#bcuz my parents dont handle their emotions well...and i am often the outlet for them and its not fun | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nyandereneko · 4 years ago

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I could thank Hei for a lot of things but one of the biggest is making me want to fucking write because I’ve written so much fic in the past few days compared to the intense, depressing slog it’s been for months now...thank you for the inspiration mid 2000s generic assassin anime man

#ck.txt #should delete #will delete #heaven’s gate #just thinking abt this...#i also have him to thank for giving me an outlet to be sad and escape bad home things #quarantine has been Quite The Bitch to my inmediate household #bcuz my parents dont handle their emotions well...and i am often the outlet for them and its not fun #i may delete this later bcuz thats a little more personal than i’d like to get but #knowing i cant leave rn due to several circumstances a major one being i just. cant live on my own #i cant take care of myself lol its too much. and that may be stupid and ridiculous and everything #but like the mental strain of doing that vs staying in my current situation where im relatively safe and have my pets and stuff #i just. need that. but also you know things still get rough emotionally #sometimes so much that idk if i can handle it BUT now...i have nice safe space...#i mean my f/os have and always will do things like that for me/provide those things for me #all of them #but hei’s vibes did something to me so anyway i feel extra safe and cared for by him #and again i’ll prob delete this like i really dont mean to get so personal here but #that’s part of why ive thrown myself into this selfship so hard...its the scaffolding holding my mental state up rn gjsjfjsjkfjs #sorry for putting even more pressure on you hei but i love you and im at least useful enough to like clean your already empty apartment #i’ll find other useful things to do somehow gksjfksnjfjd

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