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Something about making your mother cry that makes you think you need to go to jail
#personal posts#my mother's mother was an alcoholic too#I'm repeating patterns that probably traumatized her#and watching her child go from psych ward to psych ward and finishing one therapy after another yet still being sick#must be more difficult than I can imagine#I'm deeply sorry#you know I don't really care about myself#but I do care about the people I'm hurting and dragging down with me#I've dragged so many people down#and yet I'm still here repeating the same patterns#my roommates words about us being sick really are true#I'm realizing this for the first time in my life#I don't care about protecting myself#but I want to get better for the ones who love me#tw addiction#she always offers me help yet I turn it down#because my life is my responsibility and I don't want anyone to become co-addicted#but maybe turning down people's offers to help hurts them more in the end#it's something I'm learning#first evening at home is hard#but I'm still sober#and coping by listening to music#writing poetry#and smoking by an open windows#(because you have to be melodramatic sometimes#addiction tag
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Who will be your future spouse?
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Hello guys! Moni here! 🧚🏼♀️
It's almost the half of the month so I was thinking that this would be a good opportunity for those who are single and searching for love.
Here is a free reading about your future spouse. Pick the pile that you are most drawn to and scroll down to read about your future partner. Keep in mind that gender can be reversed.
Takes what resonate with you because remember that this is just a general reading and it might not apply for everyone.
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Pile 1 🍄☁️🌸 Pile 2 🍄☁️🌸Pile 3
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Pile 1 (🌸◠∀◠)(◠ᵕ◠🌸)
MR CREATIVE - control over emotions, diplomatic, compassionate ↓manipulative, a master of emotions with selfish intentions
When you can meet them – Libra season or 7 weeks/7 months, on a Sunday
He is charming and confident but comfortable to be around.
Astrological associations - Libra and Scorpio
Men or women over the age of 40
emotionally passionate
a person with auburn, red, or medium colored hair
solid love
someone dynamic, active, and radiate confidence;
creative man, the poet, the man who dreams deeply
they can be sometimes wishy-washy but always with the flow of things even if he can be frustratingly laid back at the time
vitality, passion, and appetite for life, deeply sensual and not ashamed of his pleasure or his body
in their negative they becomes the addicted or the impotent lover(he becomes posses and lost, living only for the pleasure at the moment
nurture, guide, and support others; act socially responsible; let yourself be touched and moved; listen to others with sympathy and understanding; use intuition in decision-making
Key meaning of the relationship:
a compassionate and somewhat emotional person
a warm and gentle guy, liked by many for his easy nature
warmhearted, charismatic person
they follow their intuition in their work
they are sociable, but sensitive and need to choose their friends wisely
ideal romantic partner
motivated to help others through direct action and cooperation, serene, calm
subtle, friendly, sympathetic, caring, compassionate, affectionate
avoids conflicts and problems, willing to help, co-dependent
hypersensitive to indifference and criticism, difficulty in saying “no”
pessimistic, gloomy, doesn't want to offend or disappoint anyone
nostalgic, unstable, easily seduced, duplicity, rigid control of or hides emotions, manipulation
telling others what they want to hear, can be overwhelming by another's pain
Oracle Message: Support others by supporting yourself first.
Your day may also feel confused, changeable, and with many different things that seem to require your attention from upset teenagers to misunderstandings with others that arise from unchecked emotions.
Time for you to consider finding your own support from this type of person.
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a sexy or sensual feel to your love life; a focus on primal urges, sexuality, and dominance; beginnings of a romance that is very physical but sometimes lacking on more substantial levels; the attraction in a new relationship will be based on appearances rather than things in common
Possible job:
entrepreneurs
inventors
goal setters and go-getters
mystics and spiritual leaders
sports coach
fitness instructor
motivational speaker
life coach
army soldiers
coach
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Pile 2 (🌸◠∀◠)(◠ᵕ◠🌸)
I KNOW I'M A DREAMER - romance, adventurism, an invitation ↓moodiness, someone who is too charming, heated emotions/temper
When you can meet them – Pisces season, 12 weeks/12 months, on a Saturday
They are a dedicated, motivated, emotional, tender, sensitive, and loving person
Element - the fire of the suits of water - Aquaris + Pisces
romance, relationships
dreamy, charming, romantic
being focused on love
man or women under the age of 40
dark hair and eyes
faithfulness
this knight’s quest is love
romantic person, a love interest & also yourself in the throes of full-on love
tendency to be manic by nature(one moment you are the love of his life and the next one you are the thorn in their ass)
tendency to be jealous by nature
stalker
Key meaning of the relationship
prosperity, property and beginnings
the beginning stages of something tangible
growth
material abundance
new enterprise
finances or wealth; a solid fruitful foundation
a promotion
good luck
unexpected money
Oracle Message: Act with love, express yourself, be creative.
Allow yourself the time to write poetry, prepare a sumptuous meal, plan that secret date for your partner.
Do something special for your lover today – flowers, chocolates, that date – but something unusual like ice skating, or a quiet out-of-town dinner, something that is intimate and full of togetherness.
─── ・ 。゚☆: .☽ .:☆. ────── ・ 。☆: .☽ .:☆. ────── ・ 。☆: .☽ .:☆. ───
love is around the corner and sparks are already flying; great opportunities for growth and positive natural change in romance; speak up and act out in order to get what you want; new relationship, go with the flow; time to pursue new love, to feel silly with someone or just to fall unconditionally in love with you(embrace your inner fool and trust that falling into this phase is the point)
Possible job:
entrepreneurs
inventors
creators
pioneers and adventurers
mystics and spiritual leaders
sports coach
fitness instructor
motivational speaker
life coach
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Pile 3 (🌸◠∀◠)(◠ᵕ◠🌸)
Mr PRACTICAL - abundance, security, financial success ↓greed, temptation, infinite desire for more things
When you can meet them – in Capricorn season, 10 weeks/10 months, on a Tuesday
They are thoughtful and wise, not rushing decisions nor being swayed to conform to modernity
Element - the air of the suit of earth
Astrological association - Aries and Taurus
a generous person
man or women over the age of 40
dark hair and eyes
finding happiness
seeing failures as winds
natural business person
great sense of humor
seeing failures as wins
being positive, being thankful
honest soul
naive for love
educated
emotional
person who demonstrates how resources are gained and used
they are always there
common-sense, apparent, reliable, accomplished, solid, steady, calm, wealthy, supportive
the user of secret knowledge, the knower, and the master of the technology
in their negative - they becomes the manipulator or the denying “innocent” one; taking advantage of others through specialized knowledge(leads to false superiority, isolation, and loneliness)
Oracle Message: This is a day for holding court & solving issues.
People see you as someone trustworthy, authoritative, level-headed, and great in a crisis.
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you no longer have the tolerance for the drama that a younger kind of love would offer, what you want is to be with someone who understands what life is really about; you will be successful in your endeavors - have faith
Possible job:
estate agent/developers
businessman/manager
director
master craftsman
banker
stock broker
teacher/educator
merchants
businessman
bodybuilder
bodyguard
professional athlete
entrepreneur
lawyer
banker
consultant
gardener
doctor
electrician
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I guess I'm sort of ok now. I'm calm now at least but I can't sleep. I'm really sorry about last night. I know I need to keep trying harder to control my emotions and I can't act like that no matter how I feel. I don't know how to shut up sometimes and just let things go. I know my behavior has been incredibly erratic lately. I am having a hard time managing myself and I should have just taken my anxiety medicine last night instead of going to get beer. I'm not sure why I impulsively do that sometimes when I get upset. I know it's extremely unhealthy and it's not going to make me feel any better. I don't even drink that much most of the time but I've been getting triggered a lot the past couple weeks. I don't know what's wrong with me because I know better. I've been feeling a little self-destructive lately and it's really shitty so I'm trying to get my bad thoughts under control. Sometimes I feel like I have a monster in my head telling me what to do. I don't want to hurt myself or other people by acting this way. I don't want to cause anyone to be worried or stressed.
I'm also going to try really hard not to drink anymore unless it's a special occasion. I don't want it to become a habit. I'm not going to let myself buy any more for a while no matter what happens. I need to be better at sitting with my emotions. I can't drink when I'm not feeling stable. I need to be more responsible and take better care of my body. I can't mix alcohol with the ativan anyway and I don't want to get sick because of that. I am trying not to take the ativan every day unless I absolutely need it because it makes me feel gross. I can't drive or do anything after I take it. I don't want to have to rely on it because it has the potential to be addictive. I hate taking pills every day as it is.
I just need to learn to manage my stress and anxiety in other ways. I wish it was easier for me to exercise outside of work. I haven't tried to do yoga in a long time and I would like to get back into that. It would also be good for me to start reading again. I just need to get outside more. I think my vitamin D level is probably super low because I'm inside 90% of the time.
I don't think spending most of my time in solitude is good for me at all. Sometimes I even go most of the day at work without saying much to anyone. I live a pretty quiet life. I'm frustrated because I tried to ask some of my co workers to hang out sometime because we get along really well but I don't think they want to because I'm a couple years older than them. They all got together for the 4th of July and didn't say anything to me about it. We don't have a lot in common either so I guess I understand. I probably seem pretty boring to them but it's ok. I've gotten used to feeling left out. I think I'm just too weird and I act like an old woman a lot of the time.
I got to talk to my grandma a lot this weekend and that made me feel a little better. Since my mom isn't involved in my life, it's nice that I'm still able to talk to her. We have a lot in common and I'm glad I can go to her for advice and support. I hope I can go see her soon. I wish she didn't live so far away. I feel so bad for her because she doesn't really talk to anyone either and no one goes to see her. I can't tell her everything that's going on with me but I know she probably understands me better than a lot of people do.
I think I am also going to be working through my trauma for a long time. I don't like letting it interfere with my life. I don't want to upset people because I'm out of control. I didn't want my family to see how bad I am and it's embarrassing. I'm definitely not the same person I used to be and that's both a good and a bad thing. I don't want to let my past experiences to define my life and who I am. I don't want to think about it anymore and I want to leave it all behind me but that's easier said than done. I want the nightmares to go away. I know healing can take years so I'm not giving up. I know that my life has still improved a lot and I have more peace now. I need to be more thankful for that.
I also think my hormone levels have been super out of balance for the past couple months. I'm not sure what's going on but I'm starting to get worried that something isn't right. I'm still anxiously awaiting the results of my blood test. I'm hoping I don't have something wrong with my thyroid. It might be TMI but it's possible that I have more ovarian cysts. They found a large one when I was in the hospital for sepsis but it went away a few months later. I would have had to have it surgically removed if it didn't go away. I know they can come back. I've had a lot of pain in that area and my abdomen is slightly distended among other issues. I am going to make an appointment to get that checked out sometime this week. I feel like my problems are never ending and it's just one thing after another.
I'm trying to be optimistic right now that things will get better. I just need to keep reminding myself that everything is going to be ok. I can't let stuff that I have no control over get me down.
Maxwell, I'm really sorry for being rude to you. I hope I didn't ruin your vacation. You deserve to do fun things even if I'm not with you. I know you work very hard and you probably don't get enough breaks. I shouldn't expect you to invite me to anything. You don't have to do anything for me. It's wrong for me to be so intrusive and it's none of my business. You don't have to share anything with me. I realize I probably can be a little intimidating at times. I do feel like you have walls up and you don't want to let your guard down. I understand if you don't want to be more open with me but I wish you would be. I just love you so much and being apart from you is very painful, especially when I can't do anything about it. I just wish you were here.
I probably won't be as active on here for a few days because I still think I need a bit of a break from the internet. I'm still feeling really sad and I don't want to dump my negative energy on other people anymore. I don't want people to think I'm ignoring them but I'm trying to avoid having another episode. I'm also not feeling very talkative. I'm going to do my best to pull myself out of this slump. I truly hope this week is better for everyone. Thank you to everyone who reads my posts. I appreciate you. Thank you for caring. It does mean a lot to me. Sometimes I just don't believe it but I know there are a lot of people that care about me. I know I can be a drag sometimes so thank you all for putting up with me.
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I think there are a number of problems with the claims (and the suggestion) made in this post.
I don't disagree with everything, a lot of people tend to overlook how young Yoohyun was when he awakened so I'm glad to see that pointed out.
Beyond that though, Yoohyun's responsibility for how Yoojin ended up pre-regression is pretty overstated in my opinion, especially by the anon. When Yoohyun left home, he could not have known how badly that would end up playing out, especially considering how self-reliant Yoojin had been pretty much their entire lives. He assumed that while Yoojin would definitely be sad, in the end he'd be fine. Yoohyun severely underestimated the "co" in "co-dependency".
Yoohyun also notably did not force Yoojin towards the path he ended up on in the least. He did not purposefully prompt Yoojin to awaken (as can be seen through Yoohyun and Yoojin meeting post-regression because Yoohyun wanted to stop Yoojin from going forward with the awakening-broker he contacted), he did not want him to become a hunter (not actually mandatory after awakening! Yoojin could have just not done that! He was desperate for his brother to pay attention him but he wasn't forced to do that!).
It's also wrong to say that Yoohyun never attempted to help Yoojin. There is the aforementioned incident with the awakening broker, a time Yoojin's alcoholism got bad enough to almost kill him and Yoohyun arranged rehab for him (I think the post is written about the manwha only and I don't exactly remember what has and hasn't been mentioned in the manwha as opposed to the novel so if this is news to you, apologies, but I promise I did not make it up), and even Yoohyun not helping Yoojin heal his knee was an attempt to stop him from continuing to go to dungeons, a place where Yoojin would in all likelyhood eventually die, both due to the inherent danger found there and also because they are where the fillial piety addicts (and system admins) can interfere. I don't think I need to point out that this fear turned out to be justified. Yoojin kept going to dungeons to his own detriment because he couldn't let go of Yoohyun no matter how much Yoohyun discouraged that. Trying to make it physically impossible for Yoojin to continue was a very extreme move but it also wasn't anywhere near his first attempt to get Yoojin to stop.
This isn't to say that what Yoohyun did wasn't wrong, but he also isn't at fault for everything that went wrong in Yoojin's life. Yoojin, contrary to what the manwha seems to believe, is a fully autonomous person capable of making his own decisions, including bad ones.
In this context I think it's also relevant that Yoohyun is not the only one who did bad things in their relationship. Yoojin was incredibly resentful and angry at Yoohyun, he didn't silently suffer with dignity by any means. The one who exposed Yoojin to the media was Yoojin himself. Yoojin convinced himself that he felt nothing but anger and hatred for his brother until the moment he died. There wasn't an easy one-sided fix in this situation.
The last thing I want to respond to is actually what prompted me to write this in the first place (apologies for the long preamble (?) I think by this point it is obvious that I have no way of being casual about the s classes that I raised) and that is that the Truman Show idea is 1) out of character for Yoohyun to ever attempt 2) would not have worked 3) is just generally a pretty bad idea.
I think that this is not something Yoohyun would think of, or at the very least never act on. This is because Yoohyun is too possessive and jealous of Yoojin. That's part of why Yoohyun decided to go the no-contact route in the first place, in his mind the options where either he is never close to Yoojin again or he locks Yoojin up and Yoojin doesn't have contact to anyone else. This can be seen in the story by the fact that it is what happens once Yoohyun decides to be in Yoojin's life again. It also plays off the idea that an srank caring about someone can end pretty badly for them, case in point Yoohyun almost faking Yoojin's death so no one else will try to look for him (so he is protected from the world) after he disappears in a dungeon. With that sort of black and white thinking in mind, I believe it is obvious that from Yoohyun's perspective, leaving Yoojin's life was actually the kind thing to do as it left Yoojin with his freedom and would only cost him his brother. But it also means that Yoohyun, still feeling very possessive of his brother, would not purposefully send people Yoojin's way to replace himself, the thought of Yoojin finding a different younger brother figure he might even like more is a horrible one for him. Even after they reconcile, Yoohyun only tolerates Yerim and Peace and still fights with them for Yoojin's attention. Yoohyun did keep eyes on Yoojin with the intent of protecting him, that just didn't include those people becoming involved with Yoojin. And even if it did, it
would not have worked the way anon is proposing. I feel like this is a pretty easy conclusion to draw because Yoojin did very much continue to form connections after Yoohyun left and it did not fix anything. It made his life worse, because those people kept dying which was incredibly traumatizing for him! But even if they hadn't died, they still didn't replace Yoohyun because Yoohyun isn't replaceable to Yoojin. Yoojin would never be able to move on from Yoohyun without at least some kind of closure between the two. In many ways, that is the point of the story.
I am not sure how to phrase this point without sounding a little mean but. Do you (both anon and Dumás) understand that the point of The Truman Show is that the Truman show is a horrible thing and should never happen? Like, that the happy ending of the movie is Truman leaving the show and finally having the control about his own life that he has been denied from day one? I think a scenario where Yoohyun tries to make Yoojin get over losing him by sending actors into his life to make him happy would be interesting but also, and I cannot stress this enough, a horrible thing to do. Yoohyun definitely did some questionable stuff while trying to distance himself but this idea is so much worse. (Although now I kind of want to see a fanfic where this does happen.)
In conclusion, trying to frame the conflict between Yoohyun and Yoojin as 100% Yoohyun's fault or acting like it's something Yoohyun could have easily fixed by himself is not very useful and shows a fundamental misunderstanding of the characters.
Why do you think yoohyun didn't make a Truman Show for yoojin? If he couldn't contact him then he could hire people to play the role of yoojin's best friend or send a partner to start a business with him or even better; send a child to be looked after by him. But he left him to get beaten up on streets, God knows how many time. Looks like he had millions but no intelligence or creativity.
The Truman Show would be a damn good idea, you're right.
On the one hand, I understand why Yoohyun made that choice. When he awakening and left he was 17, right? At the time of the story, the Korean age system is a goddamn blackwoods. Like at birth a child is already a year old plus another year on the first day of the new lunar calendar. That's crazy. So he was about 15 when he awakening? Crazy ×2.
A 15-year-old boy. At that age, kids prioritize justice and the bright side. Sometimes I think psychologically Yoohyun stayed at 15, so he didn't want to watch from the outside as his hyung lived in a bubble of lies and pretense. Yeah, Yoohyun, of course it's better to watch your brother suffer, right??? Ugh, it's killing me. Damn punk.
How much will a kid think before making the most dramatic decision? Nah. There was probably only one thought in his mind. That he and the capabilities of his future enemies were dangerous to Hyung. And then came the alien assholes.
Now let's put aside the idea that he's a child. Later, 3 years later, he really had many opportunities to make his hyung's life better. But it seems to me that Yoohyun was overcome with depression and the idea that he was on the only right path. (And as I noted earlier, he could have had a policy of honesty.)
Fear for hyung, the dungeons, the guild. So many problems, it's impossible to stay emotionally stable. Perhaps because of his psychological state, he didn't see and didn't want to see alternative paths.
At this point, I felt like slapping him. Okay him, okay public opinion, but the moment he refused to treat Yoojin's leg, it went too far. He wanted to protect him, but instead of protecting him, he crippled him. As the system said, protection s ranks often turn violent.
He can be understood, but not easily forgiven. That kid really made stupid and terrible decisions, it was useless to argue with that. It was Yoohyun's decisions that made the situation so terrible.
We will always see more opportunities from our place behind the 4th wall, it's true, but that doesn't make the Han brothers' situation any better for themselves. Yoohyun should have pulled his head out of the sand and looked at the situation soberly.
So yeah, the truman show is a damn good idea. Too bad Han Yoohyun was such a petty dramatic brat (in both good and bad ways).
#sctir#han yoojin#han yoohyun#long post#death mention#alcoholism mention#sctir spoilers#just to be safe#oh god this is over a thousand words#sorry for the long rant I just feel very strongly about Yoohyun#I've seen takes that deny Yoojin agency in his pre-regression life a few times and they always kind of bother me#so I guess this is shrimply the one that pushed me over the edge#also sorry the hashtag sclass manwha hater in me came out I can't help it#I'm just a novel person#if it makes you feel better though rest assured that you could never hate Yoohyun more than Yoohyun hates himself <3
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This is the new main blog for the following RP blogs:
@gayrett-hawke (DA2 PC) 18+
@laimdalen-itellam (DA:I PC) 18+
@lovely-little-bull (Riordanverse OC)
@slayemal-na-nerate (Star Wars OC multimuse) 18+
@sweltering-in-central-city (Arrowverse OC) 18+
@empath-from-azarath (TT 2003 Raven)
@not-a-twilek (Star Wars OC) 18+
@guardian-of-gotham (Mixed canon Bruce Wayne) 18+
@not-so-artificial (GL:TAS Aya) 18+
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3. Please plot with me. I don't like going into RPs completely blind. We don't have to work out every detail, but I'd at least like to get the basic gist of your character and the type of plot you want before starting anything. If I have no idea what our muses' relationship with each other is like, I'm not going to respond to any starters you send me. I also reserve the right to turn down certain plots and/or characters I'm not interested in interacting with.
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7. Given that most of my blogs are for OCs, I think it's safe to say that I'm pretty OC-friendly. I'll RP with any well-written character that I can see my muses interacting with. For crossovers, I don't have any outside verses for my muses, and I'm not the biggest fan of multiverse plots between different franchises, but I'm definitely up for writing with AU versions of your muses as long as they fit within the world enough for me to not be distracted by it. For example, I probably wouldn't write with a Dragon Age version of Swiftwind from She-Ra, since animals don't talk in that universe, but I might be more open to it if Swiftwind were possessed, since there was a demon who communicated through an animal host in one of the games.
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9. I write any length from conversational to multi-para. I'll generally try to match your length, but don't feel like you have to do the same. In fact, shorter responses are often less overwhelming to me for that very reason. I'm prone to letting the words take over occasionally, but as long as you give me something I can respond to, we should be good. 👌
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I'm not going to give out my real name, but you can call me pretty much any variant of my blog or muse names. Raven was a popular one on my old blogs, because she was my first Tumblr muse, but if you want to call me Distant, Hawke, Laim, Swelter, etc., go for it. I'm also giving Spook a try as an official online nickname if you want to use that. As mentioned in my blog description, I'm 23 and use they/them pronouns. I currently work full-time, but my hours are inconsistent, so my schedule is constantly subject to change. My time zone is PDT, so I'm usually running at least a few hours behind everyone else, and I don't have the healthiest sleep schedule. From my interactions with mutuals whose time zones I'm familiar with, though, y'all don't either. Please know that I mentally calculate what time it is for you, and I do get concerned that so many of you regularly stay up until 3 a.m. or later. I'm a hypocrite, but please sleep. 💞 That's all I feel is necessary to put down. I'm bi, ace, and enby if you really want to know for some reason. I'm also neurodivergent, but I'm not going to list my diagnoses if it's not relevant. I don't have a personal blog, so I'm not going to reblog anything I can't justify being related to my RP blogs in some way. This main blog is literally only for the purpose of listing all my other blogs, so don't feel like you have to follow, but you can if you want, I guess. Anyways, it's almost 3 a.m. as I'm writing this (like I said, I'm a hypocrite), so I should probably stop rambling and go to bed, but I look forward to writing with y'all.
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Something about making your mother cry that makes you think you need to go to jail
#personal posts#my mother's mother was an alcoholic too#I'm repeating patterns that probably traumatized her#and watching her child go from psych ward to psych ward and finishing one therapy after another yet still being sick#must be more difficult than I can imagine#I'm deeply sorry#you know I don't really care about myself#but I do care about the people I'm hurting and dragging down with me#I've dragged so many people down#and yet I'm still here repeating the same patterns#my roommates words about us being sick really are true#I'm realizing this for the first time in my life#I don't care about protecting myself#but I want to get better for the ones who love me#tw addiction#she always offers me help yet I turn it down#because my life is my responsibility and I don't want anyone to become co-addicted#but maybe turning down people's offers to help hurts them more in the end#it's something I'm learning#first evening at home is hard#but I'm still sober#and coping by listening to music#writing poetry#and smoking by an open windows#(because you have to be melodramatic sometimes
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