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pepprs · 5 years ago

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Being vulnerable is rarely easy because it gives someone else more potential to hurt you. but it is a step towards closeness as it builds trust and openness. You must want to be closer to this person! There’s nothing wrong with that, in fact it is so brave and honorable! you are trying to be known. I hope it works out and you feel more inner peace about it💗

anon reading me for filth moodboard i literally was abt to make a second post abt this exact thing and Here U Are 😔😔😔 RHIS IS RLY SWEET THOUGH THANK U

#asks #purrs #reminder #also ok but jeres my question. is it Really brave and honorable to try to be known and make urself vulnerable? or is it just selfish?#im too much of a coward to actually. ask that question 2 Those Who Are Implicated In My Vulnerability but. god i feel like its selfish!!!!!!#and thats what i cant shake. like i kno vulnerability and authenticity builds trust and there is so much value to sharing stories and #yet i recognize i have this deep erratic dangerous unhinged impulse to like! oversharw abt my life to anyone who will listen. and Boy Do I #Have People Around Me Who Have Shown Me Time And Timr Again Thst They Will Listen exfept rheres always. something u know? theres always some #barrier or caveat or signal that there can only b so much. plus the constant incessant ‘what do you want tess?! what do u want?!’ in my #m*ms voice that is constantly playing on loop in my head evrry time i like do smth like this. idk im just making a big mess of it like it #doesnt even matter but i just worry like that im putting too much of myself in the wron places and burdening ppl who dont need to b burdened #w my bull’s shit! i rly just um 😔 worry everyone secretly yhings i need a therapist which is Right but i just. am so fuck’t up and DESPERATE #to be known as my full self and hungry! famished! for every opportunity i get to like. be a fucking freak and talk abt my traumas that arent #evem real traumas and all thst. idk. i am fucking crazy but i am free 😔 and i sjoildnt even b thinking abt all of this as much as i am cuz #im only a student and i cant like. god. idk. but i WANT and! god. im vague abt all of it on purpose cuz it would b so easy for. me to be um.#idk. but i really am going absolutely fucking bonkers like YES the mortifying ordeal of being known but! LOVE LOVE LOVE! AUGGGGGHHHHHHHH #sorry 4 the tag rant i am his tear rick’le 🤪#also KFHSHFKSHDJ hwres the second post i guess LOL

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