#because my biggest post ever is this angry rant im slowly learning to fucking despise

[lehhoh7822]

bro i need to be like. idek at this point i have enough problems that whem i go to be like, i should be more normal about this thing that i am passionate about

i just feel sad

like the idea of it is sad to me, i want to care about things and care about them deeply and irrationally

how else will i know im alive

who else is gonna be passionate about it for me? who else? who could encompass the feelings the same? isn't it worth celebrating that i feel deeply and uniquely?

i dont know the merit of cringe other than a joke or that fear of the passion, because caring is scary and caring can hurt and caring can look weird or take work. i don't know the merit of me being like. i need to be more chill about this take a chill pill and shut the fuck up because it feels like hate more than any im ugly ever has

what could be worse than like. your passion is ugly. your caring is ugly. your thoughts and interests and wants do not matter and never will. your passion is ugly. what is more hateful. whats a worse thing i could say to myself

while this is all wholly metaphorical and i think if i go like. but lollll this isn't a realllllll problem like starvinggggggggg to deathhhhhhh there are starving children innnnnn [country], it's the exact same sentiment but in different packaging

and i know there is worse that can be said worse that can be done. you wouldn't be smart to respond to this and be like, what if someone told you that you were the reason like. your mother passed away or some shit that wouldn't be funny you would not have a point more than just being a fucking dick but.

what is more hateful than you, what you want, the proof that you are living and caring and still undefeated by apathy and exhaustion and pain, the things you are passionate about and care about. they do not matter. you do not matter. be quiet. be still. copy pasted from a rant i left in general lollll thought maybe yall would like it