#basementstalker asks

[basementstalker]

"seeing the same anon jump around from blog to blog desperate for attention. it's disgusting."

TEA? i have yet to hear of this. is it possible to speak about it more or call it out on?

Hm. I'm not sure. I have no desire to rile people up.

This sort of thing, it's common. Not everyone for sure, but a lot of people are just here to get some quick attention or a fast relationship. Needing attention isn't a bad thing,vwe all need it in various amounts, just, the dishonest way it's gone about is annoying.

I'm sure this person will get bored and leave soon, people like this tend to have no patience. I would just keep in mind that people can be like this and move on with life.

[lovernarcissus]

❣️💓💞?

Hi, thanks for the ask ~

❣️ Do you currently have a beloved?

Ah... Well, not really, no. In recent past, I had a beloved that was quite dear to me, though. There's a line between what I can work with and what breaks the camel's back, and unfortunately they crossed it.

It's a bit of a process to let go of all the love I held for them, heh! Still, the position of my beloved is now entirely unoccupied.

💓 What type of yandere would you consider yourself?

Ooh, that's an interesting one. I suppose it depends on the classification that we're going with, hmm. I've used the ones you have posted about here, here, and here to answer.

When it comes to types: I find there's quite a number of them I relate to, but if I had to choose the top five that describe me, I'd pick dependent, obsessive, protective, worshipping, and stalker.

When it comes to the town list:

- Possessive type: enclosed world, clingy, sampling type, collector, observing.

- Shackling type: dependency.

- Intoxicated type: forthright (somewhat)

- Denpa Delusional type: self contained (somewhat), sociopath (somewhat).

- Love-Hate type: I love how pitiful you are.

For this section, I would have to admit that other variants could apply, depending on the darling (which is also the case for the ones I said somewhat for, though those were a tiny bit more applicable). Other than that, I picked the ones that have been more... Constant.

When it comes to the mbti: XAXL, though I'd say I'm leaning towards XAML (cruel/reverent, aware, manipulative, mostly lenient)

💞 What's your ideal future with your beloved?

Oh, well. There's always a lot of details best left open so as not to spoil the surprise, right?

Even so, it boils down to what you might observe from the previous answer. No matter what I must do, how much I have to dirty my hands, I'll get that perfect life with my beloved, where we can be together as long as I say, and there's no sort of nuisances or distractions in my darling's mind.

I'll keep them safe and loved, so why would they need anything else? Even if they may still lead a life (though not exactly unrestricted), at the end of the day it'll always come back to us.

I'll make them happy, and there's nothing in this world that could stop me.

[basementstalker]

3. what is your favorite way to self care?

4. tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad. (Or your favorite memory, if you'd prefer honestly)

17. what was your favorite color as a child and what is your favorite color now?

18. what is something you can’t bring yourself to get rid of?

~angel-on-parole

3. Hot foot soak and sweet treat. I'd say hot bath or even hot shower, but drying off is tiring.

4. I wonder if I have one. Every time I look back to childhood, it feels like opening up a book about someone else. My most vivid feeling though, is of realizing that because of what I've said or done, the future has irrevocably changed.

Oh, a nice memory (not vivid though) is of swimming in a pool at night. It was at my technically stepmom's house, she had an outdoor pool dug in the ground. Everyone was away on a trip so my twin and I had the place to ourselves. It was cold and the water was cold and I felt like I could breathe underwater. Bats swooped down, catching insects. The stars shone bright. I wanted to stay at the bottom of that pool forever.

17. I don't have a favorite color- or really, it varies based on what part is around, so it's easier to say I don't have one. I've always said purple and brown though, which isn't really a lie.

18. I guess certain memories. Though it's impossible to really get rid of them - the body always remembers even if you don't. Physically, nothing. There's a teddy bear I'd had since I was 7, Hugo was his name. I ripped an arm of his out and cut out and eye. Sewed him back up and gave him a green dream catcher bracelet as an eye patch. I would have held on to him forever but he was taken from me around 19 years old. Not exactly taken, but I was leaving a bad spot and didn't have time to safely grab him. Ah well.

I carried him everywhere with me. This could probably be used to identify me actually, if you were around me those years or asked people who were. I don't think the chance of that is very high though.

[basementstalker]

how would you feel about your owner/god using subtle forms of control over you? stuff like hypnosis or playing "relaxing" music with subliminals? how much control over you would you want to give your owner through such means?

assuming you trust them and everything, and they're capable of being trusted with that kind of power, obviously :)

Trust is paramount, isn't it? Assuming trust has been built, that sort of thing sounds amazing. Gives me butterflies honestly. I really like the idea of being controlled whilst not knowing just how deeply I am being controlled.

As for how much control? Everything, all of it. It's not something to be given right away of course, but for me the end goal is to be controlled as much as my partner desires. It's something that would make me feel very satisfied.

Are you good at hypnotizing people?

[basementstalker]

Do you like flowers and if so whats your favorite kind of flower?

I adore flowers. I've been attempting to grow mums and impatiens.

I don't know that I have a favorite. A certain part loves red clover. I remember having a wisteria bush in an old place and when it bloomed it smelled so sweet I thought I'd throw up. I loved to lay in the grass by it on hot days.

[basementstalker]

do you know if your guess is based your own personal timing + confirmation bias? ♡

but I think you'd look adorable in a space-themed collars ♡ I've seen a lot of adorable collars on etsy ♡ they look like nonhuman pet collars, there's a few that have tie-dye galaxy patterns ♡ and a leash that goes with it, I'm sure ♡ 😁

Space themed huh? I do like the idea of emphasizing the nonhuman aspect. Especially if it makes me seem monstrous.

Here are some collars I've been eyeing, personally. I already have a few (two lacey ones, a spikey one, a leather rope day collar, and a more traditional black leather collar) but why not build a collection to suit the mood.

[basementstalker]

I once again come bearing The Many (lowkey sad my personal fave heart emoji wasn't there 😔)

💓 - What type of yandere would you consider yourself? (ie. protective, obsessive, ect!)

✨ - What are some of your personal methods of coping with how you feel?

💜 - What songs make you think of your beloved?

💛 - Do you own any weapons? Maybe for self-defense, or even a collection?

💝 - How do you show affection? Do you prefer giving gifts or showing physical affection?

~angel-on-parole

What's your favorite heart emoji? I like the all the differently colored hearts (great for different parts to show love) and these: ❤️‍🩹💞

💓- Hmmm. I'm a pathetic clingy yandere, along with some other things. There are benefits to being seen as nonthreatening. Though apparently I've intimidated people here before?

✨- journaling and other forms of writing mainly. Then probably pain and expending energy. If everything feels too much I try to sleep usually.

💜- A few songs, but I shan't share for fear of projecting.

💛- Yes. I want more. A nail studded bat would be nice and fits my vibe, but poisons are more discreet.

💝- I like to show my affection in as many ways possible. Making gifts (though I can get in over my head and end up never getting around to it...), performing tasks, physical affection, and words. I don't know that it's a way to show affection, but I'd love to hone in and let my world become just them: their breathing, the thumping of the heart, body temperature, how they look. Just letting all my senses focus on them.

[basementstalker]

I should really go out to get my daily walk in. But consider this: I don't wanna.

[basementstalker]

ooooh I'm late but I'd also like a trick or treat!! :D

~ obsessed-loverboy ♡

Meet autism bunny. They have given you autism. Good luck.

[basementstalker]

u got a nice aura

the bounce from pitiful to intemperate is very refreshing

Hahaha, thank you very much Anon. Never had anyone put it that way. I think you've hit the nail on the head.

[basementstalker]

To the anon guessing my age, you're correct! I only have that in one place I think.

[basementstalker]

as always, stay safe, s. take care of yourself as best you can. ♡

I'm not sure that I can be safe right now. I will do the best I can though, thank you Mochi.

[basementstalker]

Confession!

1. I love finding info I shouldn’t know, things like addresses and the name of their school. I like knowing things but I’m also a bad stalker so I only get this joy occasionally.

2. I will use their corpse as taxidermy and keep it with me if they die. If they leave I’ll kill myself and find a way to mail the corpse.

It is thrilling, isn't it? To learn things secretly and watch from the shadows.

I'm not sure there's any feasible way to mail a corpse. Taxidermy though, that sounds doable.

[basementstalker]

hi, s ♡♡

hibiscus: would you ever seriously hurt your darling, causing permanent marks and damage to their psyche?

iris: do you try to isolate your partner from others, or do you allow them to talk to other people? do you feel jealous if their attention is on their friends/family and not you?

jasmine: if your darling asked, would you block someone for them? would you block everyone?

Hibiscus hath been answered~.

Iris:

Ideally my partner would not spend a lot of time with people to begin with. I do like imagining scenarios where I make people hate my darling, ostracizing them so I'm all they have. But realistically I don't think I would. I would feel jealous, I get jealous very easily.

Jasmine:

If they had proven they're going to be a permanent part of my life, love me and want to stay together, then yes, I'd block people they'd want me to. I'm not gonna do that for someone that's just gonna drop me though.

[basementstalker]

I come bearing a whole bouquet 💐

azalea: what are some traits you look for in a darling? what makes you drawn to someone

edelweiss: would you want your darling to be dependent on you, or would you rather be dependent on them? would you rather control, be controlled, or a mix of both?

hibiscus: would you ever seriously hurt your darling, causing permanent marks and damage to their psyche?

camellia: when your darling doesn't give in to your requests, how do you react? do you lash out or do you stay calm?

Lavender: what's an ideal date for you and your darling?

rose: how do you show your darling you love them? do you simply tell them?

wisteria: how do you cope with negative feelings such as jealousy or anger when it comes to your darling?

Since you have brought me a bouquet, I shall respond by sharing my thoughts around each flower.

Azalea: My grandfather grew this. Grew lots of plants.

Someone that knows what they want, confident, well spoken, perhaps a bit cruel.

Edelweiss: haven't heard of this one before.

I would rather be the dependent one, the one being controlled. I do want to be essential to them. To worm my way inside and become someone they can't live without.

Hibiscus: Hibiscus tea is very yummy and makes me think fairies would drink it.

Physical permanent damage, sure, why not. But not damage to the mind, necessarily. Becoming essential, consuming them maybe, but I think that's a lovely thing, not damaging. I do like to push and prod to make sure they can actually control me though.

Camellia: A part/alter of ours is named Camellia. Camellia Evergreen.

Depends. Most of the time I would back off and try to approach from a difficult angle. Otherwise, pout probably. Complain. That is, if I think I can change their mind. I'd probably still pout to show I'm unhappy with the situation.

Lavender: paired with chamomile makes a tea that helps get me sleepy, sometimes.

I don't really know. Spending time together. Things that increase heart rate, like a spooky house tour or rollercoasters are good, you come to associate the excitement with your partner.

Rose: the thorns on roses are technically not thorns. Thorns are on hawthorns. On roses they're technically prickles.

Telling them, making things, hugs, doing things to make their life easier. I think I'm full of trying to show my love, I am always trying to convey it.

Wisteria: Feels nostalgic, because I had it growing in a childhood yard. It smelled so sweet in the summer heat.

If able, it's good to talk about it. Doing it where I reassure them they're not at fault, it's just something I struggle with, and asking for reassurance and support. That way it doesn't come off as an attack. And often that is what I need, reassurance that I matter and won't be left behind.

Otherwise, doing things that probably aren't good for me, creating pain, self punishment, etc.

[basementstalker]

Confession:

I've been very involved in the communities of some smaller Twitch streamers, where I found being active, friendly, *and* financially generous easily gets everyone to love you.

There's one streamer I became especially close with this way, who's also very much my type. We started calling all the time, and I even visited him more than once. Eventually, life caught up with him, and he had to stop being active online to work instead. I didn't like that.

When he lost his job, I started sending enough to cover all his expenses. It was better that way for both of us: we had time to spend together, he wasn't suffering in a job he hated, and he could work on his passion for music instead. After months of not being able to find a new job, he asked me if I even wanted him to work again. I said no.

Without a job to tie him down, he started visiting me for months at a time as well. Now he spends half of each year at my house (VISA laws don't allow more than that) and spends holidays with me and my family.

He doesn't go anywhere without me when he's at my place, and I love coming home to him waiting for me. Regardless of if he's at my house or his, I know everything he has is because of me, including his life. I mean that both in the indirect sense of providing his food and shelter, but also in the direct sense of intervening when he was about to do something stupid.

He spends virtually all of his time talking to me or making music, which then only I get to hear. This has been going on for years.

Sounds like you've created your own paradise. It seems quite cozy. I hope things continue to go smoothly for you in the future.