#bc now i dont even have him on my dash anymore... which im kinda happyabt bc it would trigger me lolz
Text
🖇
#felt a little bit more fine today...#i was thinking abt him and im ruminating abt everything he has said and done etc#but i didnt feel that sharp pain and intense dread#except now... when i suddenly started missing him so bad again#bc we dont even interact at all on tumblr and i miss when we did#i wish i could go back and not be scared#then i'd interact with him as much as i wanted (which is a lot) and just like#omg avpd is the most stupid bc when i like someone i pull away bc#im terrified of them rejecting me if i show them how much i like them#it's all so stupid and i regret it#bc now i dont even have him on my dash anymore... which im kinda happyabt bc it would trigger me lolz#sometimes when someone i follow rb a post of his my heart jumps#:((((( i just want him and to be with him and forget abt the world#and now since he didnt choose me i have to accept that and be on my own in this cold world#and it all just hurts and sucks so much bc all i want is to be in his arms#and live with him and breathe for him and be content and safe with him#i..... wanna cryyyyyy lmao#i really tried to be fine today but im not#i think sadly if im gonna be fine..#i need to stop using tumblr...#and only live irl :////#bc then i'll be further and further away from him and the place i found him#and i will get used to living irl and think of him less#but i think i dont really want that bc im so in love with him#idk what to do and i hate all of it and im scared and i wish i had told him what i wanted i wish he knew how much i love him#and i wish he loved me that much so he wouldve asked me......#he said that in the beginning he almost asked me to be his gf.... and i wish he just had
1 note
·
View note
Last Seen Blogs
art-istaough
Yostina
sketchbooksjournalsandmixtapes
The Multiverse Inside My Head
kazzledazz
KazzleDazz
ask-the-non-traffic-light-trio
ask_the_non-traffic_light_trio
bearofaman
Bear of a Man