#because genuinely i think this beomgyu has changed me

[hyukascampfire]

let me put my clothes back on and fix my makeup the way this fic just fucked me. on a srs note, first of all, hyukascampfire nation go read this!! right now!! it has been a long time since i’ve found a fic series that i’ve latched on to. there’s something about having a fic that you dedicate to a time in your life, and i fear that it is going to be this one.

beomgyu especially is going to stick with me. his character is raw and brutal, and there’s no way he couldn’t. he tears a spot in your mind so easy that it’s honestly DISGUSTING. i quite literally don’t think i’ll be seeing beomgyu the same for months cause now it’s just cc beomgyu living in my mind and i NEEEEED it. i seriously cannot fucking wait for the rest of this series. not only am i blessed to have serene as a best friend, but to have the author of this fic as a best friend casually is actuLly insane and i lowkey forget how crazy that is what the fuck >.<!!

he’s constantly sort of described as a drug/addictive substance himself. you know that, inherently, he is bad for you. you take him anyway, because the hit you get from it is euphoric. he is euphoric in the dark, dirty sense that only a drug could be. what a brilliant way to characterize a character like him. i honestly could wax poetic about how you write beomgyu and how it’s going to honestly stick with me for a long time for literally forever. are you joking? personifying him as a drug himself?? “He refused to leave your system, no matter how many times you tried to get clean.” and he exactly did. it’s just fucking insane how this fic reads as a hellish battle with a drug addiction and all the highs and lows it drags you through the muck and dirt. it’s poetic in a way that literslly makes me want to take my eyeballs out of my head and throw them like bouncy balls cause WHAT DO YOU MEAN??? i’m literally fucking mad at myself that this isn’t my fic like jealousy is CONSUMING ME i need to own your brain. :333

it’s like, MC is constantly doing things that id consider stupid, but i wouldn’t call her a dumb character. she recognizes when she’s doing dumb shit in the same way any addict knows that they’re destroying themselves in their hunt for an ‘eternal high’ that will never come. beomgyu will never be permanent, never be what she wants him to be, but of course she’s still going to chase him. she’s dependent on it. i for real would consider the fact that he still shakes her in the present just a side effect of withdrawals, or even the threat of relapse. OH GOD, seeing him in that interrogation is literally a battle against relapse as she quite literally has to remind herself of what he’s done. no, she is not stupid at all. she’s just fighting a battle that was genuinely never meant for her to win. beomgyu knows that.

He constantly makes me wonder if he’s keeping her at arm’s length to protect her, or if he’s doing it because he doesn’t actually care about her enough to bring her any closer than arm’s length. which is perfect, because that’s exactly the effect that choi beomgyu has. it’s exactly how MC feels. I CANNOT EXPLAIN TO U HOW WELL YOU’VE PUT US IN THEHER SHOES. i literally feel like i’m in the same boat as her. he gives her just enough to make her wonder, and then he recedes, and what are you supposed to think of that? obviously, from the outside looking in, it’s easy to assume that somebody who does that is only toying with you in a purposefully manipulative way. and i do think that if him. but i’m also right in the MC’s head when he offers those fleeting moments that you forget about the frames of the rose-tinted glasses he’s placing on your face, and instead all you can see is the pretty pink shade of everything. these are those ‘highs’ he offers, and that MC is constantly chasing. the idea that things could be good. but isn’t it all the more sour that he could be good and yet isn’t, rather than that he is all bad? it’s all so bittersweet and tragic. beomgyu is a bit slimy, awful, and red flag incarnate. a yet again, in this subtle and nuanced way that i even find hard to describe, he isn’t like the others he surrounds himself with. i mean, he is, but he isn’t. LMAO SEE?? i feel you MC. i really do. i’d let choi beomgyu walk me like a dog too, tho!

AND YOU ARE SO INCREDIBLE AT PORTRAYING AN UNRELIABLE, BIASED NARRATOR. “Maybe Kayla had been wrong about him, after all she didn’t know him, not like you did” this is so real and visceral. such a real thing that those that have been thoroughly manipulated tell themselves. she keeps moving the goalposts, making excuses for things that do not deserve excuses. this is exactly how somebody with that type of seized mindset would behave. not that it’s the correct mindset, because goodness she’s being walked all over, but it is entirely real, and that is the beauty of this fic. it doesn’t pull punches to make it a cute love story. it doesn’t claim to be one. i cannot explain to you how much i appreciate that as another author. am i making a little voodoo doll of you and doing dark magic so that i can steal your thoughts and talent in little increments so that you won’t notice? no… don’t worry abt it…

AND ANOTHER THING! (no dont drag me away to the padded white room yet pls i have more to say) The scene where the gross drunk guy comes up on MC?? i feel like it makes it even less clear whether or not Beomgyu actually cares for her, or to tell whether or not there actually is a better side to him. did he save her just because the dude insinuates that he can have what beomgyu considers his? because he called her a doll, and that’s beomgyu’s name for her? is it a pride/ownership thing, or did he swoop in because he genuinely was worried for her safety? if he was, why would he be bringing her around the slummy types of places that he thrives in, seems to own, knowing what could happen to her? and then eating her out afterward because he got jealous? so he’s actually the king of mixed signals and it is SICK. i’d be as twisted up as MC i swear to god, because what? i literally could not tell you if it’s a ‘don’t touch her because she’s mine, and how dare you think you can touch what is mine’ sort of thing, or a ‘don’t touch her because i won’t let you hurt her’ kinda thing. which i mean, it could be both IDFK??? everything he does is so convoluted and it’s so incredibly stifling. it’s to the point that even finding out which it is becomes intoxicating. like the mystery of it is almost the most addictive part.

and godd, it’s so frustrating when he just knows inherently that, like when he asks if Kai was her boyfriend, it couldn’t be true. cause he knows exactly what he does to her (in the worst way possible). like i just hate when a man KNOWS it’s INSUFFERABLE UGH. it should be that she has the power over him—the detective with sway over the case in which he is being questioned over MURDER. not even to mention the fact that it’s alluded to the idea that she already is completely aware that he has committed murder before. in front of her eyes, nonetheless. she should hold all the power. but being who he is, he maintains the upper hand inherently. it’s frustrating to see, and even more frustrating to experience. to have all that and still know that he owns the space between you. literally what are you supposed to do about that? cuz the moment a man ESPECIALLY one like beomgyu knows that he can walk u like a dog it’s over for you. sorry, you’re cooked. why couldn’t kai be her boyfriend? because beomgyu knows he’s not. THATS SO FUCKING INFURIATING BECAUSE HE’S RIGHT AND HE KNOWS FOR A FACT HE IS.

IM NOT DONE YET! you defy the logical conclusion that because he is the love interest in this fic, he couldn’t have been the murderer. there’s a lot of points where i inherently want to assume that obviously he couldn’t have done something like that, because he is the main love interest in a fanfic. and in most fanfics, that would seem starkly true. it just doesn’t really happen. usually, even if it was proposed that a major character that the whole story is centered around was possibly the murderer, it would be made clear later on that ‘no! they weren’t! they would never, because they were framed!’ or whatever. and then i’m reminded brutally by beomgyu’s own behavior that he quite literally couldve, and that’s who he is. somebody who will draw you in and turn on your initial blinders when you see what kind of man he is, all the way until you’re saying ‘no, he couldn’t.’ but he really, really could. i literslly can not tell if he did it or not, and that’s the effect of him. it’s just substantial and honestly not something i’ve seen and it’s SOOO YUM.

even just the fact that he is so absolutely sure that after all these year’s he’s still got her on a leash is just unbelievable. “Just how deep does your loyalty still run?” And you know what? he isn’t even wrong. STILL! he’s not asking, ‘are you still loyal?’ no. he’s asking, ‘how deep does your loyalty still run?’ because he just fucking knows what effect he has, and how thoroughly he has fucked her up to the point that him saying this is truthfully cruel. how could he love her, if he knows he brings her to these lows, brings her down to his level? but then again, doesn’t it seem like he really does sometimes? it’s not fair. he knows he has her at his beck and call like a pet. strings her along fully intentionally, knows that she longs for something more emotional, and still he does. it’s mean. and i can recognize that, and even then i don’t think i can completely cast him away. like, fully aware that maybe he doesn’t really love her, but still hang on to every second of their conversation and interactions, beyond the sex. it’s completely ironic and is exactly what MC struggles with.

i also noticed that, when beomgyu appears, shes always pretending that he’s not there for at least a little bit. staring straight ahead, forcing him to speak or acknowledge her first. it seems like a subconscious thing she does to at least try and gain some semblance of power of him. as if he’s coming to her, and not her to him, even if she knows that’s not the truth at all in reality. cue ‘why’d you only call me when you’re high?’ by the arctic monkeys, thank you!!! because he only calls on her when he desires it it, when he deigns her worthy of his time. and she’ll come almost every time, unless she’s doing this. trying in small, inconsequential ways to try and reclaim any sense of power that she can scramble together, even if it’s completely fabricated and to not effect on somebody as floaty as Beomgyu. how could it hurt him when he literslly doesn’t give a shit already? making a point by intentionally not seeing him for two weeks does not dent him. making him speak first does not dent him. i understand her need to try, though. i’d feel like i was losing my mind if i was dealing with him, too.

throughout this i was just like… visualizing him so viscerally. like, if i could describe him, itd be smoke. dark, toxic to breathe, fleeting but potent, and impossible not to breathe when you’re caught in the middle of the fire. and just the imagery portrayed, the smoke kisses and all that i feel just solidifies it. unfortunately, it is completely sexy and hot and i hate it! “If I was available right now?” He holds out the cigarette for you to take. Eyeing it with disdain for a moment, you decline by shaking your head, “I don’t smoke.” — Beomgyu cocks an eyebrow at you, “You’d be the first to decline.” He studies you for a moment, the corner of his lip twitching into a faint smirk. “But you’re the first of many things, dollface”, he says as he brings the cigarette to his lips. one of my fav passages. LIKE? he’s insane, first of all him smoking is just SEXY i’m sorry it’s fucking HOT and i’d take that right from his lips but ANYWAY, this scene is absolutely a lot more than a quick exchange, and it’s clear that it’s supposed to be more. it almost seems to sum up their entire relationship in a way, but let me stretch before i reach. it just feels so monumental. if i could sum up the fic with one passage, it would be THIS one. the speaking, but really they’re saying something else, the nuance, the symbolism of the smoking and him offering her something that could harm her much in the same way he does with a plethora of other things, and him making little comments and doing little soft things that make her wonder if maybe she is special. ‘but you’re the first of many things, dollface.’ i believe that it’s the small moments like this that keep this relationship going, that keeps MC suspended in enough belief to put herself through what Beomgyu offers her. just art. like i’m fully slobbering over this I EFFING LOVE YOU

ladies, take this as a warning! cast men like this out of your life! demons! all of them! they consume your souls! not all of them are as sexy and worth it as choi beomgyu!

AND LIKE I SAID. he is seriously good at making her accept little to nothing. and i’ll say it again and again. you do it SO realistically. “At least he was here with you and not the woman he’d been feeling up not even an hour prior. You were all that mattered to him. Right? That’s why he’d gone after you, only you.” settling for less and less. it is such a classic example of how somebody who’s not being treated good at all by somebody that they value the attention of will accept less and less over time, filling in the gaps with excuses. it’s so realistic and SO GOOD. first, it’s ’oh, maybe i’m the only girl.’ then, it’s stuff like thsi. ‘it’s okay, because he left her for me.’ GIRL STAND UP. but also, how could you blame her? i mean, obviously she has some blame in this. of course she does. but i understand her completely. yeah, she’s fully cooked… do NOT let that man break your spirit!

and let me say. and i mean, LISTEN TO ME. i have to tell u that DOLLHOUSE THE WEEKND AND LILY ROSE DEPP IS LITERALLY SO PERF AND I NEED U TO HEAR ME ON THAT. it’s so them. just the essence of the song, the lyrics paint SUCH a dynamic and it is so SO SOS O them. please and thank you.

BACK TO BUSINESS. the scene where she’s investigating him and asks him why he did it, but is actually insinuating the man that he killed in the first scene where she was terrified of him without even having to mention it out loud because yeonjun was listening, shows how in tune they are with each other despite it all, and definitely why shes best and worst to be on this case. because he knows exactly how to tug on that leash even if she thought she took it off ten months ago, and yet… quite literally nobody will get a word out of him besides her. AND, i don’t believe that anybody even knows him better than her. it clashes, but i can’t even tell if her being on this case is the best or the worst. i am so enthralled by the murder case, by the way. a lot of fanfic writers are really, really good at writing the romance aspects of a fic. and it’s okay, because a lot of them don’t need to be more than that. but then there’s fics like these that are more than that. this is how i spot the best of the best writers—who can keep A B and C plots all interesting and worth paying attention to, beyond just whether or not they fuck and get together. it takes a higher level of writing skill that i’m not saying EVERYBODY has to have as a fanfic writer, but it is something that i believe set certain fics apart as something just a little different. i love it.

like, just the fact that we watch how she’s changed by beomgyu. he infects her. he actively ruins her, and i can’t even tell if it’s intentional. and the cycle kinda continues, we see her using taehyun to get at beomgyu. it’s not fair, stringing him along as beomgyu does her. it’s the concept of being the victim of a situation and then recycling that pent up toxicity into another person, and now, are you even better than that person at all? do you deserve how they treated you, now? my heart honestly did ache for taehyun cuz that’s bae, but ALSO god he was just so sweet and willing to go out with her, and she drug him right to the same shady places that beomgyu dragged her. it’s almost melancholic seeing her become that, even if in less intense ways. this is the effect of what beomgyu does to her, and again. she is not entirely a victim. doing the same to taehyun was not fair. but reality isn’t fair, is it? and you do reality so SOOOO well. i’m opening my notes app rn thabk you very much. just this toxic, heady kind of consuming relationship where it infects you and corrodes you on the inside. changes who you are for the worse. like a drug. CAUSE HE REALLY IS A DRUG IN THIS FIC AND IM STILL GAGGED OVER THAT.

also, i think i know why cc beomgyu gives you as much pain as tsfawc taehyun gives me. the both of them are very much internal characters. they say and act in ways, and could say anything, but their mind could be something completely else. they watch their words so painstakingly closely that you have to write them that painstakingly closely as well, because every word means something else with them. the do not say what they mean, and when they do, it doesn’t seem like they are because they never do. they’re definitely not the same in any capacity— but they def are both cold in very different ways. beomgyu is the absolute leading force in this fic, coupled with the main storyline: the murder of baekhyun, which he is intrinsically tied to as a suspect. but he also just has such a gravitational force that he makes it that way. it’s clear that his role isn’t actually main love interest like i wrote earlier. the more you learn about him, the more you see that he is a driving, enigmatic force in the story than anything else. something potent and so real that it’s kinda uncomfortable, but certainly too far out of reach to be a love interest. especially toward the end, jumping between the flashbacks where the walls are slowly coming down between them and then to the future where they meet as interrogator and interrogated is both jarring AND it emphasizes that fact. as good as it seems things might’ve been going, choi beomgyu is as choi beomgyu is. believing that he’s something he’s not, projecting your own preconceived notions onto him, whether it’s the idea that he’s nothing but a street rat or even on the flip side that he’s anything more than that, is a mistake. he cannot he pinned down, and to try is to fail. that’s what MC is both slowly learning and forgetting, and it’s why we see them where they are in the future. strangers but not.

it’s so crazy that she and even us as readers are so used to bare minimum that even him relenting something so simple as a contact to text him with feels almost romantic. this is how beomgyu operates. he gives so, so little, knowing that you’re hooked, so that even the littlest something is hard hitting. but he’s sowed such mistrust in us and MC that giving something like this, seemingly letting down walls even just the littlest bit, feels bittersweet. could you even let yourself enjoy it when you fear that it’s for nothing?

it feels like such a journey. in the present, only five days have passed, but because we go through so much in the flashbacks it is SUCHHH a journey. so even though we are discovering so much past, we are still so entirely lost as to the happenings of the present. the dual-plot points and storylines is GENIUS. like i need to give you all your flowers for that. it gets you so invested and, even though you’re finding so much out about their history, all it does is lend you clues to the still enigmatic present. so genuinely set up.

“He appears almost bored, but you knew that he was listening intently, for he had stop playing with his rings.” ALSO PERFECT!! perfect. always acting, feigning nonchalance no matter what. but there’s one person that got close enough to spot the tells. how ironic is it that the one person that he let close enough, no matter how minimally, is now in charge of a case he’s accused of murder in? nevertheless, he had the fact that she is clearly, to everybody including herself, both emotionally resistant to harming him AND wishing he was locked tf away forever. oh it’s messy alright!

and let me say again, just the fact that shes literally watching herself change, becoming someone less like herself and more like him, able to see it but not at all able to stop herself from craving the hit that the drug of him gives her. hurting the people around her, like taehyun, hurting herself, but she will crawl to him on her hands and knees for a fix because she’s allowed him to bring her down to this place. to the drugs and the nasty people and places that choi beomgyu exists in, and it’s lowkey started to take root in her too fhe more she exists in it with him. dragging taehyun to a place like that? using him? is that not a reflection of beomgyu in some ways? and then all of a sudden she’s at this new low, sitting in a sweet little park on a sweet little bench watching him fucking snort drugs off the back of his hand, escaping the sight in a grimy bathroom where the light’s flickering, and even in a moment of reflection like this, it isn’t enough to wake her up.

so, after that whole yap festival, i literally do not want to wrap this reblog up, but i fear it literally will not load to post if i don’t. even though most of this was kinda like coke-induced rambling, i am thoroughly invested in this fic from hereon out. this is now my fic for the year thabk you! serene i love you brain and just OMFG i cannot believe i’ve taken so long to get to this. until the next part..

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📼 TAPE 01 ⎯ STAY AWAY FROM CHOI BEOMGYU “Choi Beomgyu”, he says, the smirk on his lips widening as he does. The name fit him, oddly enough. Perhaps it was a bad idea to give out your own name. He was a stranger, not to mention one that Kayla had specifically warned you about not long ago. Still, this man intrigued you beyond limits.. 

📼 TAPE 02 ⎯ RED LIPSTICK STAINS The red lipstick that you had accidentally brought along this morning, the one you were supposed to get rid of. It had been but a mere coincidence right… The way it had presented itself so nicely on your dresser earlier that day.

📼 TAPE 03 ⎯ TO KNOW IS NOT TO LOVE The cool metal of his rings sting your naked skin as his hands caress your thighs. He’s silent, and for a moment you thought that he might be angry with you. But then his eyes lift to meet yours, they’re dark, but in the pale light of night, they seemed to be almost glowing. “Dollface?” His breath is hot against your legs. 

📼 TAPE 04 ⎯ I DON'T SMOKE He holds out the cigarette for you to take. Eyeing it with disdain for a moment, you decline by shaking your head, “I don’t smoke.” — Beomgyu cocks an eyebrow at you, “You’d be the first to decline.” He studies you for a moment, the corner of his lip twitching into a faint smirk. “But you’re the first of many things, dollface”, he says as he brings the cigarette to his lips. 

📼 TAPE 05 ⎯ BLOODY BODIES Immediately you jerk back, your gaze flitting down to your now stained fingers. It was fresh. “Oh my god”, is all you can muster and before he has the chance to object your hands are insistently bunching his shirt up above his chest. — “Dollface”, Beomgyu tries, his fingers gently wrapping around your wrists but you merely shrug him off, all too focused on the blood smeared across his skin.

📼 TAPE 06 ⎯ A BUSINESS KIND OF DEAL His lips stretch into a smirk when he notes the increasing frown on your face. “Think of it as a business deal”, he says as he motions toward the two of you. — “Business?” You echo, the confusion in your voice evident. Beomgyu nods, his tongue prodding against the inside of his cheek. “No deals go through until both parties consent to it of course.”

📼 TAPE 07 ⎯ $5 FOR A ROLL With slight reluctance you pluck the piece of paper from him, trembling fingers rolling it up and creating a makeshift straw. Beomgyu watches you with an amused smirk, his tongue prodding against the inside of his cheek. You don’t say anything when you hand him back the now rolled dollar bill, and he doesn’t either as he takes it from you.

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[binniesbooks]

• STILL WITH YOU UNTIL THE NEXT TOMORROW

TXT 019 .F05 2024

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pairings TXT x reader

warnings none, just a light-hearted analysis for the boys :))

faye's note I'm bored soooo let's just make some analysis about TXT! 😋 This is not proofread :)) Also, I've been trying to write fayebies, i swear ⊙⁠ω⁠⊙ but i just can't finish anything :(( especially I'm a little bit sick. I have a fever for like 4 days now. Please wait a little longer ㅠㅠ

Before anything, I would also love to hear your thoughts about this! ;)

Soobin - HE IS A HUSBAND MATERIAL. I'm not even joking! I'm taking my Soobrangdan heart aside (to not be super biased), and for me, he is really husband material. Especially with that shoot where he played with kids-- damn his smile when he's  playing with the little girl :( please wife this man up. He's so genuinely happy about it, we can't deny. I just know he would love to be a girl dad. No one can change my mind. And that photo of his nephew, oh my god, don't get me started. His pure heart wants to be an amazing dad, I'm sure. I just know he doesn't want to play when it comes to relationships. If he would have a girlfriend, pretty much his goal is to be married with that person and build a happy little family.

Yeonjun - I've said it before and I'll say it again, he's more of a boyfriend material. Why boyfriend material? Let's not lie and cover things up, he always gives the vibe of "I know what I feel but I don't know how to say it" or some sort. :( He's just a confused baby. Don't get me wrong, he is an amazing person but he's more of a boyfriend material because he just have the difficulty to navigate his feelings, if you get what I mean. People (including me,) would also say that he is the "collector" type because of his vibe-- no he isn't! He is just really confused about how to navigate his true feelings, which would often cause people to misjudge him. He's oblivious about people whom he doesn't love, romantically, of course, and their feelings and would only think he's just doing the bare minimum when, in fact, people have already fallen in love with him—the reason why he is always mistakenly thought of as a womanizer.

Beomgyu - This guy here is boyfriend material too! A silly boyfriend at that! Although he can be a little bit scary and serious at times, he's more on the funnier side. He has a goofy personality that everyone knows. And that makes him a fun and simple guy. Again, don't get me wrong. Because he is the type to be funny and all, yet he is the sweetest when it comes to relationships. Would give flowers on a daily basis. Would do something so cringe-worthy and cheesy just to see you smile. When I say he's the sweetest, I mean he is really the sweetest. But he tends to cry the most. Pure soul only wants true love and can't help but be a little jealous of people who are too clingy with you.

Taehyun - Another husband material. He is a smart husband. Responsible. Reliable. Disciplined. He knows how to stand alone. I mean like, he knows what he is doing most of the time. The most rational of them all. He knows the consequences and doesn't want to do anything risky. He always thinks ahead of time—always two steps ahead compared to others. And he is also firm on what he believes or whatever he says. He knows how to trust himself, and he knows how to be accountable about everything. He's the type that would hurt you with his words rather than fool you with lies. The type to defend you in public and correct you in private. A manly man indeed.

Kai - Of course, he is boyfriend material too. His shy persona tells me so. :) I know, I know, he is big and all. But his shy personality really shows his boyfriend side. The type to go with you every time you need someone. Your one call away partner. A comfortable person you could lean on anytime. He's such a soft guy, and he knows how to show a lot of effort—similar to Yeonjun when it comes to efforts. However, he doesn't really want to stand out—he doesn't want the spotlight for himself—and would rather be hidden away than being watched. This guy is so clingy. Yup. Loves to be around you all the time. He loves to have your hand in his. Shows his extroverted side when he's with you and his friends. 

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10:04 PM (pt.2)

warnings: suggestive? they don't really do anything, mentions spoiler for jujutsu kaizen (sorry) a/n: here is the continuationnnn of pt1 hope you like it I worked really hard on it LMAO I put more effort into writing these fics instead of my assignments guys. lmk what you think! ✍️ proofread by me and @watariisbestboy

You had just picked up Soobin, already returning to your apartment. It was a movie night, and you knew how busy he was, but he insisted on spending time with you before leaving for his tour, even with the preparations already in full force. He was still making time for you, nonetheless.

As you reach a red light, Soobin urges you to look at a picture he took earlier. He wants you to compliment him on their new concept, but you don't dare fall for his tricks.

"Wow," you say in mock awe.

"You didn't even look, ugh, here!" he practically forces the phone into your face. The brightness blinds you briefly before you look at the photo. Damn, he looked good. The photo in front of you entirely took you away. Now you know how MOA feels. And he took your silence as an agreement. 

"I know I'm so sexy in this, right?"

"No, I was looking at Beomgyu. He's been looking a little too good recently, and the long hair suits him." You genuinely complimented the guy.

"Ew, please, I look better. Next thing you know, I'll be in a mullet for the next shoot. Ah, look at this one!" Soobin attempts to show you the next photo, but the light has already turned green. 

"Whatever, I know what you'll say anyways," and he continues to smile at himself, tapping away at his screen. 

"Okay, mister, and speaking of your bandmates, when am I meeting them?" you had been meaning to meet the four of them. Soobin always talks about them, and it warms your heart to know he has such kind people to surround him in such a stressful field. Recently, Hueningkai had texted you, but you didn't believe it was him. It would make sense since you know Soobin, but you were still cautious. You had forced him to prove himself, and when he sent a sneaky pic of him and Soobin sleeping in the background, you just had to believe him. Kai told you that Soobin mentioned your guys' similar plushie collections, and your friendship grew from there. 

"I know you just want to because of Beomgyu, but no, you can't. You're mine."

Oh, does he know what that does to your heart?

"…Maybe, BUT I really wanna meet Kai. Kai has been showing me the recent penguin plushie he bought, and I wanna meet a fellow squishmallow connoisseur." 

"You feed his addictions; it's not good. And I don't even know how he got your number!" He suspects that Kai took his phone to steal it from him after mentioning you once to the guys. He regrets ever bringing you up because now you and the guys want to meet one another, and he can't have that happen as much as he appreciates the people he loves the most actually liking each other; he likes the dates the two of you have... just you two. 

"Whatever! I'll meet them one day. It's bound to happen~."

"Maybe one day.." As his sentence begins to trail off, the expression on his face changes to a familiar one that tells you he's thinking. 

"But you and I both know you would never be able to say a word to Beomgyu. Also... why is he your bias? Hello, I'm right here!" He's been pestering you about that ever since his debut. 

He doesn't understand why you would not like him the most. He's your best friend, why Beomgyu?!

"That might be true, but don't call me out. Let me live." 

"Yeah, in your delusions? It's unhealthy to be stuck there, but I can help you get out."

You had already reached your apartment's parking garage, settling into your designated parking spot and turning your car off. 

"Yeah? And how's that?" you turn to look at him to see what he means.

He places his arm behind your car's headrest and points at himself with his other hand. 

"Me." and he has that damned grin on his face. You push him lightly with the palm of your hand, but enough to see that he has hit the back of his seat. Your giggles are all that's left before you begin packing your things. 

"Sure," you say as you gather your phone and keys from their holders—the car doors closing, resonating throughout the garage walls, and the familiar smell of gasoline and others you can't name became more prominent.

"Oh, come on, you know you love me," and he wiggles his eyebrows in your direction.

"I only use you for body heat, if anything." you look at him deadpan.

"Oh, so I'm being used." he feigns hurt, hand against his chest as you walk towards the elevators. 

"Yup!" You comment gleefully.

——-/-——-/-——

The time you take to reach your apartment feels like little to nothing despite you taking residence on the 20th floor. Quick banter and giggles fill the halls. You fear one of your neighbors will hear and complain. 

Once inside, he removes his shoes and slips into the slippers you bought for him with enlarged eyes and vibrant blue peeking out from under his sweats. He smiles to himself, reminded of his fond memory of you surprising him with the pair. He recognized them the instant you had flaunted them in your hands, already wearing the matching pair in a light green. You had shown him a video of the slippers once, insistent that you needed them because they could tongue kiss and hold hands. 

Making himself comfortable on your couch, he grabs the remote as it's his turn to pick the movie for tonight. He had nothing in mind but wandered to those Studio Ghibli films you love. He could understand why you liked them so much, having watched all of them with you on a movie marathon. He was happy to see you indulge yourself in the numerous scenes played on screen and be there for you when it got emotional. You were the type to cry during movies, and he cherishes the fact his shoulder is the one you chose to cry on. You set the snacks you prepared beforehand on the coffee table in front of him before heading to your room to get ready.

When you return, he's on his phone but quickly looks up to see you in one of the hoodies he thought he lost. But unfortunately, he's not too mad seeing you being its captor. If anything, butterflies fill his stomach, and he distracts himself by scooting to make space for you beside him. 

Your small figure in his hoodie does things to his heart, and he knows he's got to do something about these feelings he has for you. But it's probably too late, seeing how affected he is, and you aren't even cuddling yet. 

You take your place on the couch, snuggling into his side and placing the blanket over the both of you. The warmth that floods you is comforting against the cool air. You look at the screen ahead, and your eyes widen slightly as you recognize the familiar title. 

"Ponyo? I thought you wanted to watch that one anime you like." You were curious why he had picked the movie since it was one that you watched when you were feeling down or just needed something to listen to while you slept. You forget the unfortunate end of a particular character he loves, as you mention in the anime series. The mood then dampens, and his expression becomes downturned. 

"Ahh, sorry, I forgot he died. RIP Gojo"

"Too soon…" he says. "It's bad enough. I had to be reminded of it live the other day." You remember seeing this moment live (what can you say? You're a fan!) and could only watch and adore the cute expressions on his and Kai's face.

"Sorry, sorry," you say, chuckling at his expression. You poke the sides of his cheeks, feeling pity about his loss. "Let's just watch the movie then."

——-/-——-/-——

As the movie begins to play, a scene comes up where Ponyo heads straight for Sosuke. She passes the mom, who holds her arms open for the little girl, only to see her run and hug her son just behind her. It's an adorable scene, and you can feel the pure childlike happiness flowing from it. It's reasons like these that have always drawn you to these films. 

Suddenly, Soobin nudges your shoulder to get your attention. 

"That's us," eyes never straying from the scene before him. 

"Yeah, and you're the mom, right?"

"Shut up.. hey we should dress up for Halloween together."

"Yeah? You as Sosuke and me as Ponyo?" You suggest.

"Yeah! I'm sure I have a plain yellow shirt somewhere.." He ponders the thought that, if anything, he can always scavenge through the other guys' clothes.

"You fit the part, but.. I don't know how I would look as a ginger. Never thought of myself in red." Honestly, you thought red was good as a clothing choice, and you had never dyed your hair besides when you thought going blonde was a good idea. But, ever since, you stuck to staying natural.

"Well, we can buy a wig and test it out, so you don't have to commit. No matter what, I think you'll look cute."

"Maybe… oh, but my friends are gonna be on my ass about this." The realization dawns on you. How could you forget? Their nagging comments still ring in your ears (out of love <3). 

"Why?" he questions, cocking his head to the side. 

"Couples costumes? They already think we're in cahoots." You say as you quote the last word with your hands. 

"Of course, I always tell them you don't think of me as anything more than a friend." you let out a nervous laugh and take a bite of the treats before you to distract yourself after revealing such information. You think about all the times Soobin has come over, and your roommate mischievously wiggled her eyebrows at you. 

They'd get a kick out of this one…

“…”

But when Soobin doesn't say anything, it worries you a bit. Did you say something wrong? 

"Hey, is something wrong?"

"No, I just.. it.. Nevermind." 

"You sure? You know you can always tell me. I won't judge." You can tell he's hesitating, but you don't want to pressure him. You're already ready to take back your statement, but he begins to speak up again.

"I... I know you won't. It's just, what if I see you like that... more than a friend, I mean."

You pause. What? 

There's no way that Choi Soobin would like you, of all people? I mean.. he's surrounded by beautiful idols every day at work... What could he ever see in you romantically? You're way out of his league, and the thought has your mind doing laps. You don't know what to say, and he takes your silence as a rejection.

"Sorry, I knew it was stupid. I didn't want to make it awkward; I just thought that tonight would be the night I would finally be able to tell you how I felt."

You continue to stare at him as he fiddles with his fingers. His eyes are darted to the side, away from your knowing gaze. But he continues to spill his heart out for you to hear.

"Maybe it was just me or the way the guys would tell me you might feel the same that's making me say this… Sorry, I shouldn't have told you. I was worried I would ruin what we had, and I couldn't lose you, but.. Ugh, I've already done it."

His shoulders shake as he closes in on himself, regretting his decisions. You immediately take his hands in yours, making him look back at you from the sudden contact. 

"You don't have to say anymore, Binnie." as you place one of your hands on his cheek, his eyes watery, you hate that you're making him feel this way.

You couldn't bear watching as he beat himself up over this. You couldn't after knowing that the possibility he liked you back was real.

"And what if I told you I liked you too?" you whisper, already so afraid as you watch his eyes widen. You couldn't continue to deny your feelings and refuse him because you felt like you weren't fit to be by his side. You wanted to take this moment to finally tell him that all those dates were starting to feel way more than just two friends hanging out. His smiles are the highlight of your day, and his laughter and the sight of his dimples as he grins, are something you wish to see any second you can, especially if you were the one who caused it. That the mere touch of his hand against your own sends your heart soaring out of your chest? That- 

And before you know it, everything has been said. Words slip from your lips faster than you could think, and your distance decreases. Teary eyes stare into teary eyes in the dim light of your living room.

"Can I.. kiss you?" 

All you can manage is a meek nod in his direction before your eyes shut. The feeling of his lips against your own was so soft and everything you could've imagined and more.. you could feel your heart leaping out of your chest, and you worry he can hear it. Your hand on his is starting to tremble, but he only grasps them, rubbing circles to soothe your nerves. 

You meld together so well; finally, having him like this does wonders for your heart. When you finally separate, your hands and legs feel like jelly, and you can only see the soft smile creeping up on his face. A reddish hue can be seen along his cheeks, and you can only imagine the damage it's done to your own.

The movie is long forgotten, and the sound of your heart beating against your eardrums is all you can hear. Even in the quiet of the room, he whispers.

"I like you, y/n—a lot. And I hope that... if you will. Will you allow me to be your boyfriend?" And you don't dare hesitate to answer. 

"Yes! Over and over again, yes!" you say in a giggling fit. You're now straddling his lap and entangling your limbs in his clumsily. You never thought reciprocating feelings with your best friend would feel like this, but you never want it to end.

"Does this mean I can finally do this?" you ask.

He looks at you curiously, tilting his head adorably as you attack his face with pecks and kisses. Hearing his yelps of "help!" followed by giggles. Oh, the things you would do to listen to his laughter on replay.

"Oh my god, get a room." a voice states their presence. 

You jump from your spot on his lap as you both look up at the voice. Your friend had just left her room to refill her glass of water, judging by the empty cup in her hand, to walk in on you, peppering Soobin's face. Sure, she had wanted this to happen for a while, realizing your shared feelings long before you knew. Still, it doesn't make this scene less awkward. A feeling of shame fell upon the two of you, more so Soobin, as he didn't mean to get caught in such an intimate position by your roommate. You look back at him, see his guilty expression, and grab his hand to pull him into a standing position. 

"Maybe we should take this to my room instead," you chuckle. 

You lead him to your bedroom, just a few steps away. He follows behind you, enveloping you in a back-hug, head on your shoulder as you struggle to shuffle your way into the room. 

"I love you." He mumbles near your ear. 

"Moving so fast? We just confessed."

"It's not like I haven't said it before! And plus..." 

You know that it's because its meaning has changed now that you reply back, "I love you too."

[itaehynz]

three’s a (choi) charm! ˙ ⋆ . ˚ ☆

15. YOU APOLOGIZE?

warnings: profanity ofcourse, crying mentioned.

2:04 P.M.

you walk over to ryujin’s room, allowing your hands to place shallow knocks on her door. you hear her footsteps approaching the door as she opens it.

she takes time to process you standing there and you clear your throat, trying to ease the tension between you two. she motions you to come in her room and lets you seat yourself before running a hand through her hair.

“i’m sorry-”

“i’m so sorry-”

you both pause, looking at each other as you caught each other off guard. ryujin motions you to go first with your words as she seats herself next to you.

you sigh out of relief, “i’m sorry ryu, you were right about me being selfish and were also right about my actions being wrong. i shouldn’t have tried arguing with you and just listened. i’m sorry, really, i am.”

she looks at you with her eyes full of sincerity, rubbing small circles into your shoulder. “i’m sorry too, y/n. i shouldn’t have came off so strongly and just heard you out, i’m not saying the reasoning could’ve justified your actions but i should’ve at least let you have a say.” she says with a small smile.

you smile as well, happy that the tension is finally broken. you both hug each other and say how much you’ve missed each other and how you’ll never let something like this happen again.

you check your phone mid conversation, seeing that it’s almost 2:30. you tell ryujin the whole situation with yeonjun and she helps you get ready.

“he’s coming here?” she asks as she hands you a small lint roller. “yeah, he should be on his way now. he had a shoot so,�� you say, patting your clothes down lightly.

she nods before hearing your phone go off, she looks for you and shows you that yeonjun texted you.

yeonjun (tinder boy #3)

i’m downstairs

before fully taking in the message, you wave to ryujin as she wishes you good luck and hopes the best. you begin walking to the front door, collecting yourself before heading downstairs.

once you head downstairs, you’re not sure to feel relieved, happy, or upset. you were happy to see yeonjun but what happened? your emotions changed in an instant. with how upset you left yeonjun off, you weren’t sure to even think about him in the way that you did.

pushing your thoughts to the side, you step outside of your lobby door, bashfully waving at yeonjun as he waves back.

you hear him clear his throat as he opens his car door for you, inviting you into it so the two of you can have privacy.

“hi yeonjun,” you say, voice wavering with anxiety. he finally speaks, voice still soft and comforting. “hi y/n, how have you been?”

“i’ve been well, what about you? how have you been holding up?” you ask, already being somewhat knowing of his answer but still giving him the opportunity to answer himself.

“i’ve been trying to be well, i haven’t been in the mood for anything lately but i’m trying.” he answers, lips forming into a tight smile. you hum at his answer, genuinely feeling at fault for the way his mood has changed so drastically.

you take a moment before carrying on with the conversation, feeling the tension between the two of you grow thicker and harder to be broken down.

“i’m sorry, yeonjun.”

his head perks up in response to your words, caught off guard by the words that have broken the silence. his eyes are widened and it feels as if all of his senses have heightened.

he doesn’t know how to feel, but what he does know is that he has already forgiven you. he knows where you both went wrong and how it could’ve affected others. or in this case, beomgyu.

yeonjun smiles sadly, taking a deep breath before adding onto your apology.

“it’s fine y/n,” he says, rubbing his nose bridge with his fingers. “it’s not. i put you through hell for the past week and now i don’t even know how you feel about me because of that stupid ass message i sent, so no. it’s not fine, yeonjun.”

you say, resting your head in your hands. taking in yeonjun’s every expression, you notice his eyebrows raise at your sudden outburst. you hear his breath hitch before he says anything, showing that he’s slightly nervous.

“did you mean it?” he asks, looking down. you’re slightly confused by what he means before it dawns on you. the kiss. he wants to know if you actually regretted kissing him.

“the kiss?” you ask, watching him nod with closed eyes. “no, i didn’t. i said everything out of fear of ruining what i had with beomgyu that i didn’t realize i was hurting you in the process. i’m so sorry, yeonjun.”

he takes a moment to process what you’d said and slowly looks back towards you. his eyes are filled with despair, but he’s slowly coming to the conclusion of the idea he once had. beomgyu had encouraged you to say that to him.

beomgyu had encouraged you to say those words to him that night. the night he cried, rethought his entire life, the night he was sent into a spiral. that night he didn’t know who to blame. himself, beomgyu, or you. in the end, he ended blaming himself. he had thought he moved too fast and inflicted internal pain on others. he thought he was going beyond and practically forced you to kiss him.

with these thoughts, his stomach churns slightly.

you notice him deep in his thoughts, giving him time to get out of them. he sighs heavily, “i’ve already forgiven you, y/n. i just wish things were said and done differently.”

you feel tears pool at the corners of your eyes, your vision slowly starting to haze. you feel yeonjun’s hands cup your face and wipe the fallen tears from your face with a gentle touch.

“but, i am okay with starting fresh with you. i do still like you and genuinely would like to be with you, if you’ll have that.” he adds, pulling his hands away and smiling softly.

you let out an airy and soft laugh at his words, happy to hear he’d like to try again with you. “i’d be happy to have that, yeonjun.” you say, tears brimming your lids and a warm smile resting on your lips.

yeonjun goes in for a hug and with you accepting his embrace, you wrap your arms around his shoulders and breathe in deeply. you both pull away with smiles and you tell yeonjun that you should get going.

he nods softly, starting his car up again.

“i’ll text you later, y/n.” he says, a bright smile gracing his soft features. you smile back at him, nodding your head. “i’ll make sure to respond, jun.” you add, stepping out of his car and waving back at him from out of the window.

he waves back and slowly but surely drives off.

now, you’re sure of how to feel about yeonjun.

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[outsidereveries]

beomgyu's personality

which qualities has changed during puberty: he become more creative and hard-working.. when being alone.

what's fake but tries not to be: his honesty. he holds some thoughts back.

what's genuine: that he's competitive..!

what we don't see: he's adaptive through situations that are with uncertain outlook.

political views: he might be very aware and sympathises with someone/a party who feels it's an alternative but feels very stuck because it's fucked up for his country. beomgyu might love korea a lot atp because i really feel he cares for his country first and then himself

what's mixing between his morals and the fame: beomgyu seems to have the upper hand and although it seems nothing's mixing, he's just more aware than everyone thinks.

would he choose the fame over his standarts: no, he'd want to move on.

religious/spiritual views: might be an atheist as of now, non-spiritual as of now.

controversial things he agrees with: work as hard as you can but alone, in your own place. only these mistakes that only you can see will be noticeable to fix them.

addictions (either more prone to has them or might have them): to spend money on casinos, on clubs, for alcohol, on bets.. this stuff..

destruction traits: unstable situations and environment.

qualities he's proud to have: to use his creativity when he feels like a (excuse me) shit.

intentions for the future: he doubts there will be solo gigs for now, for which he's really sorry because he did what he could.

[hyewka]

There really has been no dom beomgyu smuts lately as a switch myself I’m a little sad haha but I also find it really funny but I don’t think there’s a lot of sub beomgyu smuts just because people think beomgyu is submissive because honestly I just think the whole of txt are switches and I think dynamics also really depend on what kind of partner you have as well so I wouldn’t say someone is dominant or someone is submissive. I think reading femdom smuts is just a lot more fun to read and probably to write because I feel like normal ones can get quite repetitive and it feels more exhilarating and powerful even if you aren’t actually a dom irl it’s nice to see women being more dominant with men because in real a lot of guys have quite a fragile masculinity with it. Also txt tumblr is quite small compared to other kpop writing communities I’ve seen, there isn’t actually that many consistent blogs on here and so actual smuts on any txt members have actually been quite sparse. I’d say sub beomgyu became a thing because of the blueprint blogs that kickstarted it such as wildernessuntothemselves I had never really seen submissive beomgyu until they came around and other blogs such as you and fairyofshampgyu inspired others to write sub beomgyu because those blogs were the only really ones consistent and kickstarting this. Haha I don’t know why this is so long but hopefully it is somewhat coherent!

Definitely agree with the femdom writing being fun-- like, you don't need to be a dom in real life to enjoy writing it and that is the case for me 😅 This is a little bit of a contradiction to your earlier statement but I genuinely do not believe I have one percentage of dominant energy, completely submissive over the years with my relationships (but I'm starting to doubt it just a little bit after getting into femdom content so....idk 😂). Yes, yes about the women being more powerful kind of serving as an exhilarating experience even when just writing it-- is it a little embarrassing to admit that most of my smut are incredibly self indulgent? Lol I seriously just cannot with meeting so many men who have fragile masculinity, working with them, talking with them-- it just bleeds through every interaction it's aggravating! Writing it as a fantasy of putting someone "in their place", definitely like a reliever after having to put up with it practically every day of my life.

Point made with TXT tumblr being small! Did a quick comparison to other 4th gen boy groups and it's a little odd how significant the difference is at times? 😂 Yet the smut tag has more people posting under (maybe that changed over the past few months and fluff is what people are leaning more towards?) even though there's definitely a sparse number of consistent blogs (which would naturally equate to less variety in content).

Ha! I was on here earlier than I started posting like most people are on tumblr, and I'd have to say that your observation skills are so good because lol yes, @wildernessuntothemselves (heh sorry for tagging you mort but i just might want you to see this 😂) was definitely a blog I first got introduced to with sub!beomgyu like, just hardcore, straight up whiny boy and a powerful woman (lover = loser fic...ah, very delicious).

There were definitely some fics here and there, but kick starting it, I'd want to give that credit to her! After a bit, @fairyofshampgyu came out with their fuck you series, and I'd say both are sort of the blueprint of the recent rising in seeing beomgyu as a very strong sub. Before this, you'd see one of those MTL posts and almost always Beomgyu is categorized as a hardcore dom, and now I almost get shocked seeing Beomgyu being considered more of a sub than Hueningkai and Soobin (who were often seen as softer doms or just sub men in general).

I wasn't even meaning to turn this blog into a sort of sub!beomgyu cult of fics, like...at all so I find it funny that I'm jumbled together with a more experienced writer like Nia 😂 But yeah, some really good points. It's just funny how a few months ago I was desperately looking for anything sub!beomgyu related (to the point i created this blog in hopes of receiving sub beomgyu requests), just a tinge because everything under the smut tag was hardcore dom, I wouldn't have imagined the tables would turn so quickly especially considering male subs aren't particularly that popular comparative to their counterparts.

I do feel for people who are sub leaning, content is sparse with txt in general-- and for people to get even simply blocked for requesting a dominant beomgyu? A... little insane 😅? I even remember this sort of thing being brought up around three months ago, someone talking about how they see Beomgyu as a complete dom and do not understand that appeal of the recent surge of sub Beomgyu-- perception is different, and I do wish for you and others to get more dominant Beomgyu fics, everyone deserves a little treat 😭

[nyangjjunie]

[ YOU’RE MY ORBIT! ] 14 - GENUINE NIGHTS.

NOTE: SNS + WRITTEN + SNS + WRITTEN

being woken up by the librarian in the library at 8PM wasn't an ideal experience coming into the university. it would have been much worse if she had caught you drooling, but good thing you didn't.

it has been a few minutes since you had left the place, the warm led lights the only thing illuminating the dark hallways of the building. only your steps and your hoarse voice could be heard resounding through the walls, body stiffening when you'd pass by a guard each turn with you silently hoping that they didn't think you were some culprit breaking into the university.

"yes, beomgyu, got that. mhm, no scratch in sight. no need. okay mom." you let out a giggle before hanging up on beomgyu, who basically seemed like he ran a health assessment on you at some checkpoint. but you felt cared for, so you didn't mind.

coming down the stairs to the lobby of the building, you were about to exit the place after having tapped your school id card on the scanner with your phone in your free hand. some students usually stayed this late at the university; for example, the players of the school basketball team, as they have night trainings. sometimes, you'd even bump into a teacher, assuming they were probably staying late to finish grading assessments and all that. however, upon arriving by the guard house to take note of your leave from the school building, you weren't expecting yeonjun, of all people, to be seated on the bench by it, looking like he's waiting for something, or who knows, probably someone to arrive.

"yeonjun!"

the said boy looked up from his gaze on the floor, eyes widening at your figure jogging close towards him.

"y/n...? you're still here?"

"yeah, i fell asleep." you grinned sheepishly, turning to the guard who gently pushed the notebook nearer to you for you to write down your name on for leave. it's what they often take note of before each student leaves the premises. after finishing, you turned back to yeonjun, noticing he has changed into an oversized jacket along a pair of baggy sweatpants, different from the outfit he wore at school today, "what are you doing here?"

yeonjun chuckled, a proud smirk making its way to his face, "i ordered dinner. waiting for it to arrive by now."

"really?!" you laughed in disbelief, adjusting the strap of your bag that slung over your shoulder. yeonjun only nodded eagerly at your response, standing up when he noticed that the rider had just arrived the building, right outside of the gate. he walked off to receive it, giving the man spare change before thanking him. a warm, plastic bag was in his yeonjun's grasp, smelling of cooked chicken. you could almost drool just by the smell, considering that you haven't had dinner for the day.

"are you just gonna stare at the food the whole night?"

you snapped out of your daze, pouting at the boy who was ready to leave with a whole feast in his hands. you're never going to fall asleep at school again. "i'll get going."

yeonjun paused, tilting his head at your figure just about to walk outside of the gate, "going alone?"

"oh, well..." you bit the inside of your lower lip shyly, not quite used to asking favors from him. you're friends, yes, but you didn't like asking favors from others that much in general for you to be comfortable asking him for such, "uh, do you mind going with me? i didn't want to go alone, but i saw you here, and i didn't want others coming out this late just to pick me up so--"

"what? of course i don't mind. come on, let's go."

he walked off ahead of you first, you catching up to his pace after a few moments of thinking to yourself. by instinct, you walked to the safer side of the pavement, and yeonjun was quick to catch on that he moved aside to make space for you.

the first few seconds of the walk was quiet, but it wasn't that awkward so it was going well.

at least, for you.

because yeonjun felt like he was walking on a thin rope, and if that didn't seem like the case to you, then he was definitely good at hiding it. this moment felt weird and foreign to him, because lately, all you have been doing was bickering with each other unless you were doing stuff like practicing for the band. you didn't seem to notice that, but he did, and he only realized it now.

"so," yeonjun spoke up, voice cutting through the silence, "your dorm is just a bit over there, right?" he pointed his finger midair, "because ours is quite distant from yours, from what i know."

"yup," you simply nodded, "is it okay if we stop by the convenience store just down the street though? it won't take awhile, i just haven't eaten dinner yet... or you can go ahead already if you want! the dorm is pretty near anyways once we get there, and your food might get cold so..."

"i mean," yeonjun shrugged his shoulders, shooting you a friendly smile which felt like the first time in awhile, "i can just eat it at the convenience store. it won't be a problem."

"oh...let's eat together then!"

and yeonjun won't deny it, but something was eating him inside the whole time he was seated by the table inside the store with you as company. despite the comfortable atmosphere that the place brought, being with you almost felt like he was doing a crime. but it's not like he was the one who volunteered to eat together, and it's not like he had any malicious intent to begin with. it's just two friends eating together, and there is nothing wrong with that.

he placed out the warm container out of the moist bag, his chest filled with delight finding out that his food was still steaming warm. yeonjun watched you take a seat across him, placing down a microwaved container with...two slices of toast?

"you call that dinner?"

"it's a cheese sandwich with four different types of cheese in it, in short, it's heaven. what can i do?" you chuckled, yeonjun still quite stunned at how satisfied you seem to be with your food.

"...are you sure that's all you want to eat?"

"i have food at the dorms, so it's okay. i just need a small snack so at least my stomach is digesting something."

after giving it a few seconds of thought, yeonjun stuck his fork to a piece of his chicken, transferring it to your plate, just next to the sandwich. you stared down at it, puzzled, then looked at him, "you really don't have to, it's okay."

"i feel bad, okay? i'm about to have a whole feast here! and you're there eating... toast."

"well... if you insist. you're sure about this, right?"

yeonjun nodded persistently, before taking a spoonful of his fried rice. his plate had two chicken wings, so he didn't mind giving the other to you. the fried rice wasn't too bland to be eaten on its own anyway.

but he swore he was about to choke on his food the moment he caught sight of your eyes lighting up, almost sparkling in joy even in the smallest bit as you eagerly took a bite from the chicken he gave you a moment ago. your hair was tied in a messy bun and strands were sticking out, assuming that you probably didn't even give time to fix yourself as soon as you had woken up, but it's a part of you that made you unbearably cute at the moment. his heart ached, and at this point, he could just conclude that this is definitely his karma.

but what better way could he deal with this other than pushing down his feelings inside, right?

about half an hour later, you had finished your food. a few moments of small talk were exchanged, and you stayed a bit longer as you were busy chattering, catching up with each other's business as you found the situation appropriate. you both had a lot to say as you've never talked much about yourselves to each other before with just the two of you alone. yeonjun especially had the most to say, considering that the competition is just a few days away.

"it's your second time joining battle of the bands, and not your second time performing," is what you told him. and you were right, and it seemed to be enough to get yeonjun out of his spiraling worries. it was basically a message assuring him and his band that they'd do great as usual. he seemed to take your words seriously despite you being the least person he would treat with such, considering your relationship that seemed to be the epitome of tom and jerry.

he would never admit it, but he admired your work of art. he didn't need winning awards to prove the quality of your work because he loves it, and he knows that it's the same for everyone who has seen what you put out. so even if you both were the type to bicker a lot and seem to take each other with a grain of salt, there is still a drawing line for the respect you both had for each other as aspiring artists.

and so it went on, continuing to the point where you had to open up a bit to him. how life was at home and how it became different ever since you stayed at the dorms. to be honest, you loved it. you've been loving the life that you had being away from home for awhile - if you could even call it home. you felt being held back the most when at home, so even if the life in the dorms hasn't been easy, it was still something you'd choose over staying at home. it continued on to when you talked about your endeavors in life, one of them being pursuing music while taking a different profession (which won't be easy, but that's for future you to handle) and finally, as much as you tried to avoid it but couldn't because yeonjun stubbornly prodded about it - kang taehyun.

"when did you start having the feels for that guy?" he asked followed by an annoying train of suppressed laughter.

you didn't know either, but for sure, it's been going on for a long while now. you were certain that you had taken interest in him way before last year's battle of the bands had even happened, so maybe, less than a year, but definitely more than seven months, is what you could estimate.

"the million dollar question - why do you like him?"

you almost didn't give him a reply and was contemplating about deciding not to answer it instead, but you like the guy a lot, and you are serious about him.

"it's not easy to describe... i mean, i like him a lot... that's it. the reasons why exactly aren't quite..."

yeonjun knew from there it was enough of an answer. the momentary pauses in between your words were probably paragraphs and paragraphs that you weren't quite sure how to articulate yet, and he understood that right away.

it's just that, you can't quite verbalize what you feel for taehyun. you've grown to like him beyond words that no word could even fully describe how you felt, and one song would simply just be an excerpt. unless of course, you pull off a 10-minute version and go all out with it.

only then do you realize the beauty of music; you combine words and different musical arrangements to amplify emotions you want to share with everyone.

and just like that, dear sputnik comes rushing into your mind again, and all it does is take you back to him. well fuck, to hell if you end up making that song a personal diary.

"enough about him, this is getting me dizzy," you laughed dryly before taking a sip of your water which you had bought along with your food. "should we get going?"

yeonjun nodded, standing up to clean after his mess, "we should."

as soon as the both of you had finished, you both bid a friendly goodbye to the cashier - because why not - and continued walking your way to your dorm building. the walk back was quiet and peaceful, and this time, yeonjun didn't feel like he was walking on a thin rope. maybe the short talk finally smoothened some rough edges around yourselves.

arriving in front of the building, you turned to yeonjun, shooting him an amused smile, "we've never done something like this before."

yeonjun paused for a moment before letting out a chuckle, "you're right. i thought you'd never realize."

you nodded hesitantly, "well, that's all. thanks for tonight, really! and sorry for having you walk me here too."

"no, it's okay, i wanted to anyway. it's basic human decency, you know? don't feel too special." he joked.

you playfully rolled your eyes in response, "oh don't worry, i don't. just thankful is all. and yeonjun?"

"hm?"

"i don't know much about you still despite knowing you for more than a year, but know that i got your back, alright? the rest of us do, and we all got each other, so i hope you aren't too hard on yourself," you said in a sincere tone before returning his joke, "of course, i wish the same for others. it's just that you're the one who's with me at the moment so i'm telling you this. don't feel too special."

his lips parted, his mind still trying to process your words. you must have been referring to when he opened up about his troubles earlier, right? if so, he felt grateful. this felt a little awkward though, he thought. since when have you acted this kind and genuine to him? it feels funny.

yeonjun laughed wholeheartedly at your statement, turning around on his tracks. "alright, got that. i'll get going."

"mm, stay safe on the way back."

"i will. and, thank you, too."

this must have been the first time yeonjun has sincerely smiled at you. or maybe he has before, but because you know that you have childish banter more than you have genuine conversations, you only noticed it now.

yeonjun walked off after sending a wave, ending his night with a warm heart. after this night, maybe, just maybe -- it'll be easier to accept the way things are now with you.

꒰ masterlist | 13. | 15 ꒱

THEME: fluff, a bit of comedy nd nothing too serious, angst in some chapters, band!txt, songwriter!reader

WARNINGS: cussing, reader uses feminine pronouns and terms, mentions/implications of alcohol intake, some timestamps do not make sense at all and arent really important so please ignore them 🙏

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[hoes4hoseok]

txt as lover

requested by @emobgyu (sorry for the wait omg) thank you to @lethekoo for helping my indecisive self w this (also LMFAO the pictures don't go together like at all BUT idec atp sorry)

taehyun as I forgot that you existed

“would've been right there, front row, even if nobody came to your show, but you showed who you are; then one magical night, I forgot that you existed”

taehyun seems like he’d take more time than most to get over someone

like he wouldn’t be super open about it, but every so often something would remind him of them & he’d be at square one all over again

BUT when he did get over them, it would feel very...free.

& taehyun does seem like the type to hold grudges against those who have hurt him & his loved ones

& in that situation I think that leaving it all with a simple shrug after a change in mindset is ALSO something I think he would do

beomgyu as I think he knows

“wanna see what's under that attitude; like, I want you, bless my soul, & I ain't gotta tell him, I think he knows”

I HAVE AN IMAGE OF BEOMGYU IN MY MIND THAT CAN PROBABLY BE DEDUCED FROM WHAT I’VE GIVEN HIM IN THE PAST

having a crush on him seems so fun & frustrating simultaneously...even if he liked you back, he would be so hard to read because of his behavior w all his friends

BUT I FEEL LIKE one time in particular, you’d notice a shift in behavior or something that slipped about his feelings for you & you’d just JUMP on the opportunity bc of how much hell he’s given you for your past romances (aND MAYBE LIKING HIM TOO)

friends to lovers??

MAYBE I JUST REALLY WANNA DATE CHOI BEOMGYU

yeonjun as false god

“I know heaven's a thing, I go there when you touch me, honey, hell is when I fight with you”

bro...I just think he's hot

okay I also gave him don’t blame me in the rep one so this is def along the same train of thought

I see a relationship with yeonjun being very...unreal?? if that makes sense??

like I feel as if being with him at the end of a long day would make you forget everything shitty about it & all of a sudden you’re all each other need

even if you’re just...baking cookies together. I still see it.

soobin as afterglow

“it's so excruciating to see you low, just wanna lift you up and not let you go”

the idea of someone loving you even when you screw up is just so romantic to me

I don’t mean cheating or anything, but maybe forgetting to communicate your struggles & hurting your partner in the process

I think that being able to apologize & forgive & learn is vital to a strong relationship (whether romantic or not) & I think soobin would be very good at that

hueningkai as it’s nice to have a friend

“something gave you the nerve to touch my hand, it's nice to have a friend”

okay I clearly have a thing for friends to lovers x hueningkai considering the fact that I gave him everything has changed on the red version LOL

but seriously, hueningkai seems like such a genuinely wonderful & dependable friend

& if you ended up falling for each other, he’d probably tell you soon after realizing it just because he wouldn't want to drag it out

the rawness of this song’s lyrics are so lovely and I just can’t see anyone else in txt embodying them like hyuka SO I hope you agree:)

enhypen version ☆ itzy version ☆ folklore version ☆ masterlist

[haechanhues]

pairing : beomgyu x fem!reader 

genre : angst. slightest bit of fluff. oneshot. 

warnings : heartbreak. 

summary : you and beomgyu have a heart to heart. 

words : 1.3k 

Beomgyu shoots hoops to rid himself of the nerves electrocuting his whole body. His hands comb back his hair and he’s become so antsy that it stresses even Taehyun out. 

‘Chill, Gyu,’ Taehyun soothes before he looks at your approaching figure in the distance, ‘just focus on making that apology.’ 

Beomgyu dribbles the ball into the middle of the court and tries to appear natural as you stand across from him. Taehyun and Huening Kai retreat from the basketball court onto the field in an no-so-subtle attempt to give you both space. 

‘Beomgyu.’ 

He can’t take the way you say it. Soft, mostly firm but brittle at the edges. Your shoulders are slightly hunched and you look just as nervous as he does. 

‘I love you,’ He says without much thought other than the need in his body to say it. He’s said it many times before and he’s always liked the way your eyes would light up as he said it. But to no use. 

This time it’s different. Your eyes don’t light up in any way and remain devoid of any expression. He realises with a deep drop in his stomach that you don’t believe him. 

Or you refuse to believe him. 

You close your eyes and sigh, ‘Why did you say yes?.... In the beginning?’ 

Beomgyu closes his eyes. It’s a question he knows he should answer. He knows he should. He just doesn’t want to. He doesn’t want to hurt you more than he already has. He weighs out his options and in both of them sound like one way trip to your heart being stomped on. 

It’s just a matter of how he breaks it. He nibbles his bottom lip and tries to remember how to breathe and how to form words. 

He should just tell you. 

He should. 

However, Beomgyu doesn’t want to. Beomgyu doesn’t want to tell you that you were the pretty friend of the actual person he had a crush on and he asked you out because it would rile them up. 

He doesn’t want to tell you it was an attempt to make you jealous. To make his actual crush to act and put their claim over him. 

Beomgyu especially didn’t want to tell you that he kissed his crush just days later whilst he was supposedly dating you and that he continued to date you to spite his crush who only shot him down and fed him cow shit. 

He even thinks it’ll be too cliche and too douchebag to tell you how much he loves you now. 

‘You were there,’ He says vaguely but his mind is running in circles. With nothing in his basket, he feels like a cornered animal. An animal with a desperate goal but low expectation, ‘‘and then....I started to genuinely have feelings for you. I started to like you both at the same time.’ 

You could only stare at him with tears welling in your eyes and you could hope that the night sky masks how the shield you had built up in the week before this has started to crack with only a few of Beomgyu’s words. Your mouth had become to tremble and you’re pretty sure if you continue to bite on your tongue, you’ll start to draw blood. 

‘And then... there was only you,’ Beomgyu nodded, ‘I only wanted you.’ 

You frown as Beomgyu steps forward, holding your face in his palms to nuzzle his forehead against yours. The familiarity of the action initially calms you and you find yourself gravitating towards him. But your determination to hold strong outweighs how much you want to forget all and continue living in ignorance. 

With little strength you push him away, but Beomgyu feels so weak in his joints that it almost pushes him down on the concrete. 

‘You say that now.... but I can’t ever love a guy like you.’ 

The way you enunciate the last word with such poison makes Beomgyu let out a noise from his throat. He rushes forward in an attempt to soothe the hurt you have lit his body with. 

‘Choi Beomgyu,’ You’re starting to cry now. Every word you utter feels brainwashed and tainted with hurt and hate, ‘I told you I loved you and you lied to me.’ 

‘I do love you,’ Beomgyu cried. 

‘Maybe you do, I admit,’ You shake your head, no longer with tears in your eyes but a faux strong facade. You’re determined not to go back to him, no matter how much that’d ease the free-falling of your heart, ‘But that doesn’t change that enough of our whole relationship was a fucking lie, Beomgyu.’ 

Beomgyu watches you say that with such conviction and he can’t help the way tears decorate his cheeks. He truly wants to send his head into a brick wall because that would hurt less than this. You watch as Beomgyu loses himself to the war happening behind his eyes. Despite deliberately putting it there, you hated how you were still so concerned for him. 

That the love you have- had for him laughed at your pain and focused on how pretty he looked. How good he smelled. You hated the way your body indulged in your need to be with him. Unconsciously, you brush his tears away with a swipe of your finger before pressing a goodbye kiss to his lips. 

Beomgyu’s breath hitches at the feeling of your lips on his before bringing you in closer so you are pressed up against his chest. One hand rests on your hip whilst the other rests beneath your jaw. His lips were soft against yours and felt nothing like how the relationship was. 

So you let yourself pretend. 

He hesitantly parts his lips, letting you take control over what is right or wrong for him to do. When you begin to match his actions with a slight brush of your tongue, he can’t help it but deepen the kiss. 

He commits everything in these last few seconds to memory. Memorising how sweet you kiss and the shared thudding of your heartbeats and the loss of breath and thought. He lets his fingers brush your hair back behind your ears and your cheek begins to tingle in the wake of his soft touch. The tears that decorated his face have now started to decorate yours. 

As the seconds trickle into minutes, and when the kiss and feel of him starts to break your resolve you push him away. 

He watches you. Your lips are swollen and your eyes look like how he imagined his own to look like. But it doesn’t make him feel better, instead it feels like he’s being stabbed repeatedly. 

Except it is not blood that weeps from this wound. It is regret. It is chaos. It is his heart that you have nurtured and cared for all these months, uprooted and mangled in a lying heap. 

‘You kiss me like you’d lose me,’ Beomgyu says with a crack in his throat. Like an idiot. 

You stare at him. 

‘Haven’t I already?’ You smile but it is knotted by all the hurt and betrayal he has inflicted on you. Yet he can’t help but tilt his head upwards because facing the sky is a lot easier than hearing that escape from your mouth. 

‘I’m going to be your one that walked away, I hope you know that,’ You giggle in a sad attempt to put a smile on his face. But it does nothing but freeze your relationship over for good. 

You twitch as you walk away from him, pleading that he doesn’t hear your own heart screaming for him and the tell tale signs of a breakdown. 

He can only watch you walk away from him sadly, ‘I know.’ 

He collapses to the ground with the weight of your goodbye. Huening Kai and Taehyun approach him hesitantly, testing the waters for any lashing out. The regret blooming in his heart has him pinned to the ground. 

He turns towards his friends and laughs in a way that only scares them, ‘Well I fucked that up.’

And like a matchstick of the past, the flame that once was....blown out.

authors note : i have nothing else to say but :) (it’s currently midnight) 

[hueningkai]

Favorite things about beomkai?

omg hi ok idk if this means as separate people or as a duo but uh i like an excuse to write essays ^_^

separately:

beomgyu ─ his ability to make others, as in the audience and members, laugh with his very chaotic personality. the way he's always there as an ear for his fellow members, willing to listen and talk to them at any point. he notices the little things and will always subtly check on them or help them out. as he said his door is open to the members. his charisma on and off stage, he brings a lot of fun to variety shows and often hits it off with the hosts first. he's got an air about him that makes him so likeable and he's comforting (especially when he plays guitar aaah) he has amazing expressions on stage and gives his all in rehearsals and on stage. and recently his entire image? he's really been feeling himself and exploring styles and honestly solo beomgyu model shoot when because he's beautiful and in kai's words "suited to the model style" !!

huening kai ─ i'm so drawn to kai and his personality. he is SO genuine, kind and really cares about his members. he's also my favourite vocalist in the group, i zone in on his voice a lot and imo he's the most versatile and strongest, and carries the group well. he has amazing performance skills and i just. can't help but smile watching him? although beomgyu is comforting for me, so is kai but in a different way and idk how to explain this. but i will go for a specific vibe with them when i need to feel a certain way. i will defend kai into the ground bc he's such a vital part to the group. he's so important to me. he is the bright light and makes the members smile even without meaning to. i feel so at ease watching him and he's so pretty. my god he's SO SO pretty.......... . .. and when he plays piano i feel at ease. i looove watching the piano videos <3 he's adorable and his mannerisms are cute and i just !!! love kai !!! i love gyu !!! yeah !!!!!! >3<

together:

the way they look out for each other ─ this can be said for all the members really but there's a subtle way in the way these two care for each other. they will cheer each other on, change directions to suit the other, support each other (gyu being by kai's side on rides bc he knows kai doesn't like them <3) ask each other if they want something to eat (mostly beomgyu with kai, he likes to make sure he eats!), constantly reassure about how they can rely on each other, big each other's talents up and more. to this day i still adore how gyu laid in all of those tomatoes because kai really didn't want to, despite gyu absolutely hating tomatoes. i love this about them, i truly do.

head pets ─ have you seen the way they touch each other's hair. particularly kai with gyu. it's adorable.

copy & paste ─ the way these two instantly mimic each other naturally is soooo funny. they do this often. copy each other's words or actions and it's endearing. i don't think they realise they do it sometimes. (i'm making a gif set out of this, stay tuned in the future <3)

back to back vocal ─ when these two harmonise and have vocals back to back it sounds INSANELY GOOD because of their different tones. a few obvious examples are ice cream, way home and moa diary... but one of my most favourites is 20cm. kai singing over beomgyu's deeper and huskier vocals? yea. this part:

kai: bareul matchwo jaranatna bwa

gyu: (neoreul boneun nae mam)

kai: naye mam

gyu: (yejeongwa mani dalla)

chaos ─ these two are easily the loudest duo (kai has shy moments but yea) they bounce off each other. one starts shit, the other joins in. i mean it was evident in the recent to do episode with both of them getting under that little paddling pool aldjfsk they're SO funny together and this is something that has been built upon a lot. they bring a lot of humour to their content. and they can't help but team up to do something annoying (and they love clowning yeonjun together <3)

constant love & respect for each other ─ to summarise before i truly ramble... they have so much respect for each other and it's clear in everything they do. they would do anything for each other, and they don't always need to be obvious in their actions to prove this point mwah <3 thanks for coming to my ted talk. here's a cute clip of them performing a little part of our summer on idol room. one of my fave moments ever. makes me sob etc

[sweetiehyuka]

Ghosting.

Chapter 4

wc - 1.3k

warnings - mental illness

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♪ cherry flavoured - the neighbourhood ♪

~

Teach me how to stop overcompensating for the dull burning that consumes me

And steals the love from my heart, diluting it with a sour flavour.

Teach me how to feel happy without it turning into a blanket of dejection

That steals all of my composure, drowning me in a daze-

~

"Hey!"

My head snaps up, shocked by his voice since I was so immersed in writing my poem. The bright lights of the common room fill my vision, illuminating the outline of my friend's body. It's Taehyun.

"Just us two today then?" he asks, pulling out a chair across the table from me, settling down in it as he waits for my response.

Yeonjun nowhere to be found, which isn't uncommon. When you can't find Yeonjun, just assume that he's skipping uni to either go shopping or to get railed/rail someone, and your assumption will probably be correct.

Soobin texted me this morning to tell me that him and Kai have no classes today so they will be studying together in the library. Soobin has begun spending more time with Kai than me these days, and it's made me wonder whether he still considers me his best friend or if Kai has replaced me in that role. Sure, Soobin is allowed to have his own friends, but I guess it just hurts when you can see the only person you feel truly close to drifting away from you. Especially when it's towards someone you actually really like and literally have no reason to hate.

This feels very strange to admit, but sometimes when I'm jealous of someone, I begin to study how they act so I can mimick it. I try to subtly watch him and take mental notes of all of his mannerisms every time we hang out. Sometimes I feel really weird about it, but I can't stop myself because it's just obvious how endeared everyone is by his actions - the way he covers his face with his hands as he laughs ; the way he shuts his eyes tight and giggles when he's embarassed ; the way he bashfully looks down at his hands and picks at the skin on his fingers ; the way he cuddles people by wrapping his arms around their waist and leaning down to nuzzle into their neck. I know I sound like a spiteful creep, but really I'm just desperate for validation that I'm a living human being and that I'm doing okay because I don't feel like a person. I know I never shut up about that, I know, but it's hard to not talk about it when the world you live in is made for people and you barely even are one.

I nod as a start to my response to Taehyun, making sure to smile too. I try to do that thing that Kai does where he closes his lips tightly, rather than my usual toothy grin.

"I guess so!"

I make sure there is a cheery tone to my voice. Taehyun is someone I've been wanting to get to know better, so I ensure that I sound inviting.

We engage in some general chitchat for a while, discussing course modules and class schedules and what we think of the new colour uni have painted all the hallways with in the north building. I'm not sure when his next class is, but my next class is a seminar in around 20 minutes, and I know I certainly wouldn't mind spending that time talking with him.

After about a minute of comfortable silence, Taehyun's expression changes, as if he's in deep thought. Then, he looks right at me. He leans back in his chair and purses his lips, clearly contemplating hard about if he should say what he is planning to.

"Beomgyu,"

I begin to feel nervous.

"...yes?"

"Have you ever heard of dissociation?"

I furrow my eyebrows in genuine confusion because I have never heard of that word in my 19 years of living.

"What's that?"

He learns foward again, softening his facial expression.

"It's a mental health condition that my sister has experience with, so I'm quite familiar with it myself, because we're very close."

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Mental health condition? How the fuck does he know something's wrong with me?

Instantly, I begin to panic. How many people have figured it out? It could just be Taehyun, he is super smart. But I've spent the least time with him out of our friend group, surely he can't know this much all by himself... fuck, has someone been talking about me behind my back? Yeonjun? I bet it was Yeonjun. Fuck, I remember I once mentioned to him in passing that I felt depressed... but I didn't think he'd remember because of the way he laughed it off? Oh my god what am I gonna do. I bet they all think I'm a freak. I was fucking right, they're only humouring me. I can't fucking do this.

I'm staring at Taehyun as he talks, watching how his lips are moving and his hands are discreetly waving along with his words. He is probably explaining something in detail right now, but all I can do is fucking panic.

I thought I was hiding it all really well. I didn't know anyone knew I was struggling. Surviving is currently hard enough without everyone being aware of how many steps behind them in life I am.

I can't do this. I can't do this. I can't do this. I can't d-

"Beomgyu? What's wrong?"

At the sound of Taehyun's voice, I snap out of whatever was going on before. Judging by the worried look on his face and the concerned tone of his voice, I am not doing a very good job of disguising how literally hysterical I feel right now.

I begin to stutter out some filler words, but I don't have the mental capacity to form a sentence right now. Within moments, it feels like my brain has gone from racing miles ahead of my body to screeching to a halt. I now feel like my brain has switched off, and my body is frantically pushing buttons to get it to turn on again, but nothing is working. Taehyun is staring at me as I stammer like a fucking idiot, the same expression on his face the whole time.

I don't know what the fuck is going on and I don't want to.

"Look, I'm sorry if I upset you-"

"No!" I exclaim, probably a little bit too loud, because his concerned expression rapidly shifts into one of surprise.

"Sorry." I say. "I just don't want you to feel bad. You're trying to help me, I'm grateful for that." I sigh deeply, looking down at my shaking hands. "I'm just not good at feelings and all that stuff."

"Hey, look at me," he starts. The way he enunciates his words soft, almost as if he is whispering. As I was ordered to, I lift up my head, and meet his gaze. Making eye contact with him after all that doesn't feel as painful as I thought it would. Infact, it doesn't feel painful at all. Instead, I feel... sort of comforted? It's like he's staring through my eyes right into my heart, warming it up so that it melts away my panic from the inside out. After a few seconds of staring into his almond eyes, I feel like my brain has switched on again, and it is for once running at a regulated pace. My body is less tense, and my hands have stopped trembling. I don't know what the hell he did to make me feel comforted, but it worked.

"you can trust me, okay?"

I smile. For the first time in a long time, that smile was subconscious.

"Okay."

I don't know why I believe you when you say that, Kang Taheyun, but for some perculiar reason, I kinda do.

[beomglocks]

unlikely allies ; txt x reader

part: three ,,,, next chapter / previous chapter

plot: when a zombie apocalypse breaks out in your town, you’re forced to team up with a group of boys from very different social standards in your school.

genre: fluff, angst, horror i guess?, not really that scary but alright, some funny moments

w/c: 4.2K

warnings: blood, gruesome scenes (kind of really detailed), cursing, everyone hates each other, definitely some major injuries, zombies duh, everyone kinda pining for mc

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"do you even like me?" this is the part where he hurts you. you wouldn't say you had strong feelings for yeonjun but you did think he was good looking. even though he was mostly mean to everyone you hoped he would change and be a good link to the tiny group you all formed.

"i think so, i don't really know yet to be honest," he answers you. you nod and sigh, satisfied with his answer towards you for now. "sorry for what i said earlier. you weren't being childish, i'm sorry i couldn't help you back then, and im sorry for starting that fight."

you reassure him that its fine but you still feel a weird pit in your stomach worrying about beomgyu. you hope he's ok.

after your little moment with yeonjun in the janitor's closet, you and yeonjun decided it's best to just not talk about it. you figured it's best to just leave that where it happened. you weren't sure how the incident would affect the group dynamic but you hoped yeonjun wouldn't bring it up to anyone.

you didn't even have strong feelings for him either so you felt like it wasn't that big of a deal. apparently, yeonjun didn't seem to have strong feelings for you either but you knew his persona. he would probably hold it over everyone else in the group like some kind of weird achievement.

you both stepped out of the janitor's closet with caution. there seemed to not be any zombies located in the hall you were located at. they must've all migrated elsewhere in the school to find more victims to consume. after surveying the hall for any threats, yeonjun nods back at you. you step out and let out a breath.

"where to?" yeonjun asks. the only place you could think of to go to was back to the principal's office. there were no threats there and it's where taehyun and soobin were located. well you hoped they were there. you told them not to follow you but you weren't sure if they had listened to you. it would only make sense for them to not more and stay in a relatively safe space like the principal's office.

"taehyun and soobin are at the principal's office," you mumble. you're already on your way there when yeonjun suddenly gains speed, rushing more ahead than you. "hey!" you shout in alarm. not loud enough to alert anything that may be near but just loud enough to catch yeonjun's attention. you weren't about to be left in the dust to anything lurking in the darkness behind you again.

yeonjun doesn't give you the time of the day, simply chuckling at your previous statement. you rush after him, not really sure about his newfound attitude.

once you both arrive at the principal's office, yeonjun slams the door open with more force than you thought he possessed. your eyes widen at how he seems to not care about the fact that you guys are supposed to be laying low. you start to grow angry at how irrational he can be. "yeonj-"

"you fucking asshole!" yeonjun growls, cutting you off. on the floor of the office are taehyun and soobin. the baseball team's equipment and all the contents of the first aid kit are littered all over the floor. they seemed to have been looking over the supplies you all have gathered over the past hour. taehyun stares up at yeonjun with alarm written all over his face over how loud he's being. soobin looks up at yeonjun bewilderingly, not anticipating his presence.

"dude-" soobin starts. yeonjun cuts him off with a solid punch to the jaw. you stand by the door in shock at what's happening. you figured yeonjun would've learned from past experience not to make a commotion by fighting but of course, you can't expect too much from him.

soobin holds his jaw in disbelief but quickly recovers, retaliating with a strike of his own. both boys start to go at it with each other in a matter of seconds. you swear every time with them is like a flash of deja vu. this time won't be like the last though, you're not getting split up like last time and you know if they keep fighting they may alert anything that could be out there.

you see taehyun scramble to gather up everything on the floor so that nothing gets damaged from the tussle happening just inches from him. you know that he's very limited as to what he can and cannot do, so you know he wouldn't opt for breaking up the fight with an injured hand. comparing your strength to that of soobin's or yeonjun's leaves you with no option. you wouldn't possibly be able to break up a fight between them, they're way too into the zone.

you catch a glimpse of the gun soobin had used on you and taehyun when you both first arrived at the office. you run towards it's spot on the floor and grab it. when you stand back up, you point the gun towards the two boys on the floor. "hey!" you shout. you really hope nothing outside heard you but you hope it's loud enough to catch both of their attention. you manage to catch taehyun's attention who's staring at you wide eyed.

"what the hell are you doing!" he says worriedly. you ignore him, cocking the gun back. it makes a loud click noise that reverberates throughout the room. the two boys on the floor stop fighting to stare up at you with alarm. soobin who is on top of yeonjun takes his hands off yeonjun's neck to hold them up in surrender. he looks like a lost puppy and you want to coo at him but decide against it. you wave the gun to indicate for him to get off yeonjun and he complies silently. you then point the gun at yeonjun who scrambles to kneel on his knees. he too holds his hands up in surrender and when you wave the gun for him to shuffle further away from soobin he complies.

"im not gonna shoot either of you," you assure. you hear taehyun let out a breath of relief. you weren't that dumb, you knew that shooting the gun would cause an extremely loud sound that would attract anything even just in the area. plus, you wouldn't shoot anyone on your team.

"just stop fucking fighting for once!" you exasperate. you drop the gun, walking around the room. both soobin and yeonjun are still in their respective positions, so you take that as a sign to continue. "we're living through whatever this is, together! you both are being selfish by fighting with each other. it's not just about you both but me! and taehyun!" you purse your lips looking between yeonjun and soobin.

"if you would've kept fighting who knows what could've been just around the corner. we would've been done," you say sternly. "yeonjun you should know this already since it's because of your fight with beomgyu that we got split up in the first place!"

"if you wanna keep fighting take it out into the halls and get eaten by those zombies but don't put taehyun and i in danger because of whatever it is that's going on between you two," you finish off by sighing. you're glad you got that off your chest because it was really starting to bother you. so far every problem you've encountered was started off by a fight of some sort and you really hoped it would stop.

you walk up to taehyun and sit near him to cool down. up until now, you'd say he was the most level headed out of the group. after a beat of silence, soobin is the first to speak up, "im sorry." you're not sure who he's apologizing to. yeonjun? you and taehyun? you frankly don't care enough to ask. yeonjun says nothing as he stands up to sit somewhere. he folds his arms over his chest like a child who hasn't got his way. "what now?"

taehyun speaks up this time. "i think if there's a chance to find anyone else we should, we have to do at least one more round of the school just in case." you nod along to his statement. there could be a possibility of someone still alive out there. soobin shakes his head, "hell no, there's no way there are people still alive. by this point, there's probably a whole hoard of zombies out there. there's absolutely no way anyone is alive."

"we have to try," you encourage. "i'm willing to take a chance," taehyun adds. you see yeonjun roll his eyes. "is there a problem with that plan?" you ask in a challenging tone.

he shrugs, "nope, there are no problems. im in," he sighs, looking up at you through his lashes. this time you roll your eyes. you can't believe you actually kissed him before, he's unbearable. you turn to soobin, who looks unsure.

"come on soobin, if you go solo at this point you're for sure going to die. i don't want that," you say lightly. you really don't want that, you don't want anyone that you've met so far to die. it would haunt you forever.

taehyun and yeonjun frown at your statement but you don't notice. all of your attention is on soobin. he looks up at you and he swears he can see a halo above your head, "fine i'll go with you. who knows you might need my help?" he smirks at you. at this, you finally laugh your first genuine laugh of the day which feels refreshing.

taehyun clears his throat which cuts off your little moment. "we're gonna be helping each other ok?" you look over to him and he looks a bit annoyed. you make a mental note to talk to him later to see what's on his mind. "y/n is a priority to me," soobin shrugs. you don't pick up on the implications his statement has but taehyun and yeonjun seem to. before you can think deeper about what that could mean, soobin adds, "it's just because they seem like the glue this team needs."

"bullshit," yeonjun says under his breath. soobin chuckles, turning to look back at yeonjun who's sitting nonchalantly at the principal's desk, "there you go saying shit under your breath again."

"what about it?" yeonjun challenges. soobin is about to stand up when taehyun gets in front of his frame to stop him. "just stop," he says calmly. you know he's irritated just by the way he's looking at soobin. you seriously think he has some prior beef with the purple-haired boy.

"let's just go survey the school then get the hell out of here and find some help," taehyun deadpans. you watch him pick his book bag up from the floor and shove the first aid kit in it. everyone takes this as the hint to get up and get a move on.

before leaving the safety of the principal's office, you all check around to see if there's anything that could be of use. of course there's nothing except for the gun soobin found prior to your arrival. you decide to let him keep it since he seems capable enough of wielding it. taehyun gives you and yeonjun some gear and metal bats for defense. you all also check yourselves in case any of you need medical assistance. since soobin and yeonjun got into that fight earlier you patch both of them up quickly.

"ok we ready?" taehyun asks. you all nod and yeonjun is the first to step out into the hall. he first sticks his head out to check if the coast is clear and when he confirms it is, he completely steps out. "this is weird but im not complaining," he shrugs. you do find it a bit off that there aren't any zombies in your hall but don't dwell on it.

"we should still keep our guard up," soobin says, walking ahead of the group. he and yeonjun walk a little further while you and taehyun straggle behind. you take this opportunity to catch up with him. "hey whats up?"

he smiles at you but it fades as soon as it appears. "i know i said all that but what if we don't find anyone? what if beomgyu is dead? what if we're just walking straight to our deaths?" he rambles. he's not speaking loud enough for the other two boys to hear. you nod, "well if we die, we died trying? we're gonna find beomgyu though and we're gonna find another living person. we're gonna make it out of here alive taehyun, we've got each other," you reassure.

he smiles, nodding at the ground. you see his smile fall once again, "where did you go earlier when you left?" damn it, you hoped he would just forget about that. "i was worri- soobin and i were pretty worried that we wouldn't ever see you again, but we stayed put in case you came back."

you bite your lip trying to find the best way to phrase what happened between you and yeonjun. you're not sure why you're trying to hide it, it's not like taehyun really meant anything to you other than someone who you didn't want dying. "well i was just walking and i ran into yeonjun. we talked for a bit and just went back to the principal's office."

well it's not like you're lying to him. you're just not saying the complete truth.

"you should be careful around yeonjun...and soobin too," taehyun warns. you raise your brow at this. up until now taehyun had been pretty passive around the other boys but for him to be trying to steer you away from them raises some questions. "why?" you ask.

"i just feel like they have bad intentions towards you...i don't know. they might want to sacrifice us to stay alive," taehyun mumbles. "plus i don't like how close soobin gets to you, it feels weird."

you look at him surprised. "soobin is a good guy. i know he gets into a lot of fights but he's kind. please don't worry too much." taehyun rolls his eyes at your naivety but says nothing else. you grab his hand for extra encouragement but don't notice how he gets choked up at your sudden touch.

"we'll be ok."

"what are you guys doing back there?" yeonjun calls out. you see him and soobin eyeing your intertwined hands. yeonjun narrows his eyes and pokes his tongue through his cheek. soobin has his lips pursed. "someone needed a pep talk!" you joke. you pull taehyun along to catch up with them, your hands still intertwined.

"uh huh..." yeonjun breathes. soobin says nothing, simply walking away silently.

in that moment you all suddenly hear someone yell out in pain. soobin stops in his tracks and all your eyes widen. "it came from the boy's bathroom!" soobin exclaims. you all run off in that direction. when you arrive you all run to where the stalls are and see someone on the floor with a zombie on top of them. "SOMEONE PL-PLEASE HELP!" the person yells.

taehyun lets go of you to run towards the zombie and the person. the zombie is snarling and snapping at the person while they scream out wildly. taehyun takes out his bat from behind him and swings it just at the perfect angle to send the zombie's head flying to the nearby wall. it's blood spurts out all other the person on the floor and some of it gets on taehyun. he visibly cringes as the body slumps over whoever is on the floor.

taehyun uses his bat to move the undead body. it's inner limbs slide off the person and taehyun's jaw drops.

"b-beomgyu?"

everyone unfreezes at that moment to rush over to his side. he's still on the ground and he looks traumatized with fear. his eyes are wide open and his lips are parted and chapped. his eyes dart to you and he suddenly breaks out into shaken sobs. "h-h-help m-me," he says in between sobs.

your heart is beating rapidly and you're not really sure what to do. too many things are happening at once. you run your eyes over his frame and notice that he's holding his wrist tightly. it's quite bloody, a little too bloody for your liking and a sinking feeling grows within you.

"b-beomgyu? beomgyu? a-are you ok?" you say shakily. nobody is really sure what to do so you motion to taehyun to hand you the first aid kit. you look up at yeonjun and taehyun, "could you guys guard the door while i see what's wrong. soobin please help me, i wanna lean him against the wall."

they all nod, yeonjun and taehyun take their positions at the door while soobin helps you situate beomgyu by the wall. here you can look over him properly. his breathing is shallow and his eyes are only fixated on you. "y/n be careful," soobin warns. you bring your hand up to his fluffy hair which is untamed and all over the place now. you use the same hand to wipe off some blood from his face.

"i-i think- i think-" beomgyu tries to speak but he seems to be in shock. anyone would be at this point. it reminds you of the situation you were in earlier. "please breathe," you say. you hope you sound calm but you know your voice is shaky.

he winces as he tightens his hold on his wrist. "beomgyu w-what happened to your wrist?" you ask. you don't really want to know at this point but you ask anyway.

"i- i- think i got b-bit," he says painfully.

more tears start to fall from his face now that he's said it out loud. you see soobin reach for his gun and your eyes widen. you grab soobin's arm to stop him and he jolts back. "h-he's bit," soobin mumbles in fear. beomgyu shakes his head violently as if he can't believe it himself.

"w-wait no i-im not bit i-i swear! i j-just th-think!" he removes his hand from his wrist and you gasp in horror. soobin's jaw drops too. beomgyu's wrist has incredibly deep teeth marks that almost go all the way through. there's blood gushing from the wound and pale veins run up his arm.

soobin swiftly backs away from beomgyu, standing up and pulling the gun from his back pocket. beomgyu looks up at soobin with tears streaming down his face and his lip is trembling violently at the sight of the weapon. you throw yourself in front of beomgyu's resting body on the ground. "NO!" you yell.

you hear beomgyu behind you poorly try to muffle his cries, "i- i- don't wanna die please."

"soobin," you warn. "y/n h-he's bit. he's gonna turn if i don't kill him. would you rather him be a living dead?" he motions the gun to the side indicating for you to move but you don't budge. there are now tears streaming down your face. you don't wanna see your friend get shot right in front of your face.

"what's going on in there? is beomgyu ok?" you hear taehyun yell from the entrance. soobin bites his lip contemplating on whether or not to snitch. you shake your head slowly. you don't want everyone being wary of beomgyu's current state. yeonjun for sure will want to kill beomgyu and taehyun will probably agree to it because he's scared.

"b-butterfly knife," beomgyu mumbles weakly. you turn to look at him and he looks really drained. you don't know how long it takes for someone to transform but you hope it's not quick. "w-what?" you lean into him. "y/n don't get close to him like that!" soobin warns, getting closer to beomgyu while holding the gun out.

"c-cut it o-off," beomgyu suggests. you and soobin share a look of surprise. cut it off? that could work and stop it from spreading to his entire body but cutting off someone's hand was something neither of you has ever had to do. you think you'd throw up seeing that much blood.

"i-" beomgyu breathes out. "i trust you." he uses his free hand to take the knife out from his pocket. he was carrying a knife this whole time? now that you think about you do remember he was using one in the hallway before this all started. "b-but i never- i nev-" your eyes widen when beomgyu uses his little bit of energy to launch himself forward to kiss you.

it doesn't last long since soobin immediately shoves him back to the wall. "don't do that," soobin says assertively. this time he presses the gun directly onto beomgyu's skull. "i-if i turn i h- i hope i bite y-you first," beomgyu spits. soobin rolls his eyes, "one bullet and you're gone, don't test me."

"soobin please just move," you sigh. you look at beomgyu pitifully. he looks like shit and you hope that if you all get out of this, that he gets proper medical help. "d-don't look a-at me like that," he chuckles forcefully. he doesn't seem ashamed of the kiss, he must not care because he figures he's going to die in a couple of minutes.

you say nothing as you wrap a band around his arm tightly. you grimace as you tightening it causes it to gush out more blood. you see beomgyu trying not to scream out in pain. "i-its gotta be tight, im sorry," you explain. he just nods.

you open the bottle of alcohol and messily pour it over the wound, causing it to string. "s-shit!" beomgyu yells out. "im sorry," you mumble. you take the numbing cream out of the kit and bite your lip. the bottle is too small, it won't possibly cover the entire wounded area.

you try your best to cover it as much as possible but you know he's still going to feel a bit of it. "you're gonna need to bite on something, it's gonna hurt."

you send soobin to fetch you a toilet paper roll. there's not much toilet paper on it so you figure it'll fit in his mouth. "its the best we can do," you place the toilet paper roll between his lips gently and he immediately bites down on it. he makes a noise of acknowledgment.

just then yeonjun runs back into the bathroom. "what the fuck is g-" his jaw drops at the sight of beomgyu's wound and you holding a knife to his wrist. "h-he's bit?" he whispers. you shake your head, not wanting to talk at this moment. you don't want beomgyu to get worked up again by being constantly reminded that he's gotten bit.

(now that im reading over this it could be potentially triggering, just skip over this! don't worry it's just cutting his hand off! to save the details)

you place the blade to beomgyu's wrist and he sucks in a breath. "i-it'll be over soon," you assure. tears are freely falling from your eyes just like beomgyu although his are more furious. soobin flinches himself as you start to cut. yeonjun turns away, walking back towards the entrance to save himself from seeing that. he also warns taehyun not to inside if he doesn't wanna see that.

beomgyu is shrieking madly but it's muffled by the toilet paper. his body is thrashing wildly from the contact of the blade through his body. it's foreign and it hurts, he doesn't like it. you take this as your cue to go quicker to save him from the excruciating pain.

(end of scene if you skipped!)

it takes a couple of minutes but you finally manage to amputate beomgyu's hand. you don't know how you managed to hold back the bile in your throat but you did. soobin had to step out due it being too much to handle so you were now left alone with a very drained beomgyu. he was staring at you with a dazed look.

he didn't seem to have turned so you figure he's ok for the most part, he just needs time to recover from the shock of having his hand cut off. you've wrapped it in so many bandages that you think he probably can't even feel it at that point.

"this might be a stupid question but how do you feel?" you ask.

he smiles at you weakly. "at least im not dead," he jokes. you smile lightly at him, shaking your head. "c-could you run your hands through my hair...it's comforting." you comply, sitting next to him against the wall and running your hands through his hair. it's still messy and his forehead is riddled with sweat so you hope you can make him look at least a bit better, not that it matters.

"thank you," he mumbles. you sigh, "im sorry this happened to you. we should've never gotten split up." you know there's really nothing you could've done but you still feel the need to apologize for something at least. "it's my fault for wandering off, i was being stubborn," he explains softly.

you both don't say anything after that but he turns his head towards you, looking down at your lips. he was probably taking that time to contemplate whether or not to kiss you again.

you let him. on the floor of the grimy school bathroom where he got bit and where he got his hand amputated. you let him kiss you.

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[jamaisvuandyou]

Now or Never

Description: Based on THIS reaction, for Huening Kai. You break up with your ex when he tells you he doesn’t want to have kids, not knowing that you’re already pregnant.

Posted: 01/06/2021

WARNING: idk pregnancy?

Angst: 1,561 words

A/N: Apparently I was on hiatus. Anyway, this happened. so. 

You shook your head and shrugged. “I need time alone. I’ll call you when I’m ready to talk again.” You walked toward the door.

He caught you before you reached it. “Y/n, are you pregnant?”

You sobbed, unable to hold it in or hide it anymore.

“Y/n...tell me you’re not pregnant,” Huening Kai insisted, being far too dense.

You jerked out of his grasp, crying too much to answer.

“Oh my god,” He muttered. “But...how? We were safe. Oh my god. Tell me you didn’t cheat on me?”

The security guard in the room didn’t even move when you slapped Heuning Kai, and his manager winced but didn’t move to intervene.

“How...dare you,” You warbled out. “How dare you.”

He stared at you, wide-eyed.

And you left. You walked out the door and you walked down the street to the subway. And you cried on the subway, being comforted by a sweet halmeoni who didn’t even ask why you were crying, just if you’d be okay.

You cried as you walked to your apartment.

You cried as your phone rang with text messages and missed calls from someone who didn’t even want the child you were carrying.

You didn’t dare look at your phone until after you had showered, and eaten a well-balanced meal, and had a cup of tea that the doctor had said would help with the morning sickness.

There were about a dozen missed calls from Kai, and about thirty texts from him that you didn’t dare open yet.

But there were also two messages and a missed call from his band members.

Soobin had been the one to try and call you, because you and he talked sometimes about baking. But his text message told you that he was just calling to make sure you made it home safely and that he understood.

You quickly sent a reply to him saying you were home safely and thanking him for checking on you.

Yeonjun’s message simply said to let him know if you needed anything.

You dropped the phone when it started ringing, tears filling your eyes when you saw it was Hyuka again.

You skimmed the texts he had sent, but even if he begged you to come back, you knew that he didn’t want a child so what was the point?

But how were you going to do this alone?

Doing it alone had to be better than doing it with someone who hadn’t wanted that life in the first place.

It had to be.

He had asked you why you hadn’t just come right out and told him.

But the reason was obvious.

He didn’t want a child.

He wasn’t ready for a child.

And when you tried to leave, he said the worst thing he could have to you.

And you weren’t raising a child with someone who immediately accused you of cheating on them when they had been the light of your life.

Are you sure you’re okay? Soobin asked via text.

I don’t know that I’ll know what it’s like to be okay for a long time, Soobin. He keeps calling me. Can you get him to stop calling me? Please?

I’ll go talk to him. It might mean telling him you’re okay and that you’re talking to me?

That’s fine, just...I can’t talk to him right now.

ok, brb.

You washed your dishes while you waited, letting the soap wash away your shakiness until what you had left was anger and disappointment. You’d wanted to think it would turn out better than this, but you also knew that even when you first started dating you had known that long-term...Huening Kai just wasn’t going to work. He didn’t want kids.

And that kept you up at night. That and your tears.

Stupid tears that you wished you didn’t feel the need to shed over a guy who didn’t want to be on the same path as you.

Your child needed better.

Yeonjun texted you the next morning, as you were finishing breakfast. Soobin told me to let you know that Kai has his phone, but shouldn’t be able to unlock it because he changed the password before going to talk to him. Kai doesn’t know that I have your number, or that I’ve messaged you.

Ok. Ty for letting me know.

Did he really ask you if you cheated on him?

Yeah.

Jerk move.

You sighed and dropped onto your couch, grabbing one of your blankets and haphazardly covering yourself. You probably wouldn’t keep your breakfast down, but you wanted to rest today since yesterday had been so stressful

You frowned when Yeonjun called you.

“Hello?”

“We didn’t catch him in time, he’s on his way over. Go down to the coffee shop and get a back table, we’ll meet you there. I’m really sorry, y/n.”

“You don’t think he’ll hurt me...do you?”

“I don’t know what he’ll do right now. But you asked for space and we’re going to make sure you get that. Head to the coffee shop. Beomgyu and Taehyun are going after Kai and will try to get him to go home and we’re going to stay with you until he’s gone then maybe put you in a hotel for a few days. Just until we can guarantee he won’t show up on your doorstep.”

You quickly threw on a sweater and your shoes, grabbing your purse and laptop before rushing out the door. “I can’t...I can’t be with someone who does this.”

“I know. Do you want me to stay on the phone?”

“No. I’ll meet you at the shop.” You headed out the door, hanging up and wondering just how long you’d have to deal with this insane version of Kai.

You’d never expected him to react like this. Never.

You wanted to attribute it to shock, or a genuine desire to prove he cared.

But the texts he had sent made you extremely uneasy.

It only took Soobin and Yeonjun fifteen minutes to join you, taking the seats that would block anyone else from seeing you. They both had serious looks on their faces.

“I’m really sorry about this, y/n. About him,” Soobin said quietly after the three of you had sat in silence for a while. “It couldn’t have been easy, making the choice you did. And he’s making it harder. I wish we could make it easier for you.”

“You’re here, aren’t you?” You tried for a smile, but tears were filling your eyes again.

Yeonjun shook his head slightly. “We booked a hotel room for you. Don’t worry about the expense, order whatever room service you want. We’ve got it covered for you. Okay?”

“Thank you, but--”

“You’re welcome,” Soobin purposefully cut you off, then covered one of your hands with his. “We love Kai, but we love you too, and we can’t support his behavior.”

“When did he start getting so...possessive with you?” Yeonjun asked, looking worried, but also sort of stern.

You shook your head. “Today. Today is the first time he’s done anything crazy.”

Yeonjun nodded. “Okay. Do you want anything?” He asked, gesturing toward the counter.

You shook your head. “Orange juice?” You asked as an afterthought.

He nodded and got up, heading to the counter where their manager was waiting.

Soobin watched him walk away. “He still has my phone, but I’ll text you after I get it back. I’ll ask you about a recipe or something.”

You nodded. “I’ll pay attention.”

Both of you froze when the door opened and loud voices filled the shop.

“Kai, you can’t be here!” Beomgyu said loudly, pulling on Huening kai.

Taehyun quickly got between Kai and you. “Just leave it. Respect her wishes.”

“Please, y/n, please talk to me!”

You shook your head. “There’s nothing left to say.”

“Of course there is!”

“You can’t tell me that you want...the same things as me, so there is nothing left to say. Please...just let me go.”

“But...I love you....”

“But you don’t want this,” You argued, stepping behind Soobin. “So let me go.”

Yeonjun stepped between the two of you. “Kai. Go home.”

“Y/n, please?! I’m sorry!”

“You broke my heart and rejected our child, and all you can say is sorry?” You whispered. “It’s not enough.”

“Get him out,” Soobin told the others. “Take him home.”

Yeonjun came back and pulled you toward the back exit. “Come on. Let’s get you out of here. Let’s get you both out of here.”

You let yourself be pulled, barely snatching your laptop bag. 

He went with you back to your apartment, staying by the door while you packed a bag. And he acted as a body guard all the way to the hotel, until both of you were safe behind the door. 

You sat on the bed, everything finally catching up with you. “How did everything get so messed up?”

“I don’t know. But it will all work out.” He crouched in front of you and took your hands. “Okay? It will all work out.”

“How do you know?”

“You’re not alone in this,” He told you. “I promise. You are not alone.”

You breathed in shakily, then leaned forward and into his waiting hug as the tears overwhelmed you once more. 

[inadaydream99]

I love your works so much! Could I request a txt fanfic of Taehyun, kind of enemies to lovers where he accidentally ends up saying something hurtful but after seeing how sad the reader actually gets he just becomes all soft and comforting and maybe confesses?🥺 thank you!!

Hey, thanks for sending a request! This took me ages to write but I really hope you enjoy 😊

Can We Start Over

“Uh uh, no way! I’m not going with her.” Taehyun protests to Yeonjun, stomping his feet on the ground like the bratty child he is. Or well, you think he is anyway.

“Look. I can’t go cause I have too much work that needs to get done today. Just do me the favour and I’ll owe you, alright?” Yeonjun pleads, watching as Taehyun rolls his eyes and lets out a disgruntled sigh.

“Fine.” He caves in, turning his attention onto you. He glares as you sit on the sofa at the back of their practice room, minding your own business by tapping away on your phone.

“I haven’t got all day, let’s go.” Taehyun grumbles as he strides over to you.

Your gaze lifts away from your phone screen, wide, innocent eyes locking onto Taehyun’s frame. He looks so agitated just by the fact he has to socialise with you.

“Alright.” You comply as you stand up off the sofa, tucking your phone into the back pocket of your jeans before following behind as he walks ahead of you. “Bye guys, wish me luck!” You lightheartedly joke, waving to Yeonjun and Beomgyu as they momentarily pause their conversation to return the wave.

“So...” You awkwardly attempt to strike up a conversation, watching Taehyun’s irritated expression and seeing if it changes at all when you try to engage with him.

His head turns to look at you, expression unchanging as he shoots daggers in your direction. He’s clearly not in the mood. But it’s not like this is your fault. No, you’d only asked Yeonjun to accompany you to the doctors because you didn’t want to go alone. You had no idea that when he’d agreed it was out of the pure kindness of his heart and that he was double booking himself.

The waiting room is deadly silent, you and Taehyun being the only people present and it only unsettles you more that he is so cold towards you. You can feel the anxiety creeping up your body the longer it lasts.

When your name is called you stand up, brushing the palms of your hands down your jeans in an attempt to wipe away some of the clamminess and turn to look at Taehyun when he doesn’t make a move to stand with you.

“What. You need me to go in with you and hold your hand?” He snickers, his tone patronising as he raises a brow at you. You knew he would mock you but the doctors has always been a fear of yours. Ever since you were a child just the thought of going to the doctors had you on edge, and although you’re not really sure why, it’s one of the things that causes the most anxiety.

“Would you?” You timidly ask, vision falling to the floor when you hear Taehyun laugh harder. “You know what, forget it.” You mumble, walking away with tears pricking your eyes.

~

“How’d it go?” Yeonjun asks as soon as the front door opens and you walk through. You can tell he’s genuinely intrigued and cares about you, knowing that it’s a very daugnting thing for you to do. But Taehyun had soured your mood and you’re not interested in talking to anyone for a while.

Yeonjun shoots a quizzical look over to Soobin when you walk straight past them without so much as a glance. And instantly he knows that it’s got something to do with Taehyun.

“What did you do?” He flatly questions, his tone conveying how disappointed he is.

“She seriously wanted me to go in the doctors office with her. Can you believe that?” Taehyun laughs, still finding the whole situation amusing, unlike Yueonjun and Soobin who just stare him down, unimpressed with his attitude.

“Yeah, I can believe that!” Yeonjun raises his voice, fists clenched and teeth gritted as he becomes increasingly angry with the younger. “And I hope you did.” He glares at Taehyun, almost seeing red when Taehyun fails to answer.

“Seriously? You’re mad at me for doing you a favour. Just because I didn’t go into the office with (Y/N) doesn’t take away from the fact that I went with her.” Taehyun argues back. So he made you go alone, it’s not like it was a life or death situation.

“Do you even hear yourself Taehyun?” Soobin questions while he calms Yeonjun down.

“Oh I’m sorry, do you want me to go apologise to the spoilt little princess? Is that what you want? Cause it’s not gonna happen!” Taehyun continues to sass.

“Tae...” Soobin tries to cut in and stop his ranting.

“She always gets her own way! But you’re blind to it! Yeonjun go here with me, Soobin I wanna watch this movie, Kai I want to order pizza.” Taehyun mocks you in a whiny high pitched tone. His impersonation isn’t lighthearted and funny, it’s spiteful.

“Taehyun!” Soobin finally cuts him off, indicating for him to turn around.

“What, I— oh.” He begins, falling silent when he sees you stood in the doorway, lip quivering uncontrollably as your glossy eyes fail to hide the hurt.

As soon as you lock eyes with Taehyun’s you break, rushing out of their apartment to anywhere as far away from him as possible.

~

The moment Taehyun saw your expression he regretted his actions. The heartbreak in your eyes something that he can’t unsee.

“I messed up bad didn’t I?” Taehyun sighs as he rubs the palms of his hands down his face. HueningKai nods as he places the glass of water down on the table in front of him before settling on the sofa.

“Soobin said that Yeonjun has gone to make sure (Y/N)‘s ok, but I don’t expect that he’ll be talking to you for a while.” HueningKai informs. He’s the only one that is actually giving Taehyun the time of day, keeping him updated on the situation that he’s caused.

“That’s the least I deserve.” Taehyun mumbles, zoned out gaze locked onto the floor beneath his feet.

“Why do you hate her so much?” HueningKai breaks the silence that settles in. The question makes Taehyun visibly tense. He’d never realised that’s how it came across...

In all honesty Taehyun doesn’t hate you, he never has. He just finds it extremely entertaining to wind you up and he thought you found it funny too, considering you usually give just as good back. But today he took things too far, he was grumpy because he’d not had much sleep the previous night and was forced to go with you to the doctors. He’d taken his frustration out on you, even when you’d been too anxious to bite back.

“I don’t...” he mumbles deep in thought.

“Then show her that.” HueningKai encourages, patting his friend on the back.

~

“I’m gonna make him regret hurting you so much.” Yeonjun comforts you, his arm draped around your shoulder as your teary eyes peer up to meet his concerned gaze.

“You really don’t have to...” You sniffle, forcing a meek smile on your face.

“But Taehyun shouldn’t get away with treating you like this.” Yeonjun persuades, squeezing you in closer and shaking you a little to make you laugh.

“And he won’t. I just need some time.” You compromise, leaning your head on his shoulder and shutting your tired eyes.

“It’s funny, I always thought you two would end up together.” Your eyes shoot open, alert and freaked out. You and Taehyun? Together? Not in a million years.

“What on earth made you think that?” You blurt a little harshly, but it makes Yeonjun laugh none the less.

“I don’t know... it’s just, I see how you bounce off each other when you argue and I’ve just always thought that if you were to turn it around and work together instead, then maybe you would actually make a really good team.” He explains, watching your reactions closely as you pull away from his embrace enough to face him properly.

You’re not really too sure what to think or how to feel and initially the idea of you and Taehyun being together freaks you out. But, the more you let the idea sink in, the less repulsed you feel.

And the thought stays with you even after Yeonjun leaves to go back home, right up until you fall asleep. And in your dreams you find yourself imagining what it would be like to hold is hand and to feel his loving gaze on you... and to know what it would feel like to kiss him.

~

“Yeonjun at least tell me (Y/N)’s ok?” Taehyun begs, following Yeonjun around their dorm like a lost puppy. He knows that Yeonjun is bound to give in soon enough and stop freezing him out. But the longer it lasts the less hope Taehyun has of ever succeeding.

“She’s fine.” He grumpily mumbles, so quietly in fact that Taehyun barely catches what he says.

“Is she still mad at me?” He presses, taking the opportunity to find out as much information as he can while Yeonjun is actually talking to him.

“I don’t know Taehyun! If you want to find out that bad then why don’t you go ask her yourself.” Yeonjun spins around abruptly, catching Taehyun so off guard he almost crashes into him.

The resentful expression on Yeonjun’s face makes Taehyun take a few steps backwards, intimidated by the anger that’s radiating off of him.

“I just-”

“Feel guilty?” Yeonjun interrupts, his tone condescending. “That’s always the way... but just so you know, regret is stronger than gratitude.” Yeonjun continues when Taehyun doesn’t respond. He’s trying the get the message across to him that he only cares because he feels bad, because if Taehyun really does care about you then he will make the effort to make sure you are ok.

~

You’d decided to brave visiting the guys dorms, mostly because you have missed hanging out with everyone. But there is a secret underlying reason for your presence.

Ever since Yeonjun mentioned about you and Taehyun making a good couple you haven’t been able to shake the thought. It’s not like you’ve forgiven him for the way he has treated you, you’re just desperate to see him. Even if it is just in the form of subtle glances.

“I know what you’re doing.” HueningKai catches you off guard. He’d been observing the way you were constantly on the lookout, almost like you are waiting for something to happen... or to see someone in particular.

“What do you mean?” You play dumb, hoping he hasn’t really caught onto the fact you want to see Taehyun.

“If you really want to see him then what’s stopping you?” HueningKai leans in and keeps his voice hushed. He can tell you don’t want anyone else to know and he respects that choice.

“Well, I’m not entirely sure if I should... or if he would want to see me.” You whisper back.

“Trust me, he does.” HueningKai manages to respond before your attention is moved onto a knocking from behind you. “And that’s my queue to exit.” HueningKai speaks up as soon as he sees Taehyun standing in the doorway, standing from the sofa and making his way out of the room.

“I’m so sorry.” Taehyun immediately apologises the instant you are alone. You can tell he’s being sincere as he approaches you. “How I treated you was wrong and if I could go back in time and redo everything then I would.” He continues, his gaze not once moving from watching you.

“Please, you don’t need to say anything.” Taehyun quickly speaks up when he notices you’re about to respond. “I just wanted you to know how badly I feel about everything... and that I never once hated you.”

You aren’t sure how to respond. Of course you were still hurt by everything that’s happened but you know that sometimes it’s better to forgive and forget. Especially when you can tell that Taehyun’s apology has come from the heart. You can’t hide the smile on your face when you conclude to yourself that this is finally time for a fresh start between you. It’s what you’d been hoping for... it’s a sign that he cares.

“I don’t know what to say...” you beam, your grin so infectious that Taehyun can’t help but to reciprocate.

“All I need is one answer.” Taehyun pauses, continuing when you nod your head in encouragement. “Can we start over... as more than friends?”

The hopeful glimmer in his eyes makes your heart race and you swear you’ll never allow yourself to forget the elated grin the appears when you softly utter “yes” in responce.

You burst into a fit of giggles when Taehyun rushes over to you and picks you up, twirling you around in his arms.

“I promise to never hurt you again.” He whispers once you both recompose from your moment of joy, nuzzling his nose against yours affectionately.

And you can tell that he truly means every word.

[boba-beom]

🥺🥺🥺🥺

I can related with your sister ✋ I love this man so much it hurts 😢😢

Also, he was sweating while eating spicy food whereas here I was, adding extra chilli powder and black pepper to my ramen 🤡

Nooo this is so cute omg 🥺🥺 LOOK AT HIS PRECIOUS SMILE?! You literally make the prettiest wallpapers omg 😌✨ also my sister saw my lockscreen and she said it’s really pretty, so thank you for that! I think it’ll stay that way for a while since I tend to change my lockscreen too frequently oops. This is why I am ot5 but beomgyu just has that tiny little place higher up, justttt a tiny bit 😪

Seriously,, I was here like “cjdnckd why are you like this soobin?!” He couldn’t handle it but it was cute how he still liked it tho 🤧 also I’ve never seen someone sweat so much while eating spicy food, like I was genuinely concerned. His hair was stuck to his forehead and then it looked all shiny later on ohmy

I think the last time I had something reallyy really spicy were those samyang hot chicken ramen. My eyes were tearing up and I lost my voice for a few minutes afterwards because it was too hot for me, like breathing was so painful all of a sudden HAHAH

[soobiniebaby]

Angels & Devils Part VII : Green Light

Tomorrow x Together Fanfiction

~ p a r t s : main post || prologue || part 1 || part 2 || part 3 || part 4 || part 5 || part 6 || part 7 || part 8 || part 9 || part 10 || part 11 || part 12 || part 13 || part 14 || part 15 || part 16 || part 17 ~ p a i r i n g : love triangle involving choi soobin and choi yeonjun ~ g e n r e : high school au | some social media au | some fluff & angst | childhood friends | love triangle ~ l a n g u a g e : English ~ w a r n i n g : contains swearing, alcohol, kissing (?) and may contain mature themes (angst, etc.) ~ a / n : This will be my first fanfic (go easy on me pls) and i’m just writing this as I go along, so bear with me juseyo The setting (place/country) of the story is up to the reader’s interpretation ~ s u m m a r y : What should she choose? Han Baby: the new girl with a troubled past MO Academy: her new high school Choi Soobin: student council president, member of the Ecosave club, volunteer at the Humane Treatment of Animals, member of the Honor Society, a vocalist in the Jazzed club, the school’s all around golden boy Choi Yeonjun: leader of the Dance club, star of the Jazzed club, the school’s it boy with a bad rep 5 best friends, 1 new girl, 1 childhood friendship, 1 epic love triangle? What will this school year bring?

“No?” Yeonjun asks.

B nods her head. “No.”

He raises a brow at her. “But you just nodded.”

“Yeah, I was saying ‘yes’ to your ‘no?’.” B explains.

“Wait, so you’re saying yes?”

B lets out a huff. “Yeonjun, seriously—”

The blue-haired boy laughs. “Baby, I’m kidding. Don’t worry, I understand. May I ask why, though?” He was genuinely curious. Was he expecting to get shot down? Not really. But was he expecting her to say yes? Kind of. When Choi Yeonjun asks someone out, he almost always gets a yes on the first try.

“We’re friends, you and I.” B starts, her eyes starting to dart around the shed as she continues. “And my best friend is one of your best friends. I don’t want to mess up our friendship group’s dynamic by going out with you and then being dumped by you and then having everything crash and burn afterwards.”

“What ‘group dynamic?’ What ‘being dumped?’ What ‘having everything crash and burn?’ How are you so sure that all that is gonna happen?” Yeonjun asks. He had to keep himself from chuckling and maintain a straight face, because as ridiculous as it all sounded to him, he knew that she was serious and he wanted to treat it seriously.

“If I go out with you and you and I don’t work out, everything between us will get awkward. I know Ningning’s my best friend, but the boys will definitely pick your side, so I’ll probably have to find a new group of friends to hang out with.” B explains.

“Baby, I promise you, we won’t end up like that. If you agree to go out with me, nothing will change. We’ll all still be friends. You won’t lose us.” Yeonjun says reassuringly.

“And how would you know? Have you ever dated someone from your circle of friends before?” B asks, raising a brow.

“God no. As attractive as my friends are, I don’t think I could ever see myself going out with any of them. I mean, Hyuka’s like a baby brother to me, Taehyun is too perfect it’s kinda intimidating, and Beomgyu just isn’t my type. I mean, I think Soobin and I could work if we gave it a shot, but I don’t think he’d be interested.” Yeonjun says jokingly.

“Yeonjun, come on. You know what I mean.” B says, letting out a small laugh.

“Okay, I haven’t. But look at Gyu and Ryujin for example. Sure, they weren’t in the same friend group, but they were friends and they dated, and then they went back to being friends. Friendships don’t have to crash and burn just because of a few dates.” Yeonjun says defensively.

“Yeah, okay, Gyu and Ryu managed to stay friends. But if things don’t work out between you and I—” B starts, until Yeonjun interrupts her.

“But what if they do...” he says quietly.

“What?” B says, unable to hear him properly.

“But what if they do? What if we do? What if things between us work out?” Yeonjun asks.

B’s quiet for a moment before slowly starting again. “It’s not just our friendship I’m worried about, you know. I just moved here, I’m going through a big adjustment period in my life right now, and I’m just starting to make friends and establish a routine, and I like that you’re a part of it. I like seeing you everyday, I like that we’re classmates for at least 1 period and that I get to hang out with you and eat lunch with you and the rest of the boys.” she says, and as positive as it all sounded, Yeonjun had a feeling he knew what she’d say next. “But I’m not ready to change any of it. I like you, Yeonjun, enough to at least enjoy seeing you everyday. But I’m not ready to do anything that could change how things in my life are right now.”

Yeonjun nods. “It’s alright, Baby. I understand.” he says sincerely, looking right at her eyes. She really did look sorry, but at the same time her eyes kept darting back and forth between his and the ground. He could tell she was being sincere, but it looked like there was something more that she didn’t want to say. She was fairly easy to read, but he couldn’t decipher what else could possibly be on her mind.

“So that’s why I’m saying no. I’m really sorry, Yeonjun. I like our friendship too much right now to let anything get in the way of it.” she says, her eyes meeting his.

“You like our friendship too much right now? What about, say, in 2 weeks? Do you think you’d feel differently about our friendship then?” Yeonjun asks innocently.

“Yeah, if you suddenly become unbearably annoying in the next 2 weeks, that could definitely change.” B says sarcastically. “I don’t know, Yeonjun. It’s not like I can see into the future or anything, but I don’t think anything could change how I feel about us in a span of 2 weeks.”

“Oh, I don’t know, Baby. Everything can change in 2 weeks.” Yeonjun says mysteriously. When B raises a brow at him, he just smiles at her with a glint in his eye. “You’ll see. Now c’mon, let’s get back in there before they come looking for us.” he says, opening the door and leading her out of the shed.

•°•

It had only been 2 hours since she turned Yeonjun down, but looking at him now, B was starting to regret it just a tiny bit.

The boys had been rehearsing in Soobin’s house for an hour now. They hadn’t really been singing or rapping as Taehyun hinted they would be. They were working on the choreography and mostly polishing their positions and transitions, and as impressively sharp and coordinated as they all were, she had to admit that she couldn’t keep her eyes off of Yeonjun.

The blue haired boy could dance.

Simply the way he moved made him stand out. His movements were completely controlled yet so effortlessly executed, as if dance were a language and his body was highly fluent. She could see now why girls would go crazy when they see him perform, and a small part of her was starting to regret turning him down, even though she knew it was silly. Him being an amazing dancer shouldn’t be a factor to take into consideration when deciding whether not she would date him.

But still. She caught herself staring at him more than she’d like to admit. It was only when Kai threw himself onto the carpeted floor and yelled “Water break!” when she snapped out of it and stood up with a jolt.

“I’ll get you guys water, consider me as your unofficial water girl. That’ll be 5 water bottles, right?” B says, volunteering. “Uh, I guess I’ll get them from the fridge…?” she says, trailing off.

Soobin laughs, wiping sweat from his forehead before saying “Alright, I’ll show you where they are. Come on.”

B nods as she follows Soobin out of the room and downstairs towards the kitchen.

“So what do you think of our performance so far?” Soobin asks. “I know I’m not the best dancer, so it’s okay, you can be as brutally honest as you want.”

“Soobin, you guys are amazing. If the choreography looked that good, I can’t wait to see what the singing and rapping will sound like! And shut up, you’re a great dancer.” B says, playfully shoving his arm.

Soobin smiles, a bit embarrassed. “Thanks. You’ll only have to wait 2 more days until you see the whole thing, so I hope you look forward to it.”

“You bet I am! I didn’t know Ningning could dance either. Growing up, he was very interested in singing and playing different instruments, but I never knew he could rap and dance as well.” B says, amazed.

Soobin nods. “The Jazzed club helped a lot of us with honing in skills that we didn’t even know we had. It definitely helped me a lot with feeling more confident about myself. I used to be insanely shy until Yeonjun convinced me to join Jazzed club. Since then, I’ve even had the courage to take on the responsibility of being Student Council President, which is something I never thought I’d see myself doing.” he says bashfully.

“Wow Soobin, were you really that shy? I’m glad you’ve come out of your shell then, you’re doing great as far as I can tell. I guess being in Jazzed club helped you a lot then.” B says, smiling at him.

“You wouldn’t believe how shy I was.” Soobin laughs. “And yeah, it really has. Are you interested in joining? I think you’d like it.”

B thinks about it for a moment. “It looks like a lot of fun, and you guys make it seem so amazing. But I have to admit that I’ve never really been musically inclined? Don’t get me wrong, I tried really hard to learn how to play instruments when I was younger. Ningning tried to teach me how to play the piano, but I just couldn’t ever get it right. The most musical thing I can do is sing, but I don’t think I’m very good at that either, and besides, anyone can sing if they try hard enough.”

“I’m not great at instruments either, but I sang a lot while I was growing up and it was something I enjoyed doing. Never in my whole life did I ever think I’d be dancing on a stage in front of an audience though, but that also changed when I joined the club.” Soobin admitted.

“I really can’t wait to see you perform. I’ll get a front row seat, and I’ll be the one screaming my lungs out.” B says, laughing.

“If that’s the case then I’ll make sure to dance my heart out. I mean, if you’re gonna be giving it all with your lungs, might as well give it my best with all my heart as well.” Soobin says.

“Looking forward to seeing it.” B says, smiling up at him just as they reach the kitchen. “Oh, by the way, we should probably post stuff for our creative writing project too.”

“Oh, sure. Got any good pics from last night? I think I might have one.” Soobin says, whipping his phone out.

“I should probably be the one to post something though, since you posted something first.” B says, also taking out her phone. “We should each have at least one post every week.”

Soobin nods in agreement.

The two continue to look through their camera rolls until B exclaims “Ooh, I’ve got one!”

“Alright, I wanna see it.” Soobin says, attempting to look over B’s shoulder to peak at her phone.

“No way, you’ll see it when you post it! Let me just think of a caption.” B says, shielding her phone from Soobin’s curious eyes as she types out a caption.

Soobin’s phone pings with a notification, and he checks it.

“Oh wow, I knew we took selfies together but who took this photo?” Soobin asks, transfixed. Were they really that close together last night? He had to admit that he wasn’t completely sober so the night was a bit fuzzy, but he didn’t realize that he had ever been in such proximity with B. Other than the moment she whipped cake off his face, of course. At the memory of that, he felt his cheeks start to warm up again.

“I think Yuna or Ryujin did? I’m sure it was one of them. We all airdropped each other all the photos we took from last night. There are a lot stolen photos, and most of them were highly unflattering, but this one seemed alright.” B says.

“Yeah, it seems alright.” Soobin says as he looks at the post again, noting how their faces were side by side, he could’ve rested his chin on her shoulder.

“Alright, now show me where the water bottles are.” B says, pocketing her phone.

“The what?” Soobin asks, his mind still on the post.

“The water bottles? I need to bring at least 5, which I probably couldn’t have carried all on my own, so it’s actually really good that you’re here. Now, where are they?” B asks.

“Ah, right. They’re here in the fridge.” Soobin says, walking over to the fridge and grabbing as much bottles as he could. “We’re gonna need way more than 5 by the way, so let’s just take as much as we can for now.”

“Alright, let’s go.” B says, cradling 4 bottles in her arms as Soobin pushes the refrigerator door close with his foot, his arms full of water bottles.

“Let’s go.” Soobin says, and the 2 of them head back to the designated practice room.

•°•

On Monday morning, B had to walk to school alone.

It was club recruitment day, and Taehyun had told her beforehand that he’d be going to school an hour earlier that usual in order to prepare for the busy day, especially since he was the vice president of the student council.

“Do you still wanna walk together, though? Or would you rather sleep in for an extra hour?” Taehyun had asked her through text the night before.

Of course, she chose sleep. As much as she loved walking with Taehyun to school everyday, she did not want to get up an hour earlier than she had to.

“Nah, it’s fine. I can walk alone. I’m sure it’ll be a busy day for you anyway, so don’t worry about me.” she responded.

Now, here she was, entering the campus alone.

She was surprised by how busy it was. Along the school grounds, several booths were set up, each with at least 3 people, calling people over, handing out flyers, holding up signup sheets. Most booths had small exhibits, music playing out of portable speakers, and some booths were even giving away snacks or candies to attract more people.

She was so amazed and overwhelmed by the scene in front of her that she almost didn’t notice Beomgyu approaching her with a polaroid camera and taking a quick picture of her.

“Ha! Gotcha, B!” Beomgyu says, laughing as he cradles his camera, waiting for the picture he just took to develop. Once it was done, he flapped it around for a bit before laughing and pocketing the picture. “That was a good one.”

“Gyu! Oh god, you surprised me. Didn’t see you coming. And what’s with the picture? Can I see it?” B says, a fist clutched to her chest. “Wow, so this is what club recruitment day is like?” she asks, looking around in amazement.

Beomgyu stands beside her and nods. “Nah, I think I’ll keep the picture to myself for now. And yup, pretty much. It can be pretty intimidating for freshmen and new students, but it’s all really fun.” he says. “In the morning we have the booths wherein people can check out what clubs are around, in the afternoon there’s the visitations so people can visit the rooms to check out what the clubs are like, then from 3PM onwards there’s the showcase in the auditorium wherein each club can put together a skit or performance to show off what they’ve got.” he explains.

B nods. “Wow, it seems so exciting.”

“It’s one of the busiest days of the school year, and it’s one of the hardest events to plan since it’s at the very start of the school year, so we were working on it even during the summer before classes started.” Beomgyu admits. “I’m part of 4 clubs, not including the student council, so it was a lot of work for me too. Especially since I’m the head of the Journalism club and in charge of the school paper.” he pouts.

“Aw, Gyu, it all looks great. You’ve done a great job.” B says, giving the boy a pat on the back. “Is that why you’re going around with a camera, by the way? For the school paper?”

Beomgyu nods. “Nah, these pictures are for my personal documentation though if I get any interesting pictures, I could use them for the paper. I do have a documentation team going around with cameras as well, but I like being behind the lens. Say cheese.” he says before quickly capturing a stolen photo of B once again.

“Gyu!” B screeches, caught off guard. “I better not see my face in any pictures on the school paper this month.”

“Don’t worry, I get to do final approvals for everything before each edition gets published.” Beomgyu says reassuringly. He smiles as the picture finishes printing and tucks it away in his pocket once again. “By the way, you interested?” he asks.

“In the school paper?” B asks. “Maybe. I write but I’m not sure if I’m any good at it, and I’m no pro at cameras either. I actually don’t know what clubs I might join.” B admits.

“Oh, maybe I can help you with that. I can walk with you for a bit, show you around the booths, try to see if anything interests you.” Beomgyu offers, which B gladly accepts.

“Are you interested in anything in particular? Got any hobbies?” Beomgyu asks as they begin walking around.

“Hm, I’m not sure. Got any clubs about reading? Or anything about animals?” B asks hopefully.

“For reading? I think there’s the literature club. That’ll be nice if you’re a fan of books and poetry and stuff. And if you’re an animal lover, you should definitely check out the HTA. That’s the Humane Treatment of Animals club. They’ve set up an animal shelter within the school and do a lot of volunteer work with animal rescue and stuff.” Beomgyu says.

“Okay, now those sound very interesting to me.” B says. “Do you know where their booths are? Can you show me?”

Beomgyu nods. “The council was highly involved in planning for today’s activities, and we had to approve of the booth layouts, so I think I remember where the booths are positioned. This way.” he says, leading them through rows of booths.

B could see then how much of a big deal extracurricular activities were at MOA. All the students seemed to be pumping with energy. She’d lost count of the number of times she had been offered flyers for different clubs by the time they reached the booth for the literature club.

The students managing the booth engaged her in a quick introduction about the club and their activities and had given her a flyer as well. Included in the flyer was the location of the club’s room and the schedule for the day. She gladly accepted it and put her name into the signup sheet.

“Alright, that’s good. Your first signup! Next stop, the HTA. I believe their booth is this way, right next to the—” Beomgyu begins, but he’s cut off by a shrill shriek.

“Baba! Baba!” Kai squeals as Beomgyu and B walk past the Art Club’s booth.

“—Art Club.” Beomgyu finishes, as Kai runs over from inside the booth, right to where they were standing.

Kai gives B a big hug as he joins her side. “Baba! Come check out the Art Club!” Kai says excitedly.

“Ningning, hey!” B says, surprised to see him.

“Wait you two, say cheese real quick.” Beomgyu says, pointing his polaroid camera at them. The 2 happily oblige and instantly pose, with Kai wrapping an arm around B’s waist and B lifting an arm up all the way to the top of Kai’s head in a peace sign, and Beomgyu pockets the picture once it’s done.

“Are you here to check out the Art Club?” Kai says excitedly.

“Ah, the Art Club. Of course.” she says, eyeing the booth. “I almost forgot that you were the president.”

“Of course I’m the president. My club’s the best club on the campus. Here, take a flyer.” Kai says, practically shoving one into her hands. “You too, Gyu.” he says, as he shoves one in the boy’s face. “By the way, what are you doing with Baba? I thought you were supposed to be manning the Journalism Club’s booth.” he asks suspiciously.

“Psh, just ‘cause I’m club president doesn’t mean I should be stuck watching over the booth. It’s all a matter of delegation.” Beomgyu says smugly. “Besides, I’d rather be walking around and capturing all the action than be stuck behind a booth all morning.”

Kai looks torn for a moment, like he wanted to abandon his booth and join Beomgyu and B, but he just shakes his head. “As much as I’d love to join you guys, I can’t abandon my booth. Not at the last minute, at least.” he says, pouting.

B laughs at the boy. “C’mon, Ningning, you’re doing great. Look, your signup sheet’s all full already!” she says, noticing the clipboard on the table.

“Don’t worry, we always have room for more. Here.” Kai says, taking the clipboard and flipping the sheet over to reveal another page full of free space. “Sign up, Baba! It won’t automatically mean you’re signing up to be a member, but it saves you a spot for the room visits this afternoon.” he adds, noting how hesitant B looked.

“Alright, I guess it wouldn’t hurt.” B says, signing her name on the sheet. She had no intentions of joining the art club since she was never talented at any form of art, but she figured it wouldn’t hurt to check it out, especially since her best friend was the president of the club.

“Yay, thanks Baba! See you later!” Kai says excitedly. “Where are you guys headed, anyway? Signed up for any other clubs yet?” he asks.

“We were headed to the HTA booth.” Beomgyu answers.

“Ah yeah, I almost forgot how much of an animal lover you are.” Kai says. “Their booth is right next door.”

“Yeah, I’m actually thinking of getting a pet soon, since I have my own apartment now.” B says. “Alright, we’ll check out the booth now. Later, Ningning!” she says, waving at her best friend as she and Beomgyu walk away.

“Are you really thinking of getting a pet for your apartment?” Beomgyu asks curiously. “What kind of pet would you want?”

“I like a lot of animals, I find them all really adorable.” B admits. “But I think I’d really want to get a cat, or maybe a couple of bunnies.”

“Oh, are those your favorite animals?” Beomgyu asks. “I’ve got a pet parrot, his name is Toto. You should meet him someday, he’s really sweet.” he says fondly.

Just then, they see Soobin standing outside the HTA booth, handing out flyers to people passing by. There was just one detail about him that caused Beomgyu and B to burst out laughing instantly.

He was wearing bunny ears made out of balloons on his head.

Beomgyu quickly snapped a picture with his polaroid camera while B quickly whipped her phone out to take pictures as well.

The sound of their laughter and the flash from Beomgyu’s camera caused Soobin to notice them, and his face instantly went red as he did.

“Gyu! B! What are you doing?” he wails, covering his face and turning away from them.

“Soobin! You look adorable!” B manages to say in between bursts of laughter.

“So this is how the HTA manages to get so many recruits every year.” Beomgyu says, amused. “Now I’m not surprised. Using you as a mascot is genius. No one can resist you, Soobinie.” he says teasingly.

“Oh, shut up.” Soobin says, his face still red. “What are you guys even doing here?”

“I was just helping B find clubs that she might be interested in.” Beomgyu says, casually draping an arm over her shoulders. “She says she’s an animal lover, so I figured she’d wanna check out the HTA, and now here we are. And here you are.”

B nods. “Yeah, Gyu told me that the club do a lot of volunteer work and even set up an animal shelter within the school, and I was instantly hooked. I really love animals.” she says with a twinkle in her eye.

Soobin smiles. “You’ve come to the right place, then. Here, have a flyer.” he says, offering her a flyer, which she gladly accepts.

She reads through the flyer then, her excitement to join the club growing by the minute. “Oh wow, now this is my kinda club.” she says. “Are you the club president, Soobin?”

“Yup. You interested? Wanna sign up?” he asks hopefully.

“Definitely! I’m already looking forward to joining.” B says, as Soobin hands her the clipboard with the signup sheet, which she gamely signs.

“Great! I guess we’ll be expecting you to drop by the club sometime after lunch for the visitations? The club’s location is on the flyer, so try your best not to lose it.” Soobin says.

“Sure thing. See you then.” B says excitedly.

“Hey, you two, say cheese!” Beomgyu says, pointing his polaroid camera at them. Soobin and B stand side by side and smile, but Beomgyu lowers his camera as he looks at them. “Okay, maybe pose a bit and say cheese? Come on, don’t just stand there.” he whines.

Soobin gives Beomgyu a look and B just rolls her eyes. She holds her arms out to Soobin and slowly steps closer towards him until her arms surrounded his body, and she closed them around him. He lets out a surprised laugh and decides to go along with it as he wraps his arms around her too. Slightly embarrassed, she squeezes her eyes shut and smiles. Just then, Beomgyu snaps a picture.

“Okay, that was a pretty good shot.” he says. He holds it up once its done developing, examining it one more time, before pocketing it.

“You know, that’s like the 4th picture you’ve taken of me this morning, yet I haven’t seen a single one of them.” B says as she steps away from Soobin. “Can I have at least one of them?” she asks.

“Nope, I keep all of the polaroids that I take. I’ve got a whole collection of them. I can print you out some copies if you want, though.” Beomgyu offers,

“Yes please, I’d really like that.” B says. “I’d also like to see your collection someday. Seems interesting.”

“Don’t worry, I’ll make sure to show you if you ever stop by my place.” Beomgyu says. “Well, that’s all the club you wanted to check out, right? Anything else you wanna do before lunch? Wanna check out other booths? I think Tyun’s managing the Debate Club’s booth, and Yeonjun’s probably at the Dance Club’s booth. We can stop by the Journalism club’s booth too so I can see how things are going.” Beomgyu offers.

“Sure thing, whatever you wanna do, Gyu. Lead the way.” B says.

“Alright, let’s go! See you later, Soobin.” Beomgyu says to the boy with the bunny ears.

“See you later.” Soobin responds.

“I’ll be sure to drop by the HTA later. See you then!” B says, giving a small wave before Beomgyu drags her along with him and they disappear into the booths once again.

•°•

“Hold still.”

“I’m trying.”

“Try harder, just hold still.”

“I literally haven’t moved since you started.”

“I said hold still, Baba!” Kai exclaims, trying his best to sketch her as accurately as possible.

“I am!” B says, smiling through her teeth. It was already after lunch, and visitations had already started. Her first stop was at the Literature Club, and it seemed interesting enough. They presented more information about the club and what activities they’d be offering for the school year. She was on her way to the HTA when she ran into Kai, who all but kidnapped her and dragged her into the Art Club.

She figured spending a few minutes in the art club wouldn’t hurt, especially since Kai had been so excited to pull her into the room. But then he insisted that she let him do a quick sketch of her, and B realized a little too late that it meant she’d have to stick around a little bit longer than she had planned.

It’s been 15 minutes since Kai had first told her to hold still, and she was starting to lose patience. When her phone alarmed with a notification, she was relieved to have an excuse to move. She sees that it’s a message from Soobin and she replies as quick as she can.

B locked her phone and put it back in her pocket, feeling much more better than she did a minute ago. She told herself that she only had to hold still for 5 more minutes, and she hoped that Kai would let her go once Soobin arrived.

Sure enough, after 5 more minutes of holding still, B heard one of the art club members exclaim “President Choi! What are you doing here? Are you looking for Hueningkai?”

Kai’s head snaps up from his work upon hearing his name. “Younghoon, who are you talking to? Is that Soobin?”

The art club member, Younghoon, answers “Yes, he says he’s looking for someone.”

“Alright, welcome him in.” Kai says, putting his work down. B sighed in relief as Soobin walked into the room. When his eyes met hers, he gave her a quick wink, knowing that he was doing her a favor.

“Hyuka, hey! How’s the president of the art club doing?” Soobin says, walking over to Kai and giving his shoulders a squeeze.

“I’m doing good, we got a lot of signups today and the visits have been going really well.” Kai responds. “And how’s the president of the HTA doing?”

“Stressing out a bit, that’s actually why I’m here. I need  help with tracking down one of the campus cats. We were hoping to introduce all the campus animals during recruitment day but there’s one cat that we haven’t seen around in days. All my members have their hands full with the signups and visitors, so I was hoping I could find an extra pair of helpful hands here?” Soobin says, looking pointedly at B.

“Oh, I don’t know, Soobin. The art club’s pretty busy right now, too. I could ask some of my officers if they could help you?” Kai offers.

“Nonsense, your officers should stay here. I’ll go, I’m not I’m not needed here anyway. And I already had plans to stop by the HTA, so I think it would be nice if I could help out.” B insists.

Kai lets out a sigh. “Alright, I guess I’ll finish your portrait some other time.” he says.

“You sure you won’t mind? You can stay here if you want, I can try checking out the debate club if Taehyun can help.” Soobin asks innocently. Wow, he was good at this.

B smiles. “No need for that, I’m happy to help. I love cats anyway, I’m sure it’ll be fun.”

Kai waves the two of them goodbye, and they leave the art club together.

“Is there really a missing cat around the campus?” B asks, concerned.

Soobin shakes his head. “Nope. I just made it up. The cats and dogs in campus never wander far, so it’s easy to keep track of them all.”

“Wow you’re surprisingly good at lying then.” B says, impressed. “Oh, I can’t wait to meet them all! How many animals are there in the campus.”

Soobin just gives her a smile and says “You’ll see.” as they continue to make their way across the campus until they reach the edge of the school grounds, where a small cabin was located surrounded by a garden.

“This is another part of the campus that I haven’t been to yet.” B says. “Now, I’m really glad that you came, cause I don’t think I would’ve been able to find this place on my own.”

Soobin laughs and says “You’re very welcome, then.” as they step into the threshold of the garden. “B, welcome to the Humane Treatment of Animals, or the HTA in short. The club was established a few years ago when some animal-loving students noticed just how many cats and dogs were freely roaming the campus. They decided to assemble interested members, and with the permission of the school board, they were able to have this small area built within the campus grounds as a donation.”

“That sounds pretty impressive, it’s a good thing that those students took the initiative to do all this.” B says, staring at the establishment in wonder. Soobin leads her to the small cabin and opens the door for her.

As they step into the room, they’re met with the other members and officers of the club welcoming the other students who have signed up. And also, B couldn’t help but let out a little squeal as she saw cats and dogs all around the place, some were peacefully sleeping in random spots, some were rubbing up against the students and asking for attention, and there was one white cat that was right by the door as they walked in, and gave them a little meow.

“Oh my god, who is this cutie?” B says, instantly crouching down to examine the cat, who was rubbing itself against her feet. She offers a hand in front of the cat’s face, and the cat starts to nuzzle its face into her hand, which instantly makes her melt.

“Ah, that little guy’s name is Tobin. He’s the one in the picture I sent you earlier, one of my favorites. He’s very friendly, he loves to get pets and cuddles, but he’ll beg incessantly for food once he gets a whiff of anything that smells delicious to him.” Soobin says, joining B and Tobin on the floor as he crouches down as well.

“So if I join this club, I get to hang out with Tobin and all these animals every Friday?” B asks. “Count me in.”

Soobin grins at her then. “Alright, I’ll get you a copy of the official membership form. Have it filled in before the end of the day. All forms will be collected after the showcase this afternoon, so it gives everyone enough time to finalize which clubs they want to join.”

B shakes her head. “I have zero doubts in my mind that this is the club for me. If you give me the form now, I’ll fill it up and submit it right here, on the spot.”

And so he does.

•°•

B spent the rest of the time for club visitations at the HTA, getting to know the other members and cuddling up with all the animals under the club’s care. When Soobin announced that he had to go to the auditorium to do final preparations for the showcase, B asks him if she could tag along.

“I wanna make sure to get good seats, front row, right in the center.” she says, so Soobin allows it. Once they reached the auditorium, he went backstage with the rest of the organizers and performers, and she secured 3 seats in the front row, texting Yuna and Ryujin to come join her. The auditorium was already fairly full despite there being 30 minutes before the showcase started, and soon enough Yuna and Ryujin walked in and joined her.

The three girls start catching up, talking about everything that had transpired over the weekend, from Hueningkai’s surprise party all the way up to club recruitment day, which Ryujin and Yuna didn’t have much to do with since they had already joined clubs since they freshmen year.

They were so caught up in talking that they didn’t notice how full and busy the auditorium was, and it was only when someone from backstage announced “Please settle down, the showcase will begin in 5 minutes” did they notice how much time had passed since they started talking.

“Wait, there is one thing I’ve been dying to know all weekend.” Yuna asks with a glint in her eye.

“Oh, me too. I think I know what you’re talking about.” Ryujin says, looking at Yuna knowingly.

B looks back and forth to her left and right at the 2 girls. “Well, don’t just look at each other like that, what is it?”

The 2 girls give each other sly smiles before turning to B, who was sitting in the middle of them. “What did you and Yeonjun do during your 7 minutes in heaven?”

B could feel her cheeks heat up, remembering once again what she had been trying to push out of her mind the whole weekend. “Nothing much, we just talked, played 20 questions to pass the time. He was really nice.” she tries to say as casually as possible.

“Come on, you’re blushing like crazy!” Yuna says, laughing at how red B’s face was.

“Spill it!” Ryujin exclaims, poking B’s sides until she finally caved.

“Alright, fine, but promise me you won’t tell a single soul about this. I haven’t told anyone about this, not even Hueningkai, so if this information somehow circulates, I know it’ll be because of you two.” B says reluctantly.

“You know we wouldn’t do that to you.” Ryujin says. “We promise we won’t tell anyone, now spill it.”

B takes a deep breath and lets out a sigh before saying “Yeonjun asked me out.”

Yuna squeals in delight while Ryujin just smirks. “Why am I not surprised.” she says smugly. “So what happened? How was it? Are you two secretly dating now?”

“No no, nothing happened. I turned him down.” B admits, and that’s when Yuna and Ryujin actually looked surprised.

“What? You turned him down? Why?!” Yuna asks, completely baffled.

“He’s my friend, and he’s one of my best friend’s best friends, I don’t wanna mess anything up. Imagine how awkward the group dynamic would be.” B says defensively.

“But it’s Choi Yeonjun!” Yuna exclaims. “Oh gosh, I know I’ve had the biggest crush on Kai in like forever, but if Choi Yeonjun asked me out, I would’ve said yes in a heartbeat.”

“It’s complicated, I just don’t want to complicate things, is all.” B says.

“Yuna, hush, we have to respect B’s decision.” Ryujin says, patting the girl on her knee. “B, how did Yeonjun take it? Are things okay between you two or are they weird?”

“He seemed fine with it, he said he understood, and I don’t sense any awkwardness so far. I told him I liked our friendship too much to risk complicating things, then he said something about our friendship changing in 2 weeks, which I don’t really understand but I laughed it off anyway. I’m hoping that’ll be the end of that and that we’ll be able to move past it without it affecting our friendship.” B explains.

“Wait, what about 2 weeks? What did he say exactly?” Ryujin asks.

“Sounds like he’s got something planned for the next 2 weeks? Is that it?” Yuna asks, intrigued.

“No I don’t think it’s like that. I didn’t really understand, but he said—” B starts, but she gets cut off when the lights in the auditorium suddenly go out and music starts blaring as everyone’s eyes focus on the stage, the showcase starting.

The showcase was interesting and entertaining enough. Each club had an allotted time to present whatever they wanted to. The different sports teams held a short fashion show that showcased each team’s uniforms with each team captain making a short speech to announce tryouts, which earned cheers and cheers from the audience when Yeonjun, Soobin and Hueningkai were spotted strutting on stage wearing their basketball jerseys. The film club presented one of their latest projects. The photography club showed a slideshow of pictures taken earlier that day and the film club put together a video as a sort of highlight reel from the club recruitment day. B had lost count of how many clubs had showed their presentations when the announcer finally said:

“And now, the moment you’ve all been waiting for, an exclusive performance from the Jazzed Club, starring MO Academy’s very own Student Council! Debuting the club’s latest composition entitled ‘Boy In Luv,’ please put your hands together for Jazzed!”

The screams were deafening as the 5 members of the student council appeared on stage, wearing their school uniforms stylized in different ways.

B had seen them rehearse the choreography at Soobin’s house, but nothing prepared her for their performance.

Kai opened the performance, which immediately got the audience screaming. Next, Beomgyu’s deep vocals dominated the auditorium, and Soobin’s rapping was heard for the very first time, and everyone seemed surprised by how good he was at it, judging by the escalating cheers from the audience when he started.

But nothing surprised B more than when it was Yeonjun’s turn to sing as he was front and center on stage, dancing and expertly making eye contact with the audience. It was no surprise that he was an amazing performer, but what got B’s jaw to drop was when his found somehow found hers in the audience as he rapped the words “But, I’m going to flip the situation, from friends to lovers” and winked right at her before Taehyun took his turn.

When that happened, B felt her heart pound as Ryujin and Yuna each grabbed her arms and started screaming incoherently. She tried her best to focus on the rest of the performance, but all she could think of was Yeonjun and what he just did.

As the performance ended and the 5 boys bowed onstage before waving at the audience once more, B could still feel her heart pounding as she cheered along with the audience.

Kai and Soobin found her face in the crowd and started jumping up and down, waving their arms in the air with excitement. She waved back, cheering as loud as she could, and she could feel her heartbeat start to slow back to normal.

Just then, Yeonjun’s eyes met hers once again, and he gave her a small wave and a bright smile before winking at her once again. And just like that, her heart started to pound again.

“Looks like Choi Yeonjun’s got his eye on you.” Ryujin says in B’s ear.

B puts a hand on her chest, feeling how fast it was beating, and wondering what exactly it meant.