#bc i have been wanting to for soooo long but!! lazy

[rainwedding]

"i personally think it's too cold to have the windows open but you wanna smoke your menthol cigarettes" with byler. do u see the vision

[stxneflxwers]

I saw your post and came running 👀 I've been thinking about this since the end of December bc I really did not get into the holiday spirit until after it was over lmao BUT for any characters you want to write for: what are they like during the holidays? What traditions do they like to do? What gifts do they give you?

(Extra ideas you can take or leave if it helps your inspiration at all — How does Aventurine feel when you tell him you don't need any of those expensive gifts, just time with him? How does Sunday react when you sit him down to tell him he's stressing himself out too hard trying to find a perfect gift for you and that all you want is for him to be happy? How does Dan Heng respond when you tell him that the only gift you want for the holidays is him?)

^ I've just been rotating the hsr boys in my head all day at work lol so I have a lot of Thoughts™

gift of love.

summary. the greatest gift of all is his love.

a/n. tysm for the request!!! i decided to settle with gift-giving ideas you offered, since it sounded interesting and cute!! im just gonna stick with aven and sunday for this tho... i wanna test how sunday writes for me.

characters. aventurine. sunday.

cw. first time writing for sunday (this is more of a test with how much i enjoy writing him, sry for any OOC-ness). gift-giving. all lowercase. established relationship(s). PLS NOTE THAT I HAVEN'T DONE THE NEW TRAILBLAZE MISSION STILL CUZ I'M A LAZY MFER...SORRY.

aventurine.

tries to be soooo sneaky about figuring out what you like as gifts. he wants all of his gifts to be a surprise, after all! it doesn't work. you see right through his game plan. he's a smidgen disappointed (with himself), and might be a bit surprised depending on the kind of person you are.

he still ends up showering you in expensive gifts of things you enjoy. he tries to find the most expensive edition of any of those things even though he, of all people, should know that expensive ≠ well-made. you have to tell him to chill out.

he immediately believes you're angry with him (why wouldn't you be?). but you're not, and you can see the panic flash in his eyes for the tiniest of moments. you sigh softly with a wary smile. you briefly give him some space before talking to him about it.

you tell him that all the most expensive gifts in the world are nothing in comparison to quality time together. you remain patient with an open-mind and a listening ear – you know he needs a wealth of both. you make sure to tell him you miss him.

his mouth hangs open in silence when you tell him that, for once he's at a loss for words. his mouth closes and he smiles. he takes you into a soft hug and whispers, "i miss you too."

he makes an evident effort to be around you more often when he does have the time. you know, instead of wasting half of it out in the casino.

and it makes all the difference.

sunday.

the most perfectionist to ever perfectionist. stop him before he literally keels over from stress.

thankfully, you notice how weary he's been. and you ask him what's wrong. because at this point – everyone knows, everyone notices how he's been stuck in his head (more than usual). he frets over little things, as usual. but now he seems almost snippy. birdie is cranky.

when he eventually gives in and confesses that he cannot find the "right" gift for you, you're smiling and shaking your head. you give him a very long moment of silence, testing him – seeing if he catches on what you'll say next.

he doesn't catch on "quick enough", much to his dismay. perhaps he hasn't adjusted to your praises and reassurances...yet.

you tell him that the greatest gift of all would be for him to be happy. to be relaxed. to be in the moment. you throw in a little whisper, "maybe by my side, too."

he's silent – his mind running amok with what to say next. he settles for an awkward yet genuinely affectionate, "thank you..."

and then he asks for your forgiveness once he collects himself. you laugh softly and forgive him, you've gotten used to him asking for your forgiveness rather often. only yours, though.

at some point, you're going to need to tell him that forgiving himself is far more important.

[itsrlymine]

Heyyyy I've been following you for a while and I love your page and that fact that you're Nigerian too is saur cool!!

Anyways, I just wanted to share a few recent success stories with you because you really helped me understand how easy it is to manifest anything and how powerful and limitless I am 🫶🏼🫶🏼

#1. My parents forgetting that I dropped a class in uni (that I didn't even need but they still wanted me to do all that work 😒) they told me not to drop it but I dropped it anyway lolll. Me and my dad even had a whole hour long argument about it, but I just said that they don't even remember that it happened and we never even had that conversation. It was never brought up again 😌

#2. My mom not bothering me because I wanted to sleep 😭 I said she literally wouldn't talk to me until after a certain time and she literally did exactly that lmaoooo

#3. Manifesting seeing a certain snack in an international food store that they usually never have by the time I got to the store I didn't even want it anymore lmaoooo but it was there tho!

#4. Manifesting Toyota Rav 4s everywhere lmaoooo this wasn't even on purpose but everytime I would see one I would be like "whoa I see these literally everywhere" and now they're everywhere in my area when I never used to see them ever (this also might be because it's the car I want (have 🤭) so I'd be like "omg now that I have my car everyone wants to be a copycat omggg 🙄" and i think that alo had something to do with it)

#5. Being cool in a hot ass room cause I was too lazy to get up and turn off the heater. Like randomly from somewhere I just started feeling cold air and it was in like under a minute like I'm so powerful omg

I know these aren't a lot but these are the main ones that I really remember. I've been manifesting so much but those other ones are more like spur of the moment and not memorable.

But yeah so now I'm manifesting a whole list of things (cause I'm literally god and what I say goes). One of them being going back to 2023 cause I want to redo my freshman year of uni cause I'm also manifesting other things that would actually help me enjoy college fr (an apartment, car, friend grp, full ride, hella money, etc. Cause the whole thing is like 122 bullets 😋) and I'm manifesting it all at one time which lowkey sounds like what shifting is so that's what I've been calling it but yeah. And now that I know that I want it, I have it already!

I'm sorry if this is really long but I have a tendency to yap about stuff but yeah I'm just really excited to share this with you cause you helped me a lot and now I just effortlessly manifest when I've been so unsure of my ability to shift/manifest for like 4yrs now lmaooo I've been suffering 😭 but now I'm locked in and I'm getting whatever the fuck I want 🤭

Also I read your previous post about getting your visa approved for your trip. I hope you have fun!! 🩷🩷🩷

Omg hello my fellow Naija babe!!! I'm so happy you like my page, thank you so much for being here!

First of all, you absolutely ate down with these manifestations you now that right??! I'm excited asf bc these are so great and i can't wait to hear the ones you come back and share babe omggg! You can definitely just make a list and decide it's all done bc it's all done now anyways soooo!

You are getting whatever the fuck you want bc that's what's supposed to happen!!!! Awe babe I'm glad my page has helped in some way but you are the real superstar!!!

Thank you I am so excited for my trip!!! Thank you so much for sharing my love!

[angelic-sturniolos111]

Halloweekend 😈

It’s your first time back in LA since your sleazy ex-boyfriend cheated on you. During your visit you’re invited with friends to a big Halloween house party. You take advantage of this opportunity as a way to bring your confidence back up by wearing a sl*tty costume. Your friend, Matt Sturniolo, can’t keep his eyes off of you the whole night…

matthew sturniolo x fem! reader

warnings: cursing, mentions of anxiety/ anxiety attacks, alcohol, marijuana/ drugs, suggestive sexual content

reader’s costume: https://pin.it/1ROVZdj

author’s note: I usually don’t like including pictures of what the reader is supposed to be wearing because everyone has a different body type, race, preference, etc… so please imagine yourself however you’d like but the pic is just for reference! also, there’s a text chain in this fic where orange text= Chris, blue= Matt, and purple= Nick (duh).

did not proofread this bc I’m lazy

You had been struggling with your confidence since your boyfriend of several months had cheated on you with some skimpy instagram model the last time you two went to LA together. After the break-up you had been constantly texting your best friend Matt Sturniolo because he knew you better than anyone— better than your ex ever did. You two grew up in Boston and became close friends in high school before the onset of his online success with his brothers. You were one of the few Boston friends he had who stuck close by and supported him through everything, and the three always invited you to LA to visit them whenever you could. You wanted to get away for a bit to get your mind off your ex and cure your shitty mood, and so Matt helped you book a flight out as you planned to stay with them in LA for a little bit. You’ve stayed with them in LA multiple times and subsequently became friends with LA girls like Madi Filipowicz and Paige Taylor.

You were currently out shopping with Madi and Paige for a last-minute Halloween costume. It was Halloweekend, and Madison Beer was hosting a big house party and invited the three of you and the triplets.

“Guys I don’t know… I’m kinda having second thoughts about going tonight.” You said hesitantly.

“Um no, absolutely not! We’re going to find the sexiest costume for you and you’re going to go and have all the guys fawning over you. Plus I already bought j’s for all of us so you can’t back out now.” Paige replies in a demanding tone.

“And Matt will be there too soooo…” Madi says suggestively.

“Okay for the millionth time nothing will ever happen between Matt and I! We’ve been friends too long and I just don’t think he sees me in that way.” You say back.

There was no doubt that you always had feelings for Matt, but you never acted on them afraid of ruining the friendship and losing him forever. So, you kept your mouth shut and tried to suppress these feelings by dating one douchebag after another which always ended disastrously. Madi and Paige were the only two who knew about your long-term crush on Matt and they’re always encouraging you to make a move or ask him out, but you’re afraid that just won’t ever happen.

“Whatever.” Madi laughs. “Come on, let’s try these on and we’ll get each others input and see which one looks best on each of us.”

***

In the dressing room you had tried on costumes like “sexy nun,” “sexy devil,” “playboy bunny,” but you just weren’t feeling yourself in any of them. You opened and tried on the last costume in your basket. It was a sexy, lacy maids costume with thigh-high stockings and a cute lace choker with a bow. You spun around looking at yourself in the mirror from every angle, and honestly, you felt sexy as fuck. The skirt ended just below your ass making the bottom it peak out ever so slightly while the apron cinched your waist and the scoop neck accentuated your boobs nicely. You get a light knock at the door.

“Hey, find anything yet?” You hear Madi say. You open the door to the fitting room and step out into view with a smile plastered on your face.

“Oh, abso-fucking-lutely.” Paige says making you smile even more.

***

The three of you were in Madi’s room making final adjustments to your hair and makeup before calling an Uber. You couldn’t lie, you were actually looking forward to having Matt see you dressed up like this. You felt so sexy and hot and hoped Matt would see you in the same way.

“Alright. Last one before we head out the door,” Paige says handing you and Madi each a shot. “Cheers!” You throw your head back as the liquid burns your throat and nose and you shaking your head a bit to alleviate the sting.

Calling Uber now see you soon! You texted in the group chat with you and the triplets.

Omfg about time u girls take foreverrrrr

Word

Cool we’re in the backyard rn we’ll wait here for you!

You step out of the Uber and follow the girls up the walkway to the front door leading yourselves in and greeting familiar faces as you walk through the house to the back porch. You get outside and see Chris already playing pong with Nate as Nick stands by their side chatting away with Madison. “Hey guys!” You say as Nick turns to you reaching to you for a hug.

“Oh my god you girls look fucking stunning!” Nick says to you Madi and Paige eliciting a thank you from everyone. Madi and Nick hug and get to talking while Madison and Paige do the same.

“Hey Y/N looking good! Nice to see you again!” Nate says politely extending his arm out for a side hug. You looked next to him to see Chris concentrating on his next shot before releasing the ball and sinking it into a cup across the table.

Chris turns to look at you and his eyes widen slightly. “Woah when the fuck did this happen?” He says putting his hands up.

“When did what happen?” You laugh.

“When did you get hot as fuck all of a sudden?” Chris says and you roll your eyes playfully— although his comment definitely made you feel good.

“Hey I’ve always been hot as fuck so thanks for finally noticing!” You say as the two of you reached out to hug one another. “Where’s Matt?” You had scanned the backyard and didn’t catch sight of him.

“Ummm not sure he was out here a minute ago.”

“Y/N! Come on we’re gonna go spark up over by the pool. Chris, you got a light on you?” Paige pushed between the two of you interrupting.

Chris reaches into his pocket and pulls out a lighter handing it to her, “Always.” He says with a cheeky grin on his face.

“Thanks you’re the best! Okay come on let’s go!” Paige grabs your arm and starts leading the way over to the pool.

“But— Wait I. Ugh… okay.” You sigh and give in letting her pull you through the crowd. She leads you to the area behind the pool slide where you see Madi and Nick already waiting for you two. Paige pulls the joints out of her bag and hands one to each of us, and gives Madi the lighter first to pass down the line. They light up, and once the lighter is passed into your hand you feel a tap on your shoulder.

“May I?” You turn around and are greeted by the piercing ice blue eyes of Matt Sturniolo. You smile, passing him the lighter and putting the joint up to your mouth as he covers the end with his hand and lights it for you. Something about this gesture, and his large hands wrapped on the lighter, was really doing it for you. You take a puff, inhaling and feeling your shoulders and body relax a bit.

“Well you definitely look different than how I last saw you this morning.” Matt smiles, laughing lightly.

“Mmhm well I hope it’s good different.” You reply. You were testing the waters being a little flirty with Matt for the first time.

“Oh yeah… very good.” He says as his eyes trail up and down your body making heat rise in your chest.

***

The two of you continued to talk, passing the joint back and forth, and you couldn’t help but notice Matt’s unusual behavior. Every time you turned away and back to him you caught his eyes already planted on some part of your body before he’d move them back up to meet yours. It was obvious he was checking you out, and this only boosted your confidence even more.

“Come on let’s grab a drink.” You tossed the remainder of the joint and grab Matt’s hand and started walking. He entangled his fingers in yours as you walked. Pushing through the crowd you take a look back at Matt to see that his eyes were glued to your ass that became repeatedly visible with each step you took. You smile to yourself and bring him into the kitchen with you. It definitely wasn’t as crowded inside the house and you used that opportunity to try and have a little more privacy with Matt. You watch as Matt pours drinks into both your cups, and turns handing yours back to you.

“Do you want to go in the living room with me? Sit on the couch for a bit?” You asked Matt. He smiles, and this time he goes to grab your hand as he leads you towards the living room. You both slightly stop in your tracks once you enter the room.

“Hey there he is! Dude come sit with us you have to listen to this story!” Says Chris to Matt from the couch as he’s surrounded by friends standing or sitting on the floor in a circle. You hear Matt let out a small sigh before he sits next to Chris on the couch, and you next to Matt. Chris was going on and on with some crazy story from a Lil Skies concert with everyone listening intently, including Matt. It was painful having him sit right next to you in this moment because with your costume, the alcohol, and the weed you were feeling pretty hot and heavy. Chris continued on with his story leaving no room for you to interject, and you were dying to get Matt’s attention somehow. You waited for a brief pause in Chris’s speech to interrupt.

“Anyone need me to throw out or refill their cups? I figured it’s the least I could do given my current costume.” You say laughing lightly. The group laughs and nod as they reach for their cups. You get off the couch and go over to the guys sitting on the floor, and you bend over to grab their cups. You make sure to bend over right across from Matt ensuring he could get a perfect view up your small skirt. You collect the cups and turn back around to see Matt uncomfortably shifting in his seat as his face was blushing.

You leave to the kitchen to throw out most of the cups and refill a few drinks, and when you come back into the living room you see your previous seat next to Matt was occupied by some girl. She had her hand on his shoulder as she chatted him up.

That’s when you notice the girl sitting next to him is the same one your ex cheated on you with when you were in LA together.

You feel a ping in your chest and your stomach sinks. You put the cups down on the coffee table and turn away swiftly walking out of the living room. You scan your surroundings and feel your anxiety kicking in. Your heart starts racing, and your breathing becomes quicker and more staggered. You frantically walk through the crowd trying to find some sort of bathroom or bedroom you could be alone in. You find a door in the corner of the kitchen and open it to find a staircase leading to the basement. You close the door behind you and walk down the steps, turning on the light to see a couch with a television set and some speakers. You sit on the couch and put your hand on your chest, feeling your heartbeat, and take a deep breath to try and control your breathing. A tear slips out from your eye and rolls down your cheek. All the confidence that you had built up tonight had just been shattered. You genuinely thought, for the first time ever during your friendship, that Matt might have seen you as more than the friend he has from high school. Stupid. I’m so fucking stupid for ever believing in some fantasy that Matt would have feelings for me. You thought to yourself as you quietly cried. You stayed like this for several minutes before you hear a door close and footsteps making their way down the stairs. You look and see Matt with an incredibly concerned look on his face.

“Hey, I was looking for you and someone said they saw you come down here. Are you okay?” He says in a soft tone. He comes and sits closely next to you on the couch as he places his hand on your back, gently rubbing it. You swallow the lump in your throat, and exhale deeply before speaking.

“I don’t know. I guess I just haven’t been feeling great about myself since my ex cheated. I know we talked about this already and I said I was fine, but the girl he cheated on me with is this super skinny and hot instagram model… the one you were talking with on the couch actually.” You pause and look at Matt and he looks down for a moment. “And seeing who he cheated on me with, how she’s way prettier than me, has just made me feel bad about myself lately.” You say choking slightly on your words as you let more tears spill from your eyes.

Matt places his hands on your shoulders and gently turns for you to face him.

“Y/N, you wouldn’t believe the amount of eyes I’ve seen on you tonight. You are so beautiful. Stunning! And her? She’s an annoying bitch that none of us like anyways, especially me which is why I left right after she came to talk to me. Annoying bitch with your stupid fucking douche of an ex makes much more sense than the two of you being together. He didn’t deserve you at ALL. I was always telling my brothers how shifty and rude I thought he was, and I never liked him. He didn’t treat you the way you should been treated.” Matt says sternly.

“Thank you. I thought maybe tonight would’ve made me feel better. I couldn’t give less of a fuck what other guys were staring besides—” You cut yourself off. In your impaired state you were nearly about to tell Matt how you feel about him.

“Besides?” Matt interrupts your thoughts and his eyes scan your face. Waiting for an answer. You let out a deep sigh. Your lack of inhibitions getting the better of you.

“Besides you. I thought I might’ve caught you eyeing me up and down, or at least I was hoping you were. I’ve always had feelings for you, and I thought you didn’t feel the same until tonight. I took your glances as something more serious than it is. In reality I know it’s not like that, and I’m sorry.” Matt’s hands came off your shoulders and you look to see his face dropped sadness present in his expression. There was a long pause before his hand reached up to cup my cheek. His eyes flickered from mine down to my lips. He leans in and places a gentle kiss to my lips before pulling back and speaking,

“Y/N, it is like that. I have always had feelings for you, but my anxieties and fears always get the better of me and I’ve never been able to tell you. God, I have been on edge all night just being in your presence because yes, I was eyeing you up and down, and this costume is driving me absolutely fucking wild.” He says as he places a hand on my thigh and gently caresses the lace of my stocking with his thumb. “Trust me I’ve been wanting to make a move on you all night, but I didn’t want you to think I wanted you in that way because with you I want so much more. I want everything. I want you.” He says sincerely, his eyes locking with yours.

You didn’t even give it a second thought before you crashed your lips onto his. He immediately kissed you back. The kiss got deeper and you gently bite his bottom lip and pull away. Matt groans as he slides his hand from your face to the back of your neck and pulls you in close for a passionate kiss, his tongue roaming the inside of your mouth. His other hand slides up your thigh making you whine and you move to straddle his lap. He puts his hands on the outside of your thighs, and you slide his hands backwards to land on your ass where he gives it a rough squeeze… making you whine and him moan into your mouth. He takes one hand and slides it up the nape of your neck, grabbing your hair and pulling your face away from his breaking the kiss. You look into Matt’s lust blown eyes.

“Let’s get out of here.” He softly whispers in your ear sending a chill down your spine…

**********

I haven’t made an archive of our own acc yet but when I do I am thinking an absolutely filthyyyyy part two. 🫣 no promises.

[cursedwithcaution]

Finding Palismen || Chapter 45: In My Blood

[CW: mention of suicide and throwing up]

“I mean, it makes sense,” Luz told me during the first week. She was doing laundry in the basement while I practiced patchwork. “You were like, really sick.” “Well, I’m not sick anymore,” I said, irritated. I was about to learn that sewing while irritated is not a great idea. “So I don’t have an excuse.” “An excuse for what? Being tired? For not instantly regaining muscle after weeks of being sick and not eating enough?” Luz smashed the button to start the dryer. “You don’t have to do everything, Hunter. It’s okay to rest for a while.” The needle pricked my finger. I swore and kept sewing. “I’ve rested long enough.” I haven’t kept up my strength, I haven’t been in school in weeks, I’m hiding from my demon realm problems. The least I can do is get back to “peak physical condition.” I’ve been so lazy. “Have you actually rested?” Luz asked. I grit my teeth. “Don’t lecture me about rest, Luz.” She put her hands up. “Far be it from me to lecture anyone about anything. I just don’t want you to work yourself to death.” I scoffed and said something I immediately regretted. “Well, that’s what I was made to do. Guess it’s in my blood.” “Hunter, don’t do that.” I didn’t respond, just kept my focus on the patch. I pricked my finger again. My hands were shaking. “I don’t care what you think you were made for,” Luz said. “I know you want more than that.” Want. “If you haven’t noticed, I don’t get what I want.” “That isn’t true.” “No, you’re right. I get what I want, and then I fuck it up.” My anger had been building for a while. I’d shoved it down and focused on anything besides my own thoughts. “I got to be a Hexside student and then I got myself kicked out.” “Hunter—“ “Willow tells me she likes me romantically, and I freak out and scare her and ruin it. I start living here and I can’t get through the day without throwing up or passing out.” “You’re still throwing up?” Only twice. I ignored her question. “And when we got stuck here, I finally, finally let myself want things. I started thinking about what I’d like to do with my life. I cut my hair so I could be my own person, because I wanted to look at myself and see something other than a dead man—I finally wanted to be alive. And you know what happened next?” I laughed manically and mimicked slitting my throat because I didn’t know how to mimick drowning. “I killed myself!” And my best friend! “But you’re here now. You have a second—““A second chance?” I shook my head. “Yeah. A second chance that I’m wasting. I don’t know what I’m doing!  Maybe I can’t do anything! Maybe I’m a freak of supernature that can’t be anything more than someone else’s rotting flesh! Maybe I’m cursed! Maybe I am a curse.”

posted 8 minutes early bc i am soooo sleepy i do what i want

[minimyz]

@quensty tagged me in this (...a few days ago) and its been so so long ive done this i miss tumblr fr

favourite colour: orange prob bc i was a naruto fan and never got over it

currently reading: cien años de soledad by gabriel garcía márquez been reading in spanish and its a slow but cool process as a portuguese speaker

last song: to be alone by hozier i was listening to him yesterday and something i shared in my cf is that i forget i have the means to listen to his music at anytime. why dont i do it.

last movie: im watching princess diaries at this exact moment (mia and queen just crashed) but the last full movie was les rendezvous d'anna (loosely. i may have slept through like 70% of it). the last full movie i payed attention to was mickey 17 (enjoyed it a lot!!!! 4.5 on letterboxd)

last series: been trying to get through buffy but disney doesn't work on my phone or my work computer so i have to watch it on my laptop but im soooo lazy..... im currently on s2 !

sweet, savory or salty: i have no idea what savory is but i was gonna say sweet anyway my favourite is prob like acidic/sour sweet

craving: MOQUECA i read something today and the guy made brazilian fish stew and now i want some😭

tea or coffee: coffee man i wanted to get into having tea but i cant do it

currently working on: NOTHING i am on break from school deus existe as vezes🙏

tagging everyone who sees this but specially @tal-vez-despues @czernygf 🤞

[summer-oil]

hi ari !!! i hope youre doing well !! ive (unfortunately) been thinking abt gojo a lot lately and wanted to share my brainrot with you

hes such a cuddle bug.. a big baby :( i think abt how it would be with him as someone who lives in a HOT country.. he'll get all pouty whenever he gets (lovingly) pushed away when he insists to cuddle during lazy afternoons in bed

eventually he'll deal with it, finding solace in being sprawled out with you in the ridiculously large bed you both have. he'll still want to cuddle and be close to you though.. so when u eventually fall asleep he will carefully crawl in between you, all sprawled out like a true starfish

he'll keep his hands away from you despite wanting to engulf you in a hug since he's sure that amount of skin contact will wake you, so he just settles on laying down on your stomach, his cheek pressed against your skin...

which is why half an hour later, you'll be woken up with your lower half feeling heavier than usual... and why does your stomach feel ticklish ..?

cue satoru sleeping soundly with his hair tickling your skin from where the shirt has ridden up from him snuggling you, his arms now around your sides

it's like a big cat has fallen asleep on your lap .. now you CANNOT move even if you have to pee really badly... you are losing feeling in your legs... help

eugh i love clingy satoru so much !!!!!!! :(((

ANONNNNNN I’M MELTING INTO A PUDDLE….. clingy toru T_T our lord n savior. he’s the cutest!! your clingy overgrown cat of a bf……..

plsssss he would be so troubled 😭😭 i think he craves your touch so badly that he starts shaking when he goes too long without it LMAO. full on abstinence just bc you wouldn’t let him hold you in his sweaty arms and cradle you to his scorching chest…… what is a poor man to do? :((( he really is suchhhh a big ol pouty baby . goes hmph! and looks at you like this >:c while crossing his arms…… but when you still don’t let him cuddle you he starts drafting up his master plan. silly, silly little man. <3

and aaaaaa 😭😭😭 him falling asleep w his face nuzzled into your stomach!!!! anon you’re killing me he’s soooo cute ……. actual cat man. just fluffy and heavy and clingy …. and ofc you can’t push him away because he’ll wake up all confused and pouty and it’ll break your heart :(((( he’ll get his well earned affection one way or another!!!!

hhhhh anon i hope u know this made my own gojo brainrot worse 😭😭 we’re in this together…. tysm for sharing ur thoughts w me!!!! this made me feel so warm n cozy :33 my brain is full of clingy kittycat gojo thoughts always always always <3333

[dandeliondocx]

trying a new thing where i write my ideas down and kind of journal about the writing process (spoilers for hate to see your heart break i guess lol)

ok actually i'm trying a lot of new things recently

sleeping without my phone in the room LOL i have to stop scrolling before i sleep

writing my ideas down on an actual notebook instead of letting them float around in my head

writing more than 1-2 scenes in a fic (it's been like… 6 months since i last did that or wrote something long enough LOL)

not pressuring myself to finish writing a fic in 1 sitting lol

i like to outline for longer fics, and when i type them out, they tend to be… loooooong. like i can write line per line of dialogue in the outline and i just fill in the introspection and movements but use the dialogue as a guide posts in the journey (which would have been helpful for all the monologues in this LOL but i digress…)

buuut because i was writing them down (usually before bed to tire myself out for sleep lol), it's more concise than usual:

i always love looking back at my outlines and realizing how much i deviated from it lol usually for the better… plans are nice but sometimes the beats just go an entirely different direction and i gotta respect the course the story wants to take. or sometimes i try sooo hard to stick to the outline but it gets me stuck for hoursss so i pivot and hope that it works out better.

OH MAN the central point of this fic was supposed to be the "can I kiss you?" line :( like the key part was the buildup of ange having to admit to herself that she wanted to cross that line and really see at him as a romantic partner :( :( that she was willing to fundamentally change how they interact with each other because the moment they kiss, she can't just write this off as a friend hangout or whatever :( :( :(

but i struggled so much even getting them to where they were at that point and after the monologue about his past relationships, it just flowed naturally to her realizing that she wanted to show him something better was possible for him— the same way he did for her and ahhhh idk…… the story took its own path and i must respect her autonomy 🙂‍↕️

also there are so many details that i didn't even end up adding to the actual fic lol… this happens all the time it's ~ world building ~ i guess

fave parts:

the hook/summary of the fic was lowkey a lightbulb moment, i started the outline AFTER i wrote the first scene bc i knew it was going to be a long one

writing changela banter is sooo much fun, the s/hitting on line still makes me giggle

freyja being fed w a spoon is based on my actual lazy princess cat 😭 she's not even old she's just soooo spoiled

most difficult to write:

uhhhh from the kitchen to the first kiss and ESPECIALLY how to end the fic 😭 i wrote and rewrote that part so many times before settling on the text. i'm really happy with how it ends though!

song inspirations:

Paramore - Hate to See Your Heart Break → randomly came up on shuffle and the lyrics just got to me… i read the genius description and awww it can definitely be interpreted as a platonic kind of comfort, but for this fic i wanted it to be about them seeing each other struggle and thinking they could do better for each other. but not knowing for sure, ykwim? it's the line between friends and lovers that's always the most difficult to cross

Carly Rae Jepsen - All That → vibes are immaculateeee carly rae my mother my muse my love youve given me so much …… mostly for the actual date, dim lights, just the two of them, so so intimate but not overtly sexual yk

Sugarfree - Ikaw Pala → this is a filipino song for true friends to lovers enjoyers… would loosely translate the story of the song as like. "you were there all along / it was you i've been looking for this whole time" vibes. GAWDDDD #realyearners will know

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anyway this (the actual writing and the talking about writing) was really fun for me! it's been ages since i was writing as regularly as i am now. also don't have a lot of time so i'm really just trying to enjoy the process! may or may not do this for future fics heh

[fernandopiastri28]

Favourite and least favourite work you've published and why

favourites:

SHOCK HORROR, i love first serve. its just so cute and i wanna write more but i just have no ideaaasss..... i might do a little 0.5 chap about like spending christmas together or a birthday but i really don't know. i love having oscar, logan, AND alex all in one- triple threat. i also wanna include mark and fernando.... maybe as oscar's parents. this one has also gotten a lot of good feedback and people have seemed to like it soooo

'give me purpose' is a rewrite of my first ever book that i made in early jan to late feb this year and it was 19k �� it took so long and i've improved so much since then so it's taken a LOT of rewriting and new plot points. i just love all the characters even though i feel like i am horrible at portraying them, esp lando. part 3 is my fave so far because its the happiest lando one yet :) im so excited to write more

least favourites:

sickly sweet; im literally not a lando fan like i just dislike him quite a bit and i only enjoy writing him when oscar is heavily involved. i dont LOVE writing smut so like reading it back is just paaaainfullll. i like part 2 though but thats because its a whole lotta daniel and i could write him for ageeess.

stop to smell the flowers; this one kills me bc i love oscar and you'd think 'omg oscar fluff, i'd love that' NO. its so short and weird and incohensive and ARGGHHH i just dont like it, it's such a lazy attempt of workkkkk :(((

honorable mention:

i did have this up at some point but like barely anyone read it but i think it might be my fave ff. i fleshed out charles character so well (to be humble 😚) and i actually like my writing in this. idk, if anyone wants me to post it on here i will but otherwise ill put the link here.

[rui-drawsbox]

hey dude

how did you develop your art style? ive been drawing for years and I cant seem to get a handle on ANYTHING

4 almost 5 days late sorry dude you shot right into my inability to put thoughts into words properly HAHA

alright so first of all, i don't even think a style is something you need to do art. I'm a hobbyist apologist and as long those people enjoy creating it doesn't even have to look "good".

That aside i'm assuming you want to take art at least a little seriously so i'm just going to be straight forward and say that the only way is ping-pong between styles/techniques/themes and just stick with the stuff you feel more comfortable doing.

Now going into my personal experience, that's what you asked after all lolol (from now on this is just yapping so feel free to ignore it)

alr soooo im skipping my first steps into art and going into the humanoid phase. I actually started with sonic! Specifically the show Sonic X, of course i picked up mannerisms from the anime when it was time of doing comedic doodles (and cuestionable taste on fashion)

(im going thru my big inspirations so bear with me here)

2015 came and i discovered my two main inspirations for a long time: fnaf and Ed00chan! (link to her abandoned deviantart so yall can see the style of the time). As i was completely enamored by her anime-yet-cartoony style i was also hyperfixated with fnaf and those two things combined perfectly into (the infamous in the spanish side of the fnaf fandom) fnafhs! bing bang boom there it goes my personality for the next 5 years!

sprinkle a few power puff girls z too why not

anyway at that time i wanted to become a pro like ed00 so i had to understand anatomy, and my go-to channel was Bgm94! But the elders said that to broke the rules you have to understand them, so i just kind-of started doing more "realistic" bodies while maintaining the cartoony-ness i liked so much. Which to be fair, didn't last long before i got bored and jumped straight into cartoon/chibi again

also since we're entering my digital era i'm including some drawings with wild style changes since the experimentation never ends owo9

anyway that was 2018 and before! it was around 2017-18 that i dropped the general tutorials and just started experimenting on my own style/anatomy and trying to improve my skills (im ignoring my sketchbooks bc from now on they just become- well, sketchbooks, instead of doing full drawings i just doodled in classes and leaved the detail for digital stuff)

i would love to include all my 2019 folder bc i consider it was a year full of love for my silly doodles but tumblr has a limit for images HAHA. Hopefully you can see how i go trying out stuff and pick little stuff from every stage with me lolol

2020 hits and you can *see* my hyperfixation with twisted wonderland here, at least my folder is 60% twst drawings i made for my fanfic at the time LOL. Not so many style jumps here tho so let's keep going

2021 and 2022 here! at the second half of 2022 i found my oh so beloved crunchy brush and i also fell hard for Arashi Narukami, so basically my tumblr became an arashi fanpage lol

stuff at 2023 keeps pretty the same until now tbh, the only highlight would be the re-inclusion of noses bc of spiderverse 2. My style also has been pretty well maintained since i started doing commissions so i don't really do so much experimentation anymore, at least not with proportions and such.

alr so that was my journey on artstyle! Of course it's not like you're gonna guess all my process just by looking at the images so i'll say what type of stuff i feel influenced my decisions.

i'm very lazy and for a log time i just abandoned my projects if it prolonged more than a day or two, that obviously made me lean into the cel/plain shading rather than spending hours and maybe days rendering (not that i don't try rendering every now and then but i don't enjoy spending so much time in a single piece)

everyone around me always has been extremely supportive so i had the privilege of dedicating all my soul to drawing silly characters haha, i feel like since i never felt the need of comparing myself to others i could actually experiment so unapologetically with my style until i was satisfied

finding an actual brush that i like is always crucial to me tbh, even in traditional i'm pretty picky with how the ink and type of pen i'm using. Of course, i also tried multiple traditional art techniques (watercolor, acrylics, crayons, pencils, pastels, my favorite are pen+markers)

i dont like feets. that shows until today.

in general i think an artstyle is something extremely personal that every person has to shape themselves and that it can't really be a permanent thing, it's gonna fluctuate with the artist whenever they like it or not.

[knightzp]

omg can I hear about your ocs im curious

!!!!! yes of course!!

(im warning you this is gonna be Long bc i cant summarize things aldksk)

okay so first theres zayu. shes actually my dnd character and basically her whole story can be summarized in: shes a demon too good and pure for this world. she is such a lovely person an absolute sweetheart who is always very kind and whose mission in life is just having a humble life trying to help others in need as much as she can. but yeah you read it right. she Is a demon so the people from her homeplace didnt like her personality at all and they ended up kicking her out from hell. however some people thought that was a weak punishment and are now after her to make her pay for her "crimes" (the crime in question being a too good person yeah) so zayu is now travelling around around the world enjoying her life as she had never been able to do before and always moving from place to place to avoid the other demons that are chasing her. also this isnt really relevant to her story but i have to say she is very ourple (light purple skin and dark purple hair 💜)

the other characters i mentioned on that post are from an original story i began writing quite a few years ago and that i never finished..... i havent touched it in soooo long but its the only one og story ive started that i really want to finish some day. it takes place in a medieval royalty fantasy setting where theres a continent with many kingdoms. the main characters are from two of these kingdoms which have quite a close relationship

one of the kingdoms has 3 princes: auron (oldest), crysta (middle) and davel (youngest). given their birth order, auron is the heir of the kingdom so was taught mainly politics and necessary knowledge to rule the kingdom as the next king. crysta was raised to be a leader in the army forces so she is now the captain of the royal knights. and davel being the third child and since his siblings already learnt the main disciplines he was taught how to use magic, which is an ancient power that is quickly disappearing nowadays so there arent many people who can cast magic in this universe

on the other kingdom we have a pair of twins: alrick and lavianna (also shortened as lav or lavi) as the prince and princess. alrick was born first so he has always spent most of his time studying and preparing to be the next king while lavianna has had an easier and less busy life in this aspect

as i said both kingdoms have a very close relationship so both families meet up a lot. davel and lav have been best friends since their early childhood and being both the youngest from their families they had a lot of time to play and spend together. both are easygoing and they have the same age and kinda similar personalities (davel is charismatic and adventurous but also lazy when it comes to his studies and lavi is cheerful active and innovative) so they get along very very well. so well that their parents got the wrong idea and used their good relationship to engage them together in an arranged marriage against their will wanting to strengthen even more the alliance between their kingdoms. none of them like each other romantically but even if theyre shocked at first they let things be bc they arrive to the conclusion they prefer to be married to their best friend than have their parents arrange another marriage with an stranger instead

however! there is someone who isnt quite happy with this announcement and thats alrick. he hasnt had as much time to spend with davel in his life as his sister and he is also much more reserved as a person than her but truth is he is jealous. jealous of davel for all the freedom he has (contrary to him who has many responsibilities) and jealous of lavi for being able to spend so much time with davel and for being now engaged with him. bc alrick has a huge crush in davel but no one knows, not davel (who is very dense to these things (actually arospec coded)) nor lavianna (she is a bit suspicious but doesnt know anything for sure)

as for crysta she has a really close relationship with her brother davel and loves to tease him a lot but she isnt that much close with the others. she is a really cool butch lesbian knight who really worries a lot abt her people and has a soft spot for davel and will do anything to help him in any situation

auron isnt very relevant to the story but well. he is already married and just had a child too and is like the perfect prince son soon to be king

and now to end im gonna just to tell you a bit abt the plot. the thing is that one night alrick wakes up and discovers that everyone in his castle has been petrified. the castle workers his parents even lavianna. all of them except for him. so he does the only thing he can think of and rushes to the neightbour kingdom to ask for help. there, davel crysta and their family talk abt what happened and thought abt a way to reverse what seems to be a magical spell that has petrified the people in the castle and the three of them part on a journey to find more answers and a way to reverse the spell

and well thats more or less it!!!

[chronicowboy]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by my love @shitouttabuck thank you soooo much i'm so bored catching up on lectures

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

66 for buddie but 79 overall

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

609,231 HA WHAT

3. what fandoms do you write for?

used to write for tfatws and aos but now it's 911 or nothin

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

let's build this house (into a home, baby) did not know this was my top so glad it is tho my absolute baby beloved

please? (can't say no) okay fair i do love this one surprised it's number 2 tho

memory (all alone in the moonlight) okayyyyy

not all of us are heroes (not all of us are brave) my titles are so shit i had to check to remember which one this was but yeah kinda slay

accidents happen (but i will love you on purpose) so glad this stupid silly turned heavy romantic little fic made it into top 5

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

on my bigger fics i always always do my best to reply to every comment just because of how much effort i poured into it and i want my wonderful beautiful commenters to know how grateful i am for the comments, i try to on my smaller fics but the reality of the matter is my brain is unimaginative when it comes to thank yous and i'm terrible at keeping up with shit like that but just know i read all of them and appreciate them sooooo goddamn much !!!!!!!!!!

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

i am probably incapable of angsty endings even when i write incredibly angsty fics so uh it'd probably some of my cross-posted little lightning era ficlets like i couldn't say no which is very chris-centred

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

literally like 99% of them are sappily happy because i'm disgusting and fragile when it comes to these men but it'd probably be the gross, gooey ending of the safe haven baby fic

8. do you get hate on fics?

no?????? idk if i'm just very lucky or have blocked it out but i don't think so

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

i do but like. in the loosest possible sense. i try to keep it as vague and non-explicit as possible unless it's crucial to the story bc i am pretty sure i'm a little lesbian and dicks freak me out!!!

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i mean. i guess technically the parks and rec au could be considered a crossover of some sorts what with lil sebastian but apart from that.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

don't think so?

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

not that i know of but i have had a podfic made which is awesome!!!

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

no god i feel like that would stress me out way too much. like i'd love to write with some of you beautiful minds on here but i am very poor at deadlines and group projects either make me incredibly stressy and lazy or control freaky and i wouldn't want to inflict that upon anyone

14. what’s your all time favorite ship?

fuck. i mean. that's just. i feel like with 66 works and like 300k words you'd expect it to be buddie and i love them deeply but at the heart of me i am a merthur girlie through and through. they were the og. they were my whole world. they still are. nothing like two tragic little gay men so devoted to each other that it makes them severely fucked up!!!!!

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oh my god. fuck. huh. there are like five aus that i am so desperate to write and have kinda-sorta planned but to call them wips would be very generous. there's the queer bar au which i WILL write one day, then the game night au, the nice guys au oh my god i love her deeply, the new girl au of course bc nickeddie has me in a chokehold despite not writing a word of him and then the merthurbuddie au i actually will never write bc i know it'd be 300k words long and take up the entirety of my life for like a solid year.

16. what are your writing strengths?

uh dialogue? i've always been told my writing's very cinematic and i'm experimenting more with scripts (play mostly but a little bit of tv and film) in my creative writing course.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

oh god. description. i feel like there's never enough between my dialogue idk. and my description is always so like. functional. i got scared of purple prose in high school and overcorrected somewhere along the way lollllll

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i love it, i try to avoid it because i always overestimate what i'll be able to remember from 5 years of spanish courses and then end up thoroughly humbling myself, would love to do it more but yeah apparently my brain just doesn't cooperate with other languages which suckssss

19. first fandom you wrote for?

okay well. it was marvel. and it was sambucky i think. either that or some irondad on this blog. but we're going to ignore that!!!!!! it was a dark time!

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

oooh boy oh man. um. want to say no rizz kink fic bc i had so much fun writing it but i know it's one of my aus. i just can't decide between neighbours, parks and rec, national treasure or gilmore girls. whoops

tagging: uh feel like i'm very late to the party so ignore if you've already been tagged lol @butchdiaz @eddiebabygirldiaz @folk-fae @piningeddiediaz if u guys want <3

[twinklepuzzle]

Dashcon diaries day 3: July 6

Goddamn, my legs sure do hurt!!!

I told myself (and my friends in the D2oB server) that I was going to let myself sleep in today to rest and recover from all the excitement of yesterday, but I woke up at 8-ish completely alert and not in a state to go back to sleep. And I needed to take my meds anyway lol. I stayed in bed for another hour and a half or so, tho, bc I was still gonna let myself be lazy

But my God. When I finally did get out of bed. Walking was the weirdest experience ever bc my usually-hypermobile joints could barely move lmao I was penguin waddling to the hotel mini fridge to grab smth to drink, and it hurt soooooo bad. Not as bad as a sprain or anything, but still very unpleasant. So I determined that I wasn't going to do much of anything today.

But then I was like "but. I'm going to get bored. I didn't bring any sitting-around activities to do bc I didn't think I'd have time or energy for it." And ppl in the server were setting up museum visits (too early in the morning for my achy legs) and stuff, which made me feel like I should at least try to do *something*.

I went across the street and a couple streets over to a Tim Horton's for breakfast (plain bagel toasted with plain cream cheese. Wasn't terrible but wasn't great. The cream cheese was a little gritty? Not as smooth and creamy as I'm used to but beggars can't be choosers). The joys of a city; you can just walk to places and it doesn't even take that long, or that much effort!

Ppl in the server were talking about an aquarium visit today as well, which I was considering, but by then I had eaten breakfast and laid back down again and was far too lazy to get up and get to the aquarium in time. I was also mentally like "that's kind of a lot of money, esp since I don't really know what I'd want to see in an aquarium? I don't think I'm an aquarium girlie, at least not for that much money".

So I started looking at other places I could go to, and some were kind of interesting but ultimately I wasn't really feeling any of them? Esp still being tired. But I still wanted to do *something*, so I decided to make my way to the CF Eaton Center, aka the huge ass mall a 10 minute walk from my hotel.

It was pretty cool! Reminded me of the malls when I was a kid, except even bigger. There were soooo many food places, and a lot of familiar stores but quite a few unfamiliar ones! I was quite a bit overwhelmed, and the fact that it was the busiest mall I think I've ever been to didn't help. I ended up popping into a couple of stores without buying anything, then went to the indigo bookstore and bought 3 books bc I have no self control (almost bought 3 more), and made a final stop at the shoppers drug mart (inside the mall??? Very strange to me) to grab a pop and some water bc as far as I could see there were like no vending machines (but I also speedwalk and was very overwhelmed and being bombarded with stimuli so there probably were some and I just didn't notice).

Anyway I find it hilarious that I was like "I can't do these other things with other ppl bc they're too expensive and/or require too much walking" and then I went and speedwalked thru a mall and bought like $35 USD of books. I am a fool.

But also I was pretty exhausted and overstimulated by the time I made it back to my hotel room, I was drenched in sweat, and my legs were starting to hurt a lot more again. So maybe I made an almost-right choice, bc if I was with other ppl I would have felt like I needed to push myself too hard instead of just leaving when I got tired.

The day still isn't over, but I don't think I'll be doing any more activities today. I'll have to figure out what to do about dinner, and I'll need to stop by at the shoppers drug mart again to get some milk bc I ran out, but that's all. and I can do all of that from very nearby.

I'm finishing writing this the next day bc the rest of the day was. Certainly a day.

My sibling found out I went to dashcon (I don't talk to ppl so I hadn't told them. Only told my parents bc I live w them) and messaged me about it so I ended up talking w them for a while instead of reading my books.

That lasted until around 7, and I don't really remember what I did for the next hour and a half-ish but it was mostly just using my phone I think. My brain might have been half asleep tbh.

But at around 8:30 I was like "hm. I'm kind of hungry. I've been craving pizza, I should have some for dinner" so I went and walked to a place that was 15 minutes away. I intended to eat there and then come back to my hotel, but the person asked "for here or to go?" which was not part of the scenario that I had mentally rehearsed, so I panicked and said "to go" (which is how I usually answer that question) and I didn't want to say that and then eat in the store?

So I was like "guess I'll just take it back to the hotel and eat it there, or maybe I'll go down into the PATH and eat at one of the many tables I've seen down there". So I went into a place that had signs indicating it was connected to the PATH, but I couldn't find the PATH, just a subway station.

So I resurfaced (at a different spot from where I had gone in) and was like "well, the hotel's a straight shot anyway, I'll just walk on surface streets". And I started walking down the street I *thought* I had taken to get to the pizza place. I was wrong. I had chosen a perpendicular street. I fell victim to hubris and didn't look at a map first, and didn't realize I had gone the wrong way until I had been walked long enough that it felt like I should be close to my hotel, and things weren't getting any more familiar.

And I was like "this is strange. Certainly I should be able to see my hotel or the nearby landmarks by now? Wtf?" Like I know routes can look different when you're going thru them in reverse but it shouldn't look *that* different. So I finally looked at the map and was like "oh, yeah, I am definitely not anywhere close to where I should be".

So I did the thing I should have done in the first place and used the app to get directions, and google maps was fucking struggling bc it could not tell what streets I was on or if I was in the PATH or not (kept switching back and forth even tho I stayed on the street for the most part).

Made it to the Eaton center again and was like "cool, I know how to get to my hotel from here!" And I tried to use the PATH again bc that's how I got to and from the place earlier in the day and I was confident I'd be able to find my way (and have a better time of it) w that. But the doors were locked so I had to go back up to the street. But I was more familiar with the area I surfaced in, so I was able to find my way back from there with little/no incident.

But. I was drenched in sweat, my food was cold, my drink was melted, and my appetite was pretty much entirely gone bc my appetite cannot survive heat or exercise. Of which I had had far too much. So I struggled thru eating half of my pizza and gave up.

Dad texted to check up on me bc I hadn't said anything to my parents since I arrived in Toronto, had a short little chat w him about everything.

And then I took a shower bc I was absolutely gross, and I was going to go to bed bc by that point it was well past 10, but instead I picked up one of the books I had bought ("is love the answer?" By Uta Isaki) and meant to only read a little bit but I read the whole thing (it's manga so it didn't take that long) and finally went to bed at around midnight.

So much for a relaxing day lmao

[taeteringontheedge]

hey i saw your last reblog, how do you know if something is AI written? i have suspicious sometimes but i never know for sure

okay first of all i want to say i have extensive knowledge on this because i work with Al. it's my job. capitalism sucks and all that, but i have to eat.

that being said, i want to a make it very clear there is not an infalible method to claim something is Al or anything okay. you can have high suspicions and all that but at the end of the day it's literally impossible to state something is 100% Al. so stop pulling the 'this is Al' shit out or your ass bc 60% of the time y'all are wrong and i've seen human authors from pre Al times suffer the consequences.

1. DO NOT TRUST AI DETECTOR SITES

they are LYING. putting something on gpt detectors or whatever does NOT work bc you can literally run shakespeare through it and it will tell you it's 70% A generated or whatever, so.

2. WORDING

this is where it all comes down to: if you read enough Al shit you'll start noticing key phrases. Al says a lot without saying anything. it repeats itself vastly. if you read 4/5 paragraphs in a row with no advancement and it's all the sounds and air and whatever? weird.

3. GRAMMAR.

Al is; after all; an algorithm. it follows certain patterns. focus on paragraphs. if they are very similarly written, not the content, THE STRUCTURE. like in pub scenes ‘the world is + description of lights + description of music’.

also, paragraph breaks. AI is very neat with formatting, if a story has consistently 5-6 line paragraphs without single lines or shorter paragraphs in between, that’s a big tell of AI. AI likes patterns, remember that. also a lot of people are amazing at grammar and all, but if it sounds too polished? alarm bells. human authors usually introduce grammar in weird ways that AI is not creative enough at replicating.

4. CERTAIN QUIRKS

if you want me to pull out the big guns, i'll say it: there's certain phrases that just scream Al. ofc you may read this in a book or fic and it's still completely human written, because let's be real, Al mimics human behavior. Al has literally been trained on AO3 and fanfiction and i can pull out articles and research if y'all really want me to make a point. but the thing is, i can tell you here what phrases scream Al, and still could perfectly be overall written by a human being. it's the combination of multiple or these things that should trigger your alarm, not just one of these at some points. as i said, it's almost impossible to discern whether something is fully Al generated or not. you could read any of these sentences in a couple chapters of an author and it was human written. so take this with a grain of salt. here's my phrases

the air is thick with anticipation / tension

silence stretches like a rubber band

starting paragraphs that are very descriptive of the scene like 

overuse of words like ‘cacophony’, ‘cocoon’, ‘kaleidoscope’, ‘racoon’, ‘deliberate’ ‘like a coiled spring’ every 10 paragraphs 

a predator circling / seizing prey (this is soooo overused)

tension crackling in the air between / the air crackles with electricity  

words hang in the air, heavy with unspoken meaning

‘you’re playing with fire’ - ‘maybe i want to get burned’ 

‘careful now, that almost sounded like a compliment’

i’ll add more when my brain catches them, i just woke up and i’m half sleep so i’m just saying what comes up  

5. FORMATTING 

if there’s two line breaks between paragraphs, weird spacing between paragraphs, or dialogues are all in bold, or all in cursive, if scenes are separated by ——, yeah you know it. screams AI. copy pasted from GPT in fact. 

plus people who use AI are lazy ass people that don’t want to write shit that’s why they use AI. if they’re pulling out a whole ass aesthetic post and making it pretty, creating a banner, long ass author notes about the writing process and all… chill. use your brain, nobody would go to such extents and not write their shit themselves. not that it CANT / DOESNT happen, but like, be intelligent. 

6. COHERENCE

AI today can’t really handle big context sizes. what does this mean? context size is how much an AI can process—can remember. let’s say GPT has a context size of 8k tokens. 1 word = 1.5 tokens approx by the way. that means that after around 6k words; the ai doesn’t remember shit of what’s previously been said. if a fic goes for longer than, let’s say, 100k words, it is highly unlikely that it’s AI written, bc AI simply can’t handle that much input. and if it tries, it will be incoherent, you’ll see inconsistencies.

7. HUMANISM 

this might sound like the most obvious stupidest shit ever, but human writers add cultural, social, pop references and personal experiences to their writing. if they’re talking about stuff that sounds personal, very deep, very niche and whatever, it’s impossible for it to be AI. you can tell  AI to narrate a kiss scene but it won’t tell you the tongue curves to the right or the gap between the front teeth almost catches on the skin of the other characters lower lip. stupid goofy examples but you get what i mean. that’s human experience. 

8. GUT 

now honestly i can give you all of this, you can see many of these signs and STILL the person could have written it entirely with their own hands. these are not 100% AI signs. but if these things are very frequent and appear repetitively in someone’s writing, then you might have a case. i am very familiarized with AI in writing due to my job, so i just can immediately tell almost with a 80% certainty. but it’s not like i can 100% know, so honestly there’s no point in trying to go out ‘calling people out’ bc you might be totally off and honestly that’s embarrassing. 

my advice is just to block or stay away from those writers you feel use AI and let them rot. hype up those who don’t ring any alarms in your brain and that’s it. 

it’s sad bc it’s the AI apocalypse istg. and it’s getting better and better so sometimes you read shit and you’re torn bc you can’t fully tell if you’re reading AI or not, and sometimes i just go for my gut feeling bc as i said nothing can 100% guarantee it’s AI. but there’s so many AI generated works out there nowadays that it’s hard for me to enjoy anything at all. the moment alarm bells ring in my head i stop reading. and it might be 100% human, but still. i get an immense ick and i can’t keep reading. ai in creative spaces SUCKS and should be removed.

btw i’m turning off anon lol if you want to say something say it with your whole chest not behind a mask

[leejenowrld]

ENEMIES TO LOVERS MY FAVORITE 🤩🤩🤩 anyways im excited to see how he sees things — esp bc taeyong hasn’t been super elaborated on yet? so im really interested in seeing the direction you take w jeno because the issue of him and mark is one i also really have enjoyed reading… like so far, it kinda seems to me that on one hand, you have a child that was neglected/ignored, but then on the other, you might have one that was smothered with expectations or smth like that… taeyong clearly fucked his sons up 💀💀

like jeno is obviously so kind and caring here (like when he and mc broke up), but he’s also capable of being incredibly cruel (and this also makes me wonder about what mark has got going on, because so far, he’s responded to like EVERY conflict in an extremely mature way, so is that just how he is or is he hiding something else?) — tbh he and mc made quite the pair, because jeno also is suffering from a huge amount of insecurity

also i just read the thing you said abt mc ghosting mark and him slowly giving up…? 😭😭 ill cry i need a happy ending for my poor fragile heart

also operation: true love is only really similar in a very general sense..? the main character is dating someone and he’s cheating w what’s basically her surrogate sister, she ends up kinda getting back at him by hanging around this guy who her surrogate sister wanted, but she’s also friends w this other guy who is also into her… and there’s this whole odd system about how many people like you (how many hearts you have..?), and the main character has 0/0 which can’t possibly be right, but that thing appears to have basically been lost as a plot device..? idrk i haven’t caught myself up on it in a while but the art is really cute!!

anyways i’m kind of behind in one of my courses and my professor was shockingly understanding about it 😭😭 i was so scared she was going to think i was lazy and stupid because she’s soooo smart and kind of intense, but she was so so so nice to me 🥲🥲🥲 gave me advice and everything

i’m so happy you’re excited about jeno’s series!! it’s not even one that i’ve thought about massively but i can’t wait to get fully into it. i have rough ideas here and there. but you’re right, you will be seeing a lot more of taeyong in his (hopefully) as he’s the son he supposedly has a “good” relationship with. you will also be seeing more of mark and jeno, their journey, struggles and challenges they will face as brothers. i also love their dynamic, it’s so layered and so complex !! <3

and i’m glad you picked up on jeno’s dual sides!! it’s line he switches meticulously. he does have a kind heart but he can be so rude and cutthroat, he’s not good at controlling his anger or biting his tongue. he’s the type of guy who doesn’t think before he speaks and it gets him in a lot of trouble or just awkward situations.

and :(((( is all i can say

also thank you for telling me that!!! it sounds super interesting. i fucking love the ost so i might have to give that a go. thank you so much for explaining it to me, it sounds super interesting and unique.

oh :((( your teacher being understanding though is everything. honestly everything will be fine, just put extra work in and try to organise study groups and ask for clarification and help from your teacher and you will get there!! put a lot of effort in now (if you’re already putting in loads then put in even more) and you will thank yourself for it<33 all that you need is a light bulb moment.

also loving loving loving these long and lengthy asks. please make sure you send me more and join my discord please 🥺🫶

[commiekinkshamer]

I’m craving a hamburger soooo bad with an actual bun. But I don’t want to pay $40 from the only gluten free restaurant in town. So I went to the grocery store to buy gluten free buns and then went to Wendy’s to get a burger (ordered without bun). Done this many times; never had an issue. I then see the employees are not changing gloves between reaching into the bags of buns and then putting toppings on stuff (not their fault, normal procedure). I also didn’t disclose an allergy upon ordering or ask them to change gloves, so they weren’t being negligent here.

Then as the guys handing me the order he looks at it for a sec and is like, “do you have an allergy?” And I panic and say “oh it’s ok, I just can’t eat gluten.” (Context: am negative for celiac but seemingly intolerant). He asks if I want him to clean the grill and remake it. I say no, it’s fine, as long as the burger didn’t actually touch the buns it’s fine. My response to anything is always fawn response - it’s automatic. I say “no it’s ok!” to everything.

I didn’t even consider the toppings (pickles, onions) are placed directly on it with the same gloved hands that touch the bun.

I’m also scared, due to his hesitation, they assembled the burger with the bun, realized after the fact and then took it out of the bun and that’s why he asked me…

It doesn’t appear to have crumbs on it.

I’ve just ordered it this way many times and never had an employee question it. I hope he was just being considerate and that’s all.

If I never got sick before, it’s probably fine right?

I know I should throw it out and not eat it, but it’s the only way to have a burger now - nowhere else around me has it and the only way to get a “safe” burger even if it’s just a patty, is delivery that’s really expensive. and I really want it.

I had an autistic meltdown (silently) on the way home bc it’s been an exhausting week and i really hope I can’t relax and not let my anxiety ruin the burger.

My blood tests were negative for celiac, so medically speaking it won’t *harm* me to eat it, and theoretically I should be able to tolerate small amounts of cross contamination.

I’ve eaten fries and stuff fried in the same fryer as breaded food and been fine, so it should be fine.

I just want to cry this added layer of stress on top of everything is a lot.

I wish I wasn’t so lazy and exhausted and could have the energy to cook things I want from scratch. I should have just bought ground beef and made hamburgers.