#because it's such a rarepair and nobody ever seems to tag it the same way

[riddlerosehearts]

more headcanons for vildia, my most beloved underrated ship 💙💜

(sort of a part 2 to this post)

okay so let's get one thing out of the way here first: yeah, idia has trouble taking care of himself properly, and yeah, vil might be a little frustrated by that. but it's only because he sees the potential that idia has and wants him to be the best he can be, and wishes he didn't have to struggle so much. but he respects so so much that idia tries, has been trying more and more every day since returning to school after the STYX incident. and he does his best to nudge him in the right direction and show that he appreciates the effort he puts in.

there are days when idia just can't believe vil would ever want to be with someone like him, but on some days, he thinks of course vil would want someone as smart and capable and accomplished as he is. vil deserves nothing less than the best, so of course they're perfect for each other! and vil always reminds idia of this when he's feeling down and being self deprecating.

vil may seem perfectly confident and put together, but he, too, needs comfort sometimes. idia isn't the best at knowing how to do so, and feels clumsy and awkward about it, but again, he tries. he does the best he can to try to get vil's mind off of things and make him smile, and when vil really needs to talk, idia does his best to listen and support him however he can.

i think that when idia can tell vil is feeling down, he tries really hard to make him feel extra special and find some sort of event they'd both like or offer to take him on a more public date, which vil really appreciates because he knows how introverted and anxious idia is.

some of the things they enjoy doing on occasions like this include going to themed cafes, or going to the movie theater together!

they also go to antique shops, which idia thought sounded incredibly boring the first time vil suggested it. but then he found several cool things he wanted to show ortho and had to reluctantly admit to vil that he had a good time.

sometimes they also go to the arcade and idia always, without fail, wins at least one plushie from the claw machines for vil. vil didn't even particularly like plushies before but now he has a little shelf where he puts all of the ones he gets from idia.

one day vil secretly goes to the arcade on his own to win a cute little black cat plushie for idia. not try to win it, but win it no matter how much he actually sucks at the claw machine games. he even texts ortho asking for tips.

ortho texts back offering to come by the arcade and break into the prize compartment for him. vil very emphatically refuses and instead opts to play the game over and over until he wins fairly because dammit, he's going to win a plushie for his boyfriend like idia keeps doing for him.

this cat plushie genuinely becomes one of idia's most treasured possessions.

vil really enjoys animated movies but doesn't often watch them with other people because there's just something about them that makes him more likely to cry during them. he and idia watch them together a lot and idia likes to poke fun at vil for crying while 1) still cuddling up to him and letting him cry on his shoulder anyway and 2) doing a terrible job of hiding the fact that he too is crying by the end.

aaaand this post was supposed to be shorter than my last one but it has still ended up very long, so that's all i have for now, ty to anyone who reads this <3

[kaishun]

Fanexus - Upcoming Fandom-focused Platform

Hey y’all, Kaishun here, who hasn’t spoken in 85 years but still vaguely lurks around in the corners of your peripherals. As you guys probably know, with the tumblr ban on NSFW (both for things that actually were NSFW and vaguely fleshy colored), a lot of big folks in the fandom left for twitter. Well, twitter sucks, as it’s impossible to finding anything. Nobody tags stuff, because there’s not enough space to do so, and harassment’s pretty bad (both due to lack of tagging and due to tagging).

Fanexus is a platform wanting to change that! It’s kinda’ve the love child between tumblr and livejournal, and with the beta coming up soon, they’re trying to drum up some hype. I’m hype, so, I’m gonna go over some of my fav official features so far:

Proship / Anti-Harassment / Anti-Censorship

Useful Tagging System ( #Saix = #Saïx )

3 Accounts in 1 (1 login for 3 different blogs)

Details on^ below the cut. Here’s a pretty picture from their blog @fanexus-dot-net​ to show its progress:

Proship, Harassment, and Censorship (Don’t Like/Don’t Read)

A lot of platforms and people are aggressively censoring fictional content they don’t like. Whether that be two characters lewding in general, those character being in an abusive relationships, noncon, age gaps, underaged, incest, etc.-- a lot of people get harassed for drawing that kind of stuff. But, y’know-- it’s fictional. No different from the whole “video games cause violence” scare from moms in the 90s. But the harassment from people has gotten really bad, especially on twitter.

Fanexus allows whatever you want to draw/write/etc., as long as it is of fictional characters--with a great tagging system to support it. If you don’t like something... you block the tag! Bam, that simple. You shouldn’t see anymore.

For those of you who went to Pillowfort, and were displeased with the sudden rule change & bans regarding some content, Fanexus should have no such issue. They’re hosting in Denmark, where the country’s sex specialists determined that underaged content of fictional characters did not have a negative impact on actual children.

Useful Tagging System

idk about you, but I hate looking under the 10 different names for the same ship. Every other new artist seems to have another name for their fav pairing. Fanexus has a tagging system that support synonyms-- meaning “#XemSai”, “#Xemnas x Saix”, “#Xemnas/Saïx”, etc. will all show up under the same “#XemSai” search.

Its tagging is also hierarchical-- so if someone tags something with just “#XemSai”, it’ll show up under show up #Xemnas, #Saix, and #Kingdom Hearts. While this may come off as a bit scary at first (there’s such a “don’t put X in the main tag!” concern on tumblr), it normalizes letting your art/fics to be actually, like... seen. And if someone doesn’t like it #XemSai, they can just block the tag. This greatly decreases the chance of shy people with rarepairs just being lost to the abyss, never seen again. As someone who’s in some small fandoms, “forcing” everything to go into the series tag is a great feature to me.

It also lets people completely block series-- block the #Kingdom Hearts tag if you don’t want to see Melody of Memory spoilers. As long as they’ve tagged their posts with anything regarding the series, it’ll get caught up in that block filter, so you can safely play the game and still browse your feed.

Aliases (3 Accounts in 1)

With one account, you have three different “Alias” blogs. These generally function like completely different blogs (none of that sideblog shit); with their own posts, their own followers, their own following, and their own memberships to communities. You can switch between them with an easy click, instead of having to open a whole new browser or logout/login like on tumblr.

My plan is to have a SFW alias, a NSFW alias, and a RP alias. I can enjoy my SFW alias at work and on the go, as well as post some OCs to it; I can switch to my NSFW alias if I want to see some juicy smut on a lazy weekend; and to my RP alias to catch up on what’s been going on and write some replies.

Miscellaneous 

Communities: You ever think about making a blog exclusively for one character, but go “ugh sideblogs suck and I don’t want to do this by myself”? Well, Communities allow everyone who joins to share content to it, easily gathering art/fics from your favorite character or series in one place. It’s a great way to find people with similar interests, follow some new artists, etc. Roleplay-wise, theoretically great for “Worlds”; tossing an opener into the themed world and getting some replies.

Funding: They’re currently planning on no ads, and funding via premium features, such as buying extra aliases. There’ll be a Kickstarter later for server cost and additional features.

People/Fans: I’ve been on their discord for a few weeks, and holy shit, these are my people. I’ve never felt so comfortable just like... chatting about my interests with people. I’m not the #1 sinner in the server at all times, like I am everywhere else. Discussions I’ve normally seen blow up into huge raging disagreements kinda just simmer to slightly irritable but still civil conversations. It’s kinda bizarre to witness, like... mature people talking to mature people.

Minors: Minors will not be able to see posts marked as 18+, full stop. You can also mark your entire blog as 18+, but you’re not required to. Minors who lie about their age will have their accounts banned.

Interested?: Their beta is going to be starting sometime late this month. You can find more details on their tumblr blog ( https://fanexus-dot-net.tumblr.com/ ) or their twitter ( https://twitter.com/fanexus ). You can sign up for their forum/discord/beta over here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1-Ll_vb1bukbnxHpaQcuxUikUu1NtqDk3-AsD4gZkjiY/viewform?edit_requested=true 

[the-no-name-system]

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Hi everyone! I’ve moved Tumblr’s quite a bit over the years, but I figured that with all of this time gone by, I may as well make a masterlist of all my fics on AO3 so that you can know who I am, and what I’ve written! I’ll be splitting it up by fandom, and this masterpost is for NCIS!

List is under the cut!

Series

Gibbs’ Family [Link]

“This is a team-as-family with a dash of age regression thrown in, because yours truly is like that and loves to make the characters suffer. If you like this series, I recommend Where I Come From by TheGriefPolice, which is a fantastic series written by a fantastic writer who I am privileged to have collabed with on Swing and a Hit, If Nobody Believed in You, The Best Day, and Change. The series comes highly recommended.”

Autistic McGee Ficlets [Link]

What it says on the tin.

The Adventures of Polyamorous Parenting [Link]

Fic series where Tim is an age regressor, but no one else is.

“It all starts with a thump, and it grows from there.”

Bad Things Happen Bingo Card [Link]

Prompt fills for the Bad Things Happen Bingo.

Gibbs’ Extended Family Adventures [Link]

“Gibbs' Family has gotten understandably crowded, and while most stories focus on the MCRT, there are a growing number featuring some of the "extended family," so to speak. If the main focus is on the extended family without any of the MCRT stealing or sharing the spotlight, then those stories will also end up in this side-series, as an easy way to track them.”

Memories of a Strung-Out Fictive [Link]

A series for one of our system’s protectors to share memories of what his life was like before.

Misc.

She [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

Tim McGee has never quite fit in a binary. And today, she is going to show that, no matter the repercussions he faces. Not for Tony fans, at all. You have been warned.

[Podfic] Grown Men Don’t Cry [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

A podfic of TheGriefPolice's story, Grown Men Don't Cry. A little surprise for a great friend.

I (Can’t) See a Light [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

Timothy McGee has struggled with depression for a while now. One night, he decides enough is enough. But the best laid plans of mice and men often go awry...

Final Straw [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

Also known as I Read a Thing On Tumblr And This Idea Wouldn't Leave Me. McGee is just a tiny bit panromantic, Torres is a tiny bit of a jerk, and Delilah doesn't exist as an obstacle between them.

Seven Minutes in Heaven [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

Because I'm literally the only person who writes this ship on AO3, have a "seven minutes in heaven" McTorres fic that literally no one but myself asked for.

Tattoos [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

If you've ever seen someone you like and then think oh no, they're hot, then you have felt Timothy McGee's pain. His only problem? He's bisexual and Nick has some body art Tim likes. Oh, if only he didn't feel attraction to his co-workers!

The Survivor System [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

They call themselves The Survivor System, because that's what they did.

They survived childhood.

They survived puberty.

They survived college.

They even survived work.

...Well, that last one needed some tweaking, seeing as Tim opened his big fat mouth.

Bullet [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: Chose not to use warnings

Based on the song Bullet by Hollywood Undead. He's had enough, now it's time for him to jump.

He Sat on His Hands [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: Major Character Death

A little challenge for myself in which I try to write a story using exactly 500 words.

He couldn't believe this. How had this happened? How could this happen?

He sat on his hands.

Four-Seven-Eight [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

Tony wakes up in the middle of the night having problems breathing. At least Gibbs is right there to help him through it.

Coffee Date [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

Bishop and Jack have a date at the coffee shop. I may or may not have gained a new rarepair ship.

“I Killed Him, Boss” [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

An AU where McGee is a serial killer. Just a scene that's been bouncing around in my head for over a year.

We’ll Fix It Together [Link]

Rating: M

Warnings: Rape/Non-con

Continuation of When It's Broke (Fix It) by TT40_Angst_Queen. Going to Vance and the fallout that comes from that. This won't make a lick of sense unless you read that first. Fair warning, this is a very dark story. Read the tags and be cautious!

Swing, Batter, Swing [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: Chose not to use warnings

What if Hicks decided to take matters into his own hands when Gibbs suspected he wasn't as innocent as he seemed? What if he decided to go after Gibbs' team as retaliation for Gibbs' suspicions? And what if the person he went after was none other than McGee?

...Spoiler alert: It doesn't end well.

A Deer Mistake [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

Vance's new dress code has everyone a little...wild.

Silly String and Vacuums [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

Domestic bliss between Clayton Reeves and Nick Torres because I need to know I can write something again.

It’s Not a Rose [Link]

Rating: T

Warnings: None

What was the tattoo that Kate got with Abby that fateful night?

Operation: Jack and Ellie [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

Bishop likes Sloane, which makes the woman from the FBI who has history with Sloane sizable competition. Torres is a good wingman, and McGee wishes all of them could just get over themselves already.

The Bet [Link]

Rating: G

Warnings: None

It's no secret to anyone that Ellie and Nick are dancing around each other. It's not a matter of if, it's a matter of when.

Broken Obsession [Link]

Rating: M

Warnings: Rape/Non-Con

McGee goes undercover on a mission and goes dark for twenty-four hours, when the team finds him again, he isn't quite the same...and they're not sure he ever will be again. Now Gibbs is left putting back the pieces of McGee's life together again, like a broken item one would focus on fixing until it borders obsession, hoping, praying that maybe, just maybe, his agent will someday come back from this...whatever "this" even is.

[kane-and-griffin]

PSA

Hi kids!

This is a gentle public service announcement to let you all know that I’m no longer engaging in any more discourse about the kink meme. 

This has become a really polarizing topic, I think the fandom’s collective ability to discuss it in a constructive way has eroded quite a bit, and the “callout posts” about it have themselves begun to feed an alarming amount of sensitive or triggering content into public social media spaces, which, quite frankly, runs a far higher risk of landing in front of the eyeballs of someone who needs to avoid it than when it’s safely quarantined in spaces like LiveJournal and Ao3.

It is staying open for at least the next couple weeks, and I intend to keep writing Kabby fic for it and sharing that fic here, as well as on Ao3.  I’m a big proponent of people curating their own social media spaces, so if you need to unfollow, block, blacklist, etc. because that is a nope for you, that doesn’t bug me in the least and I don’t take it personally.  We all have to know where our boundaries are.

A few last words on this topic and then I’m done. 

(P.S. this post contains no potentially triggering references to any of the specific kinks or fics in question.  It’s safe for all.)

There are many fics on the kink meme and Ao3 that I can’t and won’t ever read.  There are many kinks that squick me out.  But if you’re asking me to condemn specific writers or specific fics because they upset you, just know I’m never going to do that.  Even if it’s a fic I would never read myself.  My position is always going to be that I’m a writer and I stand with writers.  Even when I disagree.  Even when what they wrote squicks me out. 

“But what about this kink? Surely you can’t defend that writer.” 

Yes I can. 

“Okay, but what about this???  This very upsetting thing involving your favorite character?” 

Yeah, even that one. 

Free speech is most important when it isn’t convenient.  It’s most important when you have to go to bat for the rights of people to say shit that makes you want to die inside.  It’s why the ACLU defends Westboro Baptist Church.  If I only held to my values when it related to people who agreed with me and did exactly what I approve of, then they’re not values, they’re personal tastes I’m trying to legislate on everyone else.

My best friend and I were discussing this on Twitter yesterday when this cropped up over there.  We have very, very different personal tastes.  As in, there are rarepairs I write for and kinks I enjoy reading that hit some places of really deep “please don’t discuss that fic while I’m in the room” discomfort for her.  And we’ve learned, over the past years, how to be sensitive and respectful to each other about those things.  I offered - without her asking - to write a censored version of one of my fics to remove a personal squick of hers so that she could read it and not feel left out of the fun the rest of the group chat was having.  She, in turn, never once judged or shamed me for writing the thing that made her uncomfortable in the first place . . . which is just as important. It’s crucial to our relationship that, just as I don’t judge her for her preferences, she doesn’t judge me for mine.  And I don’t judge other people for theirs, even when they’re MILES away from things I would ever consider erotic, or even feel comfortable reading.  Because another trigger which is very, very real - which for many of us is deeply lodged within our body and our sense of self - is the trauma of being publicly shamed, outed, maligned, or criminalized for your sexuality.

I am gay, and for eight years I was a youth minister at my church.  When I was in my mid-twenties, an anti-gay hate group found a video clip online of a documentary about LGBT Christians that I had been interviewed for, and they emailed it to the entire staff of the church where I worked, the school, and the office of the diocese.  Until you have been outed by force, against your will, to your pastor, your coworkers, your middle school health teacher, the school moms whose kids are in your youth group, and the fucking Archbishop, with a letter explaining that young people are in danger from your deviant sexuality; until you have been on the receiving end of a campaign of online harassment that went on for four years; until you have read a complete stranger write on her blog, not three months after your mother’s funeral, that she hopes your mom died without knowing she had a gay child, to spare her that humiliation; then you cannot possibly imagine the sense of sexual shame that I have carried for my entire adult life about the idea that the things I do in private behind closed doors, or even the things I think about in the privacy of my own mind, are fundamentally evil and wrong.  

This is why I do not make assumptions or judgments about other people’s sexuality.  There is a wide gulf between the things that turn you on in fiction and things that turn you on when done to live human beings (including not just your own sex life, but any other area such as the sex trade, trafficking, the porn industry, etc., where real human beings may potentially experience harm). 

If I can make a distinction between you enjoying a television show where people have murdered each other without assuming you are a murderer, I’m not going to come after anyone for what they masturbate to, no matter how squicky I find it, by assuming they would practice or endorse criminal sexual behavior in real life.  

If you were in a car accident, it might be really, really traumatic for you to watch movies or TV shows that show graphic depictions of car accidents.  That’s 100% legit.  It would be fair for you to expect a warning about that content so you know what you’re getting into and can skip that episode, close your eyes and look away during that part of the movie, or say “nope this isn’t for me, that’s not content I’m comfortable with.”  And nobody would judge you for that.  However, there are other people who have been in car accidents who might be fine with it.  It might not land in their body the same way.  They might find it cathartic to watch the thing that happened to them from a safe distance in a context which is fictional.  They might process the trauma they went through - which is the same as yours - in a way that looks totally different.  

None of this is universal.  There are no hard-and-fast rules about what sexual fantasies are and aren’t okay.  For example, I know at least two fics which I’ve seen alluded to as being content that should not exist because it triggers survivors of _____, which were written by survivors of that exact thing themselves.  You have every right to protect your own boundaries, but you cannot assume that everyone else’s boundaries are in the same place.  

This blog is and remains a primarily Kabby-only blog which I do care very much about keeping a safe space.  I have always, and will continue to, post occasional fic here with Raven or Bellamy OT3s, and am absolutely happy to help you out if there is a way I can be more helpful in tagging that content for you so you can blacklist it and keep your Tumblr safe if that’s something that makes you uncomfortable.  It is always, always okay to come to me with “hey can you tag this thing so I can filter it.” 

In terms of the kink meme, the fic I’m writing and sharing here is primarily Kabby.  I have written for some other pairings, which you can find on my AO3 in my collection of kink meme fills (Doctor Mechanic, etc.) but this is a Kabby blog designed for Kabby shippers, so the kink meme fics I’m writing are largely for them.  They are also all labeled very carefully when I share them to AO3 with the specific prompt I was filling, and a plethora of tags, in case the kink they’re about hits a button that is a nope for you. 

I am always, always open to helping you guys create safe internet spaces by opening up a conversation about ways I can tag fic more helpfully.  But just as I do not police who anyone sleeps with or what gender(s) they’re attracted to - because I remember on a visceral gut level the shame and trauma I felt when that was done to me - I do not police what anyone masturbates to, fantasizes about, is turned on by, writes about, or reads about.  

Before anyone gets the wrong idea that my inbox has been flooded with assholes, I should be clear that 99% of all the conversations I’ve had on this topic - whether people love the kink meme, hate it, can only handle parts of it, don’t read smut fic at all, or don’t care what anyone else does behind closed doors and just wants to go back to talking about whether Isaiah’s tweet this afternoon legit means Jaha got killed off??? - have been thoughtful and civil and great.  The Kabby fandom is awesome and the majority of the really ugly drama has been swirling around around at a distance from our happy little corner.  But I still get occasional anons about this which seem pretty clearly intended to draw me into conflict I have zero interest in, so I wanted to state, one last time, very clearly, that I’m not going to be engaging in any of those from this point forward, and explain as thoughtfully as I can the reasons why.

MOM LOVES Y’ALL A LOT, THANK YOU FOR BEING AWESOME