#bc ofc hes not gonna be HAPPY about his sister being accused

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How. Ho the fuck do i write gregory. how do i put him in situations... i need to pick him apart..

[punkscowardschampions]

Liam & Edie

Liam: [a picture of Rio with her eyes crossed out like 1. Miss you and 2. Guess who I just talked to]

Edie: ofc she did 😑

Edie: what’s the damage

Liam: 0 to us I deflected the - to Lexie

Liam: do you want her framed for jumpscaring herself or is there anyone else

Edie: That’s all she cared about?

Edie: Bitch

Liam: it just didn’t take no time to convince her we’re perfect for each other

Liam: bc we are

Edie: yeah we are 🥰

Edie: surprised she copped to anything of the sort though

Edie: clearly can’t resist being nice to you

Edie: Lexie needs to calm down

Edie: 🤔 I mean, be kinda fucking hilarious if everyone reckoned she was doing it to herself

Edie: but maybe I’ve been too mean already 🥺

Edie: what do you think?

Liam: I think it’s pretty close to showing everyone her true colours if we do, Lex has gotta have been talking to your sister about me, I could tell, she thought I was a dick before I talked her round

Edie: She wouldn’t be happy for me unless you were a total 🤓 with no dick

Edie: that’s just what she’s like, crazy

Edie: but also not a stretch to see Lexie being a gossipy cow, I’ve heard her on other people before so

Edie: why would I give a fuck if her life is ruined

Liam: she basically accused me of wanting to hit you up for one reason and then wanting to immediately dip, if she thinks that’s what I’m like that’s only coming from one person

Edie: She’s pathetic

Edie: it’s clearly her saying it because you didn’t sleep with her

Edie: it wouldn’t be hard to spoof some shit, make it look like her

Edie: and she has nothing to say it was me, or you like she thought, and it weren’t no one else so she’s fucked, basically

Liam: [send her some shit that you’ve already started to work on because you knew she’d agree with this plan and the bits of the Rio convo where you said you’d try and find out and made it sound like you thought it was her but obvs it couldn’t possibly be hehe]

Edie: You’re so smart

Edie: She deserves this, she was definitely bitching about you, you can tell from how hard Rih said she weren’t

Liam: don’t be upset with me, but I was thinking about how Lexie also deserves to see us together and you happy and I invited them both to your show

Liam: you did say you want your family to take your music seriously

Edie: I’m not mad

Edie: You invited Rih too so she isn’t going to think you’re trying to get back with her

Edie: and I get to rub that and the fact I’m talented in her face?

Edie: It’s a good idea, baby

Liam: still, if you wanna create me in game and spend your time testing out different murder options, I won’t be mad, I should’ve asked you if it was a good idea before saying yeah to having us all there

Edie: [an 8-bit Liam but obvs we’re making an 8-bit us to smooch him not murder him, a lil gif moment of this or whatever it would be]

Liam: you only want a play through where we 👩🏼‍❤️‍👨🏻

Edie: that might make the thread 🤮 but idk if they’d be 😱

Liam: we’ll keep it off thread

Liam: [send her the floor plan to where your dad lives/holiday cottages so she can build it in sims like my boo would, live your dreams kids]

Edie: don’t need to make 50k nerds jealous, I get you

Edie: [just nerd out with that]

Edie: I’ll show you how generic the 👶 is

Edie: very rude

Liam: if the mods and cc don’t fix it, I’ll pretend I don’t 👀

Edie: the 👀 are already insane colours

Liam: no match for yours in real life

Edie: [pics forever]

Edie: [obviously also make your enemies to actually kill and send that]

Liam: if you sent it to Lexie nobody’d believe she created herself looking that accurate

Edie: harsh reality of a sim

Edie: the alpha CC does look like her facetune attempts, tbf

Liam: at least you can make her try to seduce the grim reaper instead of me

Edie: she’ll have ample opportunity to meet him

Edie: [all the dramatic deaths cut with her sim when they get hysterical]

Edie: I’m still mad at her

Edie: Rih blatantly thinking it was me too, not surprising but still 🖕

Edie: how’s it been today

Liam: only bc she knows how smart you are and most people who Lex hangs out with ain’t, I barely had to cover for you so she don’t really wanna think it

Edie: story of her life

Liam: how 😡 are you

Edie: it’s exhausting being mad at her, there’s nothing to do

Edie: people like Lexie, you can fuck with, or care even less than that

Liam: would it make you feel better to fuck with Lexie more

Edie: I wanna make you feel better more

Edie: you must be feeling as bored and crazy as me, if not more

Liam: if I could feel anything it’d be 💔 you’re not happy or here

Edie: is it worse

Edie: nothing

Edie: maybe that’s stupid

Edie: nothing seems preferable sometimes but only sometimes, which is maybe what takes it over feeling too much

Liam: it’s isolating, everyone expects me to feel too much, that’s acceptable, even years after

Edie: acceptance would be easier

Edie: you have me

Edie: no matter what

Edie: idc if no one else gets me, you do

Liam: I dunno what it says about people that they’d be happy if I was going round punching holes in walls but I know my ma would

Liam: she looks at me like she’s waiting for it, watching for a massive crack or something

Edie: they’ve got their reason, they want the reaction

Edie: then they can link a and b and ???

Edie: problem solved, not really

Edie: but they understand it and can wash their hands of you

Edie: that’s what they give a shit about

Liam: yeah

Edie: enough sympathy and hot meals dropped off and you’ll be ‘fixed’

Edie: you weren’t even the sick one

Liam: get enough hobbies, a part-time job, a girlfriend, move the fuck on

Edie: right

Edie: it’s so

Edie: I can’t think of the word

Liam: “she’d want you to be happy/have a life” no she fucking wouldn’t, she wanted it for herself

Edie: dead people get sainted

Edie: no room for who they actually were, better and worse

Liam: she’d hate me having any of those things just to rub in her face

Edie: what was she like, between being sick

Liam: I’ll show you

Edie: do you reckon she’d want you to remember what she’d want for you then, instead of how she was at the end

Edie: not to be like every other cunt about it

Edie: not that simple, or at all

Liam: she was a teenage girl, she’d probably want me to do more fitting in too until I’ve completed the coming of age shite milestones everyone else is, instead of telling other teenage girls from the internet how fucked up I am 😏

Edie: I think that might be a milestone so 👏

Edie: the bullshit of your sister not having her own life to live dealt with then, in this scenario

Edie: we have to find what you want

Edie: even if that’s not 🤵👧🐶🧒👰 with me

Edie: not gonna be Lexie about it, you know

Edie: I’ll still help you find it

Liam: I want you, not to be gay about it

Liam: to see where this is gonna go, how far I can take it before it ends

Edie: then let’s do it

Edie: what can I do today

Liam: what would you be doing if you could do anything

Edie: that’s the problem

Edie: I wanna be with you

Edie: but I don’t know what we’d do yet

Liam: I said I’d show you what my sister was like, the quickest way to do it is to act like nothing matters, your behaviour has no consequences

Liam: it’s not about me at all, only what you want, what’s gonna happen

Edie: and I can’t hurt you

Edie: because you don’t feel anything yet, yeah?

Liam: you can’t hurt me

Edie: you promise

Edie: do that and then we can do what I want

Liam: how do you want me to promise

Edie: 🤏🩸

Edie: mine is 📫

Liam: [brb father he’s gotta go draw some blood and put it into something she can wear as jewellery like Angelina Jolie and record the endeavour to send to the bae]

Edie: [that’s exactly what we gonna send, I know you can legit buy them so I’ll find a cool pic tah, his poor father so confusion]

Liam: [great minds boo]

Edie: kiss it better for me

Liam: [send her another video boy we’re in this deep]

Edie: god

Edie: okay, what do you do to relieve stress, let go and let off steam

Edie: do that

Liam: what do I do or what should you, bc I have an idea that I think would make you feel better about your sister

Edie: you can start by telling me what I should do because I’m intrigued

Liam: she said she’d lose it at Lexie if she did anything to you, if you lower your IQ by at least 100 you could have fun trashing her room but making it look like she did it herself to frame you, you’d have to wait til she was forced out with her family and bc there’s no check in or selfie proof everyone would just think they’re covering for her, but that’d be the only boring bit

Liam: your sister would feel bad for falling for it and believing you might be involved at all

Edie: I definitely don’t want to see her at mine ever again

Edie: I’ll do it

Edie: Bet she has a shrine to you

Liam: a curse would explain me being dead inside

Edie: she has no ✨

Edie: so whilst I’m ripping the heads off all her 🧸s

Edie: you’ve gotta do…

Liam: 🏊 the only thing there is to do

Edie: your da didn’t come prepared? 🔥🪓

Liam: he’d be prepared with a 🧯 more like but I don’t need his help 🔥🪓

Edie: you should see if anyone is around, like anywhere

Edie: see how easy it is to 👀 them without getting caught

Liam: it’s like you know me inside out

Edie: I do

Edie: I’ve got X-Ray 👀s

Liam: next time you miss me you can do an artistic rendering

Edie: of all your vital organs

Edie: not to kill the mystery and show myself up as a fake fan on the forums

Edie: but I think the outside view of you is a lot prettier 😳🥰

Liam: ok I’ll not send you any in the 📫

Edie: only the non-vitals, tah 😏

Liam: what’s left Alexis hasn’t got in her shrine

Edie: she 🥺 so hard you gave her your gallbladder

Liam: 10% risk of shitting myself side effects after it’s gone, 100% chance of that putting her off wanting to jump me, I’d do it

Edie: no need to do that now I’m here

Edie: no one is gonna wanna jump her when she’s outed as 😵🥴🤡

Liam: I’ll keep the scalpel sharp for lads who wanna get with you when they realise you’re 🤩🤓😎😇😈

Edie: I’m not complaining

Edie: I only want you around, ever

Liam: I’ll be going nowhere without you ever when I get back

Edie: Good

Edie: because I feel like

Edie: it’s like I’m doing so much to fill my time but I still just think about and miss you constantly

Liam: I’ll climb a tree and call you from the top

Edie: Describe your view the best you can

Edie: like I’m there too

Liam: facetime’ll make you feel like you are

Edie: not quite VR but I’ll take it

Edie: talking to you feels like our own 🪐 anyway

Liam: [do climb a tree and call her because what a mood just like you’re Elizabeth Allen]

Edie: [save that tree henny]

Liam: [do we wanna skip to his bday now or is there anything else you can think of that you wanna do while he’s still away?]

Edie: [hmm, we probably know the vibe, she’s busy with all the things they’re gonna continue when he’s back, also finding the first house they can break into and stay in, fucking with Lexie loads more]

Liam: [yeah and if we do think of anything specific later we can skip back it’s chill]

Edie: [let’s do it]

[icharchivist]

God it keeps getting worse i think i need to at least. ramble about it bc i’m really starting to bottle it all up and it’s frustrating me

i’ve moved away from home bc i can’t stand my family anymore and they all put me into too much amount of stress

my mom is also currently sueing my dad so he pays back the allowance he had stopped paying, illegally, those past few months, and she is already being heaviy about it bc she is putting herself even more in debt for that endeavor as if it wasn’t a mess already

and ever since the trial officially started my father keeps sending messages alongside a��“proposition” to avoid the trial all together (of course something that would be good for him y’know) He doesn’t say what the proposition is ofc, since if he writes it down he becomes engaged to it and he wants to avoid that; He just keeps taunting me into meeting him so he could make that proposition.

Meanwhile bc knowing my dad once we are done with the trial for him to pay back what he’s due, i’ve covered myself by hiring a lawyer  so later i could do a work so the allowance would be legally given to me, so my father doesn’t pull what he does to my sister ie blackmailling her into doing things if she wants the money he’s due to her but doesn’t have an official state document stating so

I should also remind that my fahter is very well off, like, very much so. this isn’t some petty scambling to get 2€ or something, the guy has a lot of money. He also holds back goods that belongs to us and would eventually bring us money that belongs to us.

anyway, birthday around the corner, my sister calls me to wish me a happy birthday- and start talking about what my mom had told her, that i moved away, and that we were gonna follow my father to court. So things my mom spilled to her. She tried to dissuade me, telling me not to.

She also worded what my father’s proposition was: to give us the money of the goods he’s withholding so he wouldn’t have to give the allowance instead. so basically she says that instead of the 780€ months i should just take the ~15k€ net, despite the fact the 15k€ actually belong to us and my father has no right withholding them (very long, propriety story not worth telling)

Anyway I told my sister the lawyer was mostly a protection not to talk about the rest and here we are since then:

my father knows that i moved away and knows where i live, which he had made sure to let me know through very ominous texts. He also keeps sending messages about the Proposition with emotional blackmail like he does so well. He also left a voicemail for that. He makes very clear my sister told him about my situation so he tries to have things going his way.

Meanwhile my mom, whom i don’t talk with much since i moved out, is still being harrassed by my dad and she complaisn about it everytime we talk so it adds to the very heaviness i was trying to run away from to start with (on top of her others problems like with my ex step dad)

Eventually today i brought to her attention that my sister had kept my father aware of my moves, without even accusing my mom, just that “what you told my sister about came back to my father’s ears”

My mom first started to defend herself that it wasn’t her who told my sister about my whereabouts which is... absolutly impossible (like my sister knew my friend paid for my caution since none of my parents helped out, she knew the name of the specific friend who helped out, so like... She has to know). But my mom rejected the blame. 

But apparently since then she’s also been yelling at my sister because of her telling my dad about it

which came back to my father’s ears who is now sending horrible messages because “how dare didn’t you keep our conversation between the two of us”, as well as well. Tasteful coments as always.

(”Since it doesn’t stay between the two of us. Your asshole of a mom is shitting all over your sister now. I remove myself from my good intentions. See you in court. It’s the judge who will decide since you refuse to grow up and take upon yourself the fact you decided to not do a fucking thing at 24yo. No more wanting to help you. Keep manipulating your mom, since she’s too stupid to understand your circus, but not enough still”. This is a rough translation of the text i’ve just received and no matter how much i’m used to those they always, always have an impact.)

He sent messages all day long and this is just... the last straw.

I’ve dealt with my father’s bad messages and never blocked him in case i could/should use his texts in court and all (which is such a fucked up way to see your dynamic with your family) but i ended up caving in and block him

and anyway i feel terrible about this whole situation despite knowing i have cause for behaving the way i do, that I can’t trust my family, and that every single of those problems that had got out of hands and are blamed on me were all based on my parents doing bullshit. and how they expect me to deal with their bullshit,that i somehow should control my other parent or something. 

And i hate how insidious it gets, how then it creeps into my mind thinking i’ve done something wrong for not playing in the hands of my parents, that i’m a bad person for such or such reason or how they twist my actions to fit their own narrative and i’m just... so tired of having to work everytime on the way i perceive myself to not get completely overwhelmed. And it adds to the general fear of not trusting my reality/my memories that I have had since forever with this family and honestly my only brink of sanity is having friends who had followed the case for a while and read my parents’s words directly so i am sure they have the raw thing and not however i would have “twisted it” (and even there it comes with its own weigh of guilt bc i throw at them a lot of heavy shits my parents send me and i wish i didn’t have to do this, it fucking sucks to read about. But i couldn’t have got this far without their help already).

This is exhausting and i’m tired and i hate that this is what i have to expect as family drama. 

I just want to be left alone. I’m so tired of it all and it drains absolutly all of my energy. 

I’ve left home because of that for crying out loud.

I just can’t wait until it’s finally all behind me and moving out was already a step forward but jfc is it always heavy to remember that 

So yeah when i meant a few days ago “woudln’t be a birthday without a family rama” this is the sort of things i am talking about and  i hate that this is my normal. 

God I have so much enough of this family i swear to god.