#bc the genshin fandom still scares me

[anotherferalrat]

Is it just me or like...

No one knows what to do with Diluc

So he's like shipped with everyone?

[thatdeadaquarius]

Heyo, Idk if you still do sagau but I hope you do 🙏🙏 anyway, this is lowkey wholesome but imagine one of acolytes were trying to communicate with a child but then they realize the child is deaf but reader so happened to be nearby. So then, whatever the character is saying the reader translates into sign language and its just a wholesome sight to see. Btw srry if this isn't what you usually write 😓 add anything to this if you want

OH NO THIS IS EXACTLY ALL THAT I WRITE RN ANON DW MY LOVE 😍

(*update: im so stupid i thought ur sunglasses pfp was a anon and didnt look any closer💀i aint livin this one down)

(Spoiler: i do plan to do imagines for other fandoms bc i have such niche AUs or ideas for them, a lot like this whole language stuff for Genshin Sagau :D )

IVE WANTED TO LEARN ASL FOR SO LONG BUT I HAVENT GOTTEN THE CHANCEEE theres no classes for it where i live ;/

THAT IS TO SAY I LIVEEE FOR COMMUNICATION STUFFFFF

Also srry its kinda short i just could only think of this cute little scenario- 😗

Rest in peace bc i have a whole fat post i wanna make about neurodivergence + general accessibility issues in Teyvat and their countries

Like where r the ramps babe

Where r the non-narrow ass doors

Why r we just constantly made to hike up mountains when we dont have to

And dont come at me with that,

"Theyre in their medieval age! They cant make stuff like that!"

Yeah, u right, they cant.

If they dont be ✨️creative ✨️and they dont use their fucking ✨️magic ✨️

Liyue got floating rocks and they cant make a goddamn disability elevator?? Bitch tf?

THAT IS TO SAY IN A VERY RANTING COUGHPASSIVE AGGRESSIVE AT GENSHIN COMMUNITY FOR NOT REPPING DISABILITIES MORECOUGH

WAY OF SAYINGGGG

Literally almost no one gets sign language in Teyvat

(despite the fact that in my perfect teyvat, sign lang. is superior bc everyone could make it the universal lang. ESP if we go by the cool AU of diff countries have diff languages, like Germanish lang for Mondstadt, Frenchish for Fontaine, etc.)

Off topic again srry-

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But you took a class once!! Or even checked out the alphabet and casual convo on ur own time :D

So u just chillin with Kazuha, Thoma, Sara, Gorou, and Kokomi (they vistin the main island to see u!! :] )

Meanwhile a little girl is walking around nearby, and is kinda going in circles

Almost like shes scared to go too far one way or the other,

So being the caring soul he is, (rlly all these boys here rn would notice and help lol)

Thoma comes up to her and squats down trying to talk to her :)

...

Yeah, she didn't say anything, just kinda,,

Motioned with her hands??

She looks like shes doing some kind of code to them..

Oh!

Thoma finally recognized this, its that hand language!! lmao hes got the spirit

so he asks Kazuha to try and see if he knows it or can even figure it out-

Nope. Nada de nada.

Then Kokomi, Sara and Gorou (whos a sweatin nervous mess he doesnt know how to act around kids esp kids in distress he seems like the type lol)

They all fail, Kokomi looks concerned bc she thinks the kids lost, but there no frantic parents nearby, Sara is trying to slowly understand what motions mean what i.e. points to a rock = learn sign from child etc,

Kazuha is trying to get the wind to help locate upset guardians nearby, and Gorou...

... is just 🧍‍♂️

LMAOOO

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So after a minute of this (bc u had originally been away at a street food vender, hey those dango were rlly good dont judge urself)

U come back, and see this mild flavor of chaos-

And are just like

"Oh ffs- just shoo, i got it guys"

And just, slowly, go thru some signs with the little girl to get the keywords at least

She lights up and is like bouncing, she goes hella fast at first but slows down when she gets ur hearing

Either way, she looks a lot happier now

U explain for her to the others to confirm her parents got seperated from her

She got lost and where she last saw them

u finally help escort her to the street she last saw her parents on :] !!

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Meanwhile the whole allogene group, shopkeepers, and Inazumans around you:

😦😯🥰🥺💓💞💘💖

Kokomi is holding back a squeal, shes gotta keep up her image, ahem-

Sara is like,, minutely vibrating?? Lmao

Kazuha is watching u like a fireworks show, intensely and yet fascinated

GOROU'S TAIL IS KINDA WAGGINGGG AW LOL

And Thoma just looks like a puddle of affection, just absolutely melted (he loves kids + he secretly loves you = dead Thoma)

Other people look weirdly, proud? Like theyre like "yeah thats our god, fuck yeah, knowing diff languages, go off, Your Grace 💅 " LMAO SORRY COULDNT RESIST and also some fascination

♡

Anyway, 2 very stressed looking dads see yall and the girl and one of them run up to hold each other

She starts rapidly signing, explaining to her dads the adventure she had and the cool people she met <3

The dads look at u and r like 🤔😶😱 "YOUR MAJESTY??!!" (VIGOROUS HAND MOTIONS)

They sign like,

"We're terribly sorry about you seeing us like this, we usually are much more together than this, a crowd just swept her off, its very busy today. Thank you so much for helping our girl, my Lord!! 😭😭"

Theyre like almost crying, oh geez, u reassure them and sign back that it happens to any parent at some point and that is matters more that they tried to get her back :]

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Meanwhile the rest of the group and the citizens are just watching yall like its the most amazing Olympic level tennis match in the world LMAO

Heads all in sync, watchin yall like 👋👍🙏LMAO IM SORRY

AW IT SUCKS ABOUT WRITING BC I CANT RLLY DEPICT SIGN LANGUAGE AS COOL AS I CAN IN COMICS OR THRU ART

THE EMOJI HANDS NEED SIGN LANGUAGE DAMMIT-

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🎵 Hi, it's me. I'm the problem, it's me. 🎵

That is to say none of yalls asks r eaten up, at least im pretty sure? Dw abt it im chugging along having the time of my life hehe >:)

Yall are fEEDIN ME TONIGHT!!

Hope yall r having a good weekend and have no hw if ur in school, or i hope ur shift goes good tomorrow! :]

Love yall!!

Cheers,

🌒🌧🌊Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

♡the beloveds♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist

[mediocre-noodle]

OKAY SO: headcanons

these can get kinda dark/angsty. seriously. however, its all discussional and only mentioned.

tw: suicidal thoughts/actions, mentioned suicides, mentioned depersonalization/derealization, mentioned self-sacrifices, “implied” depression (its canon atp—bc it is), spiraling, lack of preservation/being reckless due to suicidal thoughts (mentioned)

dont worry about the TWs aha— most of the time, he is fine. he is healing. he will get his happy not-ending. oh, why didnt i say ending? his existence won’t end… :]

remember how i said i made dallas in the middle of mcu hyperfix? i have mcu specific headcanons/interactions. not a lot but. yk. i also have a folder for “various multiverses” which is just fandoms + DSU (Dallas Striker Universe) i havent done a lot of expanding on

ANYWAYS ONTO THE HEADCANONS ->

bc of the differing time systems in each universe, dallas often asks for the date.

“—no, i knows its thursday, what’s the DATE. cool, cool— and the year?? we’re in 2018??!! holy shit, y’all are behind.” (context: mcu)

because dallas travels the multiverse, dallas IS aware of our earth. its called ‘the core’ (core universe) for short— needs a real universe name system. but this means theyre also aware that they are a character made by me. they think its cool but also existential crisis?? (they are kinda fond of me. i know i made it that way shhh i just want a brother figure)

dallas often has issues telling whats real

like MAJOR derealization and depersonalization issues/episodes. will breakdown, dissociate, have panic attack, etc

he often sacrifices himself or takes the blow or someone else because he knows he won’t die. it traumatizes everyone else though.

examples: (MCU) the snap so tony wouldn’t die (idk enough about natasha or bruce), (HTTYD) getting between toothless and hiccup faster so stoic didn’t die, taking bullets/blows/spells/etc.

when dallas’ body dies, it fades into particles like in genshin (without the weird falling thing) but hes still there. it can materialize again if dallas wants or not. if dallas exhausted himself too much , itll take a bit longer. most of the time, it takes maybe a min (because dallas normally dies during fights so he has to get back to help faster)

after his respawn, people will notice something… off about his body though. did he always have that scar? why are his eyes so bright?? why is his skin slightly glowing? the light around his head oddly looks like a halo if you focus.. huh. (other times, dallas might come back in full ascended form, 6 wings and covered in Eyes, fuckin cryptid bitch. scares the crap outta people who don’t expect the unexpected.)

teleport mechanic looks like black swan (hsr) except taht its gold and not wind(anemo) colored

yes dallas can shape shift yes dallas can sound like hatsune miku and mickey mouse and copy other peoples (and animals) voices PERFECTLY because he can physically change his larynx/voice box

recites memes in the exact way the original is

makes cosplays easier. and pranks.

imagine its pitch black and all you hear is: *dish shatters* *in the voice of shaggy* sHIT—

“*spongebob meme voice* 3 hours later” “oh, for fucks sake, dallas—“

gets sleep-deprived easy. cannot pull all-nighters— will kill someone. /hj

says odd shit when tired.

they say odd shit anyways but it gets worse/no filter when tired

dallas knows every language bc he’s old (multi-dimensional being. a cryptid.)

also interacting with the worlds They watch isnt common btw. dallas is just lonely. he has seraphina and aji but he wants to help the eyeless.

like you See everything!! congrats! you know how that mother cried for her son after he died and that dog whining in the shelter and that family on the streets and the party being thrown in this house and that kid is being adopted and theres another corrupt government and more human experimentation and look at that, capitalism is ruining this world too-

it gets to be too much sometimes. so he tries to fix things. it wont fix that world’s original timeline, but at least it’s something.

in the first few decades after his death when dallas’ mental health was fucking terrible— err The Worst ig bc he had to accept that he was dead and most his friends are basically dead or that he’d never get to see them again— he did attempt to take his life several times. it never worked because he physically cannot die (aka Stay Dead).

and whenever dallas hits a rough spot, he tends to get even more reckless and self-sacrificial than normal. (hes pretty reckless to begin w bc he cant die. better him than someone else, right?)

he acts happy and energetic, but he feels stuck in a never-ending spiral of Nothing and Everything. doing his job to guide the multiverse is hard when each universe is Fucked Up. he’s tired.

again again again and again do it again do it again /lyr / over and over and over and over and over and over /lyr

fun fact: i decided to give him peace so the first universe he went into after Ascending is Hermitcraft. its peaceful. he got a lot of healing done there. he visits often.

dallas striker is such a sad character dude WHY DO YOU DO THISSSSSSS

i mean at least hes getting better!!! he is healing!!!!

also the sleep thing is so real hes literally me

[alias-mike]

thanks @spiritcaesar for tagging me in "list five topics you can talk about for an hour without preparing any material"!!

genshin impact fanfiction. this might be too broad but im gonna count it bc i have read so many good fics that have changed my brain chemistry and i will dissect every single one of them for you

dream smp. unfortunately. tbh this would just be reminicsing about the fun ive had in like 2020-2022 in the fandom. the hype, the lore, the fan reactions. i would probably also go on a technoblade tangent

nine aetharia. i got into their music in 2019 because of the good omens fandom and have stuck with their channel ever since. i know every song they have posted there since then, including deleted videos and changed lyrics. ive analyzed every song and know as much lore about them and the behind the scenes stuff as possible. honestly i should probably calm down bc this is almost getting stalkerish but im kind and respectful and too scared to talk to the creator so its. probably fine ahahaha

cytus 2 but not the whole thing. like i can tell you random character facts but forget whole chunks of the actual story. i still remember enough lore to talk for an hour tho

LOLITA FASHION. HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT THIS UNTIL NOW. i will explain everything and just. go off about different outfits people have put together. and ones i want to make. and different brand releases and my thoughts and opinions about them. someone please let me talk about lolita for an hour uninterrupted

honourable mention goes to fear and hunger, i like it a lot but dont know enough lore/havent played it enough (im bad at the game) to confidently talk about it for so long. same goes for honkai lore, ive only played honkai 3rd up to thus spoke apocalypse before getting busy and losing interest (just from not playing it for a while). i would probably still be able to talk abt them for a while tho lol

anyone who sees this is free to do it as well !!!!

[aeryssickfics]

me, realizing I'm caught up on genshin and can finally wander amvs without fear only to Immediately stumble upon a pair of Utterly devastating diluc & kaeya animatics, waiting to bash my knees in.

yeah this is the fandom experience I was expecting. there's also an animation floating around that I reblogged on One of my blogs that is the night kaeya got his vision and im ;~; again over it now that I have more complete context (bc I read the manga). Screaming, sobbing, etc.

the genshin fandom still kinda scares me but you guys (affectionate) have been wonderful to nestle in next to.

(i'm still writing this tighnari & collei & cyno thing but im trying to figure out how old Collei is and realizing im gonna have to wing it- it's fine. we're 2k in. I'm having the time of my life, etc. torturing Tighnari Feels different than torturing Diluc & Kaeya and its Pretty interesting because I'm currently going idk if ive got the right voice but Damn is ti fun to play with)

[eomma-jpeg]

[20 Question Fic Writer Game]

How many works do you have on AO3?

Fifteen ! which is wild

What is your AO3 word count?

Oh gosh,,,,,, 229,582 words... holy frick dude what is wrong with me

What fandoms do you write for?

Trigun mostly but on AO3 i do have a single bnha fic and a fullmetal fic. I have some other fullmetal fics saved but i havent been as inspired to write for them lol

What are your top five fics by kudos?

in the meadow - 256

an account of past kisses - 185

vinyl and an alleyway niche - 97

it’s not what it looks like - 91

learning to take breaks - 86

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I absolutely try to respond to every comment. Some get past me or some i feel like my answer would just be really repetitive so i hold off,,,, but i really love seeing comments and responding so that people know that i saw their comment !!!

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Okay so all my fics are super sweet bc i have a hard time ending things on a dour note lol

I like fix it fics !!!

But i do have a wip in the works that will be hurt/no comfort and that will quickly become my fic with the angstiest ending 

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably in the meadow. Everyone is crying and in love and its the cheesiest ending ever but i love and adore it because who doesn’t love a little cheese !!!!!!

Do you get hate on fics?

Not yet lol. Im not popular enough for the haters to come attacking. I just have my small and valuable army of supporters WHO I ADORE

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No i don’t particularly enjoy smut in general. I will on occasion write a steamy makeout but i don’t do smut

Do you write crossovers?

I would enjoy writing crossovers because im a big au fan. I got @veilder to rant to me last night about a trigun x genshin idea and it made me excited bc i like when veil info dumps (i love when anyone info dumps,,, IF YOU HAVE MILLYNAI THOUGHTS PLEASE SEND THEM TO ME) 

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that i know of, and if i did it would have been an old one

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No but that would be super fun

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

Not officially published, but i am co writing with someone right now >:3

I also do a lot of brainstorming and collaborating with people to make my stories and influence others, but those arent particularly co writing

What's your all-time favourite ship?

Vashmeryl and millynai have risen SO HIGH ON MY LIST

Honestly Millynai is my favorite, but Royai will forever remain and all time favorite ship (and tenrose WHOOPS)

What's a WIP you'd like to finish but doubt you ever will?

Hrmmm i have a razmeryl wip i really want to finish but i don’t know when ill have the time to dedicate my brain to their Insane Dynamic

What are your writing strengths?

I think i write with a good flow. Its not so choppy (at least not anymore lol) and it keeps anyone whos reading engaged enough to keep going.

And i appeal to emotion and yall love that dont you

What are your writing weaknesses?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm i have many

Im repetitive? I use the same words and phrases over and over,,,, and im predictable in how characters act bc i often project myself into them,,, meaning i use myself as a reference and i try not to but it helps make it real in my mind

I often outline too much and scare myself out of actually writing lol

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I would certainly try,,, but the only language im really semi-qualified to translate into is American Sign Language (which i would love to do, we are severely lacking in deaf characters)

First fandom you wrote for?

Doctor Who baby !!! my fic is still out there floating in the void that is wattpad

Favourite fic you've ever written?

in the meadow,,,, hands down. Please if you havent read it i would love if you would.... Its quite fun and has redemption and character exploration and kiss scenes and yearning and pining and denial and its a slowburn sooooooooo you can waste a lot of time with it hehe

ty @frappeflamingo for tagging me !!! i needed something fun to do

im gonna tag @veilder and @noaafishfieldguide bc im mean <3

[zhongrin]

tbh I'm not sure if rambling/ranting abt characters you enjoy is allowed in this blog but man I still think abt how I got Kazuha on my NA/America acc last year

Like every time I see him on my acc and fanart of him w/ the other boys I am always, ALWAYS reminded of how he decided "oh lol I'm coming home at like the second 10 pull with your primos :)"

And honestly it was during his debut so i cannot tell you the feeling I had when I see that golden light just BARRELING and the ugly yell I let out because I??? Got my ronin boy???? Against 50/50???

I swear I'm not delusional but God I want to rant sm abt him because it was also during the first archipelago event and he hasn't left my team since then ;v; I genuinely owe him a LOT for helping my now (sort of) built team and every day I just go "damn, I wouldn't be having an easier time traveling without you on my party"

I don't know man, I may sound extremely delusional ranting abt my favorite anemo boy that has so much trauma on his shoulders that he's resolved during the events + story quests but he's so precious, it makes my heart soar. I would rant more of what I want to do to him (all sfw of course, I'm too embarrassed to rant abt NSFW online ahisbsidjd), but this could take ages and I don't wanna swamp your inbox ;v;

Anyway, rant over, I just want to talk abt my first encounter with Kazu and how he decides that day of all days to come home despite me not being extremely close to pity (and hasn't left my party since)

(p.s: I really love your blog and your works!! I have so much saved and liked because I love rereading it on my off time— you were an inspo on my own writing blog that's based on a different fandom and I love your interactions w/ other people jajsbsjsb /pos /gen. I don't usually come and send an ask because I'm scared of coming across as too forward or even as too creepy ;v;

also, it's because as much as I like checking other people's works like Ansy's, yours just has a special place in my heart and I love rereading your fics when I found them. I am biased on Kazu and Xiao but the way you write others has me clutching my chest like "gods I'm going to love them and I don't like the thought of it but ough—" wwwwww

Also, as an additional note, I did migrate from Ansy's which was the Ayato one...? because I saw one of the posts w/ you and decided to hop in wwwww, anyways side tangent here over ty for reading my full confession /exag)

— 🌸🍒

it's VERY MUCH ALLOWED!!! tell me all about your faves!! tell me about your f/os if you have them!! tell me about the mundane things you and your f/o does!!! literally go ham, bc rex lapis knows i am gushing every day every second 24/7 about zhongli (and al haitham, but mostly zhongli) so ofc yall get the same privilege lol

hsldkjflsdf lucky!! i had to spend some $ on kazuha on his second rerun(?) i believe, because i was not yet into genshin when he came out! he's SO good at both combat and exploration, i totally agree. makes it SO much easier to gather the drops too!!

mr./ms./mx. cherryblossom nonnie, i would like to let you know that you're always welcome to drop a whole-ass essay (both sfw or n.sfw) on your beloved anemo boy if you want to. i might not always reply to it immediately but i promise you i will eventually. you wouldn't swamp my inbox or anything, it's fine!! i never feel pressured to answer asks and i know my followers don't expect me to do so immediately!!

ps. i'm literally gonna cry /pos that's??? so sweet??? i'm super glad you're having fun reading my silly writings and the interactions with my friends <3 definitely not creepy at all! i love receiving asks and talking with people!!

SO YOU'RE THE SAME PERSON AAAA i actually considered asking you bc i saw you on ansy's blog and i went 👀 could it be??? but i decided not to just in case bc i don't want to confuse people if it turns out my hunch was wrong lol BUT ANYWAY WELCOME!!! i hope you'll enjoy your stay here... mayhaps we can secretly fangirl over ansy's amazing works hehehehe

[frenchbreads-writing]

Mayhaps confining myself to mostly bnha has been detrimental for my creative juices ngl since I haven’t really branched out and been able to immerse myself in more than one fandom

I know I said a while ago that I would do it and even added more fandoms but we all know that I haven’t actually done anything to reinforce that decision

Don’t get me wrong I still love bnha and it’s characters but I’ve been feeling burnt out since the majority of my content is bnha and it’s all I’ve written for for the past 3 years that’s why I decided to go on hiatus

But recently I’ve been finding other things that spark joy in my writing brain like hades, cod, and genshin and I found that I really enjoy them

I love and will always love bnha but I rly have to get out there and not be scared to post other stuff even if they wont get as much attention bc like I’ve said for years

This is my account and I literally don’t care what anyone thinks

But it would be so kooky crazy if I came back and started writing again

— French

[pinkseas]

naur but everytime i word vomit into ur inbox i literally cant remember 70% of it than the core details and the ones you answered the next day so it's kinna funny i wish tumblr lets me save my anon asks than eating it up cus i ain't drafting it like ANYWAY TO UR BESTIE THAT MENTIONED US >> I LOVE GOING INSANE WITH ALY PINKSEAS TOO ur friends are so real!!!!!!! youre insane are you single IS SUCH A FUNNY ASS LINE I WISH I WAS HIT BY IT AND I'D SAY YEA WHAT ABOUT IT

"twitter scares me so bad" as you should it's a shithole for genshin altogether with discourse and mischaracterization and you'd literally cannot stop seeing any of them once you get genshin in ur algorithm and yknow what i realized my only Best fandom experience came from tumblr with undertale Despite its discourses bc its got effective filters and the people are genuinely Good so now i'm thinking of yeeting outta twt and spectating my way here like last time (i am already doing it)

"if i read soulmates it has to be done Right [...] they can’t depend on one another they cant need one another they have to Want. they have to Choose" LIKE NO YEAH THIS IS SO TRUE SO REAL THIS IS WHAT BUGS ME ON SOULMATE AUS when it's almost not by choice and they have to work on accepting it like they're forced into needing it's like,.. a very complicated method here in changing their minds toward the other person Because of the cursed bestowed on them- the point of Choice is so fucking important to me especially when it comes to xiao specifically bc in my rendition of his he's unfamiliar with such things for a long time,.. and even in canon he's a lil troubled about deciding things for himself in the presence of higher beings until he's allowed to IT JUST HURTS HE LOST HIS FREE WILL AND THEN UR SOUL BOUND LIKE WHAT (AND FR specific soulmate tropes where the two ARE given the choice for it are. acceptable 2 me)

"lumine handling intensity well and being much better at identifying her emotions suits her SO well imo" yeah like yea!!EVERYTHING ABT THIS and i think it follows up all the traveler's sass in-game bc she's so fuckin hilarious for delivering lines super well despite having Less lines cus aside paimon taking over the talking she does have her moments and i lov her for it I DO WISH THEY HAVE HER TALK MORE EVEN WITH THE USUAL TEXT CHOOSING i just want her sick ass lines conversing

FKSDFHJSKDFJ ENDEARING IS SUCH A GODLIKE WORD TO ME I WILL KEEP USING IT FOR XIAO EVER its the way you can use it like. subtlely. a lil hidden a lil not Much about his cuteness without explicitly calling him cute its Big Word for the small boy!!!!

your thoughts on qpr makes me feel so much better abt thinking this way bout r/s like YEAH its all abt communication and open with boundaries and there really is something stifling about established r/s BUT IT'S COMPLETELY FINE FOR THOSE WHO PREFER THAT ANYHOW!!

AND YES SO MUCH ON LUMINE AND XIAO'S SHOW OF ATTRACTION TO EACH OTHER i wudnt even call it attraction i think anything that indicates a romantic tension between them is something i'm not gonna entertain like 'craving' or 'desire' (this word in particular is used very specific) and stuff like that, and it's a big fact that lumine's attachment feels like its the same to everyone Except aether,... even after she discovers his abyss persona she still begs for them to go back home too. it's unbeatable even to xiao, or at least, xiao has a different treatment to kindness for being so Similar to her (breaks down) "i feel like seeing each other constantly would be a detriment i think it’d make them both feel really weird." like RIGHT????? IT JUST FEELS OFF THIS WAY and it's not a good portrayal of xiao's desperation not wanting to lose someone else anymore. but even then, idt he shows that notion much or at all than his self-sacrifice tendencies, which is an entirely different topic. this thing about xiao's attachments and morals is a complicated thing to tackle altogether...;;,,

"no bc i characterize lumine as LOVING nature so bad" and u are absolute fucking RIGHT to think that, and for me she just likes exploring in general and is a bit of a reckless daredevil so long she has her glider and its the only condition. its stupid it's silly BUT IT MAKES SENSE shes just a constant headache to xiao in looking after her testing through the terrain but /pos

"i am So Grateful to you for sharing your thoughts i am so giddy over us being on such similar wavelengths" AND ME TO YOU TOO IT'S BEEN SO GOOD TO JUST SPILL EVERYTHING I HAVE IN MIND and get comfortable even on stuff im shy to reveal on unpublished asks cus ur reactions even if not agreeing there's still some reassurance anyway and i dont mind that or feel rejected at all when 98% others is what we just. have connected brains on KDJFHSDKJFH AND JEEZ I RLLY DO CAN'T HELP MYSELF WHEN THE BRAINWORMS INVADE WHEN I REPLY UR RESPONSES TOO it takes over my fingers like a parasite i gratefully let em

and ouuouh ur interpretation of the two's development starting in inazuma is so sweet and it makes sense bc of how dangerous the region is bc in my silly lil bran it made sense to have it After the chasm since it's the quests centering his arc AND I STILL CANT BELIEVE HE HAS HIS OWN ARCHON INTERLUDE,.. this made me loving all the peeps of the chasm gang too and i wish they did Something after the quest ended like UEUEUE TRAUMA SHARING SESSION FOR PPL WHO ONLY MET FOR 3 DAYS LETS GO

so like i start from sumeru bc of the points bc of this and bc i love slow development So Much im practically immune to slowburn did u know. all those fics do Not affect me even if i reach its 30th chapter of them being reluctant to opening up. ""zhongli encouraging him to take more time to himself, lumine taking him on little trips guiding him out more and more and more often" is THE CONCEPT EVER YOU HAVE ZHONGLI INVOLVED idk if you dig this but parental zhongli has me on the floor so id like to think he's another important figure in xiao's life aside lumine too he's just that warm hand on his back encouraging Out of his comfort zone and obligations and lumine's the hand that pulls him Along to see the new things of the world. like zhongli is such a dad,.... doing dad things a grandpa to liyue but i also cant help but have him having an attachment to xiao knowing they share a life even as a master-subordinate r/s (cus in my interpretation zhongli never felt that way than thinking he just wants xiao to Live, too,.. sobbing crying shitting)

"taking baby steps in leaving that part of his life, never quite letting go but letting the ties that hold him to liyue loosen, never forgetting his contract and his duty but understanding that there’s no longer an obligation to fulfill it, that he does it out of his own wish instead. i just. idk. idk !!!!!! at the core of it i think im obsessed with them learning how to live again and doing it together" i got no words. i ran out of brain fuel but my body is convulsing folding in on itself liek MY LIEGE YOU ARE!!!!! U R SO,........ LIKE OSBFGKJFGHDKJGH YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA this is THE XIAOLUMI AND METHINKS,....... THE XIAO ARC IN ENTIRETY AS WELL CUS I BELIEVE IN HIS INDEPENDENCY (with a little help and support from ppl who cares bout him) i just akjdhaskejjksfhsdfkjhdsjfhkjdsbvadhvbjhkv

using a read more thingy just for the sake of anyone on mobile

NOT REMEMBERING ASKS IS SO REAL i forget what i say so often even when i Can go back and check how the fuck am i supposed to know what ive said when i Can't

MY BESTIE THAT MENTIONED US >>> SO REAL i think its been more than a few at this point actually which is very funny to me. shan if ur reading this i am holding u so close to me in my little arms. youre insane are you single is the best line ever especially when you are Dating The Person Who Says It my response every time is "no but i could be😏" i find myself far too funny its awful

we are Shaking Hands in terms of being on tumblr experiencing the undertale fandom that's so real of us undertale was the reason i got a tumblr in the first place all those years ago... you should ABSOLUTELY spectate here i literally never see anything i don't want to see i live in my perfect little echo chamber it's so <333

"even in canon he's a lil troubled about deciding things for himself in the presence of higher beings until he's allowed to" GODDD YEAH YEAH YEAH YEA H YEAH YEAHY HEA YEAH !!!!!!!!!!!!! do NOT force this boy into situations he does that enough by himself thank you very much

"even after she discovers his abyss persona she still begs for them to go back home" no bc its just. On Another Level Genuinely. they've been traveling together with no one but each other with god knows how long especially depending on personal headcanons, they're used to going through entire worlds and moving on theyre used to not getting super attached !!! its a little different in teyvat i think because theyve lost most of their power and they're trapped and alone for the foreseeable future but. that still doesnt change the past and their habits yknow ?? its something i try REALLY hard not to think about actually because (with the exception of a very specific au which i am currently writing for) unless they're just. trapped on teyvat Forever i CANNOT imagine lumine staying there once she has the ability to leave and i CANNOT imagine xiao ever leaving. it makes me So Sad genuinely i simply refuse to acknowledge its existence

"xiao's attachments and morals is a complicated thing to tackle altogether" SO REAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM SO GLAD U THINK IM RIGHT ABT THE NATURE LOVING it just feels right tbh and "shes just a constant headache to xiao in looking after her testing through the terrain but /pos" also so real <33333333 lumine and her silly little glider. god. i love them both so bad

i do like to think of the chasm as post-inazuma but thats because in my head w/ their development inazuma is like. The Next Step almost, where they're close enough in liyue but the fact that they continue to be close even once lumine has left really hits. and then they've been a bit closer and become familiar with one another in quite a few ways by the time the chasm happens and then i get super self indulgent with the chasm because i am so silly like that <3333 in terms of slowburn and the way you've described their growing closeness it does make SO much sense to swap it tbh i love the thought of the chasm being like the start of things and the way that'd bring them closer before inazuma and. mfgnmhfnmf god. GOD.

"i wish they did Something after the quest ended" no bc in my little brain they get together once every month or two just to have a meal together and talk and keep up with each other they are Friends Now

"parental zhongli has me on the floor so id like to think he's another important figure in xiao's life aside lumine too he's just that warm hand on his back encouraging Out of his comfort zone and obligations and lumine's the hand that pulls him Along to see the new things of the world" this is the most perfect accurate thing i have read in my entire life for starters i LOVE parental zhongli like. idk not FULL parental not too much but def him being a more parental figure in xiao's life especially compared to other interpretations of their dynamic i just. god. it is So Important to me that zhongli cares for him and looks after him just in those little ways. the warm encouraging hand on his back vs the hand pulling him along is PERFECT thats such a fucking amazing way of putting it i love everything abotu that the image is so clear in my head

o(-(

^^^ me dead on the floor thinking about zhongli and lumine being such important figures in xiao's life... i like to think that a Lot of the characters in liyue are important to him in different, small little ways i just don't know their characters well enough to fully describe how but like. idk baizhu qiqi yanfei ganyu yknow ?? i know next to nothing about yanfei but i might have to try and write her for this honestly we'll see how it goes but i REALLY want there to be at least one character other than the few i have now who he ends up talking to even if its just smth rly simple... if nothing else the chasm crew is getting an honorable mention on god

idk i just. xiao has done so much for liyue for so long i really love to think of those very few who know him trying to do little supporting things for him, too it's so important to me

okay and now !!!

i am also gonna answer the Other Ask but without publishing it naturally it will simply live comfy cozy in my inbox <333

THAT ONE SHIP "it mischaracterizes Both characters in the pair altogether for the sake of romance" you're so real for this idk i dont MIND seeing it but it has never felt in character to me and i feel like this describes exactly why ?? idk maybe its just the xiaolumi brainworms eating away at me but like. i Get It

what you said about like. your personal hcs for him in regards to that trauma and how he processes it that is SO fucking valid, i def understand getting anxious about certain self-indulgent hcs im the same way both with the sillier ones and heavier ones but i can promise you that if nothing else i will Never judge you for even the most self indulgent ridiculous shit EVER. like the way you described it all is so valid and so easy to picture and a really good way to interpret/believe he'd deal with everything but even if you were to have the most ooc headcanon or anything ever just for fun just for the sake of it i simply would never judge having fun is the Most Important with these things im so srs

we have diff interpretations of how he'd deal with things like the yaksha's deaths and zhongli dying but i think a lot of the points we both have are still pretty similar, ESPECIALLY with him not knowing how to handle it and ESPECIALLY especially with the shock factor. the way i write him or would write his reaction to that would definitely be him just sort of Shutting Down emotionally because its too much and too overwhelming and so he kicks into like. i cant call it work mode its not really a job. but he fully focuses on fighting and finding out who couldve killed rex lapis and like. he turns his attention to things that are familiar and easier to deal with and he buries himself in them the way one would bury themselves in their work to ignore emotions yknow? and then there'd be the shock factor of "oh he Is alive" and then there's this massive pit of grief with nowhere to go because logically, reasonably, rex lapis is alive, there's nothing left to grieve. he shouldn't still be upset <- man who refuses to let himself process and feel his emotions when the emotions dont stop existing just bc he ignores them

that being said that's definitely a Pattern With Me Specifically like in the barbara fic ive been working its built off of canon but i take it SO far just bc i can :sob: and i enjoy it way too much to want to Not do that yknow? girls who struggle to process and Actually Feel their emotions writing characters strugglign to process and Actually Feel their emotions so that she can process and feel them vicariously through them <3 or something along those lines idk at this point its less that and more "wow this is really fun to write and its smth im familiar with so its easier to write as well"

my cat meowed and i stepped away for like 2 seconds to pet her and immediately lost every train of thought ive ever had in my life hopefully i wasnt gonna say anything else LMAO but no yeah self indulgent hcs and ways of interpreting characters >>>>>>>

i keep reading and rereading the way you described xiao's response to grief i am OBSESSED its so easy to imagine its so easy to see like oh my god. ohhhh my god. based as hell it suits him so well

i cannot think of anythign else to say back to the trenches i go <- finding scenes where i started in the middle or left out the endings and filling those parts in now that i dont know what else to write. its been really nice actually ive gotten a lot done just with that LMAO

[kyaruun]

Since when did the graphics suck they're literally so cute

This one is literally embedded in my mind like I ASSOCIATE this with you

It isssss literally so cute but your other graphics are also so cute wthhhhhhh

Buuut I can do some tutorials on things you wanna know that I can do? I've been wanting to make a tutorial for a while now actually

. Me too like I don't have a schedule and while I write on a "rotation", I spend so muxh time and energy on irl things that I don't get much time to write. I literally haven't gotten through my reqs from last August. Rip my 800 event from. Before then??? Cannot even keep track it's been like a year

My follow count is only that high bcs I wrote for haikyuu (in 2020 its peak) then I joined the genshin bus kinda early (?) Which is still huge and I wrote misc fics for whatever else, and it was also my edit blog??? And now I'm here shitposting so I got followers from like lots of places

The way yours is in the 700s and a loooot older than mine pls I'm also in the 700s in nazukisser.... insanity

Well personally i love your leo so I think that it should happen because you deserve it. And writing a series.... yes.... smaus are so fun I have domicile on nazukisser for reference if you want it and my fav smau ever is club stupid by tumblr user kodzuvii highly recommend I just become a redhead kita's cousin and tendou's best friend number 1 miracle girl and down bad for suna rintarou whenever I read it.

WAAAA I can't wait to see your revamp !!! Thank you.. I always try to have some sort of match (character/color/style) all throughout!! If you need help/opinions/etc lmk!!!

Right like what happened . We were thriving. Then we boomed for a second and died. Like I see the nazuna x reader tag and ME AND KAZE ARE THE ONLY ONES like bruh? And my fics have been flopping tho it seems everyone's have been flopping too

Yeah the only thing keeping me tied down here is the server..... it's like my lifetime... come back we miss you

I MISS NURI TOO... bee has arknights now....I miss.... and runanananna....... ate swanee's writing.... SHE DOES THAT TO US TOO not that I hate it but she drops like a couple of lines in snippets and dips and I'm like *SCREEEECHES*

If you come back to my server we welcome you back we miss you :(((

I can only be grateful that some of us are left tho.... i7 is so dead and e7 LMFAO??? I was legit the only one it was so darned sad

THAT'S THE ONLY ONE I LIKE!! i love watching vids about journaling and that kind of thing and they make the cutest decorated polaroids so i wanted to do something like that but very cutesy themed,, spring made me think of picnics so gingham <3 i actually played around with a few similar concepts like polaroid + random stickers and i planned to make banners with that but uuuu there are so many characters,, can't keep my focus for too long. i think they came out cute but it's probably too late to use them </3

i always wonder about what do people use to edit their pics because i was born a ps girlie and i still don't know how to use ps properly oops making your themes look nice and cohesive,, those cute pinned etc etc people who edit icons and make them look super aesthetic

i think i never tried to promote my blog because followers don't feel like an integral part of the process for me. i just write what comes to mind and share it with the world: if people like it i'm absolutely delighted and if they don't well,, at the end of the day most of my writing has been fun for me ^^ like come on i've written things that are silly and self indulgent and they worked fine and i'm here like. wow

i have considered writing for more series but the thing is the media i like has a fandom of like. 2.5 people on the good days. so it really doesn't make too much sense to even try that <.< genshin fandom scares tf out of me so i'll keep my extra fluffy albedo thoughts to myself. the bazillion "childe being a dumbass in love" posts. kazuha writing poetry. oops. getting flashbacks to the time i almost made a hypmic blog but i stopped myself at the last second out of embarrassment

i'm torn on whether a) people just aren't interested in that kind of content anymore (no way) or b) people DO read our stuff, they simply don't interact. not even a like. the migration of people from other social media into tumblr,, like sorry but i've been here since 2016? and it gets worst for writers every day </3

i have an immense amount of cute enstars thoughts a day and i feel like if i can't share them i will combust (my best friend has to deal with me every day),, it's mostly cute romantic stuff with my favs and my ocs, for obv reasons so i'm like uuuu should i even tell this to someone it's just embarrassing. like only other enstarries could understand why i keep rotating this bunch of dorks around my brain and getting the biggest serotonin boost out of it ueeee

i kind of miss being in a server with other people. i've been feeling very lonely lately due to uni so i think that'd be good for my mental health but at the same time,, i don't want to go back to talking once in a blue moon you know? ooo to be an anxious mess every day of your life.... like i get nervous so easily and i know i'll make someone uncomfortable so i simply keep quiet or i don't know how to join conversations because my social skills are -1. i'm a bit of a mess TT

as a bonus for reading all of this, wips of some of the banners/wallpapers? i was working on the last time. rei was meant to be a light pink/purple ish kind of shade but i don't mind how these came out either ^^ i need to print the cgs as polaroids again

[stopiteatpopcorn]

Hi bestie! Can you write team geo fics (lee itto, with lers zhongli albedo gorou)? I'll mean a lot to me (because this is my dream team)! P.S. but please no foot tickling bcs i'm kinda uncomfortable with that, anyway have a nice day!

MISTER “TOUGH” GUY

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Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: Itto, Zhongli, Albedo, Gorou

⚠️THIS IS A TICKLE FIC SO IF YOU DON’T WANNA SEE THAT, YOU HAVE BEEN RANDO WARNED⚠️

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Zhongli had decided that the geo vision holders should all meet up to get to know each other, especially since Inazuma had recently reopened to the public, making this possible. He set out to the two other nations to find and inform the other geo users of this meet up, asking them to sign a contract of agreement that they would all be present at this event. Of course, they all agreed and the time and place had been set, midday in a field full of flowers in Liyue, as it was between both other nations. He waited patiently and one by one they all arrived. Ningguang and Yun Jin arrived first, already being Liyue residents, followed by Albedo and Noelle. The girls had decided to go off and do their own thing, Yun Jin promising a special performance for them all, while Albedo stayed with Zhongli to wait for others. Soon a particular crimson Oni came running towards them, grinning and waving at them. They both shared small smiles before clearing some space in between themselves for him to sit down.

“Well, I’m glad you’ve finally arrived….Arataki Itto, correct?” Asked the former geo archon.

“Yep you got that right! And you guys are Zhongli and Albedo right?” They both nodded, “Okay great, cool! Also my buddy Gorou is on his way so he should be coming along soon!”

“So that should be everyone when he gets here then. Well it’s a pleasure to meet you Itto, Zhongli and I were just speaking on our elemental abilities. They’re quite fascinating don’t you think?”

“Oh yeah they’re definitely awesome! But my vision doesn’t really do much for me - I mean it lets people know how strong I am and gets me at least a little respect- but I’m still as strong and tough as a rock without thehEhem- Hey!” Itto cut himself off with a loud squeal, quickly snapping his head to the right. He was met with a small smirk from Albedo, so naturally, he glared daggers right back at him.

“What? Did I do something? Judging by the look on your face I’d say it’s quite serious.” Said the Alchemist. He knew exactly what he was doing, and the oni would have called him out, but his pride got the best of him and he decided against it. It would be embarrassing to admit that he, the great crimson Oni, Arataki itto, was ticklish.

“Nonono don’t worry! I just uh….Saw a Fatui agent behind you! But thanks to me and my awesome stare, he got scared and ran away, so it’s all good!” He held his breathe hoping this would shake off the interest of the blonde.

“Oh I see. Well then I’m glad everything is okay, We’ll be sure to stay on alert right zhongli?”

“Of course. We wouldn’t want an enemy ruining our meeting-” The Inazuman interrupted him with a sigh, thankful that he seemed to get away with this little lie. But he didn’t see the shared look the other two gave each other. 

“However I’d say you seem a bit tense…Maybe you should relax yourself.” He finished his sentence, before giving another small poke to the mans other side. Itto jolted and became weary of his predicament, while a small pit of excitement and nervousness formed in his stomach. Not sure weather he wanted to run or try to stay still and take it, he opted to trying to get Zhongli back, poking his side in retaliation. He was shocked to see that he barely reacted and suddenly the idea of revenge was thrown out the window. The oni prepared to get away but had already made the fatal mistake of turning his back to the curious mondstater who latched onto his sides again, poking up and down his sides. He twisted and turned, a small smile beginning to form while trying to desperately keep his squeaky giggles in. 

“Nope you aren’t going anywhere yet, I’d like to test if oni’s have the same sensitivity levels as humans-”

“Wehell tehest it on sohomeone else!”

“But you’re the only Oni I’ve ever met, wouldn’t you wanna help? Of course if you really don’t want this you say the word and I’ll let go!” He stopped his fingers for a moment, not wanting to push the boundaries of his new friend. However he seemed to be quietly thinking, before shyly looking away. 

“Okay….You can test this if you want- But don’t go thinking I’m weak or anything!” Albedo smiled at these words, bringing his fingers back to his friends sides, this time scribbling around to get a better reaction. This seemed to work as Itto suddenly burst into a giggle fit.

“Ehehehehaha!” He let himself relax into the sensations, trying to keep still so he wouldn’t accidentally hurt the smaller man beside him or keep him from his research. In all actuality he didn’t hate this. Zhongli took notice of this, deciding he would also help his friends with said “research”. He began to poke the mans tummy, smiling when he instinctively curled up. 

“NoHOhoho nahat thehehere!”

“Oh? Is this a bad spot?”

“Mahahaybe-”

“Maybe? Well then we might as well test that too if you aren’t sure, but it seems like this is going to get a wild reaction.” He smirked and switched to scribbling in the same area, getting loud laughter in return.

“AHAHAHA NAHAHAHAHA ZHOHONGLIHIHI!” 

“Looks like you were right about that one!” Albedo stated. The archon nodded in agreement, continuing the scribbles. The alchemist hiked his fingers up to Ittos ribs and underarms, getting even louder laughter than before. Soon they heard another voice from behind, turning to be face to face with the final geo user, Gorou. 

“Hey, what are you doing to that oni?!” He had overheard the commotion while on his way to the meeting, and thought something had happened. He was at ease once Zhongli and Albedo introduced themselves and explained what was really going on though, much to Ittos embarrassment.

“To get introductions out of the way, I’m General Gorou and I apologize for the misunderstanding earlier, but that means you must be the other Geo users right? Although I thought there would be more of us...” He was a little disappointed, but Zhongli reassured him,

“Don’t worry there are, the ladies have just decided to go off and do something else together.” He gave a soft smile before moving to let the general sit beside the three of them.

“Oh I see…Well in that case since you’re occupied with testing on my friend here, maybe I can be of help! I mean- I’d say I know him pretty well” He smirked at the gang leader. Now, Gorou normally wouldn’t take part in things like this, but how could he pass up on the opportunity? I mean it isn’t every day that he gets the chance to relax, as well as give Itto a bit of payback for the amount of times he’s been attacked with tickles. He claims to be ‘Arataki the tickle monster Itto’ so it would be nice to knock him down a few pegs, even if he gets him back later.

“Wohoah woah woah- Come on gorou- Buddy- you don’t have to do that! I’m pretty sure they’re done now! Right? Right guys?” The alarms were going off in his head, Gorou knew fully well where his worst spot was and if he broke the news he was doomed. Albedo paused before making his final decision, deciding to humor the general and let him have a go.

“Well….I don’t think we’re entirely done yet. So far we’ve tried his stomach, sides, pretty much his whole upper body. Is there something we’ve missed?” 

“Well there is one place that gets him pretty bad, he just turns into a puddle of laughter when you get him right…”

“Gorou- No-Dohon’t you dahahaHA-EEP-” 

“...Here! Hmm looks like it’s still true.” Itto tried to protest but once again interrupted himself with a squeal when Gorou lightly dragged a finger down one of his horns. The other two men smiled, Albedo being absolutely fascinated. He was intrigued to learn more and Zhongli seemed to speak exactly what the blonde thought.

“So, his horns can also be sensitive to touch and he can feel it all? That’s truly something, I’m sure this is important information for you, if I’m not mistaken Albedo?”

“You took the words right out of my mouth, that really is amazing! So if I do this, can you feel it too?” He raked his nails down the other horn, and was happy to receive the same reaction. 

“YEAHAHA I CAHAN FEHEHELL IHIHIT!” 

“Amazing…Absolutely amazing! I always wondered if a humanoid creatures horns connected to the nerve system, so I guess that helps my theory!” He continued the light scritches, while Gorou traced shapes on the horn still in his hands. Itto wanted to shake them off so bad, but he didn’t wanna accidentally poke an eye out or hurt em by being to rough, so he just sat still again, occasionally flinching on accident though. 

“EHEHEEP-NAHAHA-IHIT TIHIHICKLES-” 

“Well this is what the tests are for so that’s the aim.” Zhongli let out a small laugh at the reactions, watching as to make sure the others don’t go too far. He figured he’d help them a bit though and scribbled at his tummy again. This drove Itto up a wall as his laughter somehow got louder.

“AHAHAHEHEHE NAHAHAT YOU TOHOHOHOO- EEHEHEHEH!” He screamed with laughter as the others continued their attacks for a bit more. Eventually though, it was getting harder for him to form coherent words and soon his laughter turned wheezy and quiet. Zhongli took notice and immediately slowed his fingers, before motioning to Gorou and Albedo that it was time to let up. They both let go of the Onis horns and let him slump to the grass beneath them.

“You alright there Itto? I apologize if went too far and overstepped-” Albedo apologized but thankfully he was completely fine.

“Nahh I’m a-okay, hanks for your concern though bro! Besides I’ll be energized and up again in no time- plus- I still have a bit of payback to hand out!” The relief was short lived, as itto cracked his knuckles and smirked, a playful glint in his eyes. “You all have about a minute, while I gain back my energy. You better be prepared for my vengeance, especially you, mister ‘Doggy general’.’’ 

“Would this be a good time to run?” Asked the Mondstater.

“Yeah uh- EVERY MAN FOR THEMSELVES!” Gorou yelled, before running away, followed quickly by Albedo and the surprisingly calm Zhongli. There was a lot of laughter from the fields that day as the playful Oni retaliated. 

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A/N: OK THIS SHOULD NOT HAVE TAKEN THIS LONG BUT THIS WAS A CHALLENGE AND WAS ALSO A LONG FIC IN ITSELF- I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKE IT ANON, AND ITTO HAS MY WHOLE HEART!!

[hpalways]

genshin boys jealous of you

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters Included: Childe, Kazuha, Albedo

Warnings: Maybe slightly ooc (especially for Kazuha)

A/N: Hellooo, it’s been a hot minute, but stop by and request something if u want >.< I have none and bc I have none atm, it makes me lazy to write anything,,,, so yea, feel free to force me to write something keke

Childe

will be in the middle of sparring with you and asking you why you have eyes on a certain someone else. he’ll give taunts, teasing relentlessly to weasel the truth from you.

goes to great lengths to pay for your things. because he is rich like the fatui dumbass he is, he will use the opportunity to flex his mora and prove how much better he is than the other person. 

grows slightly clingy, so he stays by your side often. shows up unannounced and follows you to work or when you’re off on break. 

if you talk about the other person, he’ll grow quiet for a moment. his face will stay stoic and his responses to you will be kinda passive aggressive almost. 

starts training even harder before. when it comes that he’ll face his nemesis to win your love, he will do anything in his power to win. he’ll beat them up so you will never lay your eyes on them ever again. 

when you ask him what’s gotten into him, he responds with, “nothing is wrong here, dear comrade. but what’s gotten into you? you’re so distracted lately.”

you raise your brows, before telling him that you had a huge project for your job coming, leaving him feeling like an idiot he truly is.

Kazuha

as your guard, he sometimes accidentally eavesdrop upon your conversations. so to hear you whispering to a fellow friend about some guy, it leaves him in a frenzy. 

protective as hell, he strengthens his guarding duty and if any guy comes near you, he steps up with a mean glare on his usual gentle face. hand gripping the sword hanging on the side, he would not move an inch until you tell him to relax.

he tries not to show his jealousy each time the two of you stumble upon a traveling man, but instead of looking straight forward and staying professional, he always sneak glances at you. 

at night when you and kazuha would stop for the day and sleep under the stars, he sometimes stares at you longingly. wondering endlessly whether or not he has a chance, he brushes your forehead and kiss it while you’re sleeping. 

he wants to ask you outright, but he is also too scared to find the truth. 

his strange actions don’t go unnoticed. one day you come up to him to ask him why he was acting too protective. 

he looks down and kicks at the dirt beneath him. cheeks growing red, he finally blurts it out. “who is that guy you’re in love with?”

you pause for a moment, taken off guard, before bursting in laughter. “i’m not in love with anyone Kazuha...”

BAM! that doesn’t hurt any less. you aren’t in love with anyone, so you weren’t in love with him either. he squeezes his fists and feels more determined. at least he still has the chance to make you fall in love with him. 

Albedo

looks at the situation in another light. he questions the feeling of envy and ponder about it excessively, confused on why he can’t stop feeling this way for you. he wants to solve it through equations and alchemy! 

makes a charts pertaining you, himself, and the other love interest. writing down equations, he thinks up of ways to increase the gap between you and this other mysterious person you were talking about the other day. 

plays 100 questions with you, asking you anything he could think of to find solutions... and figure out who the other person is. very roundabout.... you are also very confused about how personal the questions are, but he brushes them off, convincing you that they’re for research. 

when he finally understands why he feels so jealous, he draws a picture of you. his heart races at the sight of you. then he draws one with you and another person. he has come to the same conclusion when his chest tightens at the drawing of you and another person.

he tells you his thoughts in a very straightforward manner. “after some research, I’ve found something, [Y/N]. I feel very jealous when you talk about that guy.”

flabbergasted, you have no idea what to say. you then tell him that he has no reason to feel jealous, because the person you had been talking about is your brother. 

he runs to his workstation, absolutely mortified and embarrassed. giving you the silent treatment, he digs into his studies and ignores your teasing. 

only when you come and give him a hug does he make a reaction, red in the face. 

[sanderchu]

I got bored and thought it was time for this so have this introduction of me to know me better :)

About Me: Sand Edition

name: Sander/sand (im known that on the internet, some online friends call me sander so i just put it there too. when i saw some i mean many)

Age: n/a but i am a minor

birthday: sept. 7th

pronouns: any (but i mainly prefer they/them)

sexuality: Pansexual :)

gender: gender void :,) (gendervoid is a gender identity based on feeling nothing where a gender should be)

i was scared to say my gender :,) still am lol

fav color: changes everyday (rn its yellow)

fav food: sea food

likes/hobbies: drawing, writing, playing guitar, making music, playing card games, strawberries, candy, cats, questions

dislikes: math :/, bugs, loud places, toxic antis, not being productive

[top five songs atm for me]

shinunoga e-wa

i wasnt made to fall in love

unholy

romantic homicide

golden hour

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little facts

ive actually made this acc out of boredom and didnt expect to go this far

before this ive been writing for 2-3 years i always loved it

i wanna be a streamer when im older or musician

bc of writing when i started to post at first i actually started failing school because of it (im not now istg)

if i really like a writing i make a playlist based off of it! (i kinda wanna start sharing the playlist i make here and even make some for ppl but idk)

i love getting request bc its like answering a question

i hate odd numbers despite my birthday being odd

im lactose

im actually in more fandoms instead of only the dsmp! (genshin, omori, and a few more)

any questions to know me better or in general ask away :) i love questions

[aeryssickfics]

I can confirm, I am also obsessed with certain characters, and I'm sure all your readers understand XD I don't usually go out of my way to read anything about Diluc and Kaeya, I'm kind of neutral on them, and I absolutely ATE UP your fics of them!! I was binge reading some of your stuff a couple of days ago and I had a lot of fun with it, I won't deny that I'm very excited for more to come! XD

Also on a separate note, I reallyyy liked the late caretaker fic! I clicked on it as soon as I saw it was out hahaha, I think I'm starved for some good hsr content! I really love the way you portrayed Stelle and Kafka's relationship (I have a soft spot for motherly Kafka)

I'm glad you enjoyed the undesirable caretaker prompt! Toying with Kafka and Stelle's relationship is really interesting to me because like obviously Kafka's done tons of not good things, even to Stelle, but it's still obvious she really cares??? Dying for more on what the fuck is going on there because Of Course her companion quest gave some really interesting bits but they can't Go anywhere because they're stuck in "not everyone saw this" hell and im >< but I want to see Stelle react to it, I want to hear her talk to other people about Im- going to have to find fanfic eventually.

Anyway, digressing a little, something about that concept and dynamic is just so much fun. Kafka, constantly hiding things, definitely incredibly dangerous, and how soft she can be towards Stelle/Caelus. I'll probably write more in their direction eventually. But Kafka's voice is ... something. I'll have to decide where to go with the next one.

as for the first part! it's funny bc like I obsessively read every cynari (etc) fic that crosses my space anymore and want more so like I'm well versed in "I want more like this but Slightly Different" but any time I find myself writing too many versions of the same arrangements I'm like "....... oops people are probably getting annoyed by now"

on the other hand this IS more or less what I expected when I started doing Hoyoverse for the event prompts because I resisted genshin specifically for actual years (because the Fandom did and still kinda does scare me) but like with the dull awareness from people I follow that I would absolutely adore the Diluc & Kaeya dynamic based on what I absorbed by osmosis. And then I started playing star rail and slowly just started collecting hoyo games (glances at HI3 and Genshin ... -shrugs-)

But! I'm glad you're excited! The thought of someone who doesn't normally read the characters reading mine kinda made me alksdfjalsdjfkasldkfj that's so kind of you to say ><

I've been slowly making my way through your modern au and im man the amount of work you put into these to string together a genuine plot through the whole thing is Incredible btw.

[outivv]

Hi! Can I ask you some hcs about genshin bois (Xiao, Diluc, Albedo, Childe, Venti) being a shy mess when their crush is near of them? Like, they can even breathe or talk bc they stutter so much and blushes HARD. "Omgomgo are they watching me? Omg okgomgngkdnskbs"

Synopsis: blushy genshin boys :)

Warnings: not proofread

Game/ fandom: genshin impact

Characters: xiao, Diluc, albedo, childe, and venti

Pronouns for reader: gender neutral/ not mentioned

A/n: hello! Thank you for requesting! I really don’t have much to say, so hope you enjoy! And have a good day/afternoon/ evening!

— xiao —

Xiao wouldn’t make himself visible very often, literally because he’s blushing so hard.

Often watches you from afar, and he still gets butterflies in his stomach. If you look off in the distance and it “coincidentally” is where he’s standing, he’ll become almost a puddle on the floor. It makes his heart stop, it scared him half to death.

When he does… I’m not sure how to word this… show up? And you can see him and stuff? He’ll act like he’s fine, like being near you isn’t making his heart palpitate.

I wouldn’t doubt it if you talked to verr, thinking that xiao doesn’t like you very much. In veers words, “haha, no, no I actually think he’s rather fond of you. He’s just… a bit shy.”

— Diluc —

Diluc dreads it when you come into the tavern. You often go drinking with kaeya, and rosaria, and often times Dilucs shift is when you all come in. (Let’s be real kaeya planed it that way)

Diluc will give off a stern vibe of “don’t talk to me, don’t look at me, don’t even breathe in my direction or I will break your knees.” While also blushing so hard his entire face looks sunburnt.

If you are brave enough though, and you try to speak to him. He’ll have a look of shock on his face, his words slurred and stuttering. “W-well I… um… I had a great day. How about yourself.”

I can imagine kaeya would tease him for it, and Diluc would only blush harder. (Every night Diluc gets closer and closer to kicking kaeya out of the tavern)

— albedo —

Good god. You broke him! He can’t focus on work, he can barely sleep (not like he slept much before), and now when you’re around he can’t even speak! “Y/n whatever you’re doing stop it.” “I’m… just going to go to the bathroom”

I believe albedo to be rather forward, so I can imagine he’d go up and ask you what’s happening to him. Not saying that you’re the one who’s causing all of this just that “someone” is.

Albedo is more Lowkey than the others, as in he’ll have a severe blush on his face but he won’t slur his words, or stutter. Instead, he fidgets. Which isn’t out of the ordinary, because I believe albedo does fidget a fair amount. But still.

Probably has klee distract you, so you won’t come into his office at the favonius headquarters. He feels bad telling you that you’re half banned (only banned at the times where he doesn’t need to be distracted) so he has klee go blow something up, which she’s do anyways.

— childe —

Childe is like a puppy. A puppy that follows you around, whining for attention, but the moment he gets said attention he becomes a blushing mess. “What do you want childe.” “Well.. uh I-im going to go spar… wanna come?” “No.”

Now, contrary to what you just read. If you do go watch him spar, he’s gonna be freaking out. He’ll try to be cool and stuff, to impress you, but he can barely breathe because you’re watching him.

Gets the courage to ask you out, and then he sees you. And it’s all over for him. Suddenly he forgot what he was gonna say because his brain is just “KhavehjJhHhYfHkIgVFyJk THEY LOOK ADORABLE”

I think childe gives you a lot of things, like necklaces, a new coat or scarf, things like that. And he can barely keep his cool to give it to you. “Here… I t-thought you might like it.”

— venti —

I think the only time Venti is supper flushed, and nervous around you, is when he’s drunk. So… you have to deal with that :)

He’s probably touching you in some way, like hugging you from behind, holding your hand, things like that, and then when he notices that he’s holding your hand or hugging you, he’ll stiffen up. Don’t even try to talk to him when he’s like this he’ll panic and for once in his life he has no clue what to say.

When he’s sober, he’ll probably still be a little blushy around you, literally just cause he’s embarrassed. “Archons how could I have done that around them im so embarrassed wojshsgshhsnslsjsvvsbsn” “venti are you ok?” “Oahahshksnshsjjsn?!?!?!?” “… alright”

[zhongrin]

hii i hope this isn't a bother (n u dont have to answer if its personal/private!!) but ur my favourite selfship blog and i wanted to ask how did u get into selfshipping?? im dipping my toes in bc i just started playing genshin and my love for a certain character hit me like a semitruck,,, but im also so so scared of being 'weird' or 'cringe' ㅠㅠ

ahhhh hello!! you're not a bother at all dw dw ᰔᩚ (this got long so i'll put it under a read more hsdlkfshjd)

firstly, i hope you're having fun so far, dipping your toes into the vast and seemingly scary ocean that is selfshipping! i promise once you submerge yourself in it, you'll find that it's warm and nice and very comfy 😌

i remember i used to not selfship publicly, since it wasn't common to do it back in my days (wow okay grandma /silly), and honestly i don't think i realized i was selfshipping, in a sense? i have countless documents of 'cringeworthy' selfship imagines and shenanigans across all the different fandoms i've hyperfixated on, that never saw the light of the day (and that's okay! i wrote those purely for self-indulgence haha). i've never really talked to anyone about it either because of how uncommon it was, plus, like you, i was afraid i'd be seen as 'weird' or 'cringe'.

i can't really define when exactly it was that i started selfshipping publicly and got comfortable with it? i think over the course of the years of internet development, it just became more and more common, and i just started to naturally post about it across all the blogs i've had. i understand it can feel daunting at first, but personally for me the more i post about it, the more comfortable i get (especially when my friends or you guys support me on that endeavor! i'm always thankful for that ᰔᩚ)

and like. cmon. with the state of the internet these days? there are a billion people who are 'weirder' than you, i can guarantee it. tumblr has that anonymity aspect to it; use it to your advantage! :)

also, this might be slightly out of topic and might not apply for you, but while we should still be aware that it's all fictional, i think for me and some people, selfshipping has genuinely helped with self-love and personal struggles. it forces you to love yourself and look at yourself & your issues from a different perspective, and i think it's a wonderful tool for self-introspection + being more self-aware about yourself. and really, no one has the right to shame or judge you if it helps you and has no rationally negative impact on anyone else!

…. this turned into a ramble hahah but tldr:

be not afraid, be cringe, be free ✨

make friends who selfships and support each other's selfships!

the grass is always weirder on the other side!!

if you're not hurting anyone and it makes you happy, who cares about what people think?