#because i’m currently rewatching the view from vlogs

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

📷 view from…. the orange stage

[megatraven]

you know i had do it ya... all of them. all of the watercolors

DSFRGTREDFR i appreciate u so much....... (wont re-answer th ones ive already answered tho)

cadmium yellow; when you think of the word “happy” what’s the first thing that comes to mind?

alex. is anyone surprised? probably not. alex is the biggest source of happiness for me at the moment bc i love them so much and think of them so often vuv

hansa yellow; what’s your guilty pleasure song?

god is a woman by arianna grande!!!!! love it

yellow ochre; name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of!

i hope it counts if it’s a fictional band bc Julie and the Phantoms own my ears rn

naples yellow; where do you feel most at home?

in my little apartment, in my bed with bunches of blankets and stuffed animals and snacks vuv

raw sienna; with whom do you feel most at home?

i don’t know! i’ve never really thought about it, and thinking about it now, i can’t pick out just one person. any of my friends, i guess!

golden ochre; describe the relationship you have with your closest friend.

i don’t have just one closest friend, i have a few. but my relationship with them is nice, we’ve made good strides to setting healthy boundaries, i think, and we can talk to each other about anything! :D

cadmium orange; what do you like to do on your days off?

rest and relax, watch a show or maybe just turn on some music while I play lovestruck or lovelink, play some pokemon, and either write or draw! i also really like to nap, especially since i often wake up early on my days off, and most of my friends aren’t online yet. helps me skip to when they Are online

orange lake; do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad?

oh, i have many people who would be very supportive, i know. it’s not a matter of having someone for me, though. i just don’t know how to bring it up to them, so i usually just keep quiet about it whenever i am :’)

titans; do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings?

relaxing evenings, i think. slow mornings tend to frustrate me a little, but relaxing evenings are perfect

shakhnazaryan red; are you currently binge-watching anything?

julie! and! the! phantoms!!!!! i mean i already bingewatched it but i keep rewatching it like all at once, that counts right???

red ochre; are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)?

right-brained B)

burnt sienna; is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it?

there are many, but i can’t think of any names or artist right now :^)

english red; what animal do you relate to most?

tiger tiger tiger tiger t-

vermilion; what’s your favorite accent?

right now? greek!

cadmium red; do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other?

not really! just. girl or nb, i guess lol

scarlet; describe your current crush/es.

i guess i’m still nursing a crush from a couple years ago, though it’s much smaller now since we don’t talk as much but ummm she’s really sweet and funny, and endlessly kind it feels like. she’s so creative and smart and i love how passionate she gets <3 she’s a really good friend, too, and i really appreciate having her in my life in any amount :D

ruby; what does your ideal first date look like?

some cute little cafe-type place, MAYBE with some light hand holding, as we talk about whatever comes to mind, be it fandoms, our lives, etc.

carmine; what does your ideal second date look like?

just hanging out in the living room or bedroom, really. i don’t care much for going out, but if we went out anywhere at all, it would be lovely to walk down the street after a nice autumn rain vwv

madder lake red; would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date?

no, and i don’t think i will ever really want to kiss anyone, thinking of being kissed kind of squicks me out. unless it’s a kiss on the cheek or hand or something, then that would be okay :)

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now?

oh hm..... well, at work, my coworker has been really nice about letting me play christmas music on the radio all day :) it drives him nuts, but he keeps turning it on for me because he knows i like it a lot. it’s really sweet. it’s not a huge gesture, but it means a lot to me!

quinacridone rose; what’s something you’re really looking forward to?

the day that i finally adopt a cat! i’ve been sitting on it since around april but i just keep waiting. the day i do it, though..... i can’t wait!

violet rose; what does your dream house look like?

small house near the base of a mountain. neighbors not too far away, but not too close. i have a big yard, and a great view of the mountains i nthe area, and lots of trees. inside and nice and homey, soft yellows with accents of white paint the walls inside and out, and it’s filled to the brim with little knickknacks and things i’ve collected over the years

violet; is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down?

right now my heart is set on colorado because the mountains there were gorgeous.... i’d settle for anywhere close to some mountains though

blue lake; what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down?

i’d like to travel a little, visit some of the friends i’ve made, really do something good for the world before i settle

cobalt blue spectral; what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to?

the rocky mountains!

ultramarine; when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it?

i’m in a good mood right now! just getting to talk to my friends while i eat dinner and enjoy the things i love is a pretty good recipe for a good mood!

blue; what’s the most recent dream you remember?

i.... hmm. im having a hard time remembering any recent dreams. i had to go look into one of my chats for the last time i mentioned one- i had a dream where i was talking and became friends with Mr Fruit, a youtuber i’ve gotten really into watching recently :)

bright blue; what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each?

honestly just me, a spouse, maybe a kid that we adopted (Maybe!!!!), and a LOT of pets. cats and dogs, at least one snake, some rats........

blue cobalt; do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could?

i’m okay with my name, though i think i’m starting to really prefer meg over megan. if i could give myself a different name w no judgement on what it would be, i think i definitely would tho

prussian azure; what’s your favorite scent?

vanilla cupcake candles <3

azure blue; what’s your favorite type of tea, if any?

i don’t have a favorite!

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant?

tiger lilies <3

cerulean blue; if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog?

ABSOLUTELY

glauconite; describe your body without using any negative adjectives.

cute. soft. mine.

yellow green; picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario?

i hear the sound of birds and crickets, and a babbling brook off in the distance. i see flowers that don’t typically grow together doing so for me, shifting lightly in the wind. a few critters bounce over the flowers from time to time- fox kits, rabbits. everything’s at peace.

green light; are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better?

hmm. yes and no? i think a lot of things for me would improve if i could just work up the courage to come out irl. even if i didn’t get the responses i would want.

green; name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them?

france, cyprus, japan. i think the one i would like to visit most is cyprus :) i don’t have plans for the other two, just dreams vwv

emerald green; do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn?

not yet! but i’d love to learn french and greek and tagalog!

oxide of chromium; what’s your favorite book?

where the red fern grows

olive green; are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far?

not any books, but i’ve been meaning to start reading cinder!

mars brown; what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh?

ratatouille vuv

burnt umber; what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself?

eat dinner and drink water :) (im doing both rn)

umber; have you drank enough water today?

i think i’ve drank 2 bottles. not as much as normal, but i plan to drink more!

voronezhskaya black; what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent?

my scro friends :) (thats th name of our gc lol) there’s three other people in there and that’s typically where i go to vent if i have to. them, or my MLF friends. both groups always have my back and i adore them 

sepia; name five things that always make you happy.

alex, food, blankets, talking to friends, buying stuffed animals

indigo; what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received?

one of my coworkers once told me that he can see the passion that i have for art, and i don’t think anyone has ever told me that they can see it before. it meant a lot and i hold it close to my heart now :)

payne’s gray; describe your aesthetic?

this is too hard my aesthetic is too broad ;( here’s my aesthetic tag tho

black; post a selfie because you are so beautiful!

im eating fried chicken rn so i will not take a new pic. instead, have this older selfie from 4 months ago!

[ceasarslegion]

Well with the dream I just had, I'm very much not a killer

So the whole concept of this dream was that there was someone after me. I had just rewatched Far From Home last night before bed so there was a supervillain edge to it. Basically, this guy was a photography addict, but if he took a photo of you, it would paralyze you, and you'd be fully awake and aware while he then proceeded to kill you.

Why not just kill you? It was a dream, dude. Also, he was like 90 pounds soaking wet. A/V club-level kind of nerdy. Like me in high school. This guy wasn't killing anyone without help, but for better or worse, that is a horrific way to die, and I was his next target.

His first attempt was in my bedroom. I get away by distracting him with something better to take a photo of, then snatch his camera and smash the lens against the wall and dash out before he can catch me. Except, oh no, he has another camera, and now it's a chase.

You ever hear the science that humans are endurance hunters? When reduced to our purely natural predatory state, since we don't have claws or fangs or speed or strength, we simply do not stop. It's fucking scary how much endurance we have compared to the rest of the animal kingdom. And being a human myself as far as I know in the year 2020, I have never had to hunt or been on the recieving end of a hunt. Until... now, sort of. In my dreamscape, when my brain's so hyped up on drunk Spider-Man viewing that it released every molecule of DMT available to it. I would not recommend it. I ran, and I tried to duck behind buildings and through random streets to lose him, but there weren't many to do that with. When I grew up in Abu Dhabi but I currently live in Toronto, my brain kinda... fritzed out on the default location and made it Toronto cityscape on one end and outskirts desert on the other, and like the panicked idiot I was, I ran into the desert dotted with abandoned buildings here and there and dirt mixed with sand around them.

And this fucker, true to human endurance hunter form, just keeps following at a brisk pace while I RUN and try to avoid camera-range. And I get tired out, despite the adrenaline and the desire to stay alive at all costs, and he just keeps going, eventually catching up to me, every time.

And every time, I manage to fight him off by the skin of my teeth. I get kicky and bitey and smash camera after camera, but the most ominous part of this I think is just how, every time I break one, he just turns around and brisky speed-walks back from where we came to retrieve another, and always, ALWAYS catches up to me eventually. The last time this happens, I actually manage to get him in a choke hold, and I squeeze HARD, and I can hear him choking and his feel him shuddering like people do when they fight for air that's not coming. And then this thought comes in my head: "are you going to kill someone?" Followed by "it's self-defense, I won't go to jail," followed by "is that really what you're worried about?"

Guys, jesus christ. This dumbass dream about a photographer supervillain really out here yanking on my moral strings to see how far I will go to harm another human being. And you know what I do? I let him go, because I physically can not kill someone else who is helpless to me, and while he's coughing and wheezing on the ground, I jump on his camera, and make a run for the road.

I ended up flagging down a Land Cruiser, and this Tuvaluan family pops out (I have a hobby of watching travel vlogs to unusual and unorthodox places to visit, and I got REALLY into the idea of visiting Tuvalu recently) and herds me into their car when I beg for help and point at the guy trying to kill me, and I guess I looked spooked enough that the father herds me into the car and tells me "you should tell the BBC about this!" because I guess it's hard to turn off the journalist brain when that's what your job training consists of even when you're being tracked down by a serial photographer.

I end up waking up to a fire alarm test in my building while they're driving me to safety and offering me a place to lay low while I'm fear-sobbing in their back seat, but the thing is, this guy just got back up and kept going after me, even in a car, without a camera, at the same brisk pace and no word of a lie this dream has shot my whole day.

There's a movie plot that I could squeeze out of the inspiration in this SOMEWHERE

[metalbatandzenko]

All the colors!!

Link to the original post so you can reblog it yourself :)

zinc white: how are you really feeling today? no one-word answers please!

Better now than I was the first time I answered this because I got my work done, but still pretty burnt out.

cadmium yellow: when you think of the word “happy” what’s the first thing that comes to mind?

Writing.

lemon: what’s your comfort food?

Homemade fried rice is my go to.

hansa yellow: what’s your guilty pleasure song?

I mentioned previously that I don’t really have a guilty pleasure song bc I’m pretty open about all the music I listen to, but one song I will scream out is Take On Me by Aha

yellow ochre: name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of!

I didn’t just discover her, but Tanerélle...her music is so good and she’s so hot..I’m gay

naples yellow: where do you feel most at home?

San Jose’s Japantown on the weekend of Obon.

raw sienna: with whom do you feel most at home?

With my closest friends.

golden ochre: describe the relationship you have with your closest friend.

I don’t think I have a “closest” friend, but my relationship with my group is pretty casual. We send each other things that remind us of one another, we joke and have fun together but we’re there for one another...I’d trust them with my life.

golden deep: what’s your favorite season?

Over the Garden Wall Season Fall. I love the crispness in the air, the colors, the foods...it’s all so good.

cadmium orange: what do you like to do on your days off?

I write so much. I honestly can’t remember my last day off.

orange lake: do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad?

I think so. I always worry that I’m putting too much on someone but I also trust my friends to assert their boundaries when they need it.

titans: do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings?

Relaxing evenings. But I’ll take quiet mornings over both of them.

shakhnazaryan red: are you currently binge-watching anything?

Nope. I might rewatch otgw though.

red ochre: are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)?

My dad would say left brained, my mom would say right brained. I agree with my mom.

burnt sienna: is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it?

Vincent Van Gogh’s Starry Night. Both the more famous one and Starry Night over the Rhône:

english red: what animal do you relate to most?

Owls.

vermilion: what’s your favorite accent?

I grew up listening to and speaking Hawaiian Pidgin at home. I’ve lost the language, but hearing it soothes me.

cadmium red: do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other?

Tall dark and handsome Capricorns regardless of gender. I’ve dated three people who fit this profile and liked seven others. I didn’t know any of them were Capricorn’s until after I liked them.

scarlet: describe your current crush/es.

I actually don’t have one. Unless you count the celeb crush I have on one of my mutuals on twitter akdbrbrb

ruby: what does your ideal first date look like?

Honestly I like lowkey, so probably a coffee shop date or doing something fun like bowling. Maybe if the first activity goes well we can hit a museum or botanical garden then get a quick bite (like in’n’out) after. God I’m so stereotypical skfbrbr

carmine: what does your ideal second date look like?

Definitely a botanical garden or museum if we haven’t already, then a slightly nicer dinner. This is not a high standard. A Chili’s counts.

madder lake red: would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date?

I mean. I have in the past so. Akdbrbvtbr I’ve kissed people I haven’t even been dating nor interested in romantically! It’s 2020 lemme kiss my friends!

rose: what’s something really positive going on in your life right now?

Honestly Hidden Horns. It’s been so much fun to work on.

quinacridone rose: what’s something you’re really looking forward to?

Seeing my friends and family again. On top of everything going on right now, I live in a different state than my friends and extended family. I miss them.

violet rose: what does your dream house look like?

Not too large. Something with a bedroom for me and my significant other, a guest bedroom, a nice bathroom and a very nice kitchen. Ideally something with a nice view and large windows where I could watch the sun rise and set.

violet: is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down?

Honestly I’d love to move back to California somewhere. Either somewhere near my hometown, or in Southern California

blue lake: what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down?

I’d like to publish a book to be honest.

cobalt blue spectral: what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to?

I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to go to Japan on a trip sponsored by the Japanese government. Words really cannot describe how beautiful Japan is.

The first picture is of Odaiba, in Tokyo. The second row is from a small fishing town in Hokkaido. Those are the only picture I had of it that didn’t have a ton of people in them.

The last picture is from the 45th floor of the Tokyo Metropolitan Building in Shinjuku Tokyo. The picture doesn’t do it justice. For how bright the lights were, the stars were out in full force. It was hard to tell where the buildings ended and the sky began.

ultramarine: when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it?

Earlier this evening my dog played with three other dogs.

blue: what’s the most recent dream you remember?

I was choking last night. That’s all I remember.

bright blue: what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each?

I’m married to my lovely wife, and we have two kids, a boy and a girl. We also have a dog named Meatball.

blue cobalt: do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could?

My mom chose my name and my brother chose my American name based off a character in an kid’s show. I wouldn’t change them for the world.

prussian azure: what’s your favorite scent?

Fresh bread, the smell before and after it rains, redwood, cinnamon, lavender.

azure blue: what’s your favorite type of tea, if any?

I grew up on genmaicha. It’s a type of green tea that’s brewed with roasted brown rice, which mellows out the bitterness and adds an earthy flavor.

turquoise blue: if you could start a garden, what would you plant?

Snapdragons definitely. They’re my favorite flower. Probably some tulips, gardenias, carnations, violas and lavender as well. For herbs, peppermint, basil, thyme and chives. And probably an apple tree.

cerulean blue: if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog?

I mean it’s a form of income so I’d be down.

glauconite: describe your body without using any negative adjectives.

I’m tall and broad shouldered, with a long torso and long arms. I’m a bit busty. I’ve got violin hips, strong calves, and solid thighs. I walk on my toes. I have high cheekbones, pursed lips, and almond eyes framed with long lashes.

yellow green: picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario?

I’m on a rolling hill of wild grass and wildflowers. The grass shimmers and ripples like the surface of the sea in the breeze. Through it, I see a blanket laid out under a California Oak tree. I can hear the wind, and birds in the distance.

green light: are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better?

Kind of? I’m stable enough bc I’m living with my parents, but I’m also closeted. I’m hoping to move out soon.

green: name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them?

I’d love to go back to Japan, see New Zealand and visit the Basque Country in Spain. I don’t have any plans to though, I don’t have money for that.

emerald green: do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn?

My grasp on Japanese is pathetic and I’ve lost my pidgin. I’d love to regain them.

oxide of chromium: what’s your favorite book?

Chronicles of Prythian.

olive green: are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far?

The Shape Of Water by Lidia Yuknavitch. It’s so painful but cathartic.

mars brown: what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh?

Emperor’s New Groove!

burnt umber: what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself?

Sleep.

umber: have you drank enough water today?

...no

voronezhskaya black: what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent?

Either a friend or my second twitter ajdbfb

sepia: name five things that always make you happy.

Seeing my friends.

People commenting on my writing.

Seeing people like things I made for them.

Watching Lilo and Stitch.

Listening to my shitty nostalgia playlist.

indigo: what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received?

I mentioned this before but my professor and mentor figure described me to her colleague as “fast to laugh, even faster to smile”. I also had someone tell me I had a genuine gift for writing and that my piece moved them to tears after they read a Nonfiction piece I wrote.

payne’s gray: describe your aesthetic?

Something out of a Hozier song. Things being reclaimed by nature. Earth tones. Misty forests. Knives. Ornate clothing.

Alternately: young hot suburban dad who all the moms have a crush on.

black: post a selfie because you are so beautiful!

[ireviewuread]

TOO MUCH EVENTS IN SINGAPORE! | I Vlog U Watch 5 & 6 | Extended Vlog + Let’s talk (Updated)

This is a post that I was looking forward to writing for a long time. My extended vlog post and finally a heart to heart post. Finally, I can talk to all you IreviewUreaders and open the door to my life now. Firstly, the vlog I can’t believe it’s been 5 months since I last uploaded a vlog. No wonder my vlog file is exploding. Unlike my other vlogs, in this extended vlog I touched on:

Singapore’s Birthday - National Day Parade

Fort Siloso 

Party Poppers Singapore Event

You can view what goes on at the Party Poppers Singapore launch here. Get yourself some Party Popper while, you’re at it.

Cuauhtemoc, the Mexican Navy Ship exploration

Light bulb drink formation + popsicle

Photo taken from @ireviewureadsh instagram 

The white part is honey dew 🍈 The pink part is strawberry 🍓 The Orange part is rock melon

Instant hot pot testing

Cat Mario

Singapore American School Event

Museum Hopping - Trick Eye Museum, National Gallery Singapore and  Asian Civilisation Museum

Photo taken from @ireviewureadsh instagram 

For more photos like this, do follow me on instagram.

Ukulele and voice cover on帅到分手

In fact, there’s so much in that single video I even created a content page for you to hop around. You can view the content page here or in the description box of the video.

Vlog 5 & 6′s content page:

Attending the National Day Parade – 00:24

NDP (Dynamic Defence Display Part 1) - 01:16

NDP (Parade & Ceremony) – 01:52

NDP (Dynamic Defence Display Part 2) – 2:40

NDP (Show) – 3:08

NDP (Fireworks) – 6:10

Fort Siloso – 7:04

Sentosa Shots (Balloons) – 9:55

Party Poppers Lion Dance – 10:17

Exploring the Cuauhtemoc, the Mexican Navy Ship – 12:31

Instant Sichuan Mala Lazy Hot Pot Testing – 14:34

The formation of the light bulb drink + popsicle – 17:25

Cat Mario – 19:22

Singapore American School Event – 20:01

Trick Eye Museum Snippet 1 – 22:04

Museum Hopping - 22:25

Asian Civilisation Museum �� 22:49

National Gallery Singapore; Yayoi Kusama: Life is the Heart of a Rainbow exhibition – 23:03

Trick Eye Museum Snippet 2 – 25:58

Short voice + Ukulele cover on帅到分手 (Shuai dao fen shuo) by NICKTHEREAL - 26:51

Why I don’t produce videos as often?

In simple terms, videos takes 3 times as long as a blog post would take. To breakdown each and every step I take when it comes to video production are: 

Plan script (Optional)

Rewatch some of the footages I have recorded 

Record videos - middle part

Edit videos

Plan narrative

Voice over

Search for suitable free to use music 

Record ukulele for start of the vlog and end of vlog

Write out subtitles

Trouble shoot videos 

Try to input subtitles in youtube and fail

Try again

Write out blog post

Edit cover photo for video - This step is where I edit the craziest stuff to produce the most outrageous photo for the video. I guess that’s why my vlog photos or should I say my video covers often look so bombastic. 

Rewatch video at least 3 more times to determine it’s perfect - In actual fact it’s 20 times. I can even memorize what’s in the video.

Figure out what tags to put

Figure out what to write in description box 

Search previous posts for the links

Figure out the title - immense difficulty

Finally post. 

Embedded video at the sidebar

Edit original video to become a short clip for marketing purposes. 

Add subtitle and other stuff in the short clip

Market through social media and other sites - Time consuming 

Participate in other discussion

Re-market if time permits

Do it all over again

All this takes over a week for I spend my mornings and afternoons doing other stuff. Yes, it is time consuming but I do hope with practice, I would find a way to reduce the time I take to edit and produce a video. 

The Cover for the vlog

Before we move away from the topic of the extended vlog, let me touch on the cover. The nutty cover with multiple me dancing every where and a godly me in the skies. These are all edited in microsoft powerpoint. Amazing! The idea for the cover is trying to incorporate everything in the vlog on the cover. That may be the reason why you can see so many things on my cover. Or should I say on most of my vlog covers. 

Confused is my middle name

Now back to the heart to heart part. For the past month, I’m sure you would have notice a lot more sponsored posts and such on my blog. First of all, I do try to keep a balance of sponsored and non-sponsored posts. However, because of the time constraint that sponsored posts have, I would have to publish them first. Thus, the influx. Do note that although these products, services and such were sponsored, I was genuine in my reviews. I guess the label ‘Note: All my opinion given here are my honest opinion on the product. The fact that it’s sponsored does not change my thoughts about it.’ is automatically applicable to all of my sponsored posts now.

I guess wrote this part as to not only resonate with you but myself on what I’m doing here. I’m blogging full time. Kind of. I mean while I’m waiting for my graduation, I’m blogging full time. Judging by how things are going, I should be doing this full time until the end of the year. Before I find a job and this go back to being a sideline again - let’s all assume people want to hire me.

Comic strip taken from This is 65

I’m not saying, I don’t see the possibility of blogging full time forever. I’m sure there’s hope. There’s a glimmer of light. On the other hand, my degree also costed 27K. Let’s at least try to put it to good use first while I’m young. 

Honestly, I feel that there’s so much to do and not enough time. For those of you who followed throughout the years, you would have know that I like to create side projects. I like to improve things. I like to be busy but I do not know how to judge how full is my plate. I would often pile too much until either I found that my heart is not fully in it or the stack falls over. It is only then I could see clearly what is important to me. This only happens when I’m confused and I’m at the crossroads of my life. I guess the reason as to why I blog so much is because I am running from reality. Putting finding a job off. I have issues. We all have issues. Procrastination and ignoring my issues seemed to be my move now. Not quite sure what my next move would be but it better be good. 

I should get my Sh*t together

Or I can fulfill my wish of being a writer and gather some more stuff for my portfolio. Or so I said. Who knows, I may even go mad and move abroad for a month. That doesn’t seemed like a bad idea right? I don’t know. The future seem so confusing for me. Nothing is set in stone. Everything is possible. I guess it all comes down to if you were to die tomorrow, what do you want to do today? I want to write. For writing never dies.

What now?

I’m trying to finish up what I’ve started. If you remember 2 months ago, I was following a pinterest course. Well. I was attending it halfway. Then, the influx of sponsors came. So, I didn’t finish it. It’s on hold, just like every other side projects in my life. Refer to point - I should get my Sh*t together - for this part. 

In attempts to get my life together, I’ve adopted the habit of incorporating daily yoga in my life. On top of that, I try to wake up at a reasonable time - between 11 to 3pm. I know it sounds ridiculous to call that reasonable time but it’s a huge step for me. As mentioned in my previous post, I sleep at 6am and get up at 2pm but it eventually became 4pm. Time just past so much faster when you wake up when the sun is down. I don’t know what logic is this but it just does. Thus, I’ve decided to lengthen time and experience daylight once again. 

Taken from Inspired By This Feeling Tumblr 

So I’m trying. Little by little, day by day. Additionally, I found a mantra. A simple mantra that made my day a little more positive everyday: 

Today is a good day 

By reminding myself that today is a good day, made me anticipate the day even more. It made me eager to do more things, to be more positive towards how I see things. I am not a very positive person, neither am I negative. I’m more of a meh person. Being the meh person it’s easy to roll into negativity because of the lack of feelings for everything. I don’t want that. I am sick of that. It comes to a point that I was merely surviving and not living. By choosing to live, I have to remind myself everyday why. I have to make an effort. I have to change. With this simple mantra, I am not only reminding myself to ensure that the day ahead is going to be a good day but it gave me the push as well. Although I do cave in to the procrastination monkey at times, I am currently winning the battle against negative Nancy.

I know that there are plenty of quotes out there saying “It’s ok to just breathe today.” For those taking it too hard on themselves, I do agree it’s a quote for them. Whereas for those with the procrastination monkey in them, this quote only ruins us. We keep reminding ourselves that it’s ok to just breathe and we simply do nothing. Sometimes, it’s not ok to just breathe and do nothing. At least not for me. Therefore, I’ve changed to recite this mantra in my head instead for it represents: 

At the start of the day: A positive outlook on the upcoming day

During the day: A gentle and constructive reminder that I should achieve more mini-goals to have the day deemed a good day. In simpler terms, I can’t just roll on my bed all day and wathc youtube videos and call that a good day. I have to actually do something. Be it something small like getting out of my house - I don’t go out much, so getting out is big for me - to writing a page in my journal. Yes, I’m still journalling. I’m looking for the right time to reintroduce my old and new pages on my social media. 

At the end of the day: A positive reflection on what you’ve done during the day

As of now, I’m seeing positive changes everyday. What about you? What’s your go to mantra/ quote?

It was a great 2 months

Mentioned above, IreviewUread have a busy 2 months. My blog posts were going up like rockets. For those of you who’ve missed it, here’s a run down of what I posted the last 2 months. 

Beauty:

Gobdigoun Skincare products review

Gobdigoun Masks review

Althea Sun-Kissed Box Review

Hiruscar Anti Acne Range Review

Food:

Loacker’s Cocoa and Milk wafers review

Others:

A Better Florist’s Flower arrangement workshop 

Baby Goodie Bag from Cradle of Love 

Printcious Intro 

Printcious Magnet Review  

Photo from 45cat

When you wish upon a star

Finally, the last section of this very long post. My wish list! The last time I wrote a wish list was on the blog that I had during secondary school. I graduated 2 times since and I’m approaching my 3rd graduation at the end of the month. I guess that depicts how much time have past. Is stating wish lists still in or is that just a thing of the past now? Either ways, here’s my ever changing wish list or should I say my goals list: 

Looking for hair salon sponsorship so that I can redye my hair - I have a distinct black and brown colour on the top halve and bottom halve of my hair

Source

This is my hair goals kind of hair. Or anything with purple and pink. I’m crazy about those two colours. I’m fine with red too but I’ve done red before so it’s time to try something new.

Will be heading to C3 Anime Festival Asia 2017 if nothing crops up - my plan is to cover  AFA and get some stuff. It’s been long since I’ve wandered into an anime festival. Yes, I’m a closeted Otaku. Ok Kind of. This is clearly a goal. Why is this here.

More cute stuff! I know this blog is not really cutisy kind but I do want to include that genre.

I guess that’s it. I’m more of a follow the wind and make a nest kind of person. So I do embrace whatever is thrown to me in a professional manner. Or at least I hope. 

That’s finally the end of this heart to heart session. Do watch my vlog if you have not and Namaste

Updated - 23 Dec 17

I finally did dye my hair purple/pink, you can see the post here and I went to C3 AFASG. It was so fun and you can view my vlog here. 

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Kevin Cage of @spotlightsaga reviews... Untucked (S09E02) She Done Already Done Brought It On Airdate: April 1, 2017 @wowreport Ratings: 586,000+ views (April 26, 2017) Score: 8/10 (GIF from S09E03) **********SPOILERS BELOW********** I had written a long winded (as usual, I know, it's signature), heartfelt review right after this aired. I have no idea where it went and with my current television load and work schedule, I got frustrated and gave up. However, I'm still covering Drag Race and I'm having such a hard time with accepting this new VH1 'overly polished' yet trash heap, mess of a production and feel like I really know nothing about these queens... So, I knew I had to suck it up and just get this out of the way. Lost review or not, it's time to start over with Untucked because I'm simply not getting what I need out of Drag Race. Why VH1 and especially Logo has lost out on the largest ratings cash cow wouldn't at least show this incredible stripped down version of Untucked is beyond me. Sure, leave it on YouTube... Essentially it just makes it easier on all of us, but they are leaving money on the table and that's something you just don't do in the tv industry. Weeks later and a push by Fellow TVShowTimers @Phoenix82 & @⚜️ĀnglomānÍāc⚜️ to literally fall into the trap of the fn' 'Hey Qween' Videos and I've been watching them so much I was inspired to just go ahead and get YouTube Red. Might as well break this bad boy in. Honestly, rewatching this episode so many weeks later, and my now more experienced YouTube navigation, has caused me to look at this episode in a whole new light. Jaymes looks and sounds and says things that indicate that he is defeated, but his YouTube channel would indicate quite the opposite. As a matter of fact, I now wholeheartedly believe Ru when he said that Jaymes' audition tape was funny and nothing short of stellar. Jaymes is clearly talented, but froze in a different environment. Like Charlie Hides, Jaymes came up or at least gained notoriety through Vlogging. Charlie just has more experience and actually has performed under pressure. I think the whole experience just slammed Jaymes in the face at full sped, which is unfortunate. I for one am not a fan of seeing people choke, but it happens. First to go or not, Jaymes has and will continue to benefit and grow from this experience. There's plenty of talent to mine there! Eureka doesn't exactly come off as a saint here, and that's a shame as well because Eureka is an amazing drag queen. I hope in future episodes she can navigate the cameras a little better and not come off as such a pill. Aja and Alexis spark and stand out more than I had remembered, as for weeks I kept saying that I didn't even know who Alexis was. All the sudden I'm happy to be watching Drag Race (at least Untucked...) again, hopefully this will help me get that bad taste VH1 has left in my mouth with this new approach to the show. Drag Race S9 may be radically different, but we still have our stripped down, incredibly vulnerable, naked version of 'Untucked' and I guess that will have to do for now.