#bc im not allowed to keep my phone near me so my mom is sleeping with me coz she keeps the alarm which is so dumb but wtv

[kaiserkisser]

Thats it im going to sleep i cant take any more physics jo hoga so hoga fuck it

[rainingspellforlove]

More than what it seems.

Finally a sunnew fic yeay. I already keep this prompts from so long though and i finally made it into a fic. Yes a platonic sunnew♡ i love how they are being denial for each other. I just love their dynamics! Still amateur but enjoy! Rip grammar btw sorry ahsjshsjshs

Friends. Chanhee and sunwoo are like a pair of shoes. They both go anywhere together. Eats together. Plays together. Shops together. Just anything.

They were friends since middle school even their personality is a whole reversal.

Sunwoo is like the extroverted type of person. He enjoys socializing. He had many friends and back then when he was in school he joins many clubs and he had been chosen as the school president. He was liked by everyone in the school bcs of his chill and kind personality. Meanwhile chanhee is a nerd. He likes to study a lot. He had few close friends. It was all his best frieds. He is like the introverted type. But when he had someone who's close to him, he talks a lot. Chanhee will tell his story from a to z to anyone who he feels close with. And he's the clingy type of person.

As the world commands, sunwoo met chanhee. they clicked for each other. Being friends since middle school until now, the sophomore year of college. Even for now, they lived together because their parents said they should save money and its better for them to live together. They grew from the same hometown and went to the same college for now. But different majors.

They acknowledged themselves as bestfriends since babies they said. They fought a lot but they adored each other a lot. It's how their friends describing it. It's like tom and jerry. Their reversal personality got them together. But as time passing by, they both get closer and closer. They never realized, it was never a bestfriends thing to do at this rate.

They got so close since high school. But it's because of their each other's friends introduced them together. So, younghoon is friends with sunwoo and changmin is friends with chanhee. But then changmin and younghoon is in a relationship so chanhee gets to know sunwoo because they will hang out a lot together. But ofcourse chanhee and sunwoo didnt date. They fought instead. They never put a feeling to each other. It's what they said for now. But who knows. They're like pair of shoes. Anything can happen. At first they just love to hang out a lot as 4 after school ends. But ofcourse younghoon and changmin will date separately after that, so sunwoo will hang out with chanhee a lot. As time passing by, they both gets closer. Sharing stories a lot. Calls each other a lot. Doing homeworks together. And crash at each other's house a lot. They play together and have fun together. In high school, these moments of their so called bestfriends things happened one by one.

Someday in their high school days. They went home together because apparantly their homes were in the same neighborhood. They took a bus to home.

"Sunwooya, dont you feel hungry?"

"Ehm little bit, are you hungry? Should we eat?" said sunwoo who sat beside chanhee in the back seat of the bus.

"ehmmm but im sleepy" chanhee said while leans his head to sunwoo's shoulder

"you can sleep for a while, and i will wake you up later"

Sunwoo carresed chanhee's hair and few seconds later,chanhee drown into dreamland.

They ate together in tteokbokki stalls near their houses. And chanhee was so hungry. So he ate messily.

"I know you're so damn hungry but look at your face fool"

Sunwoo took a tissue then held chanhee's chin and wiped his corner of the mouth from tteokbokki's sauce.

Chanhee just smiled with mouth full of tteokbokki he said

"Tfhankfyu sfunwoo"

"Eat first talk later" sunwoo answered

Then they went home walking. Sunwoo's house was like 2 blocks from chanhee's so sunwoo dropped chanhee first at his house. They walked side by side. As the clingy type chanhee was, he put his arm into sunwoo's arm while they walk together. He leaned his head in his arm while walking.

"Im so full right now. Im lazy to walk"

"Its your problem princess. How can you eat 2 portions. Cant believe the tiny body of yours can swallow it" sunwoo slowed his steps following chanhee as chanhee clings into him.

"Right. I didnt believe my stomach either. I guess i have good metabolism" chanhee said proudly

"Yeah whatever you said princess"

They arrived at chanhee's house after few minutes walking.

"See you tomorrow princess i'll pick you up like always dont be late!"

"Yeah, you can go in and wake me up if i dont wake up though haha my mom never wakes me up"

"Eishh your alarms are not functionable enough i think."

"You're my alarm though, you always goes to my room in the morning and wakes me up. My mom never does that bcs she said i must responsible enough but yeah it's hard to wake up in the morning haha pls wake me up okay dont leave meee for school pleaseee"

"Alright alright princess i'll brag into your house and wake you up" as sunwoo carressed chanhee's hair again roughly

"Eishhh my hair got messy!!"

"HAHA thats you deserved! Bye princess i'll go home right now"

"Okay bye"

They always like that. Sunwoo who cares for chanhee. And chanhee who clings into sunwoo.

The freshman year of college got them together again. They lived in the same flat. There were two bedrooms though. But in one room. They never knew they gets closer like a way bit closer for a bestfriends.

Chanhee is scared of the lightnings. When he still lives with his family, every heavy rain came, he will always brags into his sister's room and sleeps there. But it's just until his sister turned into a big girl, she never allows him enter the room.

Chanhee got scared and he cant go to sleep when it's raining. So back then in high school years, when heavy rain happened, chanhee called sunwoo.

Chanhee never thought he would answer though. Then sunwoo answered asking what happen. Chanhee just said he cant stand the thunder. So they would call on the phone until chanhee felt sleepy again. And sunwoo didnt mind. So they did this for couple of times every heavy rains happened.

The same goes for now, but in different situation. They lived together now and chanhee didnt need to call sunwoo.

That night in the first week of freshman year, rain was pouring hard. Chanhee woke up.

"Ugh why is it raining.. eish tomorrow i will get a morning class though"

"Should i go to sunwoo's..."

"But he's tired i cant disturb him.."

"What should i do..."

Chanhee said as he frowned and didnt know what to do.

The sound of the hard lightning is echoed through chanhee's room and he puts his blanket covering whole his body. Then he closed his ears too tightly feeling scared.

Chanhee didnt realize as he hides in his blanket, someone steps in his room and opens his blanket softly. Chanhee who's feeling scared as hell surprised at the person in front of him

"Yah why didnt you wake me up princess?"

"Im scared to disturb you, you seem tired from today's activity so i just-"

"No im okay. You can wake me up anytime fool if the rains pouring hard."

Then the thunder came again, chanhee went to close his ears again with his hands.

"Look at you. Chanhee-ya"

Chanhee didnt hear it and still closed his ears.

Sunwoo takes chanhee's hand from his ears and said

"I can cuddle you if you're okay with that"

"really?"

"Of course" sunwoo nods softly

"Then come here"

Sunwoo gets into the bed with chanhee who feelings scared, he puts his left arm to chanhee's head and pulls chanhee closer. Sunwoo's right hand just carressing chanhee's hair softly as chanhee hugs sunwoo tighter.

"There there..... until when can you not be afraid the lightning princess?"

"I dont know..."

"But for now as long as you with me, im okay" chanhee mumbled softly in sunwoo's chest

sunwoo just smiled and let chanhee sleeps in his arms safe and sound.

Their relationship slowly became as platonic as ever. Not only when the thunder appears, they eventually cuddled almost everyday. It was because chanhee always feels lonely in his room alone and he just went to sunwoo's room and snuggles into him.

In their free time, they always got azy and chill around in the bed..watched dramas or just sleeps all day long. And chanhee always came to sunwoo first and snuggled into him rightaway.

In a one fine day, on saturday night, they didnt go anywhere just chillin around in their flat eating popcorns while watching movies. They were both in chanhee's room. Chanhee who leaned his head to sunwoo's shoulder while sunwoo ate the popcorns and they both covered in blanket.

They often cuddled around like that in a free time. It seems they were comfortable and enjoying it.

"Oh please chanhee dont play horror movies"

"But i havent watched this."

"No you cant. You know i cant watch orror movies right pls dont"

"Its okay you have me anyway. Just cling into me"

They ended watching horror movie and as chanhee said, sunwoo was scared as hell and keep screaming. Chanhee laughed and told sunwoo for countless times that he must shut up. Sunwoo clings into chanhee for his dear life.

Chanhee just laughed looking to his best friend like this, he enjoyed this so much. Sunwoo ended hugs chanhee from the side and leans his head to chanhee's chest as he hides from watching the movie. Chanhee who just laughed and smiled all the time, circled his hand to sunwoo's shoulder and goes to his hair to carress it.

"Sunwoo ya, you seem tough and cool but look you're literally a coward for this kind of movie"

"It's scary though!!" said sunwoo who clings into chanhee harder

"Alright alright we move to another movie then" chanhee smiled while hugging the scared sunwoo into his arms tighter

Little did chanhee knew, he seems to start realizing about what this weird feeling that appeared in his heart.

-fin

[burningalight]

my binders/locker in grade school were stuffed with so much shit i couldnt find anything...always crumpled up papers, trash etc

chewed pencils/pens, broke them taking them apart in class, lost them, often didn’t have one, frequently borrowing them and forgetting to give them back to the point that certain people wouldn’t give me pencils

could comprehend reading i liked very well, but when we’d have reading groups with boring books id always be lost,  or when the teachers would have one on ones and have u read something short and ask questions after to assess ur reading level, they’d often have to tell me to read it again bc they knew how much i remembered didnt add up to my intelligence and reading speed 

moms college friend gave me an unoffical iq test and i did much worse than i know i shouldve on the reading portion bc she’d play a story and then ask me after to list every detail i could remember and i couldn’t remember anything. but when she played 10 numbers and asked me to say them out loud backwards i scored extremely high ?

couldnt do projects, would be in tears, last minute every time, parents mad bc i need a poster board RIGHT NOW ITS DUE TOMORROW . hated assigned reading, horrible at essays even when they helped us plan them. 

i remember my 7th grade social studies teacher assigning a paper, i wrote extremely detailed and well in the first paragraph or 2, and the following ones got shorter and shorter and were completely bullshit bc i got bored. she told me ‘really strong first paragraph.’ and gave me a B  

talk too got damn fast. customers constantly telling me to slow down bc they cant understand me

my mom always says she had to challenge me as a kid bc i would get bored and get in trouble. i was acting out bc i was understimulated, i happened to like learning (esp numbers and puzzles) bc smart so that’s what i could fixate on and felt stimulated by

lunch detention frequently in 8th grade in my first highschool class, algebra, bc i wouldnt do my homework, at one point he just stopped giving lunch detention for that bc i wouldnt do it. i hated that class bc the math was boring and i never paid attention but would somehow pull off a’s and b’s on tests so i ended up with a B. my first B, and i had brought that up from a D (told my mom it was almost a C, he gave a really hard test and we all did bad etc, when she had to sign a paper about my low grade) at the end of the year, during the exam i was so confused the whole time, it was my first highschool exam and i didn’t know ANYTHING. i ended up with a 92 from guessing, and a curve, and every one of my friends got at least a 93 or better and i felt so stupid bc i was supposed to be the best at math

i would take every highschool class in honors but not one english class bc it required more essays and summer reading and i knew i wouldnt do the reading and would cry over the essays

the only other class i didnt take honors was chemistry bc i knew the honors teacher had a lot of projects and i would be stressing over them. i ended up with an A in the standard chem class even tho i never finished any work in class and didnt do homework, but i was still the smartest in the class and did the best overall

lunch detention for forgetting to get papers signed like report cards. they weren’t even bad grades i just couldnt remember. one time i got actual detention for forging my moms signature bc i got lunch detention for several days straight bc i kept forgetting to get the paper signed 

often had permission slips waiting to be signed the day before the field trip, or told my mom it was picture day the day before or morning of. one time i totally forgot it was picture day and didnt dress up

acting out and not thinking ab the consequences, many referrals.. many more times that my teachers let me get away with acting out when someone else doing the same thing would’ve been punished. one time anna and i left in the middle of class to go with emma to the library, only emma had permission, and my teacher had anna and i do wall sits instead of going to the office. in gym in middle school i would never dress out. i hated the clothes and hated gym bc i was awkward and if we didnt dress out we had to copy pages out of the health textbook the entire time and i would barely write 2 paragraphs bc i was so bored and my hand hurt and he never did anything ab it. i wouldnt dress out at least twice per week if not more. told my mom I had a C bc he had it out for me but i was the problem

in elementary school if we didn’t come to gym day wearing the right shoes we had to go into the back and pick out a pair of sneakers that fit out of a box of shoes, and also borrow socks if necessary. i had to do this frequently bc i never remembered to wear the right shoes

i would extremely often forget my library books and have to sit on the couch waiting for everyone to pick out their books for half an hour

when we were even younger we’d have story time and you had to sit in the middle of the floor inside a big circle of chairs where everyone else was if you forgot your library books. i lost one at one point for months and my parents didnt just pay for it so i had to sit in the middle every time. we found the book on a shelf somewhere in the house 

my chorus teacher never liked me bc i talked too much and i always felt like the worst singer, not bc of my singing but bc she wasn’t ever nice to me

in 7th grade science we learned latin root words and every day we’d play a game where we all stood up and one by one he’d ask for a root and we’d give it. if you got it wrong on the first round you’d have to write it on a piece of paper x amount of times and turn it in. if you were the last person left you were allowed to sit on your desk for the rest of the year, during these games while everyone else had to stand up. i wanted so badly to sit on my desk, esp bc i was fidgety and couldnt stand still, but i would never study them bc i’d forget or not want to if i did remember, even tho i really wanted to know them and sit on my desk. that teacher had a huge soft spot for me and one day i just started sitting on my desk during those. everyone knew i was smart, and it was all the smart kids who got to sit on their desks, so no one questioned it. im not sure if he knew i wasnt supposed to and just let me, or didnt realize i hadnt won bc i was smart. 

hyperlexia? mom said i could practically read before i was taught. i’ve always obsessively air written, ie writing words out w my finger in the air, on my leg etc. 

esp during lectures i doodle excessively to the point that my papers margins have always been covered with random scribbly overlapped words, or song lyrics. the words are usually something someone in the class said. ive started keeping an extra sheet of paper just for scribbling when im taking notes or listening in class. when we finished end of year tests in school i would write down full lyrics to songs on my scrap paper so i wouldnt be so bored. my hand cramps up so much but it was better than staring or trying to sleep with the lights on 

doing things and forgetting to turn them in

hyperfixating on books to cope w boredom and social anxiety, at one point read one per day, i was definitely one of the most frequent people in the library 

‘ The way I see it is if I can get information into my mind, I can do a lot with it but getting it in there in the first place is the really difficult part.’ - not mine

none of my teachers ever told my mom any of this i dont think, bc i was the smartest and i always got good grades, most had a soft spot for me BUT COULDNT SEE I HAD ADHD like damn. one time my fourth grade teacher whom i liked a lot was mad at us and indirectly calling people out, and referred to the fact that some of us never stopped talking , then made direct eye contact with me and i felt rly embarrassed bc i didnt realize i did that until she mentioned it

i often had to move seats if i was near friends bc i wouldnt stop instigating talking

at big lots when i had to run the register i was so painfully bored , fidgety, had to sneak my phone soo much bc i was so bored. when i was on the floor i would put away the go backs very quickly and then take upon myself a project like going through the entire wall of individual drinks and pulling out all the expired ones, it was like 5 carts full. my manager put me in charge of organizing the entire makeup section and all the gross clearance makeup bc she knew id do it the best and fastest 

when bosses have me do inventory i can count the products super fast and efficiently, but then when they have me put them into a spreadsheet i stare at it for hours getting nothing done bc distracted and its boring. ammar told me if i’d just get off my phone i could get it done bc he’d been asking for it for weeks, i wasnt trying to ignore it 

when im trying to do something at work that needs more concentration, i want to cry with frustration whenever i hear the door chime and have to get up and help customers and break my focus

[k-mxrt]

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words: 724

Arriving at the bus, Jonah yawned. The ever growing sound of other students chattering didn’t bother him much today; they were being quieter than usual. Jonah sat down, already beginning to feel sleep taking over. But he rubbed his eyes, trying to keep it at bay.  He looks around trying to see if any of his friends made it on to the same bus; And to his disappointment, he couldn’t find anyone.

Jonah sighed, and fished his phone out of his pocket; only to find it was on %3 percent. He sighed louder.  He slid his phone into his backpack and settled on looking at the details of the bus.  He starts by looking at the many, many ads plastered on the walls and ceiling. Ads for sugary soft drinks, ads for sports, ads for a home mortgage, it was all there. One ad, in particular, was interesting; it was covered in many neon colors and was advertising an energy drink that probably had enough caffeine in it to kill a horse. Jonah chuckled, his friends were probably going to try and make him drink it later.

              Looking around, Jonah eventually focused on the window right next to him. He could see the coastline and busy boardwalk. He spots some children waving at the buses as they go by. He almost waves back, but he realizes that they likely wouldn’t see him. He lets his eyes unfocused from the world outside the bus and onto his own reflection.  His brown mob of curly hair was being crushed by the window and the seat he was sitting on. He could barely see the tan ish color of his skin in the reflection, but he could definitely see the dark bags under his green eyes. It’s been a long day.

Suddenly, a feminine voice sounds over the intercom.

“Good evening everyone! Our next stop is the OceanView Department Store! Please make sure you have all of your belongings before leaving your seat. Have a nice day!”

Jonah thought for a moment.

‘I should go and get some groceries; Mom did ask me to go after all.’

He quickly pulled up his backpack onto his lap and scooted over to the edge of his seat. He felt the bus slowly come to a stop and jumped up. Slowly, the bus doors opened up and allowed him and 10 other people exit the bus.  Jonah looked up at the enormous department store.  It looked more like a giant glass sculpture to him, rather than a store. But, it was the only reliable store near his house; so he wasn’t complaining much. He briskly walked towards the entrance, the summer heat made even hotter because of his black sweatshirt.  Pushing one of the big double doors, a burst of mainstream poppy music almost deafened him.

Jonah winced audibly; he had to stand there for a second while his ears got used to the noise. Once he started moving again, he walked towards the elevator. The elevator was made to hold about 30 people, which made just as huge as the rest of the department store. The elevator itself was surrounded by a fountain; with many plants growing inside and outside the water. There are rumors that there are fish in the fountain too, but the company that owns this section of the store have denied it.  

As Jonah walked over the bridge to get to the elevator, he heard a sound. It was a small noise; barely audible over music playing, but it was noticeable. Jonah stopped walking and looked around. It didn’t seem like anyone around him noticed the noise, so he brushed it off and started walking. But then he heard it again.

“Pssst.”

Jonah felt like he was going insane. No one around him seemed to hear it, and no one looked like they were trying to get his attention. And then he heard it again.

“Psssssst.”

Jonah looked over the side of the bridge; knowing that he heard the sound coming from there. The fountain always looked as if it had no bottom, there weren’t any tiles to indicate any bottom. All Jonah could see was a dark abyss- wait. Was that a face? Jonah started to lean over the ledge more, trying to get closer. He leaned farther and farther.

He fell in.

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