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thethingything · 2 months ago

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cricopharyngeal spasm my fucking beloathed. it keeps flaring up really bad every time I have to swallow a pill and then it feels sort of like the pill is stuck in my throat and sort of like someone's trying to strangle me and like, logically I know the pill isn't stuck and I'm fine but god it sucks.

I have to take pain meds several times a day again because we have multiple teeth with cavities and I'm getting closer and closer to being in as much pain as I was back in June and I'm taking almost as much pain medication again and I get panicky every time the pain flares up and I have to take them and I'm sure that's not helping with the cricopharyngeal spasm either because it's usually triggered by stress.

we've got some kind of cold or something and getting showered earlier completely wiped us out and then we've also got all this other shit and I just want a fucking break from whatever the fuck has been happening with our health this year

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #posts made on pain meds #addiction mention #I'm really careful about staying below the maximum safe dosages for the pain meds #but I'm still terrified of the potential side effects from taking them this much for this long #I don't want to be in this position but I can't do anything about it because there weren't any appointments available sooner #and if I don't take pain meds I end up in so much pain I can't function #and end up getting flashbacks to both stuff from the summer and that one incident with the dentist that traumatised us to all fuck #and somehow this is still a better situation than if I were getting treatment through the NHS #because if that were the case I'd still be waiting to get the fucking wisdom teeth out #and would therefore still be dealing with the fucking abscesses that just kept coming back over and over

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