#bcux i said so

[burgycreeper405-blog]

what's happening back in the hotel actually while s3 is still going

source: trust me

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[trauersinfonie]

anwyas i was thinking about raanas perceptiveness ofc i only know like 13 eps but like im kinda blown away by it from what I’ve seen . it’s like she took one look at tomori and understood everything instantly . but ofc raana understands life as people being the only absolute force in their own lives and so she’d never go out of her way to ‘fix’ anyone so she ultimately takes up a more passive role but she fucking knows and she’ll stare at u w her all knowing eyes and see you and that’s all that needs to be said bcux theres no Comeback. And also bcuz after that she got bored and stalked off to pick dusty quarters off the ground or something

[lambbrainz]

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[synsofthemother]

to Certainly Not Mom--- (in Lifeline) there was a part in the drafts where Rose and Tentoo were slightly mentioned.. will Ten pass his unwanted baby to Rose and Tentoo? will there be a tragic end to the baby, knowing he struggles to keep the drugs out of him? or will the inevitable death of thieves wasting take him before he could even try to make amends with everyone?

to Lastsyns--- (in Amnesia series) since Ten's mind has been reduced back to being a child, and John brings his kids alot in his trips between universes.. would there be a moment where Ten gets along with John's kids? maybe a little help with Artimes as well, so Ten could still enjoy little chats while not getting bored and also train his mind and body to work together without entanglements with what his mind wants to say and his body not cooperating in the long run? or maybe a lil angst where Ten gets stressed and the kids didn't like him at first but then understood his circumstances bcux John/Jack/Ianto/anyone with the kids explained it to them that Ten needs help, so they try to play with him whenever, helping, just like their father does?

I hadn’t decided how far I was going to take the relationship between Ten and John’s children as John still struggles to handle being a single father. That being said, it would be sweet to have John walk in and find the three of them sitting on the floor playing with blocks and the Doctor just feeling like he belonged there. Children’s minds are uncomplicated and while they might be confused about the fact he looks like their dad, I think he would get along well with them. 

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I'm a big fan of happy, or at least bittersweet endings so I'll likely not just have him die. That said there is much less of a plan with lifeline than I've got with the others, I haven't even reread that one yet, I don't fully remember what was going on. I did mention rather early (I think) that the drug did not cross the placental barrier because I did not want to deal with a drug-addicted infant. Honestly, I can't think of a reasonable scenario where the Doctor's kid would have access to a NICU, which is what drug-addicted babies need and I'm wholely not in the business of killing babies in my stories. That's just not on. You'll have to hit up George RR Martin if you want that kind of thing.

-CNM

[cheehcha]

OK so I just want to vent

I'm generally just venting /ranting bcuz I feel dramatic if i were to tell someone irl.. I work part time at a restaurant as a server. OK sooooo at this restaurant, we all get paid an hourly wage. We don't keep the tips. Even if a customer hands over a tip over to us, nope we don't keep it. But I agreed to work there sooo whateves I guess. .. lol (this will come together at the middle) OK so we all take care of everyone. We all chexk on everyone, we all share the struggle basically. OK so.. Back when I had started, I was 20, I was very nervous for the obvious reasons, but nonetheless I always tried my best and worked hard. And being 20 I always felt like, "OK I'm old, I'm No Longer A "teen" it's expected of me to work hard and not complain", so I did that. 😧 Anyway, everyday was the same for about 4 months until one of the servers left. So I picked up some shifts to help out my boss (which I care a lot for tbh, like a father. ) So blah blah work work, ya know. OK so the main thing (uuugh) OK so around this time last year, We were really short handed (just 3 of us) and Saturdays were the worst, bcux after a server left, another server would rarely ever come to his shift, so we would have to just look mad stupid running around trying to take care of alooot of customers. OK so Idk whyyy, but like I ended up being labeled "the slowest" one. Another server was in general really quick on his feet. I'm going to call him rabbit dude 🐇🐰 So around this time is when he would be Hella hostile towards me. Ex: shoving me, or my tables drinks out of his way, throwing stuff towards me, and in general he would just speak to me like I was a nuisance. But what i didn't understand was that we generally had a good coworker to coworker communication/relationship. But every damn Saturday he would just be so hostile. (BTW I NOW totally understand that maybe he felt as if I weren't doing enough or I could be better/faster, but the thing is, no one ever said anything to me. Trust me I know how to take someone else's advice and not feel "attacked", judged or criticized. I know when someone is trying to help. It's just, no one ever said anything to me.) Anyway it continued like that even after we hired another girl as a server. So maybe I was just annoying the hell out of him idk. So around October of '17 it just got worse. Any time i would ask how he was doing or i was just being a regular ass human being, he'd be short, id get eye rolls and hed be just plain rude. I got hella over it. I completely stopped communicating with him about anything that didn't have to do with work stuff, only work and thats it. I decided, just to go to work to get paid. Leave work at work and NOT take it home with me. So it has continued like that. I've grown, I've been better,faster and I know the menu like I know the lyrics to Anaconda🐉. Anyway I was put into a similar situation at work, that I think rabbit dude 🐇 was put in, of course, I'm assuming. I felt as if The girl we had hired back in '17, was not putting her best in at work. Last week I told her, "hey I gotta talk to you" and I began telling her that she had been at the restaurant for a year and that it may be time for her to start getting some bigger tables. I then started telling her what she was doing wrong and started giving her some ways she could fix them. Also, yes, I'm very aware that "what she was doing wrong" or "not doing her best" were in just my point of view, and that it does not mean that everyone felt like that. I was honestly tired of picking up he slack of others and I decided to say something and help with some advice too. I know i could have just continued and dealt with it like rabbit dude did. But I didn't do it in a negative way. I did it in the most non Confrontational way possible. Anyway all is comes to the end point that both rabbit dude 🐇 and the young girl are literally being such dicks to me and I'm honestly feeling like I did back in high school. Feeling like people are constantly judging and criticizing me about anything and everything. Today I heard, from a distance her explaining what happened, and none of what she said was what actually happened. So I'm like 💭wtfuuuh💭.. I'm so afraid to on front anyone of anything. So I'm just gonna deal with it, until one or both decide to leave. Or me. So now I'm so frustrated and I want to leave, but the fear of starting over, is eating me aliiiive. And even going into another restaurant to ask if they're hiring.. uuuugh! lol tho

[one-hell-of-a-loner-blog]

Itty bitty rant ahead

TW

so I'm upset again, what else is new???? But I have a reason bcux my ex is being a complete dick and asshole towards. He wants to get back together, ok, I'm fine with that, but after you said you wouldn't talk to this bitch, who is also your ex, bcux you wanted something serious with me, and then you go and do it. That's fucked. You also made a post about her, calling her your superwoman, even though I'm the one who has always fucking been there for you, excuse me, but who was the one who was on the phone with u when you got hit by a truck and broke ribs and your pelvis, and was the first one to go to the hospital to make sure you were ok? Yeah, not her. Also, supposedly to keep your phone you had to remind me that we're technically not together, which I knew. (Deal with his parents) Yeah, so in a couple days, I'm probably getting sent to this treatment center 2 hours away bcux my cutting and smoking and suicidal thoughts have gotten so bad, that's all I fucking think about nowadays... it's bullshit. I hate life..