#because if I´m crying because of Matlab they will be too

[tratshka]

I'm sorry....

that sometimes my tears reach you before my touch.

[inkofamethyst]

March 25, 2020

Gave my parents a two-hour interactive GoogleSlides presentation on why I was switching from biochem to bio/anthro, and now I think we understand each other better.  More on that after the break.

Day 85 of the cute campaign: YASS.  I did this overnight Avocado face mask from Origins last night and then used Origins’ matte moisturizer this morning after washing my face (I’m running low on the Savannah Bee Royal Jelly that I use on my face during the winter, but it’s cool because Spring is here!) and I was really feelin’ all-a-dat on my face today.  Just as fresh as I could be.  And girl when I tell you that that mask was smelling some kinda good, I mean itttt.  Also, I dressed up to give that presentation so that made me feel fly too.

Day 13 of quarantine: Hmmm.  Not terrible.  I showered last night, but I didn’t get much homework done today.

Speaking of homework, I did work on a partner project for math today which was mostly fine, but I think I’m going to go review two of the questions tomorrow.  One of them we got an answer for, but I’m not sure it’s right.  The other one we’re definitely following the exact instructions as given, but somehow we’re getting a bunch of error messages.  Ugh.  Matlab is kinda cool but mostly it’s just dumb.  I don’t like coding, and that’s all there is to it.  But when the guide gives you the template to find the answer and then you don’t get an answer?  That’s just messed up.

As far as the slideshow,,, it was only supposed to be an hour max.  I somehow, along with my parents, dragged that thing into two whole hours y’all.  It’s okay though.  We’ve got an understanding about where I am right now, and I’m pretty sure I’ve got an understanding about what I’m doing next.  We won, guys.  We won.

Next steps: Come to terms with the fact that biochemistry ain’t the move (mainly I’m just nor about the chemistry part of it all).  Hype myself up for anthropology and biology!  I’m honestly so looking forward to taking all the classes that my little biology heart desires.  I’ve never taken an anthropology class before (and apparently the teacher of this one really ain’t all that great, so it’ll truly be a test of whether the material is interesting to me or not), and this one includes a lab because I suppose taking three labs in one semester is... doable... I guess...  Anyway I’ll be starting on my Anthropology sequence and hopefully I’ll enjoy the class.  Tomorrow I’ve got to send the email to my advisor and get my scheduling block lifted by doing an ~online~ advising appointment where I send her all of my information (including my plans to switch from biochem to bio), and I also have to send an email to the advisors in the bio department to see if I can get some help switching because I don’t know what I’m doing and I really was not planning to do this at all.

Today I’m thankful that I got that presentation out of the way.  I got some good advice from my parents which is always nice and I didn’t cry my way through it like I normally would have if it was just a regular conversation.  When all of my thoughts are aligned and ordered and I feel like I’m in control of the situation, then I’m all good.

I honestly would love to make a post detailing the reasons why I’m switching to bio/anthro, but seeing as the presentation turned into a 2-hour conversation, I don’t think I’ve got the stamina to type all of that out.  Besides, I need to save that writing stamina for my audiodrama.

Speaking of which, I’ve come to a little bit of an issue where there’s a plot point that needs to happen (according to the event that occurs right before it), but I don’t actually know what episode it could go in.  Like, I’ve said that everything’s plotted out to make 15-20ish minute episodes (in my mind, at least, we’ll see how that goes in real life), and this moment doesn’t fit into the episode before it nor the episode after it and I don’t want to just go out of my way to make another episode to hold only that little scene.  Like, that episode needs more gravity than just the “No, MC, you need to keep doing what you’re doing because oppressed people around the country are counting on you” speech.  Something needs to be discovered alongside the heartfelt words, you know?

Ah well, I’m sure I’ll figure it out.  That doesn’t take place until, like, ten(?) episodes in (...or was it 16??) so I’ve got time.  Maybe I’ll set up a subplot that gets resolved in that episode or something.  Ughhhh I don’t just want to add in an episode for no reason though!!  I wanted this story to be concise but also to have the tension at just the right amount (I’ve been learning a lot about tension lately :D) at all times.

Maybe I’ll link to the podcast when I start uploading it?

NOPE.

NOPE NOPE NOPE.  That would ruin my thin veil of anonymity on here and I can’t have that.  Sorry, my millions and billions of readers.  You won’t be finding out who I am through there.

Okay but I will share a little bit more of my plans because you’re a captive audience.  So I want to get the script written/drafted, then I want to send out sides to my friends to have them read, kind of like an audition but it’ll be more of a voice-testing in different roles.  Like, I’m already thinking of some of them in certain roles, but that could change.  While writing the first draft I also want to be working on audio editing, so I’ll probably write a few short story scripts and have my friends record those (tbh with little to no rehearsal because it’s not the acting that matters here, it’s the editing, so I’ll just be trying out the different audio things that I want to do in the actual audiodrama).  Then I’ll work on editing the main script and determining the cast.  After that I’ll start rehearsals and recording sessions hopefully in my university’s podcasting studio which would be awesome.  I want to get all/most of the recordings done by the end of winter break (January 2021) so that I can spend the rest of my free time editing, developing cover art and intro/outro original music, and figuring out my hosting platforms (Apple, Google, Spotify, etc. (I’m going to upload all of these myself rather than using a site to do it for me because I want ownership of what I’ve made my dude)).  The point of this is to hopefully be a capstone project for my humanities LLP, but if not then I’ll just release it for fun.  I want to spend my capstone class working on the more professional aspects and ensuring that it’s as best as it can be (considering that I’ve never written a script before nor have I directed before), and then I’ll release all ~thirteen hours of the final product (30 minutes * 26 episodes, give or take) to my humanities professors for them to wade through lol.  ...Actually.  That’s a lot.  Like, honestly it’s probably a bit much.  Maybe I won’t submit it as my capstone.  This’ll just have to be for fun?  Idk.  I’ll ask.  Anyway I’d roll out the episodes once a week (or maybe every other week idk) until the series ended!  Hopefully having gathered a decent following and having made a bunch of fun memories with friends.  I’ll definitely be seeing the actress for MC (hopefully my dancer-friend, but I could totally see my DnD-friend doing it too...) a whole lot.

And yeah!  That’s the timeline.  Hopefully.