#because in my mind he ONLY wears generic star wars tees

[commsroom]

i just want everyone to remember he did this and then passed out with his whole chest exposed. my god.

[szopenhauer]

What star sign is the last person you text messaged? Aries

How did you feel when you woke up today? not well

Do you know what the person you're dating is doing at this moment? napping

Who was the last person to make you cry with laughter? my gf

Who was the last person you talked about sex/love with? either her or my father

Who introduced you to the person you're in a relationshop with? my high school classmate K.K.

How many brothers does your father have? two

When was the last time you did something which you knew was wrong? I don’t know what’s wrong and what not, ugh...

Do you still speak to your first crush? nope

If you could get your own house with one friend, who would you pick? dad but I’d prefer to live alone

Which is worse, too-tight clothes or much too-loose clothes? too tight are worse

What is something that you are willing to fight for? hmm...

If you jump, can you touch the ceiling of the room you’re in? noooo

Which do you think is worse: ear aches or tooth aches? tooth aches

How many different colors are you wearing right now?  3 (4 counting panties)

You can only listen to one band for the rest of your life, who do you pick? omg I can’t choose :o

Do you like big or small cars better? big

What store do you get the majority of your shoes from? *shrug*

What place, in your mind, is heaven on earth? How about hell on earth? there’s no such thing as heaven on Earth to me as I would bring myself there and ruin everything but almost whole planet is hell mostly because of people

Do you think there is anything scary about midnight? midnight is the time of ghosts but no longer minute before and/or after :P 

Can you snap with both of your hands? yep

In your opinion what is the absolute worst house chore? laundry?

How young do you think is too young to get married? definitely under 20 but I think it’s best to get married 30+

Who do you think is the dumbest superhero?  I can’t believe Green lantern is an actual superhero...

Would you rather be a hair stylist or a clothes designer? clothes designer

Would you rather be 3 inches taller or shorter than you are now? taller

Are there any foods that you think smell good, but taste bad? possibly

Would you ever stay overnight at any of your neighbors houses? why would I? 

Do you think it would be cooler to play a hero or the villain in a movie? hero

If you had the last name of your favorite actor, what would your name be? I like many actors so...

how many syllables does your first name consist of?: 3

do you know someone who is allergic to chocolate?: used to know

have you worn a dress [casual, formal, etc] within the past week?: not within the past week

when was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?: days ago

is that person your significant other?: yup

last person you talked to on the phone and what was it about?: mom, I informed her she probably didn’t take out the matches from my pocket and now she’s washing my shorts with ‘em inside the machine and my instinct was right so she turned it off in the last moment, minutes or even seconds later water would soak the package and that could ruin the clothes, I wish she checked or asked while taking my stuff away

got any plans today?: been to laboratory, done shopping but am too tired to help my parents in carrying wood 

were you born in an odd or even numbered year?: even

did you drive anywhere at all today?: took the bus

which of your parents did you see last?: both at once

describe your current shirt: black tee Nie każdy musi mnie lubić w końcu nie każdy ma dobry gust with Lil My

are you currently listening to music?: I’m very picky about songs today

do you fill out your own surveys or do you think it’s just weird?: I do

where did you buy the shoes you last wore?: Biedronka (Tom & Rose)

last disappointment?: health issues 

do you still talk to the person you first kissed?: yeah

did you seriously believe that the opposite sex had cooties in elementary?: I didn’t think about that 

did you take a nap today?: I barely ever take naps in general

name something random in your car: I don’t own a car

would/did you cheat on someone for revenge or if they wouldn’t find out? neither

would you rather be remembered for something bad or forgotten? forgotten

would you date someone twice your age for money? only if I really had to survive and there was no other way but not forever?

rate your self-confidence, 1 being insecure, and 10 being cocky. I’m insecure but not sure how much 

are you content? I wish

would you knowingly be who someone cheats on someone else with? cheats with me on someone they pretend to love? hell no

would you sleep with a teacher to pass a class you were failing? ewww, yuk

have you ever contemplated physically hurting yourself or another? mhm

are you prejudice against any groups of people? I am

is there anything you chose to be ignorant about? (war, animal rights, etc) maybe

would you replace any family members if possible (& who)? oh well...

do you lie when asked how you’re doing? what for? to blame then for not noticing? to be an ass who’s lying?...

do you have any plans for tomorrow? meeting with M.

are you able to get a tan? not much

the next time you are on an airplane, where will you be traveling to? umm... no thx

are you satisfied with the picture on your id card? could be worse but also could be better

what are your chances of getting with your crush? I'm taken

what color is your car? no car!

is the song you’re currently listening to being sung by a male or female? two women

where did you get the shirt that you’re wearing? it was a gift

how tall is the last person you kissed? taller than me

is anybody in the room with you right now? not rn

how long have you been with your significant other, if you have one? 3 months

do you enjoy dried fruit? meh

How’s your day going? blergh

What does your umbrella look like? I borrow my parents’ umbrella, I hate umbrellas

Do you share a room with anyone? there are furniture with stuff inside that don’t belong to me

Do you have socks on? Describe them. grey

Are you one of those people who has like a hundred apps on their phone? I have spotify, choices, tumblr, tik tok, fb and messenger

Do you have good reflexes? I guess

Picture you think is cute.

Do you like blowing bubbles? sometimes

Are you better at posing good questions or coming up with outrageous dares? depends

Has there been a celebrity death that really affected you? I cried after some celebs but that’s all

If you’re out of high school, have you stayed in touch with your high school friends?  I haven’t :(

Do you think, if it came down to it, that you’d be able to kill someone? I believe I might

Are you good at rating things? am not

Do you get into a lot of arguments? :x

Can you pass for older than you are? can’t even pass for my real age lmfao

Do you talk a lot? at times

Are you capable of finishing a game of Monopoly? it’s not that hard

Do you own any tie-dye clothing? I hate tie-dye 

How much soda do you drink in a week? - Do you like being asked questions? love Are you nosy? slightly

How well can you pay attention to someone talking? depends What is the closest yellow thing to you? rosary Would you mind living on a farm? I’d try Are you a patient person? wouldn’t say so What annoys you the most about people? what doesn’t... Does your computer freeze a lot? my browser freezes right after turning on the computer and my internet dies often

Have you ever ate glue? wtf

When is the last time you took a picture? this day

If you could know one thing about the future, what would it be? when will I die for example

Do you like Ellen Degeneres? she’s awful

Are you comfortable dancing in public? whatever

Would you like to live to be 110 years old? I wanna die already

Do you like getting your picture taken? I’m ugly

Do you like being the X or the O when you play tic tac toe? X

What do you think is the most popular name for a girl? I checked:

Zofia Hanna Julia Zuzanna Alicja Maja Helena Maria Oliwia Pola

What about a boy?

Jan Franciszek Antoni Aleksander Stanisław Jakub Adam Leon Mikołaj Szymon

*do ya like any?

How many people are around you right now? my family’s in the kitchen eating so I’m alone

Do spicy foods give you heartburn or make you make you gassy? both and more

Is body hair attractive or unattractive to you? it’s normal/natural?

Do you prefer bare feet or socks? socks

Hard wood floor or carpet? hardwood

Would you ever want to work in a toy store? yasss

Do you like asking questions better or answering? answering

Do you follow your head or heart more? head

Would you rather give up your hand or your foot? foot

Have you ever tried crowd surfing? too risky and no fun

If you could have 16 wishes, tell me just one you wish: I don’t need 16, 3 are enough

Do you like the movie Bambi? If so, who is your favorite on there? I don’t remember Bambi 

Would you rather be on the computer all day or watch TV? computer

Would you rather be a police man or a firefighter? police

Do you like jokes or riddles better? jokes

Do you like onion rings? disgusting

Do you like odd or even numbers better? even are easier to count

Last song you heard? Marroon 5 - Animals

Ocean or lake? lake

Do you know a lot of people with the middle name Marie? weird but no, Anna is more popular

Do you like loud or quiet people better? smth in between unless in public - quiet strangers are better

Taking pictures or getting your picture taken? taking

Do you like chocolate? meh

Favorite day of the year? New year’s eve?

Favorite holiday? same

Crayons or markers? markers

Snookie or Vinny? Snookie

have you ever been to an animal shelter? that would break my heart

are you tired right now?

who is the worst actor or actress in your opinion? there are plenty  have you ever bought someone else lingerie? nope where are your parents right now? run around the house like crazy if you have a dog, does it bark a lot? luckily not, he howls rarely too have you ever seen a magic show? sure can you juggle? I tried to learn but failed

[sithlordintraining]

She’s No Angel (Part 18)

A/N: Yo Scandal is straight wild. I want Olivia Pope in Star Wars tbh. 

She’s No Angel Master list

Never in your five years of being with the First Order did you think that the best time of your life would be spent with the Commander, Kylo Ren and his Knights of Ren. You descended onto the lush green moon and your eyes immediately lit up. Kylo moved behind you, chest practically hitting your back. “What is this place called?” You asked in amazement. “That,” Kylo placed a hand on your hip. “I cannot tell you. You shouldn’t even be here. No one is allowed.” He gently pushed you towards the small little cabin. “So I’m the first?” You turned facing him. You clutched the thick blanket that was draped over you. “Yes, you are.” Kylo tried to suppress a smile as he watched your eyes light up. “Well, lead the way.” You stepped aside so he could show you around.

“You can change and get dressed in here. The refresher is down the hall. I’ll make sure no one is in the cabin while you shower.” Kylo spoke very calmly and low. You sat on the firm bed observing your surroundings. “Here.” Kylo handed you a black pile. “Your trunk full of clothes have been returned to your ship. I have some old clothes that you could wear if you don’t mind.” “Thank you.” You looked down accepting it. He sat on the bed next to you. His knee accidentally hit yours and he decided to speak up. He coughed “It should fit. It was when I was younger.” You furrowed your brows as you couldn’t help but picture how he would look when he was younger. You started to unfold whatever was at the top of the pile to reveal a long sleeve black thermal. It was definitely too small for him now, but for you, it would be pleasantly oversized. “Um, I’ll leave you be.” Kylo stood awkwardly just watching you, running his fingers through his hair. “We’ll be outside gathering and chopping wood if you need us.” You sent him a smile and a nod before he left.

Kylo stood outside overseeing his knights, they were either chopping wood or practicing their skills. His thick arms crossed over his chest as his brown eyes scanned the men, only to stop at the girl appearing on the porch of the cabin. He watched as her (y/e/c/) eyes observed the knights, who now had their mask off. Kylo watched as you scrunched the fabric on the cuffed sleeve on his old black shirt as the wind rushed past you. His pants rippled over your small bare feet; pulling them up you started to make your way towards the Master of the Knights. A content smile fell across your lips as you felt the soft grass tickle your feet. You couldn’t help but think of your memories of playing in the yard.

You now stood directly in front of him. His lips parted as his brown orbs examined you in his clothes. He could feel his chest began to tighten as heart pounded. “Thank you for the clothes.” You looked through your lashes, peering up at him. He sucked in a breath as his eyes cast down to look at your feet. “I’m sorry I wasn’t able to provide you with footwear.” His hands found his way to his hair to push it out of his face. “They were in your trunks that was sent back and all of us here are way too big to share.” Both of you looked down at your toes wiggle and scrunch the green blades. “It’s alright.” You smiled as he now you looked you in the eye. “I mean you’ve done enough, I think I can forgive you for forgetting my shoes.” You tried to remain calm, but you couldn’t help but hear your heart pulsing in your ears from his close proximity and how he spoke so low, almost in a whisper; making sure he was heard through all the commotion going around the pair.

One of his Knights respectfully interrupted the intimate conversation. But, you stood right on Kylo’s side looking off into the distance enjoying the scenery and the soft sun. Another gust of wind came to ruffle through the trees and through your wet curly hair. Mid-conversation, Kylo’s nostrils flared as he picked up a very familiar scent. It was his. He guessed it was the faint scent of his old clothes, but it was too strong to be from them. Maybe you used his soaps and shampoos left in the mass refresher. But how did you know? He pictured you smelling each soap until you found the one that smelled just like him. He was taken out of his thoughts when he heard you sneeze. His head snapped in your direction. “You need to get inside and lay down.” Hesitantly, you asked the question that was the real reason you came out here. “Umm, so I only see six rooms and me … well, I make seven.” You began to explain yourself. For some unknown reason, your face began to heat up. ‘Makers Y/N, it’s not like you’ve never slept with the man before!’ your mind scolded yourself. The knight who previously held Kylo’s attention turned to you. “If you don’t mind, you can take my room-” “No need. She will be staying with me.” Kylo moved behind you placing a guiding hand on your shoulder as he moved you to the cabin. Both you and Kylo moved through the house and up the creaky stairs in hard silence.

You walked back into the room that he first showed you. Kylo began to remove the top layer of his suit. “I-I will, the bed is very small.” You began to stutter out as you watched his pale muscles flex. “It’s okay.” He shook his raven waves as he made his way towards you. The corner of his lips tugged up because he couldn’t help but find your nervousness very endearing. It somewhat relieved him. The bed squeaked as Kylo’s heavy frame weighed it down; you were still standing at the edge of the bed, delicately holding onto the bedpost. “Y/N.” His large hand gently grabbed your wrist pulling you out of your anxiety. “Y/N, I know it looks like I can’t even fit this bed by myself, but if we could sleep on your couch, we could definitely sleep here.” You squirmed a little thinking about the time you two slept together. This would be the first time you would be actually aware of what was going on. Tonight would be the first time you weren’t drunk. With a shaky breath, you nodded. Kylo pushed himself off to his full height. “I’m going to the refresher.” His nose dipped down touching your forehead as his hot breath fanned across your cheeks. You continued to look down until you felt plump lips gently press against the tip of your nose. You peered up with wide eyes. Kylo smirked before grabbing his towel and leaving you alone.

He was so different. He was nervous yet confident, he was very persistent about his feelings towards you. Digging the heels of your palms in your eyes, you let out a muffled scream. ‘What the kriff was going on?’ you thought. You had a plan to be alone, to stay alone. Well, honestly if it was up to you, everything would be fine between you and Lucky and Matt would be a totally separate entity from Kylo Ren, who got along fine with everyone. But, since it didn’t work like that, this is exactly why you were stuck where you are now. The bed let out a groan as you fell back onto it. With your eyes closed and thoughts cloudy, you didn’t even hear Kylo enter. Kylo stayed quiet as he silently watched your mind run wild. Lazily he threw on a pair of black sweatpants as his dark eyes fixated on your figure with legs dangling off the bed. His teeth bit down on the cushion of his bottom lip, eyes watching the multiple (y/h/c) ringlets of your hair drying sprawled across the blue blanket, the way your lashes flutter as you tightly closed your eyelids, mouth moving, seemingly unpleased, yet your chest rising calmly.

“Why aren’t you sleeping yet?” Your eyes shot open at the sound of the baritone voice. “I-I’m not tired.” You sat upright. “Plus, I have to wash the bottom of my feet and I can’t get under the covers with the clothes I’ve been outside in.” You rambled on making excuses as Kylo made his way to you, towel in hand. Before you could stand, Kylo was kneeling before you grab a hold of your right foot. Mildly, he began rubbing the dirt at the bottom of your foot with his semi-wet towel. The sight made your breath hitch. Not a single soul would-could ever imagine one of the most destructive man in the galaxy would be doing something so tenderly, and willingly at that. “If you want, you can have the tee-shirt that I was going to wear.” He said fixated on cleaning every part of your foot. You couldn’t help but let your lips part slightly as he gently caressed your calf as he cleaned each foot. When he was finished he held out his hand retrieving the shirt with the force before handing it to you. He turned around so you could try and change before he would turn around. With more ruffling, your soft voice carried out “I’m done.”

Kylo turned to see you snuggled under the blanket on the right side of the bed. Kylo almost felt frozen in his place at this sight. This was what he wanted, right? All he ever wanted was to be with you and you to allow him in after all that has happened. So why did he feel like he should call it quits before anything happened. ‘You’ve done this before dammit!’ His inner self-spoke with such force, he’s pretty sure that’s what carried him to bed. Slowly he began to tuck himself in under the blue blanket. His muscles flexed as he shimmied under the covers. Kylo sucked in a breath before shutting his eyes. He held his breath, counting the time before one of you said something. “Kylo, can I-can we talk?” Your voice echoed through the almost barren room. His eyes opened to softly fall upon your strong gaze. You took the silent stare as a yes before you started. “What I told you, last night, no one knows. Nobody, not the General, not even Lucky.” your voice just above a whisper.

Kylo couldn’t help but perk up. You just admitted that you shared a secret, that was discreetly only known to those that have been there. And now with him. “I won’t. I promise.” Kylo nodded. You let out a sigh. “Everything has been so hard. These past four months have been miserable. And I just want, I just want it to go- I just want to know why’d you do it? Why me? Why did you hurt me so much?” He couldn’t help but slowly start to feel exposed, especially by this level of intimacy. His mouth drying and palms becoming sweaty as the two of you talked in bed, as any other normal couple. ‘But you aren’t a couple.’ He reminded himself. His eyes shifted away from yours, trying to find the words to say. “I-I, I didn’t mean to hurt you Y/N, truly I didn’t. It wasn’t supposed to turn out like this. I wasn’t supposed to fall-” Quickly, he tried to cover up his last few words, hoping you didn’t hear it. “This is all my fault.” He slowly licked lips and you watched as the pink plump lips became glossy. “I shouldn’t have let it escalate that far. I should’ve told you once I started to develop some type of feeling. You were nothing but nice and I-I was a complete dick.” He shook his head into the pillow. “I never meant to single you out, I just, I just really enjoyed your company and the fact that you genuinely liked me.  I just was experiencing new emotions and I never really expressed. So I only acted with rage, like I do all the time. And I also understand how miserable you were.” He scoffed rolling onto his back. You still remained on your side with an unwavering gaze. Kylo’s thick forearm covered his eyes.

“I hated that day. I hated what I did to you. I hated seeing you leave me. And if that didn’t hurt enough, I not only watched you turn your back on me but everyone else on the hangar as well.” A shaky breath was let out as he tried to make sure you didn’t see the tears welling in his eye. “I don’t really care if people like me but, that scene was oh too familiar.” There was another pause before you thought he was going to continue. But he didn’t, he just replayed the memory of his days in the Jedi temple where people turned away in fear from him. “Am I supposed to feel sorry?” You said so boldly, he felt the weight on his chest crushing down on him. “No.” He turned to look at you with stinging eyes, as he held back tears. “Did you really like me, or was it-?” “No, it wasn’t a lie. It was real. Everything I did, everything I never said.” He gulped. “Did you-did you like me? Well.” “Matt.” You bit your lip and closed your eyes. You thought about the tall, awkward blond man who annoyed you, yet intrigued you. “I’d like to say I cared very much for that man in such a short period of time and I still do.”

Kylo carefully watched you as your mind played the memories of all the stolen glances and admirable gazes that you gave him unbeknownst. “I was here on this moon. I just threw myself into training. I just tried to push you to the back of mind, as much as possible. But, somehow you always found a way back; whether it was a memory, a dream, a phrase, the stars, anything. I just took that and used it to make me focus and stronger, so hopefully, you can see that I did this for you. Because I do, too, truly care about you. Even if I do a horrible job at it.” Kylo turned facing you, gently laying his calloused hand to rest on your shoulder. You opened your eyes to his touch. “Correction: A shitty job at it.” The room filled with soft laughter from the two of you. The tension and heaviness that surrounded you two seemed to fall off and slip through the cracks.

P.S.: I dead though I deleted all of SNA from my folder, thank God I didn’t. Also, I know y’all love me because of this chapter. Only 2 parts left before the next break. Hit me up with comments, concerns, jokes, reminding me that Kylo Ren passed out when he got a blowjob, anything. I miss talking to you guys. I JUST WANT TO STATE: Right now, from this point on, no matter what happens in the sequel trilogy, this series will end the way I want it to end. Events that I want to happen. People I choose to die. So if it is somewhat similar to the movie: I did it first.