught his cheating during his test and what did jaemin do? wink and slide the paper up his sleeves

“ah you must be mistaken i would never cheat on a test! esp w a teacher as pretty as you ♥ ~(◠‿◕✿)”

cue the teacher blushin and letting him off and jeno laughing at him getting caught

part of the dreamie squad obviously 

the whole group of them are absolute hearthrobs

but jaemin is like the leader ever since mark graduated ot7(╥﹏╥)o

whenever he walks down the hall or into class, guaranteed the students are squealing and highkey blushing

i mean who isn’t, jaemin is a god???

he’s also known for playing around w girls and boys

its never too serious as jaemin always cuts it off when if they say i love you

homeboy isn’t about that committed life

which sucks for the ppl he has a thing with

because he treats them so good

always taking them out on the cutest dates, to the newest cafe, the aquarium, the ice cream shop even simple dates in the park!!

 pulling out their chair for them, holding the door open for them all that gentleman ish!!

but they always want more from jaemin

jaemin is known to be affectionate w his own friends but he’s never done any pda with his flings

which confuses them bc??does jaemin like me?? 

the answer is; no

despite what he says while flirting he rarely means any of it, he just likes the reactions he gets like,

when he compliments them and they turn red

or he holds their hand and they get all shy

but he loses interest in them as quickly as he gets it and is quick to cut it off

which does make him a bit of an asshole in that sense

but he does it in such a nice way they can’t get mad

he also dyes his hair so!!much!! 

how hasn’t it fallen out yet!!!

also kind of a stoner

psa; dont do drugs kids if ur underage!! this is just an au!!!

he likes to get faded behind the abandoned carnival the dreamies have dubbed as their hangout

its rlly just a closed down amusement park thats rlly old and they just spray painted DREAM on everything they could find but the dreamies love the eerie feeling they get in ther and like to pretend they own it

AND theirs no cops around so they can do what they like

which usually means getting crossfaded or having the occasional bonfire/party but most of the time they just get a truckload of candy and challenge each other on pokemon w their nintendos lol

he also likes the feeling of his surroundings being numb and always ends up falling asleep after he finishes a blunt

which leaves a sleepy and clingy jaemin stuck w the rest of the dreamies

jaemin doesn’t let himself smoke around his flings as he doesn’t trust them nearly as much as his boys

lowkey has trust issues

but once he gets his daily dose of coffee, like 3000 shots of espresso he is A W A K E

the dreamies are the worst for almost getting in trouble

when it gets dark they usually hop on their bikes, grab two bottles of spray paint each, and go on into their neighbourhood, whilst playing obnixous dubstep from their speakers

and cause total chaos 

they always leave dogs barking and house lights turning on in their wake as they cycle like mad men down the empty streets, streaking the road with luminous pinks and greens

they get the biggest thrill out of being chased by the local police

whenever the hear the telltale siren they all whoop and laugh in unison, shouting out bets on who will get caught first chenle and who’ll get back to the hangout first renjun

it’s dangerous but they get a real kick out of it and always make sure to tweet about and post it on ig

overall jaemin is jus your average bad boy who likes causing havoc

but who doesn’t like havoc?? 

you, my dear reader :))

you had just moved house and into a completely new neighborhood

 it was your fifth day in your new home and you missed your old area a lottt

and you were highkey bitter bc you didn’t want to move but your parents made you >:((

so sunday night rolls around and you were chilling in bed, watching some dumb yt video when all of sudden in the distance you heard,,,thumping,,,

like really ugly but rhythmic thumping,,,

and it was getting louder and closer to your house

so you being all investigative, throw on your hoodie and waddle on downstairs and open your front door, the porch light turning on automatically

and what you saw was a sight

there were a group of boys cycling up and down your street, attempting to do tricks like wheelies???and shit

but as they did their tricks they were spraying the ground so they left a lot of squiggly lines as they turned and jumped

you didn’t mind that, you thought it was actually kind of pretty

but what wasn’t pretty was that hideous music

you were pretty sure they were playing that im blue dabdeeda song but a dubstepped remix version 

and god it was awful

but you kinda assumed they must have gona tone deaf bc they were screeching the lyrics to the tops of the voices and one tall kid was trying to freestyle to it

yeah, they were a sight

 you noticed none of the neighours had come outside which meant this was a normal occurrence??

oh no, you were not having this

without a second thought you shoved your feet into your uggs by the door and stomped your little butt over to the group of screaming boys

one of the boys who was on his phone on his bike, noticed you storming towards them and quickly hit another guy next to him and so on

until all their attention was on you

all six of them 

if it were your old neighbourhood you would have been flustered at their attention on you and they were good looking and you were wearing an,,,odd attire

but you didn’t care

once you reached them you just crossed your arms

“whose playing the music?”

they kinda looked at you as if you spoke another language

until you arched an eyebrow and the tall kid from earlier raised his hand, holding his phone 

“uh,,, i am,,, i’m jisung,,,”

you marched over to him and swiped his phone, ignoring the laughing from one of the boys, scrolling thru his horrible choice of songs

then one of them tapped you on ur shoulder

“so like,,who are you? whats your deal sis?”

you noted he had quite an ugly bowlcut that was also bright red and you just rolled your eyes, before typing in a decent song in jisungs phone

another kid stepped forward and tried to look menacing as he stood up slightly taller in front of you

“like haechan asked,,what’s your deal? do you know who we are?”

you scoffed and clicked on the song, feeling satisfied as frank oceans song ivy played through the speaker

“frankly i don’t care who you guys are but your taste in music is shit and you all sound obnoxious”

homeboy who tried to seem tough was lowkey shook

and haechan just laughed really sarcastically 

“our music taste is shit? your outfit is a mess” 

your outfit was literally a large hoodie and uggs but like??your mom bought them and u liked them!!

“my mess of an outfit is worth more than that tragic cheap dye job you got ontop of your scalp smh”

haechan just gaped at you while the boys tried to hide their snickers 

you were about to leave before another one of them stepped forward, stretching out his hand

“yo you’re kinda funny, i’m renjun!” 

u just stared at his hand 

“yeah cool i dont care, bye”

ohhhh cold

you had stalked off from them ignroing their oooo savages behind you, ready to slip back into bed highkey proud of yourself 

BUT

not so fast

suddenly your met with a really smiley face with pink hair

he grabs your hand and kisses the back of it giving you his usual, heart stopping smile

“i don’t think i’ve seen you before...i’m jaemin and its very nice to meet you (◕‿-)“

but you are not liking his large ass smile

you rip your hand back and just arch your eyebrow again at him

“are you all actually deaf? I am y/n, and I do not care! goodnight!” 

and off you storm, this time actually making it to your door

you spare one more glance at them as you’re closing it 

and the group are almost crying bc they’re laughing so hard at jaemin whose looking over at you 

and he just winks at as u slam the door shut 

damn reader, ur wildt

once you’re back in your room you hear the group disappearing down the street, smiling as you hear frank ocean’s voice float away slowly

you peak out your window to see if they’re all gone but what you see leaves your mouth gaping

there in a mix of luminous pink and greens, spelled out in capitals is

TILL NEXT TIME Y/N ♥

there was gona b a next time??? oh no poor you ;)

[snickiebear]

i woke up way too early for my preference today because i agreed to do a thing for someone i love that is mostly incompatible with my essential nature (i'm taking what learning i can when i can, but it's mostly me trying to not roll my eyes audibly). but that means i get to jump into your inbox, so.

what are the weird subjects that light your brain up? not necessarily something you want to make a career or speciality out of, but just the topics that you love learning something new about and excite you so much you can't help but share specific details with everyone you meet? the world is so big and vast and unknowable, and i just think it's neat that we can hold little pieces of it in our hands to find magic and excitement and light in.

(also, death to capitalism which seeks to turn all energy and light into labour to grind under the machine of profit. but that's a "i woke up at 6:30 am to listen to some bullshit"!mouse problem.)

(so sorry this is late, my semester started and i am attempting to claw myself out from a pile of academic shit)

"trying to not roll my eyes audibly" is the most hysterical and relatable thing i've ever read omg yeah i feel you. but aaaaaa THANK YOU for jumpin into my inbox :''')))) it's always an immense pleasure to see you :D

also, agreed. fuck capitalism, let us enjoy our silly little things without pushing to make money. enjoyment should not always lead to enrichment, just like things to like em!

i'll trade you, mousey. your turn to share what your Thing(s) are >:D

okay sO

i am such a history nerd, more specifically middle eastern/asian history and historical revolutions (french and haitian are my favorites). even more specific (for asian history) i love the MONGOLS SO MUCH.

first learned about the Mongols in AP World History and i haven't looked back since, i absolutely love them. yeah they were absolute shit people! like the worst! BUT! BUT! THEY WERE SO BADASS.

And they were such good rulers? Like there was no forced conversion to islam, they would basically just conquer and leave the place alone except the people would have to pay a religion tax among other things but thATS IT. like sure they killed over half the population (and uh... do other heinous acts) but other than that the Mongols would sometimes pick up more cultural practices from the place they took over and then brought it elsewhere! which is super cool because the spread and blending of culture is interesting in of itself.

(fun fact: the mongols were also a big part of the spread of the Black Plague lmfao)

AND AND they were the only ones to go into russia IN THE WINTER and come out on top. which is fucking??? AMAZING??

literally had about 100,000 members of their "military" and they basically ruled asia. people heard they were coming and either surrendered right there or well.. uh threw themselves from the windows.

AND AND one thing that made them so successful was their horseback riding. they would ride horses into battle and fuckin trample the enemy (along with utterly slaughter them bc they were RUTHLESS and horrible people)

also wholly enamored with space and literally everything about it. THE UNIVERSE IS EXPANDING MOUSEY. EXPANDING. LIKE?? and wormholes and folding space/time and HOW TIME STOPS AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT? that is literally insane.

like i can't do any of the math for this shit but i will sit there and listen to Neil Tyson and other profs talk about it ALL DAY. like the concept of it all and just everything is so fucking cool to me aaaaaa

dont get me started on aliens because they're out there, there is NO WAY we're the only living beings in this entire universe fuck no. like space is HUGE and we're just this little dot in it!!!!! and that is mind boggling to me like WTF??

and and!!!!! how a star in the sky, that we can see, could have died like years ago and we just?? wouldn't know?? because we're so far away? so basically we might be looking at a graveyard of stars and what's left of their corpses. which is SO FUCKING COOL.

(also thank you for allowing me to go bonkers over this stuff LOL my friends have heard it all countless times and are Bored)

[aesphantasmal]

NEW EP SPOILERS 16 JUNE

so. peter nureyev. Here Are All Of My Opinions

ill start by saying i'm not a meta writer, im a clown. i've never had a coherent thought in my life and i'm not gonna start now. all I'm gonna say is that fandoms tend to be awfully pessimistic, and tend to treat not being pessimistic about stories as naive. (and when i say pessimistic, i mean that fandom tends to treat hoping for not the worst outcome for characters as naive.) i remember after shadows on the ship, a lot of people were saying we can't trust nureyev, that we never should have done so. and that kinda stressed me out at the time even though it actually being nureyev didnt even like. occur as a thought in my head. so! 1. the penumbra and recovery quoting savanah @mraudiodrama, "Penumbra has proven itself to be about recovery, about finding love and found family and i dont see Kabert as the type of writers to sacrifice such an emotionally complex character as Peter Nureyev and not give him that chance to find family and start to rely on other people and get mentally healthier for some cheap twist!" for my part, i think that its possible we might get some kind of darkest hour morality wise from nureyev, as in, he might end up as a villain in the next season but eventually change sides again. ill address this again in point 6, but im not sure if this will happen. hell, we could even end up with something like the end of s1 where the person gets exactly what they want from nureyev and ot just doesn't work how they expect it to (im pretty sure the curemother doesn't exist at this point.) also, I'll go over this more in point 3, but i think grtting betrayed like this would pull juno significantly back in his arc, and. like. we've seen juno's arc. its great. but i dont kmow if we need to go through it again, and it wouldn't be remotely as good this time because we dont live in junos head full time. 2. the penumbra and hope the penumbra podcast is not the magnus archives. its not the kind of thing where everything's gonna end horribly, its not a tragedy, unless kabert are worse writers than i think they are. after everything, nureyev betraying everyone like that would be pretty bleak. 3. gay people if nureyev isn't at least seriously considering turning on whoever his debts are to, his behaviour towards juno throughout cyberjustice is. uh. pretty bad and manipulative. the closer he gets to juno, the more badly it will hurt him if/when nureyev betrays him, and nureyev doesn't want to hurt juno. he was willing to give his name up to engstrom and potentially lose his life saving him from miasma, i just cant imagine him both deliberately getting closer to juno and planning to betray him because thats some cartoon evil bullshit 4. from a purely practical perspective audiences are fickle, and easy to piss off. and i don't think there's many fans that would like tje penumbra more if it turned out nureyev had been bad all along. hes on a lot of the merch, and i think the queer romance is what brought a lot of people here in the first place. the two episodes done as liveshows heavily feature nureyev. alienating your fanbase like that just isn't good when you're an online creator 5. the evils of capitalism i dont have a whole lot to say in this section. just that spending so much time on capitalism bad and then having a thief with large debts be an antagonist for any decent length of time feels kinda weird 6. i dont want to think about it because it makes me sad im gay leave me alone! so, at the end of it all, it basically comes down to "do i expect the penumbra to be well written and satisfying". now, i'm a firm believer in keeping a knife raised just in case you do need to kill the author, but for now? i trust kabert. im still anxious tho lmao