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what about early in jj and r’s relationship the team goes out for drinks, and it’s the first time jj sees r in something other than work casual clothes. either a dress or something less formal idm, but im obsessed w the idea of jj just being floored by finally seeing r in something other than work clothes. ps love ya🫶🏻
So Fucking Good
pairing: jennifer jareau x fem reader
category: smut
warnings: smut, fingering r receiving
word count: 750
summary: jj sees you outside of work in a dress for a first time and she thinks you look really good
a/n: love you too :) 🫶🏼 i added some smut bc i thought you would like it
I fluffed my hair up a bit before getting out of my car and heading into the bar. The whole team was meeting up to celebrate closing our last case, I wasn't planning on going until I heard that JJ was coming. We couldn't go together because we didn't want anyone knowing we had started a relationship and going out with the team was the only time we could see each other outside of work.
I stepped into the bar and smiled as soon as I saw Penelope. She looked like she was already a few shots in and she ordered more as soon as she saw me walk in. "Where's everyone else?" I asked her.
"They're over there, dancing. I'm sticking to drinking." She gave me two thumbs up before taking another shot. I scanned the dance floor until I saw JJ, she was smiling over at Spence, making my blood boil a bit. I tore my gaze away from her and back to Penelope.
I felt a small tap on my shoulder and I turned around. Once I saw JJ's face my eyes lit up. "JJ! Hey!" I wrapped my arms around her neck, pulling her into a hug, forgetting we were in front of Penelope but she was probably too drunk to remember it anyways.
"You look stunning." She whispered in my ear, making me moan a bit. She knew how to turn me on. "I've never seen you in a dress before."
"Well..." I pulled away from the hug. "Now you have."
"I can't wait to get out of here." Her fingertips trailed along my ass before Penelope looked back towards us. My whole body shivered as I found myself leaning against JJ.
"More tequila?" Penelope offered.
"Yes please." I took another shot, feeling JJ's eyes on me. "You have to stop looking at me like that, people are gonna find out."
"Well it's really hard to stop looking at you when you look so fucking good." She whispered so soft only I could hear. "You should wear stuff like this more often. At my house. So I can take it off." I choked on my next shot, Penelope looking at me with a concerned look.
"I'm fine." I whispered. "Just...bathroom." I put my hand on my chest before going to the bathroom. JJ followed close behind, her excuse being that she wanted to check to make sure I was ok.
We locked the door to the bathroom as she pushed me against the wall, kissing me harshly and grabbing my breasts. "You look so fucking good in this dress. I can't look away from you." She started kissing down my neck, making my mind a fuzzy mess.
"JJ..."
"What is it baby? Tell me what you want? I'll give it to you."
"Your fingers. Please."
"Yes ma'am." She left hot wet kisses down the other side of my neck while dipping her fingers into my panties. I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her into me, wanting to feel every inch of her on me.
She shoved two fingers into me without warning and I had to bite back a moan by biting on her shoulder. She fingered me roughly, determined to pull every sound out of me. "Please...please please." It was the only word I could bring myself to say.
"Please what honey? I can't understand you."
"I need to..." My legs were becoming jello underneath me as I got closer to my climax. "I'm so close...please." I moaned into her neck.
"Shh, I'll get you there baby." Her voice softened a bit. "Just stay quiet for me. You don't want anyone to hear, do you?" I shook my head, it was finally registering that we were in the bathroom of a bar.
"JJ- I'm gonna-"
"Cum for me sweet girl." She kissed my lips to stifle my moans as she fucked me through my orgasm. "So good...You did so good for me, so good." She licked off her fingers before pulling me into a hug. "Such a good girl for me." She rubbed my back while I caught my breath, wrapping her arm around my waist as we walked out. Penelope's eyes widened at my state.
"What happened?" She saw how sweaty and red I looked.
"Panic attack." I whispered, sitting down and wincing as my legs started to cramp.
"Oh." JJ gave her look to tell her not to press before she leaned in and whispered in my ear.
"We'll finish later."
#criminal minds#jennifer jareau#x reader#jennifer jareau x reader#lgbtq#wlw post#jennifer jareau x you
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Ok, so the summary of today's day (it's fun, you know I'm a writer, so I can make it fun):
Before the concert+the concert
I went out. It didn't rain. I got to the city centre and it was raining like hell, but of course I didn't have an umbrella... I had my leather jacket though. Leather jackets are useful, because you can take them off and cover your hair and they don't get wet. But when I got there, it stopped raining, yay! Lucky me 😆
I got there maybe an hour before the doors? I would get an usual spot at the barrier on the side, but a girl was keeping it for her friend, so I let them have it and went to the middle. It was scary at first, because I never know what my happen and it's hard for me to stand for too long (which everyone knows, because I talk about it here a lot), but as usual the BC fandom here is very chill and most people were super nice and friendly and polite to each other, it's one of the main reasons why I love their concerts so much 💖
Most of the time I didn't see much, but Joel and Joonas got many interactions, if I find videos of those, I'll let you know! I had Joel right in front of me almost all the time, I could see his red snoot and wet upper lip, and he hit his face with the chain all the damn time... this guy 😆. Honestly, I had more fun there, in the 3rd row, than at the barrier on the side. Maybe it's because I was close to Joel, dunno 🤣. But it was probably my best BC concert so far, because I finally managed to relax and my anxiety was on a very low level. It really makes a huge difference!
Oh, and of course I lost my hairband with a big red bow. All because of Ghostkid's vocalist! I was filming Dark Side and he got near the crowd, I had no idea he was going to jump into it, because I'm small, I barely can see what's going on with everyone around being so tall. So he knocked off my hairband and I managed to catch my classes on time 😭. But I did catch him somehow, I made sure he didn't fall. Also damn, this guy is so light! Even with my health issues I feel like I could carry him myself easily. Also I'm not super sad about the hairband, if someone found it they can keep it, it's just a funny story 😂. If I lost my glasses, THEN I'd be upset. Because glasses are expensive. Btw I literally have it on video, I have proof! It's the funniest part of it 🤣
We also got another "kurwa bob" moment and Niko got a flower crown in the colors of the Polish flag! I even managed to take a quick photo (as I said, my camera is shite):
(he took it off soon after, so I was lucky to catch this moment on my camera, also hi Joel you look awful here, but so do I in most of the photos and you're still my fave edgelord 💖)
Meeting the band after the concert
I wasn't sure if it was worth to wait for them. It was still a bit rainy and the last day bus was leaving in 30min (night buses arrive only every 30min, so it's a pain in the ass). Most people have left, there weren't many of us left, maybe ~20 people waited? But I thought I don't get to see them live that often, so what the hell, I'll wait.
There were staff members and guys from the supporting bands walking around freely (everyone is always polite and we let them work in peace, it's why I love the fans here, they don't chase anyone away 💖), even Olli just walked around unbothered (I think only I noticed him at that time tbh, but I ain't a snitch hehe).
Tommi and Aleksi just went to the bus and it's understandable. Tommi is just Tommi and Aleksi was sick. All of the other guys actually stayed with us to talk and I've never had such a long interaction with them before! I feel even luckier and I'm so happy that I stayed 😍
I think everyone knows Joel is sick, so we didn't want to bug him too much. He was nice enough to let us take some photos and let us give him hugs, and he was pretty much braindead 😂. But it's understandable, he's usually braindead and he's also sick, so it's worse. I'm happy I could give him a proper hug this time, because the first time I met him I was too scared for one. The 2nd time I asked for one and patted his shoulder nervously. But this time? I just hugged him with no fear! I'm making progress here 💖
Niko is always the most friendly one, so we had a chat with him and he asked what does kurwa mean (really dude? you have no google in your phone?) and I told him it's like vittu, other people added more information, and I said he should google it, he'll find funny things. Niko, please. Just google it, dude 😂.
I also hugged him and he has a really soft coat, which other girls pointed out and he joked he's wearing nothing underneath, because he's Finnish and isn't cold (a deja vu moment, because there was exactly the same situation in Poznań before: "Niko, aren't you cold?" "No, I'm Finnish"), so I also told him it used to be much colder here in general, because we did have very cold winters before. It's always fun talking to Niko 💖
The next one was Olli, but I'm leaving Olli for the last part of the story, because it's the best. Now, I did hug Joonas and got a photo with him, but my brain is totally blank if we actually did talk to him. I think not really? Uh, dunno 😂. But it was a positive interaction as well 💖
Now, Olli. Everyone knows I just couldn't like the guy because of his crazy stans, so I was "meh" about him, but actually meeting him properly just changed my mind. He's really easy to talk to! But I really didn't think I'd manage to come up with an interesting topic, I usually have nothing to say and I'm horrible at asking questions.
My brain decided to ask him about Silent Library. It basically went like:
Me: "So I watched this show, Silent Library Suomi, and you were getting all these red cards. Was it done like that on purpose, or was it just a coincidence?
Olli (grinning): "it's called back luck"
Now, if you watched their vlogs and he had those funny moments with puns everyone loved, IT WAS LIKE ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS. But I don't have it on the camera (which is ok, I did that just for myself).
He explained it really was accidental and no one was plotting against him (I did joke that Joel maybe did 😂). I think he enjoyed talking about it, because I doubt anyone would get an idea to ask him about this show (though I might be wrong).
So here you go, it's called bad luck. That's it. I got the info from the man himself 😂
But, there's more. The girl who was taking photos of us had a malfunctioning phone and accidentally took a photo of his feet and he was wearing flip flops (she did show it to him too lmao). I'll share it as soon as I get it. Also she came up with a joke that I already told her I'm going to steal:
OlliFans
(feet pic coming soon 👌)
We all laughed really loud at it (Olli wasn't there anymore, so we=us girls), so I'm releasing it into the world, because it can't be kept in containment 😂
That's it for now, more video content coming tomorrow (cause I'm tired)
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making a massive sonic movie 3 spoiler post to get all my insane thoughts out in a place with 1) no character limit and 2) functional tags + tools lol
don't look unless youve seen it! or if you're ready to lose a measurable amount of respect for me!!
if you had told tiny little 12 year old me that someday people would not only NOT flame Amy simply for existing in this cast, but that she would have people screaming and clapping for her in public?? she wouldve called you a cruel liar! but youre not! and its finally her time!!!
I'M SO HAPPY IT WAS HER I'M NOT EVEN MAD MY SILVER PREDICTION WAS WRONG LOL (tho i did think silver wouldve been waaaaaay too much too soon and i'm glad they agreed thank god)
i had her with me ofc bc she came with the set and its like they knew they had to complete it and now i want to CRY
i dont even know if i can expand on the fact that SHE saved SONIC???? will that flip the script?? is metal her rival rather than his at first??? and why on earth did they show half of that scene in the TRAILERS????
anyways, i'm so glad they let Shadow be SILLY! even SXSG shied away from the stuff they had him do here! that boy was towing Maria around the labs and having movie marathons and making snow angels and its like every little piece of domestic fanart I've seen of them came to life and it was perfect
its still sooo fucking funny to me that they really went all-in on "50 years ago is now the 70's" bc that aesthetic worked like a charm and i can't imagine anything else now. it is kinda jarring that theyre not on the ARK and Maria isn't sick but ofc the narrative still works without those facts. people are gonna be a bit upset about that one, but out of allll the plot holes this movie has (they NEVER explain how tf Gerald is still alive btw), that's one that's pretty easy to step over
there was one part with Gerald yelling "KIDS!" and both of them turn around and it just GOT me right thru the heart like yes!! he was a kid, too!! in between all the tests and labwork, he was learning how to live and they took it all away from him right when he was starting to figure it out :(((((
their first meeting here might be so good it deserves to be canon, i'm just saying. i think that'll make me cry on the rewatch for sure
i wonder if he's just gonna chill in that random field in oklahoma like when he landed the first time lol. he deserves some peace and quiet now especially since they went with the angle that he FELT all 50 years passing?? just lived the worst moment of his life over and over and over??? holy fuck
it did kinda fuck me up in the beginning bc they kinda-sorta imply that the accident was SHADOW'S fault, then they make you wait till then end for the full flashback, where not-commander-tower actually tried to save them but the solider fired anyway
they might have fucked around and accidentally made the most tragic/angry version of Shadow bc he not only got to stew on his anger for decades, but they literally gave him a Superman origin and Gerald was just the scientist assigned to figure out wtf he was actually lol. so you just KNOW they have a "press in case of BLACK ARMS INVASION" button ready to go for another movie so he can have another identity crisis when he finds out he's literally a herald of destruction!!!!!!!!
oh yeah this movie was supposed to be about sonic actually huh
i think i agree with the general reaction that his character is really great here! the first 20 minutes are basically every trailer we've seen in sequence, so his jokes & one-liners feel top-heavy and then they even out, esp as the later acts kick in and there's no more time for games lol. those trailers are doing him a bit of a disservice now bc compared to the eggmen, sonic is hardly that obnoxious in the full film, but the marketing doesnt care ofc
The Scene that mirrors Shadow's last moment with Maria is SO GOOD, i'm kinda shocked they didn't have him turn right there (but i'm glad that it was Sonic that made him turn, and that he got to throw some of his rage right back at him in process)
Kinda goddamn wild that for a moment it seemed like Shadow had fully killed a human, onscreen, in front of god and everybody. I actually wondered if he could still come back from that, for a minute.
it seems to be a common opinion that they went a bit too far with the jim carrey-isms, and i agree. i generally felt like it was an ok balance for awhile, then they cut into LIVE & LEARN with gerald spanking ivo and i actually sighed and cringed. you dont cut into live & learn for anything, but especially that!!!!
god, i need that orchestral remix like yesterday, its already bad enough we have to wait till christmas for SXSG soundtrack! GIVE IT UP ALREADY
best jim carrey scene was the doomed yaoi speech, oh my god
RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU HEARD "I AM THE EGGMAN" ON HIS PHONE AND SCREAMED, TOO
losing it at how they literally assigned shadow to hangout with stone and he was just like "ok" and they watched tv together lol
Stone was fucking awesome when he actually had scenes to himself holy fuck Lee get that bag!!
REVENGE GUAC!!!!!!!!!!!!
putting my tinfoil hat on and claiming the novela scenes and guac bit as an acknowledgment of Shadow's loyalty to the latinas, as a latina myself this is within my power
as a whole, bits like the novela and team knuckles are soooo much stronger and natural than the mandatory dance scenes and branding shoutouts, god i hope that sticks in whatever comes next!!
i understand no one liked the wedding scene in 2 but i LOVED it and was kinda sad that special agent derek morgan was just a disguise here but the way they used him was great, so i guess i'm just glad they kept him around
director rockwell just kinda? came outta nowhere and then disappeared to nowhere?? oh well her character was just kinda filler huh. and here i had a crackpot theory that she was rouge in disguise lmao
am i stupid or have we NEVER gotten a super sonic vs super shadow before?? i cant remember every detail of things like sonic x, but of mainline stuff??? they mightve given us a first?!
MAKING THE POSE™️ SUPER WAS A+++ THO GOOD FUCKIN JOB
Keanu was sooooo good god i cannot wait until modders just splice his lines from here into the dlc and then it'll be perfect
i am realizing now that i love how they leaned more into Shadow's POV esp in Sonic becoming angrier and driven and just like him (almost like goddamn SCOURGE of all things), but it works very well and makes this feel more like a different kind of SA2 rather than SA2: the Movie, if that makes sense lol
i can't wait until they get halfway thru the next movie, walk into one of Stone's bustling new chain of coffee shops, and Shadow is just there chillin
soundtrack as a whole was SO strong! lot more familiar melodies and in total everything felt suited to the tone. the eggmen dance scene had a good song choice, even if i didnt like the scene itself lol
Maria had her own little theme and thinking about now is just gonna make me cry oh god
feels weird to realize now but i think they only called shadow the ultimate lifeform ONCE, in total. ig it wasn't really important but it's more apparent compared to SXSG where they say it every 2 seconds
What are the fucking odds that the same day a new Superman is revealed, Shadow is given a Superman origin?? COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT
am i done? will probably throw more up after my second watch lol look out
VAYA CON DIOS, SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG
SHE'S READY FOR 2027
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Heya girlie!! I hope you’re having the loviest day and have been drinking plenty of water💓 cheeky nosey question? Do you have anything sitting in your drafts that you’re undecided on posting?👀 or any concepts you’ve thought of or like that you might put out soon!
OH HI! I'm having a good good day yes! Just writing and sipping some iced coffee with my dog next to me so I have no complaints. I haven't had any actual water today but iced coffee counts yeah? 😬 I hope you're also keeping hydrated and having a lovely day :)
And I love these cheeky nosy questions!! Do I have anything sitting in my drafts??? Does this answer your question? 🤭
Let's see...
Of the things in my drafts that I feel like I can talk about (buckle up, it gets wild!)
I've got another subrry that's partly done (based on this couple),
I've got an extra part to go with this but it's not finished,
I have a few requests for a bunch of things that are really similar that I didn't share because I started writing them but never finished - and still intend on getting to them,
an idea with a housesitter!yn I started cooking up based on a cute/cheesy movie from the 90s with Goldie Hawn and Steve Martin (🙈) called Housesitter.
AS WELL as another idea I started based on another 90s late 80s (just checked and this one is 1987 lol) movie with Michael J Fox called Secret of My Success (I don't know what to tell y'all, sometimes I just go off the rails and start something to make it my own and it's based on cheesy older movies but I can't help myself 😂),
military!harry x military!reader
A Don't Stand So Close check where Harry grows a bit of a mustache
a stepdad!h idea someone sent me with a lingerie shopping spree
a MFM threesome idea I've been working on FOREVER
the beginning of a part 2 to Sex Ed with Harry that never got finished
a body guard harry (but i wanted to wait bc it was at a time when there were a bunch of body guard harrys coming out and I didn't want to feel like i was competing with the other amazing authors already doing it and doing it better most likely lol
a request for harry x his wife's best friend 🫣 that I have two versions of and cannot figure out how to finish and also wanted to give y'all a break from the cheating trope for a bit
hitman!harry who's very protective of yn and she has no idea he has feelings for her (or that he's a hitman) until one day she's in trouble and he saves her 👀
dark!harry who's your bartender and winds up talking you into going home with him and things get... interesting but you wind up LOVING it - felt a lot like MCC Harry with those kidnapping vibes (even tho yn doesn't get kidnapped it felt too similar at the time so I didn't finish it)
Phew! So that's some of what I've got in there. That's not to mention what I've got in my actual Word docs drafts (that's where I have most of my WIPs and unposted, unfinished fics). Potentially I could just hit post on some of the things but uffff!!! I really prefer everything to be readable and perfect.
Is there anything on this list y'all would be interested in currently??
xoxo
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volume V thoughts bc once again fusebox has got me intrigued
first of all omg wtf
I usually end up reading a few spoilers before I play bc I'm bored at work but don't wanna play the volume until I get back but I had such a busy day at work I didn't do that and wow ok I gotta avoid spoilers more often I was shook
so excess baggage was okay. like yeah makes sense we want the couples to be tense again before voting the couple superlatives thing, but also such a throwaway. (and also I talked about this in my post about last volume, but we have so many challenges in a row!! why)
since my MC did initially flirt with Oakley a lot more than Jin, I do think it's funny Oakley talks about how cool MC's secret is (like it's annoying fs but also something I've seen happen on love island to create small drama but then ultimately it's just talk so it's nice to have that happen here).
Also i was worried Oakley was gonna turn on us or flirt with us and abandon Emel, so I'm very glad he was just asking for advice. (I'm a big Oakley and Emel fan, what can I say?) I'd be okay if that led into a different storyline where you could pursue Oakley later, but with how fusebox has been making the seasons lately, once you pick you've made your choice and I do miss in for example s2 where even if you don't pick Lurik when they first become available you have a chance the next recoupling and it feels like it changes your route.
Jack is still mad at MC??
Couples game was fun. I wish fusebox formatted it so you discuss with your partner and then make a choice before everyone revealed their answers instead of people talking and explaining before the player picks their answer. Like we know the characters already, just let me pick and we can see who agrees.
Oakley's evening wear outfit 😍 best dressed boy fs
I of course could never bear to see Oakley and Emel go, but I surprisingly actually missed Sophie and Jack as soon as they left but like in a me missing Allegra and Miles/Jasper when they left. Like yeah they were irritating but they brought drama and I understand where Allegra/Sophie is coming from (and I support women's wrongs lol)
Jin going through his main character of S6 arc??? No but fr I can't imagine why the public would vote him out so he's either hiding something that's gonna come out when he gets back or he was voted most popular and is gonna come back soon. I hope it's not casa because (1) that already happened in s6 and (2) I want the chance to flirt around with new characters in casa lol. I've seen a few theories around and I have no idea which is true but if I could throw in another idea which is post casa, MC is finally with a bombshell, Claudia/Theo, or a casa boy and things seem good but Jin and Luna show up together as returning islanders and MC has to choose between Jin and her current LI.
It's so interesting for drama, like ik I'm here for it. But a lot of people like loyal routes so I hope yall are doing okay
I was like half hoping we could walk out with him even though of course fusebox isn't giving us that option but like I wish he said something like hey you just got here, enjoy your time at the Villa and I'll wait out there for you no matter what happens. just to explain why MC wouldn't leave. that being said, their goodbye was so sweet.
One thing that's different in the game than the show is the number of islanders present at once, which makes sense its hard to keep track of all of them (though they've done it before in s2), and it just is weird bc now the people in the Villa are MC (single), Claudia and Theo (who don't like each other), and Emel and Oakley (only one couple).
despite my complaint about the challenge thing this is great pacing/timing for a new islander. it's just a shame the screwed over Tyler coming in so soon after MC. I can't remember if I already wrote this in my last post but I almost wish he came in with MC and got a better chance.
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# my ocs as two door cinema club songs ━ 🌊
(bc theyre one of my fav bands and i need to involve my ocs in everything)
༄ | SATORU : SUN
ocean blue what have i done to you? cut so deep yet growing through and through drawn apart, new york and london all i see now, are distant drumlins the roads i knew became a city and i wonder, will you wait for me? although i'm far away i know i'll stay, i know i'll stay right there though it might be too late what would you say? what would you say? what would you do?
༄ | BITO : EAT THAT UP, ITS GOOD FOR YOU
your other love is gone and you know it's too late, it's too late you've got another one coming and it's gonna be the same it's too late, it's too late you've got another one coming and it's gonna be the- it's not the same, it's not the same, it's not the same you're gonna tell me that i'm right you know, you're gonna come back down find yourself where you are again you didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know so don't pretend you saw it now it's not something you'd want to happen
༄ | ASASE EIJI : NEXT YEAR
i don't know where i am going to rest my head tonight so i won't promise that i'll speak to you today but if i ever find another place a better time for that moment i was never what i am take me to where you are what you've become and what you will do when i am gone i won't forget, i won't forget maybe someday, you'll be somewhere talking to me as if you knew me saying i'll be home for next year, darling i'll be home for next year
༄ | AUGUST : THIS IS THE LIFE
feel something right and feel something good 'cause if one thing works you might know it's true, it's true 'cause this if this is the life, this is the life this is the life, this is the life this is the life, then who'd argue? one year, 5 days and we're starting new try to make a change it's one more thing to do, to do
༄ | NOHEALANI / PUA : COME BACK HOME
another saturday, another careless move tells the world that you're thinking of what to do a window opens up, and someone calls your name but i can tell you don't know how to play this game i know this isn't it, uh-uh you'll hit your target someday so now you're on your own won't you come back home? to see you're not that kind and find the strength, to find the strength to find another way, to find another way so, tell me what you need and i'll accommodate but if too long goes by, you just might be too late an opportunity you can't afford to waste so have the lines in your head first for heaven's sake
༄ | POEIVA / MONARCH : SLEEP ALONE
he sleeps alone he needs no army where he's headed 'cause he knows that they're just ghosts and they can't hurt him if he can't see them, oh and i may go, to places i have never been to find the deepest desires in my mind we, we only know, what we see 'cause we're always fast asleep is it so hard not to believe that we'll never know oh hold, hold, hold, hold me close i've never been this far from home
༄ | SHIZUKA / RYUUJIN : SURE ENOUGH
tell us what you're frightened of just give it up here's the flood sure enough, sure enough give me just a little bit of peace instead i've got only so much room inside my head i've got better ways that i could use my time thing of something else so i don't lose my mind i know you're giving what we're asking for but nothing good can come from opening that door everything's enough to keep us wanting more and more, and more, and more, and more, and more won't somebody tell me what's going on?
༄ | KAI : SOMEDAY
is it a race, or a chase? it's a difficult one are you running faster and further away or are you trying to keep up? sticks and stones have left you alone and all your words will soon desert you are you waiting? there is no time for wasting any time this is the end of the line the definite sign of what we will be someday where do we start if we will end apart? where do we go from here? it's head versus heart, it will all be clear someday
༄ | KILORN TAKAGI : LUCKY
keep on pulling bricks out of the wall i'll be right there, waiting until you find that you can't go back again or put it back, put it back together we're running out of luck, i can feel the change holding on to little pieces of what remains and was it not enough? we're blowing out the flame hoping that there's something coming is not the same, the same, the same
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Hello, I first saw your comics on tapastic. I was just today going thru all my subscriptions to cull out the ones that haven't updated in a while and weren't memorable enough for me to remember a single detail of. I found yours and was abruptly reminded of how much I loved your content. I'm a bit too busy now to really immerse myself in what you've got going on anymore, but I'm really glad to see you're still around. I can't honestly say I remember any of the comics you posted bc I was not my best self at the time, but I can say they meant a lot to me. Anyways, the point of this message is to thank you for being a relatable voice when I needed one. I'm really glad to see you're still around and that you've got things that you find enjoyable enough to blog about.
Hey man that's great, I'm glad you remember me! I feel like I can say the same about me making the at the time comics as well, I went through a few years absolutely hating that comic and what it represented because I made it as a way to cope with.. honestly, being a teenager. I really didn't like who I was and that comic was like a great summation of my being at the time.
(read more cause woof i talk alot!)
I'm just skimming through it because I pretty much forgot what I've even made. Like Holy Shit I made 117 comics? I think it holds up okay, it's pretty normal relatable humour though a bit dated. I think i definitely could have been a little weirder with it, though at one point I did try to do something meta with it (chickened out though, it was just way past my skill level). It all just screams of being a teenager, and that level of sincerity would make anyone cringe.
I think it's wild to me how willing i was to share my life to the world like that when I was so riddled with anxiety and sadness. Can't say I'm free of that still but I'm working through it, and I still stand by the last update I posted to that comic. .. Though I'd cut back on how many jokes i'd make to mask my fear this time. I still really love comics, narratives and characters! Though I've not been very good at sharing them lately haha but I promise I'm still chipping away at them. This is probably a very strange time to mention but I set up a Patreon recently, though I haven't gotten around to announcing it formally. But I have a short comic up in there I did for school! Of course if you don't feel like subscribing, I also have it as a one time purchase on gumroad as well :)
One more thing I'd like to say is that the timing of this ask is pretty crazy, cause I was just thinking of doing a retrospective. Just the general reflecting on art school and just looking back on what being nonbinary means to me and I guess YLNB as a whole. Though it's probably too soon to reflect on the latter haha, I'm probably going to wait another 3 more years.
Anyway thank you for reading and sticking around! I hope you're in a better place anon, I know things are rough in the world but I promise that there's good things too! If you'd like to support me I have Kofi and as previously mentioned a fresh new Patreon (wow!) I'm also on youtube where you can find some of my animations and though I've never mentioned it I'm drawing a rabbit (well, lagomorph but its been bunny central lately) a day @dailylagomorphs! We're about the half way point so you can spend half your year looking at all those little guys.
Additionally! my commissions are open! if you want to buy a funny little drawing from me
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been in and out of intense anxiety the last couple days, so maybe writing it here will help
Okay so my old dentist who I loved retired, and gave his practice over to a new guy. Tuesday, I went to try out the new dentist and very loudly in the next room while I had my teeth cleaned, he was telling someone how they didn't need a crown or something because God designed the perfect teeth system?????
And as soon as he introduces himself to me, he out of the blue goes on about a "beautiful sermon I heard" on the way to work, and how this really ill woman had so much faith that she would just get better, and that she "touched Jesus" and was instantly healed. I'm sitting there with his sharp tools in my mouth and he's going on a religious rant and what the fuck am I going to do? He does tell me I have 2 cavities, then overcharges me for the cleaning and "exam."
Decided I really needed a new fucking dentist, and thankfully my friends suggested some to try. So Wednesday, I called a place and they got me in, and they were so nice and professional and I really liked them! They did another exam on me and apparently the last dentist (maybe the one before, too) had missed an entire fucking dead tooth???? It's been discolored for years but old dentist never thought it was an issue... Apparently it's dead and needs a root canal. Who the fuck knows how long it's been dead. Terrifying. Also they say it's 3 cavities not 2.
Anxious about the root canal, I've never had one, and it's so expensive. The same day I have my root canal, I also am driving somewhere I've never been an hour away to see my new liver doctor, and that's also terrifying.
On top of those expenses, I'm hoping to sign kiddo up for Brazilian Jiu Jitsu lessons bc I think it'll be really good for them and they are really interested.
But I've also had several clients transition to every other week or end, which is good they're doing better. I also have less income though so need to market again for new clients. Husband was planning to increase his income by taking classes paid for by work, but the classes are taking so long that I wouldn't be surprised if it takes all year, which is not what we'd hoped for a timeline.
Pet Day at kiddo's school is coming up and last year's Pet Day, we brought our cat who ended up dying shortly after. He had cancer which obviously wasn't caused by Pet Day, but I do think he picked up a virus which might have exacerbated the cancer. I'm planning to make sure every kid sanitizes their hands before touching the cat we bring this time, and bringing the young healthy one instead of the old frail one. Still some anxiety.
Wanted to take kiddo to this snow place in FL this weekend, but tickets plus parking are 100 dollars, yikes. So been incredibly anxious about that. Just before clicking buy I checked and it's supposed to be thunderstorms that day, so texted the friend we were planning to go with and hoping we can put that off... Really anxious they might have already bought tickets even though they said they'd wait til after I bought ours (maybe they could pick up on my anxiety around committing, idk).
So the common theme, laying these all out, seems to be financial. Which is sad, because I wanted to scale back on work and be able to rest more and focus on my health, but with husband not likely to be making much more money any time soon, it means I need to work more hours. Which is hard with the amount of dr appointments I'm going to have to be having.
At least... I got a little while of getting to work out almost daily and rest up.
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Just as things started getting easier after the cluster fuck that was the end of last year for me, and finally getting a new car after my car broke down, new car got stolen, and I basically had to teach myself manual on the temp car I was driving.
I spent 7 hours today waiting to get my cat in with the vet because he has an issue with his eye that could be trauma that needs to heal. Or it could be a tumor.
I don't have the money to make an appointment with a normal vet because I work commission and people don't want to spend money in winter around the holidays so I took him to an urgent care in a non profit organization that I used to get my other cat spayed for $150(plus a chip and shots and stuff) compared to $800 it would cost everywhere else.
They are walk in exclusive and only allow so many patients in a day so once it's full thats it. Went 7:30am to be there when they open to make sure I'd get in because when you get there doesn't matter, it's determined by severity of each pet to make sure those who have more immediate needs are taken care of, and understandably an eye issue like he had isn't high priority. But it wasn't until 2:30, when they close at 3pm that I went and asked if they'd still have time to take in my cat and check on him bc I know they close soon, and I was being extremely patient despite crying in my car for hours while my cat cried because he was both in a cage and in a car which he hates for hours, because it'd non profit snd the fact it would only cost me maybe $150-$200 was my only option.
I guess they completely overlooked him. So they didn't realize that I had still been waiting with him to be seen after 6.5 hours.
But they waived the exam fee and had given me a bunch of different medications for him to make sure he'd be good and comfortable and didn't charge me for that either because of the situation. They want me to bring him back next week, and assured me this won't happen again, so they can followup and confirm what's going on.
I want to say his eye isn't as red as it was on Tuesday when I noticed it, but I csnt say for sure. They said it was a good sign I'd thst is the case, so I just need to keep an eye on him.
He's already like 11 years old, and I've had him since he was so small he fit in 1 of my hands. He's my grumpy little baby and he's grumpy at everyone but he adores me and would let me do anything to him. He complains if I smother him with love frequently but whenever I don't he starts coming up and getting really affectionate and needy on me and everything because he does like it. He's just a sensitive lil boy and most people don't respect or care for what he likes or not enough for him to actually like them like he does me and my roommate. She's like the only one that's properly respected what I say and he shows that he likes or doesn't like, or how to tell if hes fine being held if/by the noise he makes when you pick him initially.
He's /my/ first pet and my first cat and my brother used to say I stole his kitten he found, even though he had a cat already, and it was established if we got another cat, they would be my cat. It took a couple of years because we were young, but he full heartedly admits Ezekiel has most certainly always been my cat, and he was just jealous because he wanted a kitten.
My other cat, Pudge, is even his daughter.
I've just been so worried about if this could mean something else is wrong with him I couldn't just wait to see how it goes I don't know how quickly some of these medical issues escalate but I know some of them can be quickly.
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5 (and why is it dreamstuck 👀) and also.... 50 >:]
5. What fanfic of yours should everyone have read?
YEAH. DREAMSTUCK FOR SURE. I've had so many people say they they're reading without even knowing what homestuck is and others saying that they've started reading homestuck because of it and i'm like YESS!!!! YESSSSS SPREADING THE HOMESTUCK!!!! But also another fic i would like everyone to read right immediately now is probablyyyyy Parting Words. It is the only moon knight fic i have ever written but i love it so so so much, it reads exactly how i wanted, and it's just. exactly what i wished we could see in another MCU Moon Knight episode, it's something I wanted to see in the show that we didn't get and I love it very very much :3
50. Can we get a teaser for an upcoming chapter?
HEHEHEHE >:33 i am so excited for this chapter :33 i'm gonna put this under a cut because it is Long and also contains some motherfuckin uhhhhhhh SPOILERS for ch 77 of dreamstuck so if u don't want spoilers u can turn back now but i am sooooo so so excited about this and i hope u will be too!!! this chapter is going to be called Clockwork Sorrow, if that gives u any prior hint as to what it might be about :3
==>Tom: Pester Tubbo.
-- bigmanCat [BC] began pestering nuclearBuzz [NB] --
BC: hey NB: hey whats up bossman NB: any idea where ranboo is i tried to get a hold of him but hes ignoring me BC: yeah uh BC: I came to LOFAE BC: I found him, he’s okay, just distracted NB: wait is this tom? BC: no dude this is tommy what the fuck NB: idk i guess you just feel similar your literally the same person anyway BC: uh also BC: about Tom? BC: I found him too BC: He’s kinda dead. NB: what BC: yeah like he’s DEAD dead man BC: kicked the bucket, whatever. NB: holy shit what happened BC: I don’t really know??? I wasn’t here for it but I think he got stabbed BC: buncha underlings BC: one of ‘em must have found like a sword or some shit that Ranboo left laying around? Idk but he is stabbed the fuck out NB: cant you revive him BC: nope i BC: i tried BC: he was doomed so i guess my dream self/sprite didn’t register as his or something so it couldn’t be his backup life BC: idk if it would even work for me bc you know it’s a sprite and all NB: oh man thats sad NB: i really liked him BC: yeah BC: me too NB: im sorry bossman ill be on lofae as soon as i can BC: NO BC: i mean BC: stay there BC: i don’t want you to see this you know??? BC: Ranboo and I will head back to his house and open a memo. BC: I don’t think we have a lot of time. NB: wdym BC: there’s a fourth planet in out Incipisphere, idk what it means but i think BC: i think we might need a fourth player somehow. BC: and the Reckoning’s already started. NB: hply shit NB: yeah get over there as fast as you can ill be waiting online BC: on it, see you there
-- bigmanCat [BC] ceased pestering nuclearBuzz [NB] --
You heave a sigh and lower your phone. The back of your head thunks against the tree trunk you’re sitting against. Ranboo makes another weird alien noise somewhere in his chest. You feel so, SO bad about lying to Tubbo about this, but what else can you do?
Your name is Tommy Innit, and you just watched yourself die.
Wack.
#whiskey yelling into the void#friend tag :3#dreamstuck#HEHEHEHEHE :33#this chapter is something i am so looking forward to posting it's gonna wreck like the three (3) ppl who r actually invested in this fic
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ok but some selfish and abrasive g witch finale thoughts:
all these boohoos going on about how that shit sucked bc they were really expecting a kiss on screen and it didn't happen and how the execs chickened out of a """real gay rep""" just really tells me how much better we acespecs are at finding and telling a love story. like if fucking yuri on ice didn't/couldn't do it (I know this is a time slot thing and pls, we are talking about a production that happened in a country where the fucking nagano ruling is already considered monumental! try to imagine that if u can!!!!), what the fuck makes you think a gundam show will? and like, a kiss? really is the only way you'll believe two queer people are in love? so if you see two people who are out and out and they're just holding hands, you're not gonna believe they're in love??? come the fuck on, stranger
like let's give this the benefit of the doubt: execs wanted an onscreen kiss for the impact and the hashtag but censorship is homophobic and stuff. look, they went around it, didn't they?? eri identified herself as miorine's fucking sister-in-law, they have motherfucking rings, and they're living together???? and in so doing delivered an even more holistic couple??? and you're telling me that's not queer rep, that they're not in love, and that they owe it to you to explain their love story as if they didn't fucking spend 576 minutes telling it and almost literally even died for it??? like maybe at this point, people should just fing reevaluate their shallow grasp on romance and maybe even their inherent acephobia
am I stepping on toes here? yeah I'm fucking stepping on toes here but I wouldn't be me if I wasn't making enemies left and right, right? also you can't blame me for being angry about the way media has turned romance into a narrow checklist. I'm tired of that shit
in other news, after that roller-coaster ride of an anime, I think I'm suddenly prepared for anything the other animes I'm watching/games I'm playing can throw at me. character death? give it to me; my favorite character got a great ending in g witch so I'm happy to take a loss on another front. (and like come on, I was prepared for Jin Sakai to die until I realized that he was the mc of the DLC too which is a big duh on my part but anyway—) gay skater suddenly gets a girlfriend in the next season? give it to me, I don't care anymore. we'll all know it's fake anyway, we just need the money from the hetties
lastly and selfishly, I can finally work on my guel fanmix holy shit and boy am I glad I've been going on the right direction all along 😭😭😭 (guesule fanmix, don't worry, I have a hundred sad songs waiting for you, so you just sit right there and auntie liv will get to you soon 💖)
#liv is typing#g witch#g witch spoilers#yes I talk more about that missing onscreen kiss and no the people who are demanding it won't like what I had to say#can't believe I have to preface this post bc i happen to be using a public search tag for organizing my blog...#was it a bad idea on my part yes it was a bad idea on my part but to my defense past!me didn't expect to have this opinion in the future#noisyofolives
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doing a dog sidequest in zelda and i STILL cant pet them. got the ember trousers tho!!! i bet the whole outfit rules i cant wait to see it
wait wait these guys found a bottle...dont tell me its another gerudo love letter lol
oooh clues to the fierce deity armor...i found some already but that's COOL. and i gotta come back to get the sword even tho i snagged it with amiibo already lol
i've decided to clean up some shrines i've neglected to do...i promised myself i'd do more story but i never have TIME to sit down and enjoy it!!
this shrine by snowfield stable was absolutely delightful. 10/10. it feels like such a proper zelda dungeon
omg lol the well here is frozen
FAIRIES........man thats so cool. the way their light works in this game is absolutely stunningly beautiful. i wish they came in different colors like oot
always gotta grab a few seeds wherever i am but now it's time for A Different Shrine
i've got maybe 6-7 shrines i activated but did not do, and 2 shrines i did do but didn't get the chest at.....in hebra lol that was early game bs. "oh i want to have fun now i'll get the chests later" the literal devil talking smh
GOT MY LAST STAMINA WHEEL........taking a break 4 now but man am i ever stoked!!! my "being is overflowed with vigor" apparently. nice.
omg i never realized it but yunobo got added to the goron city statue!!
daruk looks like he's dabbing lol (i'm taking a pic of it for a sidequest)
death mountain intimidates me so i'm biting the bullet and heading to lanayru - i'm working my way from hateno up around the south/east side of the mountain. and i guess from there gradually towards kakariko, although i'm saving the ones in kakariko proper for later
IT'S NAYDRA HEY GIRL
good lord that horn went all the way back down to the ocean lol
omg my map says there's a letter in a bottle here...i see it now, but i can't believe i didn't see it when i was getting korok seeds before
i cheated and i know where the cave is, so i'm not gonna follow the brightbloom seeds. i'm going that way anyway on my korok journey and i don't want to do it twice in a row. koroks robbed me of doign this quest organically!! oh well. it's my own fault for looking at "user contributed" on the map lol
dragging my bike around in this cave with me bc my supplies are so desperately low lol. idw it to respawn i JUST made it
oh........................i don't know if i can get it back out lol
i did it!! it would have been less trouble to make a new bike which sort of defeats the purpose but whatever
mapla point, my old enemy...when i had 899 seeds in botw, here was the missing one
i can see the brightbloom seed trail from here! it's quite beautiful actually, especially at night. the reflections on the dark water..........
i wish i could shoot arrows while riding the bike/any vehicle. that would fucking rule
if theres one thing i do like about koroks its how the boulder rolling puzzles from botw became these put the boulder OUT of the hole into the tree puzzles. really good subversion since rolling boulders into holes is now completely doable with ultrahand without any effort or thinking at all. and thank god for that frankly.
i thot maybe this cave guy would turn out to be a yiga but he was legit lol good for him
ok, before i tackle lanayru proper i need more FANS........always out of mf supplies around here smh
the gacha i use for fans also gives out portable pots and flame emitters, at what feels like a higher rate...i don't use flame emitters often but it's nice to know there will never come a time when i'm not able to cook lol
49 fans, but only 9 steering sticks! if only there was a gacha that gave out nothing BUT fans and steering sticks...bc soon i'll have to go load up on THOSE
kinda good that i need fan refills so often tho bc from there i go straight down to this construct camp and then into the mining cave to trade zonaite for crystalized charges AND there's zonaite mining in there...a good thing to do regularly. i don't have as many problems finding zonaite as i do with that middle step of trading it for crystalized charges lol. i kind of wish they hadn't added that in there
ugh, off to lanayru we go.
it's fine. i have snowboots now, and so many fire arrows
WAIT DROP EVERYTHING STAR PIECE
lmao. warp into lanayru warp out of lanayru
oh my god i left at 2:55am i can't BELIEVE i made it in time. thank you, bike. thank you, dark link armor
ugh. ok. back to. lanayru
first stop of COURSE back to the wisdom spring. girl i finally have that claw
done. one down two to go........i have the claws i just never wind up at the springs lol. i never want to go near the quarry again <3
AWWW addison is here shivering in the cold...he says he eats food to deal with the weather conditions but man!!! buddy!!!!!
love it when he gives me muddlebuds. king
accidentally dropped my bike off the side of the mountain lol. i used recall on it just in time but it went too far before i canceled and dropped into a lizalfos camp. life is so textured
spotted naydra coming out of her hole (and doing just fine). beautiful! sadly not chasing her at this time though rip in peace the mats i could have farmed
plotting my next few korok seeds and apparently there's not one but THREE sets of gloom hands near one of them (purifier lake). no fucking thank you i'm quitting before i get to that one. a problem for tomorrow me
maybe if i'm careful i can fly over them...? eugh there's a shrine near there too. why do they make certain areas scary in both games!! there was a lynel here in botw!!!!
oh it's zelda 🥺🥺🥺 she's so far away though, i can't go chasing her either...babygirl i miss you
ugh fine ok it's the next seed and i don't wanna quit yet...i'm just gonna fly over them. you have to be kinda close for them to spawn...hopefully it will be fine...
yea tho i walk through the shadow of death or whatever i fear no evil if i can fly the fuck over it
successful landing. no hands so far. if i don't move much while i solve this block puzzle. OF ALL THINGS. maybe it will be fine
I DID IT......
AND it looks like the shrine is underground. huge win for me
wow! and one long trip thru an underground road later here i am at the good old promenade. a great place to either start or fuck off from tomorrow <3
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The Forge, Death Takes a Holiday or The Offer! I'd love to hear about any or all of these WIP's! 😍
HIHI!!! Sorry - again - for answering these late <3
For the WIP Meme (where I get to talk about my insane number of WIPs to anyone who asks)
The Forge (Superbat)
Oh man, I feel awful about this one, because I've been promising @susiecarter I would finish it for...Idk, 3 years? 4 years? now - I'm an awful friend. :D
But, well, I'll just put the my initial word vomit to Susie here to explain the idea behind it:
Bruce would make a great Hephaestus (SUPER smart and misunderstood and thinks he's flawed!) and just picture Clark as Aphrodite (as this symbol of hope and love and beauty and making people believe in themselves and be BETTER)
and there's no way a god like that would be interested in anyone like Bruce - i mean, who would stick a creature of light and beauty in a literal CAVE
so, start like the OG myth and they're already married, either for political reasons or Zeus was just being a dick - but they've never met because Bruce doesn't leave his cave ever since The Tragedy
And Clark doesn't feel this big need to get to know his spouse, why should he, he's beautiful and young and the god of love and hope, he has better things to do
But say Clark either pisses off Zeus or Hera or Ares or maybe he makes a bet (which was something Aphrodite did) that he could get anyone to fall in love with him
And someone (Diana bc she would want to take Clark down a peg) is all, well, what about your husband, and Clark's all pfft easy peasy he hides in his cave all the time, give me a real challenge
And bc the gods are the gods and are capricious as fuck, they're all, okay, well, what if you didn't have your glimmer and you had to make him fall for you posing as a human
Oh and you only have...let's be generous...six months...and Clark is all, i can do it in 3
And they don't mention (of course) that Clark will be STUCK there the entire time, so no sneaking off to be all beautiful and adored and godlike (because Clark is very good at his job, but he's a little out of touch and in danger of becoming a total asshole, so everyone thinks this will teach him humility)
And of course, Bruce is going to be his usual grumpy and pissed off and brilliant self who suffers no fools, so yeah, and also happens to take his marriage vows seriously (because he takes everything seriously)
So good luck Clark!
Death Takes A Holiday (Steve/Bucky)
I should probably just say this one is abandoned by this point, which is a shame, because I got about 19k written before I stalled out. But it was basically my take on the Hades/Persephone story (Bucky as Hades, Steve in the Persephone role, still male) mixed in with a bit of the plot from the film Heaven Can Wait - ie, Steve gets stuck Hades' realm because his thread was accidentally cut a second too soon, so he's not quite dead, not quite alive, and no one can figure out what to do with him, least of all Bucky :D
The Offer (HangMav & HangRoosMav)
This is straight up a sequel to the end of The Bet where Mav invited Hangman to join him and Rooster in bed - only Hangman decides to make Mav (and Rooster) work for it, and they all make another bet that Mav can get Hangman into their bed within 48 hours (essentially) without either touching Hangman OR doing anything seductive (ie, no dirty talk, no dick pics, no suggestive flirting) :D
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hello, modern!daemon nonnie's part 2 again (I'M SORRY) HFLDHNH i knew you'd written it unknowingly but outwitted?? i'm flattered. i'm just used to notice things like this. and i didn't mean that her office is literally shitty! when i was writing it i was like 'stop?? it's a museum it's not shitty.. but i don't know how to describe it in english?? ok. shitty' i meant more like the contrast? this meaningful, intimate, magical moment in JUST a PLAIN office? lovely. by 'waiting wife' i meant like more of the person who won't be able to feel the same for him? like darling you're a pretty boy but we have a dragon in tears who waits to be tamed ;) andand the spoiler? it's not that big of a spoiler, tbh? you've mentioned in the 'Never Before' that reader had met aemond as a child. but i love getting spoilers! really. i either forget them or they just don't affect my impression. and i love learning things about the process of the writing like you've mentioned about iron ring! it's always so interesting to know more about whatever you see in the end. i love crying over fanfics too! so yes, go on pls 'they really just want to be with each other so so so bad.' lovei, i hope it doesn't mean anything bad... i need to cry out of happiness too, you know.... so if you approve... (coming alive to destroy the world) hope you'll like it) i'm glad you didn't cut the story!! it feels so whole and complete. you've made a really good job! i'm still veryvery proud of you! i know about fanfiction but one shot? drabble? i don't know what is what so i'm like um-ah fic? i'm not as worried about mistakes as i was like...last year... but i still read your answer and realise i've typed 'then' instead of 'them' and so on... you'll never know what hour is ungodly for me bc i live in another timezone, i guess) but you can come to my house whatever hour you like! coffee or tea? overall, i'm glad i like your fic too) and thank you sm for answering me!! hope you're not annoyed with these ones. i just like talking to you ig. so!! waiting for the part 3, sending you all my love and breath and tears!! stay hydrated, eat well, sleep tight and don't overwork yourself!! love you! take care! <з (fanfact. as i always type 'fell' instead of 'feel', i tend to type 'tace kare' confusing 'c' and 'k'. like my brain goes absolutely blank when i need to choose a letter so a pick a random one out of these 2 TT)
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII IM GLAD YOUR BACK SO SOON FOR THE SECOND PART HAHAHAHA I GOT SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW MY INBOX NOTIF WHILE STILL REPLYING TO YOUR FIRST ONE LOL AHHAHAHHA
ANOTHER LOVE LETTER!!!
FIRST OF ALL why are you saying sorry 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬😡😡😡 taKE THAT BACK DO NOT APOLOGIZE FOR SOMETHING THAT ISNT EVEN BAD YOU CAN TAKE UP SPACE YOU CAN SPEAK WHO CARES IF OUTSIDE ONLOOKERS THINK YOURE ANNOYING THEYRE DUMB I DONT THINK YOURE ANNOYING TAKE THAT SORRY BACK RIGHT NOW 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹
also you like me FR FR FR FR i also have a sending inbox anxiousness T_T which is why i rarely do so, but i always think about how I dont find it annoying so why would THEY think that??? alas i am still working on taking up space too FUCK ANXIOUSNESS IT BELONGS IN THE TRASSSSHSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
anyway
i knew you'd written it unknowingly but outwitted?? i'm flattered. i'm just used to notice things like this. and i didn't mean that her office is literally shitty! when i was writing it i was like 'stop?? it's a museum it's not shitty.. but i don't know how to describe it in english?? ok. shitty' i meant more like the contrast? this meaningful, intimate, magical moment in JUST a PLAIN office? lovely.
DYING OF LAUGHTER HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yes yes you totally outwitted me with that be 100% flattered the fact youre a genius and caught onto that makes me more so a genius and i think slay i think yas i think thats what we deserve AHHAHA. ok HAHAH im glad you didnt mean her office is shitty AHHAH. but youre so right with using that word to express what you mean it really did give the juxtaposition you wanted to convey, albeit not very accurately hahahah i appreciate the clarification. i understand the struggle of thinking in another language and having to change it into english. i loses something along the way, so again i appreciate the effort. and so true getting married to the love of your life in an office is such a paradox ahahahah
by 'waiting wife' i meant like more of the person who won't be able to feel the same for him? like darling you're a pretty boy but we have a dragon in tears who waits to be tamed ;)
i seeeeee HAHHAHHA THIS IS SO FUNNY SAUR TRUE MY BABIES SO CUTE BUT SHE BEEN WAITING TWO THOUSAND YEARS FOR HIM GIRRRRRLLLLLL T_T also lol it actually not 2000 years probably 1800?? give or take but its so much easier to say 2000 so imma just keep saying that
andand the spoiler? it's not that big of a spoiler, tbh? you've mentioned in the 'Never Before' that reader had met aemond as a child. but i love getting spoilers! really. i either forget them or they just don't affect my impression.
HAHHAHH SO TRUE YOU CAUGHT ME IM GIGGLING SO HARD I WAS TYPING THE SPOILER OUT then i thought, i already mentioned they met so this isnt too world changing HAHAAHH YOURE TOO BIG BRAINED I CANT AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH I love/hate spoilers, sometimes i dont care, but other times i would rather not know because i want to enjoy the plot/plot twist in the moment when it happens
and i love learning things about the process of the writing like you've mentioned about iron ring! it's always so interesting to know more about whatever you see in the end.
T_T THATS SO SWEET AND NICE AND TOUCHING I ALSO LIKE LEARNING ABOUT THE PROCESS OF HOW SOMETHING CAME ABOUT WE BOTH TRULY SUCH INTELLECUTALS UGH! I WANT TO KEEP YOU IN MY POCKET
i love crying over fanfics too! so yes, go on pls 'they really just want to be with each other so so so bad.' lovei, i hope it doesn't mean anything bad... i need to cry out of happiness too, you know.... so if you approve... (coming alive to destroy the world) hope you'll like it)
I LOVE CRYING OVER FICS!! lets cry together sLAY!!! actually my teacher said crying once/twice a week is healthy for your eyes 😴 it flushes out the dirt but the only thing i hate about crying is when i cry i CRY i cant just like ~cry i CRYYYYYYY then my eyes get super puffy the next day (putting a cold spoon on your eyes help but please i cannot be bothered to go through that) it doesnt mean anything bad. like i say its better than aCTUALLY DOING SOMETHING BAD LIKE A CRIME OR DRUGS OR SMTH so shhh let's just enjoy our evil meow meow and YES COME ALIVE TO DESTROY THE WORLD WITH ME
i'm glad you didn't cut the story!! it feels so whole and complete. you've made a really good job! i'm still veryvery proud of you!
same im glad i didn't too!!! it does feel so much better like this because thats how i intended and saw that fic to be in the first place. I TAKE ALL YOUR COMPLIMENTS LIKE CHOCOLATE THANK YOU MY LOVE I LOVE HEAD PATS AND HUGS AND WORDS OF AFFIRMATION IM LUV U SO MUCH
i know about fanfiction but one shot? drabble? i don't know what is what so i'm like um-ah fic?
aHHH OK fanfiction is like the general umbrella term!!! its basically any work of fiction made for an existing story. one shot is for a fic thats only meant to be one chapter, thus one shot. it's not meant to be continued (which is why as a prominently one shot writer, i am very apprehensive for part twos) a drabble is basically a short fic, normally i think around 100-500 words??? a drabble can be a one shot, if its short enough. ashflashfsa i hope that made sense and that im right with my explanations. i highly suggest searching in case you wanna quote me T_T and i might be wrong lol
i'm not as worried about mistakes as i was like...last year... but i still read your answer and realise i've typed 'then' instead of 'them' and so on...
thats fine. i do that too. IM SO GLAD YOU ARENT AS WORRIED ABOUT MISTAKES!!! PROGRESS IS PROGRESS AND I THINK SLAY. i think as long as people get the essence of what you want to say, they really dont care about grammar mistakes. its fine!!!!!!!!!!!! but i feel you i cringe whenever i see a grammar mistake but lol when im not writing fanfics i kinda dont care AHHHAHH
you'll never know what hour is ungodly for me bc i live in another timezone, i guess)
yes you do i figured. i'll never know but i hope you still sleep RIGHT i will be so sad if you dont ):<
but you can come to my house whatever hour you like! coffee or tea? overall, i'm glad i like your fic too)
ok be there soon just gotta magic my way through the screen somehow. tea please! i love tea!!
and thank you sm for answering me!! hope you're not annoyed with these ones. i just like talking to you ig. so!!
IM NOT ANNOYED 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 I WILL ANSWER ALL YOUR ASKS 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡 BECAUSE I LOVE YOU 👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹👹 I LIKE TALKING TO YOU TOO 👿👿👿👿👿👿👿 SO DONT SAY SORRY ABOUT SENDING LONG ASKS OR THINK IM ANNOYED BECAUSE IM NOT
waiting for the part 3, sending you all my love and breath and tears!! stay hydrated, eat well, sleep tight and don't overwork yourself!! love you! take care! <з
same im waiting for the inspo to strike so i can write it im still not sure what i want to do. i was hoping you would tell me about your thoughts for aemond or aegon here but T_T NO WHERE IN SIGHT. anyway its 10pm im so sleepy i love you good night bye. YOU BETTER DO THE SAME THINGS AS WELL BECAUSE UNLIKE YOU I AM A WELL ADJUSTED 🤪🤪🤪 HUMAN BEING HOLISTICALLY 😡 TAKE CARE OR ELSE GRRRRRR
im luv u
(fanfact. as i always type 'fell' instead of 'feel', i tend to type 'tace kare' confusing 'c' and 'k'. like my brain goes absolutely blank when i need to choose a letter so a pick a random one out of these 2 TT
omg ur like me for really i get confused with spellings too omg HAHAHAHH EXCEPT I DONT STAY UP TILL LATE HOURS OF THE NIGHT ok sometimes i do BUT NOT OFTEN COS SLEEP IS IMPORTANT IM GONNA WRECK IT TAKE CARE I SAID OR ELSE
xxx
#everyone who reads my work better take care of themselves or else i will riot and cry at all of you for not listening to me your mother#take care or else#anon ask#my beloved anons#modern!daemon anon#ask#never before#waiting for a lifetime#daemon x reader
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Texts: Sparky (Cameron) & Freddie
@cameronslaw
[Following Wednesday]
Freddie: hey Sparky!
Freddie: sorry I was MIA, things got crazy busy with both jobs and the finding a place and then moving and it's been more chaotic than I expected
Freddie: hope you're ok, and specially not overthinking and blaming yourself cause you promised to be a good boy 😉
Cam: Freddie!
Cam: hi!
Cam: me overthinking? pffffffff
Cam: 😇
Cam: did you find a place?
Freddie: does it mean I'll have to punish you for not behaving as you promised?
Freddie: I did, I'm still finishing some touches but it's almost ready
Freddie: I'll send you the address as soon as it's all done
Freddie: how have you been¡
Cam: punish me??? but I’ve been the best boy!
Cam: I even did my homework
Cam: which, by the way, amounted to 42 kisses and 5 fucks
Cam: just saying
Cam: can't wait to see it!
Cam: I’ve been a bit bummed out tbh, but it's all better now
Cam: how about you? having fun decorating the new place?
Freddie: I'll ask Trevor just to make sure
Freddie: lmao! Good, I'm glad you're taking count tho you probably omitted the spanks
Freddie: ah! I knew it. I told you not to worry, I just needed to handle this, and I did tell you beforehand, so you didn't think I was ignoring you
Freddie: I'm fine. I'm not, I like how the place is, I'm just getting some furniture and brought my stuff from the hotel last night so I'm waiting for a few things to arrive, and it'll be set
Cam: ...okay fine, maybe I did overthink a bit, but Trevor helped me to stop
Cam: I don't choose the spanks; those are not my department 💅
Cam: I know!!! and I thank you a lot for it, it was the reason why I could get out of that spiral at some point, just
Cam: old habits die hard
Cam: but I am trying
Cam: oooh! so I’ll be able to come over in a couple of days then?
Freddie: That's good to hear. I'm glad he helped
Freddie: well a really good boys also knows when they don't behave right and when they deserve some spanks so...
Freddie: it's ok, I figured it would be hard cause you were taking a blame you didn't deserve, and you've done that before, so I figure it was a normal response from you when things go south
Freddie: I know, I'm proud of you for that
Freddie: tho I did miss hear from you, I figured you'd reach out, but I understand that probably you tried to give me space
Freddie: hopefully, yeah, if you want to of course
Cam: true... ok maybe I’m not such a good boy then
Cam: thank you
Cam: I missed talking to you, but I figured if you said you'd be a bit unreachable, me bugging you could mess something up
Cam: and I said I’d wait, right? so I waited
Cam: I’d love to!
Freddie: well but good boys earn their good status by behaving and accepting their punishment, but I'll let it pass this one-time cause of the distress 😘
Freddie: I appreciate that you gave me some space. If something like this happens again, don't hesitate to reach out. It might take me a bit, but I'll reply
Freddie: that's true, you did
Freddie: good! I'll send the address later today or tomorrow
Cam: you're the best 🫰🏼
Cam: ok!
Cam: ok!!!!
Cam: in the meantime tho
Cam: you're working tonight?
Cam: bc even tho you're this immortal super being, your vessel probably needs to rest too
Freddie: I know 😏
Freddie: not working tonight
Freddie: I've been resting. I meant it that you didn't have to worry. Maya let me borrow her apartment while I found my own so don't think I was struggling that much
Freddie: how was work? You didn't have another argument with Warren did you? I know his support is important for your project and I don't want that to be affected because he and I don't always see things eye to eye
Cam: well if you're not working, you're more than welcome to come over (:
Cam: I mean, I know how messy things get while moving, and I happen to have a warm bed with loads of space
Cam: we did
Cam: but I stand by what I said
Cam: and he didn't pull out of the project yet, so that's promising
Cam: work has been slow; we sent out a bunch of documents and I'm just waiting for signatures
Cam: just the boring part of being a lawyer I guess
Freddie: well that's sounds nice, only if I bring dinner. It's the least I could do after such a nice invitation
Freddie: Cameron. Please don't do that. Whatever are the problems between me and my brother shouldn't affect you. Especially with your job.
Freddie: hope you get everything back with the signatures you need
Freddie: any news on the kid you wanted to adopt?
Cam: you've got yourself a deal (: what are you in the mood for?
Cam: it's not light we're fighting! It was just a divergence of opinions
Cam: and it was not because of you either!
Cam: thanks
Cam: I'm not "adopting" her, just being her legal guardian, and YES! I'm seeing if I can bring her over for Thanksgiving (: I'm really excited about it
Cam: she's never been in a town with so many spn people before
Freddie: You. But you can choose dinner
Freddie: still. Don't make him your enemy please
Freddie: isn't that the same thing?
Freddie: that sounds nice
Freddie: hope it's not overwhelming for her
Cam: 🙈
Cam: Chinese?
Cam: don't plan to!
Cam: yeah, but with one I have a kid calling me Cameron and the other calling me dad
Cam: and I'm not exactly dad material 😛
Cam: thanks! I hope so too
Cam: I plan on introducing her slowly, so she makes friends around town and has people to hang out with during the holidays
Cam: do you have plans for Thanksgiving?
Freddie: what? Are you blushing now?
Freddie: Chinese it is
Freddie: ok good point
Freddie: how are you so sure about that?
Freddie: it's sounds good
Freddie: you do realize I don't celebrate holidays, right?
Cam: no??
Cam: I'm not exactly a good influence
Cam: or have any of the stability a kid need
Cam: well yeah but I can't imagine the bar will have any movement on Thanksgiving so I figured you'd have the day off
Cam: have you ever eaten Thanksgiving dinner? I think you'd like it
Freddie: ok, I'll believe that you're not blushed nor hard
Freddie: who says that?
Freddie: vampires don't celebrate the holidays either
Freddie: not on Thanksgiving but it's just another day for me really
Freddie: I assume everyone else in town has plans already so the best plan for me is to go through it as any other day
Cam: I didn't say anything about hard
Cam: idk it's kinda common sense
Cam: oh right
Cam: well
Cam: would you like to have plans for Thanksgiving?
Freddie
Freddie: and like it better when you're hard AND blushed
Freddie: it's not
Freddie: I don't really care. It's just like any other day for me tho this is the first time in actually in human form for it
Freddie: it's really doesn't really matter to me
Cam: guess you're gonna have to come around to find out 🙃
Cam: welp
Cam: I'll save you a plate of the traditional Thanksgiving dinner for when you get home from work then (:
Freddie: I'll be there in a bit. Need to get dinner first
Freddie: you really don't have to
Freddie: I figured you had plans with your family
Cam: ok!
Cam: what? the traditional Thanksgiving experience ™ is not about who's around, is all about the food, everybody knows that
Cam: not really, but I think dev and Adam might come over for dinner
Cam: we're not exactly an orthodox family lol
Freddie: like I said, I've tried all that before but not during the festivities
Freddie: well you have a brother, a brother-in-law, and a boyfriend. Seems like a family worth spending Thanksgiving with
Cam: and a guardianship over a teenage angel lol
Cam: but yeah I get it
Cam: btw, you can just pop inside if you'd like (: I'm gonna set the table
Cam: and yes, no dinner in bed tonight bc I know you and we're not gonna get around to eating if we do that lol
Freddie: true. A kid in the mix. Sounds like a perfect family setting for the festivities
Freddie: alright. I'll be there in 5
Freddie: good boy
Cam: will be ready by then
Cam: 😉
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11/16/24
6:53 p.m
She refused to go the hospital thank God. They got her in a chair and they told her if she falls again she's getting taken by force....
While she was walking around, Riley licked her sandwich like crazy. Funny enough she didn't actually eat it or steal it but she was licking it. I told my mother and told her not to eat it and that I would make her a sandwich bc Riley eats her fucking poop. And she ate it anyways.
I took a shower finally and got my last load of laundry in the washer. I'm never going to get my poison ivy clothes washed. Maybe next laundry day. I want to do them last for obv reasons.. but by the time I can wash them, it'll be like 8 p.m and I cannot fucking wait to take xanax and fucking go to sleep. And I'm not getting up to pee my body can go fuck itself.
My hallucination has been so much worse today bc of my lack of sleep... I've hallucinated more since I woke up this morning to now than I have in 3 FUCKING MONTHS. At least... not getting enough sleep severely effects my fucking auditory hallucinations and it makes me want to throw myself off a fucking Cliff. You have no fucking idea how fucking bad it's been. It might as well be fucking March or even January for christ sake.
I just want to fucking sleep and my bladder can fuck itself. When I get 7 hours then we can fucking pee and lay there tossing and turning for 2 hours. I cannot afford to lose hours of sleep. If it was like this everyday I'd be fucking dead.
I found some bins and organized my room pretty nicely. I'm trying really hard to make my room the most roomy it's ever been. Like it's sorta a studio apartment. I have that area where I put my water bottles when I was buying them filled with water gallons, plates, bowls, bread, v8, spoons, etc. So it's hidden off in a corner.
But ever since Riley got here and I've had gloves everywhere... and shit everywhere bc i moved my Mouthwash and tooth brush in here bc I was worried liv was rubbing it on the toilet bowl or something after that weird snapple incident.... so my room became more and more cluttered.. obv I had that wire pit under my desk it's still not great but it's better and when I do finally game I'm going to make it look similar to how it was.
But I've had my gym clothes on my original Xbox and my going out clothes I've already worn on my dresser. And the gallon water the one I'm using sits on my other dresser... with my juice.... so it got a little cluttered bc of the gym and Riley. Also with my sponge sits in a cup next to my Xbox bc I don't want my mother fucking using it... that's why i bought my own to wash my own dishes which has helped me work on one of my ocd issues... I just wash my pan and spatula.. but I have no where to put my sponge other than in a cup next to my xbox...
It's not perfect. And I swear once I get my capture card out and hook some shit up it's going to be more messy... but I also found another bin and I'm going to put my gym clothes (since I dont sweat there anymore since I stopped running) and my going out already worn but still clean clothes in the bin next to my Xbox so they aren't spread out all over my room making everything messy..
I also grabbed another bin to put my gloves in. All my vinyl gloves and my hyper tough gloves (minus the poison ivy ones that are stored in my room under a piece of furniture bc I dont know what to do with them.)
The other problem is since Riley got here I've been using my laundry basket that was holding my old glasses I was going to donate. I've been using that as a laundry basket which makes my room look messy... eventually anyways... and I had to move my old glasses to my storage hanger in my closet which is the only shelf I have left unfortunately... but I won't be getting new clothes any time soon bc I'm fucking poor. Eventually I'll donate the glasses and get new shirts and spread it out a little... and if she ever leaves I'm start using the hamper in the bathroom again. I'm afraid she's going to pee on it or something if she breaches my barricade.
I also got to get washable nitrate gloves or rubber gloves so I have gloves i can use around the house.. the hyper tough gloves you can feel moisture through.... I need about two pairs so I can fucking use one for cleaner dirty things and one for super dirty things.. and then I dont need gloves you throw away.. I've went through 300 pairs in less than a month and trust me I try to use them in a efficient way but ocd is hard to live with...
Anyways look at how awesome my room looks in the area I was able to fix up, NO MORE WELCHES JUICE POP BOX AS A FUCKING WIRE BOX 😁
My dresser is a disaster but I'm working on it...
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