#bc that's a recent revelation I've had

[tadpoles-and-daydreams]

Hey how many of y'all would be interested in like... A blog of mine that I started recently (without mentioning it here) that has some more personal, more "out there" UPG content. I could link it here, I'm just nervous that it'd get associated with me as a tarot reader and... Tarot is one thing, this is another, y'know? They're very different levels of "strange."

I'm gonna take any interaction with this as a "yes" bc I don't want to make anyone comment or anything and I hate reblog bait with a seething passion- plus, I'd rather this post not breach containment and get reblogged a bunch lol. I just want to gauge how well it were to go over if I were to like... Link the blog or reblog a post from it to let you all know that's also me.

It's not appropriative or fucked up or inappropriate okay guys plz don't freak out. I'm just quiet about it because it doesn't apply to most people and is ALL UPG. That's why I'm posting this.

[kaythefloppa]

I know that Wild Kratts is one of those shows where the main [human] characters don't age despite it still being a quasi-continuity driven show, but it does admittedly make me sad that the WK kids from the earlier seasons are now relegated to (presumably permanent) background cameos because of this.

[incendiorum-arch]

thinking about the dreams ven gives io eventually progressing to more of a... actual future events kind of thing. instead of just reliving past almosts.

[letbuckfuck]

i feel like i won the lottery with my hometown/highschool friends

[dairy-farmer]

I love love LOVE the idea of Tim being on the other side of an affair! And not the mushy "but then they fall in love with Tim and leave their wife for him" stuff (which is good in its own ways ofc!), I'm talking about unapologetic slutty homewrecker Tim

He fucks these men bc he wants to, he's completely independent otherwise. He doesn't need these men for anything other than good dick, and he can find that anywhere. He gets a thrill out of making married men cheat, what can he say?

But my favorite idea with this, is Tim starting out these affairs when he's still way too young. Like his first successful affair isn't even a cape, it's one of his tutors when he's 13. They only do it the once, but Tim loved it! He would seek out more opportunities, but then he becomes Robin a few weeks later and his priorities shift

So when he's 14 and alone with Superman and somehow finds himself on his knees sucking down a huge cock? He takes the chance where he can. It ends up becoming a regular thing despite Clark's guilt over cheating on Lois, and it gets worse when Tim gets pregnant at 17, in the aftermath of him and Clark fucking for the first time since Tim saved Bruce from the time stream

Clark is conflicted on what to do but Tim is like "whatever, nbd. I've always wanted kids one day anyways, even if this is a little early. Honestly I'm surprised it didn't happen sooner with the way I sleep around" and then Tim realizes why Clark is upset and adds "oh, no one will know the baby is yours, ofc. It isn't any of their business, anyways. And you don't have to take any responsibility, tho it would be nice if you visited on occasion. But I get that Jon and Lois are your priorities and stuff"

So Tim goes through with the pregnancy, as a darling baby boy that he kicks ass at raising as a single mom, and everything is just fine (except maybe Clark's paranoia at being found out). Tim finds out he's pregnant again about a year later tho and he's just as fine with it as he was the first time, and reassures Clark that he knows the baby is someone else's in the JL. By the time Tim is 25 he has five kids, all of them clearly having different fathers (and if you look closely, you could definitely figure out who fathered who. Clark for his first baby, Barry for his second, Oliver for his third, Arthur for his fourth, Wally for his fifth, and a recently married Bruce is responsible for Tim's belly filling out once again with baby number six). The only thing they all have in common is that all of his baby daddies (aside from being JL members) are happily married husbands

Tim never thought he would let it get to the point where he was having these affair babies, and so many to boot, but honestly? It makes him feel sexy, desired, and powerful. After all, it's not everyday you have blackmail over some of the strongest members of the JL

its universally acknowledged that all the bats are a little screwy, they all have a little something something wrong with them. for tim his thing is homewrecking, there's just something about married men that draws him in so much closer than anything else. but not just any men, its the weak ones. some part of tim revels in sniffing them out like a shark, that no matter their words, no matter how much they posture, or how they hold themselves- tim knows that at the slightest opportunity they'd risk losing everything just to fuck him.

so tim's just a little disappointed to find so many capes fit that criteria, just a little bit though. tim only wants their dicks not to lecture them. plus once his short affair with the tutor his boarding school hired, tim had been looking for someone else. someone older, closer, someone who could really fuck tim, not the quiet quickies he'd been having up til then.

and so clark comes to him! bruce is in space and he and clark apparently had some agreement where he'd fly by the manor to check on jason and dick, make sure they weren't in any trouble. only tim doesn't live at the manor and suddenly clark is standing in tim's room, unsupervised and alone with tim who had just been under the sheets and playing with his little cunt. tim barely has to even try. he's horny and desperate and clark is there and big and his hands are so large they drawf tim's head and force him close as he swallows his cock into his wet, tiny mouth. he begs clark to fuck him. and he does, tim's pajama covered bottoms hang around his ankles as clark kneels and wetly sinks into tim's pink baby cunt with a thick wet sound while tim is laid on his bed and whining. clark's cock is so big that he's only able to get half his cock into him, the rest is stuck outside getting steadily dripped on by tim's wetness. clark's cum is hotter than a normal human's and so liquidy it drips down like a broken faucet out of tim's cunt.

for the rest of the time bruce is gone clark returns to swing by, marveling over tim's body an stroking his sides as he rides him, the stretch having been made easier with the help of the lube tim found in his dad's bedside drawer.

clark is tim's longest lasting affair, and while he'd never admit it to bruce, his favorite. after all you can't carry on an affair for years and not grow at least a little fond of someone. its why tim is a little excited when he does get pregnant. he'd been thinking of settling down and retiring for awhile. damian was now robin, bruce was doing better mentally than he ever had before, the rest of the family was mostly at peace and talking rather than estranged. it's perfect for him to retire.

so when he finds out he's pregnant, he does.

tim doesn't actually tell clark he's pregnant, he doesn't see the point, he and clark see each other sporadically so tim could just tell him the next time clark swung by to fuck him, maybe tim would already have the baby by then and they could work on baby #2.

bruce tells clark, lamenting to him about tim retiring due to pregnancy and not seeing how clark goes ghost white.

tim assures clark he wasn't going to tell anyone, that he had no obligation to tim, that this was TIM'S baby and he'd handle everything about it and it was alright that tim wouldn't tell anyone clark was the daddy.

and tim doesn't.

he keeps his promise.

but the baby thing does scare clark away for a little, he comes back eventually but not until tim has already started fucking barry. oh barry, he's so kind and thoughtful. he hears about tim's "unfortunate" teen pregnancy (at least that's what the other heroes were calling it) and takes it upon himself to gift tim supplies and a crib that once belonged to his own children and was so expensive it was a shame to leave it rotting in the attic. tim is visibly pregnant and living alone in his apartment because bruce had not been too happy about tim's pregnancy. and barry is welcome company who chats and asks tim questions about his baby plans while building the crib even though tim knows that with his superspeed he could have it done in under a minute and cut the visit short. but he doesn't and tim appreciates the company while talking about his birthing classes.

barry really is a swell guy even if he accepts the advances of a pregnant teen that he has on his back and fucks on the floor of a baby's future nursery. barry is very into fucking tim, tim suspects a kink but he's not sure which one. tim was already pregnant so there wasn't much use in condoms which barry was particularly happy about as he buried his cock heatedly into tim's reddened cunt.

clark comes back eventually. a few months after tim gives birth to his baby he brings enough diapers to last tim months and fucks him while tim's baby naps in the other room. when tim gets pregnant again tim makes sure to tell him before anyone else does and also assures him that he's not the father which clark just blinks at and it occurs to tim that he probably hadn't realized tim had been fucking other people aside from him. tim doesn't say who (no need to open a can of worms with the information) but does admit they are also in the JL.

tim's affair with oliver is a natural progression as a result of his affair with barry. of course barry confides to olly. they run in the same circles, are "bros" to an extent, and when barry comes to him freaking out about having gotten tim pregnant well of course oliver gets interested. he's curious, wants to feel out the extent of the affair, maybe softly interrogate tim. tim is certain green arrow came to his door fully intending on doing something about barry's affair, instead the only thing he ends up doing is tim.

pregnancy makes tim horny, almost as horny as married men do and so tim getting bent over his washing machine and thoroughly fucked was the natural result.

oliver swings by to see him every time he's in gotham, he swings by even more frequently after tim gives birth to a sweet little girl with a head of blonde curls that he gets weepy over.

aquaman hears about his fellow married leaguers all having affairs from their drunken rambles. the husbands in the league have a bit of a boys club, something that initially started out as a way to bully bruce since he was the only unmarried man. he hears about their shame, but also how they can't help going back, how they secretly check on their kids, and how they're happy that tim's such a loving and wonderful mother, how tim has the best cunt any of them have ever fucked. arthur starts it out of curiosity. he loves his wife, he does. but...arthur has gotten a bit of a reputation among the husbands as a bit of a bore, not really someone who would take risks, who would do something as aghast as having an affair. tim seems like the best option, he's clearly discrete, is very capable of managing league personalities, does well in bed. its a no brainer. arthur is only planning to do it once, just so he can have the badge of honor of having successfully had an affair. but then he finds himself returning. finds himself...attracted. timothy is good company, he's humorous, he's curious, he listens to arthur's laments, he's wonderful company in more ways than one. arthur finds the little mother of three very attractive and before long he's the reason he's become a mother of four. arthur is the only one of tim's affairs that tries making it more, offering to bring tim and his children to atlantis, offering them a safe haven to learn and grow, to support tim and even legitimize their child. mera may be upset with him (very upset) but arthur was still ultimately king.

tim rejects it. insists to arthur he's fine, that he wants to raise his babies on his own terms and that tim wasn't looking for commitment.

besides if arthur's affair came out, if the fact that he sired a child outside his marriage came out- surely that would incense some people, shake atlantean's view of him?

arthur hesitates but its enough and tim tells him to drop it. that tim will send him pictures of their child through email occasionally if he wants, its what he does with the others afterall.

bruce is the last of them. he was also the last to get married but still. the ink is barely dried on the marriage certificate when a tipsy bruce fucks tim in the bathroom, right next to the baby changing station. tim's dress is hastily shoved up, the top pushed down to expose his milky tits from nursing arthur's baby. bruce's voice is deepened to a near growl and he whispers about how he's needed tim for so long, that this was his last chance to ever fuck him before being tied down forever. bruce's cock is almost dripping with need, the tip messy with precum as he presses into tim's warm cunt with ease, a benefit to having four babies.

bruce fucks tim so hard he nearly leaves a permanent imprint on the tile as he hoists tim's legs up to wrap around his waist.

it's a good wedding night. for tim at least.

the next morning bruce is at his door with an apology, an excuse with his drunkenness. but it doesn't last because it ends with bruce and tim on the couch, bruce buried inside tim again.

bruce is the most possesive of tim's affairs. tim's not sure when he starts looking into it but shortly after starting his affair with tim bruce threatens the others away from him, somehow it got into his mind that he wanted to be the only one fucking tim. but a quick threat to out him to selina and all of a sudden bruce is okay with sharing.

which was the point, it was the reason tim was able to peacefully enjoy his many affairs. there was a built in backup plan. if they ever tried to do something he didn't like, ever tried anything- it would be over for them. people could forgive affairs but affairs with a much younger person, someone he mentored, someone that was more of an honorary nephew, someone they'd gotten pregnant, someone they'd been seeing for years? there was only one natural result to all their marriages if they found out and tim knew they knew it, knew they loved their wives too much too lose them, but they were also unwilling to lose tim.

it was perfect. tim had everything he wanted and things were just as they should be.

[a-forbidden-detective]

Curious add-ons: The Continuity, et al., for the Shibuya arc: Eps 14, 15 & 16

If I were the famous Scramble Crossing of Shibuya, I might scream first from a huge number of people crossing my streets and lastly, the mangaka’s choice of using it as a crime scene. It is also a coincidence that Junya Enoki’s characters have become part of it. First as Yuji Itadori from Jujutsu Kaisen then on RKDD as Toto Isshiki. No wonder Youhei Azakami and Enojun talked about Shibuya in their recent after-show talk.

Azakami: A lot of things happen in Shibuya.

Enojun: It seems that there are quite a few places where bad spirits gather around open objects. It's something like feng shui or anything like that.

Azakami: Shibuya is a relatively power spot, but from what I've heard, Shibuya is a bit lower compared to other cities (like Shinjuku).

The two rambled on the cities around Tokyo that contain more bad spirits and were relieved that only fictional stories happen around Shibuya. Enojun: “It only happens in fiction.” (I recommend listening to it bc of the duo’s goofiness. At the end of the radio show Enojun received his early birthday cake and greetings from Azakami-kun and the Kadokawa staff as it’d be his birthday last October 19th.)

I didn’t do the usual analysis per episode as it didn’t feel like it called for it. The animators stayed true with the manga most of the time.

The arc covered from Chapters 22 to 27 of the manga. Now that we have an idea how they divided them into into episodes, it highlighted the importance of Winter Moriarty in the upcoming episodes, who Enojun complimented as a "cute and amazing character."

So far the anime crew added a continuity intro for Ron on the 14th episode to refresh our memories highlighting the last scenes of the 13th ep from the first season. After Toto and Spitz have left Ron alone, he began to recollect what happened. We, the audience, in turn, had a good look at Ron’s apartment. Those vials in one of the shelves, could they be some fragrance oil??? Samples of blood? Then there are gemstones like the huge amethyst and the ammonite fossil that caught my eye. They have given us a glimpse of Ron’s own version of “cabinet of curiosities.” Like a true descendant of Sherlock Holmes, collecting things, which may or may not be useful in his profession-vocation, has also become a trait.

Retitling this as “Shibuya Apocalypse Serial Murder Case” instead of “The Case of Shibuya Revelation Serial Murder,” AA’s use of the Bible verse with the numbers 96 was well thought out just like the first time I read it. All those 96 references (the periodic table element iridium, Bach’s Miracle symphony) came into play.

It was almost one to one rendition except for scenes like the manga panel for Chapter 22 where they showed Toto’s “tired of all your shit” face.

Anime crew added Toto’s reaction to Ron’s blatant lying and Amamiya falling for it.

I don’t know how many times the anime crew has given us so many shots of Ron’s Sinatra blue eyes that tend to be so hypnotic. I would say, his scar too as anime Toto’s reaction to it comes stronger than in the manga. The way he bumbles when Ron has caught him looking at it is so cute.

What’s up with Deltard Hotel though? Or was it a typo error from Crunchyroll ?

Winter flipping their hair !!!! (The anime crew knows the fans’ Winter thirst! )

In order not to establish Winter’s “gender identity” this early on the anime crew successfully used words to mar it. Instead of designating Winter as a “male” like what AA did at first in the manga, Wataru Watari utilised the gender not specific/-neutral wording “agent” in describing Winter. Making a good spin on Spitz’s assumption that “Winter” could probably be a code name.

And once again the anime crew has added these scenes, before saying farewell to the Shibuya arc onto the next, we find Ron on his chair contemplating again of the events that happened in the last few days. Finally, struggling, trying to put the puzzles in their corresponding places before making his final conclusion of what Winter, the “agent,” meant for his own case. Parallelism it is. We started with this arc finding Ron on his chair ruminating, Episode 14, in order of importance: Ron’s chair/a bird’s eye view of the living room, his neck scar, his blue eyes.

And the scenes at the end of Episode 16.

[minhmynchi]

a lot of rambling; read if you want to lol but i would appreciate having more like-minded people to talk about this with! (tl;dr recently found out i have autism and it's turned my whole world upside down?)

don't know where to start bc this is a very new revelation for me but figured out that i have autism thanks to my gf (she has adhd) pointing out a million things??? and the past two days have just been me going through what i remember of my whole life and being all "oh so That's why i acted like that" or "so That's why i don't like this thing"

like i had an idea a year ago that i might've been neurodivergent but didn't know how, didn't know where to start bc i didn't know much of the signs or symptoms and at the time i didn't talk much to my gf bc we weren't together yet and thus didn't talk like literally every day about everyyyy little thing

but she had been telling me that my brother stacking cans was an autism thing (he's 2 and a half and still hasn't talked yet but hasn't been diagnosed) and i was like "lol but i did that too i thought everyone does that it can't be autism" and she was like "🤨 that's not the gotcha you think it is" and me going "lol sure whatever u say" but in reality i've been thinking about that for a little while lol like what did she mean by that....

and two nights ago we stayed up til 2am my time talking about it bc she was like "you know how you always wear bracelets and you never take them off? yeah, comfort items. you don't like soda bc of the carbonation? that's a texture thing. you also have a million plushies and like holding them when you go to sleep?? guess what, that's right, that's an autism thing" and went on and on and i just kept being like damn . Damn.

like more of a list here, i really really didn't think much of these things bc i thought it was Normal or just a weird little quirk for me bc everyone has weird little quirks right or that it was just an anxiety thing for me lol i didn't know much about autism and now i'm doing my best to research it all

- i don't like certain smells, like my mom gets hand soaps and some of them are really . eugh. visceral reaction from me even tho i used them bc it's still soap i thought i just had to get over it

- i like really basic foods and don't tend to try new things much; i hate cauliflower bc of the texture (i knew autistic ppl had problems w texture in foods but usually i can eat most things..! not that i try a lot of foods! i brushed it off until i remembered this while trying to think of signs that i have autism) i also hate soda and spicy food bc of the textures, otherwise i rly like it lol if they didn't have the textures they have then i would be so good rn

- me being all "oh yeah i just have fixations and stuff everyone has this" (has been deeply into isat for seven months now and feeling like it's dropping off my radar sends me into a slight state of panic if i think about it too much) but my friend who i asked if he noticed anything odd w me had said that me being sooo super duper into isat, he thought it was just a weird thing specific to me bc everyone is a little weird right and also nothing much else stuck out to him bc we also share a lot of anxiety things lol he said it Would make sense if i did have autism and it also would if i didn't but like. i thought uh. everyone was like this!!!! i thought everyone liked things so deeply they made it their entire personality... (having a job is awful bc i keep spending money on things i like... i have sooo many splatoon things and also i've been buying every isat thing and also games and also just a bunch of stuff i hoard and don't even get me started on comms lol i have sooo many ocs and i have phases of ocs i like so i get comms of them bc i start thinking about them out of nowhere......)

- which brings me to my next point; my gf told me ppl w adhd and/or autism usually seek out other ppl just like them but thinking about it, i don't think any of my friend groups are like me, i think 95% of my friends are all nt which is crazy, but then i think about how i'm here on tumblr and i feel comfortable cause everyone deeply likes isat too and i'm like :) yay let's go even tho i'm rly bad at talking to people like reallyyyyy bad i haven't made much new friends i think bc i'm so awful at talking (tho that's also evidence in and of itself isn't it)

- and so many things have gotten past me bc i guess i learned to mask so well i just pass off rly easily as a nt person.. cause i don't do things that make ppl immediately think something's up with me and the only reason my gf has caught this is bc again we talk every day and she has multiple friends w autism so she knows the signs she knows what to look for and it also has taken her this long to figure it out too like she had Suspicions. but didn't voice them bc she wasn't sure until a couple nights ago

and there's soooo many other things too but i already forgor and i wanna make a list to remember them all bc it's so much easier for me to remember things if i write them down

i'm just like siffrin in that i have a sieve-like brain my memory is so very terribly awful lol

but it's so interesting to think about!!! it's so relieving to know that there's actually a reason for like everything and it's not bc i'm broken or just a plain awful person or something

and it's not very noticeable!! i don't do any of the like. "stereotypical" things so no one ever (including me!!!!!) thinks anything of what i do bc i hide my weird things so well i guess

and i want to talk about it more with people!!!! like i said, i don't have many friends who have autism? and the ones i do have it to a degree that i don't i think... but i'm not sure. but i would like to reach out to them soon enough to hear about their experiences and that's why i'm here too!!! cause i want to know more about it bc yes i will have books to read on the matter but i want to know too from hearing from others, especially if one has autism the way i have it... and i'm 26 too which means it literally passed by people as a child and i wonder if i just learned to mask everything over time bc again i don't remember!!! anything!! which sucks lol. and didn't help that i kept being like "lol i can't have autism i don't do any of these things" i just didn't know 🙄 but i didn't know where to start looking, didn't know what could've been a symptom or not but just kept denying it bc my perception of it was very narrow and didn't think to look into it more to be sure.

and i'm not even professionally diagnosed but i've never been more sure of anything in my life now. and also eventually i want to be professionally diagnosed i would like that very much i just have to save up money

but anyways. long post is long enough thanks for reading if you do 🙏 and please please reach out bc idk who i can talk to more about autism i like thinking about it its literally 3:30 am and i have work in two hours but i couldn't stop thinking about wanting to talk to ppl about it!!!!

[tododeku-or-bust]

May I ask your opinion on this recent Wyll art? Cuz I personally feel like the hair they gave him isn't good? And his features looks off too? I'm surprised that it gained so much popularity and praise on here and twitter

https://www.tumblr.com/ozumii-fucking-wizard/759264166608617472/the-blade-of-frontiers

Okay so, I've had this revelation before with Hades' Patroclus, that I've seen a lot with Wyll, and I see it in this art too (which isn't awful, there's been worse Wylls, but I do see what you mean).

I'm willing to give slight grace, in that the source of the texture issues in this art could be due to the texture issues with Black hair in the game. (This isn't always the case, btw. Some folks are just racist). I think this artist was going for braids, but that's not really how they'd look if he had afro textured hair. But the studio gave him the straightest, thinnest texture and scalp twists, both of which serve as a reference to nonblack people drawing him. So this looks like that to me. I cannot stand his hair in game, I'm sorry, it's petty. The engine was clearly not developed to properly depict the different textures of afro hair, and that reflects in the fanart. So everyone who actually gives Wyll cornrows, or well done braids and natural looking locs, I'm always happy about bc it means they had other references of Black hair pulled up.

But as for popularity, take it from someone who has experience in the field: Black characters do not have to be drawn well for people to applaud them. You could draw the whitest brown bucket tool "Black" character, but so long as it's "pretty" and you are putting on the performance of inclusion, people will support. The popularity comes from the stroking of the mutual "I'm not racist" tokenism between creator and fan, not the quality or respect for Black features. It's one of my many goals in running my sensitivity blog; to stop allowing the barest of minimum, not even done for Black fans, depictions of us to slide as "acceptable". If you're gonna do it, do it right.

Btw follow my creative sensitivity blog, we'll be getting into this soon 👀

[mezzy303]

Ok laddies time for this week's theory time (do I need to make a masterpost of my theories? This is getting a little ridiculous lol)

Spoilers for One Piece chapter 1115 spoilers under the cut

The way I jumped and threwwww my kindle (onto pillows) when Vegapunk confirmed all the Atlantis theories!!!!!!! I made the mistake of reading it right before bed and I was wide awake for like another two hours talking to a friend and just thinking about it 😅

I honestly was ready to scrap my theory from ch 1113 about there being whole continents 800 years ago before a great flood happened, and I'm still reeling on how it all turned out to be true besides the natural phenomenon part (here's my theory from ch 1114). And Oda once again proves how fucking genius he is bc I never expected 200 meters?????? Omg???? That's over 650ft for my fellow US folks. Here's an image going around Twitter from a YouTube video that shows what are own world would look like if sea levels rose 200m

Insanity

These recent chapters have had me really questioning the mechanics of the One Piece world lol. Tbh I think we all just assumed that the world was just Like That and mainly functioned to drive the plot forward. But there are actual reasons behind it?? With this revelation, I started thinking about how the sinking of land could have been intentional on the Allies' part, beyond the destruction of the Great Kingdom and erasing it from history. The way the world is now, with the Red Line going all the way around and the Calm Belts running perpendicular to it, it's incredibly hard to travel between the different Seas. The islands are also fairly isolated from each other, especially on the Grand Line. It makes it hard for information to travel around, and the only way to get world news is through a heavily vetted newspaper. To me, it all seems purposeful to further subjugate the world by physically dividing the people, making them easier to control and rule over.

I also want to reiterate how easy it would've been to erase the Great Kingdom from history and collective memory when the Allies/World Government had the capabilities of mass destruction that could cause sea levels to rise hundreds of meters. Not only does it make the original land inaccessible, the amount of people that died was probably immense. And with the death of a large number of people comes the loss of knowledge. Those that survived likely wouldn't have wanted to pass down information on the Great Kingdom from both the trauma of the event and the fear of retribution by the World Govt (I assume the laws forbidding research on the Void Century was immediate). So potentially after just one generation, knowledge on the Great Kingdom and how the world used to be would've disappeared. Iirc only the Minks and the Kozuki family passed down info on the kingdom's existence, and their lands are largely isolated from the rest of the world. (Speaking of which, they both are in locations where further rising sea levels wouldn't affect them)

Looking into it further, the way the geography of the world also seems like it's trying to prevent (or at least discourage) people from getting into or leaving the Grand Line and also travel between islands. Just trying to get to that sea is dangerous because it requires a person to either sail through Reverse Mountain, where many pirates canonically have died because of the crazy currents and storms and end up crashing into the mountain, or going through the Calm Belt, which is current and wind free and infested with Sea Kings. And once you're in the Grand Line, the waters itself are extremely difficult to navigate. Now what's in the Grand Line that the Allies may have wanted to prevent people from getting to? Laugh Tale.

For a little while now, I've been playing around with the idea on how the magnetic fields on each island may have been created to specifically help a pirate/sailor get to Laugh Tale. We've already seen Kidd using his awakened devil fruit powers to change the polarity of different objects, what if it's possible to change the polarity of an entire island? With those powers, a person could have created the seven paths of the Grand Line. I'm still trying to decide if this was done outside the Allies' control, or if it was an order from the Allies and the person was secretly loyal to the Great Kingdom.

And don't think I missed that little detail Vegapunk said about the Allies using ancient weapons!!!!!!! Literally each chapter has been teasing the reveal of the Elders having Uranus!!!! ｡゜(｀Д´)゜｡ It seems like the Lulusia attack really was just a taste of what their weapon can do. I can't imagine how big an attack (or how many attacks in succession?) it would take to cause 200m sea level change???

[lansplaining]

Protagonist-centric readers will do anything but admit that their MCs did lie and impact other characters' decisions. It's not the side-characters fault that they did not know the whole truth because *drum roll* they weren't told anything and/or was deliberately lied to.

LQQ being hated bc he impaled XL in a coffin for a long time but like... XL admitted to killing the King of Yong'an and committing the bloody massacre so what was LQQ supposed to do? Sit down and ask his Guoshi for the truth when we know damn well XL will just continue to admit to it? XL didn't want to tell LQQ the truth to protect LQQ and the two groups of people, and that's completely admirable, but what LQQ saw was his Guoshi stabbing a sword through his father's chest and admitting to everything so him reacting the way he did was completely valid. The single act of killing the king was treason 100x already, and as the son of the king, LQQ's reaction was not out of the ordinary. we don't want XL to suffer and be even more traumatized, but XL already knew that the consequences wouldn't be pretty and lied anyway. idk why fans can't grasp that.

Or for JC's case, HE IS LITERALLY THE ONE PERSON ALIVE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD WHO ACTUALLY DESERVES SOME KIND OF EXPLANATION FROM WWX HIMSELF, THE MAN WHO ACCIDENTALLY CAUSED WN TO KILL JXZ AND INDIRECTLY KILLED JYL DESPITE CLAIMING THAT HE HAD EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL. These two aren't strangers to JC at all; they're his sister and his brother-in-law, or more importantly, his sister's beloved husband and father of his nephew. He deserves to be angry and bitter at the one person who did all that, and there is no time limit for how long he should remain bitter and angry about it. The GCT was a whole mess and they both made HUGE sacrifices out of love but the only one whose sacrifice is made invalid is JC because one, it was short-lived and two, they already didn't like JC so no matter what he does for WWX, it will be seen as something negative.

I don't even want to get into the hell-hole regarding LXC but... damn...

the revelations after a character found out the truth should be "oh man, so that's what really happened" not "this character was a dick because they didn't know about the major sacrifice the MC made for them that would only be revealed many years later, and it's not even voluntary because someone else told the truth, not the MC themself"

I'm not the first nor am I the last person to say this but a protagonist is just a character we see, mainly, from their POV or the character that we follow the story through. That's all there is to it. I feel like a lot of danmei readers have yet to read a variety of stories about an MC that's completely shit but serves to tell a story just as important and interesting.

okay, first of all-- people hate LQQ?? The sweetest, most violent himbo of all????????????? even Xie Lian doesn't hate him for what he did??????

i have nothing to say to such people

i'll be honest, it is really only relatively recently that i've fully come to realise how completely Jiang Cheng deserves an explanation or even just acknowledgement of any kind from Wei Wuxian, and how cowardly and selfish it is that Wei Wuxian refuses to give it. and I say this with a heart full of love for WWX-- he is dealing with Some Trauma (tm) but that doesn't mean his refusal to even speak to JC isn't hurtful and unfair, even if it's what he needs... but man everyone in fandom and fanworks is focused on WWX taking what he needs in this situation and not even remotely considering that just maybe he also justifiably owes something to someone he harmed and who he supposedly (formerly?) cared about (i think he still cares)

the lan xichen thing is literally inexplicable to me and i will never understand it

[dilutedconfusion]

okay listen so i've been thinking heavily on the yandere trope recently. but like with Kid as the yandere. and whenever i see yandere!Kid i feel like he's always the more sadistic version of yanderes.

basically used this post (hoping the link works for you🙏🙏) to look at the dif types bc i dont know all that😭 but i feel like he is always sadistic/possessive in fics. obvi all yandere!aus are gonna be at least a little ooc bc its a divergence of canon characteristics but hear me out girl...

delusional and overprotective yandere!Kid... like girl. or like basically a kinda soft yandere!Kid. but like still horrible and awful not GREAT at emotions. like he will still get mad and yell but otherwise? is strangely kind to you? (w you not really realizing any subtle manipulation tactics that him or Killer might be using cuz Killer is loyal asf to Kid🤞)

like being kidnapped by the Kid pirates, the worst of the worst generation, said to be cruel and sadistic. that's already bad, and you're terrified for your life. essentially having a meltdown because you had no idea what was going to happen to you, but you had a guess. you meet Kid and prepare to be tortured/killed. then he's like??? weirdly nice to you? like yeah he's gruff and kinda bitchy but that is a thousand times better than being killed.

thats as far as the thoughts go but see my vision?? figured you would appreciate the Kid thoughts🙏

OKAY OKAY I love this SOOO MUCH. Like I don’t think I can explain how much I love this but you SLAYED. GIVING ME LINKS AND DETAILED DESCRIPTIONS AND SHIZ 🤭💞 Okay so to get right to the point I will be of course writing a chapter on this (or maybe multiple on this because that’s how good of an idea it is pookie). BUT I don’t know when I’ll be able to churn out a full chapter. I mean probably soon but I sorta just want to get a better grasp of exactly the kind of character you want Kid to be before I start writing. So here’s a little traits list?? that I cooked up the minute I read over this just to get my creative juices flowing. Let me know if Im headed in the right direction and if there is any changes or additions you’d like to see. Other than that I’ll write up the chapter, tag and credit the hell out of you, and we can revel in softyandere!Kid together 🥰

Traits

Thinks that kidnapping you was the best choice for your life. That you will be the safest and happiest with him (even if you’re kidnapped and being held against your will)

Often uses manipulation tactics like love bombing, balant lying to keep you in the dark, and triangulation with Killer

Not only believes that everyone else in the world is a hazard to you (including most of his crew members) but you’re a hazard to yourself so he doesn’t allow you privacy??? This could be taken to the point where he feels like he needs to be in the same room with you at all times. Eyes on you whenever physically possible. Which is sorta intense so just let me know if that is too much for you (cause I could make it really gross or more mild lol)

Will do even the simplest task for you, not because he wants to do it to help, but because he doesn’t believe you can take care of yourself or MOREOVER he should be the only to take care of you because he is just that great. Which of course he will hang over y/n’s head in arguments and be like “BUT LOOK AT HOW MUCH I DO FOR YOU😡” type shit.

If you do constantly try to pull away from him he’ll think you’re just shy or playing hard to get and will therefore push your boundaries harder. But if you actually PHYSICALLY harm him or try to PERMANENTLY leave he’d rather tie you down until you apologize and say you weren’t in your right mind when you did that then listen to your plea seriously (HES SO DELULU) The punishment for this could also involve taking away material items or aspects of freedom because like you said he's not sadistic so he would never hurt you.

To put it simply y/n would feel like this “I like you Kid but I don’t like who you become when you're with me” WHICH WOULD CAUSE SOME SERIOUS TURBULENCE IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP AND SOME SWEET ANGST EVEN.

I would write more but I don’t want to give TO MUCH away plot wise. Sooo hopefully this gives you a good idea on how I’m thinking of portraying Kid. If you have any other questions of course ask me!! Any little tid bits will be much appreciated and thank you so much for requesting something from me Emma 🫶

[cloutchaserkineme]

pre-US grand prix astro, and hbd leclerc!

7:25 a.m. Oct. 15 2024 under a roof under the rain

One last astrology post related to F1 to get it out of my system this week so I can freely tune in to the other stuff I have on my to do list bc this is getting out of hand. I've paid more attention to the F1 astro spreadsheet than I have for literally four other projects so I need to put an end to this.

First off- today a few days ago was Charles Leclerc's solar return! (Finishing this waaaay late bc I got swamped w work)

He has an AA chart, which means that profection years can be used more accurately. He just turned 27, coming in from a Saturn-ruled 3H year (driving, short-distance trips, communication, familiar places) to a Saturn-ruled 4H year (home, ancestry, foundation, privacy and coming home).

Although Saturn is still his timelord, this time his natal 4H Jupiter Aquarius now also joins the fray. Those are rather heavy generational planets in his chart, and is usually a signature of structure in his life- he has a natal Jupiter and Saturn sextile, which means that he gets so much support in his work from his hometown generally.

However, this year, his SR chart barely avoided being a full moon- which means that he also narrowly avoided a lot of the crazy stress and overstimulation that happens around the eclipse- particularly this one, which is conjunct Chiron, and is also the last one in the Aries-Libra axis for a while.

However, he is building up for a different kind of stress next year.

And now that Pluto in Capricorn is finally fucking direct again, Charles (and the rest of the cardinal-heavy grid) can get a rest from the spiritual washing machine of the early 20s.

Him, especially, finally getting somewhat of a break from the gutter of what must be either sleepless nights or health scares that he's been navigating for around three years now, since Pluto did its weird ups in 2020, and also considering that he's the only guy in the grid getting a 1-2 punch of the nodes in his luminaries.

(Big shoutout to Alex Albon and Esteban Ocon as well, for going through their nodal reversals this year. Big revelations with regards to their racing styles recently, but mostly for Alex, who has had the heavy pressures of Saturn pressuring his brain and good luck into diamonds these past two and a half years. Congrats on the hard-earned skills!)

However much Charles will be supported next year though, he will probably be more... scattered in a way, than he is now. Perhaps a lot more sponsorships here and there, more things to note of. SR Saturn in Pisces is still retrograde, and its ruler Jupiter is very dizzy in Gemini, as well as just freshly turning retrograde, which means that this whole next year will be unexpected for him, last-minute turns, and a fuckton of air, as the energy found in his 5H (play)-8H(debt) axis right now will stick with him for next year.

I've been rewatching the clip of him and Fred Horner jump into the bay in Monaco because that's what the best-case scenario energy of the SR return looks like for him honestly. The blessing of water, the gamble won by luck. Breaking a curse!

However, a lot of stuff will be delegated to him soon, and the muchness of it is what will suck major ass. These two are in mutable/mundane signs, which means that whatever will be the breaking point, it won't be an obvious thing. You can't pinpoint the one big source of his stress. It will be an accumulation of a lot of tiny ordinary things. That much spinny water in his house of creativity, risk, romance, and sports + twisty wind in the house of other people's money, secrets, and the community he gets from his career will combine into a huge hurricane next year.

Around February-March and August-September next year, will be good for him, I suppose, in a flowers-twisting-through-the-air kind of way. He'll do better abroad than at home.

However, astrology is a snapshot of the moment! And I want to see if my theories on this weekend's US Grand Prix will come into fruition for the racers based on what info I have on their charts (below the cut for more astrobabble):

F1 the race is primarily a sport. MARS, planet of action, will, drive, war, gasoline, fuel, combustion, things that go fast- it is king here in all the sport, especially one directly born from the war like F1 was.

Formula One the event, however, is a wonderful combination of Mercurial and benefic energy. It is considered the pinnacle of motorsports. It's an athletic competition that assigns points not to the strength or prowess of the body (Mars = physical strength) but rather, the power of the shell (Venus = adornment) they sit in, and the strategy + constant innovation made by multiple minds on the track all at once (Mercury = communication and relay) to get that shell on the track.

And also- Jupiter! A dry planet in a wet sign, going across all borders. The planet of wisdom and generosity is not as Mr. Worldwide as they should be in Sagittarius, but luck is not the point when it is in Pisces. Mysticism is the point in Pisces. Societal construct and keeping shit in is the point of Pisces (and I will talk about how racers with water placements consistently dominate the other fire-ruled racers in this sport next time, when I've finished the spreadsheet and get all 800+ racers on there).

This is the chart I cast from the first F1 race btw, if you care. a more accurate F1 chart would be the day they signed the papers to get the event rolling, but for obvious reasons that document might not be open to the public. so this is the first F1 race in Silverstone. The article covering the event didn't mention the exact time the race started, so pay no mind to the ASC, I just aligned it so that Pluto is there.

To reiterate, F1 is a very shiny, very expensive, very fast and meticulous team sport as much as it relies on the driver, and while Mars is important here, he does not always get to dictate what goes on during a race.

So, can we use astrology to find out who wins the Grand Prix this weekend? Yes!

Can I do it? No.

LMAO I wish I was that skilled! However, making guesses is one of the free things in life that we have. And good for me, since I like experiments.

In order to "guess" who'll dominate the track, we'll have to establish two* things: the condition of the planets of the current racers; and the condition of the planets as they currently are in the sky right now.

But Helen! You say. Nobody has the fucking time to look up all of the racer's possible natal charts and color-code all seven of their traditional placements according to essential dignity! What kind of a weirdo would do such a-

Oh, look. Here's a totally-not-obsessive spreadsheet of the natal planets of the current grid (including Daniel and Logan, w/c I haven't marked), as of the 2024 Singapore Grand Prix. Only a handful have accurate birth times, so no ASC, and mind the moon placements.

Before you say anything, I am clearly not the first astrogirlie who attempted to do this. Astro dot com has an AA-Rodden-rated chart of the first F1 racer all the way back in the 1950s, as well as rectified birth times for those famous racers whose birth certificates are not publicly available. Greater, more weirder minds than me have tried to tackle this. But I am the only one doing so on Tumblr. I think.

Anyway, now that we've established that, let's look at the conditions of the sky this weekend!

Aspects: T-square between Fallen Mars, Fallen Sun, and Pluto in Capricorn; Venus sep. from Pluto, about to oppose Moon and detriment Jupiter; Grand Water Trine (by sign) from Mars, Mercury, and Saturn.

T-square between Fallen Mars, Fallen Sun, and Pluto in Capricorn

Most likely to affect: The Cardinal-heavy people, but most likely Leclerc, Perez, Alonso, and Bottas; who have more than 3 Cardinal placements each

Most stable drivers: The Water-heavy people, namely Sainz, Hamilton, and Stroll, who have more than 4 water placements each; and a special shoutout to Saturn making Albon especially stable (3 Pisces) (update: it's his 100th race! <3) , and Mars for making Alonso especially slick (3 Cancer)

Mars: Unhappy in a wet sign, will continue to be there until next year. Normal road rage is not cutting it on the track. This is the personal attacker, the passive aggressive warrior. Whoever is usually on top is now at the bottom. Emotional overtakes.

Sun: It does not like being in the sign of Libra, but now that it will be ruled by Venus in Sagittarius giving Ms. International vibes (and US being a Sagittarius country itself), and is also the anchor of this T-square between two big planets, it is going to give more pressure to those with Libra/Sagittarius placements. Perhaps even literal heat? Leclerc will be the most affected, followed by Zhou and Magnussen. Verstappen has the natal sextile between his Libra Sun + Mars in Sag as well, but the stars favor Libra III sun Leclerc better right now.

Venus separating from Pluto, about to oppose Moon and detriment Jupiter

Most likely to affect: Sagittarius placements, namely Verstappen, Leclerc, and Perez (natal Mars in this sign); Piastri (Jupiter Return, now Rx**); Hamilton, Russell, Hulkenberg, and Colapinto (one planet in Sag, to a lesser degree than the others)

Most supported drivers: Venus doesn't do well in motorsports/the game itself, but it sure as hell will drive up connections and funding for whoever is here, especially since the US likes a certain type of branding in its racehorses. Affected Fire Venuses on the grid; Leclerc, Piastri, Hulkenberg, and Ocon

Venus: Finally a fire sign in the sky, so expect more fights and a lot more friction on the tracks.

Moon & Jupiter: Mercury-ruled placements will have more air for this game. Since a majority of the grid has significant air placements, this wouldn't really stand out for any single racer. Piastri might be supported if he doesn't go the way of the two others, while Colapinto and Zhou might be noticed (but it possibly might be a personal thing that's not significant to the race).

Grand Water Trine (by sign) from Mars, Mercury, and Saturn

Most likely to affect: Alonso and Albon, and to a lesser degree Sainz, Hamilton, Russell. Can't say whether it'd be personally significant to them because there's no confirmed birth time for most of them, but it would be fun to see who gets bolstered during this highly emotional weekend.

To summarize, my guess would be that Leclerc and Perez perform the best this week though it won't necessarily translate to a podium. Piastri is a wildcard. The air-fire mutable energy in the sky is highly conducive to the air-fire cardinal-heavy grid, and indicates a lot swapped positions.

This would've been more easier because whoever has the most prominent Jupiter placement would be the winner- but I make do with the information that I have and the limitations of what I can interpret. Incredible fun.

(side note: Pluto planting its generational butt firmly in Aquarius next year up to the next 20 years could also just signal a change in F1 overall. Of course it would be detrimental across the grid, considering that the EU had passed a gasoline car ban for 2035, and that particular legislation's effect on motorsports as a whole will be an interesting landmark case to watch.

It's not going to happen anytime soon- but F1 is a ticking clock, and we'll see the first major regulation changes directly affected by that law next season. It's not too far to assume that we will see the last generation of true motor-oil-smoke racers in our lifetime, which is why it's kind of crazy to watch all of them now, here.)

(30) 10:02 a.m. Oct. 18 (I had too much work to do lmao)

*there's a third one, which requires me to check their fucking astrocartography lines and see how lucky they are in Austin, Texas. But my weirdery also has limits. Such as the human need to eat food and get out of the chair.

**Piastri is also the only one who had a Jupiter return in Gemini still on the grid. Both Ricciardo and Sargeant have dropped out.

[chirpsythismorning]

What do you think about the possibility of El and Will not being exactly twins but half siblings? Maybe Lonnie was in the MK Ultra project for money and had an affair with Terry Ivis, so El was born. His sperm was affected, and Lonnie had another child with Joyce, who was born with repressed/hidden powers (I'm considering Jonathan was already born when Lonnie's balls were chernobyl'd). Then Lonnie took Will to the Lab a feel times for test, but they concluded he was born powerless, because he appeared to be a normal kid.

Upon coming across twelvegate, I did initially go down this rabbit hole! I made a shit-post about the possibility of Lonnie being both Will and El's dad, but more recently I've expanded on that evidence in an ask, discussing why I basically don't think that is the case anymore.

The main thing that makes me so confident about this, is that I'm certain Terry isn't El's 'mama'. Like pretty much 100% certain.

There are a few posts where I discuss this (here, here, here) so definitely check those out if you want a deep dive to better understand where I'm coming from with that claim.

To be fair, I did not subscribe to this up until recently. It was as if my brain blocked me from even merely considering the possibility that Terry isn’t El's mom because of how tragic her whole situation was. And so it felt almost insensitive to even speculate, I guess?

But as of now, after actually going back and watching her scenes for myself, as well as flashbacks featuring her that resurface in future seasons, I think that if anything Lonnie is a roadblock to the truth, in the same sense that Terry is. Because the evidence that Terry isn't El's mom is too alarming to ignore. Like, once you see it, it becomes very obvious they've always been trying to hint this to us, as subtly as possible, and they did it successfully bc it went over everyone's heads.

And so since Terry isn't El's mom, and there are certain details tying Terry to having some sort of connection to Brenner (ie Papa/Mama, Bonsai trees, Hopper's line about Terry's 'relationship' with Brenner), then it's very likely that, in the original timeline/universe or whatever we want to call it, Terry could have worked closely with the lab in some capacity, though ended up supporting Joyce’s claims over allegations about the lab and experimentation, ie. the article at the end of s1 including Joyce/Terry's testimonies. And so she was basically a confidant to them who went against the lab and was lobotomized for it and placed in a scenario that blocked out the truth very conveniently for them, while also essentially punishing her.

And when it comes to Lonnie... That is where it gets very complicated. Because I think it's likely that in the OG timeline, Lonnie was not the greatest guy. I think there was a lot of scary subtext surrounding him harming Will in s1 and it's possible that this dude has been given the role of their father in this timeline, which in the original timeline he is not. He's essentially Stranger Things' very own Biff.

This does make me very intrigued about what is going to be revealed in 'The First Shadow' play coming soon. We're said to get the backstory for not only Joyce and Hopper but also Lonnie and Bob (and Henry) apparently, so that is making for some interesting potential Back to the Future parallels from Marty’s parents’ 1955 timeline vs Willel’s parents’ 1959 timeline. Also the synopsis being young Joyce Maldonado and Jim Hopper dealing with the shadows of the past...

Arguably, it is crunch time. We're approaching the final season and this is a revelation that a lot of the audience are probably not going to be ready for, despite a lot of the hints in the details. I presume they wont have much time in s5 to rehash the mysteries of the past, beyond glossing it over, and so this was honestly a perfect way for them to go back and give context for what is to come in a really unique way that is canon, but without having to cram too much into s5 like they had to for s4.

I do think that Lonnie is very likely to return in s5. Though he referred to Hawkins at its most tame as a hell hole, so idk if he would be running back there during an apocalypse, seeing as everyone else seems to be trying to get out ASAP. It is possible though, and yet I just really don't think his arc is about this series long secret that he is both El and Will's father. If anything I think the revelation is much darker in relation to what truly happened to him and El, possibly in relation to the lab, as he could indeed have been an MKUltra volunteer like you said. It could also help to go read up on some of the cases/allegations put against MKUltra back in the day bc, though it is quite disturbing in parts, it could very well hold the answer to at least some secrets seeing as this is partially based on a real life program that did exist back in the day.

If Lonnie was their dad, I think he would have been a lot more prioritized in the overall story over the seasons, and yet they kind of introduced him in s1 with only a couple references to him in passing since then. If anything it's giving we do not want to give this character too much acknowledgement in the story.

I think a return for him would perhaps look like the storys way of revealing to us that he is not actually their father. Either via flashbacks to the og timeline or perhaps vecna visions at a point when we’re still assuming this is Will’s dad. I do think he very likely is connected to the darker secrets behind what really happened though, related to Will and El's original disappearances, leading up to them in the lab presumably.

I won't claim to understand the memory/time-loop nonsense, because I think that it could also have a lot to do with Will's powers related to time and therefore probability perhaps, which ties really well into the whole X-Men 134 reference. And yet, obviously, I feel like it's too much to try to be certain about which angle go at it, despite having a lot of the pieces to perhaps figure it out? Bc we can guess all day what Will's powers will look like, but we still don't really know for certain? And so going too far beyond that feels like too much guessing to me.

I will say that what makes me even more confident about this theory, even more than the Terry evidence, is just the heaps of evidence connecting Will and El from the very beginning, and how that also connects to Joyce and Hopper more often than not.

If you're open to looking at evidence related to the whole Joyce + Hopper = Willel twins + Jon ? gate (?), or even just how byler also fits into this, bc tbh a lot of the evidence connects, these are a few posts below that might peak your interest. And this isn’t even all of it.

This is the MAIN one so if you read any of them, read this (first and foremost)

Twelvegate Evidence going back to s1 and oh so many unanswered questions

Twelvegate Evidence going back to s1 + Willel Twins

Deer Imagery following The Hoppers/Byers Family

David Harbour cryptically changing his IG pfp to twins, multiple times before S4 dropped:

The fact that Star Wars' big plot twist was that Luke/Leia were twins... That the Duffers are twins... That Noah Schnapp is a twin... 'IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT (MIKE), THEY'RE IDENTICAL'...

El: Me? I'm twice as happy now *cut camera to estranged twin Will opening van door for him and El*

The Wright Bros

Parallels between El being confronted, with Will standing by frozen

"She missed her dad. We all do."

El and Will reuniting at Nina and the remaining timestamp is 12:00

"Mom!"

I will alway say that I am subject to be wrong. The only thing I'm very confident about now is that Terry isn't El's mom, and it just so happens that everything else sort of falls into place after that.

[papasbaseball]

15, 17, 24 🩷

Thank you for the ask, Roach💗💗💗

15. 5 most influential books over my life time

La Symphonie Pastorale by André Gide: An absolutely wild ride from start to finish, but I think it definitely laid foundational groundwork for me writing about fucking religious authority figures about 6 years later. Crazy that I read it for actual college credit.

Dracula by Bram Stoker: Another Epistolary novel. I re-read it every October and my favorite scene is when the Count forces Mina to drink Johnathan's blood. Peak 19th century subtle eroticism.

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald: I will forever be chasing the musicality that he managed to capture with every single sentence. Poetic language is a big deal to me.

The Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux: Quite literally saved my life. I grew up in an abusive household so from the ages of 10-17 the Phantom became a comfort figure. I used to pretend that he would be watching over me and I read my copy of the novel so much that the pages started falling out.

The Bible: Not in a fun way, but I can't deny that being raised in a fundamentalist household has proven useful later in making religious references and having a leg up in analyzing art and writing for those references. I do think the book of Esther and Revelations is sexy af tho.

17. Would you say Tumblr is a fair representation of the real you?

I used to be a Tumblr native. I left back in 2017 and only recently came back. Part of me feels a little alien in the environment. I don't always feel like I'm doing everything right and tend to hold back on expressing my true self bc I'm afraid that I'm doing it wrong and I'm too weird. I think the real me is not necessarily cut out for the 2020s internet. I often wish I could relive 2013-2015.

24. Have you ever felt like you had a mind-meld with a person?

A few times in my life. I'm pretty reserved for being an ENTP but I can be quite outgoing if I do find my right crowd. I've been making more of an effort lately to make friends. My life experiences and neurodivergency make it difficult to really understand most people, but I've been really working to overcome those and try to "fit in". It's difficult, but it's worth it.

[creaturefeaster]

Whats the deal with Calamea and Atrox?? Also Calamea lore/art please 🥺👀

I didn't have any recent Calamea-specific art, but Atromea is the next best thing.

I'm assuming you mean what's up with their dynamic, as a duo. To put it short and simple, they are an uncomfortable experience for everyone, themselves included. The only thing keeping them a duo is the fact that Calamea revels in the unease of other people.

Their long deal is this:

Atrox, a very light shade of pink, is a very fragile color as he is past the visible spectrum (red to violet). Descending on his own would be difficult, and it would be likely that he wouldn't make it past the transition of realities. Because of this, Calamea (his partner*) offers to protect him during the descent. They hold on tight together during The Fault, and upon their collision into reality they fuse together as one.

*Calamea is never very kind to Atrox, and Atrox thinks rather lowly of himself as a result. So Atrox both thinks he doesn't deserve better, and also thinks that by being in a relationship, he is keeping Calamea tame and under control.

So they are together as one when they take their first steps in the physical reality. They're more shaken and weak than most other mimes when they arrive, but it's better than Atrox not making it at all. Plus, it means he can still keep Calamea on the tame side. So he thinks, at least.

Calamea instead reigns dominant in this mushed duo, causes Atrox great guilt and grief through the actions he feels he had a part in, and after enough stress he forces a split. Calamea did not want this, because she knew it made Atrox uncomfortable, knew it was probably irreversible, and wanted the control.

The worst of it all is that Calamea realises alone, she is not what she expected to be, finds that they swapped a few qualities with each other, in a way, and only begins to treat Atrox worse.

This is why I've said many of the mimes don't really like Calamea, with a few exceptions. She not only messes with Atrox for fun, but she also just does what she does to make everyone uncomfortable. That, and just the way she chooses to enjoy herself also squicks people out in general.

Aside from her. twisted relations. Calamea is also really pretty smart. She's much more calculating than people realise, and it's why Rede and her get along... kinda. She is a part of a previously mentioned group that helped launch The Fault-- the arrival of their kind into the physical plane-- into reality.

She likes to get herself caught up in people's business, specifically people who she thinks are dumb's business, because it means she'll find a way to fuck up whatever it is they're up to. Because that's fun, or whatever. She likes to hang out with Twiddle and Jarna a lot, if that means anything. Also really likes to mess with Tanner's trio. 🤷‍♂️

Anyways that's a bit about Calamea, and her tie with Atrox. Leaned more on Calamea's side bc that's what it looked like you wanted, so not much Atrox lore for this ask <:3... Atrox needs a break from Calamea anyways.

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good morning! food bloggin tiem!

I've gotten a LOT done on my paper so far so I'm proud of that, but my fear is cutting it all back out again due to length, plus I really need 5-10 more references from 2019 or sooner and so far both papers I've referenced do not fit that

how am I supposed to stay under 45 pages double spaced when I also have to have 25 recent references in my lit review AND have a comprehensive analysis of my intervention and its effects on my students??? (then again, I am the type of person who doesn't understand how people can fit journaling into their morning routines bc I'll fill PAGES once I start writing)

I had my yogurt bowl and coffee for first breakfast (~200) and then homemade waffles from my mom that I had in my freezer for second breakfast ~4 hours later (proud of waiting that long, too!); had a coffee with a single serving of caramel cold cream from a spray bottle on top, and wow is 10 grams of that not a lot; I had to add an extra splash of milk to actually enjoy my coffee after all; waffles (two squares from one of those four square waffle makers, with margarine and sugar free syrup) and coffee all together were ~300, and I ended up not finishing them bc I was full!! (not gonna subtract any tho ;) )

which, while I feel full, it's like my need for taste sensation isn't satisfied yet? I'm going to have water with mio 0 c sweet tea flavoring added, which I've been trying and seems to work well; I guess I'm going to become a flavored water person??

my meal entertainment today has been annika's leaf vlogs, which are the perfect blend of aesthetic and realistic; yes, her breakfast is instagrammable and her gym sets match, but she still has to clean up crumbs and there are random vegetables smashed into the mats she has to avoid?? I mention her here bc I had a mini revelation: she went with a friend and got fancy 'coffee' (barely) drinks and cake from a cute cafe, had SOME of her drink while there, and then TOOK THE CAKE HOME FOR LATER

she didn't even try it at the cafe; she featured it next to her drink at the cafe in the vlog, and that was it! maybe this seems obvious to everyone else, but it never occurred to me that while yes, I can get the fancy cake from the cafe an hour from my house while I'm there with a friend, I don't have to eat it right then and there!!! sometimes I'd get nauseous feeling like I HAD to try and eat what I ordered wherever we were even tho I wasn't really hungry, and I didn't even realize this was an option!!

I feel like this is a holdover from being a kid; you HAD to get whatever it was right then and there with your mom/aunt/whoever bc who knew when you'd get to go back, but then my family at least would judge you for being wasteful if you didn't finish it NOW; I feel like this might be different for someone with a different family or regional culture, but food as a souvenir really was not a thing in my family, and now I'm understanding how that may have impacted my long term relationship with food: order everything you like the taste of NOW, bc you might NEVER get to have it again, and if you don't finish it before you leave that's WASTEFUL (and yes, we were a 'clean plate club' household, how did you guess? lmao)

I don't think I'll be able to address this aspect of my relationship with food until I've sorted out my finances (aka gotten a better paying job) and have more free time to go to these fun food places regularly and prove to myself that yes I can go back whenever I want so there's no need to gorge myself right now immediately

ugh, I wanna finish this paper but I don't want to go back to working on it ;_; ;_; ;_; I guess I could load the dishwasher at least??