#bc i have the same fucking stim as her tic
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pizzapizzadickz · 3 years ago
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#diary#personal#got fucking dammit my throat is sore and i wanna fucking stop this vocal stim cuz it strains my voice.#but i just fucking keep on doing it. ugh. its so just. annoying after a while. ugh.#sometimes i just get into one specific stim a lot and ill do it so much but stop in a while. but sometimes its too much#idk i just wanna chill but it be hard bc i keep fucking squeeking ;-;#first world problems man. the squeak™️#and whats about as bad is i wanna bit on my cheeks and thats also annoying bc i *should* get some gum#BUT I WANNA SETTLE DOWN AND SLEEP FFS#...god i just need something to bite or chew on ffs. and doing it to myself isnt a good idea lmao#seriously this is so annoying. like ive *sorta* burnt out or something so im just super stimmy lately.#AND LIKE AGAINST BETTER JUDGEMENT IVE BEEN WATCHING NEURODIVERGENT TIKTOKS#AND LIKE THIS IS A PROBLEM BC IT MAKES ME STIM MORE FFS#...a while back i was watching sweet anita who has tics and because she has a popping tic it makes my stim MUCH WORSE.#bc i have the same fucking stim as her tic#IM DYING HERE SOMEONE BRING ME WATER UGH#like. i can cover them up and i dont stim in public or whatever. but at home in my room? its free real-estate.#(yes i just pictured that meme) but seriously tho it gets tiring and annoying after a while when youve spent HOURS or DAYS#just fucking stimming. like. i dont mind stiming. but this is too much. send help. what do do when stim too much.#...and i know this is bc i mask a lot and burn out a lot.... i know i did this to myself leave me alone.#UGHHHHHH FUCK.
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were-wolverine · 2 years ago
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stranger things autism squad hcs
- the squad consists of jonathan, eddie, robin, steve (and will but i’ll talk abt him with the rest of the party’s hcs)
the rest of them are also neurodivergent, mainly adhd or anxiety and obviously they all have ptsd
- eddie robin and steve also have adhd (and steve has dyslexia)
- steve and jonathan tend to get overstimulated by the same things, same with eddie and robin
- eddie and jonathan have music playing 24/7 so their thoughts don’t get too loud
- steve is hyper-empathetic to the ppl around him and tends to mimic stims and tics from the others
a lot of times robin and steve end up mimicking the same stuff back at each other until one of them gets distracted (which is usually pretty fast)
- jonathan is touch averse, can only handle being touched by family/very close friends
- steve is touch starved and finds physical affection grounding (and eddie and robin are happy to oblige bc they do too)
- steve has a super high pain tolerance
- eddie does not understand the concept of personal space
- steve has excellent hand-eye coordination (basketball!) but that’s about it, he’s almost as clumsy as robin most days
- eddie has lived off of solely spaghettio’s and chicken nuggets for 19 years
- jonathan can’t drink any beverage other than water
- the only food steve knows how to make is his and robins comfort foods (his is mac and cheese, robin’s is pancakes)
- the four of them are completely clueless when people try to subtly hint or imply things to them. they will not get it unless it is explicitly stated
- steve and eddie have a good sense of direction but mess up left and right, jonathan and robin are the opposite, they get lost constantly but make fun of steve and eddie for having to do the L thing (iykyk) to figure out left/right
- eddie ends up chewing on paper a lot and has accidentally swallowed a bunch
- eddie and steve are incapable of doing homework and are terrible test-takers
- steve and robin are perfectionists but in different ways. steve will start organizing peoples rooms subconsciously and has a bunch of random little rules for himself (tie left shoe first, check locks three times, etc.) robin is a perfectionist about her grades/band/how she looks/etc.
- jonathan and steve hate making eye contact, eddie makes too much eye contact and robin doesn’t even look up from her book when people talk to her
- eddie and robin accidentally eavesdrop a lot but end up getting a bunch of town gossip and tell steve about it. they’re all really invested in mr. clarke’s love life
- eddie and jonathan have synesthesia
- jonathan has a lack of facial expressions while eddie and robin over-exaggerate theirs. steve masks the most so he has “normal” facial expressions
- steve has trouble expressing himself a lot of the time, he’ll usually ask robin for certain words to describe things and bc she loves big words and vocabulary she always has one
- robin is a terrible liar and steve finds it hilarious
- they all tend to recharge on their own after a lot of socializing, or they all go to steve’s and just like. exist together
- steve keeps a very strict schedule and gets really anxious/upset when it’s messed up
- robin and eddie tend to overshare
- jonathan and steve talk pretty monotone (jonathan more so) while robin and eddie talk in super energetic or dramatic tones (they’re both former theatre kids i can feel it in my bones)
- steve has auditory processing issues, often asks people to repeat what they said (overtime he also starts to lose his hearing so he ends up learning to read lips)
- when they’re anxious robin and eddie usually go hyperverbal, while steve and jonathan tend to go nonverbal
- steve and eddie have echolalia and both used to get super frustrated with themselves before they met and were like “oh im not the only one thank fuck”
- jonathan and robin have photographic memories, steve and eddie have trouble remembering what they had for breakfast
- robin is pretty blunt but steve appreciates it because she gets straight to the point and calls him out if he does something stupid (aka smth King Steve would do)
- steve’s main mask is, obviously, king steve. his parents didn’t like the way he acted when he was younger, they wanted a “normal” child. so they trained him to be one. he still falls back into old habits some days but robin or eddie snap him out of it and comfort him after
- steve and robin mask the most, but steve does wayyy more than all of them combined. robins parents are autistic so she only really masks around people in public
she does around steve until they get closer and she feels comfortable enough to unmask (though she doesn’t really know why,,) and steve notices and is like “…you can… take it off?” and robin realizes oh he’s like me
- joyce is an amazing mother and jonathan only ever felt the need to mask around lonnie. once he leaves (aka joyce kicks him out with hopper’s help) will and jonathan rarely mask at home unless they’re really anxious or upset
- eddie masked most of his childhood. when he grows up he masks around his dad, but not anyone else. he thought if anyone hated him they could go fuck themselves. wayne is also autistic so they never feel the need to mask around each other. he still doesn’t give a shit what other people think of him (and tries to help the others feel that way too)
their special interests:
- jonathan’s is photography
- eddie’s are dnd and metal music
- robins are cryptography and linguistics
- steve’s are hair care and marvel comics
steve infodumps to dustin and robin about them but doesn’t tell anyone else (besides will) because it’s “nerdy” lmao. and yes when eddie finds out he falls even harder for him
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omegawolverine · 4 years ago
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Shiro (DW) Jade (Homestuck) Matt (Death Note) Sry if any are rly obscure or anything
no thank you for the ask!! and sorry the first two are lack luster!!
shiro:
-neurodivergent, fuck you /j
-jumpy stims, rocking back and forth on her heels, hand flapping and flips are !!! stims
-aroace, her and ganta are probably qpps
-/p kisses her friends straight on the mouth, as she should <3
jade:
-also neurodivergent, dont even argue with me on this
-does some fun lil air kicks to stim (when i say air kicks i mean like a kick that could definetly fucking launch someone back a few feet but she just kinda. does it at the air for stims)
-also does a nice lil brrrr stim
-i think she's just the type to find a caterpillar on her, coo at it and then forget it's there so she eventually refinds it half way across her body from where it first started
-probably likes moths idk
-lady kisser (affectionate), no i will not expand
matt (omg this is one of my kins ur gonna regret this-):
-adhder who sells his meds, not bc he needs the money but bc he always forgets to take his pills so he just has an abundance of them
-says he "doesnt have a type" bc he's been in love with the same bitchy mfer for the majority of his life and doesnt realize it
-cannot talk about his emotions to save his fucking life but he'll act like he fucking can
-is competitive in things he likes (ie games, a debate about a topic he's interested in, basically any game or joke debate ((from who can get detention the least to what chocolate brand is the worst)) with mello)
-very freckley, freckles all fuckn over
-mm irish. irish lil fuck who spent a lot of his life in new york (like, probably moved there around 5) before ending up in wammys (which is in britain, btw, and im thinking he went to wammys around 11). has weird accent now
-unlabeled bc he doesnt care enough to have one but he definetly likes all genders and has a female lean
-that's a trans dude. trans dude indeed.
-sensory issues surrounding touch, hence the gloves over long sleeves on top of pants combo
-bad in a fist fight, but can shoot decently well, thanks to mello
-veryyyy morally grey, probably on the darker side at that, but he doesnt really think that's a bad thing either. he figures as long as he's working towards a good goal, it's okay to do bad things
-absolutely has done things he regrets for mello, but he'd never tell him that bc he knows mello would feel bad about it
-sarcastic prick, doesnt know when to shut his mouth
-mmm adhd/anxiety tics...has a few neck ones (they're different directions and some involve shoulders, but essentially all just the classic jerking type shit), a "bah" tic, a nose scrunch and a water drop sound (like the ones people do with their mouths)
-doesnt like to stim in front of people but he stims a lot in front of mello, including using mello as a fuckn stim toy basically
-mello keeps him on a decent sleep schedule bc he just has horrible adhder sleep and would rather stay up all night playing games
-has never done a piece of homework In His Life but gets the best grades
-definetly a class disrupter, but it's mostly unintentional. mostly.
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